When Chatterton left his mother’s
house soon after Bryda and Jack Henderson had gone
away together he was in one of his most depressed
moods.
What did anyone care for him or his
disappointments and continually deferred hope that
Mr Walpole would at least return the manuscripts, at
first so graciously received, and now it would seem
thrown aside as worthless?
Everything seemed against him, and
the gay throng of pleasure seekers on the fair summer
evening was an offence to him.
As he passed over Bristol Bridge he
looked down into the river with a strange longing
that he could find rest there, and be free from the
torments of disappointed life and fruitless aims.
As he leaned over the parapet, gazing
down into the dun-coloured waters, a hand was laid on his shoulder, and a cheery
voice said,-
’Eh, Tom, my lad, what are you
dreaming about? Come with me to sup at Mr Barrett’s
and meet my brother Alexander, the parson. I’ll
warrant you have got some more bits of history for
him to put into his big book. Come, come, don’t
look so glum, and we’ll take a glass at the tavern
in Wine Street on the way.’
‘No,’ was the reply; ’you
are very good sir, but I am in no mood for taverns
to-night.’
’Well, a little bird whispered
in my ear that you were seen in Redcliffe Meadows
walking with a mighty pretty young lady, with a figure
like a sylph and a face like an angel. Now then,
Tom, don’t be shy, but out with it, and tell
the truth.’
’There’s nothing to tell,
sir. Miss Palmer is so unfortunate as to be under
the same roof with me in Dowry Square, and misfortunes
make us akin. She has great literary taste, and-
’Ah, can see the beauties of
Rowley’s poems! Well, I am glad to hear
it. They are wonders-wonders, and,
Tom, you are a wonder for bringing them to light.’
’Then you are a poet, you know, a real poet,
and Bristol will be proud of you some day. Why,
there is not a lad of your age who can boast of his
verses being taken by a London magazine and printed
and admired. Come, Tom, don’t be downcast;
you should hear what my brother the reverend Alexander
says of you, and he is a judge. A man who can
write a book about the Deluge must be a judge-eh?’
Mr Catcott was a pewterer by trade,
and a simple-hearted, kindly man, a staunch friend
of Chatterton from first to last, never wavering in
his allegiance nor in his faith in Rowley the priest;
no, not even when not long after the great Dr Johnson
asserted that the poems were a forgery, though at
the same time he acknowledged that it was wonderful
how the whelp had written such things.
The honest pewterer now put his arm through Chatterton’s,
and soon his sympathy and perfect faith dispelled
the cloud, and by the time they reached Mr Barrett’s
house Chatterton was his most winning self again.
Mr Barrett was a surgeon in good practice,
and a man of culture, who found time to pursue his
historical studies without neglecting his professional
duties. In this he was very different from the
ordinary general country practitioners of his times,
who were for the most part men of scant education.
Mr Barrett’s introduction to Thomas Chatterton
was brought about by the boy assuring Mr Burgum, Mr
Catcott’s partner in the pewtering business,
that he came of a noble race, and that he had discovered
a full account of the family of the De Bergheims, and
at once presented Mr Burgum with a manuscript copy
of the original document on parchment.
Mr Burgum had been so pleased that
he gave the boy, then scarcely fourteen years old,
in Colston’s School, five shillings.
This success was followed by further
particulars of the family, and a poet was found amongst
the pewterer’s ancestors, one John de Bergheim,
a Cistercian monk, and a poem called the Romaunt
of the Cnyghte was inserted in the second document
to give the good pewterer a specimen of his skill.
To make the poem more intelligible
to the puzzled pewterer a modern English version was
appended, and very soon the boy at Colston’s
School attracted attention and became celebrated amongst
a small circle of the more educated and literary Bristol
people.
Mr Barrett received Chatterton on
this particular Sunday evening with much cordiality,
and the conversation over the supper-table was easy
and pleasant.
‘Any news of the manuscripts?’ Mr Barrett
asked.
‘No, sir, nor ever will be. I fear now
they are lost beyond recall.’
’Nonsense; that cannot be allowed.
Mr Walpole shall be forced to return them-if
he is forced to do nothing else.’
‘Sir,’ Chatterton said,
’you know full well that Mr Walpole’s whole
manner changed when he discovered I was the son of
a poor widow, and was small, and of no repute.’
’The very information which
should have secured his heart and made your literary
zeal of more value in his eyes. But means shall
not be wanting to come to the bottom of this conduct
of Mr Walpole’s. Your friends will rally
round you,’ exclaimed Mr Catcott vehemently.
‘Gently, gently, George,’
exclaimed his more wary brother Alexander: ’We
must first know that Mr Walpole has any dishonest intentions,
which in a person of quality like him is scarce reasonable
to suppose,’ and then the author of The History
of the Deluge pulled from his capacious waistcoat
pocket a bit of fossil, which he handed round for inspection
in support of one of his theories.
When the clock chimed the quarter to ten oclock Chatterton
hastily rose, saying,-
‘I am late as it is, sir.
Permit me to bid you good evening.’
Mr Barrett followed Chatterton to
the door, and laying his hand kindly on his arm, he
slipped into his hand half-a-guinea.
’This is a small acknowledgment
for the last curious bit of information you handed
me on Bristol antiquities. Be of good courage,
my boy; your time will come, and your industry in
adding to the history of past ages will meet its reward.’
Chatterton pressed Mr Barrett’s hand fervently.
‘I thank you, sir,’ he
said; ’you are my good friend, and were there
others like you I might be delivered from the chains
which gall me.’ Then Chatterton took a
flying leap down the steps before Mr Barrett’s
house and sped on his way to Dowry Square.
‘Poor boy!’ the kindly
surgeon said, ’poor boy! he is not made to bear
the frowns of the rich and great, nor the buffets which
all must meet in life. Poor boy! I would
fain be of some use to him, but it is a hard matter
to help such as he.’
In his better moments Chatterton had
a longing to throw aside all shams, and be true.
As he stood at the door of the house
in Dowry Square, waiting the first stroke of ten before
he gave the single knock which should announce his
arrival, he, looking up at the starlit sky, felt there
was something greater and nobler to strive after than
mere fame and recognition of his powers by those around
him.
The silent majesty of the heavens
has often brought a message, as to the psalmist of
old, ’When I consider Thy heaven the work of
Thy fingers, the moon and the stars which Thou hast
created, what is man that Thou art mindful of Him,
or the son of man that Thou visitest him.’
That this poor boy had moments when he felt after
God as the supreme good is shown by his poem which
he calls ‘The Resignation.’
O God, whose thunder
shakes the sky,
Whose eye this atom
globe surveys,
To Thee, my only Rock,
I fly,
Thy mercy in Thy justice
praise.
The mystic mazes of
Thy will,
The shadows of celestial
light
Are past the power of
human skill,
But what the Eternal
does is right.
Then why, my soul, dost
thou complain,
Why drooping, seek the
dark recess?
Shake off the melancholy
chain,
For God created all
to bless.
We, who read these verses after the lapse of a hundred and
twenty years, may well feel as sorrowful as if it were but a story of yesterday,
that for Chatterton the last verse of this fine poem was, as far as our poor
human judgment can go, never fulfilled, when he says,-
The gloomy mantle of
the night
Which on my sinking
spirit steals,
Will vanish at the morning
light
Which God, my East,
my Sun, reveals.
The next day Mr Lambert, standing
at the door of his study with his hands full of papers,
called Bryda as she passed.
‘Step in a moment, Miss Palmer,’
the lawyer said, surveying her with his keen eyes,
which gleamed under bushy eyebrows.
As Bryda obeyed and followed Mr Lambert
into the room he shut the door.
‘Mr Bayfield was here yesterday, as you may
be aware.’
‘I knew he was in Bristol, sir,’ Bryda
said, her voice faltering.
’Well, he has consented to await
your decision before proceeding to recover the debt
which your grandfather is unable to pay.’
‘My decision, sir,’ Bryda
said, with some dignity, ’is made, and can never
be altered.’
’Well, well, Bayfield is not
the only man who has been taken at first sight with
a pretty face. He says, if you will marry him,
he will let your grandfather go scot-free. He
has told you as much, I believe.’
Brydas crimson cheeks was sufficient answer, but she said
firmly,-
‘I told the Squire my decision
was made. I will not marry him.’
’That is your own affair, but
it seems to me, you’ll excuse me for saying
so, you are throwing away a good chance. Young
Bayfield seems to have got a great deal of practical
knowledge in America, and I do not doubt will soon
retrieve his fortunes. But he wants ready money,
and this three hundred pounds is of importance to
him. Still, he will waive his claim, it seems,
if you consent to his proposal, and put in the scale
with the gold you appear to weigh a good deal more.
That is all I have to say. I felt bound to tell
you what passed yesterday between me and Mr Bayfield.
And, Miss Palmer, pardon me, but do not encourage that
apprentice of mine to talk to you. You may find
him troublesome. He is half mad, I think, and
he does the most preposterous things, aiming the shafts
of his so-called wit at those above him in station-his
old master at Colston’s School for one, and
I thrashed him for his pains. I am seriously
thinking I must break the indentures and be quit of
him, with his rubbish and nonsense about old parchments,
wasting his time when he ought to be learning his
business. My mother seems very well satisfied
with you, Miss Palmer, and I hope you will remain
with us, unless you give the Squire the preference!’
This was said with a laugh which made Bryda’s
heart swell with indignation as the lawyer bustled
off to his office, where Chatterton had been an hour
and more before him.
Bryda clasped her hands, and exclaimed,-
’He would not dare to speak
to me like this if I were not poor. The apprentice
is right, poverty is a curse, though Betty will not
have it so; and how shameful of the Squire to speak
of private affairs to Mr Lambert-about
me. No, not even to save poor old grandfather
will I have any more to do with him. After all,
if the stock is sold, there will be the garden and
the poultry and the dairy. I forget, though, if
there are no cows there will be no milk-still
there will be a roof over grandfather’s head,
and Silas will stand by him.’
Bryda continued to win favour with
Mrs Lambert, and she snatched many an odd half-hour
to read, taking a book from the cedar-lined bookcase
and reading while Mrs Lambert dosed in her chair,
or was engaged with some crony who looked in for a
gossip, when Bryda had only eyes for her book, not
ears for what was being said by the furthest window
of the little parlour.
The Vicar of Wakefield fed
Bryda’s romance, and Milton fired her enthusiasm
by his lofty strain. With the book on her knee,
and some fine lace of Mrs Lambert’s in her hand,
which she was supposed to be darning, Bryda committed
to heart ‘Lycidas,’ and ‘L’Allegro,’
while the faithful Abdiel in the larger poem became
a living personage to her.
Writing to Bet was more difficult
to achieve, but she used to kneel at the window seat
in her little attic and set down the thoughts of every
day as they occurred to her. As the month passed
she felt some uneasiness for fear Mr Bayfield should
make any further sign.
To take a stroll at a slow and measured
pace with Mrs Lambert was one of her duties.
Sometimes the old lady would go to the pump-room and
drink a glass of the water, and Bryda was quietly
amused to watch the gay crowd flitting here and there
in the sunshine of the beautiful summer weather.
Sometimes a short cough struck upon
her ear, and her heart would go out in sympathy with
some hectic invalids who, with the invariable desire
of consumptive patients to appear better than they
are, would sink exhausted on one of the benches, and
then start up again to walk with a gaily dressed beau
to the strains of the band playing under the row of
trees before the houses.
She will die before July is out, Bryda heard someone near
her say of a girl who had just recovered from a violent fit of coughing, and was
placed in a sedan chair by her mother, resisting it and saying,-
‘I had much rather walk. Don’t make
a fuss, pray.’
‘Death so near, and life so
sweet,’ thought Bryda, and then she recalled
the elegy on the dead lamb, and the same shrinking
from the unknown and the inevitable oppressed her.
One morning, when the dreaded month
had nearly expired, Bryda was dispatched on a message
to a shop celebrated for Bath buns, to buy a shilling’s
worth for the ‘tea company’ Mrs Lambert
expected that afternoon. And she was also to
call in at the grocer’s and buy some allspice
and orange peel for a tasty pudding which Mr Lambert
wanted for a supper he was to give to some friends.
Bryda looked as fresh as a rose just gathered as she
set out on her errand, Mrs Lambert’s large leather
purse in her hand, and the directions as to her purchases
in her mind, which had been repeated at least a dozen
times.
’Mind you insist on having the
buns puffy at the top. Don’t let them press
on you those with a sink in the middle where the comfits
lie. They are sure to be heavy; and take care
you get the narrow blue ribbon from a roll that is
not faded outside at the haberdasher’s in the
College Green.’
’Mrs Lambert ought to think
twice before she sends out that girl a-shopping,’
Mrs Symes said to Sam the footboy. ’She
is a vast deal too dainty to walk Bristol streets
alone. I’ve seen the fellows turn and stare
at her as she crosses the square, and as to Chatterton,
he has eyes for nothing when she is by. I declare
if ever eyes were like evil eyes they are that mad
boy’s.’
Then Mrs Symes wiped her face with
her apron, and said the kitchen was enough to stifle
her, proceeded to pursue her scrubbing and cleaning
with great vehemence.
Meanwhile Bryda went gaily on her
way. She was very susceptible of the circumstances
of the moment, and the summer air playing amongst the
sails of the ships, as she got to the quay, and the
water rippling at their sides, where the sunbeams
danced and sparkled, gave her a sense of life and
gladness which for the moment made her forget how near
she was standing to the day when the Squire would
again put before her the alternative of seeing her
grandfather’s stock sold, and so ruining him
for the future as a farmer-or marrying him.
The idea seemed preposterous to her,
and she shrank from it with the shrinking of a pure,
high-minded girl.
She had finished her purchases, and
carefully counted the change in the large leather
purse, when the cathedral bells, chiming as she passed,
made her think she would go in for the service.
There were not more than half-a-dozen
straggling worshippers, and the prayers were made
as short as possible by the irreverent fashion in
which they were hurried over. But Bryda’s
ear caught the words of the anthem, which, by the
care of the organist, was really the only devotional
part of the service.
It was but a fragment from Handel’s
Messiah, but it was well sung, and the words
struck home to Bryda’s heart.
As in Adam all die, even so in
Christ shall all be made alive. For as by man
came death, by man came also the resurrection from
the dead.
Death, on which she had so often meditated-death,
which had for her so much of darkness and fear-death
could be changed by Him who had conquered death-All
be made alive.’
The beauty of the music and the words
acted like a spell on her, and she forgot the passing
of time, till, as the half-dozen old men and women
tottered away to their homes, she raised her head to
see the verger beckoning to her.
‘Service over, we clear the
church,’ he said, and Bryda rose hastily, and
with heightened colour went out again into the summer
noontide.