When Griselda went down to the little
lobby, she found Mr. Travers with a flushed and excited
face, and Mr. Herschel trying to calm him.
“Take my word for it, my young
friend, there are always two necessary to make a quarrel,
and I should beware of yonder dandy, who bears no good
character.”
“I will take your advice as
far as in me lies, sir; but if he ever dares to speak
again, as just now-in the presence of others,
too!-to dare to speak lightly of her -I
will not pick the quarrel, but if he picks it, then
I am no coward.”
Dr. William Watson, who had come for
a second time that day to visit the “moon-gazer”
of the night before, had been a somewhat unwilling
witness of the high words which had passed between
Sir Maxwell Danby and Leslie Travers, and now seemed
impatient to be taken upstairs to inspect the process
of grinding and polishing the reflector for great twenty
and thirty foot mirrors, which was then achieved by
persistent manual labour.
Dr. William Watson was a Fellow of
the Royal Society, and had come to invite Mr. Herschel
to join the Philosophical Society in Bath, which invitation
he accepted, and by this means came more prominently
before the world.
Mr. Travers led Griselda to her chair,
and as the boy lighted the torch at the door-for
it was quite dark-a small and piteous voice
was heard:
“Oh, madam! cannot you do something
for us? I heard Mr. Herschel was kind, but he
is hard and stern.”
“Mr. Herschel never gives alms,”
Leslie Travers said; “be off!”
“Nay, sir; wait. The child
looks wretched and sad. What is it?” Griselda
asked.
“Oh, madam! my father was engaged
to play at the theatre, and he has fallen down and
cannot perform the part. Mr. Palmer is hard, so
hard, he says”-the child’s
voice faltered-“he says it was drink
that made him fall-and he has no pity;
and we are starving.”
The group on the steps of that house
in King Street was a study for an artist. The
shuddering, weeping child; the stolid chairman; the
link-boy, with the torch, which cast a lurid light
upon the group; the young man holding the hand of
the tall and graceful lady, hooded and cloaked in
scarlet, edged with white fur; then the open door behind,
where an oil lamp shone dimly, and the maid’s
figure, in her large white cap and apron, made a white
light in the gloom. It was a picture indeed,
suggestive of the sharp contrasts of life, and yet
no one could have divined that in that scene lay concealed
the elements of a story so tragic and sorrowful, yet
to be developed, and then unsuspected and unknown.
“Wait,” Griselda said.
“Tell me, child, if I can help you.”
“We are starving, madam, and my father is so
ill!”
“I have no money,” Griselda
exclaimed. “Mr. Travers, if you can help
her, please do so.”
“It is at your desire, for I
can refuse you nothing; but I know Mr. Herschel is
right, and that alms given like this, is but the throwing
of money into a bottomless pit.”
As he was speaking the young man had
taken a leathern purse from the wide side-pocket of
his blue coat, and had singled out a sixpence and a
large heavy penny with the head of the King in his
youth upon it-big old-fashioned penny-pieces,
of which none are current now.
Mr. Travers put the money into Griselda’s
hand, and she held it towards the child.
“What brought you to Mr. Herschel’s?”
she asked.
“Brian Bellis sings at the Octagon
every Sunday; he told me Mr. Herschel was kind, but
he was wrong; it is you who are kind.”
“Tell me where you live, and
I will come, perhaps; or at any rate send someone
to give you help.”
“We live in Crown Alley; but
Brian Bellis will tell you, madam. Oh!”
the child said, “you are beautiful as the princess
in the play; and you are good too, I know.”
“Come, be off, you little wretch.
We don’t care to stay here all night for you,
and orders waiting,” said one of the chair-men.
“Will you find out Brian Bellis
for me? Will you discover from Miss Herschel
if the tale is true-now-I mean
now? I will pay you extra for waiting,”
Griselda said to the men.
“Can’t wait to obleege
you, miss; if you don’t step in we shall have
to charge double fare.”
Then Griselda got into the chair;
the lid was let down with a jerk; the men took up
the poles, and set off at a quick trot to North Parade.
The child was still standing on the
doorstep, and Leslie Travers said:
“You must not stand here.
The lady will keep her promise, you may be sure.
Now then!”
The child turned sorrowfully away,
and the click of her pattens was heard on the stone
pavement getting fainter and fainter in the distance.
Leslie Travers was thoughtful beyond
the average of the young men of his type in those
days, and as Miss Herschel’s servant shut the
door-much wondering what all the delay
had been about-he gathered his loose cloak
round him, and walked towards the house his mother
had taken in King Street, pondering much on the inequalities
of life.
“Some star-gazing,” he
thought, “and with their chief aims set above
the heavens; some singing and dancing; some working
mischief-deadly mischief-by
their lives; and some, like that poor child, dying
of starvation. Yes, and some are praying to God
for the safety of their own souls, or thanking Him
that they are safe, and forgetting, as it seems, the
souls of others-nay, that they have souls
at all! And others, like that angel, whose face
is like the fair lady of Dante’s dream, or vision,
seem to draw the beholder upward by the very force
of their own purity and beauty.”
This may sound very high-flown language
for a lover, but Leslie Travers lived in a day of
ornate expression of sentiment, as the effusions
in Lady Miller’s vase at Batheaston abundantly
testified.
Leslie Travers was the son of a Lincolnshire
squire, who owned a few acres, and had lived the isolated
life of the country gentlemen of those times.
Leslie was the only son, and he had
been sent to Cambridge; but his health failed before
he had finished his course there, and he had returned
to his old home just in time to see his father die
of the ague, which haunted the neighbourhood of the
fens before any attempt at proper drainage had been
thought of, much less made.
Mrs. Travers was urged to shut up
the Grange-which answered very well to
the description of a moated Grange of a later time-and
resort to Bath, for the healing waters might take
their effect on her son’s health. Mrs.
Travers had now been resident in Bath for a whole year,
and her figure in widow’s-weeds was familiar
in the bath-room waiting for her son’s appearance
after his morning douche.
But not only was her figure familiar
in the bath-room, there was another place where she
constantly took up her position, and where she could
not persuade her son to follow her, and that place
was the chapel which had been built by Selina, Countess
of Huntingdon.
Mrs. Travers was at this time greatly
exercised in mind about her son. Since his health
had improved, he had entered more into the gaieties
of the city of Bath, and made friends of whom she
could not approve. The Pump Room was a place
where many idlers and votaries of fashion found a
convenient resort after the morning bath; and here
many introductions were exchanged between the new-comers
and those who had been frequenters of Bath for many
previous seasons. The present master of the ceremonies
did not hold the sway of his famous predecessor; but
outward decorum was preserved; and it was in the master’s
power to refuse or grant an introduction if it was
objected to by any parent or guardian.
Mrs. Travers was one of those sweet
and gentle women, who are themselves a standing rebuke
to the harsh and iron creed which they profess to hold
by. Mrs. Travers had lived in an atmosphere all
her life of utter indifference and neglect of even
the outward observances of religion.
The clergyman of the Lincolnshire
parish where the Grange stood was a fair type of the
country parsons of the time. He hunted with the
squire, drank freely of his wine, and was “Hail
fellow! well met!” with those of his parishioners
who had like tastes with himself. A service in
the church when it suited him, baptisms when the parents
pressed it, funerals, a necessity no one can put aside,
and administration of the Holy Communion on the three
prescribed festivals of the year, were the limit of
his parochial labours.
Who can wonder that a sympathetic
and emotional woman, brought to hear for the first
time a burning and eloquent appeal to turn to God,
should very soon yield herself, heart and soul, to
what was indeed to her a new religion!
She accepted the doctrine of her teacher
without reservation, and the offer made her in God’s
name of salvation-a salvation which drew
a circle round the recipient, into which no worldly
thing must enter-a circle narrower and
ever narrower, which, as it closed like an iron band
at last, round many a true-hearted man and woman, had
all unawares shut in the very essence of that world
they had in all good faith believed they had renounced.
For “the world’s” chief idol is self,
and there may be worship and slavery to this idol
in the closest conventual cloister, and in the hardest
and most ascetic life that was ever led in this, or
any other age.
But, as I said, no creed could make
Mrs. Travers hard or austere. Her sweet, pale
face in its widow’s cap, and straight black gown
with the long “weepers” and linen bands,
gave her almost a saint-like appearance; and the smile
with which she greeted her boy was like sunshine over
the surface of a little tarn hidden in some mountain-side.
“Late-am I late,
mother? I am sorry, ma’am; but I was detained
at Mr. Herschel’s by-by a child begging
for money at the door as we were leaving. She
spoke of starvation and deep distress. She had
a lovely face, and it sounded like truth.”
“Poor little creature! Can we help, Leslie?”
“One of the singers at the Octagon
Chapel will direct me to the place-Crown
Alley, a low street enough, by the Abbey churchyard.”
“Ah!” and his mother sighed; “a
low place, doubtless.”
“The child’s father is
an actor-he was hired to play here-and
has had a fall, and is helpless.”
“An actor!” Mrs. Travers’
pale face flushed with crimson. “An actor!
Ah, my dear son, one engaged in the devil’s
work cannot claim charity from Christians.”
“I do not take your meaning,
ma’am. An actor may suffer, and his child
starve as well as other folk, and need help.”
“I grieve for suffering, dear son, as you know;
but -”
“But you condemn all actors
wholesale. Nay, my sweet mother”-and
Leslie changed his tone-“nay, my
sweet mother, it is not you who steel your heart;
it is the doctrine taught you in the fashionable chapel
yonder of lords and ladies, who reserve for themselves
the right to the kingdom of heaven.”
“My son, do not speak thus;
nor scoff at what you cannot yet understand.
If prayers avail for your conversion, constant and
persevering, mine will at last be heard.”
“I thank you for your prayers,
dear mother-they come from a true heart.
And now to supper, and then to my violoncello.
The Herschels are removing at once to this street-almost
will their music be within ear-shot; and there will
be great works in the garden, and the largest mirror
in the kingdom will be cast. Who can tell what
may be discovered? Now, mother, you do not see
sin and wickedness in star-gazing, surely?”
Mrs. Travers shook her head.
“I would not care for myself
to be too curious as to the secrets which God does
not reveal.”
Leslie stamped his foot impatiently, and then said:
“We cannot agree there, mother.
Every gift of God is good; and if He has given the
gift of mathematical precision, and earnestness in
applying it for the better development of the grandest
of all sciences, who shall dare to say the man who
exercises that gift is wrong? For my own part,
I feel uplifted in the presence of that great and
good man-Mr. Herschel-and his
wonderful sister.”
“‘When I consider Thy
heavens the work of Thy fingers,’” Mrs.
Travers quoted from the Psalms, “I say, with
David, ’What is man, that Thou art mindful of
him? or the son of man, that Thou considerest him?’
Such knowledge, my dear son, as that, after which
you tell me Mr. and Miss Herschel seek, is too wonderful
for me, nor do I wish to attain it. Mr. Relley
delivered a very powerful discourse on this matter
last Sunday. I would you had heard it, instead
of listening to the music at the Octagon, where the
world gathers its votaries every Sabbath-day to admire
music, and forget God.”
Leslie knew, by past experience, that
to argue with his mother was hopeless, and he therefore
remained silent. Something told him, when all
was said, that he needed something that he did not
possess. When first threatened with consumption,
and the grasshopper of his young life had become a
burden, he had looked death in the face, and shuddered.
Life was sweet to him-music, and the beautiful
things which were to him as a strain of music, were
dear to his heart.
At a time when the natural beauties
of field, and flower, and over-arching sky were far
less to many than the coteries of fashion and the
haunts of pleasure, so called, Leslie Travers had higher
tastes, and yet he would fain have been other than
he was. Religion, as offered to him by his mother’s
teachers, repelled him; and he cherished a secret
bitterness against the grand ladies who sat on either
side of the haut pas-described by
Horace Walpole, in balconies reserved for “the
elect” of noble birth-in Lady Huntingdon’s
Chapel in the Vineyards.
The waters of Bath had worked wonders
on Leslie’s bodily ailments. He began to
feel strong again, with the strength of young manhood;
and now there had risen upon his horizon that bright
particular star-that, to him, marvel of
perfect womanhood-Griselda Mainwaring.
He had scarcely dared to take her name on his lips-it
was a sacred name to him; and yet, in the lobby
of Mr. Herschel’s house, he had heard the man,
who had so broadly flattered her that she had shrunk
from his words as a sensitive plant shrinks from a
rough touch of a hand-say, in answer to
a question from a casual acquaintance:
“Who is she? Low-born I
hear, and a mere poor dependent on the bounty of Lady
Betty.”
“Heaven help her!” had
been the reply, “if that is all her dependence.”
Then with a laugh, as he tapped his
little silver snuff-box, Sir Maxwell Danby had said:
“She will easily find another
maintenance. A beauty-true; but a beauty
of no family can’t afford to be particular.”
It was at these words-insulting
in their tone as well as in themselves-that
Leslie Travers had raised his voice, and angrily demanded
what the speaker meant, or how he could dare to speak
lightly of a lady who had no father or brother to
be her champion.
“She has you!”
had been the reply, with a sneer. “Poor
boy!”
How the quarrel might have ended even
then, I cannot tell, had not the master of the house,
Mr. Herschel, tried to throw oil on the troubled waters.
But the bitterness was left-a bitterness
which Leslie Travers felt was hatred; and yet, if
his mother’s Bible told true, hatred was a seed
which might grow into an awful upas-tree, shadowing
life with its deadly presence. With that strangely
mysterious power, which words from the great code
of Christian morals are sometimes forced, as it were,
to be heard within, Leslie heard: “He that
hateth his brother is a murderer, and we know
that no murderer hath eternal life!”
Again and again, as Sir Maxwell Danby’s
figure rose before him, and his narrow though finely-chiselled
face seemed to mock him with its scornful smile, so
did the words echo in his secret heart: “He
that hateth his brother is a murderer, and we know
that no murderer hath eternal life!”
Late into the night the strains of
Leslie’s violoncello rose and fell. The
largo of Haydn seemed to soothe him into calm, calling
up before him the beautiful face of Griselda Mainwaring,
as with rapt, impassioned gaze she had drank in the
music of Caroline Herschel’s voice, as she sang,
“Come unto Me ... and I will give you rest.”
“I love her! I adore her!
I will win her if I serve for her as Jacob served
for Rachel! My queen of beauty! Griselda!
Griselda!”