Meg was looking ill, there was no
doubt about it. Her pretty pink-and-white complexion
was losing its fresh look, a slightly irritable expression
had settled round a mouth that a few months back had
seemed made for smiles only. And terribly unromantic
fact, her nose was quite florid-looking at times.
Now a heroine may have the largest, deepest, and most
heavily lashed eyes imaginable; she may have hair
in very truth like the gold “mown from a harvest’s
middle floor”; she may have lips like cherries
and teeth like pearls, and a red nose will be so utterly
fatal that all these other charms will pass unnoticed.
It cost Meg real anguish of spirit. She carefully
read all the Answers to Correspondents in the various
papers Aldith lent her in search of a remedy, but
nearly everyone seemed to be asking for recipes to
promote the growth of the eyelashes or to prevent
embonpoint. Not one she chanced on said,
“A red nose in a girl is generally caused by
indigestion or tight-lacing.” She asked
Aldith to suggest something, and that young person
thought that vaseline and sulphur mixed together,
and spread over the afflicted member, would have the
desired effect. So every night Meg fastened her
bedroom door with a wedge of wood, keys being unknown
luxuries at Misrule, and anointed her, poor little
nose most carefully with the greasy mixture, lying
all night on her back to prevent it rubbing off on
the pillow.
Once Pip had forced his way into demand
a few stitches for his braces which had split, and
she had been compelled to wrap her whole face hastily
up in a towel and declare she had violent neuralgia,
and he must go to Esther or one of the servants.
Had he seen and known the cause there would have
been no end to the teasing.
Nowadays Meg spent a great deal of
time in her bedroom, that she had all to herself while
Judy was away. In its privacy she trimmed and
retrimmed her hats, altered her dresses, read her
novels, and sat in front of the looking-glass with
her hair down, dreaming of being quite grown up and
in love. For just now both to Aldith, and herself
that state of life seemed the only one altogether
lovely and desirable. Meg used to curl herself
up in a big easy-chair that had drifted to her room
because its springs were broken, and dream long, beautiful,
hopeless dreams of a lover with “long black
lashes and a soldierly carriage.” Of course
it was highly reprehensible to have such thoughts
at the tender age of sixteen, but then the child had
no mother to check that erring imagination, and she
was a daughter of the South.
Australian girls nearly always begin
to think of “lovers and nonsense,” as
middlefolks call it, long before their English aged
sisters do. While still in the short-frock period
of existence, and while their hair is still free-flowing,
they take the keenest interest in boys boys
of neighbouring schools, other girls’ brothers,
young bank clerks, and the like. Not because
they would be good playmates, but because they look
at them in the light of possible “sweethearts.”
I do not say English girl children are free from this.
By no means; in every school there may be found one
or two this way inclined, giggling, forward young
things who want whipping and sending to play cricket
or dolls again. But in this land of youthfulness
it is the rule more frequently than the exception,
and herein lies the chief defect of the very young
Australian girl. She is like a peach, a beautiful,
smooth, rich peach, that has come to ripeness almost
in a day, and that hastens to rub off the soft, delicate
bloom that is its chief charm, just to show its bright,
warm colouring more clearly. Aldith had, to her
own infinite satisfaction, brushed away her own “bloom,”
and was at present busily engaged in trying to remove
Meg’s, which was very soft and lovely before
she touched it. The novels had taken away a
little, and the “Block” a little more,
but, Meg was naturally freshminded, and it took time
to make much difference. Just now, under her
friend’s tutelage, she was being inducted into
the delightful mysteries of sweethearting, and for
the time, it quite filled her some what purposeless
young life. But it all ended with an adventure
that years afterwards used to make her cheeks tingle
painfully at the thought.
After the bi-weekly French lesson,
as I have said, the two friends used to come back
together in the river-boat at five o’clock.
And by this boat there always came two boys by the
name of Courtney, and a third boy, Aldith’s
particular property, James Graham. Now the young
people had become known to each other at picnics and
the like in the neighbourhood, but the acquaintance,
instead of ripening on frequent meeting into a frank,
pleasant friendship, had taken the turn of secrecy
and silly playing at love. James Graham was
in a lawyer’s office, a young articled cleric
of seventeen in undue haste to be that delightful
thing, a man. He carried a cane, and was very
particular about his hat and necktie and his boots,
which generally were tan. And he had the faintest
possible moustache, that he caressed with great frequency;
and that privately Aldith thought adorable. Aldith’s
pert, sprightly manner pleased him, and in a very short
time they had got to the period of passing notes into
each other’s hands and sighing sentimentally.
Not that the notes contained much harm, they were
generally of rather a formal character.
“My dear’ Miss MacCarthy,” one would
run
“Why were you not on the boat
yesterday? I looked for you till it was no use
looking longer, and then the journey was blank.
How charmingly that big hat suits you, and those jonquils
at your neck. Might I beg one of the flowers?
just one, please, Aldith.
Your devoted friend,
James Graham.”
And Aldith’s, written on a sheet
of her note-book with a pink programme pencil that
she always kept in her purse, might be no worse than:
“Dear Mr. Graham,
“What ever can you want
these flowers at my neck for? They have been
there all day, and are dead and spoiled. I can’t
imagine what good they’ll be to you.
Still, of course, if you really care for them
you shall have them. I am so glad you like this
hat. I shall always like it now.
Did you really miss me yesterday? I had
gone to have my photo taken. Marguerite thinks
it very good indeed, but I am sure it flatters
me too much.
Yours truly,
L. Aldith Evelyn MacCarthy.”
Now Mr. James Graham had a great friend
in one of the before-mentioned Courtney boys, Andrew
by name. He was a handsome lad of eighteen,
still a schoolboy, but possessed of fascinating manners
and a pair of really beautiful eyes.
And, since his friend and companion
Jim had taken to “having fun” with “the
girl MacCarthy,” he objected to being left out
in the cold. So he began to pay marked attentions
to Meg, who blushed right up to her soft, pretty fringe
every time he spoke to her, and looked painfully conscious
and guilty if he said anything at all complimentary
to her.
The other boy, Alan Courtney, was
very tall and broad-shouldered, and not at all good-looking.
He had a strong, plain face, grey eyes deeply set,
and brown hair that looked as if he was in a constant
state of rumpling it up the wrong way. He was
a University student, and a great footballer, and
he never diverted himself on the long homeward journey
in the way Andrew and his friend did.
He used generally to give a half-contemptuous
nod as he passed the little group, uncovering his
head for the shortest possible period consistent with
civility, and making his way to the far end of the
boat. One time as he passed them Aldith was drooping
her lashes and using her eyes with great effect, and
Meg was almost positive she heard him mutter under
his breath, “Silly young fools!” He used
to smoke at his end of the boat cigars at
the beginning of term and a short, black, villainous-looking
pipe at the end and Meg used secretly to
think how manly he looked, and to sigh profoundly.
For I may as well tell you now as
later what this foolish little thing had done after
a few months’ course of Aldith and novels.
She had fallen in love as nearly as it is possible
for sweet sixteen to do; and it was with Alan, who
had no good looks nor pleasant manners not
Andrew, who had speaking eyes, and curls that “made
his forehead like the rising sun”; not Andrew,
who gave her tender glances and conversation peppermints
that said “My heart is thine,” but Alan,
who took no notice whatever of her beyond an occasional
half-scornful bow.
Poor little Meg! She was very
miserable in these days, and yet it was a kind of
exquisite misery that she hugged to her to keep it
warm. No one guessed her secret. She would
have died rather than allow even Aldith to get a suspicion
of it, and accepted Andrew’s notes and smiles
as if there was nothing more she wanted. But
she grew a trifle thin and large-eyed, and used to
make copious notes in her diary every night, and to
write a truly appalling quantity of verses, in which
“heart” and “part,” “grieve”
and “leave,” “weep” and “keep,”
and “sigh” and “die,” were
most often the concluding words of the lines.
She endured Andrew for several reasons. He
was Alan’s brother for one thing, and was always
saying things about “old Al,” and recording
his prowess on the football field; and Aldith might
discover her secret if she gave him the cold shoulder
altogether. Besides this Andrew had the longest
eyelashes she had ever seen and she must have somebody
to say pretty things to her, even if it was not the
person she would have wished it to be.
One day things came to a crisis.
“No more trips on the dear old
boat for a month,” Aldith remarked, from her
corner of the cabin.
“This is appalling! Whatever
do you mean, Miss MacCarthy?” James Graham said,
with exaggerated despair in his voice.
“Monsieur H
has given the class a month’s holiday.
He is going to Melbourne,” Aldith returned,
with a sigh.
Meg echoed it as in duty bound, and
Andrew said fiercely that hanging was too good for
Monsieur H . What did he mean
by such inhuman conduct, he should like to know; and
however were Jim and himself to maintain life in the
meantime?
“It was James who speedily thought of a way
out.”
“Couldn’t we go for a
walk somewhere one evening just we four?”
he said insinuatingly.
Aldith and Andrew thought the proposal
a brilliant one; and though Meg had at first shaken
her head decidedly, in the end she was prevailed upon,
and promised faithfully to go.
They were to meet in a bush paddock
adjoining the far one belonging to Misrule, to walk
for about an hour, returning by half-past seven, before
it grew dusk.
“I am going to ask you for something
that day, Meg,” Andrew whispered just as they
were parting. “I wonder if I shall get
it.”
Meg flushed in her nervous, conscious
way, and wondered to herself for a moment whether
he intended to ask for a lock of her hair, a thing
Graham had already obtained from Aldith.
“What?” she said unwillingly.
“A kiss,” he whispered.
The next minute the others had joined
them, and there was no chance for the indignant answer
that trembled on her lips. She had even to shake
hands, to appear as if nothing had happened, and to
part apparently good friends.
“Half-past six sharp, Marguerite.
I will never forgive you if you don’t come,”
Aldith said, as they parted at her gate.
“I you Oh,
Aldith, I don’t see how I can come,” Meg
faltered, the crimson in her cheeks again. “I’ve
never done anything like it before. I’m
sure it’s not right.”
But the curl, in Aldith’s lip
made her ashamed of herself.
“You’re just twelve, Marguerite;”
the young lady said calmly: “you’re
not a bit more than twelve. You’d better
get a roll again, and a picture-book with morals.
I’ll ask Andrew to buy you one and a bit of
cord, too, to tie you in your high chair in the nursery.”
Such sarcasm was too much for Meg.
She promised hastily and unconditionally to be on
the spot at the time mentioned, and fled away up the
path to obey the summons of the wildly clanging tea-bell.
But for the two intervening days her
secret hung upon her like a burden of guilt, and she
longed inexpressibly for a confidante who would advise
her what to do at this distressing issue. Not
Judy: that young person was too downright, too
sensible, too much of a child and a boy she
would never dare to tell her anything of the sort.
She could fancy the scorn in her sister’s large
clear eyes, the ringing laughter such a tale would
evoke, the scathing, clever ridicule that would fall
on her shrinking shoulders. Not Esther:
her very position as stepmother precluded such an idea,
and, besides that, the General’s gums were gradually
disclosing wee white double pearls, and his health
thereby was affected, and causing her too much anxiety
to allow her, to notice Meg’s oppression of
mind.
By the night decided upon, the child
had worked herself up into a strong state of excitement.
Half-past six was the time settled upon, and, as
she knew, it was broad daylight even then. She
felt she really dare not, could not go. Suppose
her father or Esther, some of her scornful young sisters
or brothers, should be about and see the meeting,
or any of the neighbours why, she could
never survive the shame of it! Yet go she must,
or Aldith would despise her. Besides, she had
made up her mind fully to tell Andrew plainly she
could not allow him to talk to her as he had been
doing. After that last terrible whisper, she
felt it necessary that she should let him understand
clearly that she did not approve of his conduct, and
would be “his friend,” but nothing more.
But why had they not thought of deciding
on an hour when it would be darker? she kept saying
to herself: there would be no danger of being
seen then; she could slip out of the house without
any difficulty, and run through the paddocks
under cover of the kindly dusk; whereas if it was
light, and she tried to creep away, at least two or
three of the children would fly after her and offer
generously to “come too.”
At last, too afraid to go in the light,
and unwilling for Aldith to reproach her for not going
at all, she did in her excitement and desperation
a thing so questionable that for long after she could
not think of it without horror.
“Dear Mr. Courtney,” she
wrote, sitting down at her dressing-table, and scribbling
away hurriedly in pencil:
“It would be horrid going for
the walk so early. Let us go later, when it
is quite dark. It will be ever so much nicer,
for no one will be able to see us. And let us
meet at the end of the paddocks where the bush
grows thickly, it will be more private. I am
writing to Aldith to tell her to go at that time,
she will tell Mr. Graham.
Yours sincerely,
M. Woolcot.
“P.S. I must ask
you, please, not to kiss me. I should be very
angry indeed if you did. I don’t like kissing
at all.”
She wrote the last paragraph in a
nervous hurry for she had a dread that he might fulfil
his promise, if she did not forbid him as soon as
they met. Then she slipped it into an envelope
and addressed it to A. Courtney, Esq., it never having
even occurred to her for a moment that there was anything
at all strange or unconventional in a young girl making
such a point that the meeting should be in the dark.
Next she wrote a few lines of explanation
to Aldith, and told her to be sure to be in the paddock
by half-past eight, and she (Meg) would slip out when
the children were going to bed and unlikely to notice.
And then she went out into the garden
to find messengers for her two notes. Little
Flossie Courtney had been spending the afternoon with
Nellie, and Meg called her back from the gate just
as she was going home, and, unseen by the children,
entrusted the note to her.
“’Give it to your brother
Andrew the minute he comes from school,” she
whispered, popping a big chocolate at the same time
into the little girl’s mouth. Bunty was
next bribed, with a promise of the same melting delicacies,
to run up to Aldith’s with the other letter,
and Meg breathed freely ago feeling she had skilfully
averted the threatening danger attendant on the evening
meeting.
But surely the notes were fated!
Bunty delivered his safely enough to the housemaid
at the MacCarthys’, and in answer to the girl’s
question “s’posed there was an answer,
girls always ’spected one to nothing.”
Aldith was confined to her room with
a sudden severe cold, and wrote a note to her friend,
telling her how she was too ill to be allowed out,
and had written to Mr. Graham, and Mr. Courtney, too,
postponing the walk for a week.
Now this note, in its pale pink triangular
envelope, was transferred to Bunty’s pocket
among his marbles and peanuts and string. And,
as might be expected, he fell in with some other choice
spirits on the return journey, and was soon on his
knees by the roadside playing marbles.
He lost ten, exclusive of his best
agate, fought a boy who had unlawfully possessed himself
of his most cherished “conny,” and returned
home with saddened spirits an hour later, only to find
as he went through the gate that he had lost Aldith’s
dainty little note.
Now Meg had promised him eight chocolate
walnuts on his return, and if this same boy had one
weakness more pronounced than others, it was his extreme
partiality for this kind of confectionery, and he
had not tasted one for weeks, so no wonder it almost
broke his heart to think they would be forfeited.
“I know she’ll be stingy
enough to say I haven’t earned them, just ’cause
I dropped that girl’s stupid letter,” he
said to himself, miserably, “and I don’t
suppose there was anything in it but ‘Dearest
Marguerite, let us always tell each other our secrets’;
I heard her say that twice, and of course she writes
it, too.” Then temptation came upon him
swiftly, suddenly.
By nature Bunty was the most arrant
little storyteller ever born, and it was only Judy’s
fearless honesty and strongly expressed scorn for
equivocation that had kept him moderately truthful.
But Judy was miles away, and could not possibly wither
him up with her look of utter contempt. He was
at the nursery door now, turning the handle with hesitating
hands.
“What a time you’ve been,”
said Meg from the table, where she was mending a boxful
of her gloves. “Well, what did she say?”
Just at her elbow was the gay bonbonnière
containing the brown, cream-encrusted walnuts.
“She said, ‘All right,’” said
Bunty gruffly.
Meg counted the eight chocolates out
into his little grimy hand, and resumed her mending
with a relieved sigh. And Bunty, with a defiant,
shamed look in his eyes, stuffed the whole of the
sweets into his mouth at once, as if to preclude the
possibility of a sudden repentance.
The other note was equally unfortunate.
Little Flossie went home, her thoughts intent upon
a certain Grannie bonnet Nell had promised to make
for her new doll.
“Gween with pink stwings,”
she was saying softly to herself as she climbed the
steps to her own door.
Alan was lying on the veranda lounge,
smoking his black pipe.
“Gween what?” he laughed “guinea-pigs
or kangaroos?”
“Clawice Maud’s bonnet,”
the little girl said, and entered forthwith into a
grave discussion with him as to the colour he thought
more suitable for that waxen lady’s winter cloak.
Then she turned to go in.
“What’s that sticking
out of your wee pocket, Flossie girl?” he said,
as she brushed past him. She stopped a second
and felt.
“Oh, nearly I didn’t wemember,
an’ I pwomised I would it’s
a letter for you, Alan,” she said, and gave
Meg’s poor little epistle up into the very hands
of the Philistine.