By F. Hopkinson Smith
1909
Dinner was over, and Mme. Constantin
and her guests were seated under the lighted candles
in her cosey salon.
With the serving of the coffee and
cigarettes, pillows had been adjusted to bare shoulders,
stools moved under slippered feet, and easy lounges
pushed nearer the fire. Greenough, his long body
aslant, his head on the edge of a chair, his feet
on the hearth rug, was blowing rings to the ceiling.
Bayard, the African explorer, and the young Russian
Secretary, Ivan Petrovski, had each the end of a long
sofa, with pretty Mme. Petrovski and old Baron
Sleyde between them, while Mme. Constantin lay
nestled like a kitten among the big and little cushions
of a divan.
The dinner had been a merry one, with
every brain at its best; this restful silence was
but another luxury. Only the Baron rattled on.
A duel of unusual ferocity had startled Paris, and
the old fellow knew its every detail. Mme.
Petrovski was listening in a languid way:
“Dead, isn’t he?”
she asked in an indifferent tone, as being the better
way to change the subject. Duels did not interest
the young bride.
“No,” answered the Baron,
flicking the ashes from his cigarette “going
to get well, so Mercier, who operated, told a friend
of mine to-day.”
“Where did they fight?”
she asked, as she took a fresh cigarette from her
case. “Ivan told me, but I forgot.”
“At Surenne, above the bridge.
You know the row of trees by the water; we walked
there the day we dined at the Cycle.”
“Both of them fools!”
cried the Russian from the depths of his seat.
“La Clou wasn’t worth it she’s
getting fat.”
Greenough drew his long legs back
from the fender and, looking toward the young Secretary,
said in a decided tone:
“I don’t agree with you,
Ivan. Served the beggar right; the only pity is
that he’s going to get well.”
“But she wasn’t his wife,”
remarked Mme. Petrovski with increased interest,
as she lighted her cigarette.
“No matter, he loved her,”
returned the Englishman, straightening in his seat
and squaring his broad shoulders.
“And so did the poor devil whom
Mercier sewed up,” laughed the old Baron, his
eyes twinkling.
Mme. Constantin raised her blonde
head from the edge of the divan.
“Is there any wrong, you dear
Greenough, you would forgive where a woman is concerned?”
“Plenty. Any wrong that
you would commit, my dear lady, for instance; but
not the kind the Baron refers to.”
“But why do you Englishmen always
insist on an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth?
Can’t you make some allowance for the weakness
of human nature?” she asked, smiling.
“But why only Englishmen?”
demanded Greenough. “All nationalities feel
alike where a man’s honor and the honor of his
home are concerned. It is only the punishment
that differs. The Turk, for instance, bowstrings
you or tries to, for peeping under his wife’s
veil; the American shoots you at sight for speaking
slightingly of his daughter. Both are right in
a way. I am not brutal; I am only just, and I
tell you there is only one way of treating a man who
has robbed you dishonestly of the woman you love,
and that is to finish him so completely that the first
man called in will be the undertaker not
the surgeon. I am not talking at random I
know a case in point, which always sets me blazing
when I think of it. He was at the time attached
to our embassy at Berlin. I hear now that he
has returned to England and is dying dying,
remember, of a broken heart won’t
live the year out. He ought to have shot the
scoundrel when he had a chance. Not her fault,
perhaps not his fault fault
of a man he trusted that both trusted, that’s
the worst of it.”
Bayard sat gazing into the fire, its
glow deepening the color of his bronze cheek and bringing
into high relief a body so strong and well knit that
it was difficult to believe that scarcely a year had
passed since he dragged himself, starving and half
dead, from the depths of an African jungle.
So far he had taken no part in the
discussion. Mme. Constantin, who knew his
every mood, had seen his face grow grave, his lips
straighten, and a certain subdued impatience express
itself in the opening and shutting of his hands, but
no word of comment had followed.
“Come, we are waiting, Bayard,”
she said at last, with a smile. “What do
you think of Greenough’s theory?”
The traveller pushed his cup from
him, shook the ashes from his cigar, and answered
slowly:
“That there is something stronger
than vengeance, Louise something higher.”
“You mean mercy?”
“Something infinitely more powerful the
Primeval.”
The Baron twisted his short neck and
faced the speaker. Greenough rose to his feet,
relighted his cigar at the silver lamp, and said with
some impatience:
“I don’t understand your meaning, Bayard;
make it clear, will you?”
“You don’t understand,
Greenough, because you have not suffered not
as some men I know, not as one man I have in mind.”
Mme. Constantin slipped from
her cushions, crossed to where Bayard sat, and nestled
on a low ottoman beside him.
“Is it something you haven’t
told me, Bayard?” she asked, looking up into
his face. These two had been friends for years.
Sometimes in his wanderings the letters came in bunches;
at other times the silence continued for months.
“Yes, something I haven’t
told you, Louise not all of it. I remember
writing you about his arrival at Babohunga, and what
a delightful fellow he was, but I couldn’t tell
you the rest of it. I will now, and I want Greenough
to listen.
“He was, I think, the handsomest
young fellow that I ever saw tall, broad
shouldered, well built, curly hair cut close to his
head, light, upturned mustache, white teeth, clear,
fair skin really you’d hardly meet
another such young fellow anywhere. He had come
up from Zanzibar and had pushed on to my camp, hoping,
he said, to join some caravan going into the interior.
He explained that he was an officer in the Belgian
army, that he had friends further up, near Lake Mantumba,
and that he came for sport alone. I, of course,
was glad to take him in glad that year
to take anybody in who was white, especially this
young fellow, who was such a contrast to the customary
straggler escaped convict, broken-down gambler,
disgraced officer, Arab trader, and other riffraff
that occasionally passed my way.
“And then, again, his manners,
his smile, the easy grace of his movements even
his linen, bearing his initials and a crown something
he never referred to all showed him to be
a man accustomed to the refinements of society.
Another reason was his evident inexperience with the
life about him. His ten days’ march from
the landing below to my camp had been a singularly
lucky one. They generally plunge into the forest
in perfect health, only to crawl back to the river those
who live to crawl their bones picked clean
by its merciless fingers. To push on now, with
the rainy season setting in, meant certain death.
“The second day he paid the
price and fell ill. He complained of his feet the
tramp had knocked him out, he said. I examined
his toes, cut out some poisonous wood ticks that had
buried themselves under the skin, and put him to bed.
Fever then set in, and for two days and nights I thought
he would go under. During the delirium he kept
repeating a woman’s name, begging her to give
him a drink, to lift his head so he could look into
her eyes. Once I had to hold him by main force
to keep him from following this fancy of his brain
into the forest. When he began to hobble about
once more he again wanted to push on, but I determined
to hold onto him. I was alone at the time that
is, without a white companion, Judson having gone
down to Zanzibar with some despatches for the company and
his companionship was a godsend.
“What seemed to worry him most
after he got well was his enforced use of my wardrobe
and outfit. He had brought little of his own except
his clothes and some blankets, and no arms of any
kind but the revolver he carried around his waist
in a holster. All his heavier luggage, he explained,
was at a landing below. This objection I met by
promising to send for it by the first band of carriers
after the rainy season was over. In the meantime
he must, I insisted, use my own guns and ammunition,
or anything else that my kit afforded.
“Up to this time he had never
mentioned his home or the names of any of his people,
nor had he offered any explanation of his choice of
Africa as a hunting ground, nor did he ever seek to
learn my own impressions regarding his self-imposed
exile (it was really exile, for he never hunted a
single day while he was with me), except to ask me
one morning in a casual way, whether anything he had
said in his delirium had made me think the less of
him all of which I laughed at, never mentioning,
of course, what I had been obliged to hear.
“One night, when a tropical
storm of unusual severity was passing, I found him
sealing a letter at my table with the aid of a lantern
held close. Presently he got up and began pacing
the floor, seemingly in great agitation; then he reached
over, picked up the letter from the table, lighted
one end of it in the blaze of the lantern, dropped
it to the floor, waited until it was entirely consumed,
and then put his foot on the ashes.
“‘Rather a waste of time,
wasn’t it?’ I said with a laugh.
“’Yes, all of it has been
a waste of time and my life with it.
Now and then I write these letters. They’re
always burned in the end. No use nothing
to gain. Yes, waste of time. There are some
things in the world that no man ought ever to ask
forgiveness for.’ He threw himself into
a chair and went on:
“’You never went crazy
mad over a woman, did you? No you’re
not built that way. I am. She was different
from the women I had met. She was not of my people she
was English. We met first in Brussels; then I
followed her to Vienna. For six months she was
free to do as she pleased. We lived the life well,
you know! Then her husband returned.’
“‘Oh, she was married!’ I remarked
casually.
“’Yes, and to a man you
would have thought she would have been true to, although
he was nearly twice her age. I knew all this knew
when I started in to make her love me as
a matter of pride first as a boy walks
on thin ice, believing he can cross in safety.
Perhaps she had some such idea about me. Then
the crust gave way, and we were both in the depths.
The affair had lasted about six months all
the time her husband was gone. Then I either
had to face the consequences or leave Vienna.
To have done the first meant ruin to her; the last
meant ruin to me. It had not been her fault it
had been mine. He sent me word that he would
shoot me at sight, and he meant it. But the madness
had not worked out of me yet. She clung to me
like a frightened child in her agony, begging me not
to leave her not to meet her husband; to
go somewhere suddenly, as if I had been
ordered away by my government; to make no reply to
her husband, who, so far, could prove nothing somewhere,
later on, when he was again on a mission, we could
meet.
“’You have known me now
for some time the last month intimately.
Do I look like a coward and a cur? Well, I am
both. That very night I saw him coming toward
my quarters in search of me. Did I face him?
No. I stooped down behind a fence and hid until
he passed.
“’That summer, some months
later, we met in Lucerne. She had left him in
Venice and he was to meet her in Paris. Two days
later he walked into the small hotel where she had
stopped and the end came.
“’But I took her with
me this time. One of the porters who knew him
and knew her helped; and we boarded the night train
for Paris without his finding us. I had then
given up about everything in life; I was away without
leave, had lost touch with my world with
everybody except my agents, who sent me
money. Then began a still hunt, he following us
and we shifting from place to place, until we hid
ourselves in a little town in Northern Italy.
“’Two years had now passed,
I still crazy mad knowing nothing, thinking
nothing one blind idolatry! One morning
I found a note on my table; she was going to Venice.
I was not to follow until she sent for me. She
never sent not a line no message.
Then the truth came out she never intended
to send she was tired of it all!’
“The young fellow rose from
his seat and began pacing the dirt floor again.
He seemed strangely stirred. I waited for the
sequel, but he kept silent.
“‘Is this why you came here?’ I
asked.
“’Yes and no. I came
here because one of my brother officers is at one
of the stations up the river, and because here I could
be lost. You can explain it as you will, but
go where I may I live in deadly fear of meeting the
man I wronged. Here he can’t hunt me, as
he has done all over Europe. If we meet there
is but one thing left either I must kill
him or he will kill me. I would have faced him
at any time but for her. Now I could not harm
him. We have both suffered from the same cause the
loss of a woman we loved. I had caused his agony
and it is for me to make amends, but not by sending
him to his grave. Here he is out of my way and
I out of his. You saw me burn that letter; I have
destroyed dozens of them. When I can stand the
pressure no longer I sit down and ask his pardon;
then I tear it up or burn it. He couldn’t
understand wouldn’t understand.
He’d think I was afraid to meet him and was
begging for my life. Don’t you see how impossible
it all is how damnably I am placed?’”
Mme. Constantin and the others
had gathered closer to where Bayard sat. Even
the wife of the young secretary had moved her chair
so she could look into the speaker’s face.
All were absorbed in the story. Bayard went on:
“One of the queer things about
the African fever is the way it affects the brain.
The delirium passes when the temperature goes down,
but certain hallucinations last sometimes for weeks.
How much of the queer story was true, therefore, and
how much was due to his convalescence he
was by no means himself again I could not
decide. That a man should lose his soul and freedom
over a woman was not new, but that he should bury
himself in the jungle to keep from killing a man whose
pardon he wanted to ask for betraying his wife was
new.
“I sympathized with him, of
course, telling him he was too young to let the world
go by; that when the husband got cool he would give
up the chase had given it up long ago,
no doubt, now that he realized how good for nothing
the woman was said all the things, of course,
one naturally says to a man you suspect to be slightly
out of his head.
“The next night Judson returned.
He brought newspapers and letters, and word from the
outside world; among other things that he had met a
man at the landing below who was on his way to the
camp above us. He had offered to bring him with
him, but he had engaged some Zanzibari of his own
and intended to make a shorter route to the north of
our camp and then join one of the bands in charge
of an Arab trader-some of Tippu-Tib’s men really.
He knew of the imminence of the rainy season and wanted,
to return to Zanzibar before it set in in earnest.
Judson’s news all his happenings,
for that matter interested the young Belgian
even more than they did me, and before the week was
out the two were constantly together a
godsend in his present state of mind saved
him in fact from a relapse, I thought Judson’s
odd way of looking at things, as well as his hard,
common sense, being just what the high-strung young
fellow needed most.
“Some weeks after this perhaps
two, I can’t remember exactly a party
of my men whom I sent out for plantains and corn
(our provisions were running low) returned to camp
bringing me a scrap of paper which a white man had
given them. They had found him half dead a day’s
journey away. On it was scrawled in French a
request for food and help. I started at once,
taking the things I knew would be wanted. The
young Belgian offered to go with me he
was always ready to help but Judson had
gone to a neighboring village and there was no one
to leave in charge but him. I had now not only
begun to like him but to trust him.
“I have seen a good many starving
men in my time, but this lost stranger when I found
him was the most miserable object I ever beheld.
He lay propped up against a tree, with his feet over
a pool of water, near where my men had left him.
His eyes were sunk in his head, his lips parched and
cracked, his voice almost gone. A few hours more
and he would have been beyond help. He had fainted,
so they told me, after writing the scrawl, and only
the efforts of my men and the morsel of food they
could spare him brought him back to life. When
I had poured a few drops of brandy down his throat
and had made him a broth and warmed him up his strength
began to come back. It is astonishing what a few
ounces of food will do for a starving man.
“He told me he had been deserted
by his carriers, who had robbed him of all he had food,
ammunition, everything and since then he
had wandered aimlessly about, living on bitter berries
and fungi. He had, it appears, been sent to Zanzibar
by his government to straighten out some matters connected
with one of the missions, and, wishing to see something
of the country, he had pushed on, relying on his former
experiences he had been on similar excursions
in Brazil to pull him through.
“Then followed the story of
the last few weeks the terrors of the long
nights, as he listened to the cries of prowling animals;
his hunger and increasing weakness the
counting of the days and hours he could live; the
indescribable fright that overpowered him when he realized
he must die, alone, and away from his people.
Raising himself on his elbow he was still
too weak to stand on his feet he motioned
to me to come nearer, and, as I bent my head he said
in a hoarse whisper, as if he were in the presence
of some mighty spirit who would overhear:
“’In these awful weeks
I have faced the primeval. God stripped me naked naked
as Adam, and like him, left me alone. In my hunger
I cried out; in my weakness I prayed. No answer nothing
but silence horrible, overpowering silence.
Then in my despair I began to curse to strike
the trees with my clenched fists, only to sink down
exhausted. I could not I would not
die! Soon all my life passed in review. All
the mean things I had done to others; all the mean
things they had done to me. Then love, honor,
hatred, revenge, official promotion, money, the good
opinion of my fellows all the things we
value and that make our standards took
form, one after another, and as quickly vanished in
the gloom of the jungle. Of what use were they any
of them? If I was to live I must again become
the Homo the Primeval Man eat
as he ate, sleep as he slept, be simple, brave, forgiving,
obedient, as he had been. All I had brought with
me of civilization my civilization the
one we men make and call life were as nothing,
if it could not bring me a cup of water, a handful
of corn or a coal of fire to warm my shivering body.’
“I am not giving you his exact
words, Louise, not all of them, but I am giving you
as near as I can the effect untamed, mighty, irresistible
nature produced on his mind. Lying there, his
shrivelled white face supported on one shrunken hand,
his body emaciated so that the bones of his knees
and elbows protruded from his ragged clothes, he seemed
like some prophet of old, lifting his voice in the
wilderness, proclaiming a new faith and a new life.
“Nor can I give you any idea
of the way the words came, nor of the glassy brilliance
of his eyes, set in a face dry as a skull, the yellow
teeth chattering between tightly stretched lips.
Oh! it was horrible horrible!
“The second day he was strong
enough to stand, but not to walk. The rain, due
now every hour, comes without warning, making the swamps
impassable, and there was no time to lose. I left
two men to care for him, and hurried back to camp
to get some sort of a stretcher on which to bring
him out.
“That night, sitting under our
lamp we were alone at the time, my men
being again away I gave the young Belgian
the details of my trip, telling him the man’s
name and object in coming into the wilderness, describing
his sufferings and relating snaps of his talk.
He listened with a curious expression on his face,
his eyes growing strangely bright, his fingers twitching
like those of a nervous person unused to tales of
suffering and privation.
“‘And he will live?’
he said, with a smile, as I finished.
“’Certainly; all he wanted
was something in his stomach; he’s got that.
He’ll be here to-morrow.’
“For some time he did not speak;
then he rose from his seat, looked at me steadily
for a moment, grasped my hand, and with a certain tenderness
in his voice, said:
“‘Thank you.’
“‘For what?’ I asked in surprise.
“’For being kind.
I’ll go to the spring and get a drink, and then
I’ll go to sleep. Good night!’
“I watched him disappear into
the dark, wondering at his mood. Hardly had I
regained my seat when a pistol shot rang out.
He had blown the top of his head off.
“That night I buried him in
the soft ooze near the spring, covering him so the
hyenas could not reach his body.
“The next morning my men arrived,
carrying the stranger. He had been plucky and
had insisted on walking a little, and the party arrived
earlier than I expected. When he had thanked me
for what I had done, he began an inspection of my
rude dwelling and the smaller lean-to, even peering
into the huts connected with my bungalow new
in his experience.
“‘And you are all alone
except for your black men?’ he asked in an eager
tone.
“’No, I have Mr. Judson
with me. He is away this week and a
young Belgian officer and I ’
“‘Yes, I remember Mr.
Judson,’ he interrupted. ’I met him
at the landing below. I should have taken his
advice and joined him. And the young officer has
he been long with you?’
“‘About two months.’
“’He is the same man who
left some of his luggage at the landing below, is
he not?’
“‘Yes, I think so,’ I answered.
“’A young man with light
curly hair and upturned mustache, very strong, quick
in his movements, shows his teeth when he speaks very
white teeth ’
“’He was smiling a
strange smile from one whose lips were still parched.
“‘Yes,’ I replied.
“‘Can I see him?’
“‘No, he is dead!’
“Had I not stretched out my hand to steady him
he would have fallen.
“‘Dead!’ he cried,
a look of horror in his eyes. ’No!
You don’t mean not starved to death!
No, no, you don’t mean that!’ He was trembling
all over.
“’No, he blew out his
brains last night. His grave is outside.
Come, I will show it to you.’
“I had almost to carry him.
For an instant he leaned against a tree growing near
the poor fellow’s head, his eyes fixed on the
rude mound. Then he slowly sank to his knees
and burst into tears, sobbing:
“‘Oh! If I could
have stopped him! He was so young to die.’
“Two days later he set out on his return to
the coast.”
With the ending of the story, Bayard turned to Mme.
Constantin:
“There, Louise, you have the
rest of it. You understand now what I meant when
I said there was something stronger than revenge; the
primeval.”
Greenough, who had sat absorbed, drinking
in every word, laid his hand on Bayard’s shoulder.
“You haven’t told us their names.”
“Do you want them?”
“Yes, but write them on this card.”
Bayard slipped his gold pencil from
its chain and traced two names. “My God,
Bayard! That’s the same man I told you is
dying of a broken heart.”
“Yes that’s
why I told you the story, Greenough. But his heart
is not breaking for the woman he loved and lost, but
for the man he hunted the man I buried.”