While the little party sat at table,
the sailors gathered together at a distance among
the rocks, and presently the strong red light of their
fire shot up through the shadows, lending new contrasts
to the scene. And there they slung their kettle
on an oar and patiently waited for the water to boil,
while the man known as the Gull, always cook in every
crew in which he chanced to find himself, sat with
the salt on one side of him and a big bundle of macaroni
on the other, prepared to begin operations at any
moment.
Ruggiero stood a little apart, his
back against a boulder, his arms crossed and his eyes
fixed on Beatrice’s face. His keen sight
could distinguish the changing play of her expression
as readily at that distance as though he had been
standing beside her, and he tried to catch the words
she spoke, listening with a sort of hurt envy to the
little silvery laugh that now and then echoed across
the open space and lost itself in the crannies of
the rocks. It all hurt him, and yet for nothing
in the world would he have turned away or shut his
ears. More than once, too, the thoughts that
had disturbed him while he was steering in the afternoon,
came upon him with renewed and startling strength.
He had in him some of that red old blood that does
not stop for trifles such as life and death when the
hour of passion burns, and the brain reels with overmastering
love.
And Bastianello was not in a much
better case, though his was less hard to bear.
The pretty Teresina had seated herself on a smooth
rock in the moonlight, not far from the table, and
as the dishes came back, the young sailor waited on
her and served her with unrelaxed attention.
Since Ruggiero would not take advantage of the situation,
his brother saw no reason for not at least enjoying
the pleasure of seeing the adorable Teresina eat and
drink as it were from his hand. Why Ruggiero
was so cold, and stood there against his rock, silent
and glowering, Bastianello could not at all understand;
nor had he any thought of taking an unfair advantage.
Ruggiero was first and no one should interfere with
him, or his love; but Bastianello, judging from what
he felt himself, fancied that she might have given
him some good advice. Teresina’s cheeks
flushed with pleasure and her eyes sparkled each time
he brought her some dainty from the master’s
table, and she thanked him in the prettiest way imaginable,
so that her voice reminded him of the singing of the
yellow-beaked blackbird he kept in a cage at home which
was saying much, for the blackbird sang well and sweetly.
But Bastianello only said each time that “it
was nothing,” and then stood silently waiting
beside her till she should finish what she was eating
and be ready for more. Teresina would doubtless
have enjoyed a little conversation, and she looked
up from time to time at the handsome sailor beside
her, with a look of enquiry in her eyes, as though
to ask why he said nothing. But Bastianello felt
that he was on his honour, for he never doubted that
the little maid was the cause of Ruggiero’s disease
of the heart and indeed of all that his brother evidently
suffered, and he was too modest by nature to think
that Teresina could prefer him to Ruggiero, who had
always been the object of his own unbounded devotion
and admiration. Presently, when there was nothing
more to offer her, and the party at the table were
lighting their cigarettes over their coffee, he went
away and going up to Ruggiero drew him a little further
aside from the group of sailors.
“I want to tell you something,”
he began. “You must not be as you are, a
man like you.”
“How may that be?” asked
Ruggiero, still looking towards the table, and not
pleased at being dragged from his former post of observation.
“I will tell you. I have
been serving her with food. You could have done
that instead if you had wished. You could have
talked to her, and she would have liked it. It
is easy when a woman is sitting apart and a man brings
her good food and wine you could have spoken
a word into her ear.”
Ruggiero was silent, but he slowly
nodded twice, then shook his head.
“You do not say anything,”
continued Bastianello, “and you do wrong.
What I tell you is true, and you cannot deny it.
After all, we are men and they are women. Are
they to speak first?”
“It is just,” answered Ruggiero laconically.
“But then, per Dio, go and talk
to her. Are you going to begin giving her the
gold before you have spoken?”
From which question it will be clear
to the unsophisticated foreigner that a regular series
of presents in jewelry is the natural accompaniment
of a well-to-do courtship in the south. The trinkets
are called collectively “the gold.”
Ruggiero did not find a ready answer
to so strong an argument. Little guessing that
his brother was almost as much in love with Teresina
as he himself was with her mistress, he saw no reason
for undeceiving him concerning his own feelings.
Since Bastianello had discovered that he, Ruggiero,
was suffering from an acute attack of the affections,
it had become the latter’s chief object to conceal
the real truth. It was not so much, that he dreaded
the ridicule he, a poor sailor of
being known to love a great lady’s daughter;
ridicule was not among the things he feared.
But something far too subtle for him to define made
him keep his secret to himself an inborn,
chivalrous, manly instinct, inherited through generations
of peasants but surviving still, as the trace of gold
in the ashes of a rich stuff that has had gilded threads
in it.
“If I did begin with the gold,”
he said at last, “and if she would not have
me when I spoke afterwards, she would give the gold
back.”
“Of course she would. What
do you take her for?” Bastianello asked the
question almost angrily, for he loved Teresina and
he resented the slightest imputation upon her fair
dealing.
Ruggiero looked at him curiously,
but was far too much preoccupied with his own thoughts
to guess what the matter was. He turned away and
went towards the fire where the Gull was already tasting
a slippery string of the macaroni to find out whether
it were enough cooked. Bastianello shrugged his
shoulders and followed him in silence. Before
long they were all seated round the huge earthen dish,
each armed with an iron fork in one hand and a ship
biscuit in the other, with which to catch the drippings
neatly, according to good manners, in conveying the
full fork from the dish to the wide-opened mouth.
By and by there was a sound of liquid gurgling from
a demijohn as it was poured into the big jug, and
the wine went round quickly from hand to hand, while
those who waited for their turn munched their biscuits.
Some one has said that great appetites, like great
passions, are silent. Hardly a word was said
until the wine was passed a second time with a ration
of hard cheese and another biscuit. Then the
tongues were unloosed and the strange, uncouth jests
of the rough men circulated in an undertone, and now
and then one of them suffered agonies in smothering
a huge laugh, lest his mirth should disturb the “excellencies”
at their table. The latter, however, were otherwise
engaged and paid little attention to the sailors.
The Marchesa di Mola, having
eaten about six mouthfuls of twice that number of
delicacies and having swallowed half a glass of champagne
and a cup of coffee, was extended in her cane rocking-chair,
with her back to the moon and her face to the lamp,
trying to imagine herself in her comfortable sitting
room at the hotel, or even in her own luxurious boudoir
in her Sicilian home. The attempt was fairly successful,
and the result was a passing taste of that self-satisfied
beatitude which is the peculiar and enviable lot of
very lazy people after dinner. She cared for
nothing and she cared for nobody. San Miniato
and Beatrice might sit over there by the water’s
edge, in the moonlight, and talk in low tones as long
as they pleased. There were no tiresome people
from the hotel to watch their proceedings, and nothing
better could happen than that they should fall in
love, be engaged and married forthwith. That
was certainly not the way the Marchesa could have wished
the courtship and marriage to develop and come to
maturity, if there had been witnesses of the facts
from amongst her near acquaintance. But since
there was nobody to see, and since it was quite impossible
that she should run after the pair when they chose
to leave her side, resignation was the best policy,
resignation without effort, without fatigue and without
qualms. Moreover, San Miniato himself had told
her that in some of the best families in the north
of Italy it was considered permissible for a man to
offer himself directly to a young lady, and San Miniato
was undoubtedly familiar with the usages of the very
best society. It was quite safe to trust to him.
San Miniato himself would have greatly
preferred to leave the negotiations in the hands of
the Marchesa and would have done so had he not known
that she possessed no power whatever over Beatrice.
But he saw that the Marchesa, however much she might
desire the marriage, would never exert herself to
influence her daughter. She was far too indolent,
and at heart, perhaps, too indifferent, and she knew
the value of money and especially of her own.
San Miniato made up his mind that if he won at all,
it must be upon his own merits and by his own efforts.
He had not found it hard to lead Beatrice
away from the lamp when dinner was over, and after
walking about on the rocks for a few minutes he proposed
that they should sit down near the water, facing the
moonlit sea. Beatrice sat upon a smooth projection
and San Miniato placed himself at her feet, in such
a position that he could look up into her face and
talk to her without raising his voice.
“So you are glad you came here, Donna Beatrice,”
he said.
“Very glad,” she answered.
“It is something I have never seen before something
I shall never forget, as long as I live.”
“Nor I.”
“Have you a good memory?”
“For some things, not for others.”
“For what, for instance?”
“For those I love –”
“And a bad memory for those
whom you have loved,” suggested Beatrice with
a smile.
“Have you any reason for saying
that?” asked San Miniato gravely. “You
know too little of me and my life to judge of either.
I have not loved many, and I have remembered them
well.”
“How many? A dozen, more or less?
Or twenty? Or a hundred?”
“Two. One is dead, and one has forgotten
me.”
Beatrice was silent. It was admirably
done, and for the first time he made her believe that
he was in earnest. It had not been very hard for
him either, for there was a foundation of truth in
what he said. He had not always been a man without
heart.
“It is much to have loved twice,”
said the young girl at last, in a dreamy voice.
She was thinking of what had passed through her mind
that afternoon.
“It is much but not
enough. What has never been lived out, is never
enough.”
“Perhaps but who could love three
times?”
“Any man and the
third might be the best and the strongest, as well
as the last.”
“To me it seems impossible.”
San Miniato had got his chance and
he knew it. He was nervous and not sure of himself,
for he knew very well that she had but a passing attraction
for him, beyond the very solid inducement to marry
her offered by her fortune. But he knew that
the opportunity must not be lost, and he did not waste
time. He spoke quietly, not wishing to risk a
dramatic effect until he could count on his own rather
slight histrionic powers.
“So it seems impossible to you,
Donna Beatrice,” he said, in a musing tone.
“Well, I daresay it does. Many things must
seem impossible to you which are rather startling
facts to me. I am older than you, I am a man,
and I have been a soldier. I have lived a life
such as you cannot dream of not worse perhaps
than that of many another man, but certainly not better.
And I am quite sure that if I gave you my history you
would not understand four-fifths of it, and the other
fifth would shock you. Of course it would how
could it be otherwise? How could you and I look
at anything from quite the same point of view?”
“And yet we often agree,” said Beatrice,
thoughtfully.
“Yes, we do. That is quite
true. And that is because a certain sympathy
exists between us. I feel that very much when
I am with you, and that is one reason why I try to
be with you as much as possible.”
“You say that is one reason.
Have you many others?” Beatrice tried to laugh
a little, but she felt somehow that laughter was out
of place and that a serious moment in her life had
come at last, in which it would be wiser to be grave
and to think well of what she was doing.
“One chief one, and many little
ones,” answered San Miniato. “You
are good to me, you are young, you are fresh you
are gifted and unlike the others, and you have a rare
charm such as I never met in any woman. Are those
not all good reasons? Are they not enough?”
“If they were all true, they
would be more than enough. Is the chief reason
the last?”
“It is the last of all.
I have not given it to you yet. Some things are
better not said at all.”
“They must be bad things,”
answered Beatrice, with an air of innocence.
She was beginning to understand, at
last, that he really intended to make her a declaration
of love. It was unheard of, almost inconceivable.
But there he was at her feet, looking very handsome
in the moonlight, his face turned up to hers with
an unmistakable look of devotion in its rather grave
lines. His voice, too, had a new sound in it.
Indifferent as he might be by daylight and in ordinary
life, the magic of the place and scene affected him
a little at the present moment. Perhaps a memory
of other years, when his pulse had quickened and his
voice had trembled oddly, just touched his heart now
and it responded with a faint thrill. For a moment
at least he forgot his sordid plan, and Beatrice’s
own personal attraction was upon him.
And she was very lovely as she sat
there, looking down at him, with white folded hands,
hatless in the warm night, her eyes full of the dancing
rays that trembled upon the softly rippling water.
“If they are not bad things,”
she said, speaking again, “why do you not tell
them to me?”
“You would laugh.”
“I have laughed enough to-night. Tell me!”
“Tell you! Yes that
is easy to do. But it would be so hard to make
you understand! It is the difference between
a word and a thought, between belief and mere show,
between truth and hearsay more than that much
more than I can tell you. It means so much to
me it may mean so little to you, when I
have said it!”
“But if you do not say it, how can I guess it,
or try to understand it?”
“Would you try? Would you?”
“Yes.”
Her voice was soft, gentle, persuasive.
She felt something she had never felt, and it must
be love, she thought. She had always liked him
a little better than the rest. But surely, this
was more than mere liking. She had a strange
longing to hear him say the words, to start, as her
instinct told her she must, when he spoke them, to
be told for the first time that she was loved.
Is it strange, after all? Young, imaginative
and full of life, she had been brought up to believe
that she was to be married to some man she scarcely
knew, after a week’s acquaintance, without so
much as having talked five minutes with him alone;
she had been taught that love was a legend and matrimony
a matter of interest. And yet here was the man
whom her mother undoubtedly wished her to marry, not
only talking with her as they had often talked before,
with no one to hear what was said, but actually on
the verge of telling her that he loved her. Could
anything be more delicious, more original, more in
harmony with the place and hour? And as if all
this were not enough, she really felt the touch and
thrill of love in her own heart, and the leaping wonder
to know what was to come.
She had told him to speak and she
waited for his voice. He, on his part, knew that
much was at stake, for he saw that she was moved, and
that all depended on his words. The fewer the
better, he thought, if only there could be a note
of passion in them, if only one of them could ring
as all of poor Ruggiero’s had rung when he had
spoken that afternoon. He hesitated and hesitation
would be fatal if it lasted another five seconds.
He grew desperate. Where were the words and the
tone that had broken down the will of other women,
far harder to please than this mere child? He
felt everything at once, except love. He saw her
fortune slipping from him at the very moment of getting
it, he felt a little contempt for the part he was
playing and a sovereign scorn for his own imbecility,
he even anticipated the Marchesa’s languid but
cutting comments on his failure. One second more,
and all was lost but not a word would come.
Then, in sheer despair and with a violence that betrayed
it, he seized one of Beatrice’s hands in both
of his and kissed it madly a score of times.
As she interpreted the action, no eloquence of words
could have told her more of what she wished to hear.
It was unexpected, it was passionate; if it had been
premeditated, it would have been a stroke of genius.
As it was, it was a stroke of luck for San Miniato.
With the true gambler’s instinct he saw that
he was winning and his hesitation disappeared.
His voice trembled passionately now with excitement,
if not with love but it was the same to
Beatrice, who heard the quick-spoken words that followed,
and drank them in as a thirsty man swallows the first
draught of wine he can lay hands on, be it ever so
acid.
At the first moment she had been startled
and had almost uttered a short cry, half of delight
and half of fear. But she had no wish to alarm
her mother and the quick thought stifled her voice.
She tried to withdraw her hand, but he held it tightly
in his own which were cold as ice, and she sat still
listening to all he said.
“Ah, Beatrice!” he was
saying, “you have given me back life itself!
Can you guess what I have lived through in these days?
Can you imagine how I have thought of you and suffered
day and night, and said to myself that I should never
have your love? Can you dream what it must be
to a man like me, lonely, friendless, half heart-broken,
to find the one jewel worth living for, the one light
worth seeking, the one woman worth loving and
then to long for her almost without hope, and so long?
It is long, too. Who counts the days or the weeks
when he loves? It is as though we had loved from
the beginning of our lives! Can you or I imagine
what it all was like before we met? I cannot remember
that past time. I had no life before it it
is all forgotten, all gone, all buried and for ever.
You have made everything new to me, new and beautiful
and full of light ah, Beatrice! How
I love you!”
Rather a long speech at such a moment,
an older woman would have thought, and not over original
in choice of similes and epithets, but fluent enough
and good enough to serve the purpose and to turn the
current of Beatrice’s girlish life. Yet
not much of a love-speech. Ruggiero’s had
been better, as a little true steel is better than
much iron at certain moments in life. It succeeded
very well at the moment, but its ultimate success
would have been surer if it had reached no ears but
Beatrice’s. Neither she nor San Miniato
were aware that a few feet below them a man was lying
on his back, with white face and clenched hands, staring
at the pale moonlit sky above him, and listening in
stony despair to every word that was spoken.
The sight would have disturbed them,
had they seen it, though they both were fearless by
nature and not easily startled. Had Beatrice seen
Ruggiero at that moment, she would have learned once
and for ever the difference between real passion and
its counterfeit. But Ruggiero knew where he was
and had no intention of betraying himself by voice
or movement. He suffered almost all that a man
can suffer by the heart alone, but he was strong and
could bear torture.
The hardest of all was that he understood
the real truth, partly by instinct and partly through
what he knew of his master. Those rough southern
sailors sometimes have a wonderful keenness in discovering
the meaning of their masters’ doings. Ruggiero
held the key to the situation. He knew that San
Miniato was poor and that the Marchesa was very rich.
He knew very well that San Miniato was not at all in
love, for he knew what love really meant, and he could
see how the Count always acted by calculation and
never from impulse. Best of all he saw that Beatrice
was a mere child who was being deceived by the coolly
assumed passion of a veteran woman-killer. It
was bitterly hard to bear. And he had felt a
foreboding of it all in the afternoon and
he wished that he had risked all and brought down
the brass tiller on San Miniato’s head and submitted
to be sent to the galleys for life. He could
never have forgotten Beatrice; but San Miniato could
never have married her, and that satisfaction would
have made chains light and hard labour a pastime.
It was too late to think of such things
now. Had he yielded to the first murderous impulse,
it would have been better. But he had never struck
a man from behind and he knew that he could not do
it in cold blood. Yet how much better it would
have been! He would not be lying now on the rock,
holding his breath and clenching his fists, listening
to his Excellency the Count of San Miniato’s
love making. By this time the Count of San Miniato
would be cold, and he, Ruggiero, would be handcuffed
and locked up in the little barrack of the gendarmes
at Sorrento, and Beatrice with her mother would be
recovering from their fright as best they could in
the rooms at the hotel, and Teresina would be crying,
and Bastianello would be sitting at the door of his
brother’s prison waiting to see what happened
and ready to do what he could. Truly all this
would have been much better! But the moment had
passed and he must lie on his rock in silence, bound
hand and foot by the necessity of hiding himself,
and giving his heart to be torn to pieces by San Miniato’s
aristocratic fine gentleman’s hands, and burned
through and through by Beatrice’s gentle words.
“And so you really love me?”
said San Miniato, sure at last of his victory.
“Do you doubt it, after what
I have done?” asked Beatrice in a very soft
voice. “Did I not leave my hand in yours
when you took it so roughly and you know –”
“When I kissed it but
I want the words, too only once, from your
beautiful lips –”
“The words –”
Beatrice hesitated. They were too new to her lips,
and a soft blush rose in her cheeks, visible even
in the moonlight.
Ruggiero’s heart stood still not
for the first time that day. Would she speak
the three syllables or not?
As for San Miniato, his excitement
had cooled, and he threw all the tenderness he could
muster into, his last request, with instinctive tact
returning to the more quiet tone he had used at the
beginning of the conversation.
“I ask you, Beatrice mia,
to say ” he paused, to give the proper
effect in the right place “I love
you,” he said, completing the sentence very
musically and looking up most tenderly into her eyes.
She sighed, blushed again, and turned
her head away. Then quite suddenly she looked
at him once more, pressed his hand nervously and spoke.
“I love you, carissimo,”
she said, and rose at the same moment from her seat.
“Come it is time. Mamma will
be tired,” she added, while he held her hand
and pressed it to his lips.
Her confusion had made it easy for
him. He would have had difficulty in ending the
scene artistically if she had not unconsciously helped
him.
Ruggiero clenched his hands a little
tighter and tried not to breathe.
“It is a lie,” he said
in his heart, but his lips never moved, nor did he
stir a limb as he listened to the departing footsteps
on the ledge above.
Then with the ease of great strength
he drew himself along through cranny and hollow till
he was far from where they sat, and had reached the
place where the boats were made fast. It would
seem natural to every one that he should suddenly
be standing there to see that all was right, and that
none of the moorings had slipped or chafed against
the jagged rocks. There he stood, gazing at the
rippling water, at the tall yards as they slowly crossed
and recrossed the face of the moon, with the rocking
of the boats, at the cliffs to the right and left,
at the dim headland of the Campanella, at all the
sights long familiar to him seeing none
of them and yet feeling that they at least were his
own people, that they understood him and knew what
he felt what he had no words with which
to tell any one, if he had wished to tell it.
For he who loves and is little loved,
or not at all, has no friend, be he of high estate
or low, beyond nature, the deep-bosomed, the bountiful,
the true; and on her he may lean, trusting, and know
that he will not be betrayed. And in time her
language will be his. But she will be heard alone
when she speaks with him, and without rival, with the
full right of a woman who gives all her love and asks
for a man’s soul in return, recking little of
all the world besides. But not all know how kind
she is, how merciful and how sweet. For she does
not heal broken hearts. She takes them as they
are into her own, with all the memory and all the
sin, perhaps, and all the bitter sorrow which is the
reward of faith and faithlessness alike. She
takes them all, and holds them kindly in her own breast,
as she has taken the torn limbs of martyred saints
and tortured sinners and has softly turned them all
into a fragrant dust. And though the ashes of
the heart be very bitter, they are after all but dust,
which cannot feel of itself any more. Yet there
may be something left behind, in the place where it
lived and was broken and died, which is not wholly
bad, though there be little good in this earth where
there is no heart.
Moreover, nature is a silent mistress
to all but those who love her, and she tells no tales
as men and women do, and forgets none of the secrets
which are told to her, for they are our treasures treasures
of love and of hate, of sweetness and of poison, which
we lay up in her keeping when we are alone with her,
sure that we shall find again all we have given up
if we require it of her. But as the years blossom,
bloom, and fade in their quick succession, the day
will come when we shall ask of her only the balm and
be glad to leave the poison hidden, and to forget how
we would have used it in old days when
we shall ask her only to give us the memory of a dear
and gentle hand dear still but no longer
kind of the voice that was once a harmony,
and whose harsh discord is almost music still of
the hour when love was twofold, stainless and supreme.
Those things we shall ask of her and she, in her wonderful
tenderness, will give them to us again in
dreams, waking or sleeping, in the sunlit silence
of lonely places, in soft nights when the southern
sea is still, in the greater loneliness of the storm,
when brave faces are set as stone and freezing hands
grasp frozen ropes, and the shadow of death rises
from the waves and stands between every man and his
fellows. We shall ask, and we shall receive.
Out of noon-day shadow, out of the starlit dusk, out
of the driving spray of the midtempest, one face will
rise, one hand will touch our own, one loving, lingering
glance will meet ours from eyes that have no look
of love for us in them now. These things our
lady nature will give us of all those we have given
her. But of the others, we shall not ask for
them, and she will mercifully forget for us the bitterness
of their birth, and life, and death.