The Christmas ballad of the stoker,
even though writ from the fiery bowels of amidships
and with a pen reeking with his own sweat, could find
no holiday sale; nor the story of the waiter who serves
the wine he dares only smell, and weary stands attendant
into the joyous dawn. Such social sores the
drayman, back bent to the Christmas box whose mysteries
he must never know; the salesgirl standing on her swollen
feet on into the midnight hour such sores
may run and fester, but not to sicken public eyes.
For the Christmas spirit is the white
flame of love burning in men’s hearts and may
not be defiled. Shop-windows, magazine covers,
and post-cards proclaim good-will to all men; bedtime
stories crooned when little heads are drowsy are of
Peace on Earth; corporations whose draymen’s
backs are bent and whose salesgirls’ feet are
swollen plaster each outgoing parcel with a Good-Will-Toward-Men
stamp, and remove the stools from behind the counters
to give space to more of the glittering merchandise.
In the Mammoth Store the stools have
long since been removed and the holiday hysteria of
Peace on Earth rose to its Christmas Eve climax, as
a frenzied gale drives upward the sea into mountains
of water, or scuds through black-hearted forests,
bending them double in wild salaam.
Shoppers pushed through aisles so
packed that the tide flowed back upon itself.
A narrow-chested woman, caught in the whorl of one
such vortex, fainted back against the bundle-laden
arms that pressed her on. Above the thin orchestra
of musical toys, the tramp of feet like an army marching,
voices raucous from straining to be heard, a clock
over the grand central stairway boomed nine, and the
crowd pulled at its strength for a last hour of bartering,
tearing, pushing, haggling, sweating.
Behind the counters workers sobbed
in their throats and shifted from one swollen foot
to the other. A cash-girl, her eyeballs glazed
like those of a wounded hare in the torture of the
chase, found a pile of pasteboard boxes behind a door,
and with the indifference of exhaustion dropped on
to it asleep. The tide flowed on, and ever and
again back upon itself. A Santa Claus in a red
canton-flannel coat lost his white canton-flannel
beard, nor troubled to recover it. A woman trembling
with the ague of terror drew an imitation bisque doll
off a counter and into the shallow recesses of her
cape, and the cool hand of the law darted after her
and closed over her wrist and imitation bisque evidence.
A prayer, a moan, the crowd parting and closing again.
The mammoth Christmas tree beneath
the grand central stairway loped ever so slightly
of its own gorgeousness, and the gold star at its
apex titillated to the tramp-tramp of the army.
Across the novelty leather-goods counter Mr. Jimmie
Fitzgibbons leaned the blue-shaven, predacious face
that head waiters and underfed salesgirls know best
over a hot bird and a cold bottle. Men’s
hands involuntarily close into tight fists when his
well-pressed sleeve accidentally brushes their wives
or sisters. Six-dollar-a-week salesgirls scrape
their luscious rare birds to the bone, drink thin
gold wine from thin, gold-edged glasses, and curse
their God when the reckoning comes.
Behind the novelty leather-goods counter
Mrs. Violet Smith, whose eyes were the woodland blue
her name boasted, smiled back and leaned against the
stock-shelves, her face upturned and like a tired flower.
“If the rush hadn’t quit
right this minute I I couldn’t have
lasted it out till closing, honest I couldn’t.”
“Poor tired little filly!”
“Even them ten minutes I got
leave to go up to old Ingram’s office they made
up for when I came back, and put another batch of them
fifty-nine-cent leatherette purses out in the bin.”
“Poor little filly! What
you need is a little speed. I wanna blow you
to-night, Doll. You went once and you can make
it twice. Come on, Doll, it ain’t every
little girl I’d coax like this.”
“I Jimmie I ”
“I wanna blow you to-night,
Doll. A poor little blue-eyed queenie like you,
all froze up with nothing but a sick husband for a
Christmas tree a poor little baby doll
like you!”
“The kid, too, Jimmie, I oughtn’t!”
“Didn’t you tell me yourself
it sleeps through the night like a whippersnapper?
Don’t be a quitter Doll, didn’t you?”
“Yes, but ”
“A poor little baby doll like
you! Why, there just ain’t nothing too
good for you. Some little time I showed you last
Tuesday night eh, Doll?”
“Yes Jimmie!”
“Well, if you think that was some evening, you
watch me to-night!”
“I can’t go, Jimmie,
him layin’ there, and the kid and all!”
“Didn’t I have to coax
you last time just like to-night? And wasn’t
you glad when you looked out and seen how blasted
cold and icy it was that you lemme blow you wasn’t
you?”
“Yes, Jimmie, but ”
“Didn’t I blow you to
a bottle of bubble water to take home with you even
after the big show was over, and wouldn’t I have
blown you to yellow instead of the red if you hadn’t
been a little cheap skate and wanted the red?
Didn’t I pin a two-dollar bunch of hothouse grapes
on your hat right out of the fruit-bowl? Didn’t
I blow you for proper?”
“It was swell, Jimmie!”
“Well, I’m going to blow
in my winnings on you to-night, Doll. It’s
Christmas Eve and ”
“Yes, it’s Christmas Eve,
Jimmie, and he he had one of his bad hemorrhages
last night, and the kid, she she’s
too little to know she’s getting cheated out
of her Christmas, but, gee a a
kid oughtta have something a tree or something.”
He leaned closer, hemmed in by the
crowd. “It’s you oughtta have
something, Doll.”
“I I never oughtta
gone with you last Tuesday night, Jimmie. When
I got home, he he was laying there like
a rag.”
“I like you, Doll. I’m
going to blow in the stack of my winnings on you that’s
how much I like you. There ain’t nothing
I wouldn’t do for a little filly like you.”
“Jimmie!”
“There ain’t!”
“Aw!”
“You wouldn’t be in the
hole you are now, Doll, if you hadn’t sneaked
off two years ago and done it while I wasn’t
looking. Nearly two whole years you lemme
lose track of you! That ain’t a nice way
to treat a fellow that likes you.”
“We went boarding right away,
Jimmie, and I only came back to the department two
months ago, after he got so bad. ’Ain’t
I told you how things just kinda happened?”
“I liked you myself, Doll, but
you fell for a pair of shoulders over in the gents’
furnishing that wasn’t wide from nothing but
padding. I could have told you there was all
cotton batting and no lungs there. I could have
told you.”
“Jimmie, ain’t you ashamed! Jimmie!”
“Aw, I was just kidding.
But you ain’t real on that true-blue stuff,
Doll. I can look into your eyes and see you’re
bustin’ to lemme blow you. That’s
what you get, sweetness, when you don’t ask your
Uncle Fuller first. If you’d have asked
me I could have told you he was weak in the chest
when you married him. I could have told you that
you’d be back here two years later selling leatherette
vanity-cases and supportin’ a ”
“You! Jimmie Fitzgibbons, you ”
“Gad, Doll, go to it! When
you color up like that you look like a rose a
whole bouquet of them.”
“You you don’t
know nothing about him. He he never
knew he had a lung till a month after the kid came,
and they moved the gents’ furnishing over by
the Broadway door where the draught caught him.”
“Sure, he didn’t, Doll;
no harm meant. That’s right, stand by him.
I like to see it. Why, a little queen across
the counter from you tole me you’d have married
him if he’d had three bum lungs, that crazy you
was!”
“Like fun! If me or him
had dreamt he wasn’t sound we I wouldn’t
be in this mess, I we I wouldn’t!”
Her little face was pale as a spray
of jessamine against a dark background, and, try as
she would to check them, tears sprang hot to her eyes,
dew trembled on her lashes.
“Poor little filly!”
More tears rushed to her eyes, as
if he had touched the wellsprings of her self-compassion.
“You gotta excuse me, Jimmie. I ain’t
cryin’, only I’m dog tired from nursin’
and drudgin’, drudgin’ and nursin’.”
“Hard luck, little un!”
“Him layin’ there and
me tryin’ to to make things meet.
You gotta excuse me, Jimmie, I’m done up.”
“That’s why I wanna blow
you, sweetness. I can’t bear to see a little
filly like you runnin’ with the odds dead agin
her.”
“You been swell to me, Jimmie.”
“The sky’s my limit, Doll.”
“Maybe it wasn’t right
for me to go with you last Tuesday night, him layin’
there, and the kid and all, but a girl’s gotta
have something, don’t she, Jimmie? A girl
that’s got on her shoulders what I got has gotta
have something a laugh now and then!”
“That’s the goods, Doll. A little
filly like you has got to.”
“Honest, the way I laughed when
you stuck them hothouse grapes on my hat for trimming
the other night, just like they didn’t cost
nothing honest, the way I laughed gimme
enough strength for a whole night’s nursin’.
Honest, I felt like in the old days before before
I was married.”
“Gad! if you had treated me
white in them days, Doll if you hadn’t
pulled that saint stuff on me and treated me cold storage there
ain’t nothing I wouldn’t have done for
you.”
“I I didn’t mean nothing, Jimmie.”
“I ain’t sore, Doll.
I like you and I like your style. I always did,
even in the days when you turned me down, you great
big beautiful doll, you!”
“Aw you!”
“If you’re the real little
sport I think you are, you’re going to lemme
blow you to the liveliest Christmas a little queen
like you ever seen. I didn’t make that
winnin’ down in Atlanta for nothing. When
I got the telegram I says to myself: ‘Here
goes! I’m goin’ to make last Tuesday
night look like a prayer-meeting, I am.’
Eh, Doll?”
“I I can’t, Jimmie. I ’S-s-s-s-h!”
A tide flowed in about the counter,
separating them, and she was suddenly the center of
a human whorl, a battle of shoulders and elbows and
voices pitched high with gluttony. Mr. Fitzgibbons
skirted its edge, patient.
Outside a flake floated down out of
the dark pocket of packed clouds, then another and
yet another, like timid kisses blown down upon the
clownish brow of Broadway. A motorman shielded
his eyes from the right merry whirl and swore in his
throat. A fruit-cheeked girl paused in the flare
of a Mammoth Store show-window, looked up at her lover
and the flaky star that lit and died on his mustache,
and laughed with the musical glee of a bird.
A beggar slid farther out from his doorway and pushed
his hat into the flux of the sidewalk. More flakes,
dancing upward like suds blown in merriment from the
palm of a hand light, lighter, mad, madder,
weaving a blanket from God’s own loom, from God’s
own fleece, whitening men’s shoulders with the
heavenly fabric.
Mrs. Violet Smith cast startled eyes
upon the powdered shoulders and snow-clumped shoes
passing down the aisleway, and her hand flew to her
throat as if to choke its gasp.
“My! It ain’t snowin’, is it?
It ain’t snowin’?”
Mr. Jimmie Fitzgibbons wormed back
to the counter. His voice was sunk to the golden
mezzo of an amorous whisper.
“Snowin’ is right, Doll!
A real dyed-in-the-wool white Christmas for you and
me!”
“Snowin’!”
“Don’t you like snow,
baby doll? Cheer up, I’m going to hire a
taxicab by the hour. I’m ”
“Snowin’!”
She breathed inward, shivering, stricken,
and her mouth, no older than a child’s, trembled
at the corners and would not be composed.
“He he can’t
stand no snow-storm. That’s why the doctor
said if if we could get him South before
the first one, if we could get him South before the
first one South, where the sun shines and
he could feel it clear through him, he Oh,
ain’t I ain’t I in a mess!”
“Poor little filly!” He
focused his small eyes upon her plump and throbbing
throat. “Poor little filly, all winded!”
“I oh, I ”
“There’s the bell, Doll.
Poor, tired little girlie, hurry and I’ll buy
you a taxicab. Hear it there’s
the closing bell! Merry Christmas, Doll!
Merry Christmas!”
A convulsion tore through the store,
like the violent asthma of a thirty-thousand-ton ocean
liner breathing the last breath of her voyage and
slipping alongside her pier. On that first stroke
of ten a girl behind the candy-counter collapsed frankly,
rocking her left foot in her lap, pressing its blains,
and blubbering through her lips salty with her own
bitter tears. A child, qualified by legislation
and his fourteen years to brace his soft-boned shoulder
against the flank of life, bent his young spine double
to the weight of two iron exit doors that swung outward
and open. A gale of snow and whistling air danced
in. The crowd turned about, faced, thinned, died.
Mrs. Violet Smith turned a rose-white
face to the flurry. “Snowin’!”
“A real, made-to-order white
Christmas for you and me, Doll. The kind you
read about.”
“It it don’t mean nothing to
me, but ”
“Sure, it does; I’m goin’
to blow you right, Doll. Half the money is yourn,
anyways. You made that winning down in Atlanta
yesterday as much as me, girlie. If I hadn’t
named that filly after you she’d ‘a’
been left at the post.”
“You you never had
the right to name one of your race-horses after me.
There ain’t a girl ever went out with you that
you ’ain’t named one after. You you
never had the right to!”
“I took it, kiddo, ’cause
I like you! Gad! I like you! Nix, it
ain’t every little girl I’d name one of
my stable after. ’Violet!’ some
little pony that, odds ag’in her and walks off
with the money.”
“I honest, I sometimes I just
wish I was dead!”
“No, you don’t, Doll.
You know you just wanna go to-night, but you ’ain’t
got the nerve. I wanna show you a Christmas Eve
that’ll leave any Christmas Eve you ever spent
at the post. Gad! look out there, will you?
I’m going to taxicab you right through the fuzz
of that there snow-storm if it costs every cent the
filly won for us!”
Mrs. Smith leaned back against the
shelves limp, as if the blood had run from her heart,
weakening her, but her eyes the color of lake-water
when summer’s moment is bluest. Her lips,
that were meant to curve, straightened in a line of
decision.
“I’ll go, Jimmie.”
“That’s the goods!”
“A girl’s just gotta have
something to hold herself together, don’t she?
It it ain’t like the kid and Harry
was layin’ awake for me last Tuesday
they was both asleep when I got home. They don’t
let each other get lonesome, and Harry he There
ain’t nothing much for me to do round home.”
“Now you’re talkin’ the English
language, Doll.”
“I’ll go, Jimmie.”
He extended his cane at a sharper
angle until it bent in upon itself, threatening to
snap, and flung one gray-spatted ankle across the other.
“Sure, you’re going!
A poor little filly like you, sound-kneed, sound-winded,
and full of speed, and no thin’ but trouble for
your Christmas stockin’. A poor little
blue-eyed doll like you!”
“A girl’s gotta have something!
You knew me before I was married, Jimmie, and there
never was a girl more full of life.”
“Sure I knew you. But you
was a little cold-storage queen and turned me down.”
“He Harry, he never
asks me nothing when I come in, and the kid’s
asleep, anyways.”
“Color up there a little, Doll.
Where I’m going to take you there ain’t
nothing but live ones. I’m going to take
you to a place where the color scheme of your greenbacks
has got to be yellow. Color up there, Doll.
You ain’t going dead, are you?”
She stretched open her eyes to wide,
laughing pools, plowed through the rear-counter debris
of pasteboard boxes and tissue-paper, reached for
her jacket and tan, boyish hat. A blowy, corn-colored
curl caught like a tendril and curled round the brim.
“Going dead! Say, my middle
name is Speed! It’s like Harry used to
tell me when we wasn’t no farther along in the
marriage game than his sneaking over here from the
gents’ furnishing three times a day to price
bill-folders he used to say that I was a
live wire before Franklin flew his kite.”
“Doll!”
“I ain’t tired, Jimmie.
Not countin’ the year and a half I was home
before Harry took sick, I been through the Christmas
hell just six times. The seventh don’t
mean nothing in my life. I’ve seen ’em
behind these very counters cursing Christmas with
tears in their eyes and spending their merry holiday
in bed trying to get some of the soreness out.
It takes more than one Christmas to put me out of business.”
“Here, lemme tuck that curl in for
you, Doll.”
“Quit!”
“Doll!”
“Quit, I say!”
“Color up there, girlie. Look live!”
She rubbed her palms briskly across
her cheeks to generate a glow, and they warmed to
color as peaches blush to the kiss of the sun.
“See!”
“Pink as cherries!”
“That’s right, kid me along.”
“Tried to dodge me to-night, didn’t you,
kitten?”
“I I didn’t think I ought to
go to-night.”
“It’s a good thing my feelings ain’t
hurt easy.”
“Honest, Jimmie, I didn’t
try to dodge you. I I only thought,
with the girls here gabbling so much about last Tuesday
night and all, it wouldn’t look right.
And he had a spell last night again, and the doctor
said we we ought to get him South before
the first snow South, where the sun shines.
But he’s got as much chance of gettin’
South as I have of climbing the South Pole!”
“A pretty little thing like
you climbing the South Pole! I’d be there
with field-glasses all-righty!”
“I I went up and
talked and begged and begged and talked to old Ingram
up at the Aid Society to-day, but the old skinflint
says they can’t do nothing for an employee after
he’s been out of his department more’n
eight weeks, and and Harry’s been
out twelve. He says the Society can’t do
nothing no more, much less send him South. Just
like a machine he talked. I could have killed
him!”
“Poor little filly! I was
that surprised when I seen you was back in the store
again! There ain’t been a classy queen behind
the counter since you left.”
“Aw, Jimmie, no wonder the girls
say you got your race-horses beat for speed.”
“That’s me!”
Aisles thinned and the store relaxed
into a bacchanalian chaos of trampled debris, merchandise
strewn as if a flock of vultures had left their pickings a
battlefield strewn with gewgaws and the tinsel of
Christmastide, and reeking with foolish sweat.
“Button up there, Doll, and
come on; it’s a swell night for Eskimos.”
Mr. Fitzgibbons folded over his own
double-breasted coat, fitted his flat-brimmed derby
hat on his well-oiled hair, drew a pair of gray suede
gloves over his fingers, and hooked his slender cane
to his arm.
“Ready, Doll?”
“The girls, Jimmie look
at ’em rubbering and gabbling like ducks!
It it ain’t like I could do any good
at home, it ain’t.”
“I’d be the first to ship
you there if you could. You know me, Doll!”
His words deadened her doubts like
a soporific. She glanced about for the moment
at the Dionysian spectacle of the Mammoth Store ravished
to chaos by the holiday delirium; at the weary stream
of shoppers and workers bending into the storm as
they reached the doors; at the swift cancan of snowflakes
dancing whitely and swiftly without; at Mr. Jimmie
Fitzgibbons standing attendant. Then she smiled.
“Come on, Jimmie!”
“Come on yourself, Doll!”
Snow beat in their faces like shot as they emerged
into the merry night.
She shivered in her thin coat. “Gee! ain’t
it cold!”
“Not so you can notice it.
Watch me, Doll!” He hailed a passing cab with
a double flourish of cane and half lifted her in, his
fingers closing tight over her arm. “Little
Doll, now I got you! And we understand one another,
don’t we, Doll?”
“Yes, Jimmie.”
She leaned back, quiescent, nor did
his hold of her relax. A fairy etching of snow
whitened the windows and wind-shield, and behind their
security he leaned closer until she could feel the
breath of his smile.
“Doll, we sure understand each
other, don’t we, sweetness? Eh? Answer
me, sweetness, don’t we? Eh? Eh?”
“Yes, Jimmie.”
Over the city bells tolled of Christmas.
The gentle Hestia of Christmas Eve
snug beside her hearth, with little stockings dangling
like a badly matched row of executed soldiers, the
fire sinking into embers to facilitate the epic descent
from the chimney, the breathing of dreaming children
trembling for their to-morrow this gentle
Hestia of a thousand, thousand Christmas Eves was
not on the pay-roll of Maxwell’s thousand-dollar-a-week
cabaret.
A pandering management, with its finger
ever on the thick wrist of its public, substituted
for the little gray lady of tradition the glittering
novelty of full-lipped bacchantes whose wreaths were
grape, and mistletoe commingling with the grape.
An electric fountain shot upward its
iridescent spray, now green, now orange, now violet,
and rained down again upon its own bosom and into a
gilt basin shaped like a grotto with the sea weeping
round it. And out of its foam, wraithlike, rose
a marble Aphrodite, white limbed, bathed in light.
On the topmost of a flight of marble
steps a woman sang of love who had defiled it.
At candle-shaded tables thick tongues wagged through
thick aromas and over thick foods, and as the drama
was born rhythmic out of the noisy dithyramb, so through
these heavy discords rose the tink of Venetian goblets,
thin and pure the reedy music of grinning
Pan blowing his pipes.
Rose-colored light lay like a blush
of pleasure over a shining table spread beside the
coping of the fount. A captain bowed with easy
recognition and drew out two chairs. A statue-like
waiter, born but to obey and, obeying, sweat, bowed
less easy recognition and bent his spine to the backaching,
heartbreaking angle of servitude. And through
the gleaming maze of tables, light-footed as if her
blood were foaming, Mrs. Violet Smith, tossing the
curling ribbon of a jest over one shoulder. Following
her Mr. Jimmie Fitzgibbons, smiling.
“Here, sit on this side of the
table, Doll, so you can see the big show.”
“Gee!”
“It’s the best table in the room to see
the staircase dancing.”
“Gee!”
“Told you I was going to show
you a classy time to-night, didn’t I, Doll?”
“Yeh, but but I ain’t
dressed for a splash like this, Jimmie, I I
ain’t.”
“Say, they know me round here,
Doll. They know I’d fall for a pair of
eyes like yourn, if you was doing time on a rock-pile
and I had to bring you in stripes.”
“I’m a sight!”
“If you wasn’t such a
little pepper-box I’d blow you to a feather or
two.”
“Ain’t no pepper-box!”
“You used to be, Doll.
Two years back there wasn’t a girl behind the
counter ever gimme the cold storage like you did.
I liked your nerve, too, durned if I didn’t!”
“I I only thought you was guyin’.”
“I ’ain’t forgot,
Doll, the time I asked you out to dinner one night
when you was lookin’ pretty blue round the gills,
and you turned me down so hard the whole department
gimme the laugh. It’s a good thing I ’ain’t
got no hard feelings.”
“Honest, Jimmie, I ”
“That was just before you stole
the march on me with the Charley from the gents’
furnishing. I ain’t holding it against you,
Doll, but you gotta be awful nice to me to make up
for it, eh?”
A shower of rose-colored rain from
the fountain threw its soft blush across her face.
“Aw, Jimmie, don’t rub
it in! Ain’t I tryin’ hard enough
to to square myself? I I
was crazy with the heat two years ago. I aw,
I Now it’s different. I It’s
like you say, Jimmie, you ’ain’t got no
hard feelings.” She swallowed a rising
in her throat and took a sip of clear, cold water.
A light film of tears swam in her eyes. “You
’ain’t, have you, Jimmie?”
He leaned across the table and out
of the hearing of the attendant waiter. “Not
if we understand each other, Doll. You stick to
me and you’ll wear diamonds. Gad!
I bet if I had two more fillies like Violet I’d
run Diamond Pat Cassidy’s string of favorites
back to pasture, you little queenie, you!”
Her timid glance darted like the hither
and thither of a wind-blown leaf. “I ain’t
much of a looker for a Broadway palace like you’ve
brought me to, Jimmie. Look at ’em, all
dolled up over there. Honest, Jimmie, I I
feel ashamed.”
“Just you stick to me, peaches,
and there ain’t one at that table that’s
got on anything you can’t have twice over.
I know that gang the pink queen and all.
‘Longside of you they look like stacks o’
bones tied up in a rag o’ satin.”
“Aw, Jimmie, look at ’em, so blond and
all!”
“They’re a broken-winded
bunch. Look at them bottles on their table!
We’re going to have twice as many and only one
color in our glasses, kiddo. Yellow, the same
yellow as your hair, the kinda yellow that’s
mostly gold. That’s the kind of bubble water
we’re going to buy, kiddo!”
“Jimmie, such a spender!”
“That’s me!”
“It’s sure like the girls say the
sky’s your limit.”
“Look, Doll, there’s the
swellest little dancer in this town one
swell little pal and a good sport. Watch her,
kiddo watch her do that staircase dance.
Ain’t she a lalapaloo!”
A buxom nymph of the grove, whose
draperies floated from her like flesh-colored mist,
spun to the wild passion of violins up the eight marble
steps of the marble flight. A spotlight turned
the entire range of the spectrum upon her. She
was like a spinning tulip, her draperies folding her
in a cup of sheerest petals, her limbs shining through.
“Classy, ain’t she, Doll?”
“Well, I guess!”
“Wanna meet her? There
ain’t none of ’em that ’ain’t
sat at my table many a time.”
“I like it better with just you, Jimmie.”
“Sweetness, don’t you
look at me like that or you’ll get me so mixed
up I’ll go out and buy the Metropolitan Tower
for your Christmas present. Whatta you want for
Christmas eh, Doll?”
“Aw, Jimmie, I don’t want
nothing. I ’ain’t got no right to
take nothing from you!” She played with the
rich, unpronounceable foods on her plate and took
a swallow of golden liquid to wash down her fiery confusion.
“I ’ain’t got no right.”
“When I get to likin’
a little girl there ain’t nothing she ’ain’t
got a right to.”
“Aw, Jimmie, when you talk like that I feel
so so ”
“So what, Doll?”
“So so ”
“Gowann, Doll.”
“Aw, I can’t say it. You’ll
think I’m fresh.”
But she regarded him with the nervous
eyes of a gazelle and the red swam high up into her
hair, and he drained his glass down to the bottom of
its hollow stem and leaned his warming face closer.
“You treat me white, sweetness,
and understand me right, and you won’t be sorry
for nothing you say. Drink, Doll, drink to you
‘n’ me you ‘n’
me.”
Their bubble-thin glasses met in a
tink and a pledge and her ready laughter rose in duet
with his. She caught the lilt of a popular song
from, the tenpiece orchestra and sang upward with the
tirralirra of a lark, and the group at the adjoining
table threw her a shout. Mr. Fitzgibbons beat
a knife-and-fork tattoo on his plate and pinched her
cheek lightly, gritting his teeth in a fine frenzy
of delight.
“That’s the way to make
’em sit up and take notice, Doll, that’s
the way I like ’em. Live! As live
and frisky as colts!”
An attendant placed a souvenir of
the occasion beside her plate a white wool
bear, upright and with bold bead eyes and a flare of
pink bow beneath its chin.
“Oh-h-h!”
“See, Doll, a Teddy bear!
By Gad! a Teddy bear with his arms stretched out to
hug her! Gad! if I was that Teddy I’d hug
the daylight out of her, too! Gad! wouldn’t
I!”
Mrs. Violet Smith wafted the bead-eyed
toy a kiss, then slapped him sharply sidewise, toppling
him in a heap, and her easy laughter mingled with
her petulance.
“I wanna big grizzly, Jimmie;
a great big brown grizzly bear with a grin. I
wanna big brown grizzly.”
“’Ain’t you got
one, Doll? A little white one with a pink bow.
Here, let’s give him a drink!”
But the petulance grew upon her, nor
would she be gainsaid. “I wanna big brown
grizzly a great big brown one with a grin.”
“Aw, Doll, look at this little
white one a classy little white one.
Look at his nose, cutie, made out of a button.
Look, ain’t that some nose! Look, ain’t ”
“A big brown one that I can
dance with, Jimmie. I wanna dance. Gee! who
could dance with a little dinky devil like that!
I wanna dance, Jimmie, honest I could dance with a
great big brown one if he was big enough. I Gee,
I wanna dance. Jimmie, honest, I could dance with
a great big brown one if he was big enough. I Gee!
I wanna dance, Jimmie! Gee, I wanna ”
He whacked the table and flashed the
twinkle of a wink to the waiter. “Gad!
Doll, if you look at me with them frisky eyes I ”
“I wanna bear, Jimmie, a great big brown ”
“Waiter!”
“A great big brown one, Jimmie,
with a grin. Tell him a great big brown one!”
“Waiter, that ain’t no
kind of a souvenir to bring a lady a cheap
bunch o’ wool like that. Bring her a great
big brown one ”
“A great big brown one with a grin, tell him,
Jimmie.”
“We have no brown ones, sir; only the small
white ones for the ladies.”
“Get one, then! Get out
and buy the biggest one they got on Broadway.
Get out and get one then!”
“But, sir, the ”
“If the stores ain’t open,
bust ’em open! I ain’t the best customer
this joint has got not to get service when my lady
friend wants to dance with a great big brown bear.
If my lady friend can’t get a great big brown
bear ”
“With a grin, Jimmie.”
“ with a grin, there
are other places where she can get two great big brown
bears if she wants ’em.”
“I’ll see, sir. I’ll see what
I can do.”
Mr. Fitzgibbons brought a fist down
upon the table so that the dishes rattled and the
wine lopped out of the glasses. “Sure you’ll
see, and quick, too! A great big brown bear,
d’you hear? My lady friend wants to dance,
don’t you, Doll? You wanna dance, and nothing
but a great big brown bear won’t do eh,
Doll?”
“With a grin, Jimmie!”
“With a grin, d’ye hear?”
He whacked at her hand in delight and they laughed
in right merry duet.
“Oh, Jimmie, you’re killing!”
“The sky’s my limit!”
She nibbled at a peach whose cheeks
were pink as her own, and together from the great
overflowing bowl of fruits they must trim her hat with
its boyish brim. First, a heavy bunch of black
hothouse grapes that she pinned deftly to the crown,
a cluster of cherries, a purple plum, a tangerine
stuck at a gay angle. They surveyed their foolish
labor of caprice with little rills of laughter that
rose and fell, and when she replaced her hat the cherries
bobbed and kissed her cheek and the adjoining group
leaned to her in the kinship of merriment.
“It’s a sweller trimming
than I gave it last Tuesday, Jimmie. Look how
tight it’s all pinned on. Look at the cherries!
I’m going to blow ’em right off and then
eat ’em eat ’em! Pf-f-f-f!”
She made as if to catch them with
pursed lips, but they bobbed sidewise, and he regarded
her with a swelling pride, then glanced about the room,
pleased at the furor that followed her little antics.
“Gad, Doll, you’re a winner!
I can pick ’em every time! You ain’t
dolled up like the rest of ’em, but you’re
a winner!”
“Oh-oh-oh!”
“That’s the ticket, waiter!
I knew there wasn’t nothing round here that
tin wouldn’t buy. I guess that ain’t
some great big brown grizzly with a grin for you,
Doll!”
“Oh-oh-oh!”
“I guess they didn’t rustle
round when your Uncle Fuller began to get sore, and
get a great big brown one for you! Gad! the biggest
I ever seen almost as big as you, Doll!
That’s the ticket! There ain’t anything
in this town tin can’t buy!”
“Oh-oh-oh!” She lifted
the huge toy off the silver tray held out to her and
buried her shining face in the soft, silky wool.
“Ain’t he a beauty? Ain’t he
the softest, brownest beauty?”
“Now, peaches, now cherries,
now you little fancy-fruit stand, there goes the music.
Let’s see that dance!”
“Aw, Jimmie, I I was only kiddin’!”
“Kiddin’ nothing!
Come now, Doll, I blew me ten bucks if I blew me a
cent for that bunch of wool. Come now, let’s
see that dance you been blowing about! Go as
far as you like, Doll!”
“I honest, I was only guyin’,
Jimmie.”
“Don’t be a quitter and
make me sore, Doll! I wanna show ’em I pick
the live ones every time. There’s the music!”
“Aw, I ”
“Go as far as you like, Doll.
Here, gimme your hat! Go to it, sister. If
you land in the fountain by mistake I’ll blow
you to the swellest new duds on the Avenue.”
“I don’t know no dances
no more, Jimmie. I I can’t dance
with this big old thing anyways. Look, he’s
almost as big as me!”
“Go it alone, then, Doll; but
get up and show ’em. Get up and show ’em
that I don’t pick nothing but the livest!
Get up and show ’em, Doll; get up and show ’em!”
She set down her glass suddenly and
pirouetted to her feet. “Here I go Jimmie!”
“Go to it, Doll!”
She leaped forward in her narrow little
skirt, laughing. Chairs scraped back and a round
of applause went with her. Knives and forks beat
tattoo on frail glasses; a tinsel ball flung from
across the room fell at her feet. She stooped
to it, waved it, and pinned it to her bosom. Her
hair, rich as Australian gold, half escaped its chignon
and lay across her shoulders. She danced light
as the breeze up the marble stairway, and at its climax
the spotlight focused on her, covering her with the
sheen of mica; then just as lightly down the steps
again, so rapidly that her hair was tossed outward
in a fairy-like effect of spun gold.
“Go to it, Doll. I’m here to back
you!”
“Dare me, Jimmie?”
“Dare what?”
“Dare me?”
“Yeh, I dare you to do anything
your little heart desires. Gad! you Gad!
if she ’ain’t!”
Like a bird in flight she danced to
the gold coping, paused like an audacious Undine in
a moment of thrilled silence, and then into the purple
and gold, violet and red rain of the electric fountain,
her arms outstretched in a radiant tableau vivant,
water crowding in about her knees, spray dancing on
her upturned face.
“Gad! the little daredevil!
I didn’t think she had it in her. Gad! the
little devil!”
Clang! Clang! Tink! Tink! “Bravo,
kiddo! Who-o-o-p!”
Shaking the spray out of her eyes,
her hair, she emerged to a grand orchestral flare.
The same obsequious hands that applauded her helped
her from the gold coping. Waiters dared to smile
behind their trays. Up to her knees her dark-cloth
skirt clung dankly. Water glistened on her shoulders,
spotted her blouse. Mr. Jimmie Fitzgibbons lay
back in his chair, weak from merriment.
“Gad! I didn’t think she had it in
her! Gad! I didn’t!”
“Bo-o-o-o!” She shook
herself like a dainty spaniel, and he grasped the
table to steady himself against his laughter.
“Gad! I didn’t!”
“Fine weather for ducks!”
“Gad!”
“I’m a nice girl and they treat me like
a sponge.”
“Gad!”
“April weather we’re havin’, ain’t
it?”
“You ain’t much wet, are you, Doll?”
“Bo-o-o-o!”
“Here, waiter, get the lady
a coat or something. Gad! you’re the hit
of the place, Doll! Aw, you ain’t cold,
hon? Look, you ain’t even wet through what
you shaking about?”
She drew inward little breaths of
shivery glee. “I ain’t wet! Say,
whatta you think that fountain’s spouting gasoline?
I ain’t wet! Looka
my hair curling up like it does in a rain-storm!
Feel my skirt down here at the hem! Can you beat
it? I ain’t wet, he says!”
“Here, drink this, Doll, and warm up.”
“No.”
She threw a dozen brilliant glances
into the crowd, tossed an invitational nod to the
group adjoining, and clapped her hands for the iridescent
Christmas ball that dangled over their table.
“Here, send ’er over here,
give you leave. I’m some little catcher
myself.”
It bounded to her light as air, and
she caught it deftly, tossed it ceilingward until
it bounced against an incandescent bulb, tossed it
again, caught it lightly, nor troubled to heed the
merry shouts for its return.
From across the room some one threw
her a great trailing ribbon of gilt paper. She
bound it about her neck like a ruff. A Christmas
star with a fluted tissue-paper edge floated into
her lap. She wore it like an earring, waggling
it slyly so that her curls were set a-bobbing.
“Gimme my bear.”
She hugged the woolly image to her
as if she would beg its warmth, her teeth clicking
the while with chill.
“Take a little swallow or two to warm you up,
Doll!”
“Gee! I took your dare, Jimmie and and br-r-r-r!”
“A little swallow, Doll!”
“I took your dare, Jimmie, and
I I can feel my skirt shrinking up like
it was rigging. I I guess I’ll
have to go to work next week in a sheet.”
“Didn’t I tell you I was backing this
toot, sister?”
“I didn’t have no right to dive in there
and spoil my duds, Jimmie. I ”
“Who had a better right?”
“Ain’t it just like a
nut like me? But I ’ain’t had a live
time for so long I I lost my head.
But I ’ain’t got no right to spoil the
only duds I got to my back. Looka this waist;
the color’s running. I ought to I Oh,
like I wasn’t in enough of a mess already without without acting
the crazy nut!”
“Aw, Doll, cut the tragedy!
Didn’t I tell you I was going to blow you to
anything your little heart desires?”
“But the only duds I got to
my back, Jimmie! Oh, ain’t I a nut when
I get started, Jimmie! Ain’t I a nut!”
She regarded him with tears in her
eyes and the wraith of a smile on her lips. A
little drop escaped and she dashed it away and her
smile broke out into sunshine.
“Ain’t I a nut, though!”
“You’re a real, full-blooded
little winner, that’s what you are, and you
can’t say I ain’t one, neither, Doll.
Here’s your damages. Now go doll yourself
up like a Christmas tree!”
He tossed a yellowback bill lightly
into her lap, and she made a great show of rejecting
it, even pushing it toward him across the table and
to the floor.
“I Aw, what kind
of a girl do you think I am? There, take your
money. I honest, I What
kind of a girl do you think I am?”
“Now, now, sister, don’t
we understand each other? Them’s damages,
kiddo. Wasn’t it me dared you? Ain’t
it my fault you doused your duds?”
“Yes, but ”
“Aw, come now, Doll, don’t
pull any of that stuff on me! You and me understand
each other not?”
“Yes, but ”
“Take and forget it. You
won it. That ain’t even interest on the
filly’s winnings. Take it. I never
started nothing in my life I couldn’t see the
finish to. Take it and forget it!” He crammed
the bill into her reluctant fingers, closed them over
it, and sealed her little fist with a grandiose pat.
“Forget it, Doll!”
But her lids fluttered and her confusion
rose as if to choke her. “I honest,
I Aw, what kind of a girl do you think I
am?”
“I told you I think you’re
the sweetest, livest little queen I know.”
“Aw!”
“Come on, little live wire.
Put on your swell, hothouse-trimmed hat. I’m
going to take you to a place farther up the street
where there are two staircases and a fountain twice
as big for you to puddle your little footsies in.
Waiter here check get
a cab! Here, little Doll, quit your shivering
and shaking and lemme help you on lemme
help you.”
She was suddenly pale, but tense-lipped
like a woman who struggles on the edge of a swoon.
“Jimmie, honest, I I’m shaking
with chills! Jimmie I I
can’t go in these duds, neither. I I
gotta go home now. He’ll be wakin’
and I I gotta go home now. I’m
all shaking.” In spite of herself her lips
quivered and an ague shot through her body. “I I
gotta go home now, Jimmie. Look at me shivering,
all shivering!”
“Home now!” His eyes retreated
behind a network of calculating wrinkles and she paled
as she sat. “Home now? Say, Doll, I
thought ”
“Honest, I wanna go to the other
place, but I’m cold, Jimmie, and wet
through. I gotta keep well, Jimmie, and I I
oughtta go home.”
“Pah!” he said, spluttering
out the end of a bitten cigar. “If I’d
‘a’ known you was a puny Doll like that!”
“I ain’t, Jimmie; I ”
“If I’d ‘a’
known you was that puny! It’s like I been
sayin’, Doll, it ain’t like you and me
don’t understand each other. I ”
“Sure we do, Jimmie. Honest,
I To-morrow night I I can fix
it so that that the sky’s my limit.
I’ll meet you at Hinkley’s at eight, cross
my heart on a wishbone, Jimmie.”
“Cross it!”
“There!”
“To-night, Jimmie, I’m
chilled all in. Look at me in these
duds, Jimmie. I’m cold. Oh, Jimmie,
get me a cab quick, please; I’m co-old!”
She relaxed frankly into a chill that
rumbled through her and jarred her knees together.
A little rivulet of water oozed from her hair, zigzagged
down her cheek and seeped into her blouse, but her
blue-lipped smile persisted.
“Ain’t I a nut, though!
But wait till you see me dolled up to-morrow night,
Jimmie! Eight at Hinkley’s. I didn’t
have a hunch how cold how cold that water
was. Next time they gotta heat it.”
“Got to heat it is good, Doll!
All I got to do is ask once, and my word’s law
round here. Here, take a swallow and warm up,
hon. You don’t need to go home if you warm
up right.”
But the glass tinked against her teeth.
“I I can’t’”
“Gowann, kiddo!”
“I’ll take some home with
me to warm me up when I get in bed, Jimmie. I Not
that kind, give it to me red like you did last Tuesday
night, without the sparkles. That’s the
kind to warm me up. Order a bottle of red without
the sparkles, Jimmie without the sparkles.
I I can’t stand no more bubbles to-night.”
He helped her into her coat, and she
leaned to him with a little movement of exhaustion
that tightened his hold of her.
“Hurry a cab, waiter; the lady’s sick!”
“Ain’t I a nut, though!”
“Poor wet little Doll, I didn’t
think you was much more’n damp! You gotta
make up for this to-morrow night, Doll. Eight
sharp, Doll, and no funny business to-morrow night.”
“Eight sharp!”
“Swell little sport you are,
gettin’ the chills! But we understand each
other, don’t we, Doll?”
“Sure, Jimmie!”
“Come on, hon. Shakin’
like a leaf, ain’t you? Wait till I get
you out in the cab, I’ll warm you up. You
look just like a Christmas doll, all rigged up in
that hat and that star and all just like
a Christmas doll.”
“My grizzly, my brown grizzly! Gee, I nearly
forgot my grizzly!”
And she packed the huge toy under
her arm, along with the iridescent ball and the gewgaws
of her plunder, and out into the cab, where an attendant
tucked a bottle of the red warming wine between them.
“Ready, Doll?”
“Ready.”
The silent storm had continued its
silent work, weaving its blanket softer, deeper.
The straggling pedestrians of early morning bent their
heads into it and drove first paths through the immaculate
mantle. The fronts of owl cars and cabs were
coated with a sugary white rime. Broadway lay
in a white lethargy that is her nearest approach to
sleep.
Snow-plows were already abroad clearing
tracks, dry snow-dust spinning from under them.
At Longacre Square the flakes blew upward in spiral
flurries, erratic, full of antics. The cab snorted,
plunged, leaped forward. Mr. Fitzgibbons inclined
toward the little huddle beside him.
“Sweetness, now I got you!
You little sweetness you, now I got you, sweetness!”
“Jimmie! Quit! Quit! You you
old you you ”
The breath of a forgotten perfume
and associations webby with age stir through the lethargy
of years. Memories faded as flowers lift their
heads. The frail scent of mignonette roused with
the dust of letters half a century old, and eyes too
dim and watery to show the glaze of tears turn backward
fifty years upon the mignonette-bowered scene of love’s
young dream. A steel drawing-room car rolling
through the clean and heavy stench of cow pasture,
and a steady-eyed, white-haired capitalist, rolling
on his rolling-stock, leans back against the upholstery
and gazes with eyes tight closed upon a steady-eyed,
brown-haired youngster herding in at eventide.
The whiff of violets from a vender’s tray, and
a young man dreams above his ledger. The reek
of a passing brewer’s wagon, and white faces
look after, suddenly famished.
When the familiar pungency of her
boarding-house flowed in and round Mrs. Violet Smith,
she paused for a moment and could not push through
the oppression. Then, with the associations of
odor crowding in about her, she stripped herself of
her gewgaws, as if here even the tarnished tinsel
of pleasure could have no place, and tiptoed up the
weary wind of three unlighted flights and through
the thick staleness of unaired halls.
At the third landing a broom and a
dirty tangled debris of scrub-cloths lay on the topmost
stair, as if an aching slavey had not found the strength
to remove them. They caught the heel of her shoe,
pitching her forward so that she fell sharply against
her own door. In the gloom she paused for a palpitating
moment, her hands pressing her breast, listening;
then deposited her laden hat, the little pile of tinsel
and the woolen bear on the floor outside the door.
“Vi! Vi! That you, dear?”
She pulled at her strength and opened
the door suddenly, blowing in like a gale. “It’s
me, darlin’.”
She was suddenly radiant as morning,
and a figure on the bed in the far corner of the dim-lit
room raised to greet her with vague, white-sleeved
arms outstretched. She flew to their haven.
“Darlin’, darlin’, how you feeling?”
“Vi, poor tired little girl!”
“Harry, how you feeling, darlin’?
They worked the force all night first time
ever. How you feeling, darlin’ how?”
And she burrowed kisses on the poor, white face, and
then deep into the tiny crib and back again into the
vague white arms. “Oh, my babies, both of
you! How you feeling, darlin’? So
worried I’ve been. And the kid! Oh,
God, darlin’, I I been so busy rightin’
stock and all all night they kept the force.
I got such news, darlin’. We should worry
that it’s snowing! Such news, darlin’!
The kid, Harry did Mrs. Quigley bring her
milk on time? How you feeling, darlin’!
You ’ain’t coughed, have you?”
He kissed her damp hair and turned
her face up like a flower, so that his deep-sunk eyes
read into hers. “I ’ain’t coughed
once since noon, darlin’. We should worry
if it snows is right! A doctor’s line of
talk can’t knock me out. I can buck up
without going South. I ’ain’t coughed
once since noon, Vi; I ”
A strangling paroxysm shook him in
mockery of his words, and she crouched low beside
the bed, her face etched in the agony of bearing each
rack and pain with him.
“Oh, my darlin’! Oh oh ”
“It’s all right now, Vi!
It’s all right! It’s all right!”
“Oh, my darlin’, yes, yes, it’s
all right now! All right now!”
She ran her hands over his face, as
if to reassure herself of his very features, nor would
she let him read into her streaming eyes.
“Lay quiet, Harry darlin’; it’s
all right! Oh, my darlin’!”
“’S-s-s-s-h, Vi dear! Sure it’s
all right. ’S-s-s-s-h! Don’t
cry, Vi!”
“I I-oh oh ”
“‘S-s-s-s-h, darlin’! Don’t!”
“I oh, I can’t help it; but
I ain’t cryin’, Harry, I ain’t!”
“All worn out and cold and wet,
that’s what’s a-hurtin’ you.
All worn out and hysterical and all! Poor little
Vi-dee!”
“I I ain’t.”
“It’s all over now, Vi.
See, I’m all right! Everything’s all
right! Just my luck to have the first one since
noon right when you get home. It’s all
over now, Vi. Everything’s over, Christmas
rush and all. Don’t you worry about the
snow, neither, darlin’. I knew it would
scare you up, but it takes more than a doctor’s
line of talk to down-and-out me.”
“I I ain’t worryin’,
darlin’.”
“You’re the one I been
worryin’ about, Vi. It’s just like
the kid was worried too cried when Mrs.
Quigley sung her to sleep.”
“Oh, my baby! Oh, my baby!”
“Don’t worry, dear.
She don’t even know it’s Christmas a
little thing like her. And, anyways, look, Vi-dee,
Mrs. Quigley brought her up that little stuffed lamb
there. But she don’t even know it’s
Christmas, dear; she don’t even know. You
poor, tired little kiddo!”
“I ain’t tired.”
“I been lying here all night,
sweet, thinking and thinking a little doll
like you hustling and a big hulk like me lying here.”
“’S-s-s-s-h! Honest,
Harry, it’s fun being back in the store again
till you get well honest!”
“I never ought to let you done
it in the beginning, darlin’. Remember
that night, even when I was strong enough to move a
ox team, I told you there was bum lungs ’way
back somewhere in my family? I never ought to
let you take a chance, Vi-dee I never ought!”
“‘S-s-s-s-h! Didn’t
I say I’d marry you if you was playin’
hookey from the graveyard? Wasn’t that
the answer I give you even when you was strong as
a whole team?”
“I didn’t have no right
to you, baby the swellest little peach in
the store! I I didn’t have no
right to you! Vi-dee, what’s the matter?
You look like you got the horrors the horrors,
hon! Vi-dee!”
“Oh, don’t, Harry, don’t.
I I can’t stand it, hon. I I’m
tired, darlin’, darlin’, but don’t
look like that, darlin’. I got
news I got news.”
’"S-s-s-s-h, baby, you’re
all hysterical from overwork and all tired out from
worry. There ain’t no need to worry, baby.
Quigley’ll say it can go over another week.
She ain’t dunning for board, she ain’t,
baby.”
“I oh I ”
“Shaking all over, baby, just
like you got the horrors! I bet you got scared
when you see the snow coming and tackled Ingram to-day,
and you’re blue. What you got the horrors
about, baby Ingram?”
“No! No!”
“I told you not to ask the old
skinflint. I told you they won’t do nothing
after twelve weeks. I ain’t bluffed off
by snow-storm, Vi. I don’t need South no
more’n you do, I don’t, baby. I ain’t
a dead one by a long shot yet! Vi, for God’s
sake, why you got the horrors?”
She tried to find words and to smile
at him through the hot rain of her tears, and the
deep-rooted sobs that racked her subsided and she
snuggled closer and burrowed into his pillow.
“I I can’t
keep it no longer, darlin’. I ain’t
cryin’, I I ’ain’t got
the horrors. I’m laffin’. I I
seen him, Harry Ingram I seen
him just before closin’, and and oh,
Harry, you won’t believe it, he said he I I’m
laffin’ for joy, Harry!”
“What? What, Vi? What?”
She fumbled into the bosom of her
blouse and slid a small folded square of yellowback
bill into his hand.
“What? What, Vi? What?”
“A cool hundred, darlin’.
Ingram the Aid Society, because it’s
Christmas, darlin’. They opened up a
cool hundred! We we can light out
To-morrow, darlin’. A cool hundred!
Old Ingram, the old skinflint, he opened up like like
a oyster. South, all of us, to-morrow, darlin’;
it ain’t nothing for me to get a job South.
When I seen it was snowin’ I’d ‘a’
killed somebody to get it. I I had
to have it and we got it, darlin’, we we
got it a cool hundred!”
He lay back on the pillow, suddenly
limp, the bill fluttering to the coverlet, and she
slid her arm beneath his head.
“You could have knocked me down,
too, darlin’. Easy, just like that he forked
over. ‘What’s a Aid Society for?’
he kept sayin’. ’What’s a Aid
Society for?’”
“Vi, I ”
“Don’t cry, darlin’, don’t
cry. I just can’t stand it!”
“I ”
“’S-s-s-s-h! Easy, just like that
he gimme it, darlin’.”
“And me lying here hatin’
him for a skinflint and his store for a bloodsucker
and the Aid Society for a fake!”
“Yes, yes, darlin’.”
“I feel new already, Vi.
I can feel the sun already shining through me.
If he was here, I I could just kiss his
hand; that’s how it feels for a fellow to get
his nerve back. I got my chance now, Vi; there
ain’t nothing can keep me down. Just like
he says I’ll be a new man out there.
Look, hon, just talking about it! Feel how I got
some strength back already. An hour ago I couldn’t
hold you like this.”
“Oh, my darlin’!”
He sat up suddenly in bed and drew
her into his arms and she laid her cheek against his,
and in the silence, from the trundle crib beside them,
the breathing of a child rose softly, fell softly.
“I I blew us to a
real Christmas, darlin’, us and the kid.
I I couldn’t help it. I couldn’t
bear to have her wake up without it, Harry, her and
you and me.”
“A real Christmas, baby!”
“Red wine for you, darlin’,
like I brought you last Tuesday night and warmed you
up so nice. The kind the doctor says is so grand
for you, darlin’ red wine without
bubbles like he says you gotta have.”
“Red wine!”
“Yeh, and black grapes like
I brought you last Tuesday, and like he says you oughtta
have black grapes and swell fruit that’s
good for you, darlin’.”
“A real blow-out, Vi-dee.”
“A bear for the kid, Harry!”
“Vi!”
“Yeh, a real brown grizz, with
the grin and all, like she cried for in the window
that Sunday a real big brown one with the
grin and all.”
“That cost a real bunch of money, sweet!”
“Yeh, I blew me like sixty for
it, hon, but she cried for it that Sunday and she
had to have a Christmas, didn’t she, darlin’,
even if she is too little. It it would
‘a’ broke my heart to have her wake up
to-morrow without one.”
He regarded her through the glaze of tears. “My
little kiddo!”
’"S-s-s-s-h!”
“It just don’t seem fair for you to have
to ”
“‘S-s-s-s-h! Everything’s
fair, darlin’, in love and war. All the
rules for the game of living ain’t written down the
Eleventh Commandment and the Twelfth Commandment and
the Ninth Commandment.”
“My little kiddo!”
“To-morrow, Harry, to-morrow,
Harry, we’re going! South, darlin’,
where he says the sun is going to warm you through
and through. To-morrow, darlin’!”
“The next day, sweetness.
You’re all worn out and to-morrow’s Christmas,
and ”
But the shivering took hold of her
again, and when she pressed her hand over his mouth
he could feel it trembling.
“To-morrow, darlin’, to-morrow
before eight. Every day counts. Promise
me, darlin’. I I just can’t
live if you don’t. To-morrow before eight.
Promise me, darlin’! Oh, promise me, darlin’!”
“Poor, tired little kiddo, to-morrow
before eight, then, to-morrow before eight we go.”
Her head relaxed.
“You’re tired out, darlin’.
Get to bed, baby. We got a big day to-morrow.
We got a big day to-morrow, darlin’! Get
to bed, Vi-dee.”
“I wanna spread out her Christmas
first, Harry. I want her to see it when she wakes
up. I couldn’t stand her not seem’
it.”
She scurried to the hall and back
again, and at the foot of the bed she spread her gaudy
wares: An iridescent rubber ball glowing with
six colors; a ribbon of gilt paper festooned to the
crib; a gleaming Christmas star that dangled and gave
out radiance; a huge brown bear standing upright,
and with bead eyes and a grin.