Physics can answer whence goes the
candle-flame when it vanishes into blackness and what
becomes of sound when the great maw of silence digests
it. But what science can know the destiny of the
pins and pins and pins, and what is the oblivion which
swallows that great army of street-walking women whose
cheeks are too pink and who dwell outside the barbed-wire
fence of respectability?
Let the pins go, unless one lies on
the sidewalk point toward you, and let this be the
story of Mae Munroe, herself one of the pink-cheeked
grenadiers of that great army whose destiny is as vague
as the destiny of pins, and who in more than one vain
attempt to climb had snagged her imitation French
embroidery petticoats on the outward side of that
barbed-wire fence.
Then, too, in the years that lead
up to this moment Mae Munroe had taken on weight the
fair, flabby flesh of lack of exercise and no lack
of chocolate bonbons. And a miss is as good
as a mile, or a barbed-wire fence, only so long as
she keeps her figure down and her diet up. When
Mae Munroe ran for a street-car she breathed through
her mouth for the first six blocks after she caught
it. The top button of her shoe was no longer
equal to the span. But her eyes were still blue,
rather like sky when you look straight up; her hair
yellow to the roots; and who can gainsay that a dimple
in the chin is not worth two in the cheeks?
In the florid disorder of a red velvet
sitting-room cluttered with morning sunshine and unframed,
unsigned photographs of stage favorites, empty bottles
and dented-in cushions, Mae Munroe stirred on her high
mound of red sateen sofa-pillows; placed her paper-bound
book face down on the tabouret beside her; yawned;
made a foray into an uncovered box of chocolate bonbons;
sank her small teeth into a creamy oozing heart and
dropped a particle of the sweet into the sniffling,
upturned snout of a white wool dog cuddled in the
curve of her arm; yawned again.
“No more tandy! Make ittsie
Snookie Ookie sick! Make muvver’s ittsie
bittsie bow-wow sick! No! No!”
Each admonition she accompanied with
a slight pat designed to intimidate further display
of appetite. The small bunch in her arms raised
his head and regarded her with pink, sick little eyes,
his tongue darting this way and that in an aftermath
of relish; then fell to licking her bare forearm with
swift, dry strokes.
“Muvver’s ittsie bittsie
Snookie! Him love him poor muvver! Him poor,
poor muvver!”
A cold tear oozed through one of Miss
Munroe’s closed eyes, zigzagged down her face,
and she laid her cheek pat against the white wool.
“Muvver just wishes she was
dead, Snookie. God! don’t she just!”
An hour she lay so. The morning
sunshine receded, leaving a certain grayness in the
cluttered room. From the rear of the flat came
the clatter of dishes and the harsh sing of water
plunging from a faucet. The book slid from its
incline on the pillow to the floor and lay with its
leaves crumpled under. The dog fell to snoring.
Another while ticked past loudly.
And as if the ticking were against her brain like drops
of water, she rose to a half-sitting posture, reached
for the small onyx clock on the mantelpiece and smothered
it beneath one of the red sateen sofa-pillows.
When she relaxed again two fresh tears waggled heavily
down her cream-colored cheeks. Then for a while
she slept, with her mouth ever so slightly open and
revealing the white line of her teeth. The tears
slid off her cheeks to the mussed frills of her negligee
and dried there.
The little dog emerged from his sleep
gaping and stretching backward his hind legs.
Mae Munroe yawned, extending her arms at full length
before her; regarded her fair ringed fingers and the
four dimples across the back of each hand; reached
for a cigarette and with the wry face of nausea tossed
it back into its box; swung to a sitting posture on
the side of the sofa, the dog springing from the curve
of her arm to the floor, shaking himself.
Her blowsy hair, burned at the ends
but the color of corn-silk, came unloosed of its morning
plait and she braided it over one shoulder, her blue
eyes fixed on space. Tears would come.
Then she rose and crossed to the golden-oak
piano between the windows, her negligee open its full
length and revealing her nightdress; crossed with
a slight limp and the dog yapping at the soiled and
lacy train; fell to manipulating the self-playing
attachment, peddling out a metallic avalanche of popular
music.
At its conclusion she swung around
on the bench, her back drooping as if under pressure
of indolence; yawned; crossed to the window and between
the parted lace curtains stood regarding the street
two stories beneath, and, beyond the patches of intervening
roofs, a limited view of the Hudson River, a barge
of coal passing leisurely up center stream, a tug
suckling at its side.
From the hallway and in the act of
mopping a margin of floor, a maid-of-all-work swung
back from all-fours and sat upright on her heels,
inserting a head of curl-papers through the open doorway.
“Play that over again, Miss
Mae. That Mustard Glide’ sure does tickle
my soles.”
Miss Munroe turned to the room with
the palm of her hand placed pat against her brow.
“God!” said she, “my head!”
“Aw, Miss Mae, can’t you
get yourself in a humor? What’s the matter
with you and me going to a movie this afternoon, eh?”
“Movie! The way every damn
thing gets on my nerves, I’d be a hit at a movie,
wouldn’t I? I’d be a hit anywheres!”
“I tell you, Miss Mae, all this
worry ain’t going to get you nowheres.
He’ll come around again all right if you only
give him time. And if he don’t, you should
worry! I tell you there ain’t one of ’em
breathes is worth more than his bank-book.”
“God! my head!”
The figure on all-fours rose to full
height, drying each forearm on her apron.
“Lay down, dearie, and just
don’t you worry. I’ve seen ’em
get spells or get holy and stay away for two months
on a stretch, and the checks not coming in regular
as clockwork like yours, neither. Two months at
a time I’ve seen ’em stick away.
Why, when I worked on the lower West Side they used
to stick away two and three months like that and then
come loafing in one night just like nothing hadn’t
happened. You ain’t got no kick coming,
Miss Mae.”
A layer of tears rose immediately
to Miss Munroe’s eyes, dimming them. She
wiped them away with one of her sleeve frills.
“Max ain’t like that and
you know it. You’ve seen for yourself how
he ’ain’t missed his every other night
in three years. You seen for yourself.”
“They’re all alike, I
tell you, Miss Mae. The best way to handle ’em
is to leave ’em alone.”
“How he’s been falling off. Loo,
all ”
“’Sh-h-h, now, Miss Mae,
don’t begin getting excited all last
night while I was rubbing your head that’s what
you kept mumbling and mumbling even after you fell
asleep. That don’t help none.”
“All last month so irregular
and now only once last week, and and not
at all this week. Good heavens! I just wonder,
I just wonder.”
“Now, just whatta you bet he’ll
be up to supper to-night, Miss Mae? If I was
you, dearie, I wouldn’t be scared, I’d
just go right to the telephone and ”
“He gets so sore, Loo.
You remember that time I telephoned him about that
case of wine he sent up and it came busted, and his
mother his old woman was in the office.
He raises hell if I try to telephone him during business.”
“Just the same, I got a hunch
he’ll be up to supper to-night, and when I get
a hunch things happen.”
“It’s his old woman, I
tell you. It’s his old woman is sniffing
things again. Say, if he’d ever let me
clap eyes on that old hag, wouldn’t I learn
her how to keep her nose out of his business alrighty.
Wouldn’t I just learn her! God! my head!”
“Lay down on the sofa, dearie,
and rest up your red eyes. Take my tip he’ll
be up to supper to-night. I’m going to order
him a double sirloin and a can of them imported ”
“Ugh! For Pete’s
sake cut it, Loo! If anybody mentions bill of
fare to me I’ll yell. Take them empty bottles
out of here, Loo, and choke that damn clock with another
pillow. My head’ll just bust if I don’t
get some sleep.”
“There, there, dearie!
Here, lemme pull down the shades.
Just try to remember there ain’t one of them
is worth more than his bank-book. I ain’t
going down to the dance with Sharkey to-night; I’m
going to stay right here and ”
“No, no, Loo. You go.
You can have that blue silk waist I promised you and
wear them red satin roses he he brought
me that time from Hot Springs. Wear ’em,
but be careful of ’em.”
“Aw, Miss Mae, with you here
like a wet rag, and if he comes who’ll fix ”
“He he ain’t
coming, Loo, and if he does I’m the one he likes
to fix his things, anyway. I wanna be alone,
Loo. I I just wanna be alone.”
“That’s just it, Miss Mae, you’re
too much alone; you ”
“For Pete’s sake, Loo,
cut it or I’ll holler. Cut the conversation,
dearie!”
“I’ll fix the candied
sweet-potatoes this morning, anyway, Miss Mae, so
if he does come ”
“I tell you I’m going
to yell, Loo, if you mention bill of fare to me.
Cover up my feet, like a good girl, and take them bottles
out and lemme sleep. My head’ll bust
if I don’t get some sleep.”
“I tell you, Miss Mae, there
ain’t one of ’em is worth more than his
bank-book. You’re always giving away everything
you got, Miss Mae. Honest, you’d give your
best blue silk coat off your back if ”
“If that’s what you’re
hinting for, Loo, for pity’s sake take it!
I don’t want it. It’s too tight for
me in the arms. Take it, Loo. I don’t
want it. I don’t want anything but to be
let alone.”
“Aw, now, Miss Mae, I didn’t mean ”
“Get out, I tell you! Get out!”
“Yes, Miss Mae.”
With a final pat to the rug across Mae Munroe’s
feet she scooped the litter of empty bottles under
one arm and hurried out smiling and closing the door
softly behind her and tiptoeing down the hallway to
the kitchen.
On the couch Mae Munroe lay huddled
with her face to the wall, her cheeks crumpled against
the white wool of the dog in her arms, her lips dry,
each breath puffing them outward. Easy tears would
flow, enhancing her lacy disorder. Noon slipped
into afternoon.
The dusk of the city which is so immediately
peppered with lights came gradually to press against
the drawn blinds. On the very crest of her unrest,
as if her mental travail had stimulated a cocaine courage,
Mae Munroe kicked aside the rug from her feet; rose
and advanced to the wall telephone; unhooked the receiver;
hooked it up again; unhooked it this time with a resolution
that tightened and whitened her lips and sent the
color high into her face; placed her mouth close to
the transmitter.
“Broad three-six.” And tapped with
one foot as she stood.
“Zincas Importing Company? I want to speak
to Mr. Max Zincas.”
Wrinkles crawled about her uncertain lips.
“This is his his mother. Yes,
Mrs. Zincas.”
She closed her eyes as she waited.
“Hello, Max? That you, Max?”
She grasped at the snout of the instrument, tiptoeing
up to it.
“It’s me, dear. But I
had to get you to the ’phone somehow. I I No,
no, don’t hang up, Max! Don’t hang
up, dear, I I got to tell you something;
I got to, dear.”
She raised herself closer to the mouthpiece for a
tighter clutch of it.
“I’m sick, dearie.
I I’m dog sick, dearie. ’Ain’t
been about in a week. The limp is bad and I’m
sick all over. I am, dear. Come up to supper
to-night, dearie. You ’ain’t been
near for for a week. I got to see you
about something. Just a quiet talk, dearie.
I I just got to see you, Max. I I’m
sick, dog sick.”
Her voice slipped up and away for
the moment, and she crammed her lacy fribble of a
handkerchief tight against her lips, tiptoeing closer
to the transmitter.
“No, no, Max, I swear to God
I won’t! Just quiet and no rough stuff.
For my sake come home to supper to-night, dearie!
I swear. It’s my thigh, and I got a fever,
dearie, that’s eating me. What? Eight!
No, that ain’t too late. Any time you can
come ain’t too late. I’ll wait.
Sure? Good-by, dearie. At eight sharp.
Good-by, dearie.”
When she replaced the receiver on
its hook, points of light had come out in her eyes
like water-lilies opening on a lake. The ashen
sheaf of anxiety folded back from her, color ran up
into her face, and she flung open the door, calling
down the length of hallway.
“Loo! Oh, Loo!”
“Huh?”
“Put a couple of bottles of
everything on ice before you go, dearie; order a double
porterhouse; open a can of them imported sausages he
sent up last month, and peel some sweet-potatoes.
Hurry, Loo, I wanna candy ’em myself. Hurry,
dearie!”
She snatched up her furry trifle of
a dog, burying her warming face in his fleece.
“M-m-muvver loves her bow-bow.
Muvver loves whole world. Muvver just loves whole
world. M-m-m-m, chocolate? Just one ittsie
bittsie piece and muvver eat half m-m-m!
La-la! Bow-wow! La! La!”
Along that end of Riverside Drive
which is so far up that rents begin to come down,
night takes on the aspect of an American Venetian carnival.
Steamboats outlined in electric lights pass like phosphorescent
phantoms up and down the Hudson River, which reflects
with the blurry infidelity of moving waters light
for light, deck for deck. Running strings of
incandescent bulbs draped up into festoons every so
often by equidistant arc-lights follow the course
of the well-oiled driveway, which in turn follows
the course of the river as truly as a path made by
a canal horse. A ledge of park, narrow as a terrace,
slants to the water’s edge, and of summer nights
lovers drag their benches into the shadow of trees
and turn their backs to the lampposts and to the world.
From the far side of the river, against
the night sky and like an ablutionary message let
slip from heaven, a soap-factory spells out its product
in terms of electric bulbs, and atop that same industrial
palisade rises the dim outline of stack and kiln.
Street-cars, reduced by distance to miniature, bob
through the blackness. At nine o’clock of
October evenings the Knickerbocker River Queen, spangled
with light and full of pride, moves up-stream with
her bow toward Albany. And from her window and
over the waves of intervening roofs Mae Munroe cupped
her hands blinker fashion about her eyes and followed
its gay excursional passage, even caught a drift of
music from its decks.
Motionless she stood there, bare-necked
and bare-armed, against the cold window-pane, inclosed
from behind with lace curtains and watching with large-pupiled
eyes the steamer slip along into the night; the black-topped
trees swaying in the ledge of park which slanted to
the water’s edge; the well-oiled driveway and
its darting traffic of two low-sliding lines of motor-cars
with acetylene eyes.
At five minutes past eight Max Zincas
fitted his key into the door and entered immediately
into the front room. On that first click of the
lock Mae Munroe stepped out from between the lace curtains,
her face carefully powdered and bleached of all its
morning inaccuracies, her lips thrust upward and forward.
“Max!”
“Whew!”
He tossed his black derby hat to the
red velvet couch and dropped down beside it, his knees
far apart and straining his well-pressed trousers
to capacity; placed a hand on each well-spread knee,
then ran five fingers through his thinning hair; thrust
his head well forward, foreshortening his face, and
regarded her.
“Well, girl,” he said, “here I am.”
“I I ”
“Lied to me, eh? Pretty
spry for a sick one, eh? Pretty slick! I
knew you was lying, girl.”
“I been sick as a dog, Max. Loo can tell
you.”
“What’s got you? Thigh?”
“God! I dun’no’! I dun’no’!”
She paused in the center of the room,
her lips trembling and the light from the chandelier
raining full upon her. High-hipped and full-busted
as Titian loved to paint them, she stood there in a
black lace gown draped loosely over a tight foundation
of white silk, and trying to compose her lips and
her throat, which arched and flexed, revealing the
heart-beats of her and the shortness of her breath.
“Is this the way to say hello
to to your Maizie, Max? Is is
this the way?” Then she crossed and leaned to
him, printing a kiss on his brow between the eyes.
“I been sick as a dog, Max. Ain’t
you going to to kiss me?”
“Come, come, now, just cut that,
Mae. Let’s have supper and get down to
brass tacks. What’s eating you?”
“Max!”
“Come, come, now, I’m
tired, girl, and got to stop off at Lenox Avenue to-night
after I leave here. Where’s your clock around
here, anyways, so a fellow knows where he’s
at?”
“There it is under the pillow
next to you, Max. I smothered it because it gets
on my nerves all day. Tick-tock, tick-tock, tick-tock,
right into my head like it was saying all the time:
‘Oh-Mae! Oh-Mae! Oh-Mae!’ till
I nearly go crazy, Max. Tick-tock God!
it it just gets me!”
He reached for the small onyx clock,
placing it upright on the mantel, and shrugged his
shoulders loosely.
“Gad!” he said, “you
wimmin! Crazy as loons, all of you and your kind.
Come, come, get down to brass tacks, girl. I’m
tired and gotta get home.”
“Home, Max?”
“Yes, home!”
“Max, ain’t ain’t this
home no more, ain’t it?”
He leaned forward, an elbow on each
knee and striking his left hand solidly into his right
palm. “Now if that’s the line of talk
you got me up here for, girl, you can cut it and cut
it quick!”
“No, no, Max, it ain’t
my line of talk. Here, sit down, dearie, in your
own chair and I’ll go and dish up.”
“Where’s Loo?”
“Her night off, poor girl.
Four nights straight she’s rubbed my head and ”
“Where’s my ”
“Right here, dearie, is your
box of pills, underneath your napkin. There,
dearie! See? Just like always.”
She was full of small movements that
were quick as grace notes: pinning the black
lace train up and about her hips; drawing out his chair;
darting with the scarcely perceptible limp down the
narrow hall, back with dishes that exuded aromatic
steam; placing them with deft, sure fingers.
Once she paused in her haste, edged up to where he
stood with one arm resting on the mantelpiece, placed
an arm on each of his shoulders and let her hands
dangle loose-wristed down his back.
“Tired boy, to-night! Huh? Maizie’s
poor tired boy!”
“Now, now!”
He removed her hands, but gently,
and strolled over to where the table lay spread beside
the cold, gilded radiator, a potted geranium in its
center, a liberal display of showy imitation pearl-handled
cutlery carefully laid out, and at each place a long-stemmed
wineglass, gold-edged and the color of amber.
“Come,” he said, “let’s eat
and get it over.”
She made no sign, but with the corners
of her lips propped bravely upward in her too red
smile made a last hurried foray into the kitchen,
returning with a covered vegetable-dish held outright
from her.
“Guess!” she cried.
“Can’t,” he said, and seated himself.
“Gowan, guess like you used to, dearie.”
He fell immediately to sampling with
short, quick stabs of his fork the dish of carmine-red
pickled beets beside his plate.
“Aw, gowan, Max, give a guess.
What did you used to pay for with six big kisses every
time I candied them for you? Guess, Max.”
“Sit down,” he said, and
with his foot shoved a small stool before her chair.
“Lordy!” she said, drawing
up en tete-a-tete, unpinning and spreading her lacy
train in glory about her, “but you’re some
little sunbeam to have around the house.”
“What these beets need is a little sugar.”
She passed him the bowl; elevated
her left foot in its slightly soiled white slipper
to the footstool; fastened her napkin to her florid
bosom with one of her numerous display of breastpins;
poured some opaque wine into his glass, coming back
to flood her own to the brim; smiled at him across
the red head of the potted geranium, as if when the
heart bleeds the heart grows light.
“Here’s to you, Max!”
He raised his glass and drank in through
his rather heavy mustache, then flecked it this way
and that with his napkin “Ahh-h-h-h, that’s
the stuff!”
“S’more?”
“Yah-h-h-h-h-h!”
“Such a cotton mouth my bad boy brought home.”
“Aha! Fee, fie, fum! Aha!”
“I broiled it under the single
burner, Max, slow like you like. Here, you carve
it, dearie. Just like always, eh?”
His fleshy, blue-shaved face took
on the tenseness of concentrated effort, and he cut
deep into the oozing beef, the red juice running out
in quick streams.
“Ah-h-h-h-h!”
“No, no, you keep that, Max; it’s your
rare piece.”
“Gravy?”
“Yes, dearie.”
The small dog shook himself and rose
from sleep and the depths of a pillow, nosing at her
bare elbow.
“Was muvver’s ittsie Snookie Ookie such
a hungry bow-wow?”
He yapped shortly, pawing her.
“Ask big bossie sitting over
there carving his din-din if him got chocolate tandy
in him pocket like always for Snookie Ookie. No,
no, bad red meat no good for ittsie bittsie bow-wow.
Go ask big bossie what him got this time in him pocket
for Snookie. Aw, look at him, Max; he remembers
how you used to bring him ”
“Get down! Get down, I
said! For God’s sake get that little red-eyed,
mangy cur out of here while we’re eating, can’t
you? Good gad! can’t a man eat a meal in
this joint without having that dirty cur whining around?
Get him down off your dress there, Mae. Get out,
you little cur! G-e-t out!”
“Max!”
“Chocolate candy in my pocket.
Chocolate arsenic, you mean! My damn-fool days
are over.”
“What’s got you, Max?
Didn’t you buy him for me yourself that day at
the races five whole years ago? Wasn’t
the first things you asked for, when you woke in the
hospital with your burns, me and and Snookie?
What’s soured you, Max? What? What?”
“I’m soured on seeing
a strapping, healthy woman sniveling over a little
sick-eyed cur. Ain’t that enough to sour
any man? Why don’t you get up and out and
exercise yourself like the right kind of wimmin do?
Play tennis or get something in you besides the rotten
air of this flat, and mewling over that sick-eyed
cur. Get out! Scc-c-c-c-c!”
The animal bellied to the door, tail
down, and into the rear darkness of the hallway.
“Max, what’s got you?
What do I know about tennis or things like
that? You you never used to want things
like that.”
“Aw, what’s the use of wasting breath?”
He flecked at his mustache, inserting
the napkin between the two top buttons of his slight
bay of waistcoat; carved a second helping of meat,
masticating with care and strength so that his temples,
where the hair thinned and grayed, contracted and
expanded with the movements of his jaws.
“What’s the use?”
“Max, I ”
“Thigh bother you?”
“A a little.”
“Didn’t I tell you not to spare expense
on trying new doctors if ”
“That ain’t my real trouble, Max; it ”
“Been out to-day?”
“No, Max, I been sick as a dog, I tell you.”
“No wonder you’re sick,
cooped up in this flat with nobody but a servant-girl
for company. Gad! ain’t you ashamed to get
so low that your own servant-girl is your running-mate?
Ain’t you?”
“Max, she ”
“I know. I know.”
“I been so blue, Max. Loo
can tell you how I been waiting and wondering.
I Lord, I been so blue, Max. She’s
good to me, Max, and and I been so blue.”
“Never knew one of you wimmin
that wasn’t that way half her time. You’re
a gang of sob sisters, every one of you whining
like you got your foot caught in a machine and can’t
get it out.”
“How you mean, Max?”
“Aw, you’re all either
in the blues or nagging. Why ain’t you sports
enough to take the slice of life you get handed you?
None of you ain’t healthy enough, anyways, I
tell you, indoors, eating and sleeping and mewling
over poodle-dogs all the time. I’m damn
sick of it all. Damn sick, if you want to know
it.”
“But, Max, what’s put
this new stuff into your head all of a sudden?
You never used to care if ”
“And you got to quit writing
me them long-winded letters, Mae, about what’s
come over me. Sometimes a fellow just comes to
his senses, that’s all.”
“Max!”
“And you got to quit butting
in my business hours on the telephone. I don’t
want to get ugly, but you got to cut it out. Cut
it out, Mae, is what I said!”
He quaffed his wine.
“Max dear, if you’ll only
tell me what’s hurting you I’ll find a
way to make good. I I can learn lawn-tennis,
if that’s what you want. I can take off
ten pounds in ”
“Aw, I don’t want nothing. Nothing,
I tell you!”
“If I only knew, Max, what’s
itching you. This way there’s days when
I just feel like I can’t go on living if you
don’t tell me what’s got you. I just
feel like I can’t go on living this way, Max.”
Tears hot and ever ready flowed over
her words and she fumbled for her handkerchief, sobs
rumbling up through her.
“I just can’t, I I just can’t!”
He pushed back from his half-completed
meal, rising, but stooping to rap his fist sharply
against the table.
“Now, lemme tell you this
much right now, Mae, either you got to cut this sob
stuff and get down to brass tacks and tell me what
you want, or, by gad! I’ll get out of here
so quick it’ll make your head swim. I ain’t
going to be let in for no tragedy-queen stuff, and
the sooner you know it the better. Business!
I’m a business man.”
She swallowed her tears, even smiling,
and with her hand pat against her bosom as if to suppress
its heaving.
“I’m all right now, Max.
I’m so full up with worry it it just
slipped out. I’m all right now, Max.
Sit down. Sit down and finish, dearie.”
But he fell to pacing the red carpet
in angry staccato strides. His napkin dropped
from his waistcoat to the floor and he kicked it out
of his path.
“By gad! I didn’t
want to come, anyhow. I knew the sniveling I’d
be let in for. Gimme a healthy woman with some
outdoors in her. Gimme ”
“I ain’t going to let
out any more, Max; I swear to God I ain’t.
Sit down, dear, and finish your supper. Looka,
your coffee’s all cold. Lemme go out and
heat it up for you. I ”
“I’m done. I’m
done before I begin. Now, Mae, if you can behave
yourself and hold in long enough, just say what you
got me up here for, and for God’s sake let’s
have it over!”
He planted himself before her, feet
well apart, and she rose, pushing back her chair,
paling.
“I I ’ain’t
got much of anything to say, Max, except I I
thought maybe you’d tell me what’s eating
you, dearie.”
“I ”
“After all these years we been
together, Max, so so happy, all of a sudden,
dear, these last two months dropping off from every
other night to to twice a week and then
to to once, and this last week not
at all. I I heavens above,
Max, I ’ain’t got nothing to say except
what’s got you. Tell me, dearie, is it
anything I’ve done? Is it ”
“You talk like a loon, Mae,
honest you do. You ’ain’t done nothing.
It’s just that the the time’s
come, that’s all. You know it had to.
It always has to. If you don’t know it,
a woman like like you ought to. Gad!
I used to think you was the kind would break as clean
as a whistle when the time came to break.”
“Break, Max?”
“Yes, break. And don’t
gimme the baby-stare like that, neither. You know
what I mean alrighty. You wasn’t born yesterday,
old girl!”
The blood ran from her face, blanching
it. “You mean, Max ”
“Aw, you know what I mean alrighty,
Mae, only you ain’t sport enough to take things
as they come. You knew all these years it had
to come sooner or later. I ’ain’t
never quizzed into your old life, but if you didn’t
learn that, you well you ought to.
There never was a New Year came in, Mae, that I didn’t
tell you that, if you got the chance, for you to go
out after better business. I never stood in your
light or made no bones about nothing!”
“My God! Max, you you’re
kidding!”
“All these years I been preaching
to you, even before I joined Forest Park Club out
there. ’Don’t get soft, Mae.
Keep down. Use the dumb-bells. Hustle around
and do a little housework even if I do give you a
servant. Walk in the park. Keep your looks,
girl; you may need ‘em,’ I used to tell
you.”
“Oh you You! ”
She clapped her hands over her mouth as if to stanch
hysteria.
“Another let-out like that, Mae, and, by gad!
I’ll take my hat and ”
“No, no, Max, I I
didn’t mean it. I’m all right.
I Only after all these years you wouldn’t
do it, Max. You wouldn’t. You wouldn’t
throw me over and leave me cold, Max. What can
I do after all these years? I I ’ain’t
got a show in a chorus no more. You’re kidding,
Max. You’re a white man, Max, and you you
wouldn’t do it, Max. You wouldn’t.
You ”
“Now, now, you can’t say
I ’ain’t been as white as silk, girl, and
I’m going to be just as white as I’ve
been, too. Don’t worry, girl. For six
years there ’ain’t been a better-stocked
flat than this in town, has there?”
“No, Max.”
“The best none too good, eh?”
“No, Max.”
“Just the same stuff comes here
that I send up to my mother’s flat, eh?
All the drinks and all the clothes you want and a servant
in the house as good as my mother’s own, eh?
No kick coming, eh, girl?”
“You you wouldn’t,
Max you wouldn’t ditch me. What
could I do? Nothing nothing.
I I can’t hire out as a scrubwoman,
I ”
“Come, come now, girl, you’re
pretty slick, but you you don’t quite
slide. What about that thirty-five hundred you
got down in your jeans eh? Them thirty-five
hundred in the Farmers’ Savings Bank eh?
Eh?”
“Max!”
“Hah! Knocked you off your
pins that time, didn’t I? I found your
bank-book one morning, kiddo found it on
the floor right next to the dresser ”
“Max, I Out of my checks I I
saved I ”
“Sure! Gad! I ain’t
kicking about it, girl. Glad for you! Glad
you got it, girl, only don’t try to tell me
you can’t take care of yourself in this world
alrighty, girl. Any old time you can’t!
Gad! thirty-five hundred she snitches out of her allowance
in six years, lives on the fat of the land, too, and
then tries to bamboozle me that she’s flat.
Thirty-five hundred in six years. Gad! I
got to hand it to you there, kiddo; I got to hand
it to you!”
“You can have it back, Max.
I I was going to surprise you when I had
five thousand. I ”
“Gad! I don’t want
your money, girl. It’s yours. You’re
fixed for life on it. I’m even going to
hand you over a couple of thou extra to show you that
I’m no cheap sport. I won’t have a
woman breathing can say I ain’t white as silk
with her.”
“Max, you you’re killing me!
Killing me! Killing me!”
“Now, now, Mae, if I was you
I wouldn’t show my hand so. I don’t
want to hurt you, girl. It ain’t like I
got any but the finest feelings for you. You’re
all right, you are. You are.”
“Then, Max, for God’s sake ”
“But what are you going to do
about it? What the hell is anybody going to do
about it? You ain’t no baby. You know
what life is. And you know that the seams has
got to show on one of the two sides and it ain’t
your fault you got turned on the under side.
But you should worry, girl! You’re fixed.
And I’m here to tell you I’m going to hand
you on top of the two thou this here little flat just
as it stands, Mae. Just as it stands, piano and
all. I just guess you got a kick coming!”
Her hands flew to her bosom as if
the steel of his words had slipped deep into the flesh.
“You don’t mean what you’re saying,
Max.”
“Sure, I do! Piano and all, girl.”
“No, no, you don’t.
You’re just kidding me, Max, like you used to
when you wanted to tease me and throw a scare in me
that your mother was wise about the flat. Quit
your kidding, Max, and take me in your arms and sing
me ‘Maizie you’re a Daisie’ like
you used to after after we had a little
row. Lemme hear you call me ‘Maizie,’
dear, so I’ll know you’re only kidding.
I’m a bum sport, dearie. I I
never could stand for guying. Cut the comedy,
dear.”
She leaned to him with her lips twisted
and dried in their frenzy to belie his words, but
with little else to indicate that her heart lay ticking
against her breast like a clock that makes its hour
in half-time.
“Quit guying, Max, for God’s
sake! You you got me feeling sick clear
down inside of me. Cut it, dear. Too much
is enough.”
Her dress rustled with the faint swish
of scything as she moved toward him, and he withdrew,
taking hold of the back of his chair.
“Now, now, Mae; come, come!
You’re a sensible woman. I ain’t stuck
on this business any more than you are. You ought
to have let me stay away and just let it die out instead
of raking up things like this. Come, buck up,
old girl! Don’t make it any harder than
it’s got to be. These things happen every
day. This is business. There, there!
Now! Now!”
The sudden bout of tenderness brought
the tears stinging to her eyes and she was for ingratiating
herself into his embrace, but he withdrew, edging
toward the piano with an entire flattening of tone.
“Now, now, Mae, I tell you that
you got to cut it. It would have been better
if you had just let the old cat die, You oughtn’t
to tried that gag to get me here to-night. You’ll
get a lot more out of me if you do it dry, girl.
A crying woman can drive me out of the house quicker
’n plague, and you ought to know it by now.”
She sat down suddenly, feeling queasy.
“Now, now, old girl, buck up! Be a sport!”
“Gimme a drink, Max. I Just
a swallow. I I’m all right.”
And she squeezed her eyes tight shut to blink out
the tears.
He handed her a tumbler from the table,
keeping his head averted, and after a bit she fell
to sobbing and choking and trembling.
“It’s her! It’s
your old woman. She’s been chloroforming
you with a lot of dope talk about hitting the altar
rail with a bunch of white satin with a good fat wad
sewed in the lining. It’s your old ”
“Cut that!”
“It’s your old woman. She she
don’t know you like I do, Max. She ”
“Now, now, Mae! You knew
this had to come sooner or later, I ’ain’t
never lied, have I? Right here in this room ’ain’t
you told me a dozen times you’d let me go quietly
when the time came? ’Ain’t you?”
“I never thought you meant it,
Max. You don’t mean it now. Don’t
let your old woman upset you, dear. What she
don’t know won’t hurt her. Stick
around her a little more if you think she’s got
a hunch about me and the flat. But she ’ain’t,
dearie; there ain’t a chance in the world she’s
got a hunch about me. Don’t let her make
a mollycoddle out of you, Max. That old woman
don’t know enough about life and things to ”
“You cut that and cut it quick!
I’m a decent fellow, I am. For six years
I been tipping you off to leave my mother’s name
out out of your mouth. There’s
a place for everything and, by gad! your mouth ain’t
the place for her name! By gad! I ain’t
no saint, but I won’t stand for that! By
gad! I I won’t!”
“Oh-h-h-h-h! Oh-h-h-h! Oh-h-h!”
She struck her breast twice with the
flat of her hand, her voice so tight and high that
it carried with it the quality of strangulation.
“Ain’t fit to mention
her name, ain’t I? Ain’t fit to mention
her name? My kind ain’t fit to mention
her name, eh?”
“No, if you got to know it.
Not like that! My old mother’s
name. Not like that!”
“Not fit, eh? What are
we fit for, then, us that only get the husks of you
men and nothing else?”
“I ”
“What am I fit for? Fit
to run to when your decent friends won’t stand
for you? Fit to run to when you get mixed up in
rotten customs deals? Fit to stand between you
and hell when you got the law snapping at your heels
for for smuggling? Who was fit to run
to then? Her whose name I ain’t fit to
mention? Her? Naw, you was afraid she’d
turn on you. Naw, not her! Me! Me!
I’m the one whose mouth is too dirty to mention
your old lady’s name ”
“By gad! you got to cut that or ”
“Just the same, who was it you
hollered for when you woke up in the hospital with
your back like raw meat? Who was it you hollered
for then? Her whose name I ain’t fit to
mention? Naw, it wasn’t! Me! Me!
I was good enough then. I was good enough to
smuggle you out of town overnight when you was dodging
the law, and to sleep in my clothes for two weeks,
ready to give the signal.”
“That’s right, dig up!
Dig up! You might forget something.”
“I been good enough to give
you free all these years what you wasn’t man
enough to pay for. That’s what we women
are; we’re the free lunch that you men get with
a glass of beer, and what the hell do you care which
garbage-pail what’s left of us lands in after
you’re done with us!”
“Cut that barroom talk around here if ”
“Good enough for six years,
wasn’t I, to lay down like a door-mat for you
to walk on, eh? Good enough. Good enough
when it came to giving up chunks of my own flesh and
blood when your burns was like hell’s fire on
your back and all your old woman could do to help was
throw a swoon every time she looked at you. Good
enough to ”
“Gad! I knew it! I
knew it! Knew you’d show your yellow streak.”
She fell to moaning in her hands. “No,
no, Max, I ”
“Bah! you can’t throw
that up to me, though. I never wanted it!
I could have bought it off any one of them poor devils
that hang around hospitals, as many inches off any
one of ’em as I wanted. I never wanted
them to graft it on me off you. I told the doctor
I didn’t. I knew you’d be throwing
it up to me some day. If I’d bought it off
a stranger I I wouldn’t have that
limp in front of me always to to rub things
in. I knew you’d throw it up to me.
I Gad! I knew it! I knew it!”
“No, no, Max, I didn’t
mean it. You you just got me so crazy
I don’t know what I’m saying. Sure,
I I made you take it off me. I wanted
’em to cut it off me to graft on your burns
because it it was like finding a new way
of saying how how I love you, Max.
Every drop of blood was like like I could
see for myself how how I loved you, Max.
I ”
“Oh, my God!” he said,
folded his arms atop the piano, and let his head fall
into them. “Oh, my God!”
“That’s how I love you,
Max. That’s how you you’re
all in the world I got, Max. That’s why
I can’t, just can’t let you
go, dear. Don’t throw me over, Max.
Cut the comedy and come down to earth. You ’ain’t
had a holy spell for two years now since the old woman
sniffed me and wanted to marry you off to that cloak-and-suit
buyer with ten thou in the bank and a rush of teeth
to the front. You remember how we laffed, dearie,
that night we seen her at the show? Don’t
let your old lady ”
“Cut that, I tell you!”
“You’d be a swell gink
hitting the altar trail with a bunch of white satin,
wouldn’t you? At your time of life, forty
and set in your ways, you’d have a swell time
landing a young frisky one and trying to learn one
of them mother’s darlings how to rub in your
hair-tonic and how to rub your salad-plate with garlic?
Gosh-golly! I bust right out laffing when I even
think about it! Come down to earth, Max!
You’d be a swell hit welded for life with a
gold band, now, wouldn’t you?”
She was suddenly seized with immoderate
laughter not untinctured with hysteria, loud and full
of emptiness, as if she were shouting for echoes in
a cave.
“Like hell you would! You
tied to a bunch of satin and tending the kids with
the whooping-cough! Whoops la, la!” She
fell to rocking herself backward and forward, her
rollicking laughter staining her face dark red.
“Whoops la, la! Whoops la, la!”
Suddenly Max Zincas rose to his height,
regarding her sprawling uncontrolled pose with writhing
lips of distaste, straightened his waistcoat, cleared
his throat twice, and, standing, drank the last of
his wine. But a pallor crept up, riding down the
flush.
“Funny, ain’t it?
Laff! Laff! But I’d wait till you hear
something funnier I got to tell you. Funny, ain’t
it? Laff! Laff!”
She looked up with her lips still
sagging from merriment, but the dark red in her face
darker.
“Huh?”
His bravado suddenly oozed and the
clock ticked roundly into the silence between them.
“Huh?” she repeated, cocking her head.
“You got to know it, Mae, and
the sooner I get it out of me the better. But,
remember, if you wanna drive me out before I’m
finished, if you wanna get rid of me a damn sight
quicker than any other way, throw me some sob stuff
and watch. You Well I The
sooner I get it out of me the better, Mae.”
“Huh?”
“She’s a a
nice little thing, Mae. Her mother’s a crony
with my old lady. Lives in a brownstone out on
Lenox Avenue. Met her first at at a
tennis-match she was winning at at Forest
Park Club.”
“Huh?”
“Not a high-stepper or a looker
like you in your day, Mae, none of that
chorus pep you used to have. Neat, though.
Great little kid for outdoors. Nice little shape,
too. Not in your class, but but neat.
Eyes like yours, Mae, only not not in your
class. A a little cast in one of them,
but all to the good, Mae. Nice clean little girl,
fifteen thou with her, and her old man half owner
in the Weeko Woolen Mills. I I need
the money, Mae. The customs is digging up dirt
again. It ain’t like I ’ain’t
been on the level with you, girl. You knew it
had to come sooner or later. Now, didn’t
you, Mae? Now there’s the girl. Didn’t
you?”
Reassured, he crossed to where she
sat silent, and placed a large, heavy hand on her
shoulder.
“There’s nothing needs
to worry you, old girl. Thirty-five hundred in
your jeans and a couple of thou and the flat from me
on top. Gad! it’s a cinch for you, old
girl. I’ve seen ’em ready for the
dump at your age, and you you’re
on the boom yet. Gad! you’re the only one
I ever knew kept her looks and took on weight at the
same time. You’re all right, Mae, and and,
gad! if I don’t wish sometimes the world was
different! Gad! if if I don’t!”
And, rather reassured, he tilted her
chin and pinched her cold cheek and touched the corner
of his eyes with the back of his wrist.”
“Gad, if if I don’t!”
It was as if the flood of her emotion
had risen to a wave and at his words frozen on its
crest. She opened her lips to speak, but could
only regard him with eyes as hard as ice-fields.
“Now, now, Mae, don’t
look thataway. You’re a sensible woman and
know the world’s just built thataway. I
always told you it don’t cost us men nothing
but loose change to show ourselves a good time.
You girls gotta pay up in different coin. If
I hadn’t come along some other fellow would,
so what’s the use a fellow not showing himself
a good time? You girls know where you get off.
Come, be a sport, old girl! With thirty-five
hundred in your jeans and me wanting to do the square
thing the piano and all, lemme say
to you that you ’ain’t got a kick coming.
Just lemme say that to you piano and
all, Mae!”
Sobs trembled up, thawing the edge
of ice that incased her. A thin blur of tears
rose to her eyes like a premonitory ripple before the
coming of the wind.
“You can’t! You can’t!
You you can’t ditch me like that,
I tell you. You ”
“By God! if you’re going
to begin to holler I’ll get out of here so quick
it’ll make your head swim!”
“Oh no, you don’t!
Aw, no, you don’t! You ain’t going
to quit so easy for a squint-eyed little hank that that
your old woman found for you. Max, you ain’t!
You wouldn’t! Tell me you wouldn’t,
dear. Tell me! Tell me!”
“Get off your knees there and
behave yourself, Mae! Looka your dress there,
all torn. This ain’t no barroom. Get
up and behave yourself! Ain’t you ashamed!
Ain’t you ashamed!”
She was trembling so that her knees
sent little ripples down the tight white silk drop-skirt.
“You can’t ditch me like
this and get away with it. You and me can’t can’t
part peaceful. You can’t throw me over after
all these years for a little squint-eyed hank and
get away with it! By Heaven! you can’t!”
He drew tight fists to his sides,
his lower jaw shot forward. “You start
a row here and, by gad! if I don’t ”
“I ain’t! I ain’t!
But don’t throw me over, Max, after all these
years! Don’t, Max! You need me.
There ain’t a woman on God’s earth will
do for you what I will. I I ’ain’t
got nobody but you, Max, to do for. I tell you,
Max, you you need me. Think, dear,
all them months when the customs was after you.
Them hot days when you couldn’t show your face,
and I used to put you to bed and fan and fan you eight
hours straight till you forgot to be scared and fell
asleep like a baby.”
“Now, now, Mae, I ”
“Them nights we used to mix
a few drinks when we came home from a show or something
and sit right here in this room and swill ’em
off, laffing and laffing till we got a little lit
up. That time when we sneaked down to Sheepshead
and you lost your wad at the wheel and I won it back
for you. All them times, Max! That that
Christmas Eve you sneaked away from your old woman!
Remember? I tell you, Max, you can’t throw
me over after what we been through together, and get
away with it. You can’t, not by a damn
sight! You can’t!”
In spite of herself her voice would
slip up, raucous sobs tore through her words, tears
rained down her frankly distorted face, carrying their
bitter taste of salt to her lips.
“You can’t! You can’t!
I ’ain’t got the strength! I ’ain’t
got a thing in life that ain’t wrapped around
you. I can’t go back to hit or miss like like
I could ten years ago. I ’ain’t got
nothing saved out of it all but you. Don’t
try to ditch me, Max! Don’t! I I’ll
walk on my knees for you. I ”
“For God’s sake, Mae, I ”
“If there’s a way to raise
two times fifteen thou for you, Max, I I’ll
raise it. I’ll find a way, Max. I tell
you I will! I’m lucky at the wheel, Max.
You watch and see. You just watch and see.
I can work. Max, I ”
“Get up, Mae, get up. There’s a good
girl. Get up and ”
“I’ll work my fingers
down, Max, only don’t try to ditch me, don’t
try to ditch me! I’ll go out to the country
where your old woman can’t ever sniff me.
I I’ll fix it, Max, so you so
you just can’t lose. Don’t ditch
me, dear; take your Maizie back. Take me in your
arms and call me Maizie. Take me!”
“Girl, ’ain’t you ’ain’t
you got no shame!”
“Just try me back for a month,
Max. For a month, Max, and see if if
I don’t fix things so they come out right.
Gimme a month, Max! Gimme, Max! Gimme!
Gimme!”
And with her last remnant of restraint
gone, she lay downright at his feet, abandoned to
virulent grief, and in her naked agony a shapeless
mass of frill and flounce, a horrible and not dramatic
spectacle of abandonment; decencies gone down before
desire, the heart ruptured and broken through its
walls. In such a moment of soul dishabille and
her own dishabille of bosom bulging above the tight
lacing of her corset-line as she lay prone, her mouth
sagging and wet with tears, her lips blowing outward
in bubbles, a picture, in fact, to gloss over, Mae
Munroe dragged herself closer, flinging her arms about
the knees of Mr. Zincas, sobbing through her raw throat.
“Just a month, Max! Don’t ditch me!
Don’t! Don’t! Don’t!”
He looked away from the sorry spectacle
of her bubbling lips and great, swollen eyelids.
“Leggo! Leggo my knees!”
“Just a month, Max, just ”
“Leggo! Leggo my knees!
Leggo, girl! Ain’t you ashamed!”
“Just a month, Max, I ”
“Gad! ’ain’t you
got no shame, girl! Get up! Leggo!
I can’t stand this, I tell you. Be a sport
and leggo me quiet, Mae. I I’ll
send you everything, a a check that’ll
surprise you, old girl! Lemme go quiet!
Nothing can’t change things. Quit your blubbering.
It makes me sick, I tell you. Quit your blubbering,
old girl, and leggo. Leggo! Leg-go!
Leg-go, I say!”
Suddenly he stooped and with a backward
turn of her wrist unloosed himself and, while the
pain still staggered her, side-stepped the huddle
of her body, grasped his hat from the divan and lunged
to the door, tugging for a frantic moment with the
lock.
On her knees beside the piano, in
quite the attitude he had flung her, leaning forward
on one palm and amid the lacy whirl of her train, Mae
Munroe listened to his retreating steps; heard the
slam of a lower door.
You who recede before the sight of
raw emotions with every delicacy shamed, do not turn
from the spectacle of Mae Munroe prone there on the
floor, her bosom upheaved and her mouth too loose.
When the heart is torn the heart bleeds, whether under
cover of culture and a boiled shirt-front or without
shame and the wound laid bare. And Mae Munroe,
who lay there, simple soul, only knew or cared that
her heart lay quivering like a hurt thing, and for
the sobs that bubbled too frankly to her lips had
no concern.
But after a while they ceased of exhaustion,
and she rose to her feet, her train threatening to
throw her; walked toward the cold, cloyed dinner,
half-eaten and unappetizing on the table; and fell
to scooping some of the cold gravy up from its dish,
letting it dripple from the spoon back again.
The powder had long since washed off her cheeks and
her face was cold as dough. The tears had dried
around her mouth.
Presently she pinned up the lacy train
about her, opened a cupboard door and slid into a
dark, full-length coat, pinned on a hat with a feather
that dropped over one side as if limp with wet, dabbed
at her face with a pink powder-chamois and, wheezing
ever so slightly, went out, tweaking off two of the
three electric lights after her down two
flights of stairs through a quiet foyer and out into
the fluid warmth of late October. Stars were
out, myriads of them.
An hour she walked down
the cross-town street and a bit along the wide, bright,
lighted driveway, its traffic long since died down
to an occasional night-prowling cab, a skimming motor-car;
then down a flight of curving stone steps with her
slightly perceptible limp, and into the ledge of parkway
where shadows took her into their velvet silence; down
a second flight, across a railroad track, and to the
water’s edge, where a great coal-station ran
a jut of pier out into the river. She could walk
its length, feeling it sway to the heavy tug of current.
Out at the very edge the water washed
up against the piles with a thick, inarticulate lisp,
as if what it had to say might only be understood
from the under side.