The journey down from town had been
as satisfactorily rapid as even Jim Airth could desire.
He had caught the train at Charing Cross by five seconds.
The hour’s run passed quickly
in glowing anticipation of that which was being brought
nearer by every turn of the wheels.
Myra’s telegram was drawn from
his pocket-book many times. Each word seemed
fraught with tender meaning, “Come to me at
once.” It was so exactly Myra’s simple
direct method of expression. Most people would
have said, “Come here,” or “Come
to Shenstone,” or merely “Come.”
“Come to me” seemed a tender, though
unconscious, response to his resolution of the night
before: “I will arise and go to my beloved.”
Now that the parting was nearly over,
he realised how terrible had been the blank of three
weeks spent apart from Myra. Her sweet personality
was so knit into his life, that he needed her not
at any particular time, or in any particular way but
always; as the air he breathed; or as the light, which
made the day.
And she? He drew a well-worn
letter from his pocket-book the only letter
he had ever had from Myra.
“I shall always want you,”
it said; “but I could never send, unless the
coming would mean happiness for you.”
Yet she had sent. Then
she had happiness in store for him. Had she instinctively
realised his change of mind? Or had she gauged
his desperate hunger by her own, and understood that
the satisfying of that, must mean happiness,
whatever else of sorrow might lie in the background?
But there should be no background of anything but perfect joy,
when Myra was his wife. Would he not have the turning of the fair leaves of her
book of life? Each page should unfold fresh happiness, hold new surprises as to
what life and love could mean. He would know how to guard her from the faintest
shadow of disillusion. Even now it was his right to keep her from that. How
much, after all, should he tell her of the heart-searchings of these wretched
weeks? Last night he had meant to tell her everything; he had meant to say: I
have sinned against heaven the heaven of our love and before thee; and am no
more worthy.... But was it not essential to a womans happiness to believe the
man she loved, to be in all ways, worthy? Out of his pocket came again the
well-worn letter. I know you decided as you felt right, wrote Myra. Why
perplex her with explanations? Let the dead past bury its dead. No need to
cloud, even momentarily, the joy with which they could now go forward into a new
life. And what a life! Wedded life with Myra
“Shenstone Junction!”
shouted a porter and Jim Airth was across the platform
before the train had stopped.
The tandem ponies waited outside the
station, and this time Jim Airth gathered up the reins
with a gay smile, flicking the leader, lightly.
Before, he had said: “I never drive other
people’s ponies,” in response to “Her
ladyship’s” message; but now “All
that’s mine, is thine, laddie.”
He whistled “Huntingtower,”
as he drove between the hayfields. Sprays of
overhanging traveller’s-joy brushed his shoulder
in the narrow lanes. It was good to be alive
on such a day. It was good not to be leaving
England, in England’s most perfect weather....
Should he take her home to Scotland for their honeymoon,
or down to Cornwall?
What a jolly little church!
Evidently Myra never slacked pace
for a gate. How the ponies dashed through, and
into the avenue!
Poor Mrs. O’Mara! It had
been difficult to be civil to her, when she had appeared
instead of Myra to give him tea.
Of course Scotland would be jolly, with so much to show her;
but Cornwall meant more, in its associations. Yes; he would arrange for the
honeymoon in Cornwall; be married in the morning, up in town; no fuss; then go
straight down to the old Moorhead Inn. And after dinner, they would sit in the
honeysuckle arbour, and
Groatley showed him into Myra’s sitting-room.
She was not there.
He walked over to the mantelpiece.
It seemed years since that evening when, in a sudden
fury against Fate, he had crashed his fists upon its
marble edge. He raised his eyes to Lord Ingleby’s
portrait. Poor old chap! He looked so content,
and so pleased with himself, and his little dog.
But he must have always appeared more like Myra’s
father than her than anything else.
On the mantelpiece lay a telegram.
After the manner of leisurely country post-offices,
the full address was written on the envelope.
It caught Jim Airth’s eye, and hardly conscious
of doing so, he took it up and read it. “Lady
Ingleby, Shenstone Park, England.” He laid
it down. “England?” he wondered,
idly. “Who can have been wiring to her from
abroad?”
Then he turned. He had not heard
her enter; but she was standing behind him.
“Myra!” he cried, and caught her to his
heart.
The rapture and relief of that moment
were unspeakable. No words seemed possible.
He could only strain her to him, silently, with all
his strength, and realise that she was safely there
at last.
Myra had lifted her arms, and laid
them lightly about his neck, hiding her face upon
his breast.... He never knew exactly when he began
to realise a subtle change about the quality of her
embrace; the woman’s passionate tenderness seemed
missing; it rather resembled the trustful clinging
of a little child. An uneasy foreboding, for which
he could not account, assailed Jim Airth.
“Kiss me, Myra!” he said,
peremptorily, and she, lifting her sweet face to his,
kissed him at once. But it was the pure loving
kiss of a little child.
Then she withdrew herself from his
embrace; and, standing back, he looked at her, perplexed.
The light upon her face seemed hardly earthly.
Oh, Jim, she said, Gods ways are wonderful! I have
such news for you, my friend. I thank God, it came before you had gone
beyond recall. And I, who had been the one, unwittingly, to add so
terribly to the weight of the lifelong cross you had to bear, am privileged to
be the one to lift it quite away. Jim you
did not do it!”
Jim Airth gazed at her in troubled
amazement. Into his mind, involuntarily, came
the awesome Scotch word “fey.”
“I did not do what, dear?”
he asked, gently, as if he were speaking to a little
child whom he was anxious not to frighten.
“You did not kill Michael.”
“What makes you think I did
not kill Michael, dear?” questioned Jim Airth,
gently.
“Because,” said Myra,
with clasped hands, “Michael is alive.”
“Dearest heart,” said
Jim Airth, tenderly, “you are not well.
These awful three weeks, and what went before, have
been too much for you. The strain has upset you.
I was a brute to go off and leave you. But you
knew I did what I thought right at the time; didn’t
you, Myra? Only now I see the whole thing quite
differently. Your view was the true one.
We ought to have acted upon it, and been married at
once.”
“Oh, Jim,” said Myra,
“thank God we didn’t! It would have
been so terrible now. It must have been a case
of ’Even there shall Thy hand lead me, and Thy
right hand shall hold me.’ In our unconscious
ignorance, we might have gone away together, not knowing
Michael was alive.”
Beads of perspiration stood on Jim Airth’s forehead.
“My darling, you are ill,”
he said, in a voice of agonised anxiety. “I
am afraid you are very ill. Do sit down quietly
on the couch, and let me ring. I must speak to
the O’Mara woman, or somebody. Why didn’t
the fools let me know? Have you been ill all
these weeks?”
Myra let him place her on the couch;
smiling up at him reassuringly, as he stood before
her.
“You must not ring the bell,
Jim,” she said. “Maggie is at the
Lodge; and Groatley would be so astonished. I
am quite well.”
He looked around, in man-like helplessness;
yet feeling something must be done. A long ivory
fan, of exquisite workmanship, lay on a table near.
He caught it up, and handed it to her. She took
it; and to please him, opened it, fanning herself
gently as she talked.
“I am not ill, Jim; really dear,
I am not. I am only strangely happy and thankful.
It seems too wonderful for our poor earthly hearts
to understand. And I am a little frightened about
the future but you will help me to face
that, I know. And I am rather worried about little
things I have done wrong. It seems foolish but
as soon as I realised Michael was coming home, I became
conscious of hosts of sins of omission, and I scarcely
know where to begin to set them right. And the
worst of all is Jim! we have lost little
Peter’s grave! No one seems able to locate
it. It is so trying of the gardeners; and so wrong
of me; because of course I ought to have planted it
with flowers. And Michael would have expected
a little marble slab, by now. But I, stupidly,
was too ill to see to the funeral; and now Anson declares
they put him in the plantation, and George swears
it was in the shrubbery. I have been consulting
Groatley who always has ideas, and expresses them so
well, and he says: ‘Choose a suitable spot,
m’ lady; order a handsome tomb; plant it with
choice flowers; and who’s to be the wiser, till
the resurrection?’ Groatley is always resourceful;
but of course I never deceive Michael. Fancy
little Peter rising from the shrubbery, when Michael
had mourned for years over a marble tomb on the lawn!
But it really is a great worry. They must all
begin digging, and keep on until they find something
definite. It will be good for the shrubbery and
the plantation, like the silly old man in the parable no,
I mean fable who pretended he had hidden
a treasure. Oh, Jim, don’t look so distressed.
I ought not to pour out all these trivial things to
you; but since I have known Michael is coming back,
my mind seems to have become foolish and trivial again.
Michael always has that effect upon me; because though
he himself is so great and clever he really
thinks trivial and unimportant things are a woman’s
vocation in life. But oh, Jim Jim Airth with
you I am always lifted straight to the big
things; and our big thing to-day is this: that
you never killed Michael. Do you remember telling
me how, as you lay in your tent recovering from the
fever, if some one could have come in and told you
Michael was alive and well, and that you had not killed
him after all, you would have given your life for the
relief of that moment? Well, I am that
‘some one,’ and this is the ‘moment’;
and when first I had the telegram I could think of
nothing absolutely nothing, Jim but
what it would be to you.”
“What telegram?” gasped
Jim Airth. “In heaven’s name, Myra,
what do you mean?”
“Michael’s telegram.
It lies on the mantelpiece. Read it, Jim.”
Jim Airth turned, took up the telegram
and drew it from the envelope with steady fingers.
He still thought Myra was raving.
He read it through, slowly. The
wording was unmistakable; but he read it through again.
As he did so he slightly turned, so that his back was
toward the couch.
The blow was so stupendous. He
could only realise one thing, for the moment: that
the woman who watched him read it, must not as yet
see his face.
She spoke.
“Is it not almost impossible
to believe, Jim? Ronald and Billy were lunching
here, when it came. Billy seemed stunned; but
Ronnie was delighted. He said he had always believed
the first men to rush in had been captured, and that
no actual proofs of Michael’s death had ever
been found. They never explained to me before,
that there had been no funeral. I suppose they
thought it would seem more horrible. But I never
take much account of bodies. If it weren’t
for the burden of having a weird little urn about,
and wondering what to do with it, I should approve
of cremation. I sometimes felt I ought to make
a pilgrimage to see the grave. I knew Michael
would have wished it. He sets much store by graves all
the Inglebys lie in family vaults. That makes
it worse about Peter. Ronnie went up to town
at once to telegraph out the money. Billy went
with him. Do you think five hundred is enough?
Jim? Jim! Are you not thankful?
Do say something, Jim.”
Jim Airth put back the telegram upon
the mantelpiece. His big hand shook.
“What is ’Veritas’?”
he asked, without looking round.
“That is our private code, Jim;
Michael’s and mine. My mother once wired
to me in Michael’s name, and to him in mine poor
mamma often does eccentric things, to get her own
way and it made complications, Michael
was very much annoyed. So we settled always to
sign important telegrams ‘Veritas,’
which means: ‘This is really from me.’”
“Then your husband is
coming home to you?” said Jim Airth, slowly.
“Yes, Jim,” the sweet
voice faltered, for the first time, and grew tremulous.
“Michael is coming home.”
Then Jim Airth turned round, and faced
her squarely. Myra had never seen anything so
terrible as his face.
“You are mine,” he said; “not his.”
Myra looked up at him, in dumb sorrowful
appeal. She closed the ivory fan, clasping her
hands upon it. The unquestioning finality of her
patient silence, goaded Jim Airth to madness, and let
loose the torrent of his fierce wild protest against
this inevitable this unrelenting, fate.
“You are mine,” he said,
“not his. Your love is mine! Your body
is mine! Your whole life is mine! I will
not leave you to another man. Ah, I know I said
we could not marry! I know I said I should go
abroad. But you would have remained faithful
to me; and I, to you. We might have been apart;
we might have been lonely; we might have been at different
ends of the earth; but we should have been
each other’s. I could have left you to
loneliness; but, by God, I will not leave you to another!”
Myra rose, moved forward a few steps
and stood, leaning her arm upon the mantelpiece and
looking down upon the bank of ferns and lilies.
“Hush, Jim,” she said,
gently. “You forget to whom you are speaking.”
I am speaking, cried Jim Airth, in furious desperation, to
the woman I have won for my own; and who is mine, and none others. If it
had not been for my pride and my folly, we should have been married by now married,
Myra and far away. I left you, I know;
but by heaven, I may as well tell you all
now it was pride damnable false
pride that drove me away. I always
meant to come back. I was waiting for you to
send; but anyhow I should have come back. Would
to God I had done as you implored me to do! By
now we should have been together out of
reach of this cursed telegram, and far
away!”
Myra slowly lifted her eyes and looked
at him. He, blinded by pain and passion, failed
to mark the look, or he might have taken warning.
As it was, he rushed on, headlong.
Myra, very white, with eyelids lowered,
leaned against the mantelpiece; slowly furling and
unfurling the ivory fan.
But, darling, urged Jim Airth, it is not yet too late.
Oh, Myra, I have loved you so! Our love has been so wonderful. Have
I not taught you what love is? The poor cold travesty you knew before that
was not love! Oh, Myra! you will come away with
me, my own beloved? You won’t put me through
the hell of leaving you to another man? Myra,
look at me! Say you will come.”
Then Lady Ingleby slowly closed the
fan, grasping it firmly in her right hand. She
threw back her head, and looked Jim Airth full in the
eyes.
“So this is your love,”
she said. “This is what it means? Then
I thank God I have hitherto only known the ‘cold
travesty,’ which at least has kept me pure,
and held me high. What? Would you drag me
down to the level of the woman you have scorned for
a dozen years? And, dragging me down, would you
also trail, with me, in the mire, the noble name of
the man whom you have ventured to call friend?
My husband may not have given me much of those things
a woman desires. But he has trusted me with his
name, and with his honour; he has left me, mistress
of his home. When he comes back he will find
me what he himself made me mistress of
Shenstone; he will find me where he left me, awaiting
his return. You are no longer speaking to a widow,
Lord Airth; nor to a woman left desolate. You
are speaking to Lord Ingleby’s wife, and you
may as well learn how Lord Ingleby’s wife guards
Lord Ingleby’s name, and defends her own honour,
and his.” She lifted her hand swiftly and
struck him, with the ivory fan, twice across the cheek.
“Traitor!” she said, “and coward!
Leave this house, and never set foot in it again!”
Jim Airth staggered back, his face
livid ashen, his hand involuntarily raised
to ward off a third blow. Then the furious blood
surged back. Two crimson streaks marked his cheek.
He sprang forward; with a swift movement caught the
fan from Lady Ingleby’s hands, and whirled it
above his head. His eyes blazed into hers.
For a moment she thought he was going to strike her.
She neither flinched nor moved; only the faintest
smile curved the corners of her mouth into a scornful
question.
Then Jim Airth gripped the fan in
both hands; with a twist of his strong fingers snapped
it in half, the halves into quarters, and again, with
another wrench, crushed those into a hundred fragments flung
them at her feet; and, turning on his heel, left the
room, and left the house.