MISS ANN HAS “MUCH TO SAY”

On the afternoon of the sixth day, at the hour which had hitherto been kept for the Boy, Christobel Charteris, in response to another urgent and immediate summons, went to take tea with Miss Ann.

It had been a long, dull, uneventful day, holding at first a certain amount of restless uncertainty as to whether the Boy was really gone; mingled with apprehensive anticipation of a call from the Professor.

But before noon a reply-paid telegram arrived from the Boy, sent off at Charing Cross.

“Good morning. All’s well. Just off for Folkestone. Please tell me how you are.”

To which, while Jenkins and the telegraph-boy waited, Miss Charteris replied:

“Quite well, thank you. Do be careful at Folkestone.”

and afterwards thought of many other messages which she might have sent, holding more, and better expressed. But that precious moment in touch with the Boy passed so quickly; and it seemed so impossible to think of anything but commonplace words, while Jenkins stood at attention near the table; and the telegraph-boy kept ringing his bicycle-bell outside, as a reminder that he waited.

Yet her heart felt warmed and comforted by this momentary contact with the Boy. He still cared to know how she was. And it was so like him to put: “All’s well.” He wished her to know he had not gone down beneath his trouble. “Fanks, but I always does my own cawwying.” Brave Little Boy Blue, of long ago!

The expectation of the Professor’s note or call remained, keeping her anxious; until she heard from Ann Harvey, that her brother had been obliged to go to London on business, and would not return until the evening. “Come to tea with me, dear child,” the note concluded; “we have much to say!”

It seemed to Christobel that there remained nothing which Miss Ann had not already said, in every possible form and way. Nevertheless, she put on her hat, and went. Miss Ann had succeeded in impressing all her friends with the conviction that her wishes must never be thwarted.

Miss Ann had named her villa “Shiloh,” undoubtedly a suitable name, so far as she herself was concerned; her time being mostly spent upon a comfortable sofa in her tiny drawing-room; or reclining on a wicker lounge beneath the one tree in her small garden; or being carefully wheeled out in a bath-chair.

But nobody else found Miss Ann’s villa in any sense a “resting-place.” She had a way of keeping everybody about her from jaded Emma to the most casual caller on the move, while she herself presented a delicate picture of frail inactivity. Immediately upon their arrival, her friends found an appointed task awaiting them; but it was always something which Miss Ann would have given to somebody else to do, had they not chanced at that moment to appear; and they were usually left with the feeling that the particular somebody else whose privilege they, in their well-meant zeal, had usurped would have accomplished it better.

Directing them from the sofa, Miss Ann kept her entourage busy and perpetually on the move. Yet she never felt she was asking much of them; nor, however weary at the conclusion of the task, did they ever feel much had been accomplished, owing to the judicious use of the word “just.”

“My dear,” Miss Ann would say, “as you are here, will you just clean the canary?” Cleaning the canary meant a very thorough turning out of an intricate little brass cage; several journeys up and down stairs in quest of sand, seed, and brass polish, and an out-door excursion to a neighbour’s garden for groundsel. The canary’s name was “Sweetie-weet,” and, however much annoyed Miss Ann’s friends might be feeling with the canary, they had to call him “Sweetie-weet” all the time they “cleaned him,” lest his flutterings should upset Miss Ann. Now you cannot say “Sweetie-weet” in an angry voice. Try, and you will see. Consequently Miss Ann’s friends had no vent for their feelings during the process of getting a rather large hand in and out of a very small brass door with a spring, which always snapped to, at the wrong moment, while the hand, which seemed to its possessor larger than it had ever seemed before, was crooked round in an impossible position in a strained attempt to fix Sweetie-weet’s perches. If anything went wrong during the cleaning process, Miss Ann, from her vantage-ground on the sofa would sigh, and exclaim: “Poor patient little Sweetie-weet!” Miss Ann was in full possession of all her faculties. Her hearing was preternaturally sharp. It was no use saying “Fiend!” to Sweetie-weet, in an emphatic whisper. He fluttered the more.

When the task was completed, the cage had to be brought to Miss Ann’s couch for inspection. She then usually discovered the perches to have been put back before they were perfectly dry. Now nothing as surely you hardly ought to require to be told was so prejudicial to Sweetie-weet’s delicate constitution as to have damp wood beneath his precious little feet. Consequently all the perches had just to be taken out again, dried before the kitchen fire, and put back once more. When this mandate went forth, the glee in the bright black eyes in Sweetie-weet’s yellow head was unmistakable. He shared Miss Ann’s mania for keeping people busy.

When, at last, the second installation of perches was over, and the cage was suspended from the brass chain in the sunny window, Sweetie-weet poured forth a shrill crescendo of ear-piercing sarcasm “a little song of praise” Miss Ann called it directed full at the hot and exhausted friend, who was applying a pocket-handkerchief to the wire scratches on the back of her hand, and trying to smile at Miss Ann’s recital of all Emma would say, when she found that her special privilege and delight the cleaning of Sweetie-weet had been wrested from her by the over-zealous friend. As a matter of fact, jaded Emma’s personal remarks about Sweetie-weet, during the perch-drying process in the kitchen, had been of a nature which would not bear repeating in Sweetie-weet’s presence, and had provided the only amusement the friend had got out of the whole performance.

When Christobel Charteris arrived at Shiloh, she found Miss Ann on the green velvet sofa, looking very frail and ethereal; a Shetland shawl about her shoulders, fastened by the largest and most mysterious of her hair-brooches a gold-mounted oval brooch, in which a weeping willow of fair hair drooped over a sarcophagus of dark hair; while a crescent moon of grey hair kept watch over both. This funereal collection of family hair always possessed a weird fascination for small children, brought by their parents to call upon Miss Ann. The most undemonstrative became affectionate, and hastened with ready docility to the sofa to kiss Miss Ann, in order to obtain a closer view, and to settle the much disputed point as to the significance of a small round object in the left-hand corner at the bottom. In fact, to the undisguised dismay of his mother, a sturdy youngster once emerged from Miss Ann’s embrace, exclaiming eagerly to his little sister: “It’s a furze-bush, not a hedgehog!” An unfortunate remark, which might have been taken by Miss Ann to refer to even more personal matters than a detail in her brooch.

Christobel herself was not altogether free from the spell of this hirsute cemetery; chiefly because she knew it was worn on days when deep emotion was to be felt and expressed. At sight of it, she was quite prepared for the tearful smile with which Miss Ann signed to her to close the door. Then extending her arms, “Sweet sister,” she said, with emotion, “let me take you to my heart.”

It was somewhat startling to Christobel to be apostrophized as “sister” by Miss Ann. The Boy had made her feel so young, and so completely his contemporary, that if Miss Ann had called her “daughter,” or even “granddaughter,” it would have seemed more appropriate. Also her magnificent proportions constituted a somewhat large order for Miss Ann’s proposed embrace.

However, she knelt beside the sofa, and allowed herself to be taken to Miss Ann’s heart in sections. Then, having found and restored Miss Ann’s lace pocket-handkerchief, she seated herself in a low chair beside the couch, hoping for enlightenment upon the immediate prospects of her own future.

Miss Ann wept gently for a while. Christobel sat silent. Her recent experience of tears, wrung from such deep anguish of soul, made it less easy for her to feel sympathetic towards tears which flowed from no apparent cause, and fell delicately into perfumed lace. So she waited in silence, while Miss Ann wept.

The room was very still. The bang with which the Boy usually made his entry anywhere, would have been terrific in its joyful suddenness. At the mere thought of it, Christobel’s heart stood still and listened. But this was a place into which the Boy would never make an entry, noisy or otherwise. Besides the Boy was gone. Oh, silent, sober, sorry world! The Boy was gone.

Sweetie-weet put his head on one side, and chirped interrogatively. In his judgment, the silence had lasted sufficiently long.

Miss Ann dried her eyes, making an effort to control her emotion. Then she spoke, in a voice which still trembled.

“Dearest child,” she said, “I want you just to cover this book for me. Emma has offered to do it, several times, but I said: ’No, Emma. We must keep it for Miss Christobel. I do not know what she would say to you, if you took to covering my books!’ Emma is a good soul, and willing; but has not the mind and method required to cover a book properly. If you will just run up to my room, dear child, you will find a neat piece of whity-brown paper laid aside on purpose.... Hush, Sweetie-weet! Christobel knows you are pleased to see her.... It is either on the ottoman behind the screen, or in the top left-hand drawer of the mahogany chest, between the window and the fireplace. Ah, how much we have come through, during the last twenty-four hours! The scissors, dear Love, are hanging by black tape from a nail in the store-room. You require a large and common pair for cutting brown paper. How truly wonderful are the ways of Providence, dear Christobel! The paste is in the little cupboard under the stairs.”

When Miss Charteris had finished covering the book, having bent upon it all the mind and method it required, she forestalled the setting of another task, by saying firmly: “I want an important talk now, please. Ann, are you sure you told your brother that I had cared for him for years?”

“Darling, dear Kenrick was so diffident; so unable to realize his own powers of attraction; so

“Do you think it was fair toward a woman, even if it were true, to tell a man who had never asked her love, that that love has long been his?”

“Sweet child, how crudely you put it! I merely hinted, whispered; gave the most delicate indications of what I knew to be your feeling. For you do love my brother; do you not, dear Christobel?”

“I think,” said Miss Charteris, slowly, weighing each word; “I think I love the Professor as a woman loves a book.”

There was a moment of tense silence in Miss Ann’s drawing-room. Christobel Charteris looked straight before her, a stern light upon her face, as of one confronted on the path of duty by the clear shining of the mirror of self-revelation.

Into Miss Ann’s pale blue eyes shot a gleam of nervous anxiety.

Sweetie-weet chirped, interrogatively.

Then Miss Ann, recovering, clasped her hands. “Ah, what a beautiful definition!” she said. “What could be more pure, more perfect?”

Miss Charteris knew a love of a very different kind, which was absolutely pure, and altogether perfect. But that was the love she had put from her.

“A woman could hardly marry a book,” she said.

Miss Ann gave a little deprecatory shriek. “Darling child!” she cried. “No simile, however beautiful, should be pressed too far! Your exquisite description of your love for dear Kenrick merely assures us that your union with him will prove one of complete contentment to the mind. And the mind that sensitive instrument, attuned to all the immensities of the intellectual spheres the mind is what really matters.”

“Bodies count,” said Miss Charteris, with conviction; adding beneath her breath, the dawning of a smile in her sad eyes: “We shall jolly well find, bodies count.”

Miss Ann’s hearing, as we have already remarked, was preternaturally sharp. She started. “My dear Christobel, what an expression! And do you not think, that, under these circumstances, any mention of bodies savours of impropriety?”

Miss Charteris turned quickly. The colour flamed into her beautiful face. The glint of angry indignation flashed from her eyes. But the elderly figure on the couch looked so small and frail. To wound and crush it would be so easy; and so unworthy of her strength, and wider experience.

Suddenly she remembered a little blue back, round with grief and shame; a small sandy face, silent and unflinching; a brave little heart which kept its faith in God, and prayed on trustfully, while nurses misunderstood and bullied. Then Miss Charteris conquered her own wrath.

“Dear Ann,” she said, gently, “do you really believe your brother would be much disappointed if after all when he asks me to marry him which he has not done yet I feel it better not to do so?”

“My darling child!” exclaimed Miss Ann, and her hair-brooch flew open, as if to accentuate her horror and amazement. “My darling child! Think how patiently he has waited! Remember the long years! Remember

“Yes, I know,” said Miss Charteris. “You told me all that last night, didn’t you? But it seems to me that, if a man can wait twelve years, he might as well wait twenty.”

“So he would have!” cried Miss Ann. “Undoubtedly dear Kenrick would have waited twenty years, had it not been for this fortunate legacy, which places him in a position to marry at once. But why should you wish to keep him waiting any longer? Is not twelve years sufficiently long?”

Miss Charteris smiled. “Twelve days would be too long for some people,” she said, gently. “I have no wish to keep him waiting. But you must remember, Ann, the Professor has, as yet, spoken no word of love to me.”

“Dear child,” said Miss Ann, eagerly; “he would have come to you to-day, but imperative legal business, connected with our uncle’s will, took him to town. I know for certain that he intends writing to you this evening; and, if you then give him leave to do so, he will call upon you to-morrow. Oh, darling girl, you will not disappoint us? We have so trusted you; so believed in you! A less scrupulously honourable man than Kenrick, might have tried to bind you by a promise, before he was in a position to offer you immediate marriage. Think of all the hopes the hopes and p-plans, which depend upon your faithfulness!” Miss Ann dissolved into tears but not to a degree which should hinder her flow of eloquence. “Ah, sweetest child! You knelt beside this very sofa, five years ago, and you said: ’Ann, I think any woman might be proud to become the wife of the Professor!’ Have you forgotten that you said that, kneeling beside this very sofa?”

“I have not forgotten,” said Miss Charteris; “and I think so still.”

“Then you will marry Kenrick?” said Miss Ann, through her tears.

Christobel Charteris rose. She stood, for a moment, tall and immovable, in the small, low room, crowded with knick-knacks china, bric-a-brac, ferns in painted pots, embroidery, photograph frames overseated with easy chairs, which, in their turn, were overfilled with a varied assortment of cushions. Miss Ann’s drawing-room gave the effect of a rather prettily arranged bazaar. You mentally pictured yourself walking round, admiring everything, but seeing nothing you liked quite well enough to wish to buy it, and take it home.

Christobel Charteris, tall and stately, in her simple white gown, looked so utterly apart from the trumpery elegance of these surroundings. As the Boy had said, the mellow beauty of his ancestral homes would indeed be a fit setting for her stately grace. But she had sent away the Boy, with his beautiful castles in the air, and places in the shires. The atmosphere and surroundings of Shiloh were those to which she must be willing to bend her fastidious taste. Miss Ann would expect to make her home with the Professor.

“Then you will marry Kenrick?” whispered Miss Ann, through her lace pocket-handkerchief.

Christobel bent over her, tenderly; fastening the clasp of the mysterious hair-brooch.

“Dear Ann,” she said. “It will not be leap year again, until 1912. And, meanwhile, the Professor has not proposed marriage to me.”

Miss Ann instantly brightened. Laughing gaily, she wiped away a few remaining tears.

“Ah, naughty!” she said. “Naughty, to make me tell! But as you will ask he is going to write to-night. But you must never let him know I told you! And now I want you just to find the Spectator it is laid over that exquisitely embroidered blotter on the writing-table in the window, sent me last Christmas by that kind creature, Lady Goldsmith; so thoughtful, tasteful, and quite touching; Emma, careful soul, spread it over the blotter, while darling Sweetie-weetie took his bath. Dear pet, it is a sight to see him splash and splutter. Lady Goldsmith thinks so much of dear Kenrick. The first time she saw him, she was immensely struck by his extraordinarily clever appearance. He sat exactly opposite her at a Guildhall banquet; and she told me afterwards that the mere sight of him was sufficient to take away all inclination for food; excepting for that intellectual nourishment which he is so well able to supply. I thought that was rather well expressed, and, coming from a florid woman, such as Lady Goldsmith, was quite a tribute to my brother. You would call Lady Goldsmith ‘florid,’ would you not, dear Christobel? ... Oh, you do not know her by sight? I am surprised. As the wife of the Professor, you will soon know all these distinguished people by sight. Yes, she is undoubtedly florid; and inclined to be what my dear father used to call ‘a woman of a stout habit.’ This being the case, it was certainly a tribute a tribute of which you and I, dearest child, have a right to feel justly proud.... Oh, is it still damp? Naughty Sweetie-weet! Don’t you think it might be wise, just to take it to the kitchen. Emma, good soul, will let you dry it before the fire. I have heard of fatalities caused by damp newspapers. Precious child, we can have you run no risks! What would Kenrick say? But when it is absolutely dry, I want you just to explain to me the gist of that article on the effect of oriental literature on modern thought. Kenrick tells me you have read it. He wishes to discuss it with me. I really cannot undertake to read it through. I have not the time required. Yet I must be prepared to talk it over intelligently with my brother, when next he pays me a visit. He may look in this evening, weary with his day in town, and requiring the relaxation of a little intellectual conversation. I must be ready.”

An hour later, somewhat tired in body, and completely exhausted in mind, Miss Charteris walked home. She made a detour, in order to pass along the lane, and enter through the postern gate at the bottom of the garden.

She opened it, and passed in.

A shaft of sunlight lay along the lawn. The jolly little “what d’-you-call-’ems” lifted gay purple faces to the sky.

She paused in the doorway, trying to realize how this quiet green seclusion, the old-fashioned flower-borders, the spreading mulberry-tree, the quaint white house, in the distance, with its green shutters, must have looked to the Boy each day, as he came in. She knew he had more eye for colour, and more knowledge of artistic effect, than his casual acquaintances might suppose. It would not surprise her some day to find, as one of the gems of the New Gallery, a reproduction of her own garden, with a halo of jolly little “what-d’-you-call-’ems” in the borders, and an indication of seats, deep in the shadow of the mulberry-tree. She would not need to refer to the catalogue for the artist’s name. The Boy had had a painting in the Academy the year before. She had chanced to see it. Noticing the name of her Little Boy Blue of the Dovercourt sands in the catalogue, she had made her way through the crowded rooms, and found his picture. It hung on the line. She had been struck by its thoughtful beauty, and wealth of imaginative skill. She had not forgotten that picture; and during all these days she had been quietly waiting to hear the Boy say he had had a painting in the Academy. Then she was going to tell him she had seen it, had greatly admired it, and had noted with pleasure all the kind things critics had said of it.

But, the subject of pictures not having come up, it had not occurred to the Boy to mention it. The Boy never talked of what he had done, because he had done it. But were a subject mentioned upon which he was keen, he would bound up, with shining eyes, and tell you all he knew about it; all he had seen, heard, and done; all he was doing, and all he hoped to do in the future, in connexion with that particular thing. He would never have thought of informing you that he owned three aeroplanes. But if the subject of aviation came up, and you said to the Boy: “Do you know anything about it?” he would lean forward, beaming at you, and say: “I should jolly well think I do!” and talk aeroplanes to you for as long as you were willing to listen. This trait of the Boy’s, caused shallow-minded people to consider him conceited. But the woman he loved knew how to distinguish between keenness and conceit; between exuberant enthusiasm and egotistical self-assertion; and the woman who loved him, smiled tenderly as she remembered that even on the day when she scolded him, and he had to admit his “barely respectable B.A.,” he had not told her of the painting hung on the line and mentioned in the Times. Yet if the question of art had come up, the Boy would very probably have sat forward in his chair, and talked about his painting, straight on end, for half an hour.

She still stood beneath the archway, in the red-brick wall, as these thoughts chased quickly through her mind. She would have made a fair picture for any one who had chanced to be waiting beneath the mulberry-tree, with eyes upon the gate.

“Straight on end for half an hour, he would have talked about his picture; and how bright his eyes would have been. And then I should have said: ’I saw it, Boy dear; and it was quite as beautiful as you say.’ And he would have answered: ’It jolly well gave you the feeling of the scene, didn’t it, Christo_bel_?’ And I should have known that his delight in it, as an artistic success, had nothing to do with the fact that it was painted by himself. Just because egotism is impossible to him, he is free to be so full of vivid enthusiasm.”

She smiled again. A warm glow seemed to enfold her. “How well I know my Boy!” she said aloud; then remembered with a sudden pang that she must not call him her Boy. She had let him go. She was very probably going to marry the Professor. She had not with the whole of her being wanted him to stay, until he had had the manliness to rise up and go. Then it had been too late. Ah, was it too late? If the Boy came back to plead once more? If once again she could hear him say: “Age is nothing! Time is nothing! Love is all!” would she not answer: “Yes, Guy. Love is all”?

The blood rushed into her sweet proud face. The name of the man she loved had come into her mind unconsciously. It had never yet as a name for him passed her lips. That she should unconsciously call him so in her heart, gave her another swift moment of self-revelation.

She closed the gate gently, careful not to let it bang. As she passed up the lawn, her heart stood still. It seemed to her that he must be waiting, in the shade of the mulberry-tree.

She hardly dared to look. She felt so sure he was there.... Yes, she knew he was there.... She felt certain the Boy had come back. He could not stay away from her on his sixth day. Had he not said he would “march round” every day? Ah, dear waiting army of Israel! Here was Jericho hastening to meet it. Why had she allowed Ann Harvey to keep her so late? Why had she gone at all, during the Boy’s own time? She might have known he would come.... Should she walk past the mulberry, as if making for the house, just for the joy of hearing him call “Christo_bel_”? No, that would not be quite honest, knowing he was there; and they were always absolutely honest with one another.

She passed, breathlessly, under the drooping branches. Her cheeks glowed; her lips were parted. Her eyes shone with love and expectation.

She lifted a hanging bough, and passed beneath.

His chair was there, and hers; but they were empty. The Boy being the
Boy had not come back.

Presently she went slowly up to the house.

A telegram lay on the hall table. She knew at once from whom it came. There was but one person who carried on a correspondence by telegraph. Reply paid was written on the envelope.

She stood quite still for a moment. Then she opened it slowly. Telegrams from the Boy gave her a delicious memory of the way he used to jump about. He would be out of his chair, and sitting at her feet, before she knew he was going to move.

She opened it slowly, turned to a window, and read it.

“How are you, dear? Please tell me. I am going to do my big fly to-morrow. I jolly well mean to break the record. Wish me luck.”

She took up the reply-paid form and wrote:

“Quite well. Good luck; but please be careful, Little Boy Blue.”

She hesitated a moment, before writing the playful name by which she so often called him. But his telegram was so absolutely the Boy, all over. It was best he should know nothing of “the man she loved,” who had gone out at the gate. It was best he should not know what she would have called him, had he been under the mulberry just now. She was undoubtedly going to marry the Professor. In which case she would never call the Boy anything but “Little Boy Blue.” So she put it into her telegram, as a repartee to his audacious “dear.” Then she went out, and sent it off herself. It was comforting to have something, however small, to do for him.

She came in again; dressed for the evening, and dined. She was thoroughly tired; and one sentence beat itself incessantly against the mirror of her reflection, like a frightened bird with a broken wing: “He is going to do a big fly to-morrow.... He is going to do a big fly to-morrow! Little Boy Blue is going to fly and break the record.”

She sat in the stillness of her drawing-room, and tried to read. But between her eyes and the printed page, burned in letters of fire: “He is going to fly to-morrow.”

She went down the garden to the chairs beneath the mulberry-tree. It was cooler there; but the loneliness was too fierce an agony.

She walked up and down the lawn, now bathed in silvery moonlight. “He is going to do a big fly to-morrow. He jolly well means to break the record.”

She passed in, and went to her bedroom. She lay in the darkness and tried to sleep. She tried in vain. What if he got into cross-currents? What if the propeller broke? What if the steering-gear twisted? She began remembering every detail he had told herself and Mollie; when she sat listening, thinking of him as Mollie’s lover, though all the while he had been her Little Boy Blue.... “Oh of course then it is all U P. But there must be pioneers!”

At last she could bear it no longer. She lighted her candle, and rose. She went to her medicine cupboard, and did a thing she had never done before, in the whole of her healthy life. She took a sleeping draught. The draught was one of Miss Ann’s; left behind at the close of a recent visit. She knew it contained chiefly bromide; harmless but effective.

She put out the light, and lay once more in darkness.

The bromide began to act.

The bird with the broken wing became less insistent.

The absent Boy drew near, and bent over, kneeling beside her.

She talked to him softly. Her voice sounded far away, and unlike her own. “Be careful, Little Boy Blue,” she said. “You may jolly well what an expression! break the record if you like; but don’t break yourself; because, if you do, you will break my heart.”

The bromide was acting strongly now. The bird with the broken wing had gone. There was a strange rhythmical throbbing in her ears. It was the Boy’s aeroplane; but it had started without him. She knew sleep was coming; merciful oblivion. Yet now she was too happy to wish to sleep.

The Boy drew nearer.

“Oh, Boy dear, I love you so,” she whispered into the throbbing darkness; “I love you so.”

“I know you do, dear,” said the Boy. “It is almost unbelievable, Christobel; but I know you do.”

Then she put up her arms, and drew him to her breast.

Thus the Boy though far away marched round.

“And the evening and the morning were the sixth day.”