So began those nine years of uninterrupted
tranquillity. They were characterized by an extraordinary
want of any communicativeness on the part of the Ashburnhams
to which we, on our part, replied by leaving out quite
as extraordinarily, and nearly as completely, the personal
note. Indeed, you may take it that what characterized
our relationship was an atmosphere of taking everything
for granted. The given proposition was, that
we were all “good people.” We took
for granted that we all liked beef underdone but not
too underdone; that both men preferred a good liqueur
brandy after lunch; that both women drank a very light
Rhine wine qualified with Fachingen water-that
sort of thing. It was also taken for granted
that we were both sufficiently well off to afford
anything that we could reasonably want in the way of
amusements fitting to our station-that
we could take motor cars and carriages by the day;
that we could give each other dinners and dine our
friends and we could indulge if we liked in economy.
Thus, Florence was in the habit of having the Daily
Telegraph sent to her every day from London. She
was always an Anglo-maniac, was Florence; the Paris
edition of the New York Herald was always good enough
for me. But when we discovered that the Ashburnhams’
copy of the London paper followed them from England,
Leonora and Florence decided between them to suppress
one subscription one year and the other the next.
Similarly it was the habit of the Grand Duke of Nassau
Schwerin, who came yearly to the baths, to dine once
with about eighteen families of regular Kur guests.
In return he would give a dinner of all the eighteen
at once. And, since these dinners were rather
expensive (you had to take the Grand Duke and a good
many of his suite and any members of the diplomatic
bodies that might be there)-Florence and
Leonora, putting their heads together, didn’t
see why we shouldn’t give the Grand Duke his
dinner together. And so we did. I don’t
suppose the Serenity minded that economy, or even
noticed it. At any rate, our joint dinner to
the Royal Personage gradually assumed the aspect of
a yearly function. Indeed, it grew larger and
larger, until it became a sort of closing function
for the season, at any rate as far as we were concerned.
I don’t in the least mean to say that we were
the sort of persons who aspired to mix “with
royalty.” We didn’t; we hadn’t
any claims; we were just “good people.”
But the Grand Duke was a pleasant, affable sort of
royalty, like the late King Edward VII, and it was
pleasant to hear him talk about the races and, very
occasionally, as a bonne bouche, about his
nephew, the Emperor; or to have him pause for a moment
in his walk to ask after the progress of our cures
or to be benignantly interested in the amount of money
we had put on Leloeffel’s hunter for the Frankfurt
Welter Stakes.
But upon my word, I don’t know
how we put in our time. How does one put in one’s
time? How is it possible to have achieved nine
years and to have nothing whatever to show for it?
Nothing whatever, you understand. Not so much
as a bone penholder, carved to resemble a chessman
and with a hole in the top through which you could
see four views of Nauheim. And, as for experience,
as for knowledge of one’s fellow beings-nothing
either. Upon my word, I couldn’t tell you
offhand whether the lady who sold the so expensive
violets at the bottom of the road that leads to the
station, was cheating me or no; I can’t say whether
the porter who carried our traps across the station
at Leghorn was a thief or no when he said that the
regular tariff was a lira a parcel. The instances
of honesty that one comes across in this world are
just as amazing as the instances of dishonesty.
After forty-five years of mixing with one’s
kind, one ought to have acquired the habit of being
able to know something about one’s fellow beings.
But one doesn’t.
I think the modern civilized habit-the
modern English habit of taking every one for granted-is
a good deal to blame for this. I have observed
this matter long enough to know the queer, subtle thing
that it is; to know how the faculty, for what it is
worth, never lets you down.
Mind, I am not saying that this is
not the most desirable type of life in the world;
that it is not an almost unreasonably high standard.
For it is really nauseating, when you detest it, to
have to eat every day several slices of thin, tepid,
pink india rubber, and it is disagreeable to have
to drink brandy when you would prefer to be cheered
up by warm, sweet Kuemmel. And it is nasty to
have to take a cold bath in the morning when what
you want is really a hot one at night. And it
stirs a little of the faith of your fathers that is
deep down within you to have to have it taken for
granted that you are an Episcopalian when really you
are an old-fashioned Philadelphia Quaker.
But these things have to be done;
it is the cock that the whole of this society owes
to AEsculapius.
And the odd, queer thing is that the
whole collection of rules applies to anybody-to
the anybodies that you meet in hotels, in railway trains,
to a less degree, perhaps, in steamers, but even, in
the end, upon steamers. You meet a man or a woman
and, from tiny and intimate sounds, from the slightest
of movements, you know at once whether you are concerned
with good people or with those who won’t do.
You know, this is to say, whether they will go rigidly
through with the whole programme from the underdone
beef to the Anglicanism. It won’t matter
whether they be short or tall; whether the voice squeak
like a marionette or rumble like a town bull’s;
it won’t matter whether they are Germans, Austrians,
French, Spanish, or even Brazilians-they
will be the Germans or Brazilians who take a cold
bath every morning and who move, roughly speaking,
in diplomatic circles.
But the inconvenient-well,
hang it all, I will say it-the damnable
nuisance of the whole thing is, that with all the taking
for granted, you never really get an inch deeper than
the things I have catalogued.
I can give you a rather extraordinary
instance of this. I can’t remember whether
it was in our first year-the first year
of us four at Nauheim, because, of course, it would
have been the fourth year of Florence and myself-but
it must have been in the first or second year.
And that gives the measure at once of the extraordinariness
of our discussion and of the swiftness with which
intimacy had grown up between us. On the one
hand we seemed to start out on the expedition so naturally
and with so little preparation, that it was as if
we must have made many such excursions before; and
our intimacy seemed so deep....
Yet the place to which we went was
obviously one to which Florence at least would have
wanted to take us quite early, so that you would almost
think we should have gone there together at the beginning
of our intimacy. Florence was singularly expert
as a guide to archaeological expeditions and there
was nothing she liked so much as taking people round
ruins and showing you the window from which some one
looked down upon the murder of some one else.
She only did it once; but she did it quite magnificently.
She could find her way, with the sole help of Baedeker,
as easily about any old monument as she could about
any American city where the blocks are all square
and the streets all numbered, so that you can go perfectly
easily from Twenty-fourth to Thirtieth.
Now it happens that fifty minutes
away from Nauheim, by a good train, is the ancient
city of M -, upon a great pinnacle
of basalt, girt with a triple road running sideways
up its shoulder like a scarf. And at the top
there is a castle-not a square castle like
Windsor, but a castle all slate gables and high peaks
with gilt weathercocks flashing bravely-the
castle of St Elizabeth of Hungary. It has the
disadvantage of being in Prussia; and it is always
disagreeable to go into that country; but it is very
old and there are many double-spired churches and
it stands up like a pyramid out of the green valley
of the Lahn. I don’t suppose the Ashburnhams
wanted especially to go there and I didn’t especially
want to go there myself. But, you understand,
there was no objection. It was part of the cure
to make an excursion three or four times a week.
So that we were all quite unanimous in being grateful
to Florence for providing the motive power. Florence,
of course, had a motive of her own. She was at
that time engaged in educating Captain Ashburnham-oh,
of course, quite pour lé bon motif!
She used to say to Leonora: “I simply can’t
understand how you can let him live by your side and
be so ignorant!” Leonora herself always struck
me as being remarkably well educated. At any
rate, she knew beforehand all that Florence had to
tell her. Perhaps she got it up out of Baedeker
before Florence was up in the morning. I don’t
mean to say that you would ever have known that Leonora
knew anything, but if Florence started to tell us
how Ludwig the Courageous wanted to have three wives
at once-in which he differed from Henry
VIII, who wanted them one after the other, and this
caused a good deal of trouble-if Florence
started to tell us this, Leonora would just nod her
head in a way that quite pleasantly rattled my poor
wife.
She used to exclaim: “Well,
if you knew it, why haven’t you told it all
already to Captain Ashburnham? I’m sure
he finds it interesting!” And Leonora would
look reflectively at her husband and say: “I
have an idea that it might injure his hand-the
hand, you know, used in connection with horses’
mouths....” And poor Ashburnham would blush
and mutter and would say: “That’s
all right. Don’t you bother about me.”
I fancy his wife’s irony did
quite alarm poor Teddy; because one evening he asked
me seriously in the smoking-room if I thought that
having too much in one’s head would really interfere
with one’s quickness in polo. It struck
him, he said, that brainy Johnnies generally were rather
muffs when they got on to four legs. I reassured
him as best I could. I told him that he wasn’t
likely to take in enough to upset his balance.
At that time the Captain was quite evidently enjoying
being educated by Florence. She used to do it
about three or four times a week under the approving
eyes of Leonora and myself. It wasn’t, you
understand, systematic. It came in bursts.
It was Florence clearing up one of the dark places
of the earth, leaving the world a little lighter than
she had found it. She would tell him the story
of Hamlet; explain the form of a symphony, humming
the first and second subjects to him, and so on; she
would explain to him the difference between Arminians
and Erastians; or she would give him a short lecture
on the early history of the United States. And
it was done in a way well calculated to arrest a young
attention. Did you ever read Mrs Markham?
Well, it was like that... .
But our excursion to M -
was a much larger, a much more full dress affair.
You see, in the archives of the Schloss in that city
there was a document which Florence thought would
finally give her the chance to educate the whole lot
of us together. It really worried poor Florence
that she couldn’t, in matters of culture, ever
get the better of Leonora. I don’t know
what Leonora knew or what she didn’t know, but
certainly she was always there whenever Florence brought
out any information. And she gave, somehow, the
impression of really knowing what poor Florence gave
the impression of having only picked up. I can’t
exactly define it. It was almost something physical.
Have you ever seen a retriever dashing in play after
a greyhound? You see the two running over a green
field, almost side by side, and suddenly the retriever
makes a friendly snap at the other. And the greyhound
simply isn’t there. You haven’t observed
it quicken its speed or strain a limb; but there it
is, just two yards in front of the retriever’s
outstretched muzzle. So it was with Florence
and Leonora in matters of culture.
But on this occasion I knew that something
was up. I found Florence some days before, reading
books like Ranke’s History of the Popes, Symonds’
Renaissance, Motley’s Rise of the Dutch Republic
and Luther’s Table Talk.
I must say that, until the astonishment
came, I got nothing but pleasure out of the little
expedition. I like catching the two-forty; I like
the slow, smooth roll of the great big trains-and
they are the best trains in the world! I like
being drawn through the green country and looking
at it through the clear glass of the great windows.
Though, of course, the country isn’t really
green. The sun shines, the earth is blood red
and purple and red and green and red. And the
oxen in the ploughlands are bright varnished brown
and black and blackish purple; and the peasants are
dressed in the black and white of magpies; and there
are great Rocks of magpies too. Or the peasants’
dresses in another field where there are little mounds
of hay that will be grey-green on the sunny side and
purple in the shadows-the peasants’
dresses are vermilion with emerald green ribbons and
purple skirts and white shirts and black velvet stomachers.
Still, the impression is that you are drawn through
brilliant green meadows that run away on each side
to the dark purple fir-woods; the basalt pinnacles;
the immense forests. And there is meadowsweet
at the edge of the streams, and cattle. Why, I
remember on that afternoon I saw a brown cow hitch
its horns under the stomach of a black and white animal
and the black and white one was thrown right into
the middle of a narrow stream. I burst out laughing.
But Florence was imparting information so hard and
Leonora was listening so intently that no one noticed
me. As for me, I was pleased to be off duty; I
was pleased to think that Florence for the moment
was indubitably out of mischief-because
she was talking about Ludwig the Courageous (I think
it was Ludwig the Courageous but I am not an historian)
about Ludwig the Courageous of Hessen who wanted
to have three wives at once and patronized Luther-something
like that!-I was so relieved to be off
duty, because she couldn’t possibly be doing
anything to excite herself or set her poor heart a-fluttering-that
the incident of the cow was a real joy to me.
I chuckled over it from time to time for the whole
rest of the day. Because it does look very funny,
you know, to see a black and white cow land on its
back in the middle of a stream. It is so just
exactly what one doesn’t expect of a cow.
I suppose I ought to have pitied the
poor animal; but I just didn’t. I was out
for enjoyment. And I just enjoyed myself.
It is so pleasant to be drawn along in front of the
spectacular towns with the peaked castles and the
many double spires. In the sunlight gleams come
from the city-gleams from the glass of
windows; from the gilt signs of apothecaries; from
the ensigns of the student corps high up in the mountains;
from the helmets of the funny little soldiers moving
their stiff little legs in white linen trousers.
And it was pleasant to get out in the great big spectacular
Prussian station with the hammered bronze ornaments
and the paintings of peasants and flowers and cows;
and to hear Florence bargain energetically with the
driver of an ancient droschka drawn by two lean horses.
Of course, I spoke German much more correctly than
Florence, though I never could rid myself quite of
the accent of the Pennsylvania Duitsch of my childhood.
Anyhow, we were drawn in a sort of triumph, for five
marks without any trinkgeld, right up to the castle.
And we were taken through the museum and saw the fire-backs,
the old glass, the old swords and the antique contraptions.
And we went up winding corkscrew staircases and through
the Rittersaal, the great painted hall where the Reformer
and his friends met for the first time under the protection
of the gentleman that had three wives at once and
formed an alliance with the gentleman that had six
wives, one after the other (I’m not really interested
in these facts but they have a bearing on my story).
And we went through chapels, and music rooms, right
up immensely high in the air to a large old chamber,
full of presses, with heavily-shuttered windows all
round. And Florence became positively electric.
She told the tired, bored custodian what shutters
to open; so that the bright sunlight streamed in palpable
shafts into the dim old chamber. She explained
that this was Luther’s bedroom and that just
where the sunlight fell had stood his bed. As
a matter of fact, I believe that she was wrong and
that Luther only stopped, as it were, for lunch, in
order to evade pursuit. But, no doubt, it would
have been his bedroom if he could have been persuaded
to stop the night. And then, in spite of the
protest of the custodian, she threw open another shutter
and came tripping back to a large glass case.
“And there,” she exclaimed
with an accent of gaiety, of triumph, and of audacity.
She was pointing at a piece of paper, like the half-sheet
of a letter with some faint pencil scrawls that might
have been a jotting of the amounts we were spending
during the day. And I was extremely happy at
her gaiety, in her triumph, in her audacity. Captain
Ashburnham had his hands upon the glass case.
“There it is-the Protest.”
And then, as we all properly stage-managed our bewilderment,
she continued: “Don’t you know that
is why we were all called Protestants? That is
the pencil draft of the Protest they drew up.
You can see the signatures of Martin Luther, and Martin
Bucer, and Zwingli, and Ludwig the Courageous....”
I may have got some of the names wrong,
but I know that Luther and Bucer were there.
And her animation continued and I was glad. She
was better and she was out of mischief. She continued,
looking up into Captain Ashburnham’s eyes:
“It’s because of that piece of paper that
you’re honest, sober, industrious, provident,
and clean-lived. If it weren’t for that
piece of paper you’d be like the Irish or the
Italians or the Poles, but particularly the Irish....”
And she laid one finger upon Captain Ashburnham’s
wrist.
I was aware of something treacherous,
something frightful, something evil in the day.
I can’t define it and can’t find a simile
for it. It wasn’t as if a snake had looked
out of a hole. No, it was as if my heart had
missed a beat. It was as if we were going to run
and cry out; all four of us in separate directions,
averting our heads. In Ashburnham’s face
I know that there was absolute panic. I was horribly
frightened and then I discovered that the pain in
my left wrist was caused by Leonora’s clutching
it:
“I can’t stand this,”
she said with a most extraordinary passion; “I
must get out of this.” I was horribly frightened.
It came to me for a moment, though I hadn’t
time to think it, that she must be a madly jealous
woman-jealous of Florence and Captain Ashburnham,
of all people in the world! And it was a panic
in which we fled! We went right down the winding
stairs, across the immense Rittersaal to a little terrace
that overlooks the Lahn, the broad valley and the immense
plain into which it opens out.
“Don’t you see?”
she said, “don’t you see what’s going
on?” The panic again stopped my heart.
I muttered, I stuttered-I don’t know
how I got the words out:
“No! What’s the matter? Whatever’s
the matter?”
She looked me straight in the eyes;
and for a moment I had the feeling that those two
blue discs were immense, were overwhelming, were like
a wall of blue that shut me off from the rest of the
world. I know it sounds absurd; but that is what
it did feel like.
“Don’t you see,”
she said, with a really horrible bitterness, with a
really horrible lamentation in her voice, “Don’t
you see that that’s the cause of the whole miserable
affair; of the whole sorrow of the world? And
of the eternal damnation of you and me and them...
.”
I don’t remember how she went
on; I was too frightened; I was too amazed. I
think I was thinking of running to fetch assistance-a
doctor, perhaps, or Captain Ashburnham. Or possibly
she needed Florence’s tender care, though, of
course, it would have been very bad for Florence’s
heart. But I know that when I came out of it she
was saying: “Oh, where are all the bright,
happy, innocent beings in the world? Where’s
happiness? One reads of it in books!”
She ran her hand with a singular clawing
motion upwards over her forehead. Her eyes were
enormously distended; her face was exactly that of
a person looking into the pit of hell and seeing horrors
there. And then suddenly she stopped. She
was, most amazingly, just Mrs Ashburnham again.
Her face was perfectly clear, sharp and defined; her
hair was glorious in its golden coils. Her nostrils
twitched with a sort of contempt. She appeared
to look with interest at a gypsy caravan that was
coming over a little bridge far below us.
“Don’t you know,”
she said, in her clear hard voice, “don’t
you know that I’m an Irish Catholic?”
V those words gave me the greatest
relief that I have ever had in my life. They
told me, I think, almost more than I have ever gathered
at any one moment-about myself. I
don’t think that before that day I had ever
wanted anything very much except Florence. I have,
of course, had appetites, impatiences...
Why, sometimes at a table d’hote, when there
would be, say, caviare handed round, I have been absolutely
full of impatience for fear that when the dish came
to me there should not be a satisfying portion left
over by the other guests. I have been exceedingly
impatient at missing trains. The Belgian State
Railway has a trick of letting the French trains miss
their connections at Brussels. That has always
infuriated me. I have written about it letters
to The Times that The Times never printed; those that
I wrote to the Paris edition of the New York Herald
were always printed, but they never seemed to satisfy
me when I saw them. Well, that was a sort of frenzy
with me.
It was a frenzy that now I can hardly
realize. I can understand it intellectually.
You see, in those days I was interested in people with
“hearts.” There was Florence, there
was Edward Ashburnham-or, perhaps, it was
Leonora that I was more interested in. I don’t
mean in the way of love. But, you see, we were
both of the same profession-at any rate
as I saw it. And the profession was that of keeping
heart patients alive.
You have no idea how engrossing such
a profession may become. Just as the blacksmith
says: “By hammer and hand all Art doth stand,”
just as the baker thinks that all the solar system
revolves around his morning delivery of rolls, as
the postmaster-general believes that he alone is the
preserver of society-and surely, surely,
these delusions are necessary to keep us going-so
did I and, as I believed, Leonora, imagine that the
whole world ought to be arranged so as to ensure the
keeping alive of heart patients. You have no idea
how engrossing such a profession may become-how
imbecile, in view of that engrossment, appear the
ways of princes, of republics, of municipalities.
A rough bit of road beneath the motor tyres, a couple
of succeeding “thank’ee-marms” with
their quick jolts would be enough to set me grumbling
to Leonora against the Prince or the Grand Duke or
the Free City through whose territory we might be
passing. I would grumble like a stockbroker whose
conversations over the telephone are incommoded by
the ringing of bells from a city church. I would
talk about medieval survivals, about the taxes being
surely high enough. The point, by the way, about
the missing of the connections of the Calais boat
trains at Brussels was that the shortest possible
sea journey is frequently of great importance to sufferers
from the heart. Now, on the Continent, there are
two special heart cure places, Nauheim and Spa, and
to reach both of these baths from England if in order
to ensure a short sea passage, you come by Calais-you
have to make the connection at Brussels. And the
Belgian train never waits by so much the shade of
a second for the one coming from Calais or from Paris.
And even if the French train, are just on time, you
have to run-imagine a heart patient running!-along
the unfamiliar ways of the Brussels station and to
scramble up the high steps of the moving train.
Or, if you miss connection, you have to wait five
or six hours.... I used to keep awake whole nights
cursing that abuse. My wife used to run-she
never, in whatever else she may have misled me, tried
to give me the impression that she was not a gallant
soul. But, once in the German Express, she would
lean back, with one hand to her side and her eyes
closed. Well, she was a good actress. And
I would be in hell. In hell, I tell you.
For in Florence I had at once a wife and an unattained
mistress-that is what it comes to-and
in the retaining of her in this world I had my occupation,
my career, my ambition. It is not often that
these things are united in one body. Leonora
was a good actress too. By Jove she was good!
I tell you, she would listen to me by the hour, evolving
my plans for a shock-proof world. It is true
that, at times, I used to notice about her an air
of inattention as if she were listening, a mother,
to the child at her knee, or as if, precisely, I were
myself the patient.
You understand that there was nothing
the matter with Edward Ashburnham’s heart-that
he had thrown up his commission and had left India
and come half the world over in order to follow a woman
who had really had a “heart” to Nauheim.
That was the sort of sentimental ass he was.
For, you understand, too, that they really needed to
live in India, to economize, to let the house at Branshaw
Teleragh.
Of course, at that date, I had never
heard of the Kilsyte case. Ashburnham had, you
know, kissed a servant girl in a railway train, and
it was only the grace of God, the prompt functioning
of the communication cord and the ready sympathy of
what I believe you call the Hampshire Bench, that
kept the poor devil out of Winchester Gaol for years
and years. I never heard of that case until the
final stages of Leonora’s revelations....
But just think of that poor wretch....
I, who have surely the right, beg you to think of
that poor wretch. Is it possible that such a luckless
devil should be so tormented by blind and inscrutable
destiny? For there is no other way to think of
it. None. I have the right to say it, since
for years he was my wife’s lover, since he killed
her, since he broke up all the pleasantnesses that
there were in my life. There is no priest that
has the right to tell me that I must not ask pity for
him, from you, silent listener beyond the hearth-stone,
from the world, or from the God who created in him
those desires, those madnesses....
Of course, I should not hear of the
Kilsyte case. I knew none of their friends; they
were for me just good people-fortunate people
with broad and sunny acres in a southern county.
Just good people! By heavens, I sometimes think
that it would have been better for him, poor dear,
if the case had been such a one that I must needs
have heard of it-such a one as maids and
couriers and other Kur guests whisper about for years
after, until gradually it dies away in the pity that
there is knocking about here and there in the world.
Supposing he had spent his seven years in Winchester
Gaol or whatever it is that inscrutable and blind
justice allots to you for following your natural but
ill-timed inclinations-there would have
arrived a stage when nodding gossips on the Kursaal
terrace would have said, “Poor fellow,”
thinking of his ruined career. He would have
been the fine soldier with his back now bent....
Better for him, poor devil, if his back had been prematurely
bent.
Why, it would have been a thousand
times better.... For, of course, the Kilsyte
case, which came at the very beginning of his finding
Leonora cold and unsympathetic, gave him a nasty jar.
He left servants alone after that.
It turned him, naturally, all the
more loose amongst women of his own class. Why,
Leonora told me that Mrs Maidan-the woman
he followed from Burma to Nauheim-assured
her he awakened her attention by swearing that when
he kissed the servant in the train he was driven to
it. I daresay he was driven to it, by the mad
passion to find an ultimately satisfying woman.
I daresay he was sincere enough. Heaven help me,
I daresay he was sincere enough in his love for Mrs
Maidan. She was a nice little thing, a dear little
dark woman with long lashes, of whom Florence grew
quite fond. She had a lisp and a happy smile.
We saw plenty of her for the first month of our acquaintance,
then she died, quite quietly-of heart trouble.
But you know, poor little Mrs Maidan-she
was so gentle, so young. She cannot have been
more than twenty-three and she had a boy husband out
in Chitral not more than twenty-four, I believe.
Such young things ought to have been left alone.
Of course Ashburnham could not leave her alone.
I do not believe that he could. Why, even I,
at this distance of time am aware that I am a little
in love with her memory. I can’t help smiling
when I think suddenly of her-as you might
at the thought of something wrapped carefully away
in lavender, in some drawer, in some old house that
you have long left. She was so-so submissive.
Why, even to me she had the air of being submissive-to
me that not the youngest child will ever pay heed
to. Yes, this is the saddest story...
No, I cannot help wishing that Florence
had left her alone-with her playing with
adultery. I suppose it was; though she was such
a child that one has the impression that she would
hardly have known how to spell such a word. No,
it was just submissiveness-to the importunities,
to the tempestuous forces that pushed that miserable
fellow on to ruin. And I do not suppose that
Florence really made much difference. If it had
not been for her that Ashburnham left his allegiance
for Mrs Maidan, then it would have been some other
woman. But still, I do not know. Perhaps
the poor young thing would have died-she
was bound to die, anyhow, quite soon-but
she would have died without having to soak her noonday
pillow with tears whilst Florence, below the window,
talked to Captain Ashburnham about the Constitution
of the United States.... Yes, it would have left
a better taste in the mouth if Florence had let her
die in peace....
Leonora behaved better in a sense.
She just boxed Mrs Maidan’s ears-yes,
she hit her, in an uncontrollable access of rage, a
hard blow on the side of the cheek, in the corridor
of the hotel, outside Edward’s rooms. It
was that, you know, that accounted for the sudden,
odd intimacy that sprang up between Florence and Mrs
Ashburnham. Because it was, of course, an odd
intimacy. If you look at it from the outside
nothing could have been more unlikely than that Leonora,
who is the proudest creature on God’s earth,
would have struck up an acquaintanceship with two
casual Yankees whom she could not really have regarded
as being much more than a carpet beneath her feet.
You may ask what she had to be proud of. Well,
she was a Powys married to an Ashburnham-I
suppose that gave her the right to despise casual
Americans as long as she did it unostentatiously.
I don’t know what anyone has to be proud of.
She might have taken pride in her patience, in her
keeping her husband out of the bankruptcy court.
Perhaps she did.
At any rate that was how Florence
got to know her. She came round a screen at the
corner of the hotel corridor and found Leonora with
the gold key that hung from her wrist caught in Mrs
Maidan’s hair just before dinner. There
was not a single word spoken. Little Mrs Maidan
was very pale, with a red mark down her left cheek,
and the key would not come out of her black hair.
It was Florence who had to disentangle it, for Leonora
was in such a state that she could not have brought
herself to touch Mrs Maidan without growing sick.
And there was not a word spoken.
You see, under those four eyes-her own
and Mrs Maidan’s-Leonora could just
let herself go as far as to box Mrs Maidan’s
ears. But the moment a stranger came along she
pulled herself wonderfully up. She was at first
silent and then, the moment the key was disengaged
by Florence she was in a state to say: “So
awkward of me... I was just trying to put the
comb straight in Mrs Maidan’s hair....”
Mrs Maidan, however, was not a Powys
married to an Ashburnham; she was a poor little O’Flaherty
whose husband was a boy of country parsonage origin.
So there was no mistaking the sob she let go as she
went desolately away along the corridor. But
Leonora was still going to play up. She opened
the door of Ashburnham’s room quite ostentatiously,
so that Florence should hear her address Edward in
terms of intimacy and liking. “Edward,”
she called. But there was no Edward there.
You understand that there was no Edward
there. It was then, for the only time of her
career, that Leonora really compromised herself-She
exclaimed.... “How frightful!... Poor
little Maisie!...”
She caught herself up at that, but
of course it was too late. It was a queer sort
of affair....
I want to do Leonora every justice.
I love her very dearly for one thing and in this matter,
which was certainly the ruin of my small household
cockle-shell, she certainly tripped up. I do not
believe-and Leonora herself does not believe-that
poor little Maisie Maidan was ever Edward’s
mistress. Her heart was really so bad that she
would have succumbed to anything like an impassioned
embrace. That is the plain English of it, and
I suppose plain English is best. She was really
what the other two, for reasons of their own, just
pretended to be. Queer, isn’t it?
Like one of those sinister jokes that Providence plays
upon one. Add to this that I do not suppose that
Leonora would much have minded, at any other moment,
if Mrs Maidan had been her husband’s mistress.
It might have been a relief from Edward’s sentimental
gurglings over the lady and from the lady’s submissive
acceptance of those sounds. No, she would not
have minded.
But, in boxing Mrs Maidan’s
ears, Leonora was just striking the face of an intolerable
universe. For, that afternoon she had had a frightfully
painful scene with Edward.
As far as his letters went, she claimed
the right to open them when she chose. She arrogated
to herself the right because Edward’s affairs
were in such a frightful state and he lied so about
them that she claimed the privilege of having his
secrets at her disposal. There was not, indeed,
any other way, for the poor fool was too ashamed of
his lapses ever to make a clean breast of anything.
She had to drag these things out of him.
It must have been a pretty elevating
job for her. But that afternoon, Edward being
on his bed for the hour and a half prescribed by the
Kur authorities, she had opened a letter that she took
to come from a Colonel Hervey. They were going
to stay with him in Linlithgowshire for the month
of September and she did not know whether the date
fixed would be the eleventh or the eighteenth.
The address on this letter was, in handwriting, as
like Colonel Hervey’s as one blade of corn is
like another. So she had at the moment no idea
of spying on him.
But she certainly was. For she
discovered that Edward Ashburnham was paying a blackmailer
of whom she had never heard something like three hundred
pounds a year... It was a devil of a blow; it
was like death; for she imagined that by that time
she had really got to the bottom of her husband’s
liabilities. You see, they were pretty heavy.
What had really smashed them up had been a perfectly
common-place affair at Monte Carlo-an affair
with a cosmopolitan harpy who passed for the mistress
of a Russian Grand Duke. She exacted a twenty
thousand pound pearl tiara from him as the price of
her favours for a week or so. It would have pipped
him a good deal to have found so much, and he was not
in the ordinary way a gambler. He might, indeed,
just have found the twenty thousand and the not slight
charges of a week at an hotel with the fair creature.
He must have been worth at that date five hundred thousand
dollars and a little over. Well, he must needs
go to the tables and lose forty thousand pounds....
Forty thousand solid pounds, borrowed from sharks!
And even after that he must-it was an imperative
passion-enjoy the favours of the lady.
He got them, of course, when it was a matter of solid
bargaining, for far less than twenty thousand, as he
might, no doubt, have done from the first. I
daresay ten thousand dollars covered the bill.
Anyhow, there was a pretty solid hole in a fortune
of a hundred thousand pounds or so. And Leonora
had to fix things up; he would have run from money-lender
to money-lender. And that was quite in the early
days of her discovery of his infidelities-if
you like to call them infidelities. And she discovered
that one from public sources. God knows what
would have happened if she had not discovered it from
public sources. I suppose he would have concealed
it from her until they were penniless. But she
was able, by the grace of God, to get hold of the
actual lenders of the money, to learn the exact sums
that were needed. And she went off to England.
Yes, she went right off to England
to her attorney and his while he was still in the
arms of his Circe-at Antibes, to which place
they had retired. He got sick of the lady quite
quickly, but not before Leonora had had such lessons
in the art of business from her attorney that she
had her plan as clearly drawn up as was ever that of
General Trochu for keeping the Prussians out of Paris
in 1870. It was about as effectual at first,
or it seemed so.
That would have been, you know, in
1895, about nine years before the date of which I
am talking-the date of Florence’s
getting her hold over Leonora; for that was what it
amounted to.... Well, Mrs Ashburnham had simply
forced Edward to settle all his property upon her.
She could force him to do anything; in his clumsy,
good-natured, inarticulate way he was as frightened
of her as of the devil. And he admired her enormously,
and he was as fond of her as any man could be of any
woman. She took advantage of it to treat him
as if he had been a person whose estates are being
managed by the Court of Bankruptcy. I suppose
it was the best thing for him.
Anyhow, she had no end of a job for
the first three years or so. Unexpected liabilities
kept on cropping up-and that afflicted fool
did not make it any easier. You see, along with
the passion of the chase went a frame of mind that
made him be extraordinarily ashamed of himself.
You may not believe it, but he really had such a sort
of respect for the chastity of Leonora’s imagination
that he hated-he was positively revolted
at the thought that she should know that the sort
of thing that he did existed in the world. So
he would stick out in an agitated way against the
accusation of ever having done anything. He wanted
to preserve the virginity of his wife’s thoughts.
He told me that himself during the long walks we had
at the last-while the girl was on the way
to Brindisi.
So, of course, for those three years
or so, Leonora had many agitations. And it was
then that they really quarrelled.
Yes, they quarrelled bitterly.
That seems rather extravagant. You might have
thought that Leonora would be just calmly loathing
and he lachrymosely contrite. But that was not
it a bit... Along with Edward’s passions
and his shame for them went the violent conviction
of the duties of his station-a conviction
that was quite unreasonably expensive. I trust
I have not, in talking of his liabilities, given the
impression that poor Edward was a promiscuous libertine.
He was not; he was a sentimentalist. The servant
girl in the Kilsyte case had been pretty, but mournful
of appearance. I think that, when he had kissed
her, he had desired rather to comfort her. And,
if she had succumbed to his blandishments I daresay
he would have set her up in a little house in Portsmouth
or Winchester and would have been faithful to her for
four or five years. He was quite capable of that.
No, the only two of his affairs of
the heart that cost him money were that of the Grand
Duke’s mistress and that which was the subject
of the blackmailing letter that Leonora opened.
That had been a quite passionate affair with quite
a nice woman. It had succeeded the one with the
Grand Ducal lady. The lady was the wife of a brother
officer and Leonora had known all about the passion,
which had been quite a real passion and had lasted
for several years. You see, poor Edward’s
passions were quite logical in their progression upwards.
They began with a servant, went on to a courtesan
and then to a quite nice woman, very unsuitably mated.
For she had a quite nasty husband who, by means of
letters and things, went on blackmailing poor Edward
to the tune of three or four hundred a year-with
threats of the Divorce Court. And after this
lady came Maisie Maidan, and after poor Maisie only
one more affair and then-the real passion
of his life. His marriage with Leonora had been
arranged by his parents and, though he always admired
her immensely, he had hardly ever pretended to be
much more than tender to her, though he desperately
needed her moral support, too....
But his really trying liabilities
were mostly in the nature of generosities proper to
his station. He was, according to Leonora, always
remitting his tenants’ rents and giving the tenants
to understand that the reduction would be permanent;
he was always redeeming drunkards who came before
his magisterial bench; he was always trying to put
prostitutes into respectable places-and
he was a perfect maniac about children. I don’t
know how many ill-used people he did not pick up and
provide with careers-Leonora has told me,
but I daresay she exaggerated and the figure seems
so preposterous that I will not put it down.
All these things, and the continuance of them seemed
to him to be his duty-along with impossible
subscriptions to hospitals and Boy Scouts and to provide
prizes at cattle shows and antivivisection societies....
Well, Leonora saw to it that most
of these things were not continued. They could
not possibly keep up Branshaw Manor at that rate after
the money had gone to the Grand Duke’s mistress.
She put the rents back at their old figures; discharged
the drunkards from their homes, and sent all the societies
notice that they were to expect no more subscriptions.
To the children, she was more tender; nearly all of
them she supported till the age of apprenticeship
or domestic service. You see, she was childless
herself.
She was childless herself, and she
considered herself to be to blame. She had come
of a penniless branch of the Powys family, and they
had forced upon her poor dear Edward without making
the stipulation that the children should be brought
up as Catholics. And that, of course, was spiritual
death to Leonora. I have given you a wrong impression
if I have not made you see that Leonora was a woman
of a strong, cold conscience, like all English Catholics.
(I cannot, myself, help disliking this religion; there
is always, at the bottom of my mind, in spite of Leonora,
the feeling of shuddering at the Scarlet Woman, that
filtered in upon me in the tranquility of the little
old Friends’ Meeting House in Arch Street, Philadelphia.)
So I do set down a good deal of Leonora’s mismanagement
of poor dear Edward’s case to the peculiarly
English form of her religion. Because, of course,
the only thing to have done for Edward would have
been to let him sink down until he became a tramp
of gentlemanly address, having, maybe, chance love
affairs upon the highways. He would have done
so much less harm; he would have been much less agonized
too. At any rate, he would have had fewer chances
of ruining and of remorse. For Edward was great
at remorse. But Leonora’s English Catholic
conscience, her rigid principles, her coldness, even
her very patience, were, I cannot help thinking, all
wrong in this special case. She quite seriously
and naively imagined that the Church of Rome disapproves
of divorce; she quite seriously and naively believed
that her church could be such a monstrous and imbecile
institution as to expect her to take on the impossible
job of making Edward Ashburnham a faithful husband.
She had, as the English would say, the Nonconformist
temperament. In the United States of North America
we call it the New England conscience. For, of
course, that frame of mind has been driven in on the
English Catholics. The centuries that they have
gone through-centuries of blind and malignant
oppression, of ostracism from public employment, of
being, as it were, a small beleagured garrison in
a hostile country, and therefore having to act with
great formality-all these things have combined
to perform that conjuring trick. And I suppose
that Papists in England are even technically Nonconformists.
Continental Papists are a dirty, jovial
and unscrupulous crew. But that, at least, lets
them be opportunists. They would have fixed poor
dear Edward up all right. (Forgive my writing of these
monstrous things in this frivolous manner. If
I did not I should break down and cry.) In Milan,
say, or in Paris, Leonora would have had her marriage
dissolved in six months for two hundred dollars paid
in the right quarter. And Edward would have drifted
about until he became a tramp of the kind I have suggested.
Or he would have married a barmaid who would have made
him such frightful scenes in public places and would
so have torn out his moustache and left visible signs
upon his face that he would have been faithful to
her for the rest of his days. That was what he
wanted to redeem him....
For, along with his passions and his
shames there went the dread of scenes in public places,
of outcry, of excited physical violence; of publicity,
in short. Yes, the barmaid would have cured him.
And it would have been all the better if she drank;
he would have been kept busy looking after her.
I know that I am right in this.
I know it because of the Kilsyte case. You see,
the servant girl that he then kissed was nurse in the
family of the Nonconformist head of the county-whatever
that post may be called. And that gentleman was
so determined to ruin Edward, who was the chairman
of the Tory caucus, or whatever it is-that
the poor dear sufferer had the very devil of a time.
They asked questions about it in the House of Commons;
they tried to get the Hampshire magistrates degraded;
they suggested to the War Ministry that Edward was
not the proper person to hold the King’s commission.
Yes, he got it hot and strong.
The result you have heard. He
was completely cured of philandering amongst the lower
classes. And that seemed a real blessing to Leonora.
It did not revolt her so much to be connected-it
is a sort of connection-with people like
Mrs Maidan, instead of with a little kitchenmaid.
In a dim sort of way, Leonora was
almost contented when she arrived at Nauheim, that
evening....
She had got things nearly straight
by the long years of scraping in little stations in
Chitral and Burma-stations where living
is cheap in comparison with the life of a county magnate,
and where, moreover, liaisons of one sort or another
are normal and inexpensive too. So that, when
Mrs Maidan came along-and the Maidan affair
might have caused trouble out there because of the
youth of the husband-Leonora had just resigned
herself to coming home. With pushing and scraping
and with letting Branshaw Teleragh, and with selling
a picture and a relic of Charles I or so, had got-and,
poor dear, she had never had a really decent dress
to her back in all those years and years-she
had got, as she imagined, her poor dear husband back
into much the same financial position as had been
his before the mistress of the Grand Duke had happened
along. And, of course, Edward himself had helped
her a little on the financial side. He was a
fellow that many men liked. He was so presentable
and quite ready to lend you his cigar puncher-that
sort of thing. So, every now and then some financier
whom he met about would give him a good, sound, profitable
tip. And Leonora was never afraid of a bit of
a gamble-English Papists seldom are, I do
not know why.
So nearly all her investment turned
up trumps, and Edward was really in fit case to reopen
Branshaw Manor and once more to assume his position
in the county. Thus Leonora had accepted Maisie
Maidan almost with resignation-almost with
a sigh of relief. She really liked the poor child-she
had to like somebody. And, at any rate, she felt
she could trust Maisie-she could trust
her not to rook Edward for several thousands a week,
for Maisie had refused to accept so much as a trinket
ring from him. It is true that Edward gurgled
and raved about the girl in a way that she had never
yet experienced. But that, too, was almost a
relief. I think she would really have welcomed
it if he could have come across the love of his life.
It would have given her a rest.
And there could not have been anyone
better than poor little Mrs Maidan; she was so ill
she could not want to be taken on expensive jaunts....
It was Leonora herself who paid Maisie’s expenses
to Nauheim. She handed over the money to the
boy husband, for Maisie would never have allowed it;
but the husband was in agonies of fear. Poor devil!
I fancy that, on the voyage from India,
Leonora was as happy as ever she had been in her life.
Edward was wrapped up, completely, in his girl-he
was almost like a father with a child, trotting about
with rugs and physic and things, from deck to deck.
He behaved, however, with great circumspection, so
that nothing leaked through to the other passengers.
And Leonora had almost attained to the attitude of
a mother towards Mrs Maidan. So it had looked
very well-the benevolent, wealthy couple
of good people, acting as saviours to the poor, dark-eyed,
dying young thing. And that attitude of Leonora’s
towards Mrs Maidan no doubt partly accounted for the
smack in the face. She was hitting a naughty child
who had been stealing chocolates at an inopportune
moment. It was certainly an inopportune moment.
For, with the opening of that blackmailing letter
from that injured brother officer, all the old terrors
had redescended upon Leonora. Her road had again
seemed to stretch out endless; she imagined that there
might be hundreds and hundreds of such things that
Edward was concealing from her-that they
might necessitate more mortgagings, more pawnings
of bracelets, more and always more horrors. She
had spent an excruciating afternoon. The matter
was one of a divorce case, of course, and she wanted
to avoid publicity as much as Edward did, so that
she saw the necessity of continuing the payments.
And she did not so much mind that. They could
find three hundred a year. But it was the horror
of there being more such obligations.
She had had no conversation with Edward
for many years-none that went beyond the
mere arrangements for taking trains or engaging servants.
But that afternoon she had to let him have it.
And he had been just the same as ever. It was
like opening a book after a decade to find the words
the same. He had the same motives. He had
not wished to tell her about the case because he had
not wished her to sully her mind with the idea that
there was such a thing as a brother officer who could
be a blackmailer-and he had wanted to protect
the credit of his old light of love. That lady
was certainly not concerned with her husband.
And he swore, and swore, and swore, that there was
nothing else in the world against him. She did
not believe him.
He had done it once too often-and
she was wrong for the first time, so that he acted
a rather creditable part in the matter. For he
went right straight out to the post-office and spent
several hours in coding a telegram to his solicitor,
bidding that hard-headed man to threaten to take out
at once a warrant against the fellow who was on his
track. He said afterwards that it was a bit too
thick on poor old Leonora to be ballyragged any more.
That was really the last of his outstanding accounts,
and he was ready to take his personal chance of the
Divorce Court if the blackmailer turned nasty.
He would face it out-the publicity, the
papers, the whole bally show. Those were his simple
words....
He had made, however, the mistake
of not telling Leonora where he was going, so that,
having seen him go to his room to fetch the code for
the telegram, and seeing, two hours later, Maisie Maidan
come out of his room, Leonora imagined that the two
hours she had spent in silent agony Edward had spent
with Maisie Maidan in his arms. That seemed to
her to be too much. As a matter of fact, Maisie’s
being in Edward’s room had been the result,
partly of poverty, partly of pride, partly of sheer
innocence. She could not, in the first place,
afford a maid; she refrained as much as possible from
sending the hotel servants on errands, since every
penny was of importance to her, and she feared to
have to pay high tips at the end of her stay.
Edward had lent her one of his fascinating cases containing
fifteen different sizes of scissors, and, having seen
from her window, his departure for the post-office,
she had taken the opportunity of returning the case.
She could not see why she should not, though she felt
a certain remorse at the thought that she had kissed
the pillows of his bed. That was the way it took
her.
But Leonora could see that, without
the shadow of a doubt, the incident gave Florence
a hold over her. It let Florence into things and
Florence was the only created being who had any idea
that the Ashburnhams were not just good people with
nothing to their tails. She determined at once,
not so much to give Florence the privilege of her intimacy-which
would have been the payment of a kind of blackmail-as
to keep Florence under observation until she could
have demonstrated to Florence that she was not in
the least jealous of poor Maisie. So that was
why she had entered the dining-room arm in arm with
my wife, and why she had so markedly planted herself
at our table. She never left us, indeed, for a
minute that night, except just to run up to Mrs Maidan’s
room to beg her pardon and to beg her also to let
Edward take her very markedly out into the gardens
that night. She said herself, when Mrs Maidan
came rather wistfully down into the lounge where we
were all sitting: “Now, Edward, get up
and take Maisie to the Casino. I want Mrs Dowell
to tell me all about the families in Connecticut who
came from Fordingbridge.” For it had been
discovered that Florence came of a line that had actually
owned Branshaw Teleragh for two centuries before the
Ashburnhams came there. And there she sat with
me in that hall, long after Florence had gone to bed,
so that I might witness her gay reception of that pair.
She could play up.
And that enables me to fix exactly
the day of our going to the town of M .
For it was the very day poor Mrs Maidan died.
We found her dead when we got back-pretty
awful, that, when you come to figure out what it all
means....
At any rate the measure of my relief
when Leonora said that she was an Irish Catholic gives
you the measure of my affection for that couple.
It was an affection so intense that even to this day
I cannot think of Edward without sighing. I do
not believe that I could have gone on any more with
them. I was getting too tired. And I verily
believe, too, if my suspicion that Leonora was jealous
of Florence had been the reason she gave for her outburst
I should have turned upon Florence with the maddest
kind of rage. Jealousy would have been incurable.
But Florence’s mere silly jibes at the Irish
and at the Catholics could be apologized out of existence.
And that I appeared to fix up in two minutes or so.
She looked at me for a long time rather
fixedly and queerly while I was doing it. And
at last I worked myself up to saying:
“Do accept the situation.
I confess that I do not like your religion. But
I like you so intensely. I don’t mind saying
that I have never had anyone to be really fond of,
and I do not believe that anyone has ever been fond
of me, as I believe you really to be.”
“Oh, I’m fond enough of
you,” she said. “Fond enough to say
that I wish every man was like you. But there
are others to be considered.” She was thinking,
as a matter of fact, of poor Maisie. She picked
a little piece of pellitory out of the breast-high
wall in front of us. She chafed it for a long
minute between her finger and thumb, then she threw
it over the coping.
“Oh, I accept the situation,”
she said at last, “if you can.”
VI I remember laughing at the
phrase, “accept the situation”, which she
seemed to repeat with a gravity too intense. I
said to her something like:
“It’s hardly as much as
that. I mean, that I must claim the liberty of
a free American citizen to think what I please about
your co-religionists. And I suppose that Florence
must have liberty to think what she pleases and to
say what politeness allows her to say.”
“She had better,” Leonora
answered, “not say one single word against my
people or my faith.” It struck me at the
time, that there was an unusual, an almost threatening,
hardness in her voice. It was almost as if she
were trying to convey to Florence, through me, that
she would seriously harm my wife if Florence went
to something that was an extreme. Yes, I remember
thinking at the time that it was almost as if Leonora
were saying, through me to Florence:
“You may outrage me as you will;
you may take all that I personally possess, but do
not you care to say one single thing in view of the
situation that that will set up-against
the faith that makes me become the doormat for your
feet.”
But obviously, as I saw it, that could
not be her meaning. Good people, be they ever
so diverse in creed, do not threaten each other.
So that I read Leonora’s words to mean just
no more than: “It would be better if Florence
said nothing at all against my co-religionists, because
it is a point that I am touchy about.”
That was the hint that, accordingly,
I conveyed to Florence when, shortly afterwards, she
and Edward came down from the tower. And I want
you to understand that, from that moment until after
Edward and the girl and Florence were all dead together,
I had never the remotest glimpse, not the shadow of
a suspicion, that there was anything wrong, as the
saying is. For five minutes, then, I entertained
the possibility that Leonora might be jealous; but
there was never another flicker in that flame-like
personality. How in the world should I get it?
For, all that time, I was just a male
sick nurse. And what chance had I against those
three hardened gamblers, who were all in league to
conceal their hands from me? What earthly chance?
They were three to one-and they made me
happy. Oh God, they made me so happy that I doubt
if even paradise, that shall smooth out all temporal
wrongs, shall ever give me the like. And what
could they have done better, or what could they have
done that could have been worse? I don’t
know....
I suppose that, during all that time
I was a deceived husband and that Leonora was pimping
for Edward. That was the cross that she had to
take up during her long Calvary of a life....
You ask how it feels to be a deceived
husband. Just Heavens, I do not know. It
feels just nothing at all. It is not Hell, certainly
it is not necessarily Heaven. So I suppose it
is the intermediate stage. What do they call
it? Limbo. No, I feel nothing at all about
that. They are dead; they have gone before their
Judge who, I hope, will open to them the springs of
His compassion. It is not my business to think
about it. It is simply my business to say, as
Leonora’s people say: “Requiem aeternam
dona eis, Do mine, et lux perpetua luceat
eis. In memoria aeterna erit....”
But what were they? The just? The unjust?
God knows! I think that the pair of them were
only poor wretches, creeping over this earth in the
shadow of an eternal wrath. It is very terrible....
It is almost too terrible, the picture
of that judgement, as it appears to me sometimes,
at nights. It is probably the suggestion of some
picture that I have seen somewhere. But upon an
immense plain, suspended in mid-air, I seem to see
three figures, two of them clasped close in an intense
embrace, and one intolerably solitary. It is in
black and white, my picture of that judgement, an
etching, perhaps; only I cannot tell an etching from
a photographic reproduction. And the immense plain
is the hand of God, stretching out for miles and miles,
with great spaces above it and below it. And
they are in the sight of God, and it is Florence that
is alone.... And, do you know, at the thought
of that intense solitude I feel an overwhelming desire
to rush forward and comfort her. You cannot,
you see, have acted as nurse to a person for twelve
years without wishing to go on nursing them, even
though you hate them with the hatred of the adder,
and even in the palm of God. But, in the nights,
with that vision of judgement before me, I know that
I hold myself back. For I hate Florence.
I hate Florence with such a hatred that I would not
spare her an eternity of loneliness. She need
not have done what she did. She was an American,
a New Englander. She had not the hot passions
of these Europeans. She cut out that poor imbecile
of an Edward-and I pray God that he is
really at peace, clasped close in the arms of that
poor, poor girl! And, no doubt, Maisie Maidan
will find her young husband again, and Leonora will
burn, clear and serene, a northern light and one of
the archangels of God. And me.... Well, perhaps,
they will find me an elevator to run.... But
Florence... .
She should not have done it.
She should not have done it. It was playing it
too low down. She cut out poor dear Edward from
sheer vanity; she meddled between him and Leonora
from a sheer, imbecile spirit of district visiting.
Do you understand that, whilst she was Edward’s
mistress, she was perpetually trying to reunite him
to his wife? She would gabble on to Leonora about
forgiveness-treating the subject from the
bright, American point of view. And Leonora would
treat her like the whore she was. Once she said
to Florence in the early morning:
“You come to me straight out
of his bed to tell me that that is my proper place.
I know it, thank you.”
But even that could not stop Florence.
She went on saying that it was her ambition to leave
this world a little brighter by the passage of her
brief life, and how thankfully she would leave Edward,
whom she thought she had brought to a right frame
of mind, if Leonora would only give him a chance.
He needed, she said, tenderness beyond anything.
And Leonora would answer-for
she put up with this outrage for years-Leonora,
as I understand, would answer something like:
“Yes, you would give him up.
And you would go on writing to each other in secret,
and committing adultery in hired rooms. I know
the pair of you, you know. No. I prefer
the situation as it is.” Half the time
Florence would ignore Leonora’s remarks.
She would think they were not quite ladylike.
The other half of the time she would try to persuade
Leonora that her love for Edward was quite spiritual-on
account of her heart. Once she said:
“If you can believe that of
Maisie Maidan, as you say you do, why cannot you believe
it of me?” Leonora was, I understand, doing her
hair at that time in front of the mirror in her bedroom.
And she looked round at Florence, to whom she did
not usually vouchsafe a glance,-she looked
round coolly and calmly, and said:
“Never do you dare to mention
Mrs Maidan’s name again. You murdered her.
You and I murdered her between us. I am as much
a scoundrel as you. I don’t like to be
reminded of it.”
Florence went off at once into a babble
of how could she have hurt a person whom she hardly
knew, a person whom with the best intentions, in pursuance
of her efforts to leave the world a little brighter,
she had tried to save from Edward. That was how
she figured it out to herself. She really thought
that.... So Leonora said patiently:
“Very well, just put it that
I killed her and that it’s a painful subject.
One does not like to think that one had killed someone.
Naturally not. I ought never to have brought her
from India.” And that, indeed, is exactly
how Leonora looked at it. It is stated a little
baldly, but Leonora was always a great one for bald
statements.
What had happened on the day of our
jaunt to the ancient city of M -
had been this:
Leonora, who had been even then filled
with pity and contrition for the poor child, on returning
to our hotel had gone straight to Mrs Maidan’s
room. She had wanted just to pet her. And
she had perceived at first only, on the clear, round
table covered with red velvet, a letter addressed
to her. It ran something like:
“Oh, Mrs Ashburnham, how could
you have done it? I trusted you so. You
never talked to me about me and Edward, but I trusted
you. How could you buy me from my husband?
I have just heard how you have-in the hall
they were talking about it, Edward and the American
lady. You paid the money for me to come here.
Oh, how could you? How could you? I am going
straight back to Bunny....” Bunny was Mrs
Maidan’s husband.
And Leonora said that, as she went
on reading the letter, she had, without looking round
her, a sense that that hotel room was cleared, that
there were no papers on the table, that there were
no clothes on the hooks, and that there was a strained
silence-a silence, she said, as if there
were something in the room that drank up such sounds
as there were. She had to fight against that
feeling, whilst she read the postscript of the letter.
“I did not know you wanted me
for an adulteress,” the postscript began.
The poor child was hardly literate. “It
was surely not right of you and I never wanted to
be one. And I heard Edward call me a poor little
rat to the American lady. He always called me
a little rat in private, and I did not mind.
But, if he called me it to her, I think he does not
love me any more. Oh, Mrs Ashburnham, you knew
the world and I knew nothing. I thought it would
be all right if you thought it could, and I thought
you would not have brought me if you did not, too.
You should not have done it, and we out of the same
convent....”
Leonora said that she screamed when she read that.
And then she saw that Maisie’s
boxes were all packed, and she began a search for
Mrs Maidan herself-all over the hotel.
The manager said that Mrs Maidan had paid her bill,
and had gone up to the station to ask the Reiseverkehrsbureau
to make her out a plan for her immediate return to
Chitral. He imagined that he had seen her come
back, but he was not quite certain. No one in
the large hotel had bothered his head about the child.
And she, wandering solitarily in the hall, had no doubt
sat down beside a screen that had Edward and Florence
on the other side. I never heard then or after
what had passed between that precious couple.
I fancy Florence was just about beginning her cutting
out of poor dear Edward by addressing to him some
words of friendly warning as to the ravages he might
be making in the girl’s heart. That would
be the sort of way she would begin. And Edward
would have sentimentally assured her that there was
nothing in it; that Maisie was just a poor little rat
whose passage to Nauheim his wife had paid out of her
own pocket. That would have been enough to do
the trick.
For the trick was pretty efficiently
done. Leonora, with panic growing and with contrition
very large in her heart, visited every one of the
public rooms of the hotel-the dining-room,
the lounge, the schreibzimmer, the winter garden.
God knows what they wanted with a winter garden in
an hotel that is only open from May till October.
But there it was. And then Leonora ran-yes,
she ran up the stairs-to see if Maisie
had not returned to her rooms. She had determined
to take that child right away from that hideous place.
It seemed to her to be all unspeakable. I do
not mean to say that she was not quite cool about it.
Leonora was always Leonora. But the cold justice
of the thing demanded that she should play the part
of mother to this child who had come from the same
convent. She figured it out to amount to that.
She would leave Edward to Florence and to me-and
she would devote all her time to providing that child
with an atmosphere of love until she could be returned
to her poor young husband. It was naturally too
late.
She had not cared to look round Maisie’s
rooms at first. Now, as soon as she came in,
she perceived, sticking out beyond the bed, a small
pair of feet in high-heeled shoes. Maisie had
died in the effort to strap up a great portmanteau.
She had died so grotesquely that her little body had
fallen forward into the trunk, and it had closed upon
her, like the jaws of a gigantic alligator. The
key was in her hand. Her dark hair, like the
hair of a Japanese, had come down and covered her body
and her face.
Leonora lifted her up-she
was the merest featherweight-and laid her
on the bed with her hair about her. She was smiling,
as if she had just scored a goal in a hockey match.
You understand she had not committed suicide.
Her heart had just stopped. I saw her, with the
long lashes on the cheeks, with the smile about the
lips, with the flowers all about her. The stem
of a white lily rested in her hand so that the spike
of flowers was upon her shoulder. She looked
like a bride in the sunlight of the mortuary candles
that were all about her, and the white coifs of the
two nuns that knelt at her feet with their faces hidden
might have been two swans that were to bear her away
to kissing-kindness land, or wherever it is.
Leonora showed her to me. She would not let either
of the others see her. She wanted, you know,
to spare poor dear Edward’s feelings. He
never could bear the sight of a corpse. And, since
she never gave him an idea that Maisie had written
to her, he imagined that the death had been the most
natural thing in the world. He soon got over
it. Indeed, it was the one affair of his about
which he never felt much remorse.