Well, that about brings me up
to the date of my receiving, in Waterbury, the laconic
cable from Edward to the effect that he wanted me to
go to Branshaw and have a chat. I was pretty
busy at the time and I was half minded to send him
a reply cable to the effect that I would start in
a fortnight. But I was having a long interview
with old Mr Hurlbird’s attorneys and immediately
afterwards I had to have a long interview with the
Misses Hurlbird, so I delayed cabling.
I had expected to find the Misses
Hurlbird excessively old-in the nineties
or thereabouts. The time had passed so slowly
that I had the impression that it must have been thirty
years since I had been in the United States.
It was only twelve years. Actually Miss Hurlbird
was just sixty-one and Miss Florence Hurlbird fifty-nine,
and they were both, mentally and physically, as vigorous
as could be desired. They were, indeed, more
vigorous, mentally, than suited my purpose, which was
to get away from the United States as quickly as I
could. The Hurlbirds were an exceedingly united
family-exceedingly united except on one
set of points. Each of the three of them had
a separate doctor, whom they trusted implicitly-and
each had a separate attorney. And each of them
distrusted the other’s doctor and the other’s
attorney. And, naturally, the doctors and the
attorneys warned one all the time-against
each other. You cannot imagine how complicated
it all became for me. Of course I had an attorney
of my own-recommended to me by young Carter,
my Philadelphia nephew.
I do not mean to say that there was
any unpleasantness of a grasping kind. The problem
was quite another one-a moral dilemma.
You see, old Mr Hurlbird had left all his property
to Florence with the mere request that she would have
erected to him in the city of Waterbury, Ill., a memorial
that should take the form of some sort of institution
for the relief of sufferers from the heart. Florence’s
money had all come to me-and with it old
Mr Hurlbird’s. He had died just five days
before Florence.
Well, I was quite ready to spend a
round million dollars on the relief of sufferers from
the heart. The old gentleman had left about a
million and a half; Florence had been worth about
eight hundred thousand-and as I figured
it out, I should cut up at about a million myself.
Anyhow, there was ample money. But I naturally
wanted to consult the wishes of his surviving relatives
and then the trouble really began. You see, it
had been discovered that Mr Hurlbird had had nothing
whatever the matter with his heart. His lungs
had been a little affected all through his life and
he had died of bronchitis. It struck Miss Florence
Hurlbird that, since her brother had died of lungs
and not of heart, his money ought to go to lung patients.
That, she considered, was what her brother would have
wished. On the other hand, by a kink, that I could
not at the time understand, Miss Hurlbird insisted
that I ought to keep the money all to myself.
She said that she did not wish for any monuments to
the Hurlbird family. At the time I thought that
that was because of a New England dislike for necrological
ostentation. But I can figure out now, when I
remember certain insistent and continued questions
that she put to me, about Edward Ashburnham, that
there was another idea in her mind. And Leonora
has told me that, on Florence’s dressing-table,
beside her dead body, there had lain a letter to Miss
Hurlbird-a letter which Leonora posted
without telling me. I don’t know how Florence
had time to write to her aunt; but I can quite understand
that she would not like to go out of the world without
making some comments. So I guess Florence had
told Miss Hurlbird a good bit about Edward Ashburnham
in a few scrawled words-and that that was
why the old lady did not wish the name of Hurlbird
perpetuated. Perhaps also she thought that I had
earned the Hurlbird money. It meant a pretty
tidy lot of discussing, what with the doctors warning
each other about the bad effects of discussions on
the health of the old ladies, and warning me covertly
against each other, and saying that old Mr Hurlbird
might have died of heart, after all, in spite of the
diagnosis of his doctor. And the solicitors all
had separate methods of arranging about how the money
should be invested and entrusted and bound. Personally,
I wanted to invest the money so that the interest
could be used for the relief of sufferers from the
heart. If old Mr Hurlbird had not died of any
defects in that organ he had considered that it was
defective. Moreover, Florence had certainly died
of her heart, as I saw it. And when Miss Florence
Hurlbird stood out that the money ought to go to chest
sufferers I was brought to thinking that there ought
to be a chest institution too, and I advanced the sum
that I was ready to provide to a million and a half
of dollars. That would have given seven hundred
and fifty thousand to each class of invalid.
I did not want money at all badly. All I wanted
it for was to be able to give Nancy Rufford a good
time. I did not know much about housekeeping
expenses in England where, I presumed, she would wish
to live. I knew that her needs at that time were
limited to good chocolates, and a good horse or two,
and simple, pretty frocks. Probably she would
want more than that later on. But even if I gave
a million and a half dollars to these institutions
I should still have the equivalent of about twenty
thousand a year English, and I considered that Nancy
could have a pretty good time on that or less.
Anyhow, we had a stiff set of arguments up at the
Hurlbird mansion which stands on a bluff over the
town. It may strike you, silent listener, as being
funny if you happen to be European. But moral
problems of that description and the giving of millions
to institutions are immensely serious matters in my
country. Indeed, they are the staple topics for
consideration amongst the wealthy classes. We
haven’t got peerage and social climbing to occupy
us much, and decent people do not take interest in
politics or elderly people in sport. So that
there were real tears shed by both Miss Hurlbird and
Miss Florence before I left that city. I left
it quite abruptly. Four hours after Edward’s
telegram came another from Leonora, saying: “Yes,
do come. You could be so helpful.”
I simply told my attorney that there was the million
and a half; that he could invest it as he liked, and
that the purposes must be decided by the Misses Hurlbird.
I was, anyhow, pretty well worn out by all the discussions.
And, as I have never heard yet from the Misses Hurlbird,
I rather think that Miss Hurlbird, either by revelations
or by moral force, has persuaded Miss Florence that
no memorial to their names shall be erected in the
city of Waterbury, Conn. Miss Hurlbird wept dreadfully
when she heard that I was going to stay with the Ashburnhams,
but she did not make any comments. I was aware,
at that date, that her niece had been seduced by that
fellow Jimmy before I had married her-but
I contrived to produce on her the impression that
I thought Florence had been a model wife. Why,
at that date I still believed that Florence had been
perfectly virtuous after her marriage to me. I
had not figured it out that she could have played
it so low down as to continue her intrigue with that
fellow under my roof. Well, I was a fool.
But I did not think much about Florence at that date.
My mind was occupied with what was happening at Branshaw.
I had got it into my head that the telegrams had something
to do with Nancy. It struck me that she might
have shown signs of forming an attachment for some
undesirable fellow and that Leonora wanted me to come
back and marry her out of harm’s way. That
was what was pretty firmly in my mind. And it
remained in my mind for nearly ten days after my arrival
at that beautiful old place. Neither Edward nor
Leonora made any motion to talk to me about anything
other than the weather and the crops. Yet, although
there were several young fellows about, I could not
see that any one in particular was distinguished by
the girl’s preference. She certainly appeared
illish and nervous, except when she woke up to talk
gay nonsense to me. Oh, the pretty thing that
she was....
I imagined that what must have happened
was that the undesirable young man had been forbidden
the place and that Nancy was fretting a little.
What had happened was just Hell. Leonora had spoken
to Nancy; Nancy had spoken to Edward; Edward had spoken
to Leonora-and they had talked and talked.
And talked. You have to imagine horrible pictures
of gloom and half lights, and emotions running through
silent nights-through whole nights.
You have to imagine my beautiful Nancy appearing suddenly
to Edward, rising up at the foot of his bed, with
her long hair falling, like a split cone of shadow,
in the glimmer of a night-light that burned beside
him. You have to imagine her, a silent, a no doubt
agonized figure, like a spectre, suddenly offering
herself to him-to save his reason!
And you have to imagine his frantic refusal-and
talk. And talk! My God!
And yet, to me, living in the house,
enveloped with the charm of the quiet and ordered
living, with the silent, skilled servants whose mere
laying out of my dress clothes was like a caress-to
me who was hourly with them they appeared like tender,
ordered and devoted people, smiling, absenting themselves
at the proper intervals; driving me to meets-just
good people! How the devil-how the
devil do they do it?
At dinner one evening Leonora said-she
had just opened a telegram:
“Nancy will be going to India,
tomorrow, to be with her father.”
No one spoke. Nancy looked at
her plate; Edward went on eating his pheasant.
I felt very bad; I imagined that it would be up to
me to propose to Nancy that evening. It appeared
to me to be queer that they had not given me any warning
of Nancy’s departure-But I thought
that that was only English manners-some
sort of delicacy that I had not got the hang of.
You must remember that at that moment I trusted in
Edward and Leonora and in Nancy Rufford, and in the
tranquility of ancient haunts of peace, as I had trusted
in my mother’s love. And that evening Edward
spoke to me.
What in the interval had happened had been this:
Upon her return from Nauheim Leonora
had completely broken down-because she
knew she could trust Edward. That seems odd but,
if you know anything about breakdowns, you will know
that by the ingenious torments that fate prepares
for us, these things come as soon as, a strain having
relaxed, there is nothing more to be done. It
is after a husband’s long illness and death
that a widow goes to pieces; it is at the end of a
long rowing contest that a crew collapses and lies
forward upon its oars. And that was what happened
to Leonora.
From certain tones in Edward’s
voice; from the long, steady stare that he had given
her from his bloodshot eyes on rising from the dinner
table in the Nauheim hotel, she knew that, in the
affair of the poor girl, this was a case in which
Edward’s moral scruples, or his social code,
or his idea that it would be playing it too low down,
rendered Nancy perfectly safe. The girl, she
felt sure, was in no danger at all from Edward.
And in that she was perfectly right. The smash
was to come from herself.
She relaxed; she broke; she drifted,
at first quickly, then with an increasing momentum,
down the stream of destiny. You may put it that,
having been cut off from the restraints of her religion,
for the first time in her life, she acted along the
lines of her instinctive desires. I do not know
whether to think that, in that she was no longer herself;
or that, having let loose the bonds of her standards,
her conventions and her traditions, she was being,
for the first time, her own natural self. She
was torn between her intense, maternal love for the
girl and an intense jealousy of the woman who realizes
that the man she loves has met what appears to be
the final passion of his life. She was divided
between an intense disgust for Edward’s weakness
in conceiving this passion, an intense pity for the
miseries that he was enduring, and a feeling equally
intense, but one that she hid from herself-a
feeling of respect for Edward’s determination
to keep himself, in this particular affair, unspotted.
And the human heart is a very mysterious
thing. It is impossible to say that Leonora,
in acting as she then did, was not filled with a sort
of hatred of Edward’s final virtue. She
wanted, I think, to despise him. He was, she
realized gone from her for good. Then let him
suffer, let him agonize; let him, if possible, break
and go to that Hell that is the abode of broken resolves.
She might have taken a different line. It would
have been so easy to send the girl away to stay with
some friends; to have taken her away herself upon
some pretext or other. That would not have cured
things but it would have been the decent line,...
But, at that date, poor Leonora was incapable of taking
any line whatever.
She pitied Edward frightfully at one
time-and then she acted along the lines
of pity; she loathed him at another and then she acted
as her loathing dictated. She gasped, as a person
dying of tuberculosis gasps for air. She craved
madly for communication with some other human soul.
And the human soul that she selected was that of the
girl.
Perhaps Nancy was the only person
that she could have talked to. With her necessity
for réticences, with her coldness of manner, Leonora
had singularly few intimates. She had none at
all, with the exception of the Mrs Colonel Whelen,
who had advised her about the affair with La Dolciquita,
and the one or two religious, who had guided her through
life. The Colonel’s wife was at that time
in Madeira; the religious she now avoided. Her
visitors’ book had seven hundred names in it;
there was not a soul that she could speak to.
She was Mrs Ashburnham of Branshaw Teleragh.
She was the great Mrs Ashburnham of
Branshaw and she lay all day upon her bed in her marvellous,
light, airy bedroom with the chintzes and the Chippendale
and the portraits of deceased Ashburnhams by Zoffany
and Zucchero. When there was a meet she
would struggle up-supposing it were within
driving distance-and let Edward drive her
and the girl to the cross-roads or the country house.
She would drive herself back alone; Edward would ride
off with the girl. Ride Leonora could not, that
season-her head was too bad. Each pace
of her mare was an anguish.
But she drove with efficiency and
precision; she smiled at the Gimmers and Ffoulkes
and the Hedley Seatons. She threw with exactitude
pennies to the boys who opened gates for her; she
sat upright on the seat of the high dog-cart; she
waved her hands to Edward and Nancy as they rode off
with the hounds, and every one could hear her clear,
high voice, in the chilly weather, saying: “Have
a good time!”
Poor forlorn woman!...
There was, however, one spark of consolation.
It came from the fact that Rodney Bayham, of Bayham,
followed her always with his eyes. It had been
three years since she had tried her abortive love-affair
with him. Yet still, on the winter mornings he
would ride up to her shafts and just say: “Good
day,” and look at her with eyes that were not
imploring, but seemed to say: “You see,
I am still, as the Germans say, A. D.-at
disposition.”
It was a great consolation, not because
she proposed ever to take him up again, but because
it showed her that there was in the world one faithful
soul in riding-breeches. And it showed her that
she was not losing her looks.
And, indeed, she was not losing her
looks. She was forty, but she was as clean run
as on the day she had left the convent-as
clear in outline, as clear coloured in the hair, as
dark blue in the eyes. She thought that her looking-glass
told her this; but there are always the doubts....
Rodney Bayham’s eyes took them away.
It is very singular that Leonora should
not have aged at all. I suppose that there are
some types of beauty and even of youth made for the
embellishments that come with enduring sorrow.
That is too elaborately put. I mean that Leonora,
if everything had prospered, might have become too
hard and, maybe, overbearing. As it was she was
tuned down to appearing efficient-and yet
sympathetic. That is the rarest of all blends.
And yet I swear that Leonora, in her restrained way,
gave the impression of being intensely sympathetic.
When she listened to you she appeared also to be listening
to some sound that was going on in the distance.
But still, she listened to you and took in what you
said, which, since the record of humanity is a record
of sorrows, was, as a rule, something sad.
I think that she must have taken Nancy
through many terrors of the night and many bad places
of the day. And that would account for the girl’s
passionate love for the elder woman. For Nancy’s
love for Leonora was an admiration that is awakened
in Catholics by their feeling for the Virgin Mary
and for various of the saints. It is too little
to say that the girl would have laid her life at Leonora’s
feet. Well, she laid there the offer of her virtue-and
her reason. Those were sufficient instalments
of her life. It would today be much better for
Nancy Rufford if she were dead.
Perhaps all these reflections are
a nuisance; but they crowd on me. I will try
to tell the story.
You see-when she came back
from Nauheim Leonora began to have her headaches-headaches
lasting through whole days, during which she could
speak no word and could bear to hear no sound.
And, day after day, Nancy would sit with her, silent
and motionless for hours, steeping handkerchiefs in
vinegar and water, and thinking her own thoughts.
It must have been very bad for her-and
her meals alone with Edward must have been bad for
her too-and beastly bad for Edward.
Edward, of course, wavered in his demeanour, What
else could he do? At times he would sit silent
and dejected over his untouched food. He would
utter nothing but monosyllables when Nancy spoke to
him. Then he was simply afraid of the girl falling
in love with him. At other times he would take
a little wine; pull himself together; attempt to chaff
Nancy about a stake and binder hedge that her mare
had checked at, or talk about the habits of the Chitralis.
That was when he was thinking that it was rough on
the poor girl that he should have become a dull companion.
He realized that his talking to her in the park at
Nauheim had done her no harm.
But all that was doing a great deal
of harm to Nancy. It gradually opened her eyes
to the fact that Edward was a man with his ups and
downs and not an invariably gay uncle like a nice
dog, a trustworthy horse or a girl friend. She
would find him in attitudes of frightful dejection,
sunk into his armchair in the study that was half a
gun-room. She would notice through the open door
that his face was the face of an old, dead man, when
he had no one to talk to. Gradually it forced
itself upon her attention that there were profound
differences between the pair that she regarded a her
uncle and her aunt. It was a conviction that came
very slowly.
It began with Edward’s giving
an oldish horse to a young fellow called Selmes.
Selmes’ father had been ruined by fraudulent
solicitor and the Selmes family had had to sell their
hunters. It was a case that had excited a good
deal of sympathy in that part of the county. And
Edward, meeting the young man one day, unmounted,
and seeing him to be very unhappy, had offered to
give him an old Irish cob upon which he was riding.
It was a silly sort of thing to do really. The
horse was worth from thirty to forty pounds and Edward
might have known that the gift would upset his wife.
But Edward just had to comfort that unhappy young
man whose father he had known all his life. And
what made it all the worse was that young Selmes could
not afford to keep the horse even. Edward recollected
this, immediately after he had made the offer, and
said quickly:
“Of course I mean that you should
stable the horse at Branshaw until you have time to
turn round or want to sell him and get a better.”
Nancy went straight home and told
all this to Leonora who was lying down. She regarded
it as a splendid instance of Edward’s quick
consideration for the feelings and the circumstances
of the distressed. She thought it would cheer
Leonora up-because it ought to cheer any
woman up to know that she had such a splendid husband.
That was the last girlish thought she ever had.
For Leonora, whose headache had left her collected
but miserably weak, turned upon her bed and uttered
words that were amazing to the girl:
“I wish to God,” she said,
“that he was your husband, and not mine.
We shall be ruined. We shall be ruined.
Am I never to have a chance?” And suddenly Leonora
burst into a passion of tears. She pushed herself
up from the pillows with one elbow and sat there-crying,
crying, crying, with her face hidden in her hands
and the tears falling through her fingers.
The girl flushed, stammered and whimpered
as if she had been personally insulted.
“But if Uncle Edward...” she began.
“That man,” said Leonora,
with an extraordinary bitterness, “would give
the shirt off his back and off mine-and
off yours to any...” She could not finish
the sentence.
At that moment she had been feeling
an extraordinary hatred and contempt for her husband.
All the morning and all the afternoon she had been
lying there thinking that Edward and the girl were
together-in the field and hacking it home
at dusk. She had been digging her sharp nails
into her palms.
The house had been very silent in
the drooping winter weather. And then, after
an eternity of torture, there had invaded it the sound
of opening doors, of the girl’s gay voice saying:
“Well, it was only under the
mistletoe."... And there was Edward’s gruff
undertone. Then Nancy had come in, with feet that
had hastened up the stairs and that tiptoed as they
approached the open door of Leonora’s room.
Branshaw had a great big hall with oak floors and tiger
skins. Round this hall there ran a gallery upon
which Leonora’s doorway gave. And even
when she had the worst of her headaches she liked to
have her door open-I suppose so that she
might hear the approaching footsteps of ruin and disaster.
At any rate she hated to be in a room with a shut
door.
At that moment Leonora hated Edward
with a hatred that was like hell, and she would have
liked to bring her riding-whip down across the girl’s
face. What right had Nancy to be young and slender
and dark, and gay at times, at times mournful?
What right had she to be exactly the woman to make
Leonora’s husband happy? For Leonora knew
that Nancy would have made Edward happy.
Yes, Leonora wished to bring her riding-whip
down on Nancy’s young face. She imagined
the pleasure she would feel when the lash fell across
those queer features; the plea sure she would feel
at drawing the handle at the same moment toward her,
so as to cut deep into the flesh and to leave a lasting
wheal.
Well, she left a lasting wheal, and
her words cut deeply into the girl’s mind....
They neither of them spoke about that
again. A fortnight went by-a fortnight
of deep rains, of heavy fields, of bad scent.
Leonora’s headaches seemed to have gone for
good. She hunted once or twice, letting herself
be piloted by Bayham, whilst Edward looked after the
girl. Then, one evening, when those three were
dining alone, Edward said, in the queer, deliberate,
heavy tones that came out of him in those days (he
was looking at the table):
“I have been thinking that Nancy
ought to do more for her father. He is getting
an old man. I have written to Colonel Rufford,
suggesting that she should go to him.”
Leonora called out:
“How dare you? How dare you?”
The girl put her hand over her heart
and cried out: “Oh, my sweet Saviour, help
mel” That was the queer way she thought
within her mind, and the words forced themselves to
her lips. Edward said nothing.
And that night, by a merciless trick
of the devil that pays attention to this sweltering
hell of ours, Nancy Rufford had a letter from her
mother. It came whilst Leonora was talking to
Edward, or Leonora would have intercepted it as she
had intercepted others. It was an amazing and
a horrible letter.. ..
I don’t know what it contained.
I just average out from its effects on Nancy that
her mother, having eloped with some worthless sort
of fellow, had done what is called “sinking
lower and lower”. Whether she was actually
on the streets I do not know, but I rather think that
she eked out a small allowance that she had from her
husband by that means of livelihood. And I think
that she stated as much in her letter to Nancy and
upbraided the girl with living in luxury whilst her
mother starved. And it must have been horrible
in tone, for Mrs Rufford was a cruel sort of woman
at the best of times. It must have seemed to that
poor girl, opening her letter, for distraction from
another grief, up in her bedroom, like the laughter
of a devil.
I just cannot bear to think of my
poor dear girl at that moment....
And, at the same time, Leonora was
lashing, like a cold fiend, into the unfortunate Edward.
Or, perhaps, he was not so unfortunate; because he
had done what he knew to be the right thing, he may
be deemed happy. I leave it to you. At any
rate, he was sitting in his deep chair, and Leonora
came into his room-for the first time in
nine years. She said:
“This is the most atrocious
thing you have done in your atrocious life.”
He never moved and he never looked at her. God
knows what was in Leonora’s mind exactly.
I like to think that, uppermost in
it was concern and horror at the thought of the poor
girl’s going back to a father whose voice made
her shriek in the night. And, indeed, that motive
was very strong with Leonora. But I think there
was also present the thought that she wanted to go
on torturing Edward with the girl’s presence.
She was, at that time, capable of that.
Edward was sunk in his chair; there
were in the room two candles, hidden by green glass
shades. The green shades were reflected in the
glasses of the book-cases that contained not books
but guns with gleaming brown barrels and fishing-rods
in green baize over-covers. There was dimly to
be seen, above a mantelpiece encumbered with spurs,
hooves and bronze models of horses, a dark-brown picture
of a white horse.
“If you think,” Leonora
said, “that I do not know that you are in love
with the girl...” She began spiritedly,
but she could not find any ending for the sentence.
Edward did not stir; he never spoke. And then
Leonora said:
“If you want me to divorce you,
I will. You can marry her then. She’s
in love with you.”
He groaned at that, a little, Leonora
said. Then she went away.
Heaven knows what happened in Leonora
after that. She certainly does not herself know.
She probably said a good deal more to Edward than I
have been able to report; but that is all that she
has told me and I am not going to make up speeches.
To follow her psychological development of that moment
I think we must allow that she upbraided him for a
great deal of their past life, whilst Edward sat absolutely
silent. And, indeed, in speaking of it afterwards,
she has said several times: “I said a great
deal more to him than I wanted to, just because he
was so silent.” She talked, in fact, in
the endeavour to sting him into speech.
She must have said so much that, with
the expression of her grievance, her mood changed.
She went back to her own room in the gallery, and sat
there for a long time thinking. And she thought
herself into a mood of absolute unselfishness, of
absolute self-contempt, too. She said to herself
that she was no good; that she had failed in all her
efforts-in her efforts to get Edward back
as in her efforts to make him curb his expenditure.
She imagined herself to be exhausted; she imagined
herself to be done. Then a great fear came over
her.
She thought that Edward, after what
she had said to him, must have committed suicide.
She went out on to the gallery and listened; there
was no sound in all the house except the regular beat
of the great clock in the hall. But, even in
her debased condition, she was not the person to hang
about. She acted. She went straight to Edward’s
room, opened the door, and looked in.
He was oiling the breech action of
a gun. It was an unusual thing for him to do,
at that time of night, in his evening clothes.
It never occurred to her, nevertheless, that he was
going to shoot himself with that implement. She
knew that he was doing it just for occupation-to
keep himself from thinking. He looked up when
she opened the door, his face illuminated by the light
cast upwards from the round orifices in the green
candle shades.
She said:
“I didn’t imagine that
I should find Nancy here.” She thought that
she owed that to him. He answered then:
“I don’t imagine that
you did imagine it.” Those were the only
words he spoke that night. She went, like a lame
duck, back through the long corridors; she stumbled
over the familiar tiger skins in the dark hall.
She could hardly drag one limb after the other.
In the gallery she perceived that Nancy’s door
was half open and that there was a light in the girl’s
room. A sudden madness possessed her, a desire
for action, a thirst for self-explanation.
Their rooms all gave on to the gallery;
Leonora’s to the east, the girl’s next,
then Edward’s. The sight of those three
open doors, side by side, gaping to receive whom the
chances of the black night might bring, made Leonora
shudder all over her body. She went into Nancy’s
room.
The girl was sitting perfectly still
in an armchair, very upright, as she had been taught
to sit at the convent. She appeared to be as calm
as a church; her hair fell, black and like a pall,
down over both her shoulders. The fire beside
her was burning brightly; she must have just put coals
on. She was in a white silk kimono that covered
her to the feet. The clothes that she had taken
off were exactly folded upon the proper seats.
Her long hands were one upon each arm of the chair
that had a pink and white chintz back.
Leonora told me these things.
She seemed to think it extraordinary that the girl
could have done such orderly things as fold up the
clothes she had taken off upon such a night-when
Edward had announced that he was going to send her
to her father, and when, from her mother, she had
received that letter. The letter, in its envelope,
was in her right hand.
Leonora did not at first perceive it. She said:
“What are you doing so late?”
The girl answered: “Just thinking.”
They seemed to think in whispers and
to speak below their breaths. Then Leonora’s
eyes fell on the envelope, and she recognized Mrs Rufford’s
handwriting.
It was one of those moments when thinking
was impossible, Leonora said. It was as if stones
were being thrown at her from every direction and
she could only run. She heard herself exclaim:
“Edward’s dying-because of
you. He’s dying. He’s worth more
than either of us....”
The girl looked past her at the panels
of the half-closed door.
“My poor father,” she
said, “my poor father.” “You
must stay here,” Leonora answered fiercely.
“You must stay here. I tell you you must
stay here.”
“I am going to Glasgow,”
Nancy answered. “I shall go to Glasgow tomorrow
morning. My mother is in Glasgow.”
It appears that it was in Glasgow
that Mrs Rufford pursued her disorderly life.
She had selected that city, not because it was more
profitable but because it was the natal home of her
husband to whom she desired to cause as much pain
as possible.
“You must stay here,”
Leonora began, “to save Edward. He’s
dying for love of you.”
The girl turned her calm eyes upon
Leonora. “I know it,” she said.
“And I am dying for love of him.”
Leonora uttered an “Ah,”
that, in spite of herself, was an “Ah”
of horror and of grief.
“That is why,” the girl
continued, “I am going to Glasgow-to
take my mother away from there.” She added,
“To the ends of the earth,” for, if the
last months had made her nature that of a woman, her
phrases were still romantically those of a schoolgirl.
It was as if she had grown up so quickly that there
had not been time to put her hair up. But she
added: “We’re no good-my
mother and I.”
Leonora said, with her fierce calmness:
“No. No. You’re
not no good. It’s I that am no good.
You can’t let that man go on to ruin for want
of you. You must belong to him.”
The girl, she said, smiled at her
with a queer, far-away smile-as if she
were a thousand years old, as if Leonora were a tiny
child.
“I knew you would come to that,”
she said, very slowly. “But we are not
worth it-Edward and I.”