BY
FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT
In the first place, Miss Minchin lived
in London. Her home was a large, dull, tall one,
in a large, dull square, where all the houses were
alike, and all the sparrows were alike, and where all
the door-knockers made the same heavy sound, and on
still days and nearly all the days were
still seemed to resound through the entire
row in which the knock was knocked. On Miss Minchin’s
door there was a brass plate. On the brass plate
there was inscribed in black letters,
MISS MINCHIN'S
SELECT SEMINARY FOR YOUNG LADIES.
Little Sara Crewe never went in or
out of the house without reading that door-plate and
reflecting upon it. By the time she was twelve,
she had decided that all her trouble arose because,
in the first place, she was not “Select,”
and in the second she was not a “Young Lady.”
When she was eight years old, she had been brought
to Miss Minchin as a pupil, and left with her.
Her papa had brought her all the way from India.
Her mamma had died when she was a baby, and her papa
had kept her with him as long as he could. And
then, finding the hot climate was making her very
delicate, he had brought her to England and left her
with Miss Minchin, to be part of the Select Seminary
for Young Ladies. Sara, who had always been a
sharp little child, who remembered things, recollected
hearing him say that he had not a relative in the world
whom he knew of, and so he was obliged to place her
at a boarding-school, and he had heard Miss Minchin’s
establishment spoken of very highly. The same
day, he took Sara out and bought her a great many
beautiful clothes clothes so grand and
rich that only a very young and inexperienced man would
have bought them for a mite of a child who was to be
brought up in a boarding-school. But the fact
was that he was a rash, innocent young man, and very
sad at the thought of parting with his little girl,
who was all he had left to remind him of her beautiful
mother, whom he had dearly loved. And he wished
her to have everything the most fortunate little girl
could have; and so, when the polite saleswomen in the
shops said, “Here is our very latest thing in
hats, the plumes are exactly the same as those we
sold to Lady Diana Sinclair yesterday,” he immediately
bought what was offered to him, and paid whatever was
asked. The consequence was that Sara had a most
extraordinary wardrobe. Her dresses were silk
and velvet and India cashmere, her hats and bonnets
were covered with bows and plumes, her small undergarments
were adorned with real lace, and she returned in the
cab to Miss Minchin’s with a doll almost as
large as herself, dressed quite as grandly as herself,
too.
Then her papa gave Miss Minchin some
money and went away, and for several days Sara would
neither touch the doll, nor her breakfast, nor her
dinner, nor her tea, and would do nothing but crouch
in a small corner by the window and cry. She
cried so much, indeed, that she made herself ill.
She was a queer little child, with old-fashioned ways
and strong feelings, and she had adored her papa,
and could not be made to think that India and an interesting
bungalow were not better for her than London and Miss
Minchin’s Select Seminary. The instant she
had entered the house, she had begun promptly to hate
Miss Minchin, and to think little of Miss Amelia Minchin,
who was smooth and dumpy, and lisped, and was evidently
afraid of her older sister. Miss Minchin was
tall, and had large, cold, fishy eyes, and large, cold
hands, which seemed fishy, too, because they were
damp and made chills run down Sara’s back when
they touched her, as Miss Minchin pushed her hair off
her forehead and said:
“A most beautiful and promising
little girl, Captain Crewe. She will be a favorite
pupil; quite a favorite pupil, I see.”
For the first year she was a favorite
pupil; at least she was indulged a great deal more
than was good for her. And when the Select Seminary
went walking, two by two, she was always decked out
in her grandest clothes, and led by the hand at the
head of the genteel procession, by Miss Minchin herself.
And when the parents of any of the pupils came, she
was always dressed and called into the parlor with
her doll; and she used to hear Miss Minchin say that
her father was a distinguished Indian officer, and
she would be heiress to a great fortune. That
her father had inherited a great deal of money, Sara
had heard before; and also that some day it would
be hers, and that he would not remain long in the
army, but would come to live in London. And every
time a letter came, she hoped it would say he was
coming, and they were to live together again.
But about the middle of the third
year a letter came bringing very different news.
Because he was not a business man himself, her papa
had given his affairs into the hands of a friend he
trusted. The friend had deceived and robbed him.
All the money was gone, no one knew exactly where,
and the shock was so great to the poor, rash young
officer, that, being attacked by jungle fever shortly
afterward, he had no strength to rally, and so died,
leaving Sara, with no one to take care of her.
Miss Minchin’s cold and fishy
eyes had never looked so cold and fishy as they did
when Sara went into the parlor, on being sent for,
a few days after the letter was received.
No one had said anything to the child
about mourning, so, in her old-fashioned way, she
had decided to find a black dress for herself, and
had picked out a black velvet she had outgrown, and
came into the room in it, looking the queerest little
figure in the world, and a sad little figure too.
The dress was too short and too tight, her face was
white, her eyes had dark rings around them, and her
doll, wrapped in a piece of old black crape, was held
under her arm. She was not a pretty child.
She was thin, and had a weird, interesting little face,
short black hair, and very large, green-gray eyes
fringed all around with heavy black lashes.
“I am the ugliest child in the
school,” she had said once, after staring at
herself in the glass for some minutes.
But there had been a clever, good-natured
little French teacher who had said to the music-master:
“Zat leetle Crewe. Vat
a child! A so ogly beauty! Ze so large eyes!
ze so little spirituelle face. Waid till she
grow up. You shall see!”
This morning, however, in the tight,
small black frock, she looked thinner and odder than
ever, and her eyes were fixed on Miss Minchin with
a queer steadiness as she slowly advanced into the
parlor, clutching her doll.
“Put your doll down!” said Miss Minchin.
“No,” said the child,
“I won’t put her down; I want her with
me. She is all I have. She has stayed with
me all the time since my papa died.”
She had never been an obedient child.
She had had her own way ever since she was born, and
there was about her an air of silent determination
under which Miss Minchin had always felt secretly uncomfortable.
And that lady felt even now that perhaps it would
be as well not to insist on her point. So she
looked at her as severely as possible.
“You will have no time for dolls
in future,” she said; “you will have to
work and improve yourself, and make yourself useful.”
Sara kept the big odd eyes fixed on
her teacher and said nothing.
“Everything will be very different
now,” Miss Minchin went on. “I sent
for you to talk to you and make you understand.
Your father is dead. You have no friends.
You have no money. You have no home and no one
to take care of you.”
The little pale olive face twitched
nervously, but the green-gray eyes did not move from
Miss Minchin’s, and still Sara said nothing.
“What are you staring at?”
demanded Miss Minchin sharply. “Are you
so stupid you don’t understand what I mean?
I tell you that you are quite alone in the world,
and have no one to do anything for you, unless I choose
to keep you here.”
The truth was, Miss Minchin was in
her worst mood. To be suddenly deprived of a
large sum of money yearly and a show pupil, and to
find herself with a little beggar on her hands, was
more than she could bear with any degree of calmness.
“Now listen to me,” she
went on, “and remember what I say. If you
work hard and prepare to make yourself useful in a
few years, I shall let you stay here. You are
only a child, but you are a sharp child, and you pick
up things almost without being taught. You speak
French very well, and in a year or so you can begin
to help with the younger pupils. By the time
you are fifteen you ought to be able to do that much
at least.”
“I can speak French better than
you, now,” said Sara; “I always spoke it
with my papa in India.” Which was not at
all polite, but was painfully true; because Miss Minchin
could not speak French at all, and, indeed, was not
in the least a clever person. But she was a hard,
grasping business woman; and, after the first shock
of disappointment, had seen that at very little expense
to herself she might prepare this clever, determined
child to be very useful to her and save her the necessity
of paying large salaries to teachers of languages.
“Don’t be impudent, or
you will be punished,” she said. “You
will have to improve your manners if you expect to
earn your bread. You are not a parlor boarder
now. Remember that if you don’t please me,
and I send you away, you have no home but the street.
You can go now.”
Sara turned away.
“Stay,” commanded Miss Minchin, “don’t
you intend to thank me?”
Sara turned toward her. The nervous
twitch was to be seen again in her face, and she seemed
to be trying to control it.
“What for?” she said.
“For my kindness to you,”
replied Miss Minchin. “For my kindness in
giving you a home.”
Sara went two or three steps nearer
to her. Her thin little chest was heaving up
and down, and she spoke in a strange, unchildish voice.
“You are not kind,” she
said. “You are not kind.” And
she turned again and went out of the room, leaving
Miss Minchin staring after her strange, small figure
in stony anger.
The child walked up the staircase,
holding tightly to her doll; she meant to go to her
bedroom, but at the door she was met by Miss Amelia.
“You are not to go in there,”
she said. “That is not your room now.”
“Where is my room?” asked Sara.
“You are to sleep in the attic next to the cook.”
Sara walked on. She mounted two
flights more, and reached the door of the attic room,
opened it and went in, shutting it behind her.
She stood against it and looked about her. The
room was slanting-roofed and whitewashed; there was
a rusty grate, an iron bedstead, and some odd articles
of furniture, sent up from better rooms below, where
they had been used until they were considered to be
worn out. Under the skylight in the roof, which
showed nothing but an oblong piece of dull gray sky,
there was a battered old red footstool.
Sara went to it and sat down.
She was a queer child, as I have said before, and
quite unlike other children. She seldom cried.
She did not cry now. She laid her doll, Emily,
across her knees, and put her face down upon her,
and her arms around her, and sat there, her little
black head resting on the black crape, not saying
one word, not making one sound.
From that day her life changed entirely.
Sometimes she used to feel as if it must be another
life altogether, the life of some other child.
She was a little drudge and outcast; she was given
her lessons at odd times and expected to learn without
being taught; she was sent on errands by Miss Minchin,
Miss Amelia and the cook. Nobody took any notice
of her except when they ordered her about. She
was often kept busy all day and then sent into the
deserted school-room with a pile of books to learn
her lessons or practise at night. She had never
been intimate with the other pupils, and soon she
became so shabby that, taking her queer clothes together
with her queer little ways, they began to look upon
her as a being of another world than their own.
The fact was that, as a rule, Miss Minchin’s
pupils were rather dull, matter-of-fact young people,
accustomed to being rich and comfortable; and Sara,
with her elfish cleverness, her desolate life, and
her odd habit of fixing her eyes upon them and staring
them out of countenance, was too much for them.
“She always looks as if she
was finding you out,” said one girl, who was
sly and given to making mischief. “I am,”
said Sara promptly, when she heard of it. “That’s
what I look at them for. I like to know about
people. I think them over afterward.”
She never made any mischief herself
or interfered with any one. She talked very little,
did as she was told, and thought a great deal.
Nobody knew, and in fact nobody cared, whether she
was unhappy or happy, unless, perhaps, it was Emily,
who lived in the attic and slept on the iron bedstead
at night. Sara thought Emily understood her feelings,
though she was only wax and had a habit of staring
herself. Sara used to talk to her at night.
“You are the only friend I have
in the world,” she would say to her. “Why
don’t you say something? Why don’t
you speak? Sometimes I am sure you could, if
you would try. It ought to make you try, to know
you are the only thing I have. If I were you,
I should try. Why don’t you try?”
It really was a very strange feeling
she had about Emily. It arose from her being
so desolate. She did not like to own to herself
that her only friend, her only companion, could feel
and hear nothing. She wanted to believe, or to
pretend to believe, that Emily understood and sympathized
with her, that she heard her even though she did not
speak in answer. She used to put her in a chair
sometimes and sit opposite to her on the old red footstool,
and stare at her and think and pretend about her until
her own eyes would grow large with something which
was almost like fear, particularly at night, when
the garret was so still, when the only sound that
was to be heard was the occasional squeak and scurry
of rats in the wainscot. There were rat-holes
in the garret, and Sara detested rats, and was always
glad Emily was with her when she heard their hateful
squeak and rush and scratching. One of her “pretends”
was that Emily was a kind of good witch and could
protect her. Poor little Sara! everything was
“pretend” with her. She had a strong
imagination; there was almost more imagination than
there was Sara, and her whole forlorn, uncared-for
child-life was made up of imaginings. She imagined
and pretended things until she almost believed them,
and she would scarcely have been surprised at any
remarkable thing that could have happened. So
she insisted to herself that Emily understood all about
her troubles and was really her friend.
“As to answering,” she
used to say, “I don’t answer very often.
I never answer when I can help it. When people
are insulting you, there is nothing so good for them
as not to say a word just to look at them
and think. Miss Minchin turns pale with rage
when I do it. Miss Amelia looks frightened, so
do the girls. They know you are stronger than
they are, because you are strong enough to hold in
your rage and they are not, and they say stupid things
they wish they hadn’t said afterward. There’s
nothing so strong as rage, except what makes you hold
it in that’s stronger. It’s
a good thing not to answer your enemies. I scarcely
ever do. Perhaps Emily is more like me than I
am like myself. Perhaps she would rather not
answer her friends, even. She keeps it all in
her heart.”
But though she tried to satisfy herself
with these arguments, Sara did not find it easy.
When, after a long, hard day, in which she had been
sent here and there, sometimes on long errands, through
wind and cold and rain; and, when she came in wet
and hungry, had been sent out again because nobody
chose to remember that she was only a child, and that
her thin little legs might be tired, and her small
body, clad in its forlorn, too small finery, all too
short and too tight, might be chilled; when she had
been given only harsh words and cold, slighting looks
for thanks, when the cook had been vulgar and insolent;
when Miss Minchin had been in her worst moods, and
when she had seen the girls sneering at her among
themselves and making fun of her poor, outgrown clothes then
Sara did not find Emily quite all that her sore, proud,
desolate little heart needed as the doll sat in her
little old chair and stared.
One of these nights, when she came
up to the garret cold, hungry, tired, and with a tempest
raging in her small breast, Emily’s stare seemed
so vacant, her sawdust legs and arms so limp and inexpressive,
that Sara lost all control over herself.
“I shall die presently!” she said at first.
Emily stared.
“I can’t bear this!”
said the poor child, trembling. “I know
I shall die. I’m cold, I’m wet, I’m
starving to death. I’ve walked a thousand
miles to-day, and they have done nothing but scold
me from morning until night. And because I could
not find that last thing they sent me for, they would
not give me any supper. Some men laughed at me
because my old shoes made me slip down in the mud.
I’m covered with mud now. And they laughed!
Do you hear!”
She looked at the staring glass eyes
and complacent wax face, and suddenly a sort of heartbroken
rage seized her. She lifted her little savage
hand and knocked Emily off the chair, bursting into
a passion of sobbing.
“You are nothing but a doll!” she cried.
“Nothing but a doll-doll-doll!
You care for nothing. You are stuffed with sawdust.
You never had a heart. Nothing could ever make
you feel. You are a doll!”
Emily lay upon the floor, with her
legs ignominiously doubled up over her head, and a
new flat place on the end of her nose; but she was
still calm, even dignified.
Sara hid her face on her arms and
sobbed. Some rats in the wall began to fight
and bite each other, and squeak and scramble.
But, as I have already intimated, Sara was not in
the habit of crying. After a while she stopped,
and when she stopped she looked at Emily, who seemed
to be gazing at her around the side of one ankle,
and actually with a kind of glassy-eyed sympathy.
Sara bent and picked her up. Remorse overtook
her.
“You can’t help being
a doll,” she said, with a resigned sigh, “any
more than those girls downstairs can help not having
any sense. We are not all alike. Perhaps
you do your sawdust best.”
None of Miss Minchin’s young
ladies were very remarkable for being brilliant; they
were select, but some of them were very dull, and some
of them were fond of applying themselves to their lessons.
Sara, who snatched her lessons at all sorts of untimely
hours from tattered and discarded books, and who had
a hungry craving for everything readable, was often
severe upon them in her small mind. They had books
they never read; she had no books at all. If
she had always had something to read, she would not
have been so lonely. She liked romances and history
and poetry; she would read anything. There was
a sentimental housemaid in the establishment who bought
the weekly penny papers, and subscribed to a circulating
library, from which she got greasy volumes containing
stories of marquises and dukes who invariably fell
in love with orange-girls and gypsies and servant-maids,
and made them the proud brides of coronets; and Sara
often did parts of this maid’s work so that
she might earn the privilege of reading these romantic
histories. There was also a fat, dull pupil,
whose name was Ermengarde St. John, who was one of
her resources. Ermengarde had an intellectual
father, who, in his despairing desire to encourage
his daughter, constantly sent her valuable and interesting
books, which were a continual source of grief to her.
Sara had once actually found her crying over a big
package of them.
“What is the matter with you?”
she asked her, perhaps rather disdainfully.
And it is just possible she would
not have spoken to her, if she had not seen the books.
The sight of books always gave Sara a hungry feeling,
and she could not help drawing near to them if only
to read their titles.
“What is the matter with you?” she asked.
“My papa has sent me some more
books,” answered Ermengarde woefully, “and
he expects me to read them.”
“Don’t you like reading?” said Sara.
“I hate it!” replied Miss
Ermengarde St. John. “And he will ask me
questions when he sees me: he will want to know
how much I remember; how would you like to have to
read all those?”
“I’d like it better than
anything else in the world,” said Sara.
Ermengarde wiped her eyes to look at such a prodigy.
“Oh, gracious!” she exclaimed.
Sara returned the look with interest.
A sudden plan formed itself in her sharp mind.
“Look here!” she said.
“If you’ll lend me those books, I’ll
read them and tell you everything that’s in
them afterward, and I’ll tell it to you so that
you will remember it. I know I can. The A
B C children always remember what I tell them.”
“Oh, goodness!” said Ermengarde.
“Do you think you could?”
“I know I could,” answered
Sara. “I like to read, and I always remember.
I’ll take care of the books, too; they will look
just as new as they do now, when I give them back
to you.”
Ermengarde put her handkerchief in her pocket.
“If you’ll do that,”
she said, “and if you’ll make me remember,
I’ll give you I’ll give you
some money.”
“I don’t want your money,”
said Sara. “I want your books I
want them.” And her eyes grew big and queer,
and her chest heaved once.
“Take them, then,” said
Ermengarde; “I wish I wanted them, but I am not
clever, and my father is, and he thinks I ought to
be.”
Sara picked up the books and marched
off with them. But when she was at the door,
she stopped and turned around.
“What are you going to tell your father?”
she asked.
“Oh,” said Ermengarde, “he needn’t
know; he’ll think I’ve read them.”
Sara looked down at the books; her heart really began
to beat fast.
“I won’t do it,”
she said rather slowly, “if you are going to
tell him lies about it I don’t like
lies. Why can’t you tell him I read them
and then told you about them?”
“But he wants me to read them,” said Ermengarde.
“He wants you to know what is
in them,” said Sara; “and if I can tell
it to you in an easy way and make you remember, I should
think he would like that.”
“He would like it better if I read them myself,”
replied Ermengarde.
“He will like it, I dare say,
if you learn anything in any way,” said Sara.
“I should, if I were your father.”
And though this was not a flattering
way of stating the case, Ermengarde was obliged to
admit it was true, and, after a little more argument,
gave in. And so she used afterward always to hand
over her books to Sara, and Sara would carry them
to her garret and devour them; and after she had read
each volume, she would return it and tell Ermengarde
about it in a way of her own. She had a gift
for making things interesting. Her imagination
helped her to make everything rather like a story,
and she managed this matter so well that Miss St. John
gained more information from her books than she would
have gained if she had read them three times over
by her poor stupid little self. When Sara sat
down by her and began to tell some story of travel
or history, she made the travellers and historical
people seem real; and Ermengarde used to sit and regard
her dramatic gesticulations, her thin little flushed
cheeks, and her shining, odd eyes with amazement.
“It sounds nicer than it seems
in the book,” she would say. “I never
cared about Mary, Queen of Scots, before, and I always
hated the French Revolution, but you make it seem
like a story.”
“It is a story,” Sara
would answer. “They are all stories.
Everything is a story everything in this
world. You are a story I am a story Miss
Minchin is a story. You can make a story out of
anything.”
“I can’t,” said Ermengarde.
Sara stared at her a minute reflectively.
“No,” she said at last.
“I suppose you couldn’t. You are a
little like Emily.”
“Who is Emily?”
Sara recollected herself. She
knew she was sometimes rather impolite in the candor
of her remarks, and she did not want to be impolite
to a girl who was not unkind only stupid.
Notwithstanding all her sharp little ways she had
the sense to wish to be just to everybody. In
the hours she spent alone, she used to argue out a
great many curious questions with herself. One
thing she had decided upon was, that a person who was
clever ought to be clever enough not to be unjust or
deliberately unkind to any one. Miss Minchin
was unjust and cruel, Miss Amelia was unkind and spiteful,
the cook was malicious and hasty-tempered they
all were stupid, and made her despise them, and she
desired to be as unlike them as possible. So
she would be as polite as she could to people who in
the least deserved politeness.
“Emily is a person I know,”
she replied.
“Do you like her?” asked Ermengarde.
“Yes, I do,” said Sara.
Ermengarde examined her queer little
face and figure again. She did look odd.
She had on, that day, a faded blue plush skirt, which
barely covered her knees, a brown Cloth sacque, and
a pair of olive-green stockings which Miss Minchin
had made her piece out with black ones, so that they
would be long enough to be kept on. And yet Ermengarde
was beginning slowly to admire her. Such a forlorn,
thin, neglected little thing as that, who could read
and read and remember and tell you things so that
they did not tire you all out! A child who could
speak French, and who had learned German, no one knew
how! One could not help staring at her and feeling
interested, particularly one to whom the simplest
lesson was a trouble and a woe.
“Do you like me?” said Ermengarde, finally,
at the end of her scrutiny.
Sara hesitated one second, then she answered:
“I like you because you are
not ill-natured I like you for letting me
read your books I like you because you don’t
make spiteful fun of me for what I can’t help.
It’s not your fault that ”
She pulled herself up quickly.
She had been going to say, “that you are stupid.”
“That what?” asked Ermengarde.
“That you can’t learn
things quickly. If you can’t, you can’t.
If I can, why, I can that’s all.”
She paused a minute, looking at the plump face before
her, and then, rather slowly, one of her wise, old-fashioned
thoughts came to her.
“Perhaps,” she said, “to
be able to learn things quickly isn’t everything.
To be kind is worth a good deal to other people.
If Miss Minchin knew everything on earth, which she
doesn’t, and if she was like what she is now,
she’d still be a detestable thing, and everybody
would hate her. Lots of clever people have done
harm and been wicked. Look at Robespierre ”
She stopped again and examined her
companion’s countenance.
“Do you remember about him?”
she demanded. “I believe you’ve forgotten.”
“Well, I don’t remember all of it,”
admitted Ermengarde.
“Well,” said Sara, with
courage and determination, “I’ll tell it
to you over again.”
And she plunged once more into the
gory records of the French Revolution, and told such
stories of it, and made such vivid pictures of its
horrors, that Miss St. John was afraid to go to bed
afterward, and hid her head under the blankets when
she did go, and shivered until she fell asleep.
But afterward she preserved lively recollections of
the character of Robespierre, and did not even forget
Marie Antoinette and the Princess de Lamballe.
“You know they put her head
on a pike and danced around it,” Sara had said;
“and she had beautiful blonde hair; and when
I think of her, I never see her head on her body,
but always on a pike, with those furious people dancing
and howling.”
Yes, it was true; to this imaginative
child everything was a story; and the more books she
read, the more imaginative she became. One of
her chief entertainments was to sit in her garret,
or walk about it, and “suppose” things.
On a cold night, when she had not had enough to eat,
she would draw the red footstool up before the empty
grate, and say in the most intense voice:
“Suppose there was a grate,
wide steel grate here, and a great glowing fire a
glowing fire with beds of red-hot coal and
lots of little dancing, flickering flames. Suppose
there was a soft, deep rug, and this was a comfortable
chair, all cushions and crimson velvet; and suppose
I had a crimson velvet frock on, and a deep lace collar,
like a child in a picture; and suppose all the rest
of the room was furnished in lovely colors, and there
were book-shelves full of books, which changed by
magic as soon as you had read them; and suppose there
was a little table here, with a snow-white cover on
it, and little silver dishes, and in one there was
hot, hot soup, and in another a roast chicken, and
in another some raspberry-jam tarts with crisscross
on them, and in another some grapes; and suppose Emily
could speak, and we could sit and eat our supper,
and then talk and read; and then suppose there was
a soft, warm bed in the corner, and when we were tired
we could go to sleep, and sleep as long as we liked.”
Sometimes, after she had supposed
things like these for half an hour, she would feel
almost warm, and would creep into bed with Emily and
fall asleep with a smile on her face.
“What large, downy pillows!”
she would whisper. “What white sheets and
fleecy blankets!” And she almost forgot that
her real pillows had scarcely any feathers in them
at all, and smelled musty, and that her blankets and
coverlid were thin and full of holes.
At another time she would “suppose”
she was a princess, and then she would go about the
house with an expression on her face which was a source
of great secret annoyance to Miss Minchin, because
it seemed as if the child scarcely heard the spiteful,
insulting things said to her, or, if she heard them,
did not care for them at all. Sometimes, while
she was in the midst of some harsh and cruel speech,
Miss Minchin would find the odd, unchildish eyes fixed
upon her with something like a proud smile in them.
At such times she did not know that Sara was saying
to herself:
“You don’t know that you
are saying these things to a princess, and that if
I chose I could wave my hand and order you to execution.
I only spare you because I am a princess, and you
are a poor, stupid, old, vulgar thing, and don’t
know any better.”
This used to please and amuse her
more than anything else; and queer and fanciful as
it was, she found comfort in it, and it was not a bad
thing for her. It really kept her from being
made rude and malicious by the rudeness and malice
of those about her.
“A princess must be polite,”
she said to herself. And so when the servants,
who took their tone from their mistress, were insolent
and ordered her about, she would hold her head erect,
and reply to them sometimes in a way which made them
stare at her, it was so quaintly civil.
“I am a princess in rags and
tatters,” she would think, “but I am a
princess, inside. It would be easy to be a princess
if I were dressed in cloth-of-gold; it is a great
deal more of a triumph to be one all the time when
no one knows it. There was Marie Antoinette; when
she was in prison, and her throne was gone, and she
had only a black gown on, and her hair was white,
and they insulted her and called her the Widow Capet, she
was a great deal more like a queen then than when she
was so gay and had everything grand. I like her
best then. Those howling mobs of people did not
frighten her. She was stronger than they were
even when they cut her head off.”
Once when such thoughts were passing
through her mind the look in her eyes so enraged Miss
Minchin that she flew at Sara and boxed her ears.
Sara awakened from her dream, started
a little, and then broke into a laugh.
“What are you laughing at, you
bold, impudent child!” exclaimed Miss Minchin.
It took Sara a few seconds to remember
she was a princess. Her cheeks were red and smarting
from the blows she had received.
“I was thinking,” she said.
“Beg my pardon immediately,” said Miss
Minchin.
“I will beg your pardon for
laughing, if it was rude,” said Sara; “but
I won’t beg your pardon for thinking.”
“What were you thinking?”
demanded Miss Minchin. “How dare you think?
What were you thinking?”
This occurred in the school-room,
and all the girls looked up from their books to listen.
It always interested them when Miss Minchin flew at
Sara, because Sara always said something queer, and
never seemed in the least frightened. She was
not in the least frightened now, though her boxed
ears were scarlet, and her eyes were as bright as stars.
“I was thinking,” she
answered gravely and quite politely, “that you
did not know what you were doing.”
“That I did not know what I
was doing!” Miss Minchin fairly gasped.
“Yes,” said Sara, “and
I was thinking what would happen, if I were a princess
and you boxed my ears what I should do to
you. And I was thinking that if I were one, you
would never dare to do it, whatever I said or did.
And I was thinking how surprised and frightened you
would be if you suddenly found out ”
She had the imagined picture so clearly
before her eyes, that she spoke in a manner which
had an effect even on Miss Minchin. It almost
seemed for the moment to her narrow, unimaginative
mind that there must be some real power behind this
candid daring.
“What!” she exclaimed, “found out
what?”
“That I really was a princess,”
said Sara, “and could do anything anything
I liked.”
“Go to your room,” cried
Miss Minchin breathlessly, “this instant.
Leave the school-room. Attend to your lessons,
young ladies.”
Sara made a little bow.
“Excuse me for laughing, if
it was impolite,” she said, and walked out of
the room, leaving Miss Minchin in a rage and the girls
whispering over their books.
“I shouldn’t be at all
surprised if she did turn out to be something,”
said one of them. “Suppose she should!”
That very afternoon Sara had an opportunity
of proving to herself whether she was really a princess
or not. It was a dreadful afternoon. For
several days it had rained continuously, the streets
were chilly and sloppy; there was mud everywhere sticky
London mud and over everything a pall of
fog and drizzle. Of course there were several
long and tiresome errands to be done, there
always were on days like this, and Sara
was sent out again and again, until her shabby clothes
were damp through. The absurd old feathers on
her forlorn hat were more draggled and absurd than
ever, and her down-trodden shoes were so wet they could
not hold any more water. Added to this, she had
been deprived of her dinner, because Miss Minchin
wished to punish her. She was very hungry.
She was so cold and hungry and tired that her little
face had a pinched look, and now and then some kind-hearted
person passing her in the crowded street glanced at
her with sympathy. But she did not know that.
She hurried on, trying to comfort herself in that queer
way of hers by pretending and “supposing,” but
really this time it was harder than she had ever found
it, and once or twice she thought it almost made her
more cold and hungry instead of less so. But she
persevered obstinately. “Suppose I had
dry clothes on,” she thought. “Suppose
I had good shoes and a long, thick coat and merino
stockings and a whole umbrella. And suppose suppose,
just when I was near a baker’s where they sold
hot buns, I should find sixpence which
belonged to nobody. Suppose, if I did, I should
go into the shop and buy six of the hottest buns, and
should eat them all without stopping.”
Some very odd things happen in this
world sometimes. It certainly was an odd thing
which happened to Sara. She had to cross the street
just as she was saying this to herself the
mud was dreadful she almost had to wade.
She picked her way as carefully as she could, but she
could not save herself much, only, in picking her
way she had to look down at her feet and the mud,
and in looking down just as she reached
the pavement she saw something shining
in the gutter. A piece of silver a
tiny piece trodden upon by many feet, but still with
spirit enough to shine a little. Not quite a
sixpence, but the next thing to it a four-penny
piece! In one second it was in her cold, little
red and blue hand. “Oh!” she gasped.
“It is true!”
And then, if you will believe me,
she looked straight before her at the shop directly
facing her. And it was a baker’s, and a
cheerful, stout, motherly woman, with rosy cheeks,
was just putting into the window a tray of delicious
hot buns, large, plump, shiny buns, with
currants in them.
It almost made Sara feel faint for
a few seconds the shock and the sight of
the buns and the delightful odors of warm bread floating
up through the baker’s cellar-window.
She knew that she need not hesitate
to use the little piece of money. It had evidently
been lying in the mud for some time, and its owner
was completely lost in the streams of passing people
who crowded and jostled each other all through the
day.
“But I’ll go and ask the
baker’s woman if she has lost a piece of money,”
she said to herself, rather faintly.
So she crossed the pavement and put
her wet foot on the step of the shop; and as she did
so she saw something which made her stop.
It was a little figure more forlorn
than her own a little figure which was
not much more than a bundle of rags, from which small,
bare, red and muddy feet peeped out only
because the rags with which the wearer was trying
to cover them were not long enough. Above the
rags appeared a shock head of tangled hair and a dirty
face, with big, hollow, hungry eyes.
Sara knew they were hungry eyes the
moment she saw them, and she felt a sudden sympathy.
“This,” she said to herself,
with a little sigh, “is one of the Populace and
she is hungrier than I am.”
The child this “one
of the Populace” stared up at Sara,
and shuffled herself aside a little, so as to give
her more room. She was used to being made to
give room to everybody. She knew that if a policeman
chanced to see her, he would tell her to “move
on.”
Sara clutched her little four-penny
piece, and hesitated a few seconds. Then she
spoke to her.
“Are you hungry?” she asked.
The child shuffled herself and her rags a little more.
“Ain’t I jist!” she said, in a hoarse
voice. “Jist ain’t I!”
“Haven’t you had any dinner?” said
Sara.
“No dinner,” more hoarsely
still and with more shuffling, “nor yet no bre’fast nor
yet no supper nor nothin’.”
“Since when?” asked Sara.
“Dun’no. Never got nothin’
to-day nowhere. I’ve axed and
axed.”
Just to look at her made Sara more
hungry and faint. But those queer little thoughts
were at work in her brain, and she was talking to
herself though she was sick at heart.
“If I’m a princess,”
she was saying “if I’m a princess !
When they were poor and driven from their thrones they
always shared with the Populace if
they met one poorer and hungrier. They always
shared. Buns are a penny each. If it had
been sixpence! I could have eaten six. It
won’t be enough for either of us but
it will be better than nothing.”
“Wait a minute,” she said
to the beggar-child. She went into the shop.
It was warm and smelled delightfully. The woman
was just going to put more hot buns in the window.
“If you please,” said
Sara, “have you lost fourpence a silver
fourpence?” And she held the forlorn little piece
of money out to her.
The woman looked at it and at her at
her intense little face and draggled, once-fine clothes.
“Bless us no,” she answered.
“Did you find it?”
“In the gutter,” said Sara.
“Keep it, then,” said
the woman. “It may have been there a week,
and goodness knows who lost it. You could never
find out.”
“I know that,” said Sara, “but I
thought I’d ask you.”
“Not many would,” said
the woman, looking puzzled and interested and good-natured
all at once. “Do you want to buy something?”
she added, as she saw Sara glance toward the buns.
“Four buns, if you please,” said Sara;
“those at a penny each.”
The woman went to the window and put
some in a paper bag. Sara noticed that she put
in six.
“I said four, if you please,”
she explained. “I have only the fourpence.”
“I’ll throw in two for
make-weight,” said the woman, with her good-natured
look. “I dare say you can eat them some
time. Aren’t you hungry?”
A mist rose before Sara’s eyes.
“Yes,” she answered.
“I am very hungry, and I am much obliged to you
for your kindness, and,” she was going to add,
“there is a child outside who is hungrier than
I am.” But just at that moment two or three
customers came in at once and each one seemed in a
hurry, so she could only thank the woman again and
go out.
The child was still huddled up on
the corner of the steps. She looked frightful
in her wet and dirty rags. She was staring with
a stupid look of suffering straight before her, and
Sara saw her suddenly draw the back of her roughened,
black hand across her eyes to rub away the tears which
seemed to have surprised her by forcing their way from
under her lids. She was muttering to herself.
Sara opened the paper bag and took
out one of the hot buns, which had already warmed
her cold hands a little.
“See,” she said, putting
the bun on the ragged lap, “that is nice and
hot. Eat it, and you will not be so hungry.”
The child started and stared up at
her; then she snatched up the bun and began to cram
it into her mouth with great wolfish bites.
“Oh, my! Oh, my!”
Sara heard her say hoarsely, in wild delight.
“Oh, my!”
Sara took out three more buns and put them down.
“She is hungrier than I am,”
she said to herself. “She’s starving.”
But her hand trembled when she put down the fourth
bun. “I’m not starving,” she
said and she put down the fifth.
The little starving London savage
was still snatching and devouring when she turned
away. She was too ravenous to give any thanks,
even if she had been taught politeness which
she had not. She was only a poor little wild
animal.
“Good-bye,” said Sara.
When she reached the other side of
the street she looked back. The child had a bun
in both hands, and had stopped in the middle of a bite
to watch her. Sara gave her a little nod, and
the child, after another stare, a curious,
longing stare, jerked her shaggy head in
response, and until Sara was out of sight she did
not take another bite or even finish the one she had
begun.
At that moment the baker-woman glanced
out of her shop-window.
“Well, I never!” she exclaimed.
“If that young’un hasn’t given her
buns to a beggar-child! It wasn’t because
she didn’t want them, either well,
well, she looked hungry enough. I’d give
something to know what she did it for.”
She stood behind her window for a few moments and pondered.
Then her curiosity got the better of her. She
went to the door and spoke to the beggar-child.
“Who gave you those buns?” she asked her.
The child nodded her head toward Sara’s vanishing
figure.
“What did she say?” inquired the woman.
“Axed me if I was ’ungry,” replied
the hoarse voice.
“What did you say?”
“Said I was jist!”
“And then she came in and got
buns and came out and gave them to you, did she?”
The child nodded.
“How many?”
“Five.”
The woman thought it over. “Left
just one for herself,” she said, in a low voice.
“And she could have eaten the whole six I
saw it in her eyes.”
She looked after the little, draggled,
far-away figure, and felt more disturbed in her usually
comfortable mind than she had felt for many a day.
“I wish she hadn’t gone
so quick,” she said. “I’m blest
if she shouldn’t have had a dozen.”
Then she turned to the child.
“Are you hungry, yet?” she asked.
“I’m allus ’ungry,” was
the answer; “but ’tain’t so bad as
it was.”
“Come in here,” said the woman, and she
held open the shop-door.
The child got up and shuffled in.
To be invited into a warm place full of bread seemed
an incredible thing. She did not know what was
going to happen; she did not care, even.
“Get yourself warm,” said
the woman, pointing to a fire in a tiny back room.
“And, look here, when you’re
hard up for a bite of bread, you can come here and
ask for it. I’m blest if I won’t give
it to you for that young un’s sake.”
Sara found some comfort in her remaining
bun. It was hot; and it was a great deal better
than nothing. She broke off small pieces and ate
them slowly to make it last longer.
“Suppose it was a magic bun,”
she said, “and a bite was as much as a whole
dinner. I should be over-eating myself if I went
on like this.”
It was dark when she reached the square
in which Miss Minchin’s Select Seminary was
situated; the lamps were lighted, and in most of the
windows gleams of light were to be seen. It always
interested Sara to catch glimpses of the rooms before
the shutters were closed. She liked to imagine
things about people who sat before the fires in the
houses, or who bent over books at the tables.
There was, for instance, the Large Family opposite.
She called these people the Large Family not
because they were large, for indeed most of them were
little, but because there were so many
of them. There were eight children in the Large
Family, and a stout, rosy mother, and a stout, rosy
father, and a stout, rosy grand-mamma, and any number
of servants. The eight children were always either
being taken out to walk, or to ride in perambulators,
by comfortable nurses; or they were going to drive
with their mamma; or they were flying to the door
in the evening to kiss their papa and dance around
him and drag off his overcoat and look for packages
in the pockets of it; or they were crowding about
the nursery windows and looking out and pushing each
other and laughing, in fact they were always
doing something which seemed enjoyable and suited to
the tastes of a large family. Sara was quite
attached to them, and had given them all names out
of books. She called them the Montmorencys, when
she did not call them the Large Family. The fat,
fair baby with the lace cap was Ethelberta Beauchamp
Montmorency; the next baby was Violet Cholmondely
Montmorency; the little boy who could just stagger,
and who had such round legs, was Sydney Cecil Vivian
Montmorency; and then came Lilian Evangeline, Guy
Clarence, Maud Marian, Rosalind Gladys, Veronica Eustacia,
and Claude Harold Hector.
Next door to the Large Family lived
the Maiden Lady, who had a companion, and two parrots,
and a King Charles spaniel; but Sara was not so very
fond of her, because she did nothing in particular
but talk to the parrots and drive out with the spaniel.
The most interesting person of all lived next door
to Miss Minchin herself. Sara called him the
Indian Gentleman. He was an elderly gentleman
who was said to have lived in the East Indies, and
to be immensely rich and to have something the matter
with his liver, in fact, it had been rumored
that he had no liver at all, and was much inconvenienced
by the fact. At any rate, he was very yellow
and he did not look happy; and when he went out to
his carriage, he was almost always wrapped up in shawls
and overcoats, as if he were cold. He had a native
servant who looked even colder than himself, and he
had a monkey who looked colder than the native servant.
Sara had seen the monkey sitting on a table, in the
sun, in the parlor window, and he always wore such
a mournful expression that she sympathized with him
deeply.
“I dare say,” she used
sometimes to remark to herself, “he is thinking
all the time of cocoanut trees and of swinging by his
tail under a tropical sun. He might have had
a family dependent on him too, poor thing!”
The native servant, whom she called
the Lascar, looked mournful too, but he was evidently
very faithful to his master.
“Perhaps he saved his master’s
life in the Sepoy rebellion,” she thought.
“They look as if they might have had all sorts
of adventures. I wish I could speak to the Lascar.
I remember a little Hindustani.”
And one day she actually did speak
to him, and his start at the sound of his own language
expressed a great deal of surprise and delight.
He was waiting for his master to come out to the carriage,
and Sara, who was going on an errand as usual, stopped
and spoke a few words. She had a special gift
for languages and had remembered enough Hindustani
to make herself understood by him. When his master
came out, the Lascar spoke to him quickly, and the
Indian Gentleman turned and looked at her curiously.
And afterward the Lascar always greeted her with salaams
of the most profound description. And occasionally
they exchanged a few words. She learned that
it was true that the Sahib was very rich that
he was ill and also that he had no wife
nor children, and that England did not agree with
the monkey.
“He must be as lonely as I am,”
thought Sara. “Being rich does not seem
to make him happy.”
That evening, as she passed the windows,
the Lascar was closing the shutters, and she caught
a glimpse of the room inside. There was a bright
fire glowing in the grate, and the Indian Gentleman
was sitting before it, in a luxurious chair.
The room was richly furnished, and looked delightfully
comfortable, but the Indian Gentleman sat with his
head resting on his hand, and looked as lonely and
unhappy as ever.
“Poor man!” said Sara;
“I wonder what you are `supposing’?”
When she went into the house she met
Miss Minchin in the hall.
“Where have you wasted your
time?” said Miss Minchin. “You have
been out for hours!”
“It was so wet and muddy,”
Sara answered. “It was hard to walk, because
my shoes were so bad and slipped about so.”
“Make no excuses,” said
Miss Minchin, “and tell no falsehoods.”
Sara went downstairs to the kitchen.
“Why didn’t you stay all night?”
said the cook.
“Here are the things,” said Sara, and
laid her purchases on the table.
The cook looked over them, grumbling.
She was in a very bad temper indeed.
“May I have something to eat?” Sara asked
rather faintly.
“Tea’s over and done with,”
was the answer. “Did you expect me to keep
it hot for you?”
Sara was silent a second.
“I had no dinner,” she
said, and her voice was quite low. She made it
low, because she was afraid it would tremble.
“There’s some bread in
the pantry,” said the cook. “That’s
all you’ll get at this time of day.”
Sara went and found the bread.
It was old and hard and dry. The cook was in
too bad a humor to give her anything to eat with it.
She had just been scolded by Miss Minchin, and it
was always safe and easy to vent her own spite on
Sara.
Really it was hard for the child to
climb the three long flights of stairs leading to
her garret. She often found them long and steep
when she was tired, but to-night it seemed as if she
would never reach the top. Several times a lump
rose in her throat and she was obliged to stop to
rest.
“I can’t pretend anything
more to-night,” she said wearily to herself.
“I’m sure I can’t. I’ll
eat my bread and drink some water and then go to sleep,
and perhaps a dream will come and pretend for me.
I wonder what dreams are.”
Yes, when she reached the top landing
there were tears in her eyes, and she did not feel
like a princess only like a tired, hungry,
lonely, lonely child.
“If my papa had lived,”
she said, “they would not have treated me like
this. If my papa had lived, he would have taken
care of me.”
Then she turned the handle and opened the garret-door.
Can you imagine it can
you believe it? I find it hard to believe it
myself. And Sara found it impossible; for the
first few moments she thought something strange had
happened to her eyes to her mind that
the dream had come before she had had time to fall
asleep.
“Oh!” she exclaimed breathlessly.
“Oh! it isn’t true! I know, I know
it isn’t true!” And she slipped into the
room and closed the door and locked it, and stood
with her back against it, staring straight before
her.
Do you wonder? In the grate,
which had been empty and rusty and cold when she left
it, but which now was blackened and polished up quite
respectably, there was a glowing, blazing fire.
On the hob was a little brass kettle, hissing and
boiling; spread upon the floor was a warm, thick rug;
before the fire was a folding-chair, unfolded and with
cushions on it; by the chair was a small folding-table,
unfolded, covered with a white cloth, and upon it
were spread small covered dishes, a cup and saucer,
and a tea-pot; on the bed were new, warm coverings,
a curious wadded silk robe, and some books. The
little, cold, miserable room seemed changed into Fairyland.
It was actually warm and glowing.
“It is bewitched!” said
Sara. “Or I am bewitched. I only think
I see it all; but if I can only keep on thinking it,
I don’t care I don’t care if
I can only keep it up!”
She was afraid to move, for fear it
would melt away. She stood with her back against
the door and looked and looked. But soon she began
to feel warm, and then she moved forward.
“A fire that I only thought
I saw surely wouldn’t feel warm,” she said.
“It feels real real.”
She went to it and knelt before it.
She touched the chair, the table; she lifted the cover
of one of the dishes. There was something hot
and savory in it something delicious.
The tea-pot had tea in it, ready for the boiling water
from the little kettle; one plate had toast on it,
another, muffins.
“It is real,” said Sara.
“The fire is real enough to warm me; I can sit
in the chair; the things are real enough to eat.”
It was like a fairy story come true it
was heavenly. She went to the bed and touched
the blankets and the wrap. They were real too.
She opened one book, and on the title-page was written
in a strange hand, “The little girl in the attic.”
Suddenly was it a strange
thing for her to do? Sara put her face down
on the queer, foreign looking quilted robe and burst
into tears.
“I don’t know who it is,”
she said, “but somebody cares about me a little somebody
is my friend.”
Somehow that thought warmed her more
than the fire. She had never had a friend since
those happy, luxurious days when she had had everything;
and those days had seemed such a long way off so
far away as to be only like dreams during
these last years at Miss Minchin’s.
She really cried more at this strange
thought of having a friend even though
an unknown one than she had cried over many
of her worst troubles.
But these tears seemed different from
the others, for when she had wiped them away they
did not seem to leave her eyes and her heart hot and
smarting.
And then imagine, if you can, what
the rest of the evening was like. The delicious
comfort of taking off the damp clothes and putting
on the soft, warm, quilted robe before the glowing
fire of slipping her cold feet into the
luscious little wool-lined slippers she found near
her chair. And then the hot tea and savory dishes,
the cushioned chair and the books!
It was just like Sara, that, once
having found the things real, she should give herself
up to the enjoyment of them to the very utmost.
She had lived such a life of imagining, and had found
her pleasure so long in improbabilities, that she
was quite equal to accepting any wonderful thing that
happened. After she was quite warm and had eaten
her supper and enjoyed herself for an hour or so,
it had almost ceased to be surprising to her that
such magical surroundings should be hers. As
to finding out who had done all this, she knew that
it was out of the question. She did not know
a human soul by whom it could seem in the least degree
probable that it could have been done.
“There is nobody,” she
said to herself, “nobody.” She discussed
the matter with Emily, it is true, but more because
it was delightful to talk about it than with a view
to making any discoveries.
“But we have a friend, Emily,”
she said; “we have a friend.”
Sara could not even imagine a being
charming enough to fill her grand ideal of her mysterious
benefactor. If she tried to make in her mind
a picture of him or her, it ended by being something
glittering and strange not at all like
a real person, but bearing resemblance to a sort of
Eastern magician, with long robes and a wand.
And when she fell asleep, beneath the soft white blanket,
she dreamed all night of this magnificent personage,
and talked to him in Hindustani, and made salaams
to him.
Upon one thing she was determined.
She would not speak to any one of her good fortune it
should be her own secret; in fact, she was rather
inclined to think that if Miss Minchin knew, she would
take her treasures from her or in some way spoil her
pleasure. So, when she went down the next morning,
she shut her door very tight and did her best to look
as if nothing unusual had occurred. And yet this
was rather hard, because she could not help remembering,
every now and then, with a sort of start, and her
heart would beat quickly every time she repeated to
herself, “I have a friend!”
It was a friend who evidently meant
to continue to be kind, for when she went to her garret
the next night and she opened the door,
it must be confessed, with rather an excited feeling she
found that the same hands had been again at work,
and had done even more than before. The fire and
the supper were again there, and beside them a number
of other things which so altered the look of the garret
that Sara quite lost her breath. A piece of bright,
strange, heavy cloth covered the battered mantel, and
on it some ornaments had been placed. All the
bare, ugly things which could be covered with draperies
had been concealed and made to look quite pretty.
Some odd materials in rich colors had been fastened
against the walls with sharp, fine tacks so
sharp that they could be pressed into the wood without
hammering. Some brilliant fans were pinned up,
and there were several large cushions. A long,
old wooden box was covered with a rug, and some cushions
lay on it, so that it wore quite the air of a sofa.
Sara simply sat down, and looked, and looked again.
“It is exactly like something
fairy come true,” she said; “there isn’t
the least difference. I feel as if I might wish
for anything diamonds and bags of gold and
they would appear! That couldn’t be any
stranger than this. Is this my garret? Am
I the same cold, ragged, damp Sara? And to think
how I used to pretend, and pretend, and wish there
were fairies! The one thing I always wanted was
to see a fairy story come true. I am living in
a fairy story! I feel as if I might be a fairy
myself, and be able to turn things into anything else!”
It was like a fairy story, and, what
was best of all, it continued. Almost every day
something new was done to the garret. Some new
comfort or ornament appeared in it when Sara opened
her door at night, until actually, in a short time
it was a bright little room, full of all sorts of
odd and luxurious things. And the magician had
taken care that the child should not be hungry, and
that she should have as many books as she could read.
When she left the room in the morning, the remains
of her supper were on the table, and when she returned
in the evening, the magician had removed them, and
left another nice little meal. Downstairs Miss
Minchin was as cruel and insulting as ever, Miss Amelia
was as peevish, and the servants were as vulgar.
Sara was sent on errands, and scolded, and driven
hither and thither, but somehow it seemed as if she
could bear it all. The delightful sense of romance
and mystery lifted her above the cook’s temper
and malice. The comfort she enjoyed and could
always look forward to was making her stronger.
If she came home from her errands wet and tired, she
knew she would soon be warm, after she had climbed
the stairs. In a few weeks she began to look less
thin. A little color came into her cheeks, and
her eyes did not seem much too big for her face.
It was just when this was beginning
to be so apparent that Miss Minchin sometimes stared
at her questioningly, that another wonderful thing
happened. A man came to the door and left several
parcels. All were addressed (in large letters)
to “the little girl in the attic.”
Sara herself was sent to open the door, and she took
them in. She laid the two largest parcels down
on the hall-table and was looking at the address,
when Miss Minchin came down the stairs.
“Take the things upstairs to
the young lady to whom they belong,” she said.
“Don’t stand there staring at them.”
“They belong to me,” answered Sara, quietly.
“To you!” exclaimed Miss Minchin.
“What do you mean?”
“I don’t know where they
came from,” said Sara, “but they’re
addressed to me.”
Miss Minchin came to her side and
looked at them with an excited expression.
“What is in them?” she demanded.
“I don’t know,” said Sara.
“Open them!” she demanded, still more
excitedly.
Sara did as she was told. They
contained pretty and comfortable clothing, clothing
of different kinds; shoes and stockings and gloves,
a warm coat, and even an umbrella. On the pocket
of the coat was pinned a paper on which was written,
“To be worn every day will be replaced
by others when necessary.”
Miss Minchin was quite agitated.
This was an incident which suggested strange things
to her sordid mind. Could it be that she had made
a mistake after all, and that the child so neglected
and so unkindly treated by her had some powerful friend
in the background? It would not be very pleasant
if there should be such a friend, and he or she should
learn all the truth about the thin, shabby clothes,
the scant food, the hard work. She felt queer
indeed and uncertain, and she gave a side-glance at
Sara.
“Well,” she said, in a
voice such as she had never used since the day the
child lost her father “well, some
one is very kind to you. As you have the things
and are to have new ones when they are worn out, you
may as well go and put them on and look respectable;
and after you are dressed, you may come downstairs
and learn your lessons in the school-room.”
So it happened that, about half an
hour afterward, Sara struck the entire school-room
of pupils dumb with amazement, by making her appearance
in a costume such as she had never worn since the change
of fortune whereby she ceased to be a show-pupil and
a parlor-boarder. She scarcely seemed to be the
same Sara. She was neatly dressed in a pretty
gown of warm browns and reds, and even her stockings
and slippers were nice and dainty.
“Perhaps some one has left her
a fortune,” one of the girls whispered.
“I always thought something would happen to her,
she is so queer.”
That night when Sara went to her room
she carried out a plan she had been devising for some
time. She wrote a note to her unknown friend.
It ran as follows:
“I hope you will not think it
is not polite that I should write this note to you
when you wish to keep yourself a secret, but I do not
mean to be impolite, or to try to find out at all,
only I want to thank you for being so kind to me so
beautiful kind, and making everything like a fairy
story. I am so grateful to you and I am so happy!
I used to be so lonely and cold and, hungry, and now,
oh, just think what you have done for me! Please
let me say just these words. It seems as if I
ought to say them. Thank you thank
you thank you!
“The little girl in the
attic.”
The next morning she left this on
the little table, and it was taken away with the other
things; so she felt sure the magician had received
it, and she was happier for the thought.
A few nights later a very odd thing
happened. She found something in the room which
she certainly would never have expected. When
she came in as usual she saw something small and dark
in her chair, an odd, tiny figure, which
turned toward her a little, weird-looking, wistful
face.
“Why, it’s the monkey!”
she cried. “It is the Indian Gentleman’s
monkey! Where can he have come from?”
It was the monkey, sitting up and
looking so like a mite of a child that it really was
quite pathetic; and very soon Sara found out how he
happened to be in her room. The skylight was open,
and it was easy to guess that he had crept out of
his master’s garret-window, which was only a
few feet away and perfectly easy to get in and out
of, even for a climber less agile than a monkey.
He had probably climbed to the garret on a tour of
investigation, and getting out upon the roof, and being
attracted by the light in Sara’s attic, had crept
in. At all events this seemed quite reasonable,
and there he was; and when Sara went to him, he actually
put out his queer, elfish little hands, caught her
dress, and jumped into her arms.
“Oh, you queer, poor, ugly,
foreign little thing!” said Sara, caressing
him. “I can’t help liking you.
You look like a sort of baby, but I am so glad you
are not, because your mother could not be proud of
you, and nobody would dare to say you were like any
of your relations. But I do like you; you have
such a forlorn little look in your face. Perhaps
you are sorry you are so ugly, and it’s always
on your mind. I wonder if you have a mind?”
The monkey sat and looked at her while
she talked, and seemed much interested in her remarks,
if one could judge by his eyes and his forehead, and
the way he moved his head up and down, and held it
sideways and scratched it with his little hand.
He examined Sara quite seriously, and anxiously, too.
He felt the stuff of her dress, touched her hands,
climbed up and examined her ears, and then sat on her
shoulder holding a lock of her hair, looking mournful
but not at all agitated. Upon the whole, he seemed
pleased with Sara.
“But I must take you back,”
she said to him, “though I’m sorry to have
to do it. Oh, the company you would be to a person!”
She lifted him from her shoulder,
set him on her knee, and gave him a bit of cake.
He sat and nibbled it, and then put his head on one
side, looked at her, wrinkled his forehead, and then
nibbled again, in the most companionable manner.
“But you must go home,”
said Sara at last; and she took him in her arms to
carry him downstairs. Evidently he did not want
to leave the room, for as they reached the door he
clung to her neck and gave a little scream of anger.
“You mustn’t be an ungrateful
monkey,” said Sara. “You ought to
be fondest of your own family. I am sure the
Lascar is good to you.”
Nobody saw her on her way out, and
very soon she was standing on the Indian Gentleman’s
front steps, and the Lascar had opened the door for
her.
“I found your monkey in my room,”
she said in Hindustani. “I think he got
in through the window.”
The man began a rapid outpouring of
thanks; but, just as he was in the midst of them,
a fretful, hollow voice was heard through the open
door of the nearest room. The instant he heard
it the Lascar disappeared, and left Sara still holding
the monkey.
It was not many moments, however,
before he came back bringing a message. His master
had told him to bring Missy into the library.
The Sahib was very ill, but he wished to see Missy.
Sara thought this odd, but she remembered
reading stories of Indian gentlemen who, having no
constitutions, were extremely cross and full of whims,
and who must have their own way. So she followed
the Lascar.
When she entered the room the Indian
Gentleman was lying on an easy chair, propped up with
pillows. He looked frightfully ill. His yellow
face was thin, and his eyes were hollow. He gave
Sara a rather curious look it was as if
she wakened in him some anxious interest.
“You live next door?” he said.
“Yes,” answered Sara. “I live
at Miss Minchin’s.”
“She keeps a boarding-school?”
“Yes,” said Sara.
“And you are one of her pupils?”
Sara hesitated a moment.
“I don’t know exactly what I am,”
she replied.
“Why not?” asked the Indian Gentleman.
The monkey gave a tiny squeak, and Sara stroked him.
“At first,” she said, “I was a pupil
and a parlor boarder; but now ”
“What do you mean by `at first’?”
asked the Indian Gentleman.
“When I was first taken there by my papa.”
“Well, what has happened since
then?” said the invalid, staring at her and
knitting his brows with a puzzled expression.
“My papa died,” said Sara.
“He lost all his money, and there was none left
for me and there was no one to take care
of me or pay Miss Minchin, so ”
“So you were sent up into the
garret and neglected, and made into a half-starved
little drudge!” put in the Indian Gentleman.
“That is about it, isn’t it?”
The color deepened on Sara’s cheeks.
“There was no one to take care
of me, and no money,” she said. “I
belong to nobody.”
“What did your father mean by
losing his money?” said the gentleman, fretfully.
The red in Sara’s cheeks grew
deeper, and she fixed her odd eyes on the yellow face.
“He did not lose it himself,”
she said. “He had a friend he was fond
of, and it was his friend, who took his money.
I don’t know how. I don’t understand.
He trusted his friend too much.”
She saw the invalid start the
strangest start as if he had been suddenly
frightened. Then he spoke nervously and excitedly:
“That’s an old story,”
he said. “It happens every day; but sometimes
those who are blamed those who do the wrong don’t
intend it, and are not so bad. It may happen
through a mistake a miscalculation; they
may not be so bad.”
“No,” said Sara, “but
the suffering is just as bad for the others. It
killed my papa.”
The Indian Gentleman pushed aside
some of the gorgeous wraps that covered him.
“Come a little nearer, and let me look at you,”
he said.
His voice sounded very strange; it
had a more nervous and excited tone than before.
Sara had an odd fancy that he was half afraid to look
at her. She came and stood nearer, the monkey
clinging to her and watching his master anxiously
over his shoulder.
The Indian Gentleman’s hollow,
restless eyes fixed themselves on her.
“Yes,” he said at last.
“Yes; I can see it. Tell me your father’s
name.”
“His name was Ralph Crewe,”
said Sara. “Captain Crewe. Perhaps,” a
sudden thought flashing upon her, “perhaps
you may have heard of him? He died in India.”
The Indian Gentleman sank back upon
his pillows. He looked very weak, and seemed
out of breath.
“Yes,” he said, “I
knew him. I was his friend. I meant no harm.
If he had only lived he would have known. It
turned out well after all. He was a fine young
fellow. I was fond of him. I will make it
right. Call call the man.”
Sara thought he was going to die.
But there was no need to call the Lascar. He
must have been waiting at the door. He was in
the room and by his master’s side in an instant.
He seemed to know what to do. He lifted the drooping
head, and gave the invalid something in a small glass.
The Indian Gentleman lay panting for a few minutes,
and then he spoke in an exhausted but eager voice,
addressing the Lascar in Hindustani:
“Go for Carmichael,” he
said. “Tell him to come here at once.
Tell him I have found the child!”
When Mr. Carmichael arrived (which
occurred in a very few minutes, for it turned out
that he was no other than the father of the Large Family
across the street), Sara went home, and was allowed
to take the monkey with her. She certainly did
not sleep very much that night, though the monkey
behaved beautifully, and did not disturb her in the
least. It was not the monkey that kept her awake it
was her thoughts, and her wonders as to what the Indian
Gentleman had meant when he said, “Tell him I
have found the child.” “What child?”
Sara kept asking herself.
“I was the only child there;
but how had he found me, and why did he want to find
me? And what is he going to do, now I am found?
Is it something about my papa? Do I belong to
somebody? Is he one of my relations? Is
something going to happen?”
But she found out the very next day,
in the morning; and it seemed that she had been living
in a story even more than she had imagined. First,
Mr. Carmichael came and had an interview with Miss
Minchin. And it appeared that Mr. Carmichael,
besides occupying the important situation of father
to the Large Family was a lawyer, and had charge of
the affairs of Mr. Carrisford which was
the real name of the Indian Gentleman and,
as Mr. Carrisford’s lawyer, Mr. Carmichael had
come to explain something curious to Miss Minchin
regarding Sara. But, being the father of the
Large Family, he had a very kind and fatherly feeling
for children; and so, after seeing Miss Minchin alone,
what did he do but go and bring across the square
his rosy, motherly, warm-hearted wife, so that she
herself might talk to the little lonely girl, and tell
her everything in the best and most motherly way.
And then Sara learned that she was
to be a poor little drudge and outcast no more, and
that a great change had come in her fortunes; for
all the lost fortune had come back to her, and a great
deal had even been added to it. It was Mr. Carrisford
who had been her father’s friend, and who had
made the investments which had caused him the apparent
loss of his money; but it had so happened that after
poor young Captain Crewe’s death one of the
investments which had seemed at the time the very
worst had taken a sudden turn, and proved to be such
a success that it had been a mine of wealth, and had
more than doubled the Captain’s lost fortune,
as well as making a fortune for Mr. Carrisford himself.
But Mr. Carrisford had been very unhappy. He had
truly loved his poor, handsome, generous young friend,
and the knowledge that he had caused his death had
weighed upon him always, and broken both his health
and spirit. The worst of it had been that, when
first he thought himself and Captain Crewe ruined,
he had lost courage and gone away because he was not
brave enough to face the consequences of what he had
done, and so he had not even known where the young
soldier’s little girl had been placed.
When he wanted to find her, and make restitution, he
could discover no trace of her; and the certainty that
she was poor and friendless somewhere had made him
more miserable than ever. When he had taken the
house next to Miss Minchin’s he had been so ill
and wretched that he had for the time given up the
search. His troubles and the Indian climate had
brought him almost to death’s door indeed,
he had not expected to live more than a few months.
And then one day the Lascar had told him about Sara’s
speaking Hindustani, and gradually he had begun to
take a sort of interest in the forlorn child, though
he had only caught a glimpse of her once or twice
and he had not connected her with the child of his
friend, perhaps because he was too languid to think
much about anything. But the Lascar had found
out something of Sara’s unhappy little life,
and about the garret. One evening he had actually
crept out of his own garret-window and looked into
hers, which was a very easy matter, because, as I
have said, it was only a few feet away and
he had told his master what he had seen, and in a moment
of compassion the Indian Gentleman had told him to
take into the wretched little room such comforts as
he could carry from the one window to the other.
And the Lascar, who had developed an interest in, and
an odd fondness for, the child who had spoken to him
in his own tongue, had been pleased with the work;
and, having the silent swiftness and agile movements
of many of his race, he had made his evening journeys
across the few feet of roof from garret-window to
garret-window, without any trouble at all. He
had watched Sara’s movements until he knew exactly
when she was absent from her room and when she returned
to it, and so he had been able to calculate the best
times for his work. Generally he had made them
in the dusk of the evening; but once or twice, when
he had seen her go out on errands, he had dared to
go over in the daytime, being quite sure that the
garret was never entered by any one but herself.
His pleasure in the work and his reports of the results
had added to the invalid’s interest in it, and
sometimes the master had found the planning gave him
something to think of, which made him almost forget
his weariness and pain. And at last, when Sara
brought home the truant monkey, he had felt a wish
to see her, and then her likeness to her father had
done the rest.
“And now, my dear,” said
good Mrs. Carmichael, patting Sara’s hand, “all
your troubles are over, I am sure, and you are to come
home with me and be taken care of as if you were one
of my own little girls; and we are so pleased to think
of having you with us until everything is settled,
and Mr. Carrisford is better. The excitement of
last night has made him very weak, but we really think
he will get well, now that such a load is taken from
his mind. And when he is stronger, I am sure he
will be as kind to you as your own papa would have
been. He has a very good heart, and he is fond
of children and he has no family at all.
But we must make you happy and rosy, and you must
learn to play and run about, as my little girls do ”
“As your little girls do?”
said Sara. “I wonder if I could. I
used to watch them and wonder what it was like.
Shall I feel as if I belonged to somebody?”
“Ah, my love, yes! yes!”
said Mrs. Carmichael; “dear me, yes!” And
her motherly blue eyes grew quite moist, and she suddenly
took Sara in her arms and kissed her. That very
night, before she went to sleep, Sara had made the
acquaintance of the entire Large Family, and such excitement
as she and the monkey had caused in that joyous circle
could hardly be described. There was not a child
in the nursery, from the Eton boy who was the eldest,
to the baby who was the youngest, who had not laid
some offering on her shrine. All the older ones
knew something of her wonderful story. She had
been born in India; she had been poor and lonely and
unhappy, and had lived in a garret and been treated
unkindly; and now she was to be rich and happy, and
be taken care of. They were so sorry for her,
and so delighted and curious about her, all at once.
The girls wished to be with her constantly, and the
little boys wished to be told about India; the second
baby, with the short round legs, simply sat and stared
at her and the monkey, possibly wondering why she had
not brought a hand-organ with her.
“I shall certainly wake up presently,”
Sara kept saying to herself. “This one
must be a dream. The other one turned out to be
real; but this couldn’t be. But, oh! how
happy it is!”
And even when she went to bed, in
the bright, pretty room not far from Mrs. Carmichael’s
own, and Mrs. Carmichael came and kissed her and patted
her and tucked her in cozily, she was not sure that
she would not wake up in the garret in the morning.
“And oh, Charles, dear,”
Mrs. Carmichael said to her husband, when she went
downstairs to him, “We must get that lonely look
out of her eyes! It isn’t a child’s
look at all. I couldn’t bear to see it in
one of my own children. What the poor little
love must have had to bear in that dreadful woman’s
house! But, surely, she will forget it in time.”
But though the lonely look passed
away from Sara’s face, she never quite forgot
the garret at Miss Minchin’s; and, indeed, she
always liked to remember the wonderful night when
the tired princess crept upstairs, cold and wet, and
opening the door found fairy-land waiting for her.
And there was no one of the many stories she was always
being called upon to tell in the nursery of the Large
Family which was more popular than that particular
one; and there was no one of whom the Large Family
were so fond as of Sara. Mr. Carrisford did not
die, but recovered, and Sara went to live with him;
and no real princess could have been better taken
care of than she was. It seemed that the Indian
Gentleman could not do enough to make her happy, and
to repay her for the past; and the Lascar was her
devoted slave. As her odd little face grew brighter,
it grew so pretty and interesting that Mr. Carrisford
used to sit and watch it many an evening, as they
sat by the fire together.
They became great friends, and they
used to spend hours reading and talking together;
and, in a very short time, there was no pleasanter
sight to the Indian Gentleman than Sara sitting in
her big chair on the opposite side of the hearth,
with a book on her knee and her soft, dark hair tumbling
over her warm cheeks. She had a pretty habit of
looking up at him suddenly, with a bright smile, and
then he would often say to her:
“Are you happy, Sara?”
And then she would answer:
“I feel like a real princess, Uncle Tom.”
He had told her to call him Uncle Tom.
“There doesn’t seem to be anything left
to `suppose,’” she added.
There was a little joke between them
that he was a magician, and so could do anything he
liked; and it was one of his pleasures to invent plans
to surprise her with enjoyments she had not thought
of. Scarcely a day passed in which he did not
do something new for her. Sometimes she found
new flowers in her room; sometimes a fanciful little
gift tucked into some odd corner, sometimes a new
book on her pillow; once as they sat together
in the evening they heard the scratch of a heavy paw
on the door of the room, and when Sara went to find
out what it was, there stood a great dog a
splendid Russian boar-hound with a grand silver and
gold collar. Stooping to read the inscription
upon the collar, Sara was delighted to read the words:
“I am Boris; I serve the Princess Sara.”
Then there was a sort of fairy nursery
arranged for the entertainment of the juvenile members
of the Large Family, who were always coming to see
Sara and the Lascar and the monkey. Sara was as
fond of the Large Family as they were of her.
She soon felt as if she were a member of it, and the
companionship of the healthy, happy children was very
good for her. All the children rather looked
up to her and regarded her as the cleverest and most
brilliant of creatures particularly after
it was discovered that she not only knew stories of
every kind, and could invent new ones at a moment’s
notice, but that she could help with lessons, and
speak French and German, and discourse with the Lascar
in Hindustani.
It was rather a painful experience
for Miss Minchin to watch her ex-pupil’s fortunes,
as she had the daily opportunity to do, and to feel
that she had made a serious mistake, from a business
point of view. She had even tried to retrieve
it by suggesting that Sara’s education should
be continued under her care, and had gone to the length
of making an appeal to the child herself.
“I have always been very fond of you,”
she said.
Then Sara fixed her eyes upon her and gave her one
of her odd looks.
“Have you?” she answered.
“Yes,” said Miss Minchin.
“Amelia and I have always said you were the
cleverest child we had with us, and I am sure we could
make you happy as a parlor boarder.”
Sara thought of the garret and the
day her ears were boxed, and of that other
day, that dreadful, desolate day when she had been
told that she belonged to nobody; that she had no
home and no friends, and she kept her eyes
fixed on Miss Minchin’s face.
“You know why I would not stay with you,”
she said.
And it seems probable that Miss Minchin
did, for after that simple answer she had not the
boldness to pursue the subject. She merely sent
in a bill for the expense of Sara’s education
and support, and she made it quite large enough.
And because Mr. Carrisford thought Sara would wish
it paid, it was paid. When Mr. Carmichael paid
it he had a brief interview with Miss Minchin in which
he expressed his opinion with much clearness and force;
and it is quite certain that Miss Minchin did not
enjoy the conversation.
Sara had been about a month with Mr.
Carrisford, and had begun to realize that her happiness
was not a dream, when one night the Indian Gentleman
saw that she sat a long time with her cheek on her
hand looking at the fire.
“What are you `supposing,’
Sara?” he asked. Sara looked up with a bright
color on her cheeks.
“I was `supposing,’”
she said; “I was remembering that hungry day,
and a child I saw.”
“But there were a great many
hungry days,” said the Indian Gentleman, with
a rather sad tone in his voice. “Which hungry
day was it?”
“I forgot you didn’t know,”
said Sara. “It was the day I found the
things in my garret.”
And then she told him the story of
the bun-shop, and the fourpence, and the child who
was hungrier than herself; and somehow as she told
it, though she told it very simply indeed, the Indian
Gentleman found it necessary to shade his eyes with
his hand and look down at the floor.
“And I was `supposing’
a kind of plan,” said Sara, when she had finished;
“I was thinking I would like to do something.”
“What is it?” said her
guardian in a low tone. “You may do anything
you like to do, Princess.”
“I was wondering,” said
Sara, “you know you say I have a great
deal of money and I was wondering if I
could go and see the bun-woman and tell her that if,
when hungry children particularly on those
dreadful days come and sit on the steps
or look in at the window, she would just call them
in and give them something to eat, she might send the
bills to me and I would pay them could
I do that?”
“You shall do it to-morrow morning,”
said the Indian Gentleman.
“Thank you,” said Sara;
“you see I know what it is to be hungry, and
it is very hard when one can’t even pretend
it away.”
“Yes, yes, my dear,” said
the Indian Gentleman. “Yes, it must be.
Try to forget it. Come and sit on this footstool
near my knee, and only remember you are a princess.”
“Yes,” said Sara, “and
I can give buns and bread to the Populace.”
And she went and sat on the stool, and the Indian
Gentleman (he used to like her to call him that, too,
sometimes, in fact very often) drew her
small, dark head down upon his knee and stroked her
hair.
The next morning a carriage drew up
before the door of the baker’s shop, and a gentleman
and a little girl got out, oddly enough,
just as the bun-woman was putting a tray of smoking
hotbuns into the window. When Sara entered the
shop the woman turned and looked at her and, leaving
the buns, came and stood behind the counter. For
a moment she looked at Sara very hard indeed, and
then her good-natured face lighted up.
“I’m that sure I remember
you, miss,” she said. “And yet ”
“Yes,” said Sara, “once
you gave me six buns for fourpence, and ”
“And you gave five of ’em
to a beggar-child,” said the woman. “I’ve
always remembered it. I couldn’t make it
out at first. I beg pardon, sir, but there’s
not many young people that notices a hungry face in
that way, and I’ve thought of it many a time.
Excuse the liberty, miss, but you look rosier and
better than you did that day.”
“I am better, thank you,”
said Sara, “and and I am happier,
and I have come to ask you to do something for me.”
“Me, miss!” exclaimed
the woman, “why, bless you, yes, miss! What
can I do?”
And then Sara made her little proposal,
and the woman listened to it with an astonished face.
“Why, bless me!” she said,
when she had heard it all. “Yes, miss, it’ll
be a pleasure to me to do it. I am a working woman,
myself, and can’t afford to do much on my own
account, and there’s sights of trouble on every
side; but if you’ll excuse me, I’m bound
to say I’ve given many a bit of bread away since
that wet afternoon, just along o’ thinkin’
of you. An’ how wet an’ cold you
was, an’ how you looked, an’
yet you give away your hot buns as if you was a princess.”
The Indian Gentleman smiled involuntarily,
and Sara smiled a little too. “She looked
so hungry,” she said. “She was hungrier
than I was.”
“She was starving,” said
the woman. “Many’s the time she’s
told me of it since how she sat there in
the wet, and felt as if a wolf was a-tearing at her
poor young insides.”
“Oh, have you seen her since
then?” exclaimed Sara. “Do you know
where she is?”
“I know!” said the woman.
“Why, she’s in that there back room now,
miss, an’ has been for a month, an’ a
decent, well-meaning girl she’s going to turn
out, an’ such a help to me in the day shop, an’
in the kitchen, as you’d scarce believe, knowing
how she’s lived.”
She stepped to the door of the little
back parlor and spoke; and the next minute a girl
came out and followed her behind the counter.
And actually it was the beggar-child, clean and neatly
clothed, and looking as if she had not been hungry
for a long time. She looked shy, but she had
a nice face, now that she was no longer a savage; and
the wild look had gone from her eyes. And she
knew Sara in an instant, and stood and looked at her
as if she could never look enough.
“You see,” said the woman,
“I told her to come here when she was hungry,
and when she’d come I’d give her odd jobs
to do, an’ I found she was willing, an’
somehow I got to like her; an’ the end of it
was I’ve given her a place an’ a home,
an’ she helps me, an’ behaves as well,
an’ is as thankful as a girl can be. Her
name’s Anne she has no other.”
The two children stood and looked
at each other a few moments. In Sara’s
eyes a new thought was growing.
“I’m glad you have such
a good home,” she said. “Perhaps Mrs.
Brown will let you give the buns and bread to the
children perhaps you would like to do it because
you know what it is to be hungry, too.”
“Yes, miss,” said the girl.
And somehow Sara felt as if she understood
her, though the girl said nothing more, and only stood
still and looked, and looked after her as she went
out of the shop and got into the carriage and drove
away.