As the clock in the library of the
club struck midnight, Condy laid down his pen, shoved
the closely written sheets of paper from him, and
leaned back in his chair, his fingers to his tired
eyes. He was sitting at a desk in one of the
further corners of the room and shut off by a great
Japanese screen. He was in his shirt-sleeves,
his hair was tumbled, his fingers ink-stained, and
his face a little pale.
Since late in the evening he had been
steadily writing. Three chapters of “In
Defiance of Authority” were done, and he was
now at work on the fourth. The day after the
excursion to the Presidio that wonderful
event which seemed to Condy to mark the birthday of
some new man within him the idea had suddenly
occurred to him that Captain Jack’s story of
the club of the exiles, the boom restaurant, and the
filibustering expedition was precisely the novel of
adventure of which the Centennial Company had spoken.
At once he had set to work upon it, with an enthusiasm
that, with shut teeth, he declared would not be lacking
in energy. The story would have to be written
out of his business hours. That meant he would
have to give up his evenings to it. But he had
done this, and for nearly a week had settled himself
to his task in the quiet corner of the club at eight
o’clock, and held to it resolutely until twelve.
The first two chapters had run off
his pen with delightful ease. The third came
harder; the events and incidents of the story became
confused and contradictory; the character of Billy
Isham obstinately refused to take the prominent place
which Condy had designed for him; and with the beginning
of the fourth chapter, Condy had finally come to know
the enormous difficulties, the exasperating complications,
the discouragements that begin anew with every paragraph,
the obstacles that refuse to be surmounted, and all
the pain, the labor, the downright mental travail
and anguish that fall to the lot of the writer of
novels.
To write a short story with the end
in plain sight from the beginning was an easy matter
compared to the upbuilding, grain by grain, atom by
atom, of the fabric of “In Defiance of Authority.”
Condy soon found that there was but one way to go
about the business. He must shut his eyes to
the end of his novel that far-off, divine
event and take his task chapter by chapter,
even paragraph by paragraph; grinding out the tale,
as it were, by main strength, driving his pen from
line to line, hating the effort, happy only with the
termination of each chapter, and working away, hour
by hour, minute by minute, with the dogged, sullen,
hammer-and-tongs obstinacy of the galley-slave, scourged
to his daily toil.
At times the tale, apparently out
of sheer perversity, would come to a full stop.
To write another word seemed beyond the power of human
ingenuity, and for an hour or more Condy would sit
scowling at the half-written page, gnawing his nails,
scouring his hair, dipping his pen into the ink-well,
and squaring himself to the sheet of paper, all to
no purpose.
There was no pleasure in it for him.
A character once fixed in his mind, a scene once
pictured in his imagination, and even before he had
written a word the character lost the charm of its
novelty, the scene the freshness of its original conception.
Then, with infinite painstaking and with a patience
little short of miraculous, he must slowly build up,
brick by brick, the plan his brain had outlined in
a single instant. It was all work hard,
disagreeable, laborious work; and no juggling with
phrases, no false notions as to the “delight
of creation,” could make it appear otherwise.
“And for what,” he muttered as he rose,
rolled up his sheaf of manuscript, and put on his coat;
“what do I do it for, I don’t know.”
It was beyond question that, had he
begun his novel three months before this time, Condy
would have long since abandoned the hateful task.
But Blix had changed all that. A sudden male
force had begun to develop in Condy. A master-emotion
had shaken him, and he had commenced to see and to
feel the serious, more abiding, and perhaps the sterner
side of life. Blix had steadied him, there was
no denying that. He was not quite the same boyish,
hairbrained fellow who had made “a buffoon of
himself” in the Chinese restaurant, three months
before.
The cars had stopped running by the
time Condy reached the street. He walked home
and flung himself to bed, his mind tired, his nerves
unstrung, and all the blood of his body apparently
concentrated in his brain. Working at night
after writing all day long was telling upon him, and
he knew it.
What with his work and his companionship
with Blix, Condy soon began to drop out of his wonted
place in his “set.” He was obliged
to decline one invitation after another that would
take him out in the evening, and instead of lunching
at his club with Sargeant or George Hands, as he had
been accustomed to do at one time, he fell into another
habit of lunching with Blix at the flat on Washington
Street, and spending the two hours allowed to him
in the middle of the day in her company.
Condy’s desertion of them was
often spoken of by the men of his club with whom he
had been at one time so intimate, and the subject happened
to be brought up again one noon when Jack Carter was
in the club as George Hands’ guest. Hands,
Carter, and Eckert were at one of the windows over
their after-dinner cigars and liqueurs.
“I say,” said Eckert suddenly,
“who’s that girl across the street there the
one in black, just going by that furrier’s sign?
I’ve seen her somewhere before. Know who
it is?”
“That’s Miss Bessemer,
isn’t it?” said George Hands, leaning forward.
“Rather a stunning-looking girl.”
“Yes, that’s Travis Bessemer,”
assented Jack Carter; adding, a moment later, “it’s
too bad about that girl.”
“What’s the matter?” asked Eckert.
Carter lifted a shoulder. “Isn’t
anything the matter as far as I know, only somehow
the best people have dropped her. She used
to be received everywhere.”
“Come to think, I haven’t
seen her out much this season,” said Eckert.
“But I heard she had bolted from ‘Society’
with the big S, and was going East going
to study medicine, I believe.”
“I’ve always noticed,”
said Carter, with a smile, “that so soon as a
girl is declassee, she develops a purpose in life and
gets earnest, and all that sort of thing.
“Oh, well, come,” growled
George Hands, “Travis Bessemer is not declassee.”
“I didn’t say she was,”
answered Carter; “but she has made herself talked
about a good deal lately. Going around with Rivers,
as she does, isn’t the most discreet thing in
the world. Of course, it’s all right,
but it all makes talk, and I came across them by a
grove of trees out on the links the other day ”
“Yes,” observed Sargeant,
leaning on the back of Carter’s armchair; “yes;
and I noticed, too, that she cut you dead. You
fellows should have been there,” he went on,
in perfect good humor, turning to the others.
“You missed a good little scene. Rivers
and Miss Bessemer had been taking a tramp over the
Reservation and, by the way, it’s
a great place to walk, so my sister tells me; she
and Dick Forsythe take a constitutional out there
every Saturday morning well, as I was saying,
Rivers and Miss Bessemer came upon our party rather
unexpectedly. We were all togged out in our
golfing bags, and I presume we looked more like tailor’s
models, posing for the gallery, than people who were
taking an outing; but Rivers and Miss Bessemer had
been regularly exercising; looked as though they had
done their fifteen miles since morning. They
had their old clothes on, and they were dusty and muddy.
“You would have thought that
a young girl such as Miss Bessemer is for
she’s very young would have been a
little embarrassed at running up against such a spick
and span lot as we were. Not a bit of it; didn’t
lose her poise for a moment. She bowed to my
sister and to me, as though from the top of a drag,
by Jove! and as though she were fresh from Redfern
and Virot. You know a girl that can manage herself
that way is a thoroughbred. She even remembered
to cut little Johnnie Carter here, because Johnnie
forced himself upon her one night at a dance when
he was drunk; didn’t she, Johnnie? Johnnie
came up to her there, out on the links, fresh as a
daisy, and put out his hand, with, ‘Why, how
do you do, Miss Bessemer?’ and ‘wherever
did you come from?’ and ‘I haven’t
seen you in so long’; and she says, ’No,
not since our last dance, I believe, Mr. Carter,’
and looked at his hand as though it was something
funny.
“Little Johnnie mumbled and
flushed and stammered and backed off; and it was well
that he did, because Rivers had begun to get red around
the wattles. I say the little girl is a thoroughbred,
and my sister wants to give her a dinner as soon as
she comes out. But Johnnie says she’s
declassee, so may be my sister had better think it
over.”
“I didn’t say she was
declassee,” exclaimed Carter. “I
only said she would do well to be more careful.”
Sargeant shifted his cigar to the
other corner of his mouth, one eye shut to avoid the
smoke.
“One might say as much of lots of people,”
he answered.
“I don’t like your tone!” Carter
flared out.
“Oh, go to the devil, Johnnie! Shall we
all have a drink?”
On the Friday evening of that week,
Condy set himself to his work at his accustomed hour.
But he had had a hard day on the “Times,”
Supplement, and his brain, like an overdriven horse,
refused to work. In half an hour he had not written
a paragraph.
“I thought it would be better,
in the end, to loaf for one evening,” he explained
to Blix, some twenty minutes later, as they settled
themselves in the little dining-room. “I
can go at it better to-morrow. See how you like
this last chapter.”
Blix was enthusiastic over “In
Defiance of Authority.” Condy had told
her the outline of the story, and had read to her each
chapter as he finished it.
“It’s the best thing you
have ever done, Condy, and you know it. I suppose
it has faults, but I don’t care anything about
them. It’s the story itself that’s
so interesting. After that first chapter of the
boom restaurant and the exiles’ club, nobody
would want to lay the book down. You’re
doing the best work of your life so far, and you stick
to it.”
“It’s grinding out copy
for the Supplement at the same time that takes all
the starch out of me. You’ve no idea what
it means to write all day, and then sit down and write
all evening.”
“I wish you could get off
the ‘Times,’” said Blix. “You’re
just giving the best part of your life to hack work,
and now it’s interfering with your novel.
I know you could do better work on your novel if you
didn’t have to work on the ‘Times,’
couldn’t you?”
“Oh, if you come to that, of
course I could,” he answered. “But
they won’t give me a vacation. I was sounding
the editor on it day before yesterday. No; I’ll
have to manage somehow to swing the two together.”
“Well, let’s not talk
shop now. Condy. You need a rest.
Do you want to play poker?”
They played for upward of an hour
that evening, and Condy, as usual, lost. His
ill-luck was positively astonishing. During the
last two months he had played poker with Blix on an
average of three or four evenings in the week, and
at the close of every game it was Blix who had all
the chips.
Blix had come to know the game quite
as well, if not better, than he. She could almost
invariably tell when Condy held a good hand, but on
her part could assume an air of indifference absolutely
inscrutable.
“Cards?” said Condy, picking up the deck
after the deal.
“I’ll stand pat, Condy.”
“The deuce you say,” he answered, with
a stare. “I’ll take three.”
“I’ll pass it up to you,” continued
Blix gravely.
“Well well, I’ll bet you five
chips.”
“Raise you twenty.”
Condy studied his hand, laid down
the cards, picked them up again, scratched his head,
and moved uneasily in his place. Then he threw
down two high pairs.
“No,” he said; “I
won’t see you. What did you have?
Let’s see, just for the fun of it.”
Blix spread her cards on the table.
“Not a blessed thing!”
exclaimed Condy. “I might have known it.
There’s my last dollar gone, too. Lend
me fifty cents, Blix.”
Blix shook her head.
“Why, what a little niggard!”
he exclaimed aggrievedly. “I’ll pay
them all back to you.”
“Now, why should I lend you
money to play against me? I’ll not give
you a chip; and, besides, I don’t want to play
any more. Let’s stop.”
“I’ve a mind to stop for
good; stop playing even with you.”
Blix gave a little cry of joy.
“Oh, Condy, will you, could
you? and never, never touch a card again? never play
for money? I’d be so happy but
don’t unless you know you would keep your promise.
I would much rather have you play every night, down
there at your club, than break your promise.”
Condy fell silent, biting thoughtfully
at the knuckle of a forefinger.
“Think twice about it, Condy,”
urged Blix; “because this would be for always.”
Condy hesitated; then, abstractedly
and as though speaking to himself:
“It’s different now.
Before we took that three months ago, I
don’t say. It was harder for me to quit
then, but now well, everything is different
now; and it would please you, Blixy!”
“More than anything else I can think of, Condy.”
He gave her his hand.
“That settles it,” he said quietly.
“I’ll never gamble again, Blix.”
Blix gripped his hand hard, then jumped
up, and, with a quick breath of satisfaction, gathered
up the cards and chips and flung them into the fireplace.
“Oh, I’m so glad that’s
over with,” she exclaimed, her little eyes dancing.
“I’ve pretended to like it, but I’ve
hated it all the time. You don’t know how
I’ve hated it! What men can see in it to
make them sit up all night long is beyond me.
And you truly mean, Condy, that you never will gamble
again? Yes, I know you mean it this time.
Oh, I’m so happy I could sing!”
“Good Heavens, don’t do
that!” he cried quickly. “You’re
a nice, amiable girl, Blix, even if you’re not
pretty, and you ”
“Oh, bother you!” she retorted; “but
you promise?”
“On my honor.”
“That’s enough,” she said quietly.
But even when “loafing”
as he was this evening, Condy could not rid himself
of the thought and recollection of his novel; resting
or writing, it haunted him. Otherwise he would
not have been the story-writer that he was.
From now on until he should set down the last sentence,
the “thing” was never to let him alone,
never to allow him a moment’s peace. He
could think of nothing else, could talk of nothing
else; every faculty of his brain, every sense of observation
or imagination incessantly concentrated themselves
upon this one point.
As they sat in the bay window watching
the moon rise, his mind was still busy with it, and
he suddenly broke out:
“I ought to work some kind of
a treasure into the yarn. What’s a
story of adventure without a treasure? By Jove,
Blix, I wish I could give my whole time to this stuff!
It’s ripping good material, and it ought to
be handled as carefully as glass. Ought to be
worked up, you know.”
“Condy,” said Blix, looking
at him intently, “what is it stands in your
way of leaving the ‘Times’? Would
they take you back if you left them long enough to
write your novel? You could write it in a month,
couldn’t you, if you had nothing else to do?
Suppose you left them for a month would
they hold your place for you?”
“Yes yes, I think
they would; but in the meanwhile, Blix there’s
the rub. I’ve never saved a cent out of
my salary. When I stop, my pay stops, and wherewithal
would I be fed? What are you looking for in that
drawer matches? Here, I’ve got
a match.”
Blix faced about at the sideboard,
shutting the drawer by leaning against it. In
both hands she held one of the delft sugar-bowls.
She came up to the table, and emptied its contents
upon the blue denim table-cover two or
three gold pieces, some fifteen silver dollars, and
a handful of small change.
Disregarding all Condy’s inquiries,
she counted it, making little piles of the gold and
silver and nickel pieces.
“Thirty-five and seven is forty-two,”
she murmured, counting off on her fingers, “and
six is forty-eight, and ten is fifty-eight, and ten
is sixty-eight; and here is ten, twenty, thirty, fifty-five
cents in change.” She thrust it all toward
him, across the table. “There,” she
said, “is your wherewithal.”
Condy stared. “My wherewithal!”
he muttered.
“It ought to be enough for over a month.”
“Where did you get all that? Whose is it?”
“It’s your money, Condy.
You loaned it to me, and now it has come in very
handy.”
“I loaned it to you?”
“It’s the money I won
from you during the time you’ve been playing
poker with me. You didn’t know it would
amount to so much, did you?”
“Pshaw, I’ll not touch
it!” he exclaimed, drawing back from the money
as though it was red-hot.
“Yes, you will,” she told
him. “I’ve been saving it up for
you, Condy, every penny of it, from the first day
we played down there at the lake; and I always told
myself that the moment you made up your mind to quit
playing, I would give it back to you.”
“Why, the very idea!”
he vociferated, his hands deep in his pockets, his
face scarlet. “It’s it’s
preposterous, Blix! I won’t let you talk
about it even I won’t touch a nickel
of that money. But, Blix, you’re you’re the
finest woman I ever knew. You’re a man’s
woman, that’s what you are.” He set
his teeth. “If you loved a man, you’d
be a regular pal to him; you’d back him up,
you’d stand by him till the last gun was fired.
I could do anything if a woman like you
cared for me. Why, Blix, I you haven’t
any idea ” He cleared his throat,
stopping abruptly.
“But you must take this money,”
she answered; “Your money. If you
didn’t, Condy, it would make me out nothing more
nor less than a gambler. I wouldn’t have
dreamed of playing cards with you if I had ever intended
to keep one penny of your money. From the very
start I intended to keep it for you, and give it back
to you so soon as you would stop; and now you have
a chance to put this money to a good use. You
don’t have to stay on the ‘Times’
now. You can’t do your novel justice while
you are doing your hack work at the same time, and
I do so want ‘In Defiance of Authority’
to be a success. I’ve faith in you, Condy.
I know if you got the opportunity you would make a
success.”
“But you and I have played like
two men playing,” exclaimed Condy. “How
would it look if Sargeant, say, should give me back
the money he had won from me? What a cad I would
be to take it!”
“That’s just it we’ve
not played like two men. Then I would have
been a gambler. I’ve played with you because
I thought it would make a way for you to break off
with the habit; and knowing as I did how fond you
were of playing cards and how bad it was for you, how
wicked it would have been for me to have played with
you in any other spirit! Don’t you see?
And as it has turned out, you’ve given up playing,
and you’ve enough money to make it possible
for you to write your novel. The Centennial
Company have asked you to try a story of adventure
for them, you’ve found one that is splendid,
you’re just the man who could handle it, and
now you’ve got the money to make it possible.
Condy,” she exclaimed suddenly, “don’t
you see your chance? Aren’t you a big
enough man to see your chance when it comes?
And, besides, do you think I would take money
from you? Can’t you understand? If
you don’t take this money that belongs to you,
you would insult me. That is just the way I
would feel about it. You must see that.
If you care for me at all, you’ll take it.”
The editor of the Sunday Supplement
put his toothpick behind his ear and fixed Condy with
his eyeglasses.
“Well, it’s like this,
Rivers,” he said. “Of course, you
know your own business best. If you stay on
here with us, it will be all right. But I may
as well tell you that I don’t believe I can hold
your place for a month. I can’t get a
man in here to do your work for just a month, and
then fire him out at the end of that time. I
don’t like to lose you, but if you have an opportunity
to get in on another paper during this vacation of
yours, you’re at liberty to do so, for all of
me.”
“Then you think my chance of
coming back here would be pretty slim if I leave for
a month now?”
“That’s right.”
There was a silence. Condy hesitated; then he
rose.
“I’ll take the chance,” he announced.
To Blix, that evening, as he told
her of the affair, he said: “It’s
neck or nothing now, Blix.”