That year the spring burst over Chicago
in a prolonged scintillation of pallid green.
For weeks continually the sun shone. The Lake,
after persistently cherishing the greys and bitter
greens of the winter months, and the rugged white-caps
of the northeast gales, mellowed at length, turned
to a softened azure blue, and lapsed by degrees to
an unruffled calmness, incrusted with innumerable
coruscations.
In the parks, first of all, the buds
and earliest shoots asserted themselves. The
horse-chestnut bourgeons burst their sheaths to
spread into trefoils and flame-shaped leaves.
The elms, maples, and cottonwoods followed. The
sooty, blackened snow upon the grass plats, in the
residence quarters, had long since subsided, softening
the turf, filling the gutters with rivulets.
On all sides one saw men at work laying down the new
sod in rectangular patches.
There was a delicious smell of ripening
in the air, a smell of sap once more on the move,
of humid earths disintegrating from the winter rigidity,
of twigs and slender branches stretching themselves
under the returning warmth, elastic once more, straining
in their bark.
On the North Side, in Washington Square,
along the Lake-shore Drive, all up and down the Lincoln
Park Boulevard, and all through Erie, Huron, and Superior
streets, through North State Street, North Clarke
Street, and La Salle Avenue, the minute sparkling of
green flashed from tree top to tree top, like the
first kindling of dry twigs. One could almost
fancy that the click of igniting branch tips was audible
as whole beds of yellow-green sparks defined themselves
within certain elms and cottonwoods.
Every morning the sun invaded earlier
the east windows of Laura Dearborn’s bedroom.
Every day at noon it stood more nearly overhead above
her home. Every afternoon the checkered shadows
of the leaves thickened upon the drawn curtains of
the library. Within doors the bottle-green flies
came out of their lethargy and droned and bumped on
the panes. The double windows were removed, screens
and awnings took their places; the summer pieces were
put into the fireplaces.
All of a sudden vans invaded the streets,
piled high with mattresses, rocking-chairs, and bird
cages; the inevitable “spring moving” took
place. And these furniture vans alternated with
great trucks laden with huge elm trees on their way
from nursery to lawn. Families and trees alike
submitted to the impulse of transplanting, abandoning
the winter quarters, migrating with the spring to
newer environments, taking root in other soils.
Sparrows wrangled on the sidewalks and built ragged
nests in the interstices of cornice and coping.
In the parks one heard the liquid modulations of robins.
The florists’ wagons appeared, and from house
to house, from lawn to lawn, iron urns and window boxes
filled up with pansies, geraniums, fuchsias,
and trailing vines. The flower beds, stripped
of straw and manure, bloomed again, and at length
the great cottonwoods shed their berries, like clusters
of tiny grapes, over street and sidewalk.
At length came three days of steady
rain, followed by cloudless sunshine and full-bodied,
vigorous winds straight from out the south.
Instantly the living embers in tree
top and grass plat were fanned to flame. Like
veritable fire, the leaves blazed up. Branch after
branch caught and crackled; even the dryest, the deadest,
were enfolded in the resistless swirl of green.
Tree top ignited tree top; the parks and boulevards
were one smother of radiance. From end to end
and from side to side of the city, fed by the rains,
urged by the south winds, spread billowing and surging
the superb conflagration of the coming summer.
Then, abruptly, everything hung poised;
the leaves, the flowers, the grass, all at fullest
stretch, stood motionless, arrested, while the heat,
distilled, as it were, from all this seething green,
rose like a vast pillar over the city, and stood balanced
there in the iridescence of the sky, moveless and
immeasurable.
From time to time it appeared as if
this pillar broke in the guise of summer storms, and
came toppling down upon the city in tremendous détonations
of thunder and weltering avalanches of rain. But
it broke only to reform, and no sooner had the thunder
ceased, the rain intermitted, and the sun again come
forth, than one received the vague impression of the
swift rebuilding of the vast, invisible column that
smothered the city under its bases, towering higher
and higher into the rain-washed, crystal-clear atmosphere.
Then the aroma of wet dust, of drenched
pavements, musty, acute the unforgettable
exhalation of the city’s streets after a shower pervaded
all the air, and the little out-door activities resumed
again under the dripping elms and upon the steaming
sidewalks.
The evenings were delicious.
It was yet too early for the exodus northward to the
Wisconsin lakes, but to stay indoors after nightfall
was not to be thought of. After six o’clock,
all through the streets in the neighbourhood of the
Dearborns’ home, one could see the family groups
“sitting out” upon the front “stoop.”
Chairs were brought forth, carpets and rugs unrolled
upon the steps. From within, through the opened
windows of drawing-room and parlour, came the brisk
gaiety of pianos. The sidewalks were filled with
children clamouring at “tag,” “I-spy,”
or “run-sheep-run.” Girls in shirt-waists
and young men in flannel suits promenaded to and fro.
Visits were exchanged from “stoop” to
“stoop,” lemonade was served, and claret
punch. In their armchairs on the top step, elderly
men, householders, capitalists, well-to-do, their
large stomachs covered with white waistcoats, their
straw hats upon their knees, smoked very fragrant
cigars in silent enjoyment, digesting their dinners,
taking the air after the grime and hurry of the business
districts.
It was on such an evening as this,
well on towards the last days of the spring, that
Laura Dearborn and Page joined the Cresslers and their
party, sitting out like other residents of the neighbourhood
on the front steps of their house. Almost every
evening nowadays the Dearborn girls came thus to visit
with the Cresslers. Sometimes Page brought her
mandolin.
Every day of the warm weather seemed
only to increase the beauty of the two sisters.
Page’s brown hair was never more luxuriant, the
exquisite colouring of her cheeks never more charming,
the boyish outlines of her small, straight figure immature
and a little angular as yet never more
delightful. The seriousness of her straight-browed,
grave, grey-blue eyes was still present, but the eyes
themselves were, in some indefinable way, deepening,
and all the maturity that as yet was withheld from
her undeveloped little form looked out from beneath
her long lashes.
But Laura was veritably regal.
Very slender as yet, no trace of fulness to be seen
over hip or breast, the curves all low and flat, she
yet carried her extreme height with tranquil confidence,
the unperturbed assurance of a chatelaine of the days
of feudalism.
Her coal-black hair, high-piled, she
wore as if it were a coronet. The warmth of the
exuberant spring days had just perceptibly mellowed
the even paleness of her face, but to compensate for
this all the splendour of coming midsummer nights
flashed from her deep-brown eyes.
On this occasion she had put on her
coat over her shirt-waist, and a great bunch of violets
was tucked into her belt. But no sooner had she
exchanged greetings with the others and settled herself
in her place than she slipped her coat from her shoulders.
It was while she was doing this that
she noted, for the first time, Landry Court standing
half in and half out of the shadow of the vestibule
behind Mr. Cressler’s chair.
“This is the first time he has
been here since since that night,”
Mrs. Cressler hastened to whisper in Laura’s
ear. “He told me about well,
he told me what occurred, you know. He came to
dinner to-night, and afterwards the poor boy nearly
wept in my arms. You never saw such penitence.”
Laura put her chin in the air with
a little movement of incredulity. But her anger
had long since been a thing of the past. Good-tempered,
she could not cherish resentment very long. But
as yet she had greeted Landry only by the briefest
of nods.
“Such a warm night!” she
murmured, fanning herself with part of Mr. Cressler’s
evening paper. “And I never was so thirsty.”
“Why, of course,” exclaimed
Mrs. Cressler. “Isabel,” she called,
addressing Miss Gretry, who sat on the opposite side
of the steps, “isn’t the lemonade near
you? Fill a couple of glasses for Laura and Page.”
Page murmured her thanks, but Laura declined.
“No; just plain water for me,”
she said. “Isn’t there some inside?
Mr. Court can get it for me, can’t he?”
Landry brought the pitcher back, running at top speed
and spilling half of it in his eagerness. Laura
thanked him with a smile, addressing him, however,
by his last name. She somehow managed to convey
to him in her manner the information that though his
offence was forgotten, their old-time relations were
not, for one instant, to be resumed.
Later on, while Page was thrumming
her mandolin, Landry whistling a “second,”
Mrs. Cressler took occasion to remark to Laura:
“I was reading the Paris letter
in the ‘Inter-Ocean’ to-day, and I saw
Mr. Corthell’s name on the list of American arrivals
at the Continental. I guess,” she added,
“he’s going to be gone a long time.
I wonder sometimes if he will ever come back.
A fellow with his talent, I should imagine would find
Chicago well, less congenial, anyhow, than
Paris. But, just the same, I do think it was mean
of him to break up our play by going. I’ll
bet a cookie that he wouldn’t take part any
more just because you wouldn’t. He was just
crazy to do that love scene in the fourth act with
you. And when you wouldn’t play, of course
he wouldn’t; and then everybody seemed to lose
interest with you two out. ‘J.’ took
it all very decently though, don’t you think?”
Laura made a murmur of mild assent.
“He was disappointed, too,”
continued Mrs. Cressler. “I could see that.
He thought the play was going to interest a lot of
our church people in his Sunday-school. But he
never said a word when it fizzled out. Is he
coming to-night?”
“Well I declare,” said
Laura. “How should I know, if you don’t?”
Jadwin was an almost regular visitor
at the Cresslers’ during the first warm evenings.
He lived on the South Side, and the distance between
his home and that of the Cresslers was very considerable.
It was seldom, however, that Jadwin did not drive
over. He came in his double-seated buggy, his
negro coachman beside him the two coach dogs, “Rex”
and “Rox,” trotting under the rear axle.
His horses were not showy, nor were they made conspicuous
by elaborate boots, bandages, and all the other solemn
paraphernalia of the stable, yet men upon the sidewalks,
amateurs, breeders, and the like men who
understood good stock never failed to stop
to watch the team go by, heads up, the check rein
swinging loose, ears all alert, eyes all alight, the
breath deep, strong, and slow, and the stride, machine-like,
even as the swing of a metronome, thrown out from
the shoulder to knee, snapped on from knee to fetlock,
from fetlock to pastern, finishing squarely, beautifully,
with the thrust of the hoof, planted an instant, then,
as it were, flinging the roadway behind it, snatched
up again, and again cast forward.
On these occasions Jadwin himself
inevitably wore a black “slouch” hat,
suggestive of the general of the Civil War, a grey
“dust overcoat” with a black velvet collar,
and tan gloves, discoloured with the moisture of his
palms and all twisted and crumpled with the strain
of holding the thoroughbreds to their work.
He always called the time of the trip
from the buggy at the Cresslers’ horse block,
his stop watch in his hand, and, as he joined the groups
upon the steps, he was almost sure to remark:
“Tugs were loose all the way from the river.
They pulled the whole rig by the reins. My hands
are about dislocated.”
“Page plays very well,”
murmured Mrs. Cressler as the young girl laid down
her mandolin. “I hope J. does come to-night,”
she added. “I love to have him ’round.
He’s so hearty and whole-souled.”
Laura did not reply. She seemed
a little preoccupied this evening, and conversation
in the group died away. The night was very beautiful,
serene, quiet; and, at this particular hour of the
end of the twilight, no one cared to talk much.
Cressler lit another cigar, and the filaments of delicate
blue smoke hung suspended about his head in the moveless
air. Far off, from the direction of the mouth
of the river, a lake steamer whistled a prolonged
tenor note. Somewhere from an open window in
one of the neighbouring houses a violin, accompanied
by a piano, began to elaborate the sustained phrases
of “Schubert’s Serenade.” Theatrical
as was the theme, the twilight and the muffled hum
of the city, lapsing to quiet after the febrile activities
of the day, combined to lend it a dignity, a persuasiveness.
The children were still playing along the sidewalks,
and their staccato gaiety was part of the quiet note
to which all sounds of the moment seemed chorded.
After a while Mrs. Cressler began
to talk to Laura in a low voice. She and Charlie
were going to spend a part of June at Oconomowoc, in
Wisconsin. Why could not Laura make up her mind
to come with them? She had asked Laura a dozen
times already, but couldn’t get a yes or no
answer from her. What was the reason she could
not decide? Didn’t she think she would
have a good time?
“Page can go,” said Laura.
“I would like to have you take her. But
as for me, I don’t know. My plans are so
unsettled this summer.” She broke off suddenly.
“Oh, now, that I think of it, I want to borrow
your ‘Idylls of the King.’ May I
take it for a day or two? I’ll run in and
get it now,” she added as she rose. “I
know just where to find it. No, please sit still,
Mr. Cressler. I’ll go.”
And with the words she disappeared
in doors, leaving Mrs. Cressler to murmur to her husband:
“Strange girl. Sometimes
I think I don’t know Laura at all. She’s
so inconsistent. How funny she acts about going
to Oconomowoc with us!”
Mr. Cressler permitted himself an
amiable grunt of protest.
“Pshaw! Laura’s all
right. The handsomest girl in Cook County.”
“Well, that’s not much
to do with it, Charlie,” sighed Mrs. Cressler.
“Oh, dear,” she added vaguely. “I
don’t know.”
“Don’t know what?”
“I hope Laura’s life will be happy.”
“Oh, for God’s sake, Carrie!”
“There’s something about
that girl,” continued Mrs. Cressler, “that
makes my heart bleed for her.”
Cressler frowned, puzzled and astonished.
“Hey what!” he exclaimed.
“You’re crazy, Carrie!”
“Just the same,” persisted
Mrs. Cressler, “I just yearn towards her sometimes
like a mother. Some people are born to trouble,
Charlie; born to trouble, as the sparks fly upward.
And you mark my words, Charlie Cressler, Laura is
that sort. There’s all the pathos in the
world in just the way she looks at you from under
all that black, black hair, and out of her eyes the
saddest eyes sometimes, great, sad, mournful eyes.”
“Fiddlesticks!” said Mr. Cressler, resuming
his paper.
“I’m positive that Sheldon
Corthell asked her to marry him,” mused Mrs.
Cressler after a moment’s silence. “I’m
sure that’s why he left so suddenly.”
Her husband grunted grimly as he turned
his paper so as to catch the reflection of the vestibule
light.
“Don’t you think so, Charlie?”
“Uh! I don’t know. I never had
much use for that fellow, anyhow.”
“He’s wonderfully talented,”
she commented, “and so refined. He always
had the most beautiful manners. Did you ever notice
his hands?”
“I thought they were like a
barber’s. Put him in ‘J.’s’
rig there, behind those horses of his, and how long
do you suppose he’d hold those trotters with
that pair of hands? Why,” he blustered,
suddenly, “they’d pull him right over
the dashboard.”
“Poor little Landry Court!”
murmured his wife, lowering her voice. “He’s
just about heart-broken. He wanted to marry her
too. My goodness, she must have brought him up
with a round turn. I can see Laura when she is
really angry. Poor fellow!”
“If you women would let that
boy alone, he might amount to something.”
“He told me his life was ruined.”
Cressler threw his cigar from him with vast impatience.
“Oh, rot!” he muttered.
“He took it terribly, seriously, Charlie, just
the same.”
“I’d like to take that
young boy in hand and shake some of the nonsense out
of him that you women have filled him with. He’s
got a level head. On the floor every day, and
never yet bought a hatful of wheat on his own account.
Don’t know the meaning of speculation and don’t
want to. There’s a boy with some sense.”
“It’s just as well,”
persisted Mrs. Cressler reflectively, “that Laura
wouldn’t have him. Of course they’re
not made for each other. But I thought that Corthell
would have made her happy. But she won’t
ever marry ‘J.’ He asked her to;
she didn’t tell me, but I know he did. And
she’s refused him flatly. She won’t
marry anybody, she says. Said she didn’t
love anybody, and never would. I’d have
loved to have seen her married to ‘J.,’
but I can see now that they wouldn’t have been
congenial; and if Laura wouldn’t have Sheldon
Corthell, who was just made for her, I guess it was
no use to expect she’d have ‘J.’
Laura’s got a temperament, and she’s artistic,
and loves paintings, and poetry, and Shakespeare,
and all that, and Curtis don’t care for those
things at all. They wouldn’t have had anything
in common. But Corthell that was different.
And Laura did care for him, in a way. He interested
her immensely. When he’d get started on
art subjects Laura would just hang on every word.
My lands, I wouldn’t have gone away if I’d
been in his boots. You mark my words, Charlie,
there was the man for Laura Dearborn, and she’ll
marry him yet, or I’ll miss my guess.”
“That’s just like you,
Carrie you and the rest of the women,”
exclaimed Cressler, “always scheming to marry
each other off. Why don’t you let the girl
alone? Laura’s all right. She minds
her own business, and she’s perfectly happy.
But you’d go to work and get up a sensation
about her, and say that your ‘heart bleeds for
her,’ and that she’s born to trouble,
and has sad eyes. If she gets into trouble it’ll
be because some one else makes it for her. You
take my advice, and let her paddle her own canoe.
She’s got the head to do it; don’t you
worry about that. By the way ”
Cressler interrupted himself, seizing the opportunity
to change the subject. “By the way, Carrie,
Curtis has been speculating again. I’m
sure of it.”
“Too bad,” she murmured.
“So it is,” Cressler went
on. “He and Gretry are thick as thieves
these days. Gretry, I understand, has been selling
September wheat for him all last week, and only this
morning they closed out another scheme some
corn game. It was all over the Floor just about
closing time. They tell me that Curtis landed
between eight and ten thousand. Always seems
to win. I’d give a lot to keep him out of
it; but since his deal in May wheat he’s been
getting into it more and more.”
“Did he sell that property on
Washington Street?” she inquired.
“Oh,” exclaimed her husband,
“I’d forgot. I meant to tell you.
No, he didn’t sell it. But he did better.
He wouldn’t sell, and those department store
people took a lease. Guess what they pay him.
Three hundred thousand a year. ‘J.’
is getting richer all the time, and why he can’t
be satisfied with his own business instead of monkeying
’round La Salle Street is a mystery to me.”
But, as Mrs. Cressler was about to
reply, Laura came to the open window of the parlour.
“Oh, Mrs. Cressler,” she
called, “I don’t seem to find your ‘Idylls’
after all. I thought they were in the little book-case.”
“Wait. I’ll find them for you,”
exclaimed Mrs. Cressler.
“Would you mind?” answered Laura, as Mrs.
Cressler rose.
Inside, the gas had not been lighted.
The library was dark and cool, and when Mrs. Cressler
had found the book for Laura the girl pleaded a headache
as an excuse for remaining within. The two sat
down by the raised sash of a window at the side of
the house, that overlooked the “side yard,”
where the morning-glories and nasturtiums were in full
bloom.
“The house is cooler, isn’t it?”
observed Mrs. Cressler.
Laura settled herself in her wicker
chair, and with a gesture that of late had become
habitual with her pushed her heavy coils of hair to
one side and patted them softly to place.
“It is getting warmer, I do
believe,” she said, rather listlessly. “I
understand it is to be a very hot summer.”
Then she added, “I’m to be married in
July, Mrs. Cressler.”
Mrs. Cressler gasped, and sitting
bolt upright stared for one breathless instant at
Laura’s face, dimly visible in the darkness.
Then, stupefied, she managed to vociferate:
“What! Laura! Married? My darling
girl!”
“Yes,” answered Laura calmly. “In
July or maybe sooner.”
“Why, I thought you had rejected
Mr. Corthell. I thought that’s why he went
away.”
“Went away? He never went
away. I mean it’s not Mr. Corthell.
It’s Mr. Jadwin.”
“Thank God!” declared
Mrs. Cressler fervently, and with the words kissed
Laura on both cheeks. “My dear, dear child,
you can’t tell how glad I am. From the
very first I’ve said you were made for one another.
And I thought all the time that you’d told him
you wouldn’t have him.”
“I did,” said Laura.
Her manner was quiet. She seemed a little grave.
“I told him I did not love him. Only last
week I told him so.”
“Well, then, why did you promise?”
“My goodness!” exclaimed
Laura, with a show of animation. “You don’t
realize what it’s been. Do you suppose you
can say ‘no’ to that man?”
“Of course not, of course not,”
declared Mrs. Cressler joyfully. “That’s
‘J.’ all over. I might have known
he’d have you if he set out to do it.”
“Morning, noon, and night,”
Laura continued. “He seemed willing to wait
as long as I wasn’t definite; but one day I wrote
to him and gave him a square ‘No,’ so
as he couldn’t mistake, and just as soon as I’d
said that he he began.
I didn’t have any peace until I’d promised
him, and the moment I had promised he had a ring on
my finger. He’d had it ready in his pocket
for weeks it seems. No,” she explained,
as Mrs. Cressler laid her fingers upon her left hand,
“That I would not have yet.”
“Oh, it was like ‘J.’
to be persistent,” repeated Mrs. Cressler.
“Persistent!” murmured
Laura. “He simply wouldn’t talk of
anything else. It was making him sick, he said.
And he did have a fever often. But
he would come out to see me just the same. One
night, when it was pouring rain Well, I’ll
tell you. He had been to dinner with us, and
afterwards, in the drawing-room, I told him ‘no’
for the hundredth time just as plainly as I could,
and he went away early it wasn’t eight.
I thought that now at last he had given up. But
he was back again before ten the same evening.
He said he had come back to return a copy of a book
I had loaned him ’Jane Eyre’
it was. Raining! I never saw it rain as
it did that night. He was drenched, and even at
dinner he had had a low fever. And then I was
sorry for him. I told him he could come to see
me again. I didn’t propose to have him come
down with pneumonia, or typhoid, or something.
And so it all began over again.”
“But you loved him, Laura?”
demanded Mrs. Cressler. “You love him now?”
Laura was silent. Then at length:
“I don’t know,” she answered.
“Why, of course you love him,
Laura,” insisted Mrs. Cressler. “You
wouldn’t have promised him if you hadn’t.
Of course you love him, don’t you?”
“Yes, I I suppose
I must love him, or as you say I
wouldn’t have promised to marry him. He
does everything, every little thing I say. He
just seems to think of nothing else but to please me
from morning until night. And when I finally
said I would marry him, why, Mrs. Cressler, he choked
all up, and the tears ran down his face, and all he
could say was, ‘May God bless you! May
God bless you!’ over and over again, and his
hand shook so that Oh, well,” she
broke off abruptly. Then added, “Somehow
it makes tears come to my eyes to think of it.”
“But, Laura,” urged Mrs.
Cressler, “you love Curtis, don’t you?
You you’re such a strange girl sometimes.
Dear child, talk to me as though I were your mother.
There’s no one in the world loves you more than
I do. You love Curtis, don’t you?”
Laura hesitated a long moment.
“Yes,” she said, slowly
at length. “I think I love him very much sometimes.
And then sometimes I think I don’t. I can’t
tell. There are days when I’m sure of it,
and there are others when I wonder if I want to be
married, after all. I thought when love came it
was to be oh, uplifting, something glorious
like Juliet’s love or Marguerite’s.
Something that would ” Suddenly she
struck her hand to her breast, her fingers shut tight,
closing to a fist. “Oh, something that
would shake me all to pieces. I thought that was
the only kind of love there was.”
“Oh, that’s what you read
about in trashy novels,” Mrs. Cressler assured
her, “or the kind you see at the matinées.
I wouldn’t let that bother me, Laura. There’s
no doubt that ‘J.’ loves you.”
Laura brightened a little. “Oh,
no,” she answered, “there’s no doubt
about that. It’s splendid, that part of
it. He seems to think there’s nothing in
the world too good for me. Just imagine, only
yesterday I was saying something about my gloves,
I really forget what something about how
hard it was for me to get the kind of gloves I liked.
Would you believe it, he got me to give him my measure,
and when I saw him in the evening he told me he had
cabled to Brussels to some famous glovemaker and had
ordered I don’t know how many pairs.”
“Just like him, just like him!”
cried Mrs. Cressler. “I know you will be
happy, Laura, dear. You can’t help but be
with a man who loves you as ‘J.’ does.”
“I think I shall be happy,”
answered Laura, suddenly grave. “Oh, Mrs.
Cressler, I want to be. I hope that I won’t
come to myself some day, after it is too late, and
find that it was all a mistake.” Her voice
shook a little. “You don’t know how
nervous I am these days. One minute I am one
kind of girl, and the next another kind. I’m
so nervous and oh, I don’t know.
Oh, I guess it will be all right.” She wiped
her eyes, and laughed a note. “I don’t
see why I should cry about it,” she murmured.
“Well, Laura,” answered
Mrs. Cressler, “if you don’t love Curtis,
don’t marry him. That’s very simple.”
“It’s like this, Mrs.
Cressler,” Laura explained. “I suppose
I am very uncharitable and unchristian, but I like
the people that like me, and I hate those that don’t
like me. I can’t help it. I know it’s
wrong, but that’s the way I am. And I love
to be loved. The man that would love me the most
would make me love him. And when Mr. Jadwin seems
to care so much, and do so much, and you
know how I mean; it does make a difference of course.
I suppose I care as much for Mr. Jadwin as I ever
will care for any man. I suppose I must be cold
and unemotional.”
Mrs. Cressler could not restrain a movement of surprise.
“You unemotional? Why,
I thought you just said, Laura, that you had imagined
love would be like Juliet and like that girl in ’Faust’ that
it was going to shake you all to pieces.”
“Did I say that? Well,
I told you I was one girl one minute and another another.
I don’t know myself these days. Oh, hark,”
she said, abruptly, as the cadence of hoofs began
to make itself audible from the end of the side street.
“That’s the team now. I could recognise
those horses’ trot as far as I could hear it.
Let’s go out. I know he would like to have
me there when he drives up. And you know” she
put her hand on Mrs. Cressler’s arm as the two
moved towards the front door “this
is all absolutely a secret as yet.”
“Why, of course, Laura dear.
But tell me just one thing more,” Mrs. Cressler
asked, in a whisper, “are you going to have a
church wedding?”
“Hey, Carrie,” called
Mr. Cressler from the stoop, “here’s J.”
Laura shook her head.
“No, I want it to be very quiet at
our house. We’ll go to Geneva Lake for
the summer. That’s why, you see, I couldn’t
promise to go to Oconomowoc with you.”
They came out upon the front steps,
Mrs. Cressler’s arm around Laura’s waist.
It was dark by now, and the air was perceptibly warmer.
The team was swinging down the street
close at hand, the hoof beats exactly timed, as if
there were but one instead of two horses.
“Well, what’s the record
to-night J.?” cried Cressler, as Jadwin brought
the bays to a stand at the horse block. Jadwin
did not respond until he had passed the reins to the
coachman, and taking the stop watch from the latter’s
hand, he drew on his cigar, and held the glowing tip
to the dial.
“Eleven minutes and a quarter,”
he announced, “and we had to wait for the bridge
at that.”
He came up the steps, fanning himself
with his slouch hat, and dropped into the chair that
Landry had brought for him.
“Upon my word,” he exclaimed,
gingerly drawing off his driving gloves, “I’ve
no feeling in my fingers at all. Those fellows
will pull my hands clean off some day.”
But he was hardly settled in his place
before he proposed to send the coachman home, and
to take Laura for a drive towards Lincoln Park, and
even a little way into the park itself. He promised
to have her back within an hour.
“I haven’t any hat,”
objected Laura. “I should love to go, but
I ran over here to-night without any hat.”
“Well, I wouldn’t let
that stand in my way, Laura,” protested Mrs.
Cressler. “It will be simply heavenly in
the Park on such a night as this.”
In the end Laura borrowed Page’s
hat, and Jadwin took her away. In the light of
the street lamps Mrs. Cressler and the others watched
them drive off, sitting side by side behind the fine
horses. Jadwin, broad-shouldered, a fresh cigar
in his teeth, each rein in a double turn about his
large, hard hands; Laura, slim, erect, pale, her black,
thick hair throwing a tragic shadow low upon her forehead.
“A fine-looking couple,”
commented Mr. Cressler as they disappeared.
The hoof beats died away, the team
vanished. Landry Court, who stood behind the
others, watching, turned to Mrs. Cressler. She
thought she detected a little unsteadiness in his
voice, but he repeated bravely:
“Yes, yes, that’s right.
They are a fine, a a fine-looking couple
together, aren’t they? A fine-looking couple,
to say the least.”
A week went by, then two, soon May
had passed. On the fifteenth of that month Laura’s
engagement to Curtis Jadwin was formally announced.
The day of the wedding was set for the first week
in June.
During this time Laura was never more
changeable, more puzzling. Her vivacity seemed
suddenly to have been trebled, but it was invaded
frequently by strange reactions and perversities that
drove her friends and family to distraction.
About a week after her talk with Mrs.
Cressler, Laura broke the news to Page. It was
a Monday morning. She had spent the time since
breakfast in putting her bureau drawers to rights,
scattering sachet powders in them, then leaving them
open so as to perfume the room. At last she came
into the front “upstairs sitting-room,”
a heap of gloves, stockings, collarettes the
odds and ends of a wildly disordered wardrobe in
her lap. She tumbled all these upon the hearth
rug, and sat down upon the floor to sort them carefully.
At her little desk near by, Page, in a blue and white
shirt waist and golf skirt, her slim little ankles
demurely crossed, a cone of foolscap over her forearm
to guard against ink spots, was writing in her journal.
This was an interminable affair, voluminous, complex,
that the young girl had kept ever since she was fifteen.
She wrote in it she hardly knew what the
small doings of the previous day, her comings and goings,
accounts of dances, estimates of new acquaintances.
But besides this she filled page after page with “impressions,”
“outpourings,” queer little speculations
about her soul, quotations from poets, solemn criticisms
of new novels, or as often as not mere purposeless
meanderings of words, exclamatory, rhapsodic involved
lucubrations quite meaningless and futile, but which
at times she re-read with vague thrills of emotion
and mystery.
On this occasion Page wrote rapidly
and steadily for a few moments after Laura’s
entrance into the room. Then she paused, her eyes
growing wide and thoughtful. She wrote another
line and paused again. Seated on the floor, her
hands full of gloves, Laura was murmuring to herself.
“Those are good ... and those,
and the black suèdes make eight....
And if I could only find the mate to this white one....
Ah, here it is. That makes nine, nine pair.”
She put the gloves aside, and turning
to the stockings drew one of the silk ones over her
arm, and spread out her fingers in the foot.
“Oh, dear,” she whispered,
“there’s a thread started, and now it will
simply run the whole length....”
Page’s scratching paused again.
“Laura,” she asked dreamily, “Laura,
how do you spell ’abysmal’?”
“With a y, honey,” answered Laura, careful
not to smile.
“Oh, Laura,” asked Page,
“do you ever get very, very sad without knowing
why?”
“No, indeed,” answered
her sister, as she peeled the stocking from her arm.
“When I’m sad I know just the reason, you
may be sure.”
Page sighed again.
“Oh, I don’t know,”
she murmured indefinitely. “I lie awake
at night sometimes and wish I were dead.”
“You mustn’t get morbid,
honey,” answered her older sister calmly.
“It isn’t natural for a young healthy
little body like you to have such gloomy notions.”
“Last night,” continued
Page, “I got up out of bed and sat by the window
a long time. And everything was so still and beautiful,
and the moonlight and all and I said right
out loud to myself,
“My breath to Heaven in vapour goes
You know those lines from Tennyson:
“My breath to Heaven
in vapour goes,
May my soul follow soon.”
I said it right out loud just like
that, and it was just as though something in me had
spoken. I got my journal and wrote down, ’Yet
in a few days, and thee, the all-beholding sun shall
see no more.’ It’s from Thanatopsis,
you know, and I thought how beautiful it would be to
leave all this world, and soar and soar, right up
to higher planes and be at peace. Laura, dearest,
do you think I ever ought to marry?”
“Why not, girlie? Why shouldn’t
you marry. Of course you’ll marry some
day, if you find ”
“I should like to be a nun,”
Page interrupted, shaking her head, mournfully.
“ if you find the
man who loves you,” continued Laura, “and
whom you you admire and respect whom
you love. What would you say, honey, if if
your sister, if I should be married some of these days?”
Page wheeled about in her chair.
“Oh, Laura, tell me,”
she cried, “are you joking? Are you going
to be married? Who to? I hadn’t an
idea, but I thought I suspected.”
“Well,” observed Laura,
slowly, “I might as well tell you some
one will if I don’t Mr. Jadwin wants
me to marry him.”
“And what did you say?
What did you say? Oh, I’ll never tell.
Oh, Laura, tell me all about it.”
“Well, why shouldn’t I
marry him? Yes I promised. I said
yes. Why shouldn’t I? He loves me,
and he is rich. Isn’t that enough?”
“Oh, no. It isn’t. You must
love you do love him?”
“I? Love? Pooh!” cried Laura.
“Indeed not. I love nobody.”
“Oh, Laura,” protested
Page earnestly. “Don’t, don’t
talk that way. You mustn’t. It’s
wicked.”
Laura put her head in the air.
“I wouldn’t give any man
that much satisfaction. I think that is the way
it ought to be. A man ought to love a woman more
than she loves him. It ought to be enough for
him if she lets him give her everything she wants
in the world. He ought to serve her like the old
knights give up his whole life to satisfy
some whim of hers; and it’s her part, if she
likes, to be cold and distant. That’s my
idea of love.”
“Yes, but they weren’t
cold and proud to their knights after they’d
promised to marry them,” urged Page. “They
loved them in the end, and married them for love.”
“Oh, ’love’!”
mocked Laura. “I don’t believe in
love. You only get your ideas of it from trashy
novels and matinées. Girlie,” cried
Laura, “I am going to have the most beautiful
gowns. They’re the last things that Miss
Dearborn shall buy for herself, and” she
fetched a long breath “I tell you
they are going to be creations.”
When at length the lunch bell rang
Laura jumped to her feet, adjusting her coiffure with
thrusts of her long, white hands, the fingers extended,
and ran from the room exclaiming that the whole morning
had gone and that half her bureau drawers were still
in disarray.
Page, left alone, sat for a long time
lost in thought, sighing deeply at intervals, then
at last she wrote in her journal:
“A world without Love oh,
what an awful thing that would be. Oh, love is
so beautiful so beautiful, that it makes
me sad. When I think of love in all its beauty
I am sad, sad like Romola in George Eliot’s
well-known novel of the same name.”
She locked up her journal in the desk
drawer, and wiped her pen point until it shone, upon
a little square of chamois skin. Her writing-desk
was a miracle of neatness, everything in its precise
place, the writing-paper in geometrical parallelograms,
the pen tray neatly polished.
On the hearth rug, where Laura had
sat, Page’s searching eye discovered traces
of her occupancy a glove button, a white
thread, a hairpin. Page was at great pains to
gather them up carefully and drop them into the waste
basket.
“Laura is so fly-away,” she observed,
soberly.
When Laura told the news to Aunt Wess’
the little old lady showed no surprise.
“I’ve been expecting it
of late,” she remarked. “Well, Laura,
Mr. Jadwin is a man of parts. Though, to tell
the truth, I thought at first it was to be that Mr.
Corthell. He always seemed so distinguished-looking
and elegant. I suppose now that that young Mr.
Court will have a regular conniption fit.”
“Oh, Landry,” murmured Laura.
“Where are you going to live,
Laura? Here? My word, child, don’t
be afraid to tell me I must pack. Why, bless
you.”
“No, no,” exclaimed Laura,
energetically, “you are to stay right here.
We’ll talk it all over just as soon as I know
more decidedly what our plans are to be. No,
we won’t live here. Mr. Jadwin is going
to buy a new house on the corner of North
Avenue and State Street. It faces Lincoln Park you
know it, the Farnsworth place.”
“Why, my word, Laura,”
cried Aunt Wess’ amazed, “why, it’s
a palace! Of course I know it. Why, it takes
in the whole block, child, and there’s a conservatory
pretty near as big as this house. Well!”
“Yes, I know,” answered
Laura, shaking her head. “It takes my breath
away sometimes. Mr. Jadwin tells me there’s
an art gallery, too, with an organ in it a
full-sized church organ. Think of it. Isn’t
it beautiful, beautiful? Isn’t it a happiness?
And I’ll have my own carriage and coupe, and
oh, Aunt Wess’, a saddle horse if I want to,
and a box at the opera, and a country place that
is to be bought day after to-morrow. It’s
at Geneva Lake. We’re to go there after
we are married, and Mr. Jadwin has bought the dearest,
loveliest, daintiest little steam yacht. He showed
the photograph of her yesterday. Oh, honey, honey!
It all comes over me sometimes. Think, only a
year ago, less than that, I was vegetating there at
Barrington, among those wretched old blue-noses, helping
Martha with the preserves and all and all; and now” she
threw her arms wide “I’m just
going to live. Think of it, that beautiful house,
and servants, and carriages, and paintings, and, oh,
honey, how I will dress the part!”
“But I wouldn’t think
of those things so much, Laura,” answered Aunt
Wess’, rather seriously. “Child, you
are not marrying him for carriages and organs and
saddle horses and such. You’re marrying
this Mr. Jadwin because you love him. Aren’t
you?”
“Oh,” cried Laura, “I
would marry a ragamuffin if he gave me all these things gave
them to me because he loved me.”
Aunt Wess’ stared. “I
wouldn’t talk that way, Laura,” she remarked.
“Even in fun. At least not before Page.”
That same evening Jadwin came to dinner
with the two sisters and their aunt. The usual
evening drive with Laura was foregone for this occasion.
Jadwin had stayed very late at his office, and from
there was to come direct to the Dearborns. Besides
that, Nip the trotters were named Nip and
Tuck was lame.
As early as four o’clock in
the afternoon Laura, suddenly moved by an unreasoning
caprice, began to prepare an elaborate toilet.
Not since the opera night had she given so much attention
to her appearance. She sent out for an extraordinary
quantity of flowers; flowers for the table, flowers
for Page and Aunt Wess’, great “American
beauties” for her corsage, and a huge bunch
of violets for the bowl in the library. She insisted
that Page should wear her smartest frock, and Mrs.
Wessels her grenadine of great occasions. As
for herself, she decided upon a dinner gown of black,
decollete, with sleeves of lace. Her hair she
dressed higher than ever. She resolved upon wearing
all her jewelry, and to that end put on all her rings,
secured the roses in place with an amethyst brooch,
caught up the little locks at the back of her head
with a heart-shaped pin of tiny diamonds, and even
fastened the ribbon of satin that girdled her waist,
with a clasp of flawed turquoises.
Until five in the afternoon she was
in the gayest spirits, and went down to the dining-room
to supervise the setting of the table, singing to
herself.
Then, almost at the very last, when
Jadwin might be expected at any moment, her humour
changed again, and again, for no discoverable reason.
Page, who came into her sister’s
room after dressing, to ask how she looked, found
her harassed and out of sorts. She was moody,
spoke in monosyllables, and suddenly declared that
the wearing anxiety of house-keeping was driving her
to distraction. Of all days in the week, why
had Jadwin chosen this particular one to come to dinner.
Men had no sense, could not appreciate a woman’s
difficulties. Oh, she would be glad when the
evening was over.
Then, as an ultimate disaster, she
declared that she herself looked “Dutchy.”
There was no style, no smartness to her dress; her
hair was arranged unbecomingly; she was growing thin,
peaked. In a word, she looked “Dutchy.”
All at once she flung off her roses
and dropped into a chair.
“I will not go down to-night,”
she cried. “You and Aunt Wess’ must
make out to receive Mr. Jadwin. I simply will
not see any one to-night, Mr. Jadwin least of all.
Tell him I’m gone to bed sick which
is the truth, I am going to bed, my head is splitting.”
All persuasion, entreaty, or cajolery
availed nothing. Neither Page nor Aunt Wess’
could shake her decision. At last Page hazarded
a remonstrance to the effect that if she had known
that Laura was not going to be at dinner she would
not have taken such pains with her own toilet.
Promptly thereat Laura lost her temper.
“I do declare, Page,”
she exclaimed, “it seems to me that I get very
little thanks for ever taking any interest in your
personal appearance. There is not a girl in Chicago no
millionaire’s daughter has any prettier
gowns than you. I plan and plan, and go to the
most expensive dressmakers so that you will be well
dressed, and just as soon as I dare to express the
desire to see you appear like a gentlewoman, I get
it thrown in my face. And why do I do it?
I’m sure I don’t know. It’s
because I’m a poor weak, foolish, indulgent sister.
I’ve given up the idea of ever being loved by
you; but I do insist on being respected.”
Laura rose, stately, severe. It was the “grand
manner” now, unequivocally, unmistakably.
“I do insist upon being respected,” she
repeated. “It would be wrong and wicked
of me to allow you to ignore and neglect my every
wish. I’ll not have it, I’ll not tolerate
it.”
Page, aroused, indignant, disdained
an answer, but drew in her breath and held it hard,
her lips tight pressed.
“It’s all very well for
you to pose, miss,” Laura went on; “to
pose as injured innocence. But you understand
very well what I mean. If you don’t love
me, at least I shall not allow you to flout me deliberately,
defiantly. And it does seem strange,” she
added, her voice beginning to break, “that when
we two are all alone in the world, when there’s
no father or mother and you are all I have,
and when I love you as I do, that there might be on
your part a little consideration when
I only want to be loved for my own sake, and not and
not when I want to be, oh, loved loved loved ”
The two sisters were in each other’s
arms by now, and Page was crying no less than Laura.
“Oh, little sister,” exclaimed
Laura, “I know you love me. I know you
do. I didn’t mean to say that. You
must forgive me and be very kind to me these days.
I know I’m cross, but sometimes these days I’m
so excited and nervous I can’t help it, and
you must try to bear with me. Hark, there’s
the bell.”
Listening, they heard the servant
open the door, and then the sound of Jadwin’s
voice and the clank of his cane in the porcelain cane
rack. But still Laura could not be persuaded
to go down. No, she was going to bed; she had
neuralgia; she was too nervous to so much as think.
Her gown was “Dutchy.” And in the
end, so unshakable was her resolve, that Page and
her aunt had to sit through the dinner with Jadwin
and entertain him as best they could.
But as the coffee was being served
the three received a genuine surprise. Laura
appeared. All her finery was laid off. She
wore the simplest, the most veritably monastic, of
her dresses, plain to the point of severity.
Her hands were bare of rings. Not a single jewel,
not even the most modest ornament relieved her sober
appearance. She was very quiet, spoke in a low
voice and declared she had come down only to drink
a glass of mineral water and then to return at once
to her room.
As a matter of fact, she did nothing
of the kind. The others prevailed upon her to
take a cup of coffee. Then the dessert was recalled,
and, forgetting herself in an animated discussion
with Jadwin as to the name of their steam yacht, she
ate two plates of wine jelly before she was aware.
She expressed a doubt as to whether a little salad
would do her good, and after a vehement exhortation
from Jadwin, allowed herself to be persuaded into
accepting a sufficiently generous amount.
“I think a classical name would
be best for the boat,” she declared. “Something
like ‘Arethusa’ or ‘The Nereid.’”
They rose from the table and passed
into the library. The evening was sultry, threatening
a rain-storm, and they preferred not to sit on the
“stoop.” Jadwin lit a cigar; he still
wore his business clothes the inevitable
“cutaway,” white waistcoat, and grey trousers
of the middle-aged man of affairs.
“Oh, call her the ‘Artemis,’”
suggested Page.
“Well now, to tell the truth,”
observed Jadwin, “those names look pretty in
print; but somehow I don’t fancy them. They’re
hard to read, and they sound somehow frilled up and
fancy. But if you’re satisfied, Laura ”
“I knew a young man once,”
began Aunt Wess’, “who had a boat that
was when we lived at Kenwood and Mr. Wessels belonged
to the ’Farragut’ and this
young man had a boat he called ‘Fanchon.’
He got tipped over in her one day, he and the three
daughters of a lady I knew well, and two days afterward
they found them at the bottom of the lake, all holding
on to each other; and they fetched them up just like
that in one piece. The mother of those girls
never smiled once since that day, and her hair turned
snow white. That was in ’seventy-nine.
I remember it perfectly. The boat’s name
was ‘Fanchon.’”
“But that was a sail boat, Aunt
Wess’,” objected Laura. “Ours
is a steam yacht. There’s all the difference
in the world.”
“I guess they’re all pretty
risky, those pleasure boats,” answered Aunt
Wess’. “My word, you couldn’t
get me to set foot on one.”
Jadwin nodded his head at Laura, his eyes twinkling.
“Well, we’ll leave ’em all at home,
Laura, when we go,” he said.
A little later one of Page’s
“young men” called to see her, and Page
took him off into the drawing-room across the hall.
Mrs. Wessels seized upon the occasion to slip away
unobserved, and Laura and Jadwin were left alone.
“Well, my girl,” began Jadwin, “how’s
the day gone with you?”
She had been seated at the centre
table, by the drop light the only light
in the room turning over the leaves of “The
Age of Fable,” looking for graceful and appropriate
names for the yacht. Jadwin leaned over her and
put his hand upon her shoulder.
“Oh, about the same as usual,”
she answered. “I told Page and Aunt Wess’
this morning.”
“What did they have to say?”
Jadwin laid a soft but clumsy hand upon Laura’s
head, adding, “Laura, you have the most wonderful
hair I ever saw.”
“Oh, they were not surprised.
Curtis, don’t, you are mussing me.”
She moved her head impatiently; but then smiling,
as if to mitigate her abruptness, said, “It
always makes me nervous to have my hair touched.
No, they were not surprised; unless it was that we
were to be married so soon. They were surprised
at that. You know I always said it was too soon.
Why not put it off, Curtis until the winter?”
But he scouted this, and then, as
she returned to the subject again, interrupted her,
drawing some papers from his pocket.
“Oh, by the way,” he said,
“here are the sketch plans for the alterations
of the house at Geneva. The contractor brought
them to the office to-day. He’s made that
change about the dining-room.”
“Oh,” exclaimed Laura,
interested at once, “you mean about building
on the conservatory?”
“Hum no,” answered
Jadwin a little slowly. “You see, Laura,
the difficulty is in getting the thing done this summer.
When we go up there we want everything finished, don’t
we? We don’t want a lot of workmen clattering
around. I thought maybe we could wait about that
conservatory till next year, if you didn’t mind.”
Laura acquiesced readily enough, but
Jadwin could see that she was a little disappointed.
Thoughtful, he tugged his mustache in silence for
a moment. Perhaps, after all, it could be arranged.
Then an idea presented itself to him. Smiling
a little awkwardly, he said:
“Laura, I tell you what. I’ll make
a bargain with you.”
She looked up as he hesitated.
Jadwin sat down at the table opposite her and leaned
forward upon his folded arms.
“Do you know,” he began,
“I happened to think Well, here’s
what I mean,” he suddenly declared decisively.
“Do you know, Laura, that ever since we’ve
been engaged you’ve never Well, you’ve
never never kissed me of your own accord.
It’s foolish to talk that way now, isn’t
it? But, by George! That would be would
be such a wonderful thing for me. I know,”
he hastened to add, “I know, Laura, you aren’t
demonstrative. I ought not to expect, maybe,
that you Well, maybe it isn’t much.
But I was thinking a while ago that there wouldn’t
be a sweeter thing imaginable for me than if my own
girl would come up to me some time when
I wasn’t thinking and of her own accord
put her two arms around me and kiss me. And well,
I was thinking about it, and ” He
hesitated again, then finished abruptly with, “And
it occurred to me that you never had.”
Laura made no answer, but smiled rather
indefinitely, as she continued to search the pages
of the book, her head to one side.
Jadwin continued:
“We’ll call it a bargain.
Some day before very long, mind you you
are going to kiss me that way, understand,
of your own accord, when I’m not thinking of
it; and I’ll get that conservatory in for you.
I’ll manage it somehow. I’ll start
those fellows at it to-morrow twenty of
’em if it’s necessary. How about it?
Is it a bargain? Some day before long. What
do you say?”
Laura hesitated, singularly embarrassed,
unable to find the right words.
“Is it a bargain?” persisted Jadwin.
“Oh, if you put it that way,” she murmured,
“I suppose so yes.”
“You won’t forget, because
I shan’t speak about it again. Promise you
won’t forget.”
“No, I won’t forget. Why not call
her the ’Thetis’?”
“I was going to suggest the
‘Dart,’ or the ‘Swallow,’ or
the ‘Arrow.’ Something like that to
give a notion of speed.”
“No. I like the ‘Thetis’ best.”
“That settles it then. She’s your
steam yacht, Laura.”
Later on, when Jadwin was preparing
to depart, they stood for a moment in the hallway,
while he drew on his gloves and took a fresh cigar
from his case.
“I’ll call for you here at about ten,”
he said. “Will that do?”
He spoke of the following morning.
He had planned to take Page, Mrs. Wessels, and Laura
on a day’s excursion to Geneva Lake to see how
work was progressing on the country house. Jadwin
had set his mind upon passing the summer months after
the marriage at the lake, and as the early date of
the ceremony made it impossible to erect a new building,
he had bought, and was now causing to be remodelled,
an old but very well constructed house just outside
of the town and once occupied by a local magistrate.
The grounds were ample, filled with shade and fruit
trees, and fronted upon the lake. Laura had never
seen her future country home. But for the past
month Jadwin had had a small army of workmen and mechanics
busy about the place, and had managed to galvanise
the contractors with some of his own energy and persistence.
There was every probability that the house and grounds
would be finished in time.
“Very well,” said Laura,
in answer to his question, “at ten we’ll
be ready. Good-night.” She held out
her hand. But Jadwin put it quickly aside, and
took her swiftly and strongly into his arms, and turning
her face to his, kissed her cheek again and again.
Laura submitted, protesting:
“Curtis! Such foolishness.
Oh, dear; can’t you love me without crumpling
me so? Curtis! Please. You are so rough
with me, dear.”
She pulled away from him, and looked
up into his face, surprised to find it suddenly flushed;
his eyes were flashing.
“My God,” he murmured,
with a quick intake of breath, “my God, how I
love you, my girl! Just the touch of your hand,
the smell of your hair. Oh, sweetheart.
It is wonderful! Wonderful!” Then abruptly
he was master of himself again.
“Good-night,” he said.
“Good-night. God bless you,” and with
the words was gone.
They were married on the last day
of June of that summer at eleven o’clock in
the morning in the church opposite Laura’s house the
Episcopalian church of which she was a member.
The wedding was very quiet. Only the Cresslers,
Miss Gretry, Page, and Aunt Wess’ were present.
Immediately afterward the couple were to take the train
for Geneva Lake Jadwin having chartered
a car for the occasion.
But the weather on the wedding day
was abominable. A warm drizzle, which had set
in early in the morning, developed by eleven o’clock
into a steady downpour, accompanied by sullen grumblings
of very distant thunder.
About an hour before the appointed
time Laura insisted that her aunt and sister should
leave her. She would allow only Mrs. Cressler
to help her. The time passed. The rain continued
to fall. At last it wanted but fifteen minutes
to eleven.
Page and Aunt Wess’, who presented
themselves at the church in advance of the others,
found the interior cool, dark, and damp. They
sat down in a front pew, talking in whispers, looking
about them. Druggeting shrouded the reader’s
stand, the baptismal font, and bishop’s chair.
Every footfall and every minute sound echoed noisily
from the dark vaulting of the nave and chancel.
The janitor or sexton, a severe old fellow, who wore
a skull cap and loose slippers, was making a great
to-do with a pile of pew cushions in a remote corner.
The rain drummed with incessant monotony upon the
slates overhead, and upon the stained windows on either
hand. Page, who attended the church regularly
every Sunday morning, now found it all strangely unfamiliar.
The saints in the windows looked odd and unecclesiastical;
the whole suggestion of the place was uncanonical.
In the organ loft a tuner was at work upon the organ,
and from time to time the distant mumbling of the thunder
was mingled with a sonorous, prolonged note from the
pipes.
“My word, how it is raining,”
whispered Aunt Wess’, as the pour upon the roof
suddenly swelled in volume.
But Page had taken a prayer book from
the rack, and kneeling upon a hassock was repeating
the Litany to herself.
It annoyed Aunt Wess’.
Excited, aroused, the little old lady was never more
in need of a listener. Would Page never be through?
“And Laura’s new frock,”
she whispered, vaguely. “It’s going
to be ruined.”
Page, her lips forming the words,
“Good Lord deliver us,” fixed her aunt
with a reproving glance. To pass the time Aunt
Wess’ began counting the pews, missing a number
here and there, confusing herself, always obliged
to begin over again. From the direction of the
vestry room came the sound of a closing door.
Then all fell silent again. Even the shuffling
of the janitor ceased for an instant.
“Isn’t it still?”
murmured Aunt Wess’, her head in the air.
“I wonder if that was them. I heard a door
slam. They tell me that the rector has been married
three times.” Page, unheeding and demure,
turned a leaf, and began with “All those who
travel by land or water.” Mr. Cressler
and young Miss Gretry appeared. They took their
seats behind Page and Aunt Wess’, and the party
exchanged greetings in low voices. Page reluctantly
laid down her prayer book.
“Laura will be over soon,”
whispered Mr. Cressler. “Carrie is with
her. I’m going into the vestry room.
J. has just come.” He took himself off,
walking upon his tiptoes.
Aunt Wess’ turned to Page, repeating:
“Do you know they say this rector has been married
three times?”
But Page was once more deep in her
prayer book, so the little old lady addressed her
remark to the Gretry girl.
This other, however, her lips tightly
compressed, made a despairing gesture with her hand,
and at length managed to say:
“Can’t talk.”
“Why, heavens, child, whatever is the matter?”
“Makes them worse when I open my
mouth I’ve got the hiccoughs.”
Aunt Wess’ flounced back in her seat, exasperated,
out of sorts.
“Well, my word,” she murmured to herself,
“I never saw such girls.”
“Preserve to our use the kindly fruits of the
earth,” continued Page.
Isabel Gretry’s hiccoughs drove
Aunt Wess’ into “the fidgets.”
They “got on her nerves.” What with
them and Page’s uninterrupted murmur, she was
at length obliged to sit in the far end of the pew,
and just as she had settled herself a second time
the door of the vestry room opened and the wedding
party came out; first Mrs. Cressler, then Laura, then
Jadwin and Cressler, and then, robed in billowing white,
venerable, his prayer book in his hand, the bishop
of the diocese himself. Last of all came the
clerk, osseous, perfumed, a gardenia in the lapel
of his frock coat, terribly excited, and hurrying about
on tiptoe, saying “Sh! Sh!”
as a matter of principle.
Jadwin wore a new frock coat and a
resplendent Ascot scarf, which Mr. Cressler had bought
for him and Page knew at a glance that he was agitated
beyond all measure, and was keeping himself in hand
only by a tremendous effort. She could guess
that his teeth were clenched. He stood by Cressler’s
side, his head bent forward, his hands the
fingers incessantly twisting and untwisting clasped
behind his back. Never for once did his eyes
leave Laura’s face.
She herself was absolutely calm, only
a little paler perhaps than usual; but never more
beautiful, never more charming. Abandoning for
this once her accustomed black, she wore a tan travelling
dress, tailor made, very smart, a picture hat with
heavy plumes set off with a clasp of rhinestones,
while into her belt was thrust a great bunch of violets.
She drew off her gloves and handed them to Mrs. Cressler.
At the same moment Page began to cry softly to herself.
“There’s the last of Laura,”
she whimpered. “There’s the last of
my dear sister for me.”
Aunt Wess’ fixed her with a
distressful gaze. She sniffed once or twice,
and then began fumbling in her reticule for her handkerchief.
“If only her dear father were
here,” she whispered huskily. “And
to think that’s the same little girl I used
to rap on the head with my thimble for annoying the
cat! Oh, if Jonas could be here this day.”
“She’ll never be the same
to me after now,” sobbed Page, and as she spoke
the Gretry girl, hypnotised with emotion and taken
all unawares, gave vent to a shrill hiccough, a veritable
yelp, that woke an explosive echo in every corner
of the building.
Page could not restrain a giggle,
and the giggle strangled with the sobs in her throat,
so that the little girl was not far from hysterics.
And just then a sonorous voice, magnificent,
orotund, began suddenly from the chancel with the
words:
“Dearly beloved, we are gathered
together here in the sight of God, and in the face
of this company to join together this Man and this
Woman in holy matrimony.”
Promptly a spirit of reverence, not
to say solemnity, pervaded the entire surroundings.
The building no longer appeared secular, unecclesiastical.
Not in the midst of all the pomp and ceremonial of
the Easter service had the chancel and high altar disengaged
a more compelling influence. All other intrusive
noises died away; the organ was hushed; the fussy
janitor was nowhere in sight; the outside clamour
of the city seemed dwindling to the faintest, most
distant vibration; the whole world was suddenly removed,
while the great moment in the lives of the Man and
the Woman began.
Page held her breath; the intensity
of the situation seemed to her, almost physically,
straining tighter and tighter with every passing instant.
She was awed, stricken; and Laura appeared to her to
be all at once a woman transfigured, semi-angelic,
unknowable, exalted. The solemnity of those prolonged,
canorous syllables: “I require and charge
you both, as ye shall answer at the dreadful day of
judgment, when the secrets of all hearts shall be
disclosed,” weighed down upon her spirits with
an almost intolerable majesty. Oh, it was all
very well to speak lightly of marriage, to consider
it in a vein of mirth. It was a pretty solemn
affair, after all; and she herself, Page Dearborn,
was a wicked, wicked girl, full of sins, full of deceits
and frivolities, meriting of punishment on
“that dreadful day of judgment.” Only
last week she had deceived Aunt Wess’ in the
matter of one of her “young men.”
It was time she stopped. To-day would mark a change.
Henceforward, she resolved, she would lead a new life.
“God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy
Ghost ...”
To Page’s mind the venerable
bishop’s voice was filling all the church, as
on the day of Pentecost, when the apostles received
the Holy Ghost, the building was filled with a “mighty
rushing wind.”
She knelt down again, but could not
bring herself to close her eyes completely. From
under her lids she still watched her sister and Jadwin.
How Laura must be feeling now! She was, in fact,
very pale. There was emotion in Jadwin’s
eyes. Page could see them plainly. It seemed
beautiful that even he, the strong, modern man-of-affairs,
should be so moved. How he must love Laura.
He was fine, he was noble; and all at once this fineness
and nobility of his so affected her that she began
to cry again. Then suddenly came the words:
“... That in the world
to come ye may have life everlasting. Amen.”
There was a moment’s silence,
then the group about the altar rail broke up.
“Come,” said Aunt Wess’,
getting to her feet, “it’s all over, Page.
Come, and kiss your sister Mrs. Jadwin.”
In the vestry room Laura stood for
a moment, while one after another of the wedding party even
Mr. Cressler kissed her. When Page’s
turn came, the two sisters held each other in a close
embrace a long moment, but Laura’s eyes were
always dry. Of all present she was the least
excited.
“Here’s something,”
vociferated the ubiquitous clerk, pushing his way
forward. “It was on the table when we came
out just now. The sexton says a messenger boy
brought it. It’s for Mrs. Jadwin.”
He handed her a large box. Laura
opened it. Inside was a great sheaf of Jacqueminot
roses and a card, on which was written:
“May that same happiness which
you have always inspired in the lives and memories
of all who know you be with you always.
“Yrs. S. C.”
The party, emerging from the church,
hurried across the street to the Dearborns’
home, where Laura and Jadwin were to get their valises
and hand bags. Jadwin’s carriage was already
at the door.
They all assembled in the parlor,
every one talking at once, while the servants, bare-headed,
carried the baggage down to the carriage.
“Oh, wait wait a
minute, I’d forgotten something,” cried
Laura.
“What is it? Here, I’ll
get it for you,” cried Jadwin and Cressler as
she started toward the door. But she waved them
off, crying:
“No, no. It’s nothing. You wouldn’t
know where to look.”
Alone she ran up the stairs, and gained
the second story; then paused a moment on the landing
to get her breath and to listen. The rooms near
by were quiet, deserted. From below she could
hear the voices of the others their laughter
and gaiety. She turned about, and went from room
to room, looking long into each; first Aunt Wess’s
bedroom, then Page’s, then the “front
sitting-room,” then, lastly, her own room.
It was still in the disorder caused by that eventful
morning; many of the ornaments her own
cherished knick-knacks were gone, packed
and shipped to her new home the day before. Her
writing-desk and bureau were bare. On the backs
of chairs, and across the footboard of the bed, were
the odds and ends of dress she was never to wear again.
For a long time Laura stood looking
silently at the empty room. Here she had lived
the happiest period of her life; not an object there,
however small, that was not hallowed by association.
Now she was leaving it forever. Now the new life,
the Untried, was to begin. Forever the old days,
the old life were gone. Girlhood was gone; the
Laura Dearborn that only last night had pressed the
pillows of that bed, where was she now? Where
was the little black-haired girl of Barrington?
And what was this new life to which
she was going forth, under these leaden skies, under
this warm mist of rain? The tears at
last were in her eyes, and the sob in her
throat, and she found herself, as she leaned an arm
upon the lintel of the door, whispering:
“Good-by. Good-by. Good-by.”
Then suddenly Laura, reckless of her
wedding finery, forgetful of trivialities, crossed
the room and knelt down at the side of the bed.
Her head in her folded arms, she prayed prayed
in the little unstudied words of her childhood, prayed
that God would take care of her and make her a good
girl; prayed that she might be happy; prayed to God
to help her in the new life, and that she should be
a good and loyal wife.
And then as she knelt there, all at
once she felt an arm, strong, heavy even, laid upon
her. She raised her head and looked for
the first time direct into her husband’s
eyes.
“I knew ” began
Jadwin. “I thought Dear, I understand,
I understand.”
He said no more than that. But
suddenly Laura knew that he, Jadwin, her husband,
did “understand,” and she discovered, too,
in that moment just what it meant to be completely,
thoroughly understood understood without
chance of misapprehension, without shadow of doubt;
understood to her heart’s heart. And with
the knowledge a new feeling was born within her.
No woman, not her dearest friend; not even Page had
ever seemed so close to her as did her husband now.
How could she be unhappy henceforward? The future
was already brightening.
Suddenly she threw both arms around
his neck, and drawing his face down to her, kissed
him again and again, and pressed her wet cheek to
his tear-stained like her own.
“It’s going to be all
right, dear,” he said, as she stood from him,
though still holding his hand. “It’s
going to be all right.”
“Yes, yes, all right, all right,”
she assented. “I never seemed to realise
it till this minute. From the first I must have
loved you without knowing it. And I’ve
been cold and hard to you, and now I’m sorry,
sorry. You were wrong, remember that time in the
library, when you said I was undemonstrative.
I’m not. I love you dearly, dearly, and
never for once, for one little moment, am I ever going
to allow you to forget it.”
Suddenly, as Jadwin recalled the incident
of which she spoke, an idea occurred to him.
“Oh, our bargain remember? You
didn’t forget after all.”
“I did. I did,” she
cried. “I did forget it. That’s
the very sweetest thing about it.”