She was waiting for him in the library
with an expression both eager and worried. She
crossed the room to meet him, but paused half-way as
though really fearful of some change. But she
saw only the same kind, tense face, looking perhaps
a bit heavy from weariness, the same dark eyes with
their strange fires, the same slight droop of the shoulders.
There was certainly nothing to fear in him as he stood
before her with a tender, quizzical smile about his
large mouth. He looked to her now more like
a big boy than the cold, stern man she had half expected.
“Are you afraid?” he asked.
“No, not standing here where
I can see you. But over the telephone with your
strange voice and your half meanings what
did you mean?”
“Nothing you need worry about.”
She became suddenly serious.
“I want to tell you now that
there is no need of your trying to hide anything at
all from me about Ben.”
“I am hiding nothing. But,” he asked
with quick intuition, “are you?”
She hesitated, met his eyes, and dropped her voice.
“I can tell you nothing not even
you unless you have learned it.”
“I, in my turn, don’t
know what you mean,” he answered. “I
have learned nothing new about him. And it is
too fair a morning,” he concluded abruptly,
“to bother over puzzles. Things have happened
so rapidly that we are probably both muddled, and
if we could spend the time in explanations we should
doubtless find that neither of us means anything.”
She was clearly relieved, but it raised
a new question in Donaldson’s mind. Of
course she understood nothing of what had taken place
last night unless by mental telepathy. But in
these days of psychic revelations a man could n’t
feel secure even in his thoughts. There was
apparently some inner secret she had touched
upon it before relating to the Arsdale
curse. Doubtless if one pried carefully enough
many another skeleton could be found in the closets
of the house of this family half-poisoned now through
three generations.
It was early and it suddenly occurred
to her that he had probably not yet breakfasted.
She struggled a moment with a conflicting
sense of hospitality and propriety, but finally said
resolutely, “I should be glad if you would breakfast
with me. You ought to try your new cook.”
The picture he had of her sitting
opposite him at the coffee brought the warm blood
to his cheeks.
“I why ”
“Will you have your chop well
done?” she broke in, without giving him time
to frame an excuse.
“Yes,” he answered.
She left him.
Within a very short time she announced
the meal with pretty grace, which concealed all trace
of nervousness, save for the heightened color of her
cheeks, which, he noted, were as scarlet as though
she herself had been bending over a hot stove.
She led the way into an exquisite little dining room,
which he at once took to be the expression of her
own taste. It was in white and apple green, with
a large trellised window opening upon the lawn.
A small table had been placed in the sun near the
window, and was covered with dazzling white linen,
polished silver, and cut glass, which, catching the
morning beams, reflected a prismatic riot of colors.
The chops, lettuce, bread and butter, and coffee
were already served. As he seated her, he felt
as though he were living out a dream one
of the dreams that as a very young man he had sometimes
dreamed when, lying flat upon his back in the sun,
he had watched the big cotton clouds wafted, like
thistledown, across the blue.
It might have been Italy for the blue
of the sky and the caressing warmth of the sun.
They threw open the big window and in flooded the
perfume of lilacs and the twitter of sparrows, which
is the nearest to a bird song one can expect in New
York. But after all, this was n’t New
York; nor Spain; nor even the inner woods; it was just
Here. And Here is where the eyes of a man and
a woman meet with spring in their blood.
Griefs of loss, bitter, poignant;
sorrows of mistakes, bruising, numbing; the ache of
disappointments, ingratitudes, betrayals, Nature
surging on to her fulfillment sweeps them away, like
fences before a flood, allowing no obstructions to
Youth’s kinship with Spring. So the young
may not mourn long; so, if they do, they become no
longer young.
The man and the woman might have been
two care-free children for all they were able to resist
the magic of this fair morning or the subtler magic
of their own emotions.
To the man it suggested more than
to the woman because he gave more thought to it, but
the woman absorbed more the spirit of it because she
more fully surrendered herself.
Donaldson found himself with a good
appetite. There was nothing neurotic about him.
He was fundamentally normal fundamentally
wholesome with no trace of mawkishness in
his nature. As he sipped the hot golden-brown
coffee, he tried to get at just what it was that he
felt when he now looked at her. It came to him
suddenly and he spoke it aloud,
“I seem to have, this minute,
a fresher vision of life than I have known since I
was twenty.”
It was something different from anything
he had experienced up to now. It was saner, clearer.
“It is the morning,” she
hazarded. “I never saw the grass so green
as it is this morning; I never felt the sun so warm.”
“It is like the peace of the
inner woods, only brighter,” he declared.
“You said such peace never came
to any one unless alone.”
“Did I?”
She nodded.
“But it is like that,”
he insisted. “Only more joyous. I
think it is the extra joy in it that makes us not
want it alone. Queer, too, it seems to be born
altogether of this spot, of this moment. Understand
what I mean? It does n’t seem to go back
of the moment we entered this room and ,”
he hesitated, “it does n’t seem to go forward.”
“It is as though coming in here
we had stepped into a beautiful picture and were living
inside the frame for a little,” she suggested.
“Exactly. The frame is
the hedge; the picture is the sky, the sun, and you.”
She laughed, frankly pleased in a
childish way, at his conceit.
“Then for me,” she answered,
“it must be the sun, the sky, and you.”
“We are n’t trying to compliment each
other, are we?”
“No,” she answered seriously. “I
hope not.”
She went on after a moment’s reflection,
“I have been puzzling over the
strange chance that brought you into my life at so
opportune a time.”
“I came because you believed
in me and because you needed me. You believed
in me because ,” he paused, his blood
seeming suddenly to run faster, “because I needed
you.”
“You needed me?”
“Yes,” he answered, “I needed you.
I needed you long ago.”
“But how why?”
“To show me the joy there is
in the sunlight wherever it strikes; to take me with
you into this picture.”
Their eyes met.
“Have I done that?” she asked.
“Yes.”
She shook her head.
“I ’m afraid not,”
she disclaimed, “because the joy has n’t
been in my own heart.”
“Nor was it in mine then.”
Her eyes turned back to his.
The silver in them came to the top like the moon
reflection on dark waters through fading clouds.
He was leaning a little towards her.
“It seems to be something that we can’t
get alone,” he explained.
“Perhaps it is,” she pondered, “perhaps.”
She started back a little, as one
who, lost in a sunset, leans too far over the balcony.
Then she smiled. Donaldson’s heart answered
the smile.
“Your coffee is cooling,” she said.
“May I pour you some fresh?”
He passed his cup automatically.
But the act was enough to bring him back. A
moment gone the room had grown misty. Something
had made his throat ache. He felt taut with
a great unexpressed yearning. He became conscious
of his breakfast again. He sipped his hot coffee.
“I suppose,” he reflected, “you
ought to know something about me.”
“I am interested,” she answered, “but
I don’t think it matters much.”
Again he saw in her marvelous eyes
that look of complete confidence that had thrilled
him first on that mad ride. Again he realized
that there is nothing finer in the world. For
a moment the room swam before him at the memory of
his doom. But her calm gaze steadied him at once.
He must cling to the Now.
“I have n’t much I can
tell you,” he resumed. “My parents
died when I was young. They were New England
farm-folk and poor. After I was left alone,
I started in to get an education without a cent to
my name. It took me fifteen years. I graduated
from college and then from the law school. I
came here to New York and opened an office. That
is all.”
He waved his hand deprecatingly as
though ashamed that it was so slight and undramatic
a tale. But she leaned towards him with sudden
access of interest.
“Fifteen years, and you did
it all alone! You must have had to fight.”
“In a way,” he answered.
“Will you tell me more about it?” she
asked eagerly.
“It’s not very interesting,”
he laughed. “It was mostly a grind just
a plain, unceasing grind. It was n’t very
exciting just getting any old job I could
and then studying what time was left.”
“And growing stronger every day feeling
your increasing power!”
“And my hunger, too, sometimes.”
He tried to make light of it because
he didn’t wish her to become so serious over
it. He did n’t like playing the part of
hero.
“You did n’t have enough to eat?”
she asked in astonishment.
“You should have seen me watch Barstow’s
cake-box.”
He told her the story, making it as
humorous as he could. But when he had finished,
she wasn’t laughing. For a moment his impulse
was to lay before her the whole story the
bitter climax, the ashen climax, which lately he had
thought so beautiful. She had said that nothing
in the past would matter but this was of
the future, too. Even if she ought to know,
he had no right to force upon her the burden of what
was to come. He found now that he had even cut
himself off from the privilege of being utterly honest
with her. To tell her the whole truth might be
to destroy his usefulness to her. She might then
scorn his help. He must not allow that.
Nothing could justify that.
“You are looking very serious,” she commented.
Her own face had in the meanwhile grown brighter.
“It is all from within,”
he answered, “all from within. And now
presto! it is gone.”
Truly the problem did seem to vanish
as he allowed himself to become conscious of the picture
she made there in the sunshine. With her hair
down her back she could have worn short dresses and
passed for sixteen. The smooth white forehead,
the exquisite velvet skin with the first bloom still
upon it, the fragile pink ears were all of unfolding
womanhood.
“Since my mother died,”
he said, “you are the first woman who has ever
made me serious.”
“Have you been such a recluse then?”
“Not from principle. I have been a sort
of office hermit by necessity.”
“You should not have allowed
an office to imprison you,” she scolded.
“You should have gone out more.”
“I have lately.”
“And has it not done you good?”
she challenged, not realizing his narrow application
of the statement.
“A world of good.”
“It brightens one up.”
“Wonderfully.”
“If we stay too much by ourselves we get selfish,
don’t we?”
“Intensely. And narrow-minded,
and morbid, and petty and ,” the words
came charged with bitterness, “and intensely
foolish.”
“I ’m glad you crawled out before you
became all those things.”
“You gave me a hand or I should n’t.”
“I gave you a hand?”
“Yea,” he answered, soberly.
“Perhaps perhaps
this is another of the things that could n’t
have happened to either of us alone.”
“I think you are right,” he answered.
He did not dare to look at her.
“Perhaps that is true of all
the good things in the world,” she hazarded.
“Perhaps.”
Once again the golden mist once again the
aching yearning.
The telephone jangled harshly.
It was a warning from the world beyond the hedge,
the world they had forgotten.
The sound of it was to him like the savage clang of
barbaric war-gongs.
With her permission he answered it
himself. It was a message from his man at the
Waldorf.
“He’s making an awful
fuss, sir. He says as how he wants to go home.
I can hold him all right, only I thought I ’d
let you know.”
“Thanks, I ’ll be right down.”
“I ’d better go back to
your brother,” he said to her as he hung up the
receiver. “I want to have a talk with him
before bringing him home.”
Her eyes grew moist.
“How am I ever going to repay you for all you
’ve done?”
“You ’ve repaid me already,”
he answered briefly and left at once.