Long ago, when you were a little boy
or a little girl, perhaps not so very long
ago, either, were you never interrupted
in your play by being called in to have your face
washed, your hair combed, and your soiled apron exchanged
for a clean one, preparatory to an introduction to
Mrs. Smith, or Dr. Jones, or Aunt Judkins, your mother’s
early friend? And after being ushered into that
august presence, and made to face a battery of questions
which where either above or below your capacity, and
which you consequently despised as trash or resented
as insult, did you not, as were gleefully vanishing,
hear a soft sigh breathed out upon the air, “Dear
child, he is seeing his happiest days”?
In the concrete, it was Mrs. Smith or Dr. Jones speaking
of you. But going back to general principles,
it was Commonplacedom expressing its opinion of childhood.
There never was a greater piece of
absurdity in the world. I thought so when I
was a child, and now I know it; and I desire here to
brand it as at once a platitude and a falsehood.
How the idea gained currency, that childhood is the
happiest period of life, I cannot conceive. How,
once started, it kept afloat, is equally incomprehensible.
I should have supposed that the experience of every
sane person would have given the lie to it. I
should have supposed that every soul, as it burst into
flower, would have hurled off the imputation.
I can only account for it by recurring to Lady Mary
Wortley Montague’s statistics, and concluding
that the fools are three out of four in every
person’s acquaintance.
I for one lift up my voice emphatically
against the assertion, and do affirm that I think
childhood is the most undesirable portion of human
life, and I am thankful to be well out of it.
I look upon it as no better than a mitigated form
of slavery. There is not a child in the land
that can call his soul, or his body, or his jacket
his own. A little soft lump of clay he comes
into the world, and is moulded into a vessel of honor
or a vessel of dishonor long before he can put in a
word about the matter. He has no voice as to
his education or his training, what he shall eat,
what he shall drink, or wherewithal he shall be clothed.
He has to wait upon the wisdom, the whims, and often
the wickedness of other people. Imagine, my six-foot
friend, how you would feel, to be obliged to wear
your woollen mittens when you desire to bloom out
in straw-colored kids, or to be buttoned into your
black waistcoat when your taste leads you to select
your white, or to be forced under your Kossuth hat
when you had set your heart on your black beaver:
yet this is what children are perpetually called on
to undergo. Their wills are just as strong as
ours, and their tastes are stronger, yet they have
to bend the one and sacrifice the other; and they
do it under pressure of necessity. Their reason
is not convinced; they are forced to yield to superior
power; and, of all disagreeable things in the world,
the most disagreeable is not to have your own way.
When you are grown up, you wear a print frock because
you cannot afford a silk, or because a silk would
be out of place, you wear India-rubber
overshoes because your polished patent-leather would
be ruined by the mud; and your self-denial is amply
compensated by the reflection of superior fitness
or economy. But a child has no such reflection
to console him. He puts on his battered, gray
old shoes because you make him; he hangs up his new
trousers and goes back into his detestable girl’s-frock
because he will be punished if he does not, and it
is intolerable.
It is of no use to say that this is
their discipline, and is all necessary to their welfare.
It is a repulsive condition of life in which such
degrading surveillance is necessary. You
may affirm that an absolute despotism is the only
government fit for Dahomey, and I may not disallow
it; but when you go on and say that Dahomey is the
happiest country in the world, why I refer
you to Dogberry. Now the parents of a child
are, from the nature of the case, absolute despots.
They may be wise, and gentle, and doting despots, and
the chain may be satin-smooth and golden-strong; but
if it be of rusty iron, parting every now and then
and letting the poor prisoner violently loose, and
again suddenly caught hold of, bringing him up with
a jerk, galling his tender limbs and irretrievably
ruining his temper, it is all the same;
there is no help for it. And really to look around
the world and see the people that are its fathers
and mothers is appalling, the narrow-minded,
prejudiced, ignorant, ill-tempered, fretful, peevish,
passionate, careworn, harassed men and women.
Even we grown people, independent of them and capable
of self-defence, have as much as we can do to keep
the peace. Where is there a city, or a town,
or a village, in which are no bickerings, no jealousies,
no angers, no petty or swollen spites? Then
fancy yourself, instead of the neighbor and occasional
visitor of these poor human beings, their children,
subject to their absolute control, with no power
of protest against their folly, no refuge from their
injustice, but living on through thick and thin right
under their guns.
“Oh!” but you say, “this
is a very one-sided view. You leave out entirely
the natural tenderness that comes in to temper the
matter. Without that, a child’s situation
would of course be intolerable; but the love that
is born with him makes all things smooth.”
No, it does not make all things smooth.
It does wonders, to be sure, but it does not make
cross people pleasant, nor violent people calm, nor
fretful people easy, nor obstinate people reasonable,
nor foolish people wise, that is, it may
do so spasmodically, but it does not hold them to
it and keep them at it. A great deal of beautiful
moonshine is written about the sanctities of home
and the sacraments of marriage and birth. I
do not mean to say that there is no sanctity and no
sacrament. Moonshine is not nothing. It
is light, real, honest light, just
as truly as the sunshine. It is sunshine at second-hand.
It illuminates, but indistinctly. It beautifies,
but it does not vivify or fructify. It comes
indeed from the sun, but in too roundabout a way to
do the sun’s work. So, if a woman is pretty
nearly sanctified before she is married, wifehood
and motherhood may accomplish the work; but there
is not one man in ten thousand of the writers aforesaid
who would marry a vixen, trusting to the sanctifying
influences of marriage to tone her down to sweetness.
A thoughtful, gentle, pure, and elevated woman, who
has been accustomed to stand face to face with the
eternities, will see in her child a soul. If
the circumstances of her life leave her leisure and
adequate repose, that soul will be to her a solemn
trust, a sacred charge, for which she will give her
own soul’s life in pledge. But how many
such women do you suppose there are in your village?
Heaven forbid that I should even appear to be depreciating
woman! Do I not know too well their strength,
and their virtue which is their strength? But,
stepping out of idyls and novels, and stepping into
American kitchens, is it not true that the larger
part of the mothers see in their babies, or act as
if they saw, only babies? And if there are three
or four or half a dozen of them, as there generally
are, so much the more do they see babies whose bodies
monopolize the mother’s time to the disadvantage
of their souls. She loves them, and she works
for them day and night; but when they are ranting
and ramping and quarrelling, and torturing her over-tense
nerves, she forgets the infinite, and applies herself
energetically to the finite, by sending Harry with
a round scolding into one corner, and Susy into another,
with no light thrown upon the point in dispute, no
principle settled as a guide in future difficulties,
and little discrimination as to the relative guilt
of the offenders. But there is no court of appeal
before which Harry and Susy can lay their case in
these charming “happiest days”!
Then there are parents who love their
children like wild beasts. It is a passionate,
blind, instinctive, unreasoning love. They have
no more intelligent discernment, when an outside difficulty
arises with respect to their children, than a she-bear.
They wax furious over the most richly deserved punishment,
if inflicted by a teacher’s hand; they take
the part of their child against legal authority; but
observe, this does not prevent them from laying their
own hands heavily on their children. The same
obstinate ignorance and narrowness that are exhibited
without exist within also. Folly is folly, abroad
or at home. A man does not play the fool outdoors
and act the sage in the house. When the poor
child becomes obnoxious, the same unreasoning rage
falls upon him. The object of a ferocious love
is the object of an equally ferocious anger.
It is only he who loves wisely that loves well.
The manner in which children’s
tastes are disregarded, their feelings ignored, and
their instincts violated, is enough to disaffect one
with childhood. They are expected to kiss all
flesh that asks them to do so. They are jerked
up into the laps of people whom they abhor. They
say, “Yes, ma’am,” under pain of
bread and water for a week, when their unerring nature
prompts them to hurl out emphatically, “No.”
They are sent out of the room whenever a fascinating
bit of scandal is to be rehearsed, packed off to bed
just as everybody is settled down for a charming evening,
bothered about their lessons when their play is but
fairly under way, and hedged and hampered on every
side. It is true, that all this may be for their
good, but what of that? So everything is for
the good of grown-up people; but does that make us
contented? It is doubtless for our good in the
long run that we lose our pocket-books, and break
our arms, and catch a fever, and have our brothers
defraud a bank, and our houses burn down, and people
steal our umbrellas, and borrow our books and never
return them. In fact, we know that upon certain
conditions all things work together for our good,
but, notwithstanding, we find some things very unpleasant;
and we may talk to our children of discipline and
health by the hour together, and it will never be
anything but an intolerable nuisance to them to be
swooped off to bed by a dingy old nurse just as the
people are beginning to come, and shining silk, and
floating lace, and odorous, fragrant flowers are taking
their ecstatic young souls back into the golden days
of the good Haroun al Raschid.
Even in this very point lies one of
the miseries of childhood, that no philosophy comes
to temper their sorrow. We do not know why we
are troubled, but we know there is some good, grand
reason for it. The poor little children do not
know even that. They find trouble utterly inconsequent
and unreasonable. The problem of evil is to them
absolutely incapable of solution. We know that
beyond our horizon stretches the infinite universe.
We grasp only one link of a chain whose beginning
and end is eternity. So we readily adjust ourselves
to mystery, and are content. We apply to everything
inexplicable the test of partial view, and maintain
our tranquillity. We fall into the ranks, and
march on, acquiescent, if not jubilant. We hear
the roar of cannon and the rattle of musketry.
Stalwart forms fall by our side, and brawny arms
are stricken. Our own hopes bite the dust, our
own hopes bury their dead; but we know that law is
inexorable. Effect must follow cause, and there
is no happening without causation. So, knowing
ourselves to be only one small brigade of the army
of the Lord, we defile through the passes of this
narrow world, bearing aloft on our banner, and writing
ever on our hearts, the divine consolation, “What
thou knowest not now thou shalt know hereafter.”
This is an unspeakable tranquillizer and comforter,
of which, woe is me! the little ones know nothing.
They have no underlying generalities on which to stand.
Law and logic and eternity are nothing to them.
They only know that it rains, and they will have
to wait another week before they go a-fishing; and
why couldn’t it have rained Friday just as well
as Saturday? and it always does rain or something
when I want to go anywhere, so, there!
And the frantic flood of tears comes up from outraged
justice as well as from disappointed hope. It
is the flimsiest of all possible arguments to say
that their sorrows are trifling, to talk about their
little cares and trials. These little things
are great to little men and women. A pine bucket
full is just as full as a hogshead. The ant
has to tug just as hard to carry a grain of corn as
the Irishman does to carry a hod of bricks. You
can see the bran running out of Fanny’s doll’s
arm, or the cat putting her foot through Tom’s
new kite, without losing your equanimity; but their
hearts feel the pang of hopeless sorrow, or foiled
ambition, or bitter disappointment, and
the emotion is the thing in question, not the event
that caused it.
It is all additional disadvantage
to children in their troubles, that they can never
estimate the relations of things. They have no
perspective. All things are at equal distances
from the point of sight. Life presents to them
neither foreground nor background, principal figure
nor subordinates, but only a plain spread of canvas,
on which one thing stands out just as big and just
as black as another. You classify your désagréments.
This is a mere temporary annoyance, and receives
but a passing thought. This is a life-long sorrow,
but it is superficial; it will drop off from you at
the grave, be folded away with your cerements, and
leave no scar on your spirit. This thrusts its
lancet into the secret place where your soul abideth,
but you know that it tortures only to heal; it is
recuperative, not destructive, and you will rise from
it to newness of life. But when little ones see
a ripple in the current of their joy, they do not
know, they cannot tell, that it is only a pebble breaking
softly in upon the summer flow, to toss a cool spray
up into the white bosom of the lilies, or to bathe
the bending violets upon the green and grateful bank.
It seems to them as if the whole strong tide is thrust
fiercely and violently back, and hurled into a new
channel, chasmed in the rough, rent granite.
It is impossible to calculate the waste of grief and
pathos which this incapacity causes. Fanny’s
doll aforesaid is left too near the fire, and waxy
tears roll down her ruddy cheeks, to the utter ruin
of her pretty face and her gay frock; and anon poor
Fanny breaks her little heart in moans and sobs and
sore lamentations. It is Rachel weeping for
her children. I went on a tramp one May morning
to buy a tissue-paper wreath of flowers for a little
girl to wear to a May-party, where all the other little
girls were expected to appear similarly crowned.
After a long and weary search, I was forced to return
without it. Scarcely had I pulled the bell, when
I heard the quick pattering of little feet in the
entry. Never in all my life shall I lose the
memory of those wistful eyes, that did not so much
as look up to my face, but levelled themselves to
my hand, and filmed with disappointment to find it
empty. I could see that the wreath was a very
insignificant matter. I knew that every little
beggar in the street had garlanded herself with sixpenny
roses, and I should have preferred that my darling
should be content with her own silky brown hair; but
my taste availed her nothing, and the iron entered
into her soul. Once a little boy, who could
just stretch himself up as high as his papa’s
knee, climbed surreptitiously into the store-closet
and upset the milk-pitcher. Terrified, he crept
behind the flour-barrel, and there Nemesis found him,
and he looked so charming and so guilty that two or
three others were called to come and enjoy the sight.
But he, unhappy midget, did not know that he looked
charming; he did not know that his guilty consciousness
only made him the more interesting; he did not know
that he seemed an epitome of humanity, a Liliputian
miniature of the great world; and his large, blue,
solemn eyes were filled with remorse. As he
stood there silent, with his grave, utterly mournful
face, he had robbed a bank, he had forged a note, he
had committed a murder, he was guilty of treason.
All the horror of conscience, all the shame of discovery,
all the unavailing regret of a detected, atrocious,
but not utterly hardened pirate, tore his poor little
innocent heart. Yet children are seeing their
happiest days!
These people the aforesaid
three fourths of our acquaintance lay great
stress on the fact that children are free from care,
as if freedom from care were one of the beatitudes
of Paradise; but I should like to know if freedom
from care is any blessing to beings who don’t
know what care is. You who are careful and troubled
about many things may dwell on it with great satisfaction,
but children don’t find it delightful by any
means. On the contrary, they are never so happy
as when they can get a little care, or cheat themselves
into the belief that they have it. You can make
them proud for a day by sending them on some responsible
errand. If you will not place care upon them,
they will make it for themselves. You shall
see a whole family of dolls stricken down simultaneously
with malignant measles, or a restive horse evoked
from a passive parlor-chair. They are a great
deal more eager to assume care, than you are to throw
it off. To be sure, they may be quite as eager
to be rid of it after a while; but while this does
not prove that care is delightful, it certainly does
prove that freedom from care is not.
Now I should like, Herr Narr, to have
you look at the other side for a moment: for
there is a positive and a negative pole. Children
not only have their full share of misery, but they
do not have their full share of happiness; at least,
they miss many sources of happiness to which we have
access. They have no consciousness. They
have sensations, but no perceptions. We look
longingly upon them, because they are so graceful,
and simple, and natural, and frank, and artless; but
though this may make us happy, it does not make them
happy, because they don’t know anything about
it. It never occurs to them that they are graceful.
No child is ever artless to himself. The only
difference he sees between you and himself is, that
you are grown-up and he is little. Sometimes
I think he does have a dim perception that when he
is ill, it is because he has eaten too much, and he
must take medicine, and feed on heartless dry toast,
while, when you are ill, you have the dyspepsia, and
go to Europe. But the beauty and sweetness of
children are entirely wasted on themselves, and their
frankness is a source of infinite annoyance to each
other. A man enjoys himself. If he
is handsome, or wise, or witty, he generally knows
it, and takes great satisfaction in it; but a child
does not. He loses half his happiness because
he does not know that he is happy. If he ever
has any consciousness, it is an isolated, momentary
thing, with no relation to anything antecedent or
subsequent. It lays hold on nothing. Not
only have they no perception of themselves, but they
have no perception of anything. They never recognize
an exigency. They do not salute greatness.
Has not the Autocrat told us of some lady who remembered
a certain momentous event in our Revolutionary War,
and remembered it only by and because of the regret
she experienced at leaving her doll behind when her
family was forced to fly from home? What humiliation
is this! What an utter failure to appreciate the
issues of life! For her there was no revolution,
no upheaval of world-old theories, no struggle for
freedom, no great combat of the heroisms. All
the passion and pain, the mortal throes of error,
the glory of sacrifice, the victory of an idea, the
triumph of right, the dawn of a new era, all,
all were hidden from her behind a lump of wax.
And what was true of her is true of all her class.
Having eyes, they see not; with their ears they do
not hear. The din of arms, the waving of banners,
the gleam of swords, fearful sights and great signs
in the heavens, or the still, small voice that thrills
when wind and fire and earthquake have swept by, may
proclaim the coming of the Lord, and they stumble along,
munching bread-and-butter. Out in the solitudes
Nature speaks with her many-toned voices, and they
are deaf. They have a blind sensational enjoyment,
such as a squirrel or a chicken may have, but they
can in no wise interpret the Mighty Mother, nor even
hear her words. The ocean moans his secret to
unheeding ears. The agony of the underworld finds
no speech in the mountain-peaks, bare and grand.
The old oaks stretch out their arms in vain.
Grove whispers to grove, and the robin stops to listen,
but the child plays on. He bruises the happy
butter-cups, he crushes the quivering anemone, and
his cruel fingers are stained with the harebell’s
purple blood. Rippling waterfall and rolling
river, the majesty of sombre woods, the wild waste
of wilderness, the fairy spirits of sunshine, the
sparkling wine of June, and the golden languor of
October, the child passes by, and a dipper of blackberries,
or a pocketful of chestnuts, fills and satisfies his
horrible little soul. And in face of all this
people say, there are people who dare
to say, that childhood’s are the
“happiest days.”
I may have been peculiarly unfortunate
in my surroundings, but the children of poetry and
novels were very infrequent in my day. The innocent
cherubs never studied in my school-house, nor played
puss-in-the-corner in our backyard. Childhood,
when I was young, had rosy checks and bright eyes,
as I remember, but it was also extremely given to
quarrelling. It used frequently to “get
mad.” It made nothing of twitching away
books and balls. It often pouted. Sometimes
it would bite. If it wore a fine frock, it would
strut. It told lies, “whoppers”
at that. It took the larger half of the apple.
It was not, as a general thing, magnanimous, but “aggravating.”
It may have been fun to you who looked on, but it
was death to us who were in the midst.
This whole way of viewing childhood,
this regretful retrospect of its vanished joys, this
infatuated apotheosis of doughiness and rank unfinish,
this fearful looking-for of dread old age, is low,
gross, material, utterly unworthy of a sublime manhood,
utterly false to Christian truth. Childhood
is pre-eminently the animal stage of existence.
The baby is a beast a very soft, tender,
caressive beast, a beast full of promise, a
beast with the germ of an angel, but a
beast still. A week-old baby gives no more sign
of intelligence, of love, or ambition, or hope, or
fear, or passion, or purpose, than a week-old monkey,
and is not half so frisky and funny. In fact,
it is a puling, scowling, wretched, dismal, desperate-looking
animal. It is only as it grows old that the beast
gives way and the angel-wings bud, and all along through
infancy and childhood the beast gives way and gives
way and the angel-wings bud and bud; and yet we entertain
our angel so unawares, that we look back regretfully
to the time when the angel was in abeyance and the
beast raved regnant.
The only advantage which childhood
has over manhood is the absence of foreboding, and
this indeed is much. A large part of our suffering
is anticipatory, much of which children are spared.
The present happiness is clouded for them by no shadowy
possibility; but for this small indemnity shall we
offset the glory of our manly years? Because
their narrowness cannot take in the contingencies
that threaten peace, are they blessed above all others?
Does not the same narrowness cut them off from the
bright certainty that underlies all doubts and fears?
If ignorance is bliss, man stands at the summit of
mortal misery, and the scale of happiness is a descending
one. We must go down into the ocean-depths, where,
for the scintillant soul, a dim, twilight instinct
lights up gelatinous lives. If childhood is indeed
the happiest period, then the mysterious God-breathed
breath was no boon, and the Deity is cruel.
Immortality were well exchanged for the blank of annihilation.
We hear of the dissipated illusions
of youth, the paling of bright, young dreams.
Life, it is said, turns out to be different from what
was pictured. The rosy-hued morning fades away
into the gray and livid evening, the black and ghastly
night. In especial cases it may be so, but I
do not believe it is the general experience.
It surely need not be. It should not be.
I have found things a great deal better than I expected.
I am but one; but with all my oneness, with all that
there is of me, I protest against such generalities.
I think they are slanderous of Him who ordained life,
its processes and its vicissitudes. He never
made our dreams to outstrip our realizations.
Every conception, brain-born, has its execution, hand-wrought.
Life is not a paltry tin cup which the child drains
dry, leaving the man to go weary and hopeless, quaffing
at it in vain with black, parched lips. It is
a fountain ever springing. It is a great deep,
which the wisest has never bounded, the grandest never
fathomed.
It is not only idle, but stupid, to
lament the departure of childhood’s joys.
It is as if something precious and valued had been
forcibly torn from us, and we go sorrowing for lost
treasure. But these things fall off from us
naturally; we do not give them up. We are never
called upon to give them up.
There is no pang, no sorrow, no wrenching
away of a part of our lives. The baby lies in
his cradle and plays with his fingers and toes.
There comes an hour when his fingers and toes no longer
afford him amusement. He has attained to the
dignity of a rattle, a whip, a ball. Has he
suffered a loss? Has he not rather made a great
gain? When he passed from his toes to his toys,
did he do it mournfully? Does he look at his
little feet and hands with a sigh for the joys that
once loitered there but are now forever gone?
Does he not rather feel a little ashamed, when you
remind him of those days? Does he not feel that
it trenches somewhat on his dignity? Yet the
regret of maturity for its past joys amounts to nothing
less than this. Such regret is regret that we
cannot lie in the sunshine and play with our toes, that
we are no longer but one remove, or but few removes,
from the idiot. Away with such folly! Every
season of life has its distinctive and appropriate
enjoyments, which bud and blossom and ripen and fall
off as the season glides on to its close, to be succeeded
by others better and brighter. There is no consciousness
of loss, for there is no loss. There is only
a growing up, and out of; and beyond.
Life does turn out differently from
what was anticipated. It is an infinitely higher
and holier and happier thing than our childhood fancied.
The world that lay before us then was but a tinsel
toy to the world which our firm feet tread.
We have entered into the undiscovered land.
We have explored its ways of pleasantness, its depths
of dole, its mountains of difficulty, its valleys
of delight, and, behold! it is very good. Storms
have swept fiercely, but they swept to purify.
We have heard in its thunders the Voice that woke
once the echoes of the Garden. Its lightnings
have riven a path for the Angel of Peace.
Manhood discovers what childhood can
never divine, that the sorrows of life
are superficial, and the happiness of life structural;
and this knowledge alone is enough to give a peace
which passeth understanding.
Yes, the dreams of youth were dreams,
but the waking was more glorious than they.
They were only dreams, fitful, flitting,
fragmentary visions of the coming day. The shallow
joys, the capricious pleasures, the wavering sunshine
of infancy, have deepened into virtues, graces, heroisms.
We have the bold outlook of calm, self-confident courage,
the strong fortitude of endurance, the imperial magnificence
of self-denial. Our hearts expand with benevolence,
our lives broaden with beneficence. We cease
our perpetual skirmishing at the outposts, and go
upward to the citadel. Down into the secret places
of life we descend. Down among the beautiful
ones, in the cool and quiet shadows, on the sunny
summer levels, we walk securely, and the hidden fountains
are unsealed.
For those people who do nothing, for
those to whom Christianity brings no revelation, for
those who see no eternity in time, no infinity in
life, for those to whom opportunity is but the hand
maid of selfishness, to whom smallness is informed
by no greatness, for whom the lowly is never lifted
up by indwelling love to the heights of divine performance, for
them, indeed, each hurrying year may well be a King
of Terrors. To pass out from the flooding light
of the morning, to feel all the dewiness drunk up
by the thirsty, insatiate sun, to see the shadows
slowly and swiftly gathering, and no starlight to break
the gloom, and no home beyond the gloom for the unhoused,
startled, shivering soul, ah! this indeed
is terrible. The “confusions of a wasted
youth” strew thick confusions of a dreary age.
Where youth garners up only such power as beauty
or strength may bestow, where youth is but the revel
of physical or frivolous delight, where youth aspires
only with paltry and ignoble ambitions, where youth
presses the wine of life into the cup of variety,
there indeed Age comes, a thrice unwelcome guest.
Put him off. Thrust him back. Weep for
the early days: you have found no happiness
to replace their joys. Mourn for the trifles
that were innocent, since the trifles of your manhood
are heavy with guilt. Fight to the last.
Retreat inch by inch. With every step you lose.
Every day robs you of treasure. Every hour passes
you over to insignificance; and at the end stands
Death. The bare and desolate decline drops suddenly
into the hopeless, dreadful grave, the black and yawning
grave, the foul and loathsome grave.
But why those who are Christians and
not Pagans, who believe that death is not an eternal
sleep, who wrest from life its uses and gather from
life its beauty, why they should dally along
the road, and cling frantically to the old landmarks,
and shrink fearfully from the approaching future,
I cannot tell. You are getting into years.
True. But you are getting out again. The
bowed frame, the tottering step, the unsteady hand,
the failing eye, the heavy ear, the tremulous voice,
they will all be yours. The grasshopper will
become a burden, and desire shall fail. The
fire shall be smothered in your heart, and for passion
you shall have only peace. This is not pleasant.
It is never pleasant to feel the inevitable passing
away of priceless possessions. If this were to
be the culmination of your fate, you might indeed take
up the wail for your lost youth. But this is
only for a moment. The infirmities of age come
gradually. Gently we are led down into the valley.
Slowly, and not without a soft loveliness, the shadows
lengthen. At the worst these weaknesses are but
the stepping-stones in the river, passing over which
you shall come to immortal vigor, immortal fire, immortal
beauty. All along the western sky flames and
glows the auroral light of another life. The
banner of victory waves right over your dungeon of
defeat. By the golden gateway of the sunsetting,
“Through the dear might of
Him who walked the waves,”
you shall pass into the “cloud-land,
gorgeous land,” whose splendor is unveiled only
to the eyes of the Immortals. Would you loiter
to your inheritance?
You are “getting into years.”
Yes, but the years are getting into you, the
ripe, rich years, the genial, mellow years, the lusty,
luscious years. One by one the crudities of your
youth are falling off from you, the vanity,
the egotism, the isolation, the bewilderment, the
uncertainty. Nearer and nearer you are approaching
yourself. You are consolidating your forces.
You are becoming master of the situation. Every
wrong road into which you have wandered has brought
you, by the knowledge of that mistake, so much closer
to the truth. You no longer draw your bow at
a venture, but shoot straight at the mark. Your
purposes concentrate, and your path is cleared.
On the ruins of shattered plans you find your vantage-ground.
Your broken hopes, your thwarted schemes, your defeated
aspirations, become a staff of strength with which
you mount to sublimer heights. With self-possession
and self-command return the possession and the command
of all things. The title-deed of creation, forfeited,
is reclaimed. The king has come to his own again.
Earth and sea and sky pour out their largess of love.
All the past crowds down to lay its treasures at
your feet. Patriotism stands once more in the
breach at Thermopylae, bears down the serried
hosts of Bannockburn, lays its calm hand
in the fire, still, as if it felt the pressure of a
mother’s lips, gathers to its heart
the points of opposing spears, to make a way for the
avenging feet behind. All that the ages have of
greatness and glory your hand may pluck, and every
year adds to the purple vintage. Every year
comes laden with the riches of the lives that were
lavished on it. Every year brings to you softness
and sweetness and strength. Every year evokes
order from confusion, till all things find scope and
adjustment. Every year sweeps a broader circle
for your horizon, grooves a deeper channel for your
experience. Through sun and shade and shower
you ripen to a large and liberal life.
Yours is the deep joy, the unspoken
fervor, the sacred fury of the fight. Yours
is the power to redress wrong, to defend the weak,
to succor the needy, to relieve the suffering, to
confound the oppressor. While vigor leaps in
great tidal pulses along your veins, you stand in
the thickest of the fray, and broadsword and battle-axe
come crashing down through helmet and visor.
When force has spent itself; you withdraw from the
field, your weapons pass into younger hands, you rest
under your laurels, and your works do follow you.
Your badges are the scars of your honorable wounds.
Your life finds its vindication in the deeds which
you have wrought. The possible tomorrow has become
the secure yesterday. Above the tumult and the
turbulence, above the struggle and the doubt, you
sit in the serene evening, awaiting your promotion.
Come, then, O dreaded years!
Your brows are awful, but not with frowns.
I hear your resonant tramp far off, but it is sweet
as the May-maidens’ song. In your grave
prophetic eyes I read a golden promise. I know
that you bear in your bosom the fullness of my life.
Veiled monarchs of the future, shining dim and beautiful,
you shall become my vassals, swift-footed to bear
my messages, swift-handed to work my will. Nourished
by the nectar which you will pour in passing from
your crystal cups, Death shall have no dominion over
me, but I shall go on from strength to strength and
from glory to glory.