Men can do nothing without the make-believe
of a beginning. Even science, the strict
measurer, is obliged to start with a make-believe
unit, and must fix on a point in the stars’
unceasing journey when his sidereal clock shall
pretend that time is at Nought. His less accurate
grandmother Poetry has always been understood to
start in the middle; but on reflection it appears
that her proceeding is not very different from
his; since Science, too, reckons backward as well as
forward, divides his unit into billions, and with
his clock-finger at Nought really sets off in
medias res. No retrospect will take us to
the true beginning; and whether our prologue be
in heaven or on earth, it is but a fraction of
that all-presupposing fact with which our story
sets out.
Was she beautiful or not beautiful?
and what was the secret of form or expression which
gave the dynamic quality to her glance? Was the
good or the evil genius dominant in those beams?
Probably the evil; else why was the effect that of
unrest rather than of undisturbed charm? Why was
the wish to look again felt as coercion and not as
a longing in which the whole being consents?
She who raised these questions in
Daniel Deronda’s mind was occupied in gambling:
not in the open air under a southern sky, tossing coppers
on a ruined wall, with rags about her limbs; but in
one of those splendid resorts which the enlightenment
of ages has prepared for the same species of pleasure
at a heavy cost of guilt mouldings, dark-toned color
and chubby nudities, all correspondingly heavy forming
a suitable condenser for human breath belonging, in
great part, to the highest fashion, and not easily
procurable to be breathed in elsewhere in the like
proportion, at least by persons of little fashion.
It was near four o’clock on
a September day, so that the atmosphere was well-brewed
to a visible haze. There was deep stillness, broken
only by a light rattle, a light chink, a small sweeping
sound, and an occasional monotone in French, such
as might be expected to issue from an ingeniously
constructed automaton. Round two long tables were
gathered two serried crowds of human beings, all save
one having their faces and attention bent on the tables.
The one exception was a melancholy little boy, with
his knees and calves simply in their natural clothing
of epidermis, but for the rest of his person in a
fancy dress. He alone had his face turned toward
the doorway, and fixing on it the blank gaze of a
bedizened child stationed as a masquerading advertisement
on the platform of an itinerant show, stood close
behind a lady deeply engaged at the roulette-table.
About this table fifty or sixty persons
were assembled, many in the outer rows, where there
was occasionally a deposit of new-comers, being mere
spectators, only that one of them, usually a woman,
might now and then be observed putting down a five-franc
with a simpering air, just to see what the passion
of gambling really was. Those who were taking
their pleasure at a higher strength, and were absorbed
in play, showed very distant varieties of European
type: Livonian and Spanish, Graeco-Italian and
miscellaneous German, English aristocratic and English
plebeian. Here certainly was a striking admission
of human equality. The white bejewelled fingers
of an English countess were very near touching a bony,
yellow, crab-like hand stretching a bared wrist to
clutch a heap of coin a hand easy to sort
with the square, gaunt face, deep-set eyes, grizzled
eyebrows, and ill-combed scanty hair which seemed
a slight metamorphosis of the vulture. And where
else would her ladyship have graciously consented
to sit by that dry-lipped feminine figure prematurely
old, withered after short bloom like her artificial
flowers, holding a shabby velvet reticule before her,
and occasionally putting in her mouth the point with
which she pricked her card? There too, very near
the fair countess, was a respectable London tradesman,
blonde and soft-handed, his sleek hair scrupulously
parted behind and before, conscious of circulars addressed
to the nobility and gentry, whose distinguished patronage
enabled him to take his holidays fashionably, and
to a certain extent in their distinguished company.
Not his gambler’s passion that nullifies appetite,
but a well-fed leisure, which, in the intervals of
winning money in business and spending it showily,
sees no better resource than winning money in play
and spending it yet more showily reflecting
always that Providence had never manifested any disapprobation
of his amusement, and dispassionate enough to leave
off if the sweetness of winning much and seeing others
lose had turned to the sourness of losing much and
seeing others win. For the vice of gambling lay
in losing money at it. In his bearing there might
be something of the tradesman, but in his pleasures
he was fit to rank with the owners of the oldest titles.
Standing close to his chair was a handsome Italian,
calm, statuesque, reaching across him to place the
first pile of napoléons from a new bagful just
brought him by an envoy with a scrolled mustache.
The pile was in half a minute pushed over to an old
bewigged woman with eye-glasses pinching her nose.
There was a slight gleam, a faint mumbling smile about
the lips of the old woman; but the statuesque Italian
remained impassive, and probably secure
in an infallible system which placed his foot on the
neck of chance immediately prepared a new
pile. So did a man with the air of an emaciated
beau or worn-out libertine, who looked at life through
one eye-glass, and held out his hand tremulously when
he asked for change. It could surely be no severity
of system, but rather some dream of white crows, or
the induction that the eighth of the month was lucky,
which inspired the fierce yet tottering impulsiveness
of his play.
But, while every single player differed
markedly from every other, there was a certain uniform
negativeness of expression which had the effect of
a mask as if they had all eaten of some
root that for the time compelled the brains of each
to the same narrow monotony of action.
Deronda’s first thought when
his eyes fell on this scene of dull, gas-poisoned
absorption, was that the gambling of Spanish shepherd-boys
had seemed to him more enviable: so far
Rousseau might be justified in maintaining that art
and science had done a poor service to mankind.
But suddenly he felt the moment become dramatic.
His attention was arrested by a young lady who, standing
at an angle not far from him, was the last to whom
his eyes traveled. She was bending and speaking
English to a middle-aged lady seated at play beside
her: but the next instant she returned to her
play, and showed the full height of a graceful figure,
with a face which might possibly be looked at without
admiration, but could hardly be passed with indifference.
The inward debate which she raised
in Deronda gave to his eyes a growing expression of
scrutiny, tending farther and farther away from the
glow of mingled undefined sensibilities forming admiration.
At one moment they followed the movements of the figure,
of the arms and hands, as this problematic sylph bent
forward to deposit her stake with an air of firm choice;
and the next they returned to the face which, at present
unaffected by beholders, was directed steadily toward
the game. The sylph was a winner; and as her
taper fingers, delicately gloved in pale-gray, were
adjusting the coins which had been pushed toward her
in order to pass them back again to the winning point,
she looked round her with a survey too markedly cold
and neutral not to have in it a little of that nature
which we call art concealing an inward exultation.
But in the course of that survey her
eyes met Deronda’s, and instead of averting
them as she would have desired to do, she was unpleasantly
conscious that they were arrested how long?
The darting sense that he was measuring her and looking
down on her as an inferior, that he was of different
quality from the human dross around her, that he felt
himself in a region outside and above her, and was
examining her as a specimen of a lower order, roused
a tingling resentment which stretched the moment with
conflict. It did not bring the blood to her cheeks,
but it sent it away from her lips. She controlled
herself by the help of an inward defiance, and without
other sign of emotion than this lip-paleness turned
to her play. But Deronda’s gaze seemed to
have acted as an evil eye. Her stake was gone.
No matter; she had been winning ever since she took
to roulette with a few napoléons at command,
and had a considerable reserve. She had begun
to believe in her luck, others had begun to believe
in it: she had visions of being followed by a
cortege who would worship her as a goddess of
luck and watch her play as a directing augury.
Such things had been known of male gamblers; why should
not a woman have a like supremacy? Her friend
and chaperon who had not wished her to play at first
was beginning to approve, only administering the prudent
advice to stop at the right moment and carry money
back to England advice to which Gwendolen
had replied that she cared for the excitement of play,
not the winnings. On that supposition the present
moment ought to have made the flood-tide in her eager
experience of gambling. Yet, when her next stake
was swept away, she felt the orbits of her eyes getting
hot, and the certainty she had (without looking) of
that man still watching her was something like a pressure
which begins to be torturing. The more reason
to her why she should not flinch, but go on playing
as if she were indifferent to loss or gain. Her
friend touched her elbow and proposed that they should
quit the table. For reply Gwendolen put ten louis
on the same spot: she was in that mood of defiance
in which the mind loses sight of any end beyond the
satisfaction of enraged resistance; and with the puerile
stupidity of a dominant impulse includes luck among
its objects of defiance. Since she was not winning
strikingly, the next best thing was to lose strikingly.
She controlled her muscles, and showed no tremor of
mouth or hands. Each time her stake was swept
off she doubled it. Many were now watching her,
but the sole observation she was conscious of was
Deronda’s, who, though she never looked toward
him, she was sure had not moved away. Such a
drama takes no long while to play out: development
and catastrophe can often be measured by nothing clumsier
than the moment-hand. “Faîtes vôtre
jeu, mesdames et messieurs,”
said the automatic voice of destiny from between the
mustache and imperial of the croupier: and Gwendolen’s
arm was stretched to deposit her last poor heap of
napoléons. “Le jeu ne
va plus,” said destiny. And in five
seconds Gwendolen turned from the table, but turned
resolutely with her face toward Deronda and looked
at him. There was a smile of irony in his eyes
as their glances met; but it was at least better that
he should have disregarded her as one of an insect
swarm who had no individual physiognomy. Besides,
in spite of his superciliousness and irony, it was
difficult to believe that he did not admire her spirit
as well as her person: he was young, handsome,
distinguished in appearance not one of these
ridiculous and dowdy Philistines who thought it incumbent
on them to blight the gaming-table with a sour look
of protest as they passed by it. The general
conviction that we are admirable does not easily give
way before a single negative; rather when any of Vanity’s
large family, male or female, find their performance
received coldly, they are apt to believe that a little
more of it will win over the unaccountable dissident.
In Gwendolen’s habits of mind it had been taken
for granted that she knew what was admirable and that
she herself was admired. This basis of her thinking
had received a disagreeable concussion, and reeled
a little, but was not easily to be overthrown.
In the evening the same room was more
stiflingly heated, was brilliant with gas and with
the costumes of ladies who floated their trains along
it or were seated on the ottomans.
The Nereid in sea-green robes and
silver ornaments, with a pale sea-green feather fastened
in silver falling backward over her green hat and
light brown hair, was Gwendolen Harleth. She was
under the wing, or rather soared by the shoulder,
of the lady who had sat by her at the roulette-table;
and with them was a gentleman with a white mustache
and clipped hair: solid-browed, stiff and German.
They were walking about or standing to chat with acquaintances,
and Gwendolen was much observed by the seated groups.
“A striking girl that Miss Harleth unlike
others.”
“Yes, she has got herself up
as a sort of serpent now all green and
silver, and winds her neck about a little more than
usual.”
“Oh, she must always be doing
something extraordinary. She is that kind of
girl, I fancy. Do you think her pretty, Mr. Vandernoodt?”
“Very. A man might risk
hanging for her I mean a fool might.”
“You like a nez retrousse, then, and
long narrow eyes?”
“When they go with such an ensemble.”
“The ensemble du serpent?”
“If you will. Woman was tempted by a serpent;
why not man?”
“She is certainly very graceful;
but she wants a tinge of color in her cheeks.
It is a sort of Lamia beauty she has.”
“On the contrary, I think her
complexion one of her chief charms. It is a warm
paleness; it looks thoroughly healthy. And that
delicate nose with its gradual little upward curve
is distracting. And then her mouth there
never was a prettier mouth, the lips curled backward
so finely, eh, Mackworth?”
“Think so? I cannot endure
that sort of mouth. It looks so self-complacent,
as if it knew its own beauty the curves
are too immovable. I like a mouth that trembles
more.”
“For my part, I think her odious,”
said a dowager. “It is wonderful what unpleasant
girls get into vogue. Who are these Langens?
Does anybody know them?”
“They are quite comme il
faut. I have dined with them several times
at the Russie. The baroness is English.
Miss Harleth calls her cousin. The girl herself
is thoroughly well-bred, and as clever as possible.”
“Dear me! and the baron?”.
“A very good furniture picture.”
“Your baroness is always at
the roulette-table,” said Mackworth. “I
fancy she has taught the girl to gamble.”
“Oh, the old woman plays a very
sober game; drops a ten-franc piece here and there.
The girl is more headlong. But it is only a freak.”
“I hear she has lost all her
winnings to-day. Are they rich? Who knows?”
“Ah, who knows? Who knows
that about anybody?” said Mr. Vandernoodt, moving
off to join the Langens.
The remark that Gwendolen wound her
neck about more than usual this evening was true.
But it was not that she might carry out the serpent
idea more completely: it was that she watched
for any chance of seeing Deronda, so that she might
inquire about this stranger, under whose measuring
gaze she was still wincing. At last her opportunity
came.
“Mr. Vandernoodt, you know everybody,”
said Gwendolen, not too eagerly, rather with a certain
languor of utterance which she sometimes gave to her
clear soprano. “Who is that near the door?”
“There are half a dozen near
the door. Do you mean that old Adonis in the
George the Fourth wig?”
“No, no; the dark-haired young
man on the right with the dreadful expression.”
“Dreadful, do you call it?
I think he is an uncommonly fine fellow.”
“But who is he?”
“He is lately come to our hotel with Sir Hugo
Mallinger.”
“Sir Hugo Mallinger?”
“Yes. Do you know him?”
“No.” (Gwendolen colored
slightly.) “He has a place near us, but he never
comes to it. What did you say was the name of
that gentleman near the door?”
“Deronda Mr. Deronda.”
“What a delightful name! Is he an Englishman?”
“Yes. He is reported to
be rather closely related to the baronet. You
are interested in him?”
“Yes. I think he is not like young men
in general.”
“And you don’t admire young men in general?”
“Not in the least. I always
know what they will say. I can’t at all
guess what this Mr. Deronda would say. What does
he say?”
“Nothing, chiefly. I sat
with his party for a good hour last night on the terrace,
and he never spoke and was not smoking either.
He looked bored.”
“Another reason why I should like to know him.
I am always bored.”
“I should think he would be
charmed to have an introduction. Shall I bring
it about? Will you allow it, baroness?”
“Why not? since he
is related to Sir Hugo Mallinger. It is a new
rôle of yours, Gwendolen, to be always bored,”
continued Madame von Langen, when Mr. Vandernoodt
had moved away. “Until now you have always
seemed eager about something from morning till night.”
“That is just because I am bored
to death. If I am to leave off play I must break
my arm or my collar-bone. I must make something
happen; unless you will go into Switzerland and take
me up the Matterhorn.”
“Perhaps this Mr. Deronda’s
acquaintance will do instead of the Matterhorn.”
“Perhaps.”
But Gwendolen did not make Deronda’s
acquaintance on this occasion. Mr. Vandernoodt
did not succeed in bringing him up to her that evening,
and when she re-entered her own room she found a letter
recalling her home.