“A wild dedication of
yourselves
To unpath’d waters, undreamed shores.”
SHAKESPEARE.
On the day when Gwendolen Harleth
was married and became Mrs. Grandcourt, the morning
was clear and bright, and while the sun was low a
slight frost crisped the leaves. The bridal party
was worth seeing, and half Pennicote turned out to
see it, lining the pathway up to the church.
An old friend of the rector’s performed the marriage
ceremony, the rector himself acting as father, to
the great advantage of the procession. Only two
faces, it was remarked, showed signs of sadness Mrs.
Davilow’s and Anna’s. The mother’s
delicate eyelids were pink, as if she had been crying
half the night; and no one was surprised that, splendid
as the match was, she should feel the parting from
a daughter who was the flower of her children and of
her own life. It was less understood why Anna
should be troubled when she was being so well set
off by the bridesmaid’s dress. Every one
else seemed to reflect the brilliancy of the occasion the
bride most of all. Of her it was agreed that
as to figure and carriage she was worthy to be a “lady
o’ title”: as to face, perhaps it
might be thought that a title required something more
rosy; but the bridegroom himself not being fresh-colored being
indeed, as the miller’s wife observed, very much
of her own husband’s complexion the
match was the more complete. Anyhow he must be
very fond of her; and it was to be hoped that he would
never cast it up to her that she had been going out
to service as a governess, and her mother to live
at Sawyer’s Cottage vicissitudes
which had been much spoken of in the village.
The miller’s daughter of fourteen could not
believe that high gentry behaved badly to their wives,
but her mother instructed her “Oh,
child, men’s men: gentle or simple, they’re
much of a muchness. I’ve heard my mother
say Squire Pelton used to take his dogs and a long
whip into his wife’s room, and flog ’em
there to frighten her; and my mother was lady’s-maid
there at the very time.”
“That’s unlucky talk for
a wedding, Mrs. Girdle,” said the tailor.
“A quarrel may end wi’ the whip, but it
begins wi’ the tongue, and it’s the women
have got the most o’ that.”
“The Lord gave it ’em
to use, I suppose,” said Mrs. Girdle. “He
never meant you to have it all your own way.”
“By what I can make out from
the gentleman as attends to the grooming at Offendene,”
said the tailor, “this Mr. Grandcourt has wonderful
little tongue. Everything must be done dummy-like
without his ordering.”
“Then he’s the more whip,
I doubt,” said Mrs. Girdle. “She’s
got tongue enough, I warrant her. See, there
they come out together!”
“What wonderful long corners
she’s got to her eyes!” said the tailor.
“She makes you feel comical when she looks at
you.”
Gwendolen, in fact, never showed more
elasticity in her bearing, more lustre in her long
brown glance: she had the brilliancy of strong
excitement, which will sometimes come even from pain.
It was not pain, however, that she was feeling:
she had wrought herself up to much the same condition
as that in which she stood at the gambling-table when
Deronda was looking at her, and she began to lose.
There was an enjoyment in it: whatever uneasiness
a growing conscience had created was disregarded as
an ailment might have been, amidst the gratification
of that ambitious vanity and desire for luxury within
her which it would take a great deal of slow poisoning
to kill. This morning she could not have said
truly that she repented her acceptance of Grandcourt,
or that any fears in hazy perspective could hinder
the glowing effect of the immediate scene in which
she was the central object. That she was doing
something wrong that a punishment might
be hanging over her that the woman to whom
she had given a promise and broken it, was thinking
of her in bitterness and misery with a just reproach that
Deronda with his way of looking into things very likely
despised her for marrying Grandcourt, as he had despised
her for gambling above all, that the cord
which united her with this lover and which she had
heretofore held by the hand, was now being flung over
her neck, all this yeasty mingling of dimly
understood facts with vague but deep impressions,
and with images half real, half fantastic, had been
disturbing her during the weeks of her engagement.
Was that agitating experience nullified this morning?
No: it was surmounted and thrust down with a
sort of exulting defiance as she felt herself standing
at the game of life with many eyes upon her, daring
everything to win much or if to lose, still
with eclat and a sense of importance.
But this morning a losing destiny for herself did not
press upon her as a fear: she thought that she
was entering on a fuller power of managing circumstances with
all the official strength of marriage, which some
women made so poor a use of. That intoxication
of youthful egoism out of which she had been shaken
by trouble, humiliation, and a new sense of culpability,
had returned upon her under a newly-fed strength of
the old fumes. She did not in the least present
the ideal of the tearful, tremulous bride. Poor
Gwendolen, whom some had judged much too forward and
instructed in the world’s ways! with
her erect head and elastic footstep she was walking
among illusions; and yet, too, there was an under-consciousness
of her that she was a little intoxicated.
“Thank God you bear it so well,
my darling!” said Mrs. Davilow, when she had
helped Gwendolen to doff her bridal white and put on
her traveling dress. All the trembling had been
done by the poor mother, and her agitation urged Gwendolen
doubly to take the morning as if it were a triumph.
“Why, you might have said that,
if I had been going to Mrs. Mompert’s, you dear,
sad, incorrigible mamma!” said Gwendolen just
putting her hands to her mother’s cheeks with
laughing tenderness then retreating a little
and spreading out her arms as if to exhibit herself:
“Here am I Mrs. Grandcourt! what
else would you have me, but what I am sure to be?
You know you were ready to die with vexation when you
thought that I would not be Mrs. Grandcourt.”
“Hush, hush, my child, for heaven’s
sake!” said Mrs. Davilow, almost in a whisper.
“How can I help feeling it when I am parting
from you. But I can bear anything gladly if you
are happy.”
“Not gladly, mamma, no!”
said Gwendolen, shaking her head, with a bright smile.
“Willingly you would bear it, but always sorrowfully.
Sorrowing is your sauce; you can take nothing without
it.” Then, clasping her mother’s
shoulders and raining kisses first on one cheek and
then on the other between her words, she said, gaily,
“And you shall sorrow over my having everything
at my beck –and enjoying everything
glorious splendid houses and
horses and diamonds, I shall have diamonds and
going to court and being Lady Certainly and
Lady Perhaps and grand here and
tantivy there and always loving you better
than anybody else in the world.”
“My sweet child! But
I shall not be jealous if you love your husband better;
and he will expect to be first.”
Gwendolen thrust out her lips and
chin with a pretty grimace, saying, “Rather
a ridiculous expectation. However, I don’t
mean to treat him ill, unless he deserves it.”
Then the two fell into a clinging
embrace, and Gwendolen could not hinder a rising sob
when she said, “I wish you were going with me,
mamma.”
But the slight dew on her long eyelashes
only made her the more charming when she gave her
hand to Grandcourt to be led to the carriage.
The rector looked in on her to give
a final “Good-bye; God bless you; we shall see
you again before long,” and then returned to
Mrs. Davilow, saying half cheerfully, half solemnly
“Let us be thankful, Fanny.
She is in a position well suited to her, and beyond
what I should have dared to hope for. And few
women can have been chosen more entirely for their
own sake. You should feel yourself a happy mother.”
There was a railway journey of some
fifty miles before the new husband and wife reached
the station near Ryelands. The sky had veiled
itself since the morning, and it was hardly more than
twilight when they entered the park-gates, but still
Gwendolen, looking out of the carriage-window as they
drove rapidly along, could see the grand outlines
and the nearer beauties of the scene the
long winding drive bordered with evergreens backed
by huge gray stems: then the opening of wide
grassy spaces and undulations studded with dark clumps;
till at last came a wide level where the white house
could be seen, with a hanging wood for a back-ground,
and the rising and sinking balustrade of a terrace
in front.
Gwendolen had been at her liveliest
during the journey, chatting incessantly, ignoring
any change in their mutual position since yesterday;
and Grandcourt had been rather ecstatically quiescent,
while she turned his gentle seizure of her hand into
a grasp of his hand by both hers, with an increased
vivacity as of a kitten that will not sit quiet to
be petted. She was really getting somewhat febrile
in her excitement; and now in this drive through the
park her usual susceptibility to changes of light
and scenery helped to make her heart palpitate newly.
Was it at the novelty simply, or the almost incredible
fulfilment about to be given to her girlish dreams
of being “somebody” walking
through her own furlong of corridor and under her
own ceilings of an out-of-sight loftiness, where her
own painted Spring was shedding painted flowers, and
her own fore-shortened Zéphyrs were blowing their
trumpets over her; while her own servants, lackeys
in clothing but men in bulk and shape, were as nought
in her presence, and revered the propriety of her
insolence to them: being in short the heroine
of an admired play without the pains of art? Was
it alone the closeness of this fulfilment which made
her heart flutter? or was it some dim forecast, the
insistent penetration of suppressed experience, mixing
the expectation of a triumph with the dread of a crisis?
Hers was one of the natures in which exultation inevitably
carries an infusion of dread ready to curdle and declare
itself.
She fell silent in spite of herself
as they approached the gates, and when her husband
said, “Here we are at home!” and for the
first time kissed her on the lips, she hardly knew
of it: it was no more than the passive acceptance
of a greeting in the midst of an absorbing show.
Was not all her hurrying life of the last three months
a show, in which her consciousness was a wondering
spectator? After the half-willful excitement
of the day, a numbness had come over her personality.
But there was a brilliant light in
the hall warmth, matting, carpets, full-length
portraits, Olympian statues, assiduous servants.
Not many servants, however: only a few from Diplow
in addition to those constantly in charge of the house;
and Gwendolen’s new maid, who had come with
her, was taken under guidance by the housekeeper.
Gwendolen felt herself being led by Grandcourt along
a subtly-scented corridor, into an ante-room where
she saw an open doorway sending out a rich glow of
light and color.
“These are our dens,”
said Grandcourt. “You will like to be quiet
here till dinner. We shall dine early.”
He pressed her hand to his lips and
moved away, more in love than he had ever expected
to be.
Gwendolen, yielded up her hat and
mantle, threw herself into a chair by the glowing
hearth, and saw herself repeated in glass panels with
all her faint-green satin surroundings. The housekeeper
had passed into this boudoir from the adjoining dressing-room
and seemed disposed to linger, Gwendolen thought,
in order to look at the new mistress of Ryelands,
who, however, being impatient for solitude said to
her, “Will you tell Hudson when she has put
out my dress to leave everything? I shall not
want her again, unless I ring.”
The housekeeper, coming forward, said,
“Here is a packet, madam, which I was ordered
to give into nobody’s hands but yours, when you
were alone. The person who brought it said it
was a present particularly ordered by Mr. Grandcourt;
but he was not to know of its arrival till he saw
you wear it. Excuse me, madam; I felt it right
to obey orders.”
Gwendolen took the packet and let
it lie on her lap till she heard the doors close.
It came into her mind that the packet might contain
the diamonds which Grandcourt had spoken of as being
deposited somewhere and to be given to her on her
marriage. In this moment of confused feeling
and creeping luxurious languor she was glad of this
diversion glad of such an event as having
her own diamonds to try on.
Within all the sealed paper coverings
was a box, but within the box there was a jewel-case;
and now she felt no doubt that she had the diamonds.
But on opening the case, in the same instant that she
saw them gleam she saw a letter lying above them.
She knew the handwriting of the address. It was
as if an adder had lain on them. Her heart gave
a leap which seemed to have spent all her strength;
and as she opened the bit of thin paper, it shook
with the trembling of her hands. But it was legible
as print, and thrust its words upon her.
These diamonds, which were once given
with ardent love to Lydia Glasher, she passes
on to you. You have broken your word to her, that
you might possess what was hers. Perhaps you
think of being happy, as she once was, and of
having beautiful children such as hers, who will thrust
hers aside. God is too just for that. The
man you have married has a withered heart.
His best young love was mine: you could not take
that from me when you took the rest. It is
dead: but I am the grave in which your chance
of happiness is buried as well as mine. You had
your warning. You have chosen to injure me
and my children. He had meant to marry me.
He would have married me at last, if you had not broken
your word. You will have your punishment.
I desire it with all my soul.
Will you give him this letter to set
him against me and ruin us more me
and my children? Shall you like to stand before
your husband with these diamonds on you, and these
words of mine in his thoughts and yours?
Will he think you have any right to complain when he
has made you miserable? You took him with
your eyes open. The willing wrong you have
done me will be your curse.
It seemed at first as if Gwendolen’s
eyes were spell-bound in reading the horrible words
of the letter over and over again as a doom of penance;
but suddenly a new spasm of terror made her lean forward
and stretch out the paper toward the fire, lest accusation
and proof at once should meet all eyes. It flew
like a feather from her trembling fingers and was
caught up in a great draught of flame. In her
movement the casket fell on the floor and the diamonds
rolled out. She took no notice, but fell back
in her chair again helpless. She could not see
the reflections of herself then; they were like so
many women petrified white; but coming near herself
you might have seen the tremor in her lips and hands.
She sat so for a long while, knowing little more than
that she was feeling ill, and that those written words
kept repeating themselves to her.
Truly here were poisoned gems, and
the poison had entered into this poor young creature.
After that long while, there was a
tap at the door and Grandcourt entered, dressed for
dinner. The sight of him brought a new nervous
shock, and Gwendolen screamed again and again with
hysterical violence. He had expected to see her
dressed and smiling, ready to be led down. He
saw her pallid, shrieking as it seemed with terror,
the jewels scattered around her on the floor.
Was it a fit of madness?
In some form or other the furies had
crossed his threshold.