“Within the soul a faculty abides,
That with interpositions, which would
hide
And darken, so can deal, that they become
Contingencies of pomp; and serve to exalt
Her native brightness, as the ample moon.
In the deep stillness of a summer even.
Rising behind a thick and lofty grove.
Into a substance glorious as her own,
Yea, with her own incorporated, by power
Capacious and serene.”
WORDSWORTH:
Excursion, B. IV.
Deronda came out of the narrow house
at Chelsea in a frame of mind that made him long for
some good bodily exercise to carry off what he was
himself inclined to call the fumes of his temper.
He was going toward the city, and the sight of the
Chelsea Stairs with the waiting boats at once determined
him to avoid the irritating inaction of being driven
in a cab, by calling a wherry and taking an oar.
His errand was to go to Ram’s
book-shop, where he had yesterday arrived too late
for Mordecai’s midday watch, and had been told
that he invariably came there again between five and
six. Some further acquaintance with this remarkable
inmate of the Cohens was particularly desired by Deronda
as a preliminary to redeeming his ring: he wished
that their conversation should not again end speedily
with that drop of Mordecai’s interest which
was like the removal of a drawbridge, and threatened
to shut out any easy communication in future.
As he got warmed with the use of the oar, fixing his
mind on the errand before him and the ends he wanted
to achieve on Mirah’s account, he experienced,
as was wont with him, a quick change of mental light,
shifting his point of view to that of the person whom
he had been thinking of hitherto chiefly as serviceable
to his own purposes, and was inclined to taunt himself
with being not much better than an enlisting sergeant,
who never troubles himself with the drama that brings
him the needful recruits.
“I suppose if I got from this
man the information I am most anxious about,”
thought Deronda, “I should be contented enough
if he felt no disposition to tell me more of himself,
or why he seemed to have some expectation from me
which was disappointed. The sort of curiosity
he stirs would die out; and yet it might be that he
had neared and parted as one can imagine two ships
doing, each freighted with an exile who would have
recognized the other if the two could have looked out
face to face. Not that there is any likelihood
of a peculiar tie between me and this poor fellow,
whose voyage, I fancy, must soon be over. But
I wonder whether there is much of that momentous mutual
missing between people who interchange blank looks,
or even long for one another’s absence in a
crowded place. However, one makes one’s
self chances of missing by going on the recruiting
sergeant’s plan.”
When the wherry was approaching Blackfriars
Bridge, where Deronda meant to land, it was half-past
four, and the gray day was dying gloriously, its western
clouds all broken into narrowing purple strata before
a wide-spreading saffron clearness, which in the sky
had a monumental calm, but on the river, with its
changing objects, was reflected as a luminous movement,
the alternate flash of ripples or currents, the sudden
glow of the brown sail, the passage of laden barges
from blackness into color, making an active response
to that brooding glory.
Feeling well heated by this time,
Deronda gave up the oar and drew over him again his
Inverness cape. As he lifted up his head while
fastening the topmost button his eyes caught a well-remembered
face looking toward him over the parapet of the bridge brought
out by the western light into startling distinctness
and brilliancy an illuminated type of bodily
emaciation and spiritual eagerness. It was the
face of Mordecai, who also, in his watch toward the
west, had caught sight of the advancing boat, and
had kept it fast within his gaze, at first simply
because it was advancing, then with a recovery of impressions
that made him quiver as with a presentiment, till at
last the nearing figure lifted up its face toward
him the face of his visions and
then immediately, with white uplifted hand, beckoned
again and again.
For Deronda, anxious that Mordecai
should recognize and await him, had lost no time before
signaling, and the answer came straightway. Mordecai
lifted his cap and waved it feeling in that
moment that his inward prophecy was fulfilled.
Obstacles, incongruities, all melted into the sense
of completion with which his soul was flooded by this
outward satisfaction of his longing. His exultation
was not widely different from that of the experimenter,
bending over the first stirrings of change that correspond
to what in the fervor of concentrated prevision his
thought has foreshadowed. The prefigured friend
had come from the golden background, and had signaled
to him: this actually was: the rest was
to be.
In three minutes Deronda had landed,
had paid his boatman, and was joining Mordecai, whose
instinct it was to stand perfectly still and wait
for him.
“I was very glad to see you
standing here,” said Deronda, “for I was
intending to go on to the book-shop and look for you
again. I was there yesterday perhaps
they mentioned it to you?”
“Yes,” said Mordecai;
“that was the reason I came to the bridge.”
This answer, made with simple gravity,
was startlingly mysterious to Deronda. Were the
peculiarities of this man really associated with any
sort of mental alienation, according to Cohen’s
hint?
“You knew nothing of my being
at Chelsea?” he said, after a moment.
“No; but I expected you to come
down the river. I have been waiting for you these
five years.” Mordecai’s deep-sunk
eyes were fixed on those of the friend who had at
last arrived with a look of affectionate dependence,
at once pathetic and solemn. Deronda’s sensitiveness
was not the less responsive because he could not but
believe that this strangely-disclosed relation was
founded on an illusion.
“It will be a satisfaction to
me if I can be of any real use to you,” he answered,
very earnestly. “Shall we get into a cab
and drive to wherever you wish to go?
You have probably had walking enough with your short
breath.”
“Let us go to the book-shop.
It will soon be time for me to be there. But
now look up the river,” said Mordecai, turning
again toward it and speaking in undertones of what
may be called an excited calm so absorbed
by a sense of fulfillment that he was conscious of
no barrier to a complete understanding between him
and Deronda. “See the sky, how it is slowly
fading. I have always loved this bridge:
I stood on it when I was a little boy. It is
a meeting-place for the spiritual messengers.
It is true what the Masters said that
each order of things has its angel: that means
the full message of each from what is afar. Here
I have listened to the messages of earth and sky; when
I was stronger I used to stay and watch for the stars
in the deep heavens. But this time just about
sunset was always what I loved best. It has sunk
into me and dwelt with me fading, slowly
fading: it was my own decline: it paused it
waited, till at last it brought me my new life my
new self who will live when this breath
is all breathed out.”
Deronda did not speak. He felt
himself strangely wrought upon. The first-prompted
suspicion that Mordecai might be liable to hallucinations
of thought might have become a monomaniac
on some subject which had given too severe a strain
to his diseased organism gave way to a
more submissive expectancy. His nature was too
large, too ready to conceive regions beyond his own
experience, to rest at once in the easy explanation,
“madness,” whenever a consciousness showed
some fullness and conviction where his own was blank.
It accorded with his habitual disposition that he
should meet rather than resist any claim on him in
the shape of another’s need; and this claim
brought with it a sense of solemnity which seemed a
radiation from Mordecai, as utterly nullifying his
outward poverty and lifting him into authority as
if he had been that preternatural guide seen in the
universal legend, who suddenly drops his mean disguise
and stands a manifest Power. That impression
was the more sanctioned by a sort of resolved quietude
which the persuasion of fulfillment had produced in
Mordecai’s manner. After they had stood
a moment in silence he said, “Let us go now,”
and when they were riding he added, “We will
get down at the end of the street and walk to the
shop. You can look at the books, and Mr. Ram
will be going away directly and leave us alone.”
It seemed that this enthusiast was
just as cautious, just as much alive to judgments
in other minds as if he had been that antipode of all
enthusiasm called “a man of the world.”
While they were rattling along in
the cab, Mirah was still present with Deronda in the
midst of this strange experience, but he foresaw that
the course of conversation would be determined by Mordecai,
not by himself: he was no longer confident what
questions he should be able to ask; and with a reaction
on his own mood, he inwardly said, “I suppose
I am in a state of complete superstition, just as if
I were awaiting the destiny that could interpret the
oracle. But some strong relation there must be
between me and this man, since he feels it strongly.
Great heaven! what relation has proved itself more
potent in the world than faith even when mistaken than
expectation even when perpetually disappointed?
Is my side of the relation to be disappointing or
fulfilling? well, if it is ever possible
for me to fulfill I will not disappoint.”
In ten minutes the two men, with as
intense a consciousness as if they had been two undeclared
lovers, felt themselves alone in the small gas-lit
book-shop and turned face to face, each baring his
head from an instinctive feeling that they wished
to see each other fully. Mordecai came forward
to lean his back against the little counter, while
Deronda stood against the opposite wall hardly more
than four feet off. I wish I could perpetuate
those two faces, as Titian’s “Tribute Money”
has perpetuated two types presenting another sort
of contrast. Imagine we all of us
can the pathetic stamp of consumption with
its brilliancy of glance to which the sharply-defined
structure of features reminding one of a forsaken
temple, give already a far-off look as of one getting
unwillingly out of reach; and imagine it on a Jewish
face naturally accentuated for the expression of an
eager mind the face of a man little above
thirty, but with that age upon it which belongs to
time lengthened by suffering, the hair and beard,
still black, throwing out the yellow pallor of the
skin, the difficult breathing giving more decided
marking to the mobile nostril, the wasted yellow hands
conspicuous on the folded arms: then give to the
yearning consumptive glance something of the slowly
dying mother’s look, when her one loved son
visits her bedside, and the flickering power of gladness
leaps out as she says, “My boy!” for
the sense of spiritual perpetuation in another resembles
that maternal transference of self.
Seeing such a portrait you would see
Mordecai. And opposite to him was a face not
more distinctively oriental than many a type seen among
what we call the Latin races; rich in youthful health,
and with a forcible masculine gravity in its repose,
that gave the value of judgment to the reverence with
which he met the gaze of this mysterious son of poverty
who claimed him as a long-expected friend. The
more exquisite quality of Deronda’s nature that
keenly perceptive sympathetic emotiveness which ran
along with his speculative tendency was
never more thoroughly tested. He felt nothing
that could be called belief in the validity of Mordecai’s
impressions concerning him or in the probability of
any greatly effective issue: what he felt was
a profound sensibility to a cry from the depths of
another and accompanying that, the summons to be receptive
instead of superciliously prejudging. Receptiveness
is a rare and massive power, like fortitude; and this
state of mind now gave Deronda’s face its utmost
expression of calm benignant force an expression
which nourished Mordecai’s confidence and made
an open way before him. He began to speak.
“You cannot know what has guided
me to you and brought us together at this moment.
You are wondering.”
“I am not impatient,”
said Deronda. “I am ready to listen to whatever
you may wish to disclose.”
“You see some of the reasons
why I needed you,” said Mordecai, speaking quietly,
as if he wished to reserve his strength. “You
see that I am dying. You see that I am as one
shut up behind bars by the wayside, who if he spoke
to any would be met only by head-shaking and pity.
The day is closing the light is fading soon
we should not have been able to discern each other.
But you have come in time.”
“I rejoice that I am come in
time,” said Deronda, feelingly. He would
not say, “I hope you are not mistaken in me,” the
very word “mistaken,” he thought, would
be a cruelty at that moment.
“But the hidden reasons why
I need you began afar off,” said Mordecai; “began
in my early years when I was studying in another land.
Then ideas, beloved ideas, came to me, because I was
a Jew. They were a trust to fulfill, because
I was a Jew. They were an inspiration, because
I was a Jew, and felt the heart of my race beating
within me. They were my life; I was not fully
born till then. I counted this heart, and this
breath, and this right hand” Mordecai
had pathetically pressed his hand upon his breast,
and then stretched its wasted fingers out before him “I
counted my sleep and my waking, and the work I fed
my body with, and the sights that fed my eyes I
counted them but as fuel to the divine flame.
But I had done as one who wanders and engraves his
thought in rocky solitudes, and before I could change
my course came care and labor and disease, and blocked
the way before me, and bound me with the iron that
eats itself into the soul. Then I said, ’How
shall I save the life within me from being stifled
with this stifled breath?’”
Mordecai paused to rest that poor
breath which had been taxed by the rising excitement
of his speech. And also he wished to check that
excitement. Deronda dared not speak the very silence
in the narrow space seemed alive with mingled awe
and compassion before this struggling fervor.
And presently Mordecai went on
“But you may misunderstand me.
I speak not as an ignorant dreamer as one
bred up in the inland valleys, thinking ancient thoughts
anew, and not knowing them ancient, never having stood
by the great waters where the world’s knowledge
passes to and fro. English is my mother-tongue,
England is the native land of this body, which is but
as a breaking pot of earth around the fruit-bearing
tree, whose seed might make the desert rejoice.
But my true life was nourished in Holland at the feet
of my mother’s brother, a Rabbi skilled in special
learning: and when he died I went to Hamburg
to study, and afterwards to Goettingen, that I might
take a larger outlook on my people, and on the Gentile
world, and drank knowledge at all sources. I
was a youth; I felt free; I saw our chief seats in
Germany; I was not then in utter poverty. And
I had possessed myself of a handicraft. For I
said, I care not if my lot be as that of Joshua ben
Chananja: after the last destruction he earned
his bread by making needles, but in his youth he had
been a singer on the steps of the Temple, and had
a memory of what was before the glory departed.
I said, let my body dwell in poverty, and my hands
be as the hands of the toiler: but let my soul
be as a temple of remembrance where the treasures
of knowledge enter and the inner sanctuary is hope.
I knew what I chose. They said, ‘He feeds
himself on visions,’ and I denied not; for visions
are the creators and feeders of the world. I
see, I measure the world as it is, which the vision
will create anew. You are not listening to one
who raves aloof from the lives of his fellows.”
Mordecai paused, and Deronda, feeling
that the pause was expectant, said, “Do me the
justice to believe that I was not inclined to call
your words raving. I listen that I may know, without
prejudgment. I have had experience which gives
me a keen interest in the story of a spiritual destiny
embraced willingly, and embraced in youth.”
“A spiritual destiny embraced
willingly in youth?” Mordecai repeated
in a corrective tone. “It was the soul fully
born within me, and it came in my boyhood. It
brought its own world a mediaeval world,
where there are men who made the ancient language
live again in new psalms of exile. They had absorbed
the philosophy of the Gentile into the faith of the
Jew, and they still yearned toward a center for our
race. One of their souls was born again within
me, and awakened amid the memories of their world.
It traveled into Spain and Provence; it debated with
Aben-Ezra; it took ship with Jehuda ha-Levi; it heard
the roar of the Crusaders and the shrieks of tortured
Israel. And when its dumb tongue was loosed,
it spoke the speech they had made alive with the new
blood of their ardor, their sorrow, and their martyred
trust: it sang with the cadence of their strain.”
Mordecai paused again, and then said
in a loud, hoarse whisper
“While it is imprisoned in me,
it will never learn another.”
“Have you written entirely in
Hebrew, then?” said Deronda, remembering with
some anxiety the former question as to his own knowledge
of that tongue.
“Yes yes,”
said Mordecai, in a tone of deep sadness: “in
my youth I wandered toward that solitude, not feeling
that it was a solitude. I had the ranks of the
great dead around me; the martyrs gathered and listened.
But soon I found that the living were deaf to me.
At first I saw my life spread as a long future:
I said part of my Jewish heritage is an unbreaking
patience; part is skill to seek divers methods and
find a rooting-place where the planters despair.
But there came new messengers from the Eternal.
I had to bow under the yoke that presses on the great
multitude born of woman: family troubles called
me I had to work, to care, not for myself
alone. I was left solitary again; but already
the angel of death had turned to me and beckoned, and
I felt his skirts continually on my path. I loosed
not my effort. I besought hearing and help.
I spoke; I went to men of our people to
the rich in influence or knowledge, to the rich in
other wealth. But I found none to listen with
understanding. I was rebuked for error; I was
offered a small sum in charity. No wonder.
I looked poor; I carried a bundle of Hebrew manuscript
with me; I said, our chief teachers are misleading
the hope of our race. Scholar and merchant were
both too busy to listen. Scorn stood as interpreter
between me and them. One said, ’The book
of Mormon would never have answered in Hebrew; and
if you mean to address our learned men, it is not
likely you can teach them anything.’ He
touched a truth there.”
The last words had a perceptible irony
in their hoarsened tone.
“But though you had accustomed
yourself to write in Hebrew, few, surely, can use
English better,” said Deronda, wanting to hint
consolation in a new effort for which he could smooth
the way.
Mordecai shook his head slowly, and answered
“Too late too late.
I can write no more. My writing would be like
this gasping breath. But the breath may wake
the fount of pity the writing not.
If I could write now and used English, I should be
as one who beats a board to summon those who have
been used to no signal but a bell. My soul has
an ear to hear the faults of its own speech. New
writing of mine would be like this body” Mordecai
spread his arms “within it there
might be the Ruach-ha-kodesh the breath
of divine thought but, men would smile
at it and say, ‘A poor Jew!’ and the chief
smilers would be of my own people.”
Mordecai let his hands fall, and his
head sink in melancholy: for the moment he had
lost hold of his hope. Despondency, conjured up
by his own words, had floated in and hovered above
him with eclipsing wings. He had sunk into momentary
darkness,
“I feel with you I
feel strongly with you,” said Deronda, in a clear
deep voice which was itself a cordial, apart from the
words of sympathy. “But forgive me if I
speak hastily for what you have actually
written there need be no utter burial. The means
of publication are within reach. If you will
rely on me, I can assure you of all that is necessary
to that end.”
“That is not enough,”
said Mordecai, quickly, looking up again with the
flash of recovered memory and confidence. “That
is not all my trust in you. You must be not only
a hand to me, but a soul believing my belief being
moved by my reasons hoping my hope-seeing
the vision I point to beholding a glory
where I behold it!” Mordecai had taken
a step nearer as he spoke, and now laid his hand on
Deronda’s arm with a tight grasp; his face little
more than a foot off had something like a pale flame
in it an intensity of reliance that acted
as a peremptory claim, while he went on “You
will be my life: it will be planted afresh; it
will grow. You shall take the inheritance; it
has been gathering for ages. The generations
are crowding on my narrow life as a bridge: what
has been and what is to be are meeting there; and the
bridge is breaking. But I have found you.
You have come in time, You will take the inheritance
which the base son refuses because of the tombs which
the plow and harrow may not pass over or the gold-seeker
disturb: you will take the sacred inheritance
of the Jew.”
Deronda had become as pallid as Mordecai.
Quick as an alarm of flood or fire, there spread within
him not only a compassionate dread of discouraging
this fellowman who urged a prayer as one in the last
agony, but also tie opposing dread of fatally feeding
an illusion, and being hurried on to a self-committal
which might turn into a falsity. The peculiar
appeal to his tenderness overcame the repulsion that
most of us experience under a grasp and speech which
assumed to dominate. The difficulty to him was
to inflict the accents of hesitation and doubt on
this ardent suffering creature, who was crowding too
much of his brief being into a moment of perhaps extravagant
trust. With exquisite instinct, Deronda, before
he opened his lips, placed his palm gently on Mordecai’s
straining hand an act just then equal to
many speeches. And after that he said, without
haste, as if conscious that he might be wrong
“Do you forget what I told you
when we first saw each other? Do you remember
that I said I was not of your race?”
“It can’t be true,”
Mordecai whispered immediately, with no sign of shock.
The sympathetic hand still upon him had fortified the
feeling which was stronger than those words of denial.
There was a perceptible pause, Deronda feeling it
impossible to answer, conscious indeed that the assertion
“It can’t be true” had
the pressure of argument for him. Mordecai, too
entirely possessed by the supreme importance of the
relation between himself and Deronda to have any other
care in his speech, followed up that assertion by
a second, which came to his lips as a mere sequence
of his long-cherished conviction “You
are not sure of your own origin.”
“How do you know that?”
said Daniel, with an habitual shrinking which made
him remove his hands from Mordecai’s, who also
relaxed his hold, and fell back into his former leaning
position.
“I know it I know
it; what is my life else?” said Mordecai, with
a low cry of impatience. “Tell me everything:
tell me why you deny?”
He could have no conception what that
demand was to the hearer how probingly
it touched the hidden sensibility, the vividly conscious
reticence of years; how the uncertainty he was insisting
on as part of his own hope had always for Daniel been
a threatening possibility of painful revelation about
his mother. But the moment had influences which
were not only new but solemn to Deronda; any evasion
here might turn out to be a hateful refusal of some
task that belonged to him, some act of due fellowship;
in any case it would be a cruel rebuff to a being
who was appealing to him as a forlorn hope under the
shadow of a coming doom. After a few moments,
he said, with a great effort over himself determined
to tell all the truth briefly
“I have never known my mother.
I have no knowledge about her. I have never called
any man father. But I am convinced that my father
is an Englishman.”
Deronda’s deep tones had a tremor
in them as he uttered this confession; and all the
while there was an undercurrent of amazement in him
at the strange circumstances under which he uttered
it. It seemed as if Mordecai were hardly overrating
his own power to determine the action of the friend
whom he had mysteriously chosen.
“It will be seen it
will be declared,” said Mordecai, triumphantly.
“The world grows, and its frame is knit together
by the growing soul; dim, dim at first, then clearer
and more clear, the consciousness discerns remote
stirrings. As thoughts move within us darkly,
and shake us before they are fully discerned so
events so beings: they are knit with
us in the growth of the world. You have risen
within me like a thought not fully spelled; my soul
is shaken before the words are all there. The
rest will come it will come.”.
“We must not lose sight of the
fact that the outward event has not always been a
fulfillment of the firmest faith,” said Deronda,
in a tone that was made hesitating by the painfully
conflicting desires, not to give any severe blow to
Mordecai, and not to give his confidence a sanction
which might have the severest of blows in reserve.
Mordecai’s face, which had been
illuminated to the utmost in that last declaration
of his confidence, changed under Deronda’s words,
not only into any show of collapsed trust: the
force did not disappear from the expression, but passed
from the triumphant into the firmly resistant.
“You would remind me that I
may be under an illusion that the history
of our people’s trust has been full of illusion.
I face it all.” Here Mordecai paused a
moment. Then bending his head a little forward,
he said, in his hoarse whisper, “So if might
be with my trust, if you would make it an illusion.
But you will not.”
The very sharpness with which these
words penetrated Deronda made him feel the more that
here was a crisis in which he must be firm.
“What my birth was does not
lie in my will,” he answered. “My
sense of claims on me cannot be independent of my
knowledge there. And I cannot promise you that
I will try to hasten a disclosure. Feelings which
have struck root through half my life may still hinder
me from doing what I have never been able to do.
Everything must be waited for. I must know more
of the truth about my own life, and I must know more
of what it would become if it were made a part of
yours.”
Mordecai had folded his arms again
while Deronda was speaking, and now answered with
equal firmness, though with difficult breathing
“You shall know.
What are we met for, but that you should know.
Your doubts lie as light as dust on my belief.
I know the philosophies of this time and of other
times; if I chose I could answer a summons before
their tribunals. I could silence the beliefs which
are the mother-tongue of my soul and speak with the
rote-learned language of a system, that gives you
the spelling of all things, sure of its alphabet covering
them all. I could silence them: may not a
man silence his awe or his love, and take to finding
reasons, which others demand? But if his love
lies deeper than any reasons to be found? Man
finds his pathways: at first they were foot tracks,
as those of the beast in the wilderness: now
they are swift and invisible: his thought dives
through the ocean, and his wishes thread the air:
has he found all the pathways yet? What reaches
him, stays with him, rules him: he must accept
it, not knowing its pathway. Say, my expectation
of you has grown but as false hopes grow. That
doubt is in your mind? Well, my expectation was
there, and you are come. Men have died of thirst.
But I was thirsty, and the water is on my lips?
What are doubts to me? In the hour when you come
to me and say, ’I reject your soul: I know
that I am not a Jew: we have no lot in common’ I
shall not doubt. I shall be certain certain
that I have been deluded. That hour will never
come!”
Deronda felt a new chord sounding
in his speech: it was rather imperious than appealing had
more of conscious power than of the yearning need
which had acted as a beseeching grasp on him before.
And usually, though he was the reverse of pugnacious,
such a change of attitude toward him would have weakened
his inclination to admit a claim. But here there
was something that balanced his resistance and kept
it aloof. This strong man whose gaze was sustainedly
calm and his finger-nails pink with health, who was
exercised in all questioning, and accused of excessive
mental independence, still felt a subduing influence
over him in the tenacious certitude of the fragile
creature before him, whose pallid yellow nostril was
tense with effort as his breath labored under the
burthen of eager speech. The influence seemed
to strengthen the bond of sympathetic obligation.
In Deronda at this moment the desire to escape what
might turn into a trying embarrassment was no more
likely to determine action than the solicitations of
indolence are likely to determine it in one with whom
industry is a daily law. He answered simply
“It is my wish to meet and satisfy
your wishes wherever that is possible to me.
It is certain to me at least that I desire not to
undervalue your toil and your suffering. Let me
know your thoughts. But where can we meet?”
“I have thought of that,”
said Mordecai. “It is not hard for you to
come into this neighborhood later in the evening?
You did so once.”
“I can manage it very well occasionally,”
said Deronda. “You live under the same
roof with the Cohens, I think?”
Before Mordecai could answer, Mr.
Ram re-entered to take his place behind the counter.
He was an elderly son of Abraham, whose childhood
had fallen on the evil times at the beginning of this
century, and who remained amid this smart and instructed
generation as a preserved specimen, soaked through
and through with the effect of the poverty and contempt
which were the common heritage of most English Jews
seventy years ago. He had none of the oily cheerfulness
observable in Mr. Cohen’s aspect: his very
features broad and chubby showed
that tendency to look mongrel without due cause, which,
in a miscellaneous London neighborhood, may perhaps
be compared with the marvels of imitation in insects,
and may have been nature’s imperfect effort on
behalf of the pure Caucasian to shield him from the
shame and spitting to which purer features would have
been exposed in the times of zeal. Mr. Ram dealt
ably in books, in the same way that he would have dealt
in tins of meat and other commodities without
knowledge or responsibility as to the proportion of
rottenness or nourishment they might contain.
But he believed in Mordecai’s learning as something
marvellous, and was not sorry that his conversation
should be sought by a bookish gentleman, whose visits
had twice ended in a purchase. He greeted Deronda
with a crabbed good-will, and, putting on large silver
spectacles, appeared at once to abstract himself in
the daily accounts.
But Deronda and Mordecai were soon
in the street together, and without any explicit agreement
as to their direction, were walking toward Ezra Cohen’s.
“We can’t meet there:
my room is too narrow,” said Mordecai, taking
up the thread of talk where they had dropped it.
“But there is a tavern not far from here where
I sometimes go to a club. It is the Hand and
Banner, in the street at the next turning, five
doors down. We can have the parlor there any
evening.”
“We can try that for once,”
said Deronda. “But you will perhaps let
me provide you with some lodging, which would give
you more freedom and comfort than where you are.”
“No; I need nothing. My
outer life is as nought. I will take nothing
less precious from you than your soul’s brotherhood.
I will think of nothing else yet. But I am glad
you are rich. You did not need money on that
diamond ring. You had some other motive for bringing
it.”
Deronda was a little startled by this
clear-sightedness; but before he could reply Mordecai
added “it is all one. Had you
been in need of the money, the great end would have
been that we should meet again. But you are rich?”
he ended, in a tone of interrogation.
“Not rich, except in the sense
that every one is rich who has more than he needs
for himself.”
“I desired that your life should
be free,” said Mordecai, dreamily “mine
has been a bondage.”
It was clear that he had no interest
in the fact of Deronda’s appearance at the Cohens’
beyond its relation to his own ideal purpose.
Despairing of leading easily up to the question he
wished to ask, Deronda determined to put it abruptly,
and said
“Can you tell me why Mrs. Cohen,
the mother, must not be spoken to about her daughter?”
There was no immediate answer, and
he thought that he should have to repeat the question.
The fact was that Mordecai had heard the words, but
had to drag his mind to a new subject away from his
passionate preoccupation. After a few moments,
he replied with a careful effort such as he would
have used if he had been asked the road to Holborn –
“I know the reason. But
I will not speak even of trivial family affairs which
I have heard in the privacy of the family. I dwell
in their tent as in a sanctuary. Their history,
so far as they injure none other, is their own possession.”
Deronda felt the blood mounting to
his cheeks as a sort of rebuke he was little used
to, and he also found himself painfully baffled where
he had reckoned with some confidence on getting decisive
knowledge. He became the more conscious of emotional
strain from the excitements of the day; and although
he had the money in his pocket to redeem his ring,
he recoiled from the further task of a visit to the
Cohens’, which must be made not only under the
former uncertainty, but under a new disappointment
as to the possibility of its removal.
“I will part from you now,”
he said, just before they could reach Cohen’s
door; and Mordecai paused, looking up at him with an
anxious fatigued face under the gaslight.
“When will you come back?” he said, with
slow emphasis.
“May I leave that unfixed?
May I ask for you at the Cohens’ any evening
after your hour at the book-shop? There is no
objection, I suppose, to their knowing that you and
I meet in private?”
“None,” said Mordecai.
“But the days I wait now are longer than the
years of my strength. Life shrinks: what
was but a tithe is now the half. My hope abides
in you.”
“I will be faithful,”
said Deronda he could not have left those
words unuttered. “I will come the first
evening I can after seven: on Saturday or Monday,
if possible. Trust me.”
He put out his ungloved hand.
Mordecai, clasping it eagerly, seemed to feel a new
instreaming of confidence, and he said with some recovered
energy “This is come to pass, and
the rest will come.”
That was their good-bye.