“I count myself in nothing
else so happy
As in a soul remembering my good friends.”
SHAKESPEARE.
Sir Hugo Mallinger was not so prompt
in starting for Genoa as Mr. Gascoigne had been, and
Deronda on all accounts would not take his departure
until he had seen the baronet. There was not only
Grandcourt’s death, but also the late crisis
in his own life to make reasons why his oldest friend
would desire to have the unrestrained communication
of speech with him, for in writing he had not felt
able to give any details concerning the mother who
had come and gone like an apparition. It was
not till the fifth evening that Deronda, according
to telegram, waited for Sir Hugo at the station, where
he was to arrive between eight and nine; and while
he was looking forward to the sight of the kind, familiar
face, which was part of his earliest memories, something
like a smile, in spite of his late tragic experience,
might have been detected in his eyes and the curve
of his lips at the idea of Sir Hugo’s pleasure
in being now master of his estates, able to leave
them to his daughters, or at least according
to a view of inheritance which had just been strongly
impressed on Deronda’s imagination to
take makeshift feminine offspring as intermediate to
a satisfactory heir in a grandson. We should
be churlish creatures if we could have no joy in our
fellow-mortals’ joy, unless it were in agreement
with our theory of righteous distribution and our
highest ideal of human good: what sour corners
our mouths would get our eyes, what frozen
glances! and all the while our own possessions and
desires would not exactly adjust themselves to our
ideal. We must have some comradeship with imperfection;
and it is, happily, possible to feel gratitude even
where we discern a mistake that may have been injurious,
the vehicle of the mistake being an affectionate intention
prosecuted through a life-time of kindly offices.
Deronda’s feeling and judgment were strongly
against the action of Sir Hugo in making himself the
agent of a falsity yes, a falsity:
he could give no milder name to the concealment under
which he had been reared. But the baronet had
probably had no clear knowledge concerning the mother’s
breach of trust, and with his light, easy way of taking
life, had held it a reasonable preference in her that
her son should be made an English gentleman, seeing
that she had the eccentricity of not caring to part
from her child, and be to him as if she were not.
Daniel’s affectionate gratitude toward Sir Hugo
made him wish to find grounds of excuse rather than
blame; for it is as possible to be rigid in principle
and tender in blame, as it is to suffer from the sight
of things hung awry, and yet to be patient with the
hanger who sees amiss. If Sir Hugo in his bachelorhood
had been beguiled into regarding children chiefly
as a product intended to make life more agreeable
to the full-grown, whose convenience alone was to be
consulted in the disposal of them why, he
had shared an assumption which, if not formally avowed,
was massively acted on at that date of the world’s
history; and Deronda, with all his keen memory of the
painful inward struggle he had gone through in his
boyhood, was able also to remember the many signs
that his experience had been entirely shut out from
Sir Hugo’s conception. Ignorant kindness
may have the effect of cruelty; but to be angry with
it as if it were direct cruelty would be an ignorant
unkindness, the most remote from Deronda’s
large imaginative lenience toward others. And
perhaps now, after the searching scenes of the last
ten days, in which the curtain had been lifted for
him from the secrets of lives unlike his own, he was
more than ever disposed to check that rashness of
indignation or resentment which has an unpleasant
likeness to the love of punishing. When he saw
Sir Hugo’s familiar figure descending from the
railway carriage, the life-long affection which had
been well accustomed to make excuses, flowed in and
submerged all newer knowledge that might have seemed
fresh ground for blame.
“Well, Dan,” said Sir
Hugo, with a serious fervor, grasping Deronda’s
hand. He uttered no other words of greeting; there
was too strong a rush of mutual consciousness.
The next thing was to give orders to the courier,
and then to propose walking slowly in, the mild evening,
there being no hurry to get to the hotel.
“I have taken my journey easily,
and am in excellent condition,” he said, as
he and Deronda came out under the starlight, which
was still faint with the lingering sheen of day.
“I didn’t hurry in setting off, because
I wanted to inquire into things a little, and so I
got sight of your letter to Lady Mallinger before
I started. But now, how is the widow?”
“Getting calmer,” said
Deronda. “She seems to be escaping the bodily
illness that one might have feared for her, after her
plunge and terrible excitement. Her uncle and
mother came two days ago, and she is being well taken
care of.”
“Any prospect of an heir being born?”
“From what Mr. Gascoigne said
to me, I conclude not. He spoke as if it were
a question whether the widow would have the estates
for her life.”
“It will not be much of a wrench
to her affections, I fancy, this loss of the husband?”
said Sir Hugo, looking round at Deronda.
“The suddenness of the death
has been a great blow to her,” said Deronda,
quietly evading the question.
“I wonder whether Grandcourt
gave her any notion what were the provisions of his
will?” said Sir Hugo.
“Do you know what they are, sir?” parried
Deronda.
“Yes, I do,” said the
baronet, quickly. “Gad! if there is no prospect
of a legitimate heir, he has left everything to a boy
he had by a Mrs. Glasher; you know nothing about the
affair, I suppose, but she was a sort of wife to him
for a good many years, and there are three older children girls.
The boy is to take his father’s name; he is Henleigh
already, and he is to be Henleigh Mallinger Grandcourt.
The Mallinger will be of no use to him, I am happy
to say; but the young dog will have more than enough
with his fourteen years’ minority no
need to have had holes filled up with my fifty thousand
for Diplow that he had no right to: and meanwhile
my beauty, the young widow, is to put up with a poor
two thousand a year and the house at Gadsmere a
nice kind of banishment for her if she chose to shut
herself up there, which I don’t think she will.
The boy’s mother has been living there of late
years. I’m perfectly disgusted with Grandcourt.
I don’t know that I’m obliged to think
the better of him because he’s drowned, though,
so far as my affairs are concerned, nothing in his
life became him like the leaving it.”
“In my opinion he did wrong
when he married this wife not in leaving
his estates to the son,” said Deronda, rather
dryly.
“I say nothing against his leaving
the land to the lad,” said Sir Hugo; “but
since he had married this girl he ought to have given
her a handsome provision, such as she could live on
in a style fitted to the rank he had raised her to.
She ought to have had four or five thousand a year
and the London house for her life; that’s what
I should have done for her. I suppose, as she
was penniless, her friends couldn’t stand out
for a settlement, else it’s ill trusting to the
will a man may make after he’s married.
Even a wise man generally lets some folly ooze out
of him in his will my father did, I know;
and if a fellow has any spite or tyranny in him, he’s
likely to bottle off a good deal for keeping in that
sort of document. It’s quite clear Grandcourt
meant that his death should put an extinguisher on
his wife, if she bore him no heir.”
“And, in the other case, I suppose
everything would have been reversed illegitimacy
would have had the extinguisher?” said Deronda,
with some scorn.
“Precisely Gadsmere
and the two thousand. It’s queer. One
nuisance is that Grandcourt has made me an executor;
but seeing he was the son of my only brother, I can’t
refuse to act. And I shall mind it less if I
can be of any use to the widow. Lush thinks she
was not in ignorance about the family under the rose,
and the purport of the will. He hints that there
was no very good understanding between the couple.
But I fancy you are the man who knew most about what
Mrs. Grandcourt felt or did not feel eh,
Dan?” Sir Hugo did not put this question with
his usual jocoseness, but rather with a lowered tone
of interested inquiry; and Deronda felt that any evasion
would be misinterpreted. He answered gravely
“She was certainly not happy.
They were unsuited to each other. But as to the
disposal of the property from all I have
seen of her, I should predict that she will be quite
contented with it.”
“Then she is not much like the
rest of her sex; that’s all I can say,”
said Sir Hugo, with a slight shrug. “However,
she ought to be something extraordinary, for there
must be an entanglement between your horoscope and
hers eh? When that tremendous telegram
came, the first thing Lady Mallinger said was, ’How
very strange that it should be Daniel who sends it!’
But I have had something of the same sort in my own
life. I was once at a foreign hotel where a lady
had been left by her husband without money. When
I heard of it, and came forward to help her, who should
she be but an early flame of mine, who had been fool
enough to marry an Austrian baron with a long mustache
and short affection? But it was an affair of
my own that called me there nothing to do
with knight-errantry, any more than you coming to
Genoa had to do with the Grandcourts.”
There was silence for a little while.
Sir Hugo had begun to talk of the Grandcourts as the
less difficult subject between himself and Deronda;
but they were both wishing to overcome a reluctance
to perfect frankness on the events which touched their
relation to each other. Deronda felt that his
letter, after the first interview with his mother,
had been rather a thickening than a breaking of the
ice, and that he ought to wait for the first opening
to come from Sir Hugo. Just when they were about
to lose sight of the port, the baronet turned, and
pausing as if to get a last view, said in a tone of
more serious feeling “And about the
main business of your coming to Genoa, Dan? You
have not been deeply pained by anything you have learned,
I hope? There is nothing that you feel need change
your position in any way? You know, whatever
happens to you must always be of importance to me.”
“I desire to meet your goodness
by perfect confidence, sir,” said Deronda.
“But I can’t answer those questions truly
by a simple yes or no. Much that I have heard
about the past has pained me. And it has been
a pain to meet and part with my mother in her suffering
state, as I have been compelled to do, But it is no
pain it is rather a clearing up of doubts
for which I am thankful, to know my parentage.
As to the effect on my position, there will be no
change in my gratitude to you, sir, for the fatherly
care and affection you have always shown me. But
to know that I was born a Jew, may have a momentous
influence on my life, which I am hardly able to tell
you of at present.”
Deronda spoke the last sentence with
a resolve that overcame some diffidence. He felt
that the differences between Sir Hugo’s nature
and his own would have, by-and-by, to disclose themselves
more markedly than had ever yet been needful.
The baronet gave him a quick glance, and turned to
walk on. After a few moments’ silence, in
which he had reviewed all the material in his memory
which would enable him to interpret Deronda’s
words, he said
“I have long expected something
remarkable from you, Dan; but, for God’s sake,
don’t go into any eccentricities! I can
tolerate any man’s difference of opinion, but
let him tell it me without getting himself up as a
lunatic. At this stage of the world, if a man
wants to be taken seriously, he must keep clear of
melodrama. Don’t misunderstand me.
I am not suspecting you of setting up any lunacy on
your own account. I only think you might easily
be led arm in arm with a lunatic, especially if he
wanted defending. You have a passion for people
who are pelted, Dan. I’m sorry for them
too; but so far as company goes, it’s a bad
ground of selection. However, I don’t ask
you to anticipate your inclination in anything you
have to tell me. When you make up your mind to
a course that requires money, I have some sixteen thousand
pounds that have been accumulating for you over and
above what you have been having the interest of as
income. And now I am come, I suppose you want
to get back to England as soon as you can?”
“I must go first to Mainz to
get away a chest of my grandfather’s, and perhaps
to see a friend of his,” said Deronda. “Although
the chest has been lying there these twenty years,
I have an unreasonable sort of nervous eagerness to
get it away under my care, as if it were more likely
now than before that something might happen to it.
And perhaps I am the more uneasy, because I lingered
after my mother left, instead of setting out immediately.
Yet I can’t regret that I was here else
Mrs. Grandcourt would have had none but servants to
act for her.”
“Yes, yes,” said Sir Hugo,
with a flippancy which was an escape of some vexation
hidden under his more serious speech; “I hope
you are not going to set a dead Jew above a living
Christian.”
Deronda colored, and repressed a retort.
They were just turning into the Italia.