“Within the gentle heart Love
shelters him,
As birds within the green shade of the grove.
Before the gentle heart, in Nature’s scheme,
Love was not, nor the gentle heart ere Love.”
GUIDO GUNICELLI (Rossetti’s
Translation).
There was another house besides the
white house at Pennicote, another breast besides Rex
Gascoigne’s, in which the news of Grandcourt’s
death caused both strong agitation and the effort
to repress it.
It was Hans Meyrick’s habit
to send or bring in the Times for his mother’s
reading. She was a great reader of news, from
the widest-reaching politics to the list of marriages;
the latter, she said, giving her the pleasant sense
of finishing the fashionable novels without having
read them, and seeing the heroes and heroines happy
without knowing what poor creatures they were.
On a Wednesday, there were reasons why Hans always
chose to bring the paper, and to do so about the time
that Mirah had nearly ended giving Mab her weekly
lesson, avowing that he came then because he wanted
to hear Mirah sing. But on the particular Wednesday
now in question, after entering the house as quietly
as usual with his latch-key, he appeared in the parlor,
shaking the Times aloft with a crackling noise,
in remorseless interruption of Mab’s attempt
to render Lascia ch’io pianga with a
remote imitation of her teacher. Piano and song
ceased immediately; Mirah, who had been playing the
accompaniment, involuntarily started up and turned
round, the crackling sound, after the occasional trick
of sounds, having seemed to her something thunderous;
and Mab said
“O-o-o, Hans! why do you bring
a more horrible noise than my singing?”
“What on earth is the wonderful
news?” said Mrs. Meyrick, who was the only other
person in the room. “Anything about Italy anything
about the Austrians giving up Venice?”
“Nothing about Italy, but something
from Italy,” said Hans, with a peculiarity in
his tone and manner which set his mother interpreting.
Imagine how some of us feel and behave when an event,
not disagreeable seems to be confirming and carrying
out our private constructions. We say, “What
do you think?” in a pregnant tone to some innocent
person who has not embarked his wisdom in the same
boat with ours, and finds our information flat.
“Nothing bad?” said Mrs.
Meyrick anxiously, thinking immediately of Deronda;
and Mirah’s heart had been already clutched by
the same thought.
“Not bad for anybody we care
much about,” said Hans, quickly; “rather
uncommonly lucky, I think. I never knew anybody
die conveniently before. Considering what a dear
gazelle I am, I am constantly wondering to find myself
alive.”
“Oh me, Hans!” said Mab,
impatiently, “if you must talk of yourself,
let it be behind your own back. What is
it that has happened?”
“Duke Alfonso is drowned, and
the Duchess is alive, that’s all,” said
Hans, putting the paper before Mrs. Meyrick, with his
finger against a paragraph. “But more than
all is Deronda was at Genoa in the same
hotel with them, and he saw her brought in by the fishermen
who had got her out of the water time enough to save
her from any harm. It seems they saw her jump
in after her husband, which was a less judicious action
than I should have expected of the Duchess. However
Deronda is a lucky fellow in being there to take care
of her.”
Mirah had sunk on the music stool
again, with her eyelids down and her hands tightly
clasped; and Mrs. Meyrick, giving up the paper to Mab,
said
“Poor thing! she must have been
fond of her husband to jump in after him.”
“It was an inadvertence a
little absence of mind,” said Hans, creasing
his face roguishly, and throwing himself into a chair
not far from Mirah. “Who can be fond of
a jealous baritone, with freezing glances, always
singing asides? that was the husband’s
rôle, depend upon it. Nothing can be neater
than his getting drowned. The Duchess is at liberty
now to marry a man with a fine head of hair, and glances
that will melt instead of freezing her. And I
shall be invited to the wedding.”
Here Mirah started from her sitting
posture, and fixing her eyes on Hans, with an angry
gleam in them, she said, in a deeply-shaken voice
of indignation
“Mr. Hans, you ought not to
speak in that way. Mr. Deronda would not like
you to speak so. Why will you say he is lucky why
will you use words of that sort about life and death when
what is life to one is death to another? How
do you know it would be lucky if he loved Mrs. Grandcourt?
It might be a great evil to him. She would take
him away from my brother I know she would.
Mr. Deronda would not call that lucky to pierce my
brother’s heart.”
All three were struck with the sudden
transformation. Mirah’s face, with a look
of anger that might have suited Ithuriel, pale, even
to the lips that were usually so rich of tint, was
not far from poor Hans, who sat transfixed, blushing
under it as if he had been a girl, while he said,
nervously
“I am a fool and a brute, and
I withdraw every word. I’ll go and hang
myself like Judas if it’s allowable
to mention him.” Even in Hans’s sorrowful
moments, his improvised words had inevitably some drollery.
But Mirah’s anger was not appeased:
how could it be? She had burst into indignant
speech as creatures in intense pain bite and make their
teeth meet even through their own flesh, by way of
making their agony bearable. She said no more,
but, seating herself at the piano, pressed the sheet
of music before her, as if she thought of beginning
to play again.
It was Mab who spoke, while Mrs. Meyrick’s
face seemed to reflect some of Hans’ discomfort.
“Mirah is quite right to scold
you, Hans. You are always taking Mr. Deronda’s
name in vain. And it is horrible, joking in that
way about his marrying Mrs. Grandcourt. Men’s
minds must be very black, I think,” ended Mab,
with much scorn.
“Quite true, my dear,”
said Hans, in a low tone, rising and turning on his
heel to walk toward the back window.
“We had better go on, Mab; you
have not given your full time to the lesson,”
said Mirah, in a higher tone than usual. “Will
you sing this again, or shall I sing it to you?”
“Oh, please sing it to me,”
said Mab, rejoiced to take no more notice of what
had happened.
And Mirah immediately sang Lascia
ch’io pianga, giving forth its melodious
sobs and cries with new fullness and energy. Hans
paused in his walk and leaned against the mantel-piece,
keeping his eyes carefully away from his mother’s.
When Mirah had sung her last note and touched the
last chord, she rose and said, “I must go home
now. Ezra expects me.”
She gave her hand silently to Mrs.
Meyrick and hung back a little, not daring to look
at her, instead of kissing her, as usual. But
the little mother drew Mirah’s face down to
hers, and said, soothingly, “God bless you,
my dear.” Mirah felt that she had committed
an offense against Mrs. Meyrick by angrily rebuking
Hans, and mixed with the rest of her suffering was
the sense that she had shown something like a proud
ingratitude, an unbecoming assertion of superiority.
And her friend had divined this compunction.
Meanwhile Hans had seized his wide-awake,
and was ready to open the door.
“Now, Hans,” said Mab,
with what was really a sister’s tenderness cunningly
disguised, “you are not going to walk home with
Mirah. I am sure she would rather not. You
are so dreadfully disagreeable to-day.”
“I shall go to take care of
her, if she does not forbid me,” said Hans,
opening the door.
Mirah said nothing, and when he had
opened the outer door for her and closed it behind
him, he walked by her side unforbidden. She had
not the courage to begin speaking to him again conscious
that she had perhaps been unbecomingly severe in her
words to him, yet finding only severer words behind
them in her heart. Besides, she was pressed upon
by a crowd of thoughts thrusting themselves forward
as interpreters of that consciousness which still
remained unaltered to herself.
Hans, on his side, had a mind equally
busy. Mirah’s anger had waked in him a
new perception, and with it the unpleasant sense that
he was a dolt not to have had it before. Suppose
Mirah’s heart were entirely preoccupied with
Deronda in another character than that of her own and
her brother’s benefactor; the supposition was
attended in Hans’s mind with anxieties which,
to do him justice, were not altogether selfish.
He had a strong persuasion, which only direct evidence
to the contrary could have dissipated, and that was
that there was a serious attachment between Deronda
and Mrs. Grandcourt; he had pieced together many fragments
of observation, and gradually gathered knowledge, completed
by what his sisters had heard from Anna Gascoigne,
which convinced him not only that Mrs. Grandcourt
had a passion for Deronda, but also, notwithstanding
his friend’s austere self-repression, that Deronda’s
susceptibility about her was the sign of concealed
love. Some men, having such a conviction, would
have avoided allusions that could have roused that
susceptibility; but Hans’s talk naturally fluttered
toward mischief, and he was given to a form of experiment
on live animals which consisted in irritating his
friends playfully. His experiments had ended
in satisfying him that what he thought likely was true.
On the other hand, any susceptibility
Deronda had manifested about a lover’s attentions
being shown to Mirah, Hans took to be sufficiently
accounted for by the alleged reason, namely, her dependent
position; for he credited his friend with all possible
unselfish anxiety for those whom he could rescue and
protect. And Deronda’s insistence that
Mirah would never marry one who was not a Jew necessarily
seemed to exclude himself, since Hans shared the ordinary
opinion, which he knew nothing to disturb, that Deronda
was the son of Sir Hugo Mallinger.
Thus he felt himself in clearness
about the state of Deronda’s affections; but
now, the events which really struck him as concurring
toward the desirable union with Mrs. Grandcourt, had
called forth a flash of revelation from Mirah a
betrayal of her passionate feeling on this subject
which had made him melancholy on her account as well
as his own yet on the whole less melancholy
than if he had imagined Deronda’s hopes fixed
on her. It is not sublime, but it is common, for
a man to see the beloved object unhappy because his
rival loves another, with more fortitude and a milder
jealousy than if he saw her entirely happy in his
rival. At least it was so with the mercurial
Hans, who fluctuated between the contradictory states
of feeling, wounded because Mirah was wounded, and
of being almost obliged to Deronda for loving somebody
else. It was impossible for him to give Mirah
any direct sign of the way in which he had understood
her anger, yet he longed that his speechless companionship
should be eloquent in a tender, penitent sympathy
which is an admissible form of wooing a bruised heart.
Thus the two went side by side in
a companionship that yet seemed an agitated communication,
like that of two chords whose quick vibrations lie
outside our hearing. But when they reached the
door of Mirah’s home, and Hans said “Good-bye,”
putting out his hand with an appealing look of penitence,
she met the look with melancholy gentleness, and said,
“Will you not come in and see my brother?”
Hans could not but interpret this
invitation as a sign of pardon. He had not enough
understanding of what Mirah’s nature had been
wrought into by her early experience, to divine how
the very strength of her late excitement had made
it pass more quickly into the resolute acceptance
of pain. When he had said, “If you will
let me,” and they went in together, half his
grief was gone, and he was spinning a little romance
of how his devotion might make him indispensable to
Mirah in proportion as Deronda gave his devotion elsewhere.
This was quite fair, since his friend was provided
for according to his own heart; and on the question
of Judaism Hans felt thoroughly fortified: who
ever heard in tale or history that a woman’s
love went in the track of her race and religion?
Moslem and Jewish damsels were always attracted toward
Christians, and now if Mirah’s heart had gone
forth too precipitately toward Deronda, here was another
case in point. Hans was wont to make merry with
his own arguments, to call himself a Giaour, and antithesis
the sole clue to events; but he believed a little in
what he laughed at. And thus his bird-like hope,
constructed on the lightest principles, soared again
in spite of heavy circumstances.
They found Mordecai looking singularly
happy, holding a closed letter in his hand, his eyes
glowing with a quiet triumph which in his emaciated
face gave the idea of a conquest over assailing death.
After the greeting between him and Hans, Mirah put
her arm round her brother’s neck and looked
down at the letter in his hand, without the courage
to ask about it, though she felt sure that it was the
cause of his happiness.
“A letter from Daniel Deronda,”
said Mordecai, answering her look. “Brief only
saying that he hopes soon to return. Unexpected
claims have detained him. The promise of seeing
him again is like the bow in the cloud to me,”
continued Mordecai, looking at Hans; “and to
you it must be a gladness. For who has two friends
like him?”
While Hans was answering Mirah slipped
away to her own room; but not to indulge in any outburst
of the passion within her. If the angels, once
supposed to watch the toilet of women, had entered
the little chamber with her and let her shut the door
behind them, they would only have seen her take off
her hat, sit down and press her hands against her
temples as if she had suddenly reflected that her head
ached; then rise to dash cold water on her eyes and
brow and hair till her backward curls were full of
crystal beads, while she had dried her brow and looked
out like a freshly-opened flower from among the dewy
tresses of the woodland; then give deep sighs of relief,
and putting on her little slippers, sit still after
that action for a couple of minutes, which seemed
to her so long, so full of things to come, that she
rose with an air of recollection, and went down to
make tea.
Something of the old life had returned.
She had been used to remember that she must learn
her part, must go to rehearsal, must act and sing
in the evening, must hide her feelings from her father;
and the more painful her life grew, the more she had
been used to hide. The force of her nature had
long found its chief action in resolute endurance,
and to-day the violence of feeling which had caused
the first jet of anger had quickly transformed itself
into a steady facing of trouble, the well-known companion
of her young years. But while she moved about
and spoke as usual, a close observer might have discerned
a difference between this apparent calm, which was
the effect of restraining energy, and the sweet genuine
calm of the months when she first felt a return of
her infantine happiness.
Those who have been indulged by fortune
and have always thought of calamity as what happens
to others, feel a blind incredulous rage at the reversal
of their lot, and half believe that their wild cries
will alter the course of the storm. Mirah felt
no such surprise when familiar Sorrow came back from
brief absence, and sat down with her according to
the old use and wont. And this habit of expecting
trouble rather than joy, hindered her from having
any persistent belief in opposition to the probabilities
which were not merely suggested by Hans, but were
supported by her own private knowledge and long-growing
presentiment. An attachment between Deronda and
Mrs. Grandcourt, to end in their future marriage,
had the aspect of a certainty for her feeling.
There had been no fault in him: facts had ordered
themselves so that there was a tie between him and
this woman who belonged to another world than hers
and Ezra’s nay, who seemed another
sort of being than Deronda, something foreign that
would be a disturbance in his life instead of blending
with it. Well, well but if it could
have been deferred so as to make no difference while
Ezra was there! She did not know all the momentousness
of the relation between Deronda and her brother, but
she had seen, and instinctively felt enough to forebode
its being incongruous with any close tie to Mrs. Grandcourt;
at least this was the clothing that Mirah first gave
to her mortal repugnance. But in the still, quick
action of her consciousness, thoughts went on like
changing states of sensation unbroken by her habitual
acts; and this inward language soon said distinctly
that the mortal repugnance would remain even if Ezra
were secured from loss.
“What I have read about and
sung about and seen acted, is happening to me this
that I am feeling is the love that makes jealousy;”
so impartially Mirah summed up the charge against
herself. But what difference could this pain
of hers make to any one else? It must remain
as exclusively her own, and hidden, as her early yearning
and devotion to her lost mother. But unlike that
devotion, it was something that she felt to be a misfortune
of her nature a discovery that what should
have been pure gratitude and reverence had sunk into
selfish pain, that the feeling she had hitherto delighted
to pour out in words was degraded into something she
was ashamed to betray an absurd longing
that she who had received all and given nothing should
be of importance where she was of no importance an
angry feeling toward another woman who possessed the
good she wanted. But what notion, what vain reliance
could it be that had lain darkly within her and was
now burning itself into sight as disappointment and
jealousy? It was as if her soul had been steeped
in poisonous passion by forgotten dreams of deep sleep,
and now flamed out in this unaccountable misery.
For with her waking reason she had never entertained
what seemed the wildly unfitting thought that Deronda
could love her. The uneasiness she had felt before
had been comparatively vague and easily explained as
part of a general regret that he was only a visitant
in her and her brother’s world, from which the
world where his home lay was as different as a portico
with lights and lacqueys was different from the door
of a tent, where the only splendor came from the mysterious
inaccessible stars. But her feeling was no longer
vague: the cause of her pain the image
of Mrs. Grandcourt by Deronda’s side, drawing
him farther and farther into the distance, was as
definite as pincers on her flesh. In the Psyche-mould
of Mirah’s frame there rested a fervid quality
of emotion, sometimes rashly supposed to require the
bulk of a Cleopatra; her impressions had the thoroughness
and tenacity that give to the first selection of passionate
feeling the character of a lifelong faithfulness.
And now a selection had declared itself, which gave
love a cruel heart of jealousy: she had been
used to a strong repugnance toward certain objects
that surrounded her, and to walk inwardly aloof from
them while they touched her sense. And now her
repugnance concentrated itself on Mrs. Grandcourt,
of whom she involuntarily conceived more evil than
she knew. “I could bear everything that
used to be but this is worse this
is worse, I used not to have horrible feelings!”
said the poor child in a loud whisper to her pillow.
Strange that she should have to pray against any feeling
which concerned Deronda!
But this conclusion had been reached
through an evening spent in attending to Mordecai,
whose exaltation of spirit in the prospect of seeing
his friend again, disposed him to utter many thoughts
aloud to Mirah, though such communication was often
interrupted by intervals apparently filled with an
inward utterance that animated his eyes and gave an
occasional silent action to his lips. One thought
especially occupied him.
“Seest thou, Mirah,” he
said once, after a long silence, “the Shemah,
wherein we briefly confess the divine Unity, is the
chief devotional exercise of the Hebrew; and this
made our religion the fundamental religion for the
whole world; for the divine Unity embraced as its
consequence the ultimate unity of mankind. See,
then the nation which has been scoffed
at for its separateness, has given a binding theory
to the human race. Now, in complete unity a part
possesses the whole as the whole possesses every part:
and in this way human life is tending toward the image
of the Supreme Unity: for as our life becomes
more spiritual by capacity of thought, and joy therein,
possession tends to become more universal, being independent
of gross material contact; so that in a brief day
the soul of man may know in fuller volume the good
which has been and is, nay, is to come, than all he
could possess in a whole life where he had to follow
the creeping paths of the senses. In this moment,
my sister, I hold the joy of another’s future
within me: a future which these eyes will not
see, and which my spirit may not then recognize as
mine. I recognize it now, and love it so, that
I can lay down this poor life upon its altar and say:
’Burn, burn indiscernibly into that which shall
be, which is my love and not me.’ Dost thou
understand, Mirah?”
“A little,” said Mirah,
faintly, “but my mind is too poor to have felt
it.”
“And yet,” said Mordecai,
rather insistently, “women are specially framed
for the love which feels possession in renouncing,
and is thus a fit image of what I mean. Somewhere
in the later Midrash, I think, is the story
of a Jewish maiden who loved a Gentile king so well,
that this was what she did: she entered
into prison and changed clothes with the woman who
was beloved by the king, that she might deliver that
woman from death by dying in her stead, and leave the
king to be happy in his love which was not for her.
This is the surpassing love, that loses self in the
object of love.”
“No, Ezra, no,” said Mirah,
with low-toned intensity, “that was not it.
She wanted the king when she was dead to know what
she had done, and feel that she was better than the
other. It was her strong self, wanting to conquer,
that made her die.”
Mordecai was silent a little, and then argued
“That might be, Mirah.
But if she acted so, believing the king would never
know.”
“You can make the story so in
your mind, Ezra, because you are great, and like to
fancy the greatest that could be. But I think
it was not really like that. The Jewish girl
must have had jealousy in her heart, and she wanted
somehow to have the first place in the king’s
mind. That is what she would die for.”
“My sister, thou hast read too
many plays, where the writers delight in showing the
human passions as indwelling demons, unmixed with the
relenting and devout elements of the soul. Thou
judgest by the plays, and not by thy own heart, which
is like our mother’s.”
Mirah made no answer.