With Ballard the elder, to whom and
to those plutocratic associates, as had been predicted,
my antecedents and acquirements had proven satisfactory,
I journeyed on the twelfth of December to Greene County
in the Ballard limousine. A rigorous watch was
kept upon the walls of Horsham Manor, and in response
to the ring of the chauffeur at the solid wooden gates
at the lodge, a small window opened and a red visage
appeared demanding credentials. Ballard put the
inquisitor to some pains, testing his efficiency,
but finally produced his card and revealed his identity,
after which the gates flew open and we entered the
forbidden ground.
It was an idyllic spot, as I soon
discovered, of fine rolling country, well wooded and
watered, the road of macadam, rising slowly from the
entrance gates, turning here and there through a succession
of natural parks, along the borders of a lake of considerable
size, toward the higher hills at the further end of
the estate, among which, my companion told me, were
built the Manor house and stables. Except for
the excellent road itself, no attempt had been made
to use the art of the landscape gardener in the lower
portion of the tract, which had been left as nature
had made it, venerable woodland, with a well-tangled
undergrowth, where rabbits, squirrels and deer abounded,
but as we neared the hills, which rose with considerable
dignity against the pale, wintry sky, the signs of
man’s handiwork became apparent. A hedge
here, a path there, bordered with privet or rhododendron;
a comfortable looking farmhouse, commodious barns and
well-fenced pastures, where we passed a few men who
touched their caps and stared after us.
“It’s lucky you care nothing
for women, Canby,” said Mr. Ballard crisply;
“this monastic idea may not bother you.”
“It doesn’t in the least,
Mr. Ballard,” I said dryly. “I shall
survive the ordeal with composure.”
He glanced at me, smiled and then went on.
“Except for the presence of
Miss Redwood, who goes today, the new regulation has
been in force here for a month. The farmers and
gamekeepers are all bachelors. We have an excellent
steward, also a bachelor. You and he will understand
each other. In all things that pertain to the
boy he is under your orders. Questions of authority
where you differ are to be referred to me.”
“I understand. I am not difficult to get
on with.”
My employer had described to me thoroughly
but quite impersonally all the conditions of his trust
and mine, but had made no comments which by the widest
stretch of imagination could be construed into opinions.
He gave me the impression then as he did later that
he was carrying out strictly the letter of his instructions
from the dead. He had a face graven into austere
lines, which habit had schooled into perfect obedience
to his will. He might have believed the experiment
to which he was committed a colossal joke, and no
sign of his opinion would be reflected in his facial
expression, which was, save on unimportant matters,
absolutely unchanging. Nor did he seem to care
what my own thoughts might be in regard to the matter,
though I had not refrained from expressing my interest
in the project. My character, my reputation for
conscientiousness, my qualifications for the position
were all that seemed to concern him. I was merely
a piece of machinery, the wheels of which he was to
set in motion, which would perform its allotted task
to his satisfaction.
The road soon reached an eminence
from which Horsham Manor was visible, a fine Georgian
house set handsomely enough in a cleft of the hills,
before which were broad lawns that sloped to the south
and terminated at the borders of a stream which meandered
through a rocky bed to the lake below. Wealth
such as this had never awed me. John Benham with
all his stores of dollars had been obliged to come
at last to a penurious philosopher to solve for his
son the problem of life that had baffled the father.
So intent was I upon the house which was to be my
home that I caught but a glimpse of the fine valley
of meadow and wood which ended in the faint purplish
hills, beyond which somewhere was the Hudson River.
It was evident that our arrival had
been telephoned from the lodge at the gate, for as
the machine drew up at the main doorway of the house
a servant in livery appeared and opened the door.
“Ah, Christopher,” said
my companion. “Is Mr. Radford about?”
“Yes, sir. He’ll be up in a minute,
sir.”
“This is Mr. Canby, Christopher, Master Jeremiah’s
new tutor.”
“Yes, sir, you’ll find Miss Redwood and
Master Jerry in the library.”
We went up the steps while the aged
butler (who had lived with John Benham) followed with
the valises, and were ushered into the library, where
my pupil and his governess awaited us.
I am a little reluctant to admit at
this time that my earliest impression of the subject
of these memoirs was disappointing. Perhaps the
dead man’s encomiums had raised my hopes.
Perhaps the barriers which hedged in this most exclusive
of youngsters had increased his importance in my thoughts.
What I saw was a boy of ten, well grown for his years,
who ambled forward rather sheepishly and gave me a
moist and rather flabby hand to shake.
He was painfully embarrassed.
If I had been an ogre and Jerry the youth allotted
for his repast, he could not have shown more distress.
He was distinctly nursery-bred and, of course, unused
to visitors, but he managed a smile, and I saw that
he was making the best of a bad job. After the
preliminaries of introduction, amid which Mr. Radford,
the steward of the estate, appeared, I managed to get
the boy aside.
“I feel a good deal like the
Minotaur, Jerry. Did you ever hear of the Minotaur?”
He hadn’t, and so I told him
the story. “But I’m not going to eat
you,” I laughed.
I had broken the ice, for a smile,
a genuine joyous smile, broke slowly and then flowed
in generous ripples across his face.
“You’re different, aren’t
you?” he said presently, his brown eyes now
gravely appraising me.
“How different, Jerry?” I asked.
He hesitated a moment and then:
“I I thought you’d
come all in black with a lot of grammar books under
your arms.”
“I don’t use ’em,”
I said. “I’m a boy, just like you,
only I’ve got long trousers on. We’re
not going to bother about books for awhile.”
He still inspected me as though he
wasn’t quite sure it wasn’t all a mistake.
And then again:
“Can you talk Latin?”
“Bless you, I’m afraid not.”
“Oh!” he sighed, though
whether in relief or disappointment I couldn’t
say.
“But you can do sums in your head and spell
hippopotamus?”
“I might,” I laughed. “But
I wouldn’t if I didn’t have to.”
“But I’ll have to, won’t
I?”
“Oh, some day.”
“I’m afraid I never can,”
he sighed again.
I began to understand now. His
mind was feminine and at least three years backward.
There wasn’t a mark of the boy of ten about him.
But I liked his eyes. They were wide and inquiring.
It wouldn’t be difficult to gain his confidence.
“Are you sorry Miss Redwood is going?”
I asked him.
“Yes. She plays games.”
“I know some games, too good ones.”
He brightened, but said nothing for
a moment, though I saw him stealing a glance at me.
Whatever the object of his inspection, I seemed to
have passed it creditably, for he said rather timidly:
“Would you like to see my bull pup?”
It was the first remark that sounded
as though it came from the heart of a real boy.
I had won the first line of entrenchments around Jerry’s
reserve. When a boy asks you to see his bull pup
he confers upon you at once the highest mark of his
approval.
I only repeat this ingenuous and unimportant
conversation to show my first impression of what seemed
to me then to be a rather commonplace and colorless
boy. I did not realize then how strong could be
the effect of such an environment. Miss Redwood,
as I soon discovered, was a timid, wilting individual,
who had brought him successfully through the baby
diseases and had taught him the elementary things,
because that was what she was paid for, corrected
his table manners and tried to make him the kind of
boy that she would have preferred to be herself had
nature fortunately not decided the matter otherwise,
and chameleon-like, Jerry reflected her tepor,
her supineness and femininity. She recounted
his virtues with pride, while I questioned her, hoping
against hope to hear of some prank, the breaking of
window-panes, the burning of a haystack or the explosion
of a giant cracker under the cook. But all to
no purpose.
So far as I could discover, he had
never so much as pulled the tail of a cat. As
old John Benham had said, of original sin he had none.
But my conviction that the boy had
good stuff in him was deepened on the morrow, when,
banishing books, I took him for a breather over hill
and dale, through wood and underbrush, three miles
out and three miles in. I told him stories as
we walked and showed him how the Indians trailed their
game among the very hills over which we plodded.
I told him that a fine strong body was the greatest
thing in the world, a possession to work for and be
proud of. His muscles were flabby, I knew, but
I put him a brisk pace and brought him in just before
lunch, red of cheek, bright of eye, and splashed with
mud from head to foot. I had learned one of the
things I had set out to discover. He would do
his best at whatever task I set him.
I have not said that he was a handsome
boy, for youth is amorphous and the promise of today
is not always fulfilled by the morrow. Jerry’s
features were unformed at ten and, as has already been
suggested, made no distinct impression upon my mind.
Whatever his early photographs may show, at least
they gave no sign of the remarkable beauty of feature
and lineament which developed in his adolescence.
Perhaps it was that I was more interested in his mind
and body and what I could make them than in his face,
which, after all, was none of my concern.
That I was committed to my undertaking
from the very beginning will soon be evident.
Before three weeks had passed Jerry began to awake
and to develop an ego and a personality. If I
had thought him unmagnetic at first, he quickly showed
me my mistake. His imagination responded to the
slightest mental touch, too quickly even for the work
I had in mind for him. He would have pleased me
better if he had been a little slower to catch the
impulse of a new impression. But I understood.
He had been starved of the things which were a boy’s
natural right and heritage, and he ate and drank eagerly
of the masculine fare I provided. He had shed
a few tears at Miss Redwood’s departure and
I liked him for them, for they showed his loyalty,
but he had no more games of the nursery nor the mawkish
sentimentality that I found upon the nursery shelves.
I had other plans for Jerry. John Benham should
have his wish. I would make Jerry as nearly the
Perfect Man as mortal man could make God’s handiwork.
Spiritually he should grow “from within,”
directed by me, but guided by his own inner light.
Physically he should grow as every well-made boy should
grow, sturdy in muscle and bone, straight of limb,
deep of chest, sound of mind and strong of heart.
I would make Jerry a Greek.
Perhaps these plans may seem strange
coming from one who had almost grown old before he
had been young. But I had made sure that Jerry
should profit by my mistakes, growing slowly, built
like the Benham Wall, of material that should endure
the sophistries of the world and remain unbroken.
I worked Jerry hard that first winter
and spring, and his physical condition showed that
I had no need to fear for his health. And when
the autumn came I decided to bring him face to face
with nature when she is most difficult. I was
a good woodsman, having been born and bred in the
northern part of the state, and until I went to the
University had spent a part of each year in the wilderness.
We left Horsham Manor one October day, traveling light,
and made for the woods. We were warmly clad,
but packed no more than would be essential for existence.
A rifle, a shotgun, an ax, and hunting knives were
all that we carried besides tea, flour, a side of
bacon, the ammunition and implements for cooking.
By night we had built a rough shack and laid our plans
for a permanent cabin of spruce logs, which we proposed
to erect before the snow flew. Game was abundant,
and before our bacon was gone our larder was replenished.
I had told Radford of our plans and the gamekeepers
were instructed to give us a wide berth. Jerry
learned to shoot that year, not for fun, but for existence,
for one evening when we came in with an empty game
bag we both went to our blankets hungry. The
cabin rose slowly, and the boy learned to do his share
of work with the ax. He was naturally clever with
his hands, and there was no end to his eagerness.
He was living in a new world, where each new day brought
some new problem to solve, some difficulty to be surmounted.
He had already put aside childish things and had entered
early upon a man’s heritage. There are persons
who will say that I took great risks in thus exposing
Jerry while only in his eleventh year, but I can answer
by the results achieved. We lived in the woods
from the fifteenth of October until a few days before
Christmas. During that time we had built a cabin,
ten feet by twelve, with a stone fireplace and a roof
of clay; had laid a line of deadfalls, and rabbit
snares; had made a pair of snowshoes and a number of
vessels of birch bark, and except for the tea and
flour had been self-supporting, items compensated
for by the value of our labors.
In that time we had two snows, one
a severe one, but our cabin roof was secure and we
defied it. Jerry wanted to stay at the cabin all
winter, a wish that I might easily have shared, for
the life in the open and the companionship of the
boy had put new marrow into my dry bones. I had
smuggled into camp three books, “Walden,”
“Rolf in the Woods” and “Treasure
Island,” one for Jerry’s philosophy, one
for his practical existence and one for his imagination.
In the evenings sometimes I read while Jerry whittled,
and sometimes Jerry read while I worked at the snowshoes
or the vessels of birch bark.
In those two months was formed the
basis of Jerry’s idea of life as seen through
the philosophy of Roger Canby. We had many talks,
and Jerry asked many questions, but I answered them
all, rejoicing in his acuteness in following a line
of thought to its conclusion, a procedure which, as
I afterward discovered, was to cause me anxious moments.
“Walden” made him thoughtful, but he caught
its purpose and understood its meaning. “Rolf
in the Woods” made his eyes bright with the
purpose of achievement in woodcraft and a desire (which
I suppressed) to stalk and kill a deer. But “Treasure
Island” touched some deeper chord in his nature
than either of the other books had done. He followed
Jim and the Squire and John Silver in the Hispaniola
with glowing eyes.
“But are there bad men like
that now out in the world, Mr. Canby?” he broke
in excitedly.
“There are bad men in the world,
Jerry,” I replied coolly.
“Like John Silver?”
“Not precisely. Silver’s
only a character. This didn’t really happen,
you know, Jerry. It’s fiction.”
“Fiction!”
“A story, like Grimm’s tales.”
“Oh!” His jaw dropped and he stared at
me. “What a pity!”
I had wanted to stir in him a knowledge
of evil and chose the picturesque as being the least
unpleasant. But he couldn’t believe that
old John Silver and the Squire and Benn Gunn hadn’t
been real people. The tale dwelt in his mind
for days, but the final defeat of the mutineers seemed
to satisfy him as to the intention of the narrative.
“If there are evil men in the
world like those mutineers, Mr. Canby, it must be
a pretty bad place to live in,” was the final
comment, and I made no effort to undeceive him.