This memoir is not so much the history of a boy or of a man as of an experiment.  Therefore I will not longer delay in bringing Jerry to the point where my philosophy and John Benham’s was to be put to the test.  I have tried to indicate in as few phrases as possible Jerry Benham’s essential characteristics, the moral attributes that were his and the shapeliness and strength of his body.  I have never set great value on mere physical beauty, which too often reacts unpleasantly upon the character of its owner.  But looks meant nothing to Jerry and he was as unconscious of his striking beauty as the scarlet poppy that nods in the meadow.

At the age of twenty, to which point this narrative has arrived, Jerry Benham was six feet two inches in height and weighed, stripped, one hundred and eighty-two pounds.  His hair was brown, his eyes gray and his features those of the Hermes of Praxiteles.  His skin, naturally fair, was tanned by exposure to a ruddy brown, and his body, except for the few white scars upon his shoulder, relics of his encounter with the lynx, was without blemish.  He was always in training, and his muscles were long and closely knit.  I can hardly believe that there was a man on the Olympian fields of ancient Greece who could have been prettier to see than Jerry when he sparred with Flynn.  He was as agile as a cat, never off his balance or his guard, and slipped in and out, circling and striking with a speed that was surprising in one of his height and weight.  “Foot-work,” Flynn called it, and there were times, I think, when the hard-breathing Irishman was glad enough at the call of “time.”

Flynn’s own reply when I reproved him for the nonsense he had put into Jerry’s head about the prize ring will show how Jerry stood in the eyes of one of the best athletes of his day.  “He’s a wonder, Misther Canby.  Sure, ye can’t blame me f’r wantin’ to thry him against good ‘uns.  He ain’t awake yet, sor, an’ he’s too good-nachured.  Holy pow’rs!  If the b’ye ever cud be injuced to get mad-like, he’d lick his weight in woild-cats so he w’ud.”

There were times, as you may imagine, when I felt much like Frankenstein in awe of the creature I had created.  But Jerry fortunately couldn’t be “injuced to get mad-like.”  If things didn’t happen to please him, he frowned and set his jaws until his mood had passed and he could speak his mind in calmness.  His temper, like his will, was under perfect control.  And yet I knew that the orderly habit of his mind was the result of growth in a sheltered environment and that even I, carefully as I had trained him, had not gauged his depths or known the secret of the lees which had never been disturbed.

At the age of twenty, then, Jerry had the body of a man, the brain of a scholar and the heart of a child.  Less than a year remained before the time appointed when he must go forth into the world.  Both of us approached that day with regret.  For my part I should have been willing to stay on with Jerry at Horsham Manor indefinitely, and Jerry, whatever curiosity he may have felt as to his future, gave no sign of impatience.  I knew that he felt that perhaps the years to come might make a difference in our relations by the way he referred to the good years we had passed together and the small tokens of his affection which meant much from one not greatly demonstrative by habit.  As Jerry had grown toward manhood he did much serious reading in books of my selection (the Benham library having been long since expurgated), and I had been working steadily on my Dialectics.  We did our out-of-door work as usual, but there were times when I was busy, and then Jerry would whistle to the dogs and go off for his afternoon breather alone.  There had never been a pledge exacted of him to keep within the wall, but he knew his father’s wish, and the thought of venturing out alone had never entered his mind.  Perhaps you will say that it was the one thing Jerry would want to do, being the thing that was forbidden him, but you would not understand as I did the way Jerry’s mind worked.  If as a boy Jerry had been impeccable in the way of matters of duty, he was no less so now.  He had been trained to do what was right and now did it instinctively, not because it was his duty, but because it was the only thing that occurred to him.

And so, upon a certain day in June while I was reading in my study, Jerry went out with a rod and fly-book bound for the silent pools of Sweetwater, where the big trout lurked.  My book, I remember, was the “Dialogues of Hylas and Philonous upon the Reality and Perfection of Human Understanding,” and before Jerry had been long gone from the house I was completely absorbed in what Fraser in his preface calls “the gem of British metaphysical literature.”  But had I known what was to happen to Jerry on that sunny afternoon, or conceived of the dialogue in which he was to take a part, I should have regretted the intellectual attraction of Berkeley’s fine volume which had been the cause of my refusal to accompany the boy.

I find that I must reconstruct the incident as well as I can from my recollection of the facts as related by Jerry in the course of several conversations, each of which I am forced to admit amplified somewhat the one which had preceded it.

It seems that instead of making for the stream at its nearest point to the eastward, Jerry had cast into the woods above the gorge and worked upstream into the mountains.  His luck had been fair, and by the time he neared the point where the Sweetwater disappeared beneath the wall his creel was half full.  He clambered over a large rock to a higher level and found himself looking at a stranger, sitting on a fallen tree, fastening a butterfly net.  He did not discover that the stranger was a girl until she stood up and he saw that she wore skirts, short skirts, showing neat leather gaiters.  She eyed him coolly and neither of them spoke for a long moment, the girl probably because she was waiting for him to speak first, Jerry because (as he described it) of sheer surprise at the trespass and of curiosity as to its accomplishment.  Then the girl smiled at Jerry.

“Hello!” she said at last.

Jerry advanced a few steps, frowning.

“I suppose you know,” he said quickly, “that you’re trespassing.”

She glanced up at him, rather brazenly I fancy, and grinned.

“Oh, really!” Her eyes appraised him and Jerry, I am sure, felt rather taken aback.

“Yes,” he went on severely, “you’re trespassing.  We don’t allow any females in here.”

Her reply was a laugh which irritated Jerry exceedingly.

“Well, I’m here,” she said; “what are you going to do about it?”

“Do about it?” Jerry advanced two or three paces and stood looking down at her.  In our first conversation he told me that she seemed absurdly small, quite too insignificant to be so impudent.  In our second conversation I elicited the fact that he thought her skin smooth; in our third that her lips were much redder than mine.

When he got near her he paused, for she hadn’t moved away as he had expected her to and only looked up at him and laughed.

“Yes, do about it,” she repeated.

“You you know I could could throw you over the wall with one hand,” he stammered.

“Perhaps, but you wouldn’t.”

“Why not?’

“Because you’re a gentleman.”

“Oh, am I?”

“Yes.  Or if you aren’t you ought to be.”

He frowned at that, a little puzzled.

“Where do you come from?” he asked.

“I can’t see how that can possibly be any business of yours.”

“H-m.  How did you get in here?”

“I followed my nose.  How did you?”

“I I I belong here.”

“It’s an asylum, isn’t it?” she asked quite coolly.

“N no.”  Jerry missed the irony.  “Not at all.  I live here.  It’s my place.  You you’re the first woman that ever got in here, and I can’t imagine how you did it.  I I don’t want to be impolite, but I’m afraid you’ll have to go at once.”

The sound of her laughter was most disconcerting.  Jerry had no lack of a sense of humor and yet there was nothing that he could see to laugh at.

“That’s very amusing,” she said.  “A moment ago you were going to throw me over the wall and now you’re afraid you’re impolite.”

Jerry found himself smiling in spite of himself.

“I I don’t suppose I really meant that,” he muttered.

“What?  Throwing me over the wall or being polite?”

He looked rather bewildered, I think, at the inanity of her conversation.  Jerry wasn’t much given to small talk.

“I’m sorry you don’t think I’m polite.  I I’m not used to talking to women.  They’re too fussy about trifles.  What does it matter ”

“I don’t call throwing a female visitor over a wall a trifle,” she broke in.  “And it isn’t quite hospitable.  Now is it?”

Jerry rubbed his head and regarded her seriously.

“Now that you mention it, I don’t suppose it is.  But nobody asked you.  You just came.  Didn’t you see the trespass signs?”

“Oh, yes, they’re all about,” she said carelessly, as she picked up her tin specimen-box and turned away.  “I didn’t mean to stay.  I followed a butterfly.  He came in the iron railings, where the stream goes through the wall.  I crawled under where the iron is bent.  If you’re afraid of women you’d better have it fixed.”

“Afraid!” It was one word that Jerry detested.  “Afraid!  That’s funny.  Do you think I’m afraid of you?”

“Yes,” she replied, eyeing him critically.  “I rather think you are.”

“Well, I I’m not.  It would take more than a woman to make me afraid.”

Something in the turn of the phrase and tone of voice made her turn and examine him with a new interest.

“You’re a queer boy,” she said.

“How queer?” he muttered.

“You look and act as though you’d never seen a girl before.”

If he had known women better he wouldn’t have believed that she meant what she said.  As it was, her wizardry astounded him.

“How can you tell that?”

She was now regarding him wide-eyed in amazement.

“It’s true, then?” she gasped.

“Yes, it’s true.  You’re the first girl that I remember having seen.  But what difference does that make?  Why should I be afraid of you?  You couldn’t hurt a flea.  You can talk pretty well, but talk never killed anybody.”

She seemed stricken suddenly dumb and regarded him with an air which to anyone but Jerry would have shown her as discomfited as he.

“Do you mean that you’ve lived all your life a prisoner inside this wall and never seen a woman?” she asked incredulously.

“That depends upon what you mean by prisoner,” said Jerry.  “If having everything you want, doing everything you want is being a prisoner, I suppose that’s what I am.”

“Extraordinary!  And you’ve had no curiosity to go out to see the world?”

“No.  I’m going soon, but I don’t care about it.  There isn’t anything out there half as good as what I’ve got.”

“How do you know if you haven’t been there?”

“Oh, I know.  I’ve heard.  I read a great deal.”

Jerry told me (in our second conversation) that he wondered why he still stood there talking to her.  He supposed it was because he thought he had been impolite enough.  But she made no move to go.

“What have you heard?” she asked again.  “I suppose you thought that a girl had horns and a tail.”

Unconsciously his gaze wandered down over her slim figure.  Then he burst into a sudden fit of laughter.

“You’re funny,” he said.

“Not half as funny as I would be if I had them.”

“You might have a tail twisted under your dress for all I know.  What do girls wear skirts for?”

“To keep them warm.  Why do you wear trousers?”

“Trousers aren’t silly.  Skirts are.”

“That depends on who’s in them.”

He was forced to admit the logic of that.  Skirts might be silly, but she wasn’t.  She interested him, this strange creature that talked back, not in the least like Miss Redwood.  The jade!  Jerry did not know their tricks as I did.  She was reading him, I haven’t a doubt, like an open book.  It was a pity.  I hadn’t yet prepared Jerry for this encounter.  The girl had moved two or three paces away when she paused again.

“What’s your name?” she asked suddenly.

“Jerry.”

“That’s a nice name.  I think it’s like you.”

“How like me?”

“Oh, I don’t know boyish and rather jolly, in spite of being Jeremiah.  It is Jeremiah, isn’t it?”

He nodded.

“I was sure of it.  It was Jeremiah who wanted to throw me over the wall, but it was Jerry who didn’t.  Which are you really?  If you’re Jerry I’m not afraid of you in the least.  But if you’re Jeremiah, I must go at once.”

He smiled at her.

“Oh, that’s all right.  You needn’t hurry.  I wouldn’t hurt you.  You seem to be a very sprightly sort of a creature.  You laugh as though you really meant it.  What’s your name?  I’ve told you mine.”

“Una.”

“H-m.  That means ’first’.”

“But not the last.  There are five others all girls.”

“Girls!  What a pity!”

She must have glanced around at him quickly, with that bird-like pertness I discovered later.  He was declaring war, himself defenseless, and was not even aware of it.

“You’re not flattering.  A pity!  Why?”

“It’s too bad if you had to be born why some of you couldn’t have been boys.  You’d have been a fine sort of a boy, I think.”

“Would I really?” she said.  “A better sort of a boy than I am a girl?”

He shrugged his shoulders, oblivious of the bait for flattery.

“How should I know what sort of a girl you are?  You seem sensible enough and you’re not easily frightened.  You know, I I rather like you.”

“Really!”

He missed the smile and note of antagonism and went on quickly: 

“You’re fond of the woods, aren’t you?  Do you know the birds?  They like this place.  And butterflies I’d like to show you my collection.”

“Oh, you collect?”

“Of course specimens of all kinds.  Birds, eggs, nests, lepidoptera I’ve got a museum down at the Manor.  Next year you’ll have to come and see it.”

“Next year!”

“Yes.  You see ” Jerry’s pause must have been that of embarrassment.  I think he realized that he had been going it rather rapidly.  I didn’t hear this part of the dialogue until our third conversation.  “Well, you see, I’m not supposed to see any any females until I’m twenty-one.  Not that I’ve ever wanted to, you know, but it seems rather foolish that I can’t ask you down, if you’d like to come.”

Can you visualize a very modern young woman during this ingenuous revelation?  Jerry said that close, cool inspection of her slate-blue eyes (he had, you see, also identified their color) rather disconcerted him.

“I’m sure I should be delighted to come,” she said with a gravity which to anyone but Jerry would have made her an object of suspicion.

Jerry shook his head.

“But I I’m afraid it wouldn’t do.  I’ve never given my word, but it’s an understanding ”

“With whom?”

“With Roger.  He’s my tutor, you know.”

“Oh, I see.  And Roger objects to er females?”

“Oh, yes, and so do I. They’re so useless most of them.  You don’t mind my saying so, do you?”

“Oh, not at all,” she replied, though I’m sure her lips must have been twitching.

“Of course, you’re different.  You’re really very like a boy.  And I don’t doubt you’re very capable.”

“How capable?”

“You look as if you could do things I mean useful things.”

At this she sank on a rock and buried her face in her hands, quivering from head to foot.  Jerry thought that she was crying.

“What’s the ?”

She threw out her arms, leaned back against a tree, her long suppressed merriment bubbling forth unrestrained.

“Oh, you’ll be the death of me,” she laughed, the tears running down her cheeks.  “I can’t stand being bottled up another minute.  I can’t.”

Jerry was offended.

“I don’t see what there is to laugh at,” he said with some dignity.

“You don’t that’s just it, you don’t, and that’s what’s so funny.”

And she laughed again.

“What’s funny?” he asked.

“You !”

“I’m not half as funny as you are, but I don’t laugh at you.”

“Y you w-would if you didn’t p-pity me so much,” she gasped between giggles.

“I don’t pity you at all.  And I think you’re extremely foolish to laugh so much at nothing.”

“Even when I’m laughing at y-you?”

She had taken out her handkerchief and now composed herself with difficulty while Jerry’s ruffled dignity in silence preened at its feathers.  She watched him furtively, I’m sure, between dabs with her handkerchief and at last stopped laughing, got up and offered him her hand.

“I’ve made you angry,” she said.  “I’m sorry.”

He found that he had taken her hand and was looking at it.  The words he used in describing it were these:  “It was small, soft and warm, Roger, and seemed alive with vitality, but it was timid, too, like a young thrush just fallen from its nest.”  So far as I could discover, he didn’t seem to know what to do with her hand, and before he decided anything she had withdrawn it abruptly and was turning away.

“I’m going now,” she said calmly.  “But I’ve enjoyed being here, awfully.  It was very nice of you not to to throw me over the wall.”

“I wouldn’t have, really,” he protested.

“But you might have had me arrested, which would have been worse.”  She opened her tin box.  “It’s your butterfly, of course.  You can have it, if you like.”

“Oh, I wouldn’t take it for anything.  Besides, that’s no good.”

“No good?”

“No, common.  I’ve got loads of ’em.”

Her nose wrinkled and then she smiled.

“Oh, well, I’ll keep it as a souvenir of our acquaintance.  Good-by,
Jerry.”  She smiled.

“Good-by, Una.  I’m sorry ” he paused.

“For what?”

“If I was cross ”

“But you weren’t.  I shouldn’t have laughed.”

“I think I like you better when you laugh than when when you’re ’bottled up’.”

“But I mustn’t laugh at you.  I didn’t mean to.  I just couldn’t help.  You’ve forgiven me, haven’t you?”

“Of course.”

She had taken up her hat and now walked away upstream.  Jerry followed.

“Will you really come next year?” he asked.  “I I should like to show you my specimens.”

“Next year!  Next year is a long way off.  You know, I don’t belong here.  I’m only visiting.”

“Oh!”

She clambered down into the bed of the stream toward the iron railing.  Two of the bars, as he could now see, were bent inward at the bottom.

When she reached the railing she turned and flashed a smile up at him.

“You’d better tell Roger about the broken fence.”

“Why?”

She thrust her net and tin box through the bars and then slipped quickly through the opening.

“Why?” he repeated.

She stood upright and laughed.

“I might come in again.”

Jerry, I think, must have stood looking down at her wistfully.  I cannot believe that the psychology of sex made any matter here.  Youth merely responded wordlessly to youth.  Had she been a boy it would have been the same.  But the girl was clever.

“I think I will,” she said gayly.  “It looks very pretty from out here.”

“I I can’t invite you,” said Jerry.  “I should like to, but I I can’t.”

“I could come without being invited,” she laughed.

“But you wouldn’t, would you?”

“I might.  I didn’t hurt you, did I?”

“No,” he laughed.

“Then I don’t see what harm it would do.  I’m coming.”

No reply.

“I’m coming tomorrow.”

No reply.  This was really stoical of Jerry.

“And Jerry ” she called.

“Yes, Una ”

“I think you’re you’re sweet.”

There was a rustle among the leaves and she was gone.

Thus did the serpent enter our garden.