That afternoon when Jerry returned
to the Manor he gave me a superficial account of the
adventure so superficial and told with
such carelessness that I was not really alarmed.
The second conversation in the evening after dinner
aroused my curiosity but not my suspicion. I
was not in the habit of mistrusting Jerry. The
intrusion of the stranger was an accident, not likely
to occur again. It was only after our discussion
had taken many turns and curiously enough had always
come back to the pert intruder that I realized that
Jerry’s interest had really been aroused.
Late at night over our evening reading the boy made
the comments upon the visitor’s appearance,
her voice and the texture of her skin. He had
been quite free in his opinions, favorable and unfavorable
alike, and it was this very frankness which had disarmed
me. The incident, as far as Jerry’s story
went, ended when the visitor crawled under the railing.
I am not sure what motive was in his mind, but the
events which followed lend strong color to the presumption
that Jerry believed the girl when she said that she
was coming back and that at the very time he was speaking
to me he intended to meet her when she came.
I had decided to treat the incident
lightly, trusting to the well-ordered habits of Jerry’s
life and the number of his daily interests to put
the visitor out of his mind. I did not even warn
him, as I should have done had I realized the imminence
of danger or the necessity of keeping to the letter
as well as the spirit of John Benham’s definite
instruction, for this I thought might lay undue stress
upon the matter. And in the course of the morning,
nothing further having been said, I was lulled into
a sense of security.
In the afternoon Bishop Berkeley’s
book called me again and it was not until late that
I realized that the boy had been gone from the house
for four hours. His rod, creel and fly-book were
missing from their accustomed places but even then
I suspected nothing. It was not until the approach
of the dinner hour when, Jerry not having returned,
I began to think of yesterday’s visitor.
After waiting dinner for awhile, I
dined alone, expecting every minute to hear the sound
of his step in the hall or his cheery greeting but
there was no sign of him and I guessed the truth.
The minx had come in again and Jerry was with her.
The events which followed were the
first that cast the slightest shadow over our friendship,
a shadow which was not to pass, for, from the day
when Eve entered our garden, Jerry was changed.
It wasn’t that he loved me any the less or I
him. It was merely that his attitude toward life
and toward my point of view had shifted. He had
begun to doubt my infallibility.
It was this indefinable difference
in our relations which delayed Jerry’s confession,
and not until some days later did he tell me how it
all happened. He didn’t think she would
really come back, he said, and I chose at the time
not to doubt him, but the fact was that he made his
way directly upstream after leaving the house, and
catching no fish, sat down on a rock near the iron
grille. That the girl returned was not Jerry’s
fault, he said, because he didn’t ask her to.
But the fact that he was there awaiting her when she
arrived shows that the wish was the father to the
thought with Jerry. He had been sitting there
alone fifteen or twenty minutes “listening for
bird calls,” as he explained it and had already
identified twenty distinct notes when he heard the
twenty-first.
It was human. “Hello, Jerry,” it
said.
It came from the iron railing, behind
which the female Una was standing, grinning at him.
He got up and walked toward her.
“Hello!” he returned.
“You didn’t think I’d
come, did you, Jerry?” she asked, though how
she could have arrived at that conclusion with the
boy sitting there waiting for her is more than I can
imagine.
“No, I didn’t,”
he replied, already learning to prevaricate with calm
assurance. “Are you coming in?”
“I will if you ask me to.”
“I can’t do that,”
he laughed. “You know the rules. But
I don’t see what I could do to stop you.”
“Please invite me, Jerry.”
“No, I won’t invite you. But I won’t
put you out if you come.”
“Please!”
“Why do you insist?”
“Because I think
you ought to, you know. Just to make me feel
comfortable.”
“You seemed very comfortable yesterday.”
“I think you’re horrid.”
“Horrid! Because I won’t break my
promise?”
“But you’ve made no promise.”
“It’s understood.
See here. I’ll turn my back and walk away.
If you come in it’s not my fault.”
“You needn’t bother.
I’m not coming.” She turned and made
as though to go.
“Una,” he called. “Please.
Come in.”
She reappeared miraculously, her vanity
appeased by Jerry’s downfall, bobbed through
the bent irons, and rose smiling decorously as Eve
must have smiled when she watched Adam first bite
the apple.
“Thanks,” she laughed,
clambering up the rocks. “It’s awfully
nice of you. I knew you would. I couldn’t
have come else.”
“It doesn’t really make
much difference, I suppose,” said Jerry dubiously.
“What doesn’t?”
“Whether I ask you or whether you just come.”
“I wouldn’t have come if you hadn’t.”
“Are you sure?”
“Positive. I was just passing
this way and I saw you sitting here. I hadn’t
the slightest intention of coming in. Of course,
when you invited me, that made things different.”
He laughed and motioned to a rock upon which she sank.
“Tell me,” he said, “how
you happen to be up here in the mountains alone.
You don’t belong around here. You didn’t
know about the wall, or about me, did you?”
“Of course not; not yesterday. But I do
now. I asked last night.”
“Who did you ask?”
“The people I’m staying with.”
“And what did they tell you?”
“They weren’t very polite.
It doesn’t do to ignore one’s neighbors.
They said you were a freak.”
“What’s a freak?”
“Something strange, unnatural.”
“And do you think I’m strange or unnatural?”
he asked soberly.
She looked at him and laughed.
“Unnatural! If nature is unnatural.”
“What else do they say?” Jerry asked after
a thoughtful pause.
“That your precious Roger is
a dealer in magic and spells; that you’ve already
learned flying on a broomstick and practice it on nights
when the moon is full; that you’re hideously
ugly; that you’re wonderfully beautiful; that
you live in a tree; that you sleep in a coffin; that
you’re digging for gold; that you’ve found
the recipe for diamonds; that you’ve ”
“Now you’re making fun
of me,” he laughed as she paused for lack of
breath.
“I’m not. If there’s
anything that you are or aren’t that I haven’t
heard, I can’t imagine what it is. In other
words, Jerry, you’re the mystery of the county.
Aren’t you glad?”
“Glad? Of course not. It’s all
such utter rot.”
“Of course. But doesn’t it make you
feel mysterious?”
“Not a bit.”
“Doesn’t it ever occur to you how important
a person you are?”
“How important?”
“To begin with, of course, you’re
fabulously wealthy. You knew that, didn’t
you?”
“Oh, I suppose I’ve got some money, but
I don’t let it worry me.”
“Do you know how much?”
“No, I haven’t the slightest idea.”
“Not that you’ve got millions millions!”
“If my millions are as impalpable
as my broomstick they won’t hurt me much,”
he laughed. And then soberly: “Say,
Una, you seem to know a lot more about me than I know
about myself.”
“I think I do,” she returned.
“For instance, of course, you couldn’t
guess that half the match-making mammas of the county
are already setting their caps for you.”
He looked bewildered at that, I’m sure.
“Do you know,” he said,
“that I haven’t the slightest idea what
you’re talking about.”
“Of course,” she laughed.
“I forgot. They want to marry you to their
daughters.”
“Marry! Me! You’re joking.”
I think he must have seemed really alarmed.
“I’m not. The fat,
the small, the lean and the tall. They’re
all after you. The moment you poke your nose
outside the gate next year, they’re all going
to pounce on you and try to carry you off.”
“But I can’t marry them
all,” he said aghast. “Besides I don’t
want to marry anybody. And I’m not going
to.”
She couldn’t restrain herself
now and burst into wild peals of merriment, while
Jerry watched her, uncertain whether to be angry or
amused. At last he decided to smile.
“You seem to have a lot of fun
with me, Una, don’t you?”
“I don’t mean to.
But the picture of you trying to escape the engulfing
flood of mammas is too much. I’ve got to
laugh, Jerry. I can’t help it.”
“Laugh, then. I don’t think it’s
so funny, though.”
“But it is. Because I’m
sure you’d be too polite to refuse them any
of them.”
“Polite! I won’t
be polite. Just because I’m nice to you
isn’t any sign. I I’ll
send ’em all packing. You’ll see.”
“Oh, you’re brave enough
now, but wait wait!” She bent over,
clasping her knees, still shaking with merriment.
“Why, Jerry, you couldn’t
be impolite to a woman any more than you could fly.
You’d do just whatever she said.”
“I wouldn’t. They’re
idiots, the lot of ’em. What’s the
use? What do girls want to get married for, anyway?”
She glanced up at him quickly.
Then at the glimpse she had of Jerry’s sober
profile her wide gaze dulled and then sought the earth
before her. It was true then what she believed
of him. A child this gorgeous creature
that shaved its face!
“I suppose it’s because
they they haven’t anything else to
do,” she stammered.
“There’s plenty for every
woman to do without marrying, or there ought to be.
They can work like men, or clean their houses, or raise
their children.”
At this point the girl was seized
with a sudden fit of coughing and her face was purple.
“What’s the matter?”
“I I just swallowed the wrong way,”
she gasped.
“Here, I’ll pat you on the back.
All right now?”
“Y-yes, better, thanks.”
But she held her fingers before her eyes and still
struggled for breath. In a moment when she raised
her head, there were traces of a smile, but she was
quite composed.
“Then you you don’t
believe in marriage as an institution?” she asked
with some hesitation.
“No. I can’t see
the use of it. We’re all animals like the
wild folk, the beasts of the field, the birds.
They get along all right.”
“Birds mate, don’t they?” she put
in.
“Oh, yes, but they don’t
need a minister to mate ’em. They just hop
about together a bit and then start their nest.
It’s simple as rolling off a log.”
“That’s what humans do,
as you say; they just hop about a bit and then get
married.”
“But marriage doesn’t
make ’em any happier, does it? I’m
sure I wouldn’t want to be tied down to one
woman as long as I lived. Suppose I changed my
mind or suppose she did.”
“You wouldn’t change your mind if you
loved a woman.”
“Love!” he sneered. “There
you go. I thought you’d say that.”
“You don’t believe in love, then?”
she asked.
“It seems to me that there’s
a lot of sentimental rubbish written about it.
What’s the use of talking so much about a thing
that’s as plain as the nose on your face?
Love means loyalty, friendship, honor and everything
that’s fine, but when the classic poets begin
writing reams of rot about it, it’s time it’s
time somebody was sensible.”
“Poor Jerry,” she laughed. “I’m
so sorry for you.”
“Why?”
“Because when you fall, you’re going to
fall so very hard.”
“How fall?”
“Fall in love. You will,
some day. Everybody does. It’s as sure
as death or taxes.”
“Everybody! You haven’t, have you?”
“Oh, dear, no. Not yet. But I suppose
I shall some day.”
Jerry regarded her in silence for a moment.
“I didn’t think you were a bit slushy.”
“I’m not slushy,”
indignantly. “I hate slushy people.
Where did you get that word?”
“Roger. He hates ’em too.”
“Your Roger doesn’t like women, does he?”
“No. He’s very wise,
Roger is. But sometimes I think he’s prejudiced.
I’d like you to know Roger, I really would.”
She gazed straight before her for a moment deliberating
and then:
“I hope you don’t mind
if I say so, but I think your Roger must be a good
deal of a fossil.”
“A fossil. Now see here,
Una I can’t have you talking about
Roger like that.”
“He is. I’m sure of it. All
theorists are.”
“He’s not. He’s the broadest
fellow you ever knew.”
“Nobody’s broad who ignores
the existence of woman,” she returned hotly.
“It’s sinful that sort of philosophy.
It’s against nature. We’re here millions
of us, working as hard as men do, earning our own
way in the world, active, live intelligences, writing
books, nursing in hospitals, cleaning the plague-spots
out of the cities, influencing in a thousand ways
the uplift of that coarser brute man and besides all
this practicing a thousand acts of self-abnegation
in the home. Keeping man’s house, cooking
his food, bearing his ch ”
She stopped abruptly and bit her lip.
“Bearing his what?” asked Jerry.
“Burdens,” she blurted
out. “Burdens all sorts of burdens,”
she finished weakly.
“I suppose there are
things that women can do,” said Jerry after a
moment. “Of course, I don’t know much
about it. But ”
“Well, it’s time you did,”
she broke in again. “It may be beautiful
here inside these walls an unbroken
idyl of peace and contentment, but it isn’t
life. It’s just existence, that’s
all. If I were a man, I’d want to do a
man’s work in the world. I wouldn’t
want to miss an hour of it, childhood, boyhood or
manhood. I’d want to meet my temptations
and conquer them. It’s selfish, the way
you live, unreal, cowardly.”
“See here, Una ”
“I mean it. You’ve
got me started and I can’t help it. If I
say anything that hurts, you’ll have to put
me out. But I’m going to tell you what
I think.”
“You’re rather bewildering.
But I’m not a coward. I don’t want
you to say that. If you were a man, I’d
give you a thrashing,” he said quietly.
Their glances must have flashed fire.
Jerry’s face was red, I’m sure, and his
fingers were twitching to get hold of something, but
the girl didn’t flinch. Jerry told me afterward
that he found his anger softening strangely as he
looked at her and in a moment they were both smiling.
The girl spoke first.
“I’ve gone too far, Jerry. Forgive
me.”
“Of course,” he said awkwardly.
“I suppose you’ve got a right to your
opinions. But it isn’t very pleasant to
be told that one’s life is a failure.”
“I didn’t say that,”
she put in quickly. “You haven’t failed,
of course. You’ve missed something, but
you’ve gained something too.” Her
words trailed slowly again and her gaze sought the
deep woods. “Yes,” she repeated softly
and thoughtfully, “I’m very sure you’ve
gained something.”
“What have I gained?”
There was a long pause before she replied.
“Simplicity,” she said
carefully. “Life, after all, nowadays, is
so very complex,” she sighed.
But when he questioned as to what
she meant, she waved him off. “No, I’ve
said enough. I didn’t intend to. Don’t
let’s talk any more about what I think.
Let’s talk about what you think, what
you read, what you do. People say you live in
the woods most of the time do you?
Where? How?”
“In a cabin. We built it.
Would you like to see it? It’s not far.
I’ll make you a cup of tea.”
As the reader will perceive, in these
two conversations, lasting perhaps two hours, this
slip of a girl, in mere idle curiosity, had touched
with her silly chatter the vital, the vulnerable points
of Jerry’s philosophy of life. Fate had
not been fair to me or with him. Less than a
year; remained of Jerry’s period of probation.
In December the boy was to go out into the world.
And through an unfortunate accident due to a broken
iron, a chaos of half-baked ideas had come pouring
through the breach. If I said that my labors of
ten years had been useless or that the fruition of
John Benham’s ideals for his son were still
in doubt I should be putting the matter too strongly,
but I have no hesitancy in confessing that the appearance
of the girl had at least put them in jeopardy.
She had turned his mind into a direction which I had
carefully avoided. He must think now and ask questions
that I could not be ready to answer. By this time
it must be well understood that I have no love for
women, but I will do this girl the credit of saying
that in a general way she saw fit to respect Jerry’s
artlessness. I think that the sex instinct, so
ready with its antagonisms, its insinuations, its
alternate attacks and defenses, was atrophied as in
the presence of a phenomenon. She was modern enough,
God knows, but she had some delicacy at least and was
impotent before the splendor of Jerry’s innocence.
What they said on the way to the cabin
must have been unimportant. I suppose Jerry told
her about his routine at the Manor and something of
what I had taught him of woodcraft, but I think that
she was very reticent in speaking of herself.
No doubt her unceremonious visit to our domain and
the unusual intimacy of their conversation had made
it seem necessary to her to preserve her incognito,
or perhaps it was coquetry, which no woman, however
placed, is quite without. As far as I have been
able to learn, they were as two children, the girl’s
mind as well as her actions, in spite of her sophistication,
reflecting the artlessness of her companion.
The damage that she had done, as I was afterwards
to discover, was mainly by the force of suggestion.
She assumed the absurd premises of modernity, drew
her own preposterous conclusions and Jerry drank them
in, absorbed them as he did all information, like
a sponge.