Fortunately for me, neither Jack Ballard
nor the expected overflow from the Van Wyck house-party
came to disturb the serenity of my thoughts, Jack
being suddenly called to Newport, the guests having
been taken in elsewhere. So I sat up alone for
Jerry until late and finally went to bed, happily
conscious that my embassy, impossible as it had seemed,
had borne fruit after all. Jerry did not go to
Marcia Van Wyck’s party, and his evening clothes
remained where Christopher had laid them out, on the
bed in his room. I gave myself an added pleasure
in slumber that night by going in and looking at them
before I sought my own room. I cannot remember
a night when I have slept more soundly and I rose
refreshed and intensely eager to hear how things had
gone with Jerry and the dear lady whom I had once so
inaptly dubbed “the minx.” At the
breakfast table Poole informed me that Jerry had returned
late to the Manor and was sleeping. It was good.
The glimmerings of reason that had appeared in the
boy during the last few days had been encouraging,
and his open revolt against the enchantress had made
me hopeful that her dominion over him was not so complete
as it had appeared. Viewed from any angle, the
conduct of the Van Wyck girl was reprehensible, and
admitted of no excuse. She had overshot the mark
and had done her target no harm. However warm
her friendship with those of her guests who were at
the cabin, the comments I had heard convinced me that
Jerry and I were not alone in our condemnation.
The attack seemed to savor of a lack of finesse, surprising
in a person of her cleverness, for had her bias not
been so great she should have known that as a gentleman,
Jerry must resent so palpable and designing an insult
to a guest at Horsham Manor. Her impudence still
astounded me. Did she think herself so sure of
Jerry that she chose purposely to try him? Or
had the point been reached in their amatory relations
where she was quite indifferent as to what Jerry might
do?
Smoothly as my plan had worked and
happily (or unhappily) as Marcia’s pique and
ill-humor had fitted into it, I could not believe that
Jerry’s revolt had ended matters. Even if
the boy had been willing to end them (a thing of which
I was not at all sure), Marcia Van Wyck was not the
kind of girl to retire on this ungraceful climax, and
Jerry’s absence from her house on so important
an occasion was nothing less than a notice to those
present that he and Marcia were no longer on terms.
I had had a sense of the girl’s taste for conquest,
and the more I thought of her the surer I was that
Jerry’s championship of Una Habberton would
revive whatever remained of the lingering sparks of
Marcia’s passion.
Jerry joined me in the study later
in the morning and sat for awhile reading the newspapers.
He was silent, almost morose, and at last got up and
walked about the place. I feared for a moment
that he had gone to the garage with the intention
of getting into his machine, and this I knew meant
nothing less than a ride posthaste, to Briar Hills.
But he came back presently in a more cheerful mood
and after luncheon suggested fishing, a proposal that
I instantly fell in with. And so I followed him
up stream, my own humor being merely to carry the net,
watch him whip the pools and pray that his luck might
be good, for a full creel meant good humor and good
humor, perhaps confidences.
Fortune favored. By the time
we had gotten up the gorge, Jerry was in high spirits,
for luck had crowned his skill and at least a dozen
fish lay stiffening in the basket, and when we reached
the iron grille Jerry emitted a deep sigh of satisfaction,
drew out his pipe and sank on a rock to smoke it.
I lay back beside him, my hat over my eyes. Nothing
stimulates confidences so much as indifference.
Jerry glanced at me once or twice, but I made no sign
and after awhile he began talking. Whenever he
paused I put in a grunt which encouraged him to go
on. That is how I happened to hear about Jerry’s
ride home with Una Habberton.
It seems that when they got into the
machine Una was very quiet and answered his questions
only in mono-syllables, but Jerry was patient and
all idea of Marcia’s party being out of his head,
he drove slowly so that he would not reach the city
until everything was clear and friendly between them
again. Her profile was very sober and demure,
he said. He wasn’t quite sure for a long
time whether she was going to burst into anger, tears,
or to laugh. Jerry must have looked sober too
and for awhile it couldn’t have been a very cheerful
ride, but at last the boy saw Una looking at him slantwise
and when he turned toward her she burst into the merriest
kind of a laugh.
“Oh, Jerry, is it home you’re
driving me to, or just a funeral?”
He gasped in relief at her sudden
change of mood. “I was just waiting,”
he said quietly. “I didn’t want to
intrude, Una.”
“But you do look so
like the undertaker’s assistant,” she smiled.
“You have no right to be glum. I have.
I’m the corpse. A corpse might laugh
in sheer relief when the lid was screwed down and
everything comfortable.”
“Una! I don’t see anything so funny ”
“My reputation! A trifling
thing,” she said coolly, “still, I value
it.”
“Your reputation!
That’s absurd nothing could hurt you.
I don’t understand.”
“I can’t quite see yet
how it all came out,” she went on thoughtfully,
“how Marcia knew that I had been inside the wall.
Why, Jerry, unless she learned it recently, since
I saw you in New York ” she paused.
“No,” protested Jerry
uncomfortably. “It was last summer ”
“But I had no name to you then I
was merely Una ”
“And I blurted it out, Una,
the only name I knew, never thinking that you and
Marcia were acquaintances.”
“Oh, I see,” and she smiled
a little. “If my name had been plain Jane
or even Mary, my reputation would have been safe.”
“What rubbish, Una! Can’t
a fellow and a girl have a chat without ”
“Yes, but the girl mustn’t
get through eight-foot walls.”
“I don’t see what difference
that makes.” She must have given him a
swift glance here. But she laughed again.
“You evidently don’t realize, Jerry, that
monasteries are supposed to be taboo for young girls.”
“Yes, but you didn’t know
about it being a monastery,” he said seriously.
“Of course, or I shouldn’t
have dared. But that makes no difference to Marcia.
I was there. You told her. Don’t you
know, Jerry, that it isn’t good form to tell
everything you know?”
“She guessed it,” he muttered.
“It’s such a lot of talk about nothing.”
I think Jerry was getting a little warm now. “Suppose
you were in there, whose affair is it but yours
and mine?”
“Everybody’s,” she
shrugged. “Everybody’s business!
That ought to be inscribed on the tombstone of every
dead reputation. Hic jacet Una Habberton.
Nice girl, but she would visit monasteries.”
But nothing was humorous to Jerry’s mood just
then.
“I can’t have you talking
like that, Una,” he said in a suppressed tone.
“It’s very painful to me. I can’t
imagine why anyone should try to injure you.
They couldn’t, you know. You’re above
all that sort of thing. It’s too trivial ”
“Oh, is it? You’ll
see. All New York will have the story in twenty-four
hours. Pretty sort of a tale to get to the Mission!
The Mission! If those people heard! Imagine
the embroideries! I could never lift my head
down there again.”
“Let the world go hang.
Have you anything to be ashamed of, Una?”
“No.”
“Nor I. Very well.”
The seriousness that Una attached
to the affair, while it bewildered, also inflamed
him. “I wish it had been a man who had talked
to you the way Marcia did.”
Una turned toward him soberly.
“What would you do to him, Jerry?”
He smiled grimly. “I think I’d kill
him,” he said softly.
I think Jerry’s tone must have
comforted her, for he said that after that Una grew
quieter.
“The world is very intolerant of idyls, Jerry.”
They had reached a road which overlooked
the river. Long, cool shadows brushed their faces
as they rushed on from orchard to meadow, all redolent
of sweet odors.
“Why?”
“Because they’re a reproach.”
“Friendship is no idyl, Una,
with us. It’s more like reality, isn’t
it?”
“I hope so.”
“Don’t you believe it?”
“Yes, I think I do.”
He smiled at her gayly.
“I’m sure of it.
I’m always myself with you, Una. I seem
to want you to know all the things I’m thinking
about. That’s the surest indication, isn’t
it? And I want to know what you’re thinking
about. I feel as though I’d given you too
many additional burdens down town, that you may tire
this summer.”
“Oh, you needn’t worry. I’m
quite strong.”
“I want you to lay out some
definite work that I can do, not merely giving money,
but myself, my own strength and energy.”
He laughed. “You know I’m really
thinking of asking you to establish a mission for
men only, with me as the first patient.
It does seem to straighten me out somehow, just being
with you keeps me from thinking crooked.”
“Do you think crooked, Jerry?”
“Yes, often. Things bother
me. Then I’m like a child. You’ve
no idea of the vast abyss of my ignorance.”
“But you mustn’t think crooked.
I won’t have it.”
“I can’t help it, sometimes.
People aren’t always what you expect ’em
to be. I ought to understand better by this time,
but I don’t.”
“People aren’t like books,
Jerry. You’re sure of books. But with
people, you can turn the same page again and again
and the printing is different every time.”
“People do change, don’t they?”
“Yes, and the pages are rather
smudgy here and there, but you’ll learn to read
them some day. The office will help you, Jerry,
because business people have to think straight
or be repudiated. You ought to go to the office
every day and work work whether you like
it or not. You’ve got too much money.
It’s dangerous. You’re like a colt
just out in the pasture, all hocks and skittishness.
Work is the only thing for that. It may be tiresome
but you’ve got to stick at it if it kills you.”
“I suppose you’re right,” he muttered.
“Jerry,” she went on rapidly,
and I think with a twinkle of mischief in her eye,
“all of us have streaks of other people in us.
I have, lots of ’em. Sometimes I wonder
which part of me is other people and which is me.
I think you’ve even got more different kinds
of people in you than I have. Students, philosophers,
woodsmen, prize fighters ”
“Una!”
“I must. Everything, almost
everything you’ve been and done I like except ”
“Oh, don’t Una ”
“I’ve got to. You
wanted to clear things up between us. That’s
one of the things we’ve got to clear up.
I don’t understand the psychology of the prize
ring and I’m not sure that I’d care to
understand it. I know that you are strong in
body. You should be glad of that, but not so
glad as to be vain of it. One doesn’t boast
of the gifts of the gods. One merely accepts
them, thankfully ”
“I was a fool ”
“Say rather, merely an animated
biped, an instinct on legs. Is that a
thing to be proud of for a man who knows
what real ideals are?”
“Don’t ”
“Did you discuss Shakespeare
and the musical glasses with ‘Kid’ Spatola?”
“Please!”
“Or the incorporeal nature of the soul with
Battling Sagorski?”
“Una!” Her irony was biting him like acid.
“Or did Sagorski make you an
accessory before the fact of his next housebreaking
expedition?”
“Una, that isn’t fair. Sagorski is ”
“He’s a second-story man,
Jerry, with a beautiful record. Shall I give
it to you?”
“Er no, thanks,” gasped Jerry
breathlessly. “I can’t believe ”
“You missed nothing at the house?”
She waited for his reply.
“I’m not sure who took them ”
“But you did miss ?”
“Yes, spoons, forks and things ”
He broke off exasperated. “Oh, Una, it’s
cruel of you?”
“No, kind. Sagorski is
a smudgy page, Jerry. I happened to have seen
it in the records. And there’s a woman at
the Mission ”
It was Una’s turn to pause in sudden solemnity.
“A woman. His wife?” asked Jerry.
“No, just a woman.”
“He had treated her badly?”
“Her soul,” she replied slowly, “is
dead. Her body doesn’t matter.”
She must have been thankful for the
silence that followed? for the look of bewilderment,
piteous, I think, it must now have seemed to Una,
was in his face again. And before he could question
further she had turned the topic.
A little later, I think, personalities began again.
“You’re always helping
people, Una, always helping,” he said slowly.
“Does it make you happy?”
“Yes, if I can help.”
“And you want to help me? I wonder if I’m
worth it.”
“Yes, I wouldn’t bother if you weren’t.”
“And how do you know I’m worth it?”
“It’s my business to know,” she
said.
Jerry sent the car spinning joyously
down a fine stretch of straight empty road. And
then when he had reduced the car to a slower pace,
“You know, Una,” he laughed,
“you do take charge of a fellow, don’t
you?”
“You need ’mothering’,” she
smiled.
“Or sistering. I wish I
had a sister like you. Fellows ought to have
sisters, anyway. People ought to be born in pairs,
male and female.”
She laughed and then with sudden seriousness:
“But people ought to stand on
their feet. All the ‘sistering’ in
the world won’t help a lame man to walk.”
“I’m not so awfully lame, am I?”
“No. Just limpy. But don’t try
to run yet, Jerry.”
“Oh, I say ”
“Just keep your eyes open.
You’ll see.” And then quietly, “You
know Phil Laidlaw, don’t you?”
“Oh, yes, fine chap.”
“I think it wouldn’t harm
you to know Phil better. He isn’t brilliant,
but he’s steady, sure, reliable. And he
stands on his feet, Jerry, on both of them.”
Jerry’s comment to me in telling
this part of the conversation was amusing. “Phil
Laidlaw is a good fellow and all that,”
he muttered, “but hang it all, Roger, you can’t
stomach having another man’s virtues thrust
down your throat!”
My own comment may be interesting.
“I don’t wonder that she
cares for him,” I said. “A good match,
I should say.”
“H m,” replied
Jerry. “I can’t seem to think of Una
married to anybody. She’s so much occupied ”
“But she will be married
some day, my boy. Charity begins at home.”
She had used her woman’s weapons
loyally, at least. I think her comments on Laidlaw
must have made Jerry silent for awhile and he told
me little of the conversation that followed. But
they must have “cleared up” all the things
that stood between them. I think the subsequent
conversation must have been largely pleasant and personal,
for Jerry spoke of the wonderful weather and how Una
admired the view they had of the great river from
Hoboken with the lights of the towers of Manhattan,
like the sparks of some mighty fire, hanging midway
in the air.
I was silent when he had concluded.
Evidently he wanted me to say something, for he looked
at me once or twice as he was refilling his pipe.
But I was thinking deeply.
“She’s a wonder,”
he said after awhile. “You know the committee
of ladies that’s supposed to manage things down
town have all gone away, leaving the whole responsibility
to Una the plans, specifications, business
arrangements and all.”
“As Marcia suggested,”
I replied, “they’re sure that matters are
in good hands.”
“Yes, she’s so sane.
That’s it. You know when we got to town
I took dinner with the family down in Washington Square.
Jolly lot of girls, like stair-steps, from eight to
eighteen, but not a bit like Una, Roger, and the mother,
placid, serene, intelligent with a dignity that seems
to go with the house and neighborhood a
dear old lady, not so terribly old, either, and astonishingly
well informed Fine old house, refreshing,
cool, mellow with age and decent associations; none
of your Louis Quinze business there. I always
wondered where Una got her poise. Now I know.”
“Had you never called there
before?” I asked when he paused to light his
pipe.
“No, I always went to her office
in the Mission and had her in a different setting,
a bare room, desk, filing-cases, placards on the wall,
scrupulously neat and business-like, but uncompromising,
Roger, and severe. The house makes a better frame
for her somehow ”
I knew what he meant, for I had seen
her in it, but of course was silent.
“She’s doing a tremendous
work down town. She is the Mission.
The superintendent and nurses idolize her. I
was questioning her mother about it. Una has
a way with her. The women that come there have
to be handled carefully, it seems. I’m
afraid they’re a bad lot, though Una won’t
talk about ’em. She says I wouldn’t
understand. I suppose I wouldn’t.
I’ve never learned much about women yet, Roger.
Funny, too. They seem so easy to understand,
and yet they’re not. It’s the men
that bring the women down ruin them, but
I can’t see why it couldn’t just as well
be the other way about. Men are weak, too; why
are the men always blamed? That’s what
I want to know, and what does it all mean? I
suppose I’m awfully ignorant. Things go
in one ear and out the other without making any impression.
I lack something. It’s the way I’m
made. I’ve missed something, of the meaning
of life, I suppose, because I’ve lived it all
with so few people, you, Una, Uncle Jack Flynn
and the boys ”
“And Marcia,” I put in suggestively.
He ignored my remark.
“Most chaps I’ve met seem
to take so much of my knowledge for granted.
The boys at Flynn’s puzzled me, their strange
phrases, hinting at hidden vices, but I wasn’t
going to question them. It’s up to
you, Roger. I want to know. What is this
threat to Una’s reputation when Marcia tells
of our meeting here alone?”
As I remained resolutely silent, Jerry
got up and paced with long strides up and down before
me.
“Why shouldn’t she and
I meet here alone if we want to? And why these
absurd restrictions surrounding the life of girls?
I’ve accepted them, as I accept my morning coffee,
because they’re there. But what do they
mean? I know that a girl is more delicate than
a boy, a being to be sheltered and cared for; that
seems natural. I accept that. But it goes
too far. Una does what she pleases. Why shouldn’t
she? What is the meaning of unconventional morality?
And why unconventional? Is morality so vague
a term that there can be any sort of doubt as to its
real meaning? And is Una any the less moral because
she chooses to be unconventional? Una! I’d
stake my life on her morality and innate refinement.
No girl sacrifices her youth in the interests of others
less fortunate than herself without being fine clear
through. Then what did Marcia mean? And
what could Una mean when she said her reputation was
in danger? The very thought of my having harmed
her, even by imputation, in the minds of others makes
me desperately unhappy. And what, what on earth
could Marcia suspect of me or of Una to place us both
in so false a light? What could Marcia mean in
speaking in that way about Una’s visit here when
she herself came ” He bit the word
off abruptly and came to a stop. Some instinct some
baser instinct that Marcia was a part of, made frankness
impossible. I could have finished his sentence
for him but I didn’t. Instead, I rose suddenly
to a sitting posture, my tongue loosened.
“Bah!” I muttered.
“The spleen of a jealous woman; it stops nowhere at
nothing!”
“But what was there in the story,”
he persisted, “to cause so much tension?
I felt it in the air, Roger. It was in the looks
of those about me, in Una’s face. She was
troubled. I had to speak.”
“You did well, Jerry. You
had to speak to defend her ”
“Against what?”
“The results of her own imprudence,”
I said slowly, feeling my way with difficulty.
“Una’s visits here and at the cabin were
not what are called conventional.”
“Conventional! Perhaps
not. But where does the question of morality
come in?” he went on boring straight at the mark.
“It doesn’t,” I
remarked calmly. “It seems to me that Una’s
reply was quite clear upon that point.”
He frowned. “Yes, but she
said that Marcia’s mind wasn’t clean, or
that’s what she meant. That’s a terrible
thing to say and Una shouldn’t have said it.
She shouldn’t have, Roger.”
“She had to defend herself,”
I muttered. “That’s the privilege
of the poorest beast of the woods.”
“Yes,” he said slowly,
“but it has upset me, given me a new view of
things, of women, of life. What is this terrible
thing that threatens them, that they fear and court
at the hands of men? They act it in their advances
and sudden defenses. I’ve learned that much Even
Una Why, Roger, there’s something
that they’re more jealous of than they are of
life itself. Reputation! That’s what
Una called it. Una who’s giving
up her life to try to make people better! If a
girl like Una has to defend herself, then the world
is a rotten place and Marcia ”
“And Marcia ”
He walked up and down again muttering.
“She has gone too far, Roger too
far.” He paused before me.
“But you haven’t answered my questions,”
he said flatly.
“You’ve hardly given me time,” I
said with a smile.
To be truthful, I did not propose
to answer them. Aside from a curious shyness
born of our long and innocent intimacy which made frankness
now seem a violation of the precedent of years, I found
that the desire was born in me, born anew with Jerry’s
awakening consciousness, to stand by my guns, and
await the results of his lessons from the world.
He must solve the riddle of the Great Experiment alone.
“You haven’t answered my questions, Roger,”
he insisted.
I was unjointing Jerry’s rod with scrupulous
care.
“I’m not going to,” I said quietly.
“You ?” He examined
me with a curious expression. “Who else
should I go to if not to you?”
I paused a long moment, during which
he scraped at the moss with the toe of his boot.
“My dear Jerry,” I said.
“I am more than convinced since the period of
your probation has passed that my mission at Horsham
Manor is ended. I was brought here to bring you
to manhood with the things that were requisite as
well for the body as the soul. I thought I had
acquitted myself with tolerable success in obeying
the desires of your dead father. But once freed
from my influence you took the bit in your teeth and
ran the race in your own way. I gave you advice
but you wouldn’t take it. If you had listened
then, I could have helped you now. But you didn’t
listen. And if I were to warn you, to answer your
questions, you wouldn’t heed me now. Experience
is the great teacher. Seek it. I’m
through.”
He reddened and took a turn up and down.
“Do you mean that?”
“I do. I meddle with your
personal affairs no longer. If I did I should
begin at once ” I paused, for an attack
on Marcia Van Wyck was trembling at the top of my
tongue. “But there you see we
should only quarrel. I don’t like your
friends. We couldn’t agree ”
“You like Una.”
“Yes, unqualifiedly. She is one in a million.”
“Well, we’re agreed on that at least,”
he said smiling.
There was another silence in which Jerry puffed on
his unlighted pipe.
“You know I’ve invited
Una and her mother up here this week and what’s
better still, they’re coming.”
This was excellent news. To me
it meant that Una thought the boy worth saving from
himself and now proposed to carry the war into the
enemy’s country.
“I’m delighted,” I said briefly.
“So am I,” he returned
thoughtfully. He scraped his pipe, filled it
slowly and when it was lighted again, settled down
comfortably.
“I think Una has wakened me,
Roger. The force of her example is tremendous,
her life, her way of thinking of things, her cheerfulness,
hopefulness about everybody. I can’t make
out why Marcia should attack her so unjustly.
It wasn’t fair.”
“It was cattish.”
“I don’t like your saying that,”
he put in quickly.
“I’m sorry. Can you imagine Una doing
a similar thing?”
“No,” he admitted, “but Una has
been brought up differently.”
Another silence. In spite of
the recrudescence of Una we were on dangerous ground.
But hope had given me temerity. In another moment
he was back to the earlier questions.
“I see no reason why you shouldn’t
answer me, Roger. I’ve got to know what
all this trouble means. If Una has been imprudent
I want to know why, still more so, if she is to suffer
as a consequence of it. If Marcia’s insinuations
are cruel I’ve got to understand what they mean.”
“You may take my word for their
cruelty,” I said dryly and stopped with compressed
lips. He clasped his hands over his knees and
looked down into the pool before us.
“Do you think you’re quite
fair with me, Roger? I give you my confidences
and you refuse ”
“Half-confidences, Jerry.
My usefulness to you is ended. If you would speak,
I could perhaps help you, solve some of your problems,
answer your questions. But ”
I paused, throwing out my hands in a helpless gesture.
“What more do you want?” he asked.
I took the bull by the horns. I had wanted to
for weeks.
“Freely, unreservedly, the nature
of your relations with Marcia Van Wyck ”
He rose suddenly, his face flushing
darkly and took up his rod and creel.
“If you don’t mind my
saying so,” he muttered, “that is none
of your affair.”
I rose, though his reproach stung me bitterly.
“Confidences and advice are inseparable,”
I said coldly.
“You hate Marcia,” he mumbled.
“I do.”
“Why?”
“Because she’s unsound, unsafe, im ”
“Be careful!” he cried.
I shrugged but was silent, I think,
from the fear of Jerry’s fists which were clenching
his rod and creel ominously.
“She’s the woman I love,” he declared
with pathetic drama.
I braved the fists and laughed.
“Tush!” I said.
He was furious. For a moment
I thought he was going to strike me. Had he done
so I should have been ended there and then, and this
interesting history brought to an untimely conclusion
on the very eve of its most interesting disclosures.
But he thought better of it and with
a shaking forefinger pointed toward the path downstream.
“Go, Roger,” he said in a trembling voice,
“please go.”