He was absent for full three weeks,
and arrived with his friends at the Gare de
Lyon early one morning of September. Narramore
and the architect delayed only for a meal, and pursued
their journey homeward; Hilliard returned to his old
quarters despatched a post-card asking Eve and Patty
to dine with him that evening, and thereupon went to
bed, where for some eight hours he slept the sleep
of healthy fatigue.
The place he had appointed for meeting
with the girls was at the foot of the Boulevard St.
Michel. Eve came alone.
“And where’s Patty?”
he asked, grasping her hand heartily in return for
the smile of unfeigned pleasure with which she welcomed
him.
“Ah, where indeed? Getting
near to Charing Cross by now, I think.”
“She has gone back?”
“Went this very morning, before
I had your card let us get out of the way
of people. She has been dreadfully home-sick.
About a fortnight ago a mysterious letter came for
her she hid it away from me. A few days after
another came, and she shut herself up for a long time,
and when she came out again I saw she had been crying.
Then we talked it over. She had written to Mr.
Dally and got an answer that made her miserable; that
was the first letter. She wrote again,
and had a reply that made her still more wretched;
and that was the second. Two or three more
came, and yesterday she could bear it no longer.”
“Then she has gone home to make it up with him?”
“Of course. He declared
that she has utterly lost her character and that no
honest man could have anything more to say to her!
I shouldn’t wonder if they are married in a
few weeks’ time.”
Hilliard laughed light-heartedly.
“I was to beg you on my knees
to forgive her,” pursued Eve. “But
I can’t very well do that in the middle of the
street, can I? Really, she thinks she has behaved
disgracefully to you. She wouldn’t write
a letter she was ashamed. ‘Tell
him to forget all about me!’ she kept saying.”
“Good little girl! And
what sort of a husband will this fellow Dally make
her?”
“No worse than husbands in general,
I dare say but how well you look!
How you must have been enjoying yourself!”
“I can say exactly the same about you!”
“Oh, but you are sunburnt, and look quite a
different man!”
“And you have an exquisite colour
in your cheeks, and eyes twice as bright as they used
to be; and one would think you had never known a care.”
“I feel almost like that,” said Eve, laughing.
He tried to meet her eyes; she eluded him.
“I have an Alpine hunger; where shall we dine?”
The point called for no long discussion,
and presently they were seated in the cool restaurant.
Whilst he nibbled an olive, Hilliard ran over the
story of his Swiss tour.
“If only you had been there! It
was the one thing lacking.”
“You wouldn’t have enjoyed
yourself half so much. You amused me by your
description of Mr. Narramore, in the letter from Geneva.”
“The laziest rascal born!
But the best-tempered, the easiest to live with.
A thoroughly good fellow; I like him better than ever.
Of course he is improved by coming in for money who
wouldn’t be, that has any good in him at all?
But it amazes me that he can be content to go back
to Birmingham and his brass bedsteads. Sheer lack
of energy, I suppose. He’ll grow dreadfully
fat, I fear, and by when he becomes really a rich
man it’s awful to think of.”
Eve asked many questions about Narramore;
his image gave mirthful occupation to her fancy.
The dinner went merrily on, and when the black coffee
was set before them:
“Why not have it outside?”
said Eve. “You would like to smoke, I know.”
Hilliard assented, and they seated
themselves under the awning. The boulevard glowed
in a golden light of sunset; the sound of its traffic
was subdued to a lulling rhythm.
“There’s a month yet before
the leaves will begin to fall,” murmured the
young man, when he had smoked awhile in silence.
“Yes,” was the answer.
“I shall be glad to have a little summer still
in Birmingham.”
“Do you wish to go?”
“I shall go to-morrow, or the day after,”
Eve replied quietly.
Then again there came silence.
“Something has been proposed
to me,” said Hilliard, at length, leaning forward
with his elbows upon the table. “I mentioned
that our friend Birching is an architect. He’s
in partnership with his brother, a much older man.
Well, they nave offered to take me into their office
if I pay a premium of fifty guineas. As soon
as I can qualify myself to be of use to them, they’ll
give me a salary. And I shall have the chance
of eventually doing much better than I ever could at
the old grind, where, in fact, I had no prospect whatever.”
“That’s very good news,” Eve remarked,
gazing across the street.
“You think I ought to accept?”
“I suppose you can pay the fifty
guineas, and still leave yourself enough to live upon?”
“Enough till I earn something,” Hilliard
answered with a smile.
“Then I should think there’s no doubt.”
“The question is this are
you perfectly willing to go back to Birmingham?”
“I’m anxious to go.”
“You feel quite restored to health?”
“I was never so well in my life.”
Hilliard looked into her face, and
could easily believe that she spoke the truth.
His memory would no longer recall the photograph in
Mrs. Brewer’s album; the living Eve, with her
progressive changes of countenance, had obliterated
that pale image of her bygone self. He saw her
now as a beautiful woman, mysterious to him still in
many respects, yet familiar as though they had been
friends for years.
“Then, whatever life is before
me,” he said. “I shall have done one
thing that is worth doing.”
“Perhaps if everyone’s
life is worth saving,” Eve answered in a voice
just audible.
“Everyone’s is not; but yours was.”
Two men who had been sitting not far
from them rose and walked away. As if more at
her ease for this secession, Eve looked at her companion,
and said in a tone of intimacy:
“How I must have puzzled you
when you first saw me in London!”
He answered softly:
“To be sure you did. And the thought of
it puzzles me still.”
“Oh, but can’t you understand?
No; of course you can’t I have told
you so little. Just give me an idea of what sort
of person you expected to find.”
“Yes, I will. Judging from
your portrait, and from what I was told of you, I
looked for a sad, solitary, hard-working girl rather
poorly dressed taking no pleasure going
much to chapel shrinking from the ordinary
world.”
“And you felt disappointed?”
“At first, yes; or, rather,
bewildered utterly unable to understand
you.”
“You are disappointed still?” she asked.
“I wouldn’t have you anything but what
you are.”
“Still, that other girl was the one you wished
to meet.”
“Yes, before I had seen you.
It was the sort of resemblance between her life and
my own. I thought of sympathy between us.
And the face of the portrait but I see
better things in the face that is looking at me now.”
“Don’t be quite sure of
that yes, perhaps. It’s better
to be healthy, and enjoy life, than broken-spirited
and hopeless. The strange thing is that you were
right you fancied me just the kind of a
girl I was: sad and solitary, and shrinking from
people true enough. And I went to
chapel, and got comfort from it as I hope
to do again. Don’t think that I have no
religion. But I was so unhealthy, and suffered
so in every way. Work and anxiety without cease,
from when I was twelve years old. You know all
about my father? If I hadn’t been clever
at figures, what would have become of me? I should
have drudged at some wretched occupation until the
work and the misery of everything killed me.”
Hilliard listened intently, his eyes
never stirring from her face.
“The change in me began when
father came back to us, and I began to feel my freedom.
Then I wanted to get away, and to live by myself.
I thought of London I’ve told you
how much I always thought of London but
I hadn’t the courage to go there. In Birmingham
I began to change my old habits; but more in what
I thought than what I did. I wished to enjoy
myself like other girls, but I couldn’t.
For one thing, I thought it wicked; and then I was
so afraid of spending a penny I had so
often known what it was to be in want of a copper to
buy food. So I lived quite alone; sat in my room
every evening and read books. You could hardly
believe what a number of books I read in that year.
Sometimes I didn’t go to bed till two or three
o’clock.”
“What sort of books?”
“I got them from the Free Library books
of all kinds; not only novels. I’ve never
been particularly fond of novels; they always made
me feel my own lot all the harder. I never could
understand what people mean when they say that reading
novels takes them ‘out of themselves.’
It was never so with me. I liked travels and
lives of people, and books about the stars. Why
do you laugh?”
“You escaped from yourself there, at
all events.”
“At last I saw an advertisement
in a newspaper a London paper in the reading-room which
I was tempted to answer; and I got an engagement in
London. When the time came for starting I was
so afraid and low-spirited that I all but gave it
up. I should have done, if I could have known
what was before me. The first year in London was
all loneliness and ill-health. I didn’t
make a friend, and I starved myself, all to save money.
Out of my pound a week I saved several shillings just
because it was the habit of my whole life to pinch
and pare and deny myself. I was obliged to dress
decently, and that came out of my food. It’s
certain I must have a very good constitution to have
gone through all that and be as well as I am to-day.”
“It will never come again,” said Hilliard.
“How can I be sure of that?
I told you once before that I’m often in dread
of the future. It would be ever so much worse,
after knowing what it means to enjoy one’s life.
How do people feel who are quite sure they can never
want as long as they live? I have tried to imagine
it, but I can’t; it would be too wonderful.”
“You may know it some day.”
Eve reflected.
“It was Patty Ringrose,”
she continued, “who taught me to take life more
easily. I was astonished to find how much enjoyment
she could get out of an hour or two of liberty, with
sixpence to spend. She did me good by laughing
at me, and in the end I astonished her.
Wasn’t it natural that I should be reckless
as soon as I got the chance?”
“I begin to understand.”
“The chance came in this way.
One Sunday morning I went by myself to Hampstead,
and as I was wandering about on the Heath I kicked
against something. It was a cash-box, which I
saw couldn’t have been lying there very long.
I found it had been broken open, and inside it were
a lot of letters old letters in envelopes;
nothing else. The addresses on the envelopes
were all the same to a gentleman living
at Hampstead. I thought the best I could do was
to go and inquire for this address; and I found it,
and rang the door-bell. When I told the servant
what I wanted it was a large house she
asked me to come in, and after I had waited a little
she took me into a library, where a gentleman was
sitting. I had to answer a good many questions,
and the man talked rather gruffly to me. When
he had made a note of my name and where I lived, he
said that I should hear from him, and so I went away.
Of course I hoped to have a reward, but for two or
three days I heard nothing; then, when I was at business,
someone asked to see me a man I didn’t
know. He said he had come from Mr. So and So,
the gentleman at Hampstead, and had brought something
for me four five-pound notes. The
cash-box had been stolen by someone, with other things,
the night before I found it, and the letters in it,
which disappointed the thief, had a great value for
their owner. All sorts of inquiries had been made
about me and no doubt I very nearly got into the hands
of the police, but it was all right, and I had twenty
pounds reward. Think! twenty pounds!”
Hilliard nodded.
“I told no one about it not
even Patty. And I put the money into the Post
Office savings bank. I meant it to stay there
till I might be in need; but I thought of it day and
night. And only a fortnight after, my employers
shut up their place of business, and I had nothing
to do. All one night I lay awake, and when I
got up in the morning I felt as if I was no longer
my old self. I saw everything in a different way felt
altogether changed. I had made up my mind not
to look for a new place, but to take my money out
of the Post Office I had more than twenty-five
pounds there altogether and spend it for
my pleasure. It was just as if something had
enraged me, and I was bent on avenging myself.
All that day I walked about the town, looking at shops,
and thinking what I should like to buy: but I
only spent a shilling or two, for meals. The
next day I bought some new clothing. The day after
that I took Patty to the theatre, and astonished her
by my extravagance; but I gave her no explanation,
and to this day she doesn’t understand how I
got my money. In a sort of way, I did enjoy
myself. For one thing, I took a subscription
at Mudie’s, and began to read once more.
You can’t think how it pleased me to get my
books new books where rich people
do. I changed a volume about every other day I
had so many hours I didn’t know what to do with.
Patty was the only friend I had made, so I took her
about with me whenever she could get away in the evening.”
“Yet never once dined at a restaurant,”
remarked Hilliard, laughing. “There’s
the difference between man and woman.”
“My ideas of extravagance were very modest,
after all.”
Hilliard, fingering his coffee-cup, said in a lower
voice:
“Yet you haven’t told me everything.”
Eve looked away, and kept silence.
“By the time I met you” he
spoke in his ordinary tone “you had
begun to grow tired of it.”
“Yes and ”
She rose. “We won’t sit here any longer.”
When they had walked for a few minutes:
“How long shall you stay in Paris?” she
asked.
“Won’t you let me travel with you?”
“I do whatever you wish,” Eve answered
simply.