Her accent of submission did not affect
Hilliard as formerly; with a nervous thrill, he felt
that she spoke as her heart dictated. In his
absence Eve had come to regard him, if not with the
feeling he desired, with something that resembled
it; he read the change in her eyes. As they walked
slowly away she kept nearer to him than of wont; now
and then her arm touched his, and the contact gave
him a delicious sensation. Askance he observed
her figure, its graceful, rather languid, movement;
to-night she had a new power over him, and excited
with a passion which made his earlier desires seem
spiritless.
“One day more of Paris?” he asked softly.
“Wouldn’t it be better ?”
she hesitated in the objection.
“Do you wish to break the journey in London?”
“No; let us go straight on.”
“To-morrow, then?”
“I don’t think we ought to put it off.
The holiday is over.”
Hilliard nodded with satisfaction.
An incident of the street occupied them for a few
minutes, and their serious conversation was only resumed
when they had crossed to the south side of the river,
where they turned eastwards and went along the quays.
“Till I can find something to
do,” Eve said at length, “I shall live
at Dudley. Father will be very glad to have me
there. He wished me to stay longer.”
“I am wondering whether it is
really necessary for you to go back to your drudgery.”
“Oh, of course it is,”
she answered quickly. “I mustn’t be
idle. That’s the very worst thing for me.
And how am I to live?”
“I have still plenty of money,”
said Hilliard, regarding her.
“No more than you will need.”
“But think how little more it costs
for two than for one ”
He spoke in spite of himself, having
purposed no such suggestion. Eve quickened her
step.
“No, no, no! You have a struggle before
you; you don’t know what ”
“And if it would make it easier
for me? there’s no real doubt about
my getting on well enough ”
“Everything is doubtful.”
She spoke in a voice of agitation. “We can’t
see a day before us. We have arranged everything
very well ”
Hilliard was looking across the river.
He walked more and more slowly, and turned at length
to stand by the parapet. His companion remained
apart from him, waiting. But he did not turn towards
her again, and she moved to his side.
“I know how ungrateful I must
seem.” She spoke without looking at him.
“I have no right to refuse anything after all
you ”
“Don’t say that,”
he interrupted impatiently. “That’s
the one thing I shall never like to think of.”
“I shall think of it always,
and be glad to remember it ”
“Come nearer give me your hand ”
Holding it, he drew her against his
side, and they stood in silence looking upon the Seine,
now dark beneath the clouding night.
“I can’t feel sure of you,” fell
at length from Hilliard.
“I promise ”
“Yes; here, now, in Paris. But when you
are back in that hell ”
“What difference can it make
in me? It can’t change what I feel now.
You have altered all my life, my thoughts about everything.
When I look back, I don’t know myself.
You were right; I must have been suffering from an
illness that affected my mind. It seems impossible
that I could ever have done such things. I ought
to tell you. Do you wish me to tell you everything?”
Hilliard spoke no answer, but he pressed
her hand more tightly in his own.
“You knew it from Patty, didn’t you?”
“She told me as much as she
knew that night when I waited for you in High Street.
She said you were in danger, and I compelled her to
tell all she could.”
“I was in danger, though
I can’t understand now how it went so far as
that. It was he who came to me with the money,
from the gentleman at Hampstead. That was how
I first met him. The next day he waited for me
when I came away from business.”
“It was the first time that
anything of that kind had happened?”
“The first time. And you
know what the state of my mind was then. But
to the end I never felt any I never really
loved him. We met and went to places together.
After my loneliness you can understand.
But I distrusted him. Did Patty tell you why
I left London so suddenly?”
“Yes.”
“When that happened I knew my
instinct had been right from the first. It gave
me very little pain, but I was ashamed and disgusted.
He hadn’t tried to deceive me in words; he never
spoke of marriage; and from what I found out then,
I saw that he was very much to be pitied.”
“You seem to contradict yourself,”
said Hilliard. “Why were you ashamed and
disgusted?”
“At finding myself in the power
of such a woman. He married her when she was
very young, and I could imagine the life he had led
with her until he freed himself. A hateful woman!”
“Hateful to you, I see,”
muttered the listener, with something tight at his
heart.
“Not because I felt anything
like jealousy. You must believe me. I should
never have spoken if I hadn’t meant to tell you
the simple truth.”
Again he pressed her hand. The
warmth of her body had raised his blood to fever-heat.
“When we met again, after I
came back, it was by chance. I refused to speak
to him, but he followed me all along the street, and
I didn’t know it till I was nearly home.
Then he came up again, and implored me to hear what
he had to say. I knew he would wait for me again
in High Street, so I had no choice but to listen,
and then tell him that there couldn’t be anything
more between us. And, for all that, he followed
me another day. And again I had to listen to
him.”
Hilliard fancied that he could feel
her heart beat against his arm.
“Be quick!” he said. “Tell
all, and have done with it.”
“He told me, at last, that he
was ruined. His wife had brought him into money
difficulties; she ran up bills that he was obliged
to pay, and left him scarcely enough to live upon.
And he had used money that was not his own he
would have to give an account of it in a day or two.
He was trying to borrow, but no one would lend him
half what he needed ”
“That’s enough,”
Hilliard broke in, as her voice became inaudible.
“No, you ought to know more
than I have told you. Of course he didn’t
ask me for money; he had no idea that I could lend
him even a pound. But what I wish you to know
is that he hadn’t spoken to me again in the
old way. He said he had done wrong, when he first
came to know me; he begged me to forgive him that,
and only wanted me to be his friend.”
“Of course.”
“Oh, don’t be ungenerous: that’s
so unlike you.”
“I didn’t mean it ungenerously.
In his position I should have done exactly as he did.”
“Say you believe me. There
was not a word of love between us. He told me
all about the miseries of his life that
was all; and I pitied him so. I felt he was so
sincere.”
“I believe it perfectly.”
“There was no excuse for what
I did. How I had the courage the shamelessness is
more than I can understand now.”
Hilliard stirred himself, and tried to laugh.
“As it turned out, you couldn’t
have done better. Well, there’s an end
of it. Come.”
He walked on, and Eve kept closely
beside him, looking up into his face.
“I am sure he will pay the money
back,” she said presently.
“Hang the money!”
Then he stood still.
“How is he to pay it back? I mean, how
is he to communicate with you?”
“I gave him my address at Dudley.”
Again Hilliard moved on.
“Why should it annoy you?”
Eve asked. “If ever he writes to me, I shall
let you know at once: you shall see the letter.
It is quite certain that he will pay his debt;
and I shall be very glad when he does.”
“What explanation did you give him?”
“The true one. I said I
had borrowed from a friend. He was in despair,
and couldn’t refuse what I offered.”
“We’ll talk no more of
it. It was right to tell me. I’m glad
now it’s all over. Look at the moon rising harvest
moon, isn’t it?”
Eve turned aside again, and leaned
on the parapet. He, lingering apart for a moment,
at length drew nearer. Of her own accord she put
her hands in his.
“In future,” she said,
“you shall know everything I do. You can
trust me: there will be no more secrets.”
“Yet you are afraid ”
“It’s for your sake.
You must be free for the next year or two. I shall
be glad to get to work again. I am well and strong
and cheerful.”
Her eyes drew him with the temptation
he had ever yet resisted. Eve did not refuse
her lips.
“You must write to Patty,”
she said, when they were at the place of parting.
“I shall have her new address in a day or two.”
“Yes, I will write to her.”