It was the end of Term, nearly two
years after that interview in Richmond Park which,
as both Vane and Enid had then believed, was for them
the parting of the ways. Vane was sitting in a
deep-seated, Russian wicker-chair in his cosy study,
and opposite him, in a similar chair, was another
man with whom he had been talking somewhat earnestly
for about an hour.
To-morrow would be Commemoration Day “Commem,”
to use the undergraduate’s abbreviation.
There would be meetings from far and wide of people
gathered together, not only from all over the kingdom,
but from the ends of the earth as well; men and women
glorying, for their own sakes and their sons’,
in the long traditions of the grand old University,
the dearly-loved Alma Mater, nursing-mother of their
fathers and fathers’ fathers. Here a man
who had been a tutor and then a Fellow, and was now
one of His Majesty’s judges; there another, who
walked with sober mien in the leggings and tunic of
a Bishop, and who, in his time, had dodged the Proctor
and his bull-dogs as nimbly as the most irresponsible
undergraduate of the moment and so on through
the whole hierarchy of the University.
The Lists were just out. Vane
had fulfilled the promise of his earlier career and
had taken a brilliant double-first. He had read
for Classics and History, but he had also taken up
incidentally Mental Science and Moral Philosophy,
and he had scored a first in all. If it had then
been possible for him to have had a Treble-First,
it would have been his. As it was he had won
the most brilliant degree of his year and
there he was, sitting back in his chair, blowing cloud
after cloud of smoke out of his mouth, and every now
and then taking a sip out of a big cup of tea and
looking with something more than admiration at the
man opposite; a man who had only achieved a first,
and who, if he had been some other kind of man, would
have been very well contented with it.
It would not, however, have needed
a particularly keen student of human nature to discover
that this was not the kind of man who could rest contented
with anything like a formal success; and, after all,
even a double-first, to say nothing of a single, although
a great achievement as the final triumph of an educational
course, is still only the end of the beginning.
That done, the student, armed cap-a-pie in his
intellectual armour, goes forth to face something infinitely
sterner and more pitiless than tutors or proctors,
ay, even than Masters and Chancellors themselves the
presiding genius of that infinitely greater University
called the World, where taking your degree means anything
that human fortune can give you, and where being plucked
may mean anything from a clerkship in an office to
selling matches in the gutter.
“I am sorry you missed
your double, old man!” said Vane, continuing
the conversation after a pause that had lasted for
two or three minutes. “Still, at any rate,
you’ve got your first, and, after all, a first
in Classics and a second in History is not to be sneezed
at, and I don’t suppose it would have mattered
a hang to you whether you had come out anywhere or
not.”
As he said this there was a sudden
contraction of his companion’s jaw, which resulted
in the clean biting through of the vulcanite mouthpiece
of his pipe. He spat the pieces out into the fireplace,
and said in a perfectly smooth voice:
“I wonder what I did that for!
I suppose that is one of the circumstances in which
people say that it does a man good to swear.”
“I should certainly have sworn
under the circumstances,” said Vane, “or
at least, I should have said something that one would
not say in the presence of one’s maiden aunt,
but then, of course, you Ernshaw you’re
above all that sort of thing. You have your feelings
so well under control that you don’t even need
to swear to relieve them. However, that’s
not quite the subject. What am I to do? Am
I to go back to her, repenting of the evil of my ways,
ask her to pardon a passing madness, and lay my academic
honours at her feet as God knows I would
be only too glad to do
“Wait a moment, Maxwell.
Don’t say anything more just now, and let me
think a bit. We have been over this subject a
good many times already, but now we have come to the
crisis, to the cross-ways, in fact. You have
made me your confidant in this matter. The future
of your life and hers depends upon what you decide
to do now, and, not only that, but there is your father
and her father and mother the completion,
that is to say, of three other lives. It is very,
very serious. It is more than serious, it is
solemn. Wait a moment, let me think.”
Vane leant back in his chair, dropped
his pipe quietly on the floor, and waited. He
knew that Mark Ernshaw, his chum at Eton and his friend
at Balliol this tall, sparely-built man,
with dark hair, high, somewhat narrow forehead, and
big, deep-set, brown eyes, delicate features, and
the somewhat too finely-moulded chin which, taken together,
showed him to the eye that sees to be the enthusiast
as well as the man of intellect, perhaps of genius was
not thinking in the ordinary meaning of the word.
He was praying, and when he saw that this was so he
folded his hands over his eyes, and for nearly ten
minutes there was absolute silence, Vane was thinking
and his friend was praying. Perhaps, in another
sense, Vane was praying too, for the strong religious
bias which he had inherited from his father had, since
the great crisis of his life had been passed, and
during his close intimacy with Mark Ernshaw, grown
stronger than ever.
He had told him everything. They
had gone over the whole of the dismal history again
and again. They had thrashed out the problem in
all its bearings, now arguing with and now against
each other, and here was the last day. To-morrow
in the Theatre they would receive the formal acknowledgment
which would crown their academic careers. Vane’s
self-imposed probation would then be over, the crisis
would be passed, and his life’s course fixed
for good and all.
“Well, old man,” said
Vane, at length, “have you settled it? Upon
my word I feel almost like a man under sentence of
death waiting for a reprieve. But, after all,
why should I? I haven’t touched a drop of
alcohol for over a year. I needn’t say anything
about the work I have done, for you know as much about
that as I do myself. I am as sane and healthy
as any man of my age need want to be. Of course,
as I have told you, it was mutually agreed between
us, or rather, between her parents and my father,
that we should not meet or correspond until after I
had taken my degree. I’ve kept the bargain
both ways. I haven’t written to her or
had a word from her all the time. And now, what
is the future to be? Shall I take up the threads
of the old life and marry and live happily ever afterwards,
as they say in the story-books or shall
I ? No, I don’t think I
could do that. Don’t you think I’ve
shown strength of mind enough to counteract the weakness
of that one night? For the sake of all you’ve
ever loved, old man, don’t look so serious.
You’re not going to tell me that it really is
all over, and that I shall have to give her up after
all?”
“Yes, you must,” said
Ernshaw. “If you have any faith worthy of
the name in God or man, it is your duty, not only
as a man but as a Christian, to say good-bye to her
as man to woman. It is your duty, and you must.”
“No, by God, I can’t!”
cried Maxwell, springing to his feet and facing him
with clenched teeth, set features, and hands gripped
up into fists as though he were facing an enemy rather
than a friend.
Ernshaw rose slowly from his seat.
His face seemed to Vane to be transfigured. He
looked him straight in the eyes, and said, in a voice
only a little above a whisper, and yet thrilling with
an intense emotion:
“Thou shalt not take the name
of the Lord thy God in vain! You have asked for
my advice and my guidance, Maxwell. I have given
them to you, but not before I have sought for advice
and counsel from an infinitely higher Source.
I believe I have had my answer. As I have had
it so I have given it to you. I have spent a
good many hours thinking over this problem of yours and
a harder problem few men have ever had to solve but
my fixed and settled conviction is that during this
last conversation of yours with Miss Raleigh you bore
yourself like a man; you did your duty; you put your
hand to the plough. You are not going to look
back now, are you?”
Vane dropped back into his seat and
folded his hands over his eyes again, and said with
a note of weariness in his voice:
“Well, yes, old man, I suppose
you’re right, and yet, Ernshaw, it’s very
hard, so hard that it seems almost impossible.
They’re coming up to ‘Commem’ to-morrow I
was obliged to ask them, you know. I should only
have to hold out my hand and feel hers in it and say
that well, that I’d thought better
of it, and everything would be just as it was before.
We could begin again just as if that had never
happened.
“You know it’s all I’ve
thought about, all I’ve worked for, ever since
we came back from India together. Honestly, old
man, she really is of course, with the
exception of the Governor everything there
is in the world for me now. If I have to give
her up, what else is there? You know what I was
going to do. Now that I’ve got my degree
I should have a splendid opening in the Foreign Office.
The way would be absolutely clear before me a
mere matter of brains and interest and I
know I’ve got the interest and I
should be an Ambassador, perhaps a Prime Minister
some day, and she would be my wife and yet
without her it wouldn’t be worth anything to
me. Ernshaw, isn’t it a bit too much to
ask a man on the threshold of his real life to give
up all that for the sake of an idea well,
a scientific conviction if you like.”
“Strait is the Gate, and Narrow
is the Way!” exclaimed Ernshaw. He seemed
to tower above him as he stood over his chair; Vane
looked up and saw that his eyes were glowing and his
features set. His lips and voice trembled as
he spoke. His whole being seemed irradiated by
the light of an almost divine enthusiasm.
“Maxwell, will you be one of
the few that find it, or one of the many that miss
it, and take the other way? As a good Christian,
as the son of a Christian man, you know where that
one leads to.
“After all, Maxwell,”
he continued, more quietly, “the trials of life
are like lessons in school. You needed this experience
or you would not have got it. In every fight
you must win or lose. In this one you can and
must be the victor. I think, nay, I know, that
I am pointing out to you the way to victory, the way
to final triumph over all the evils that have forced
you to a choice between following your own most worthy
inclinations, and what you now think an intolerable
misery and an impossible sacrifice.”
He held out his hand as he spoke.
Vane did not know it at the time, but in reality it
was a hand held out to save a drowning man. It
was a moment in which the fate of two lives was to
be decided for right or wrong, for good or ill, and
for all time perhaps, even for more than
Time. Vane gripped Ernshaw’s hand, and,
as the two grips closed, he looked straight into the
deep-brown eyes, and said:
“Ernshaw, that will do.
By some means you have made me feel to-night just
as I did that day when I was talking with her the last
time. Yes, you are right. You have shewn
me the right way, and, God helping me, I’ll
take it. I suppose if she doesn’t marry
me she’ll marry Garthorne; but still, I see
she mustn’t marry me. They are coming down
for ‘Commem’ to-morrow. I shall see
her then, and I’ll tell her that I have decided
that there must be an end of everything except friendship
between us. Yes, that is the only way after all and,
now, one other word, old man.”
“And that is?” said Ernshaw,
smiling, almost laughing, in the sheer joy of his
great triumph, as he so honestly believed it to be,
over the Powers of Evil.
“Well, it’s this,”
said Vane, “my own life is settled now.
I can’t marry Enid and, of course, I’ll
marry no one else. I shall do as you have often
advised me to do take Orders and do the
work that God puts nearest to my hand. I know
that the governor will agree with me when I put it
to him in that way. But then there’s some
one else.”
“Your sister, you mean,” said Ernshaw.
“My half
“Your sister, I said,”
Ernshaw interrupted, quickly. “Well, what
about her?”
“It’s this way,”
continued Vane, somewhat awkwardly, “you see of
course, as you say, she is my sister in a way, but
she has absolutely refused everything that the governor
and I have offered her. We even asked her to
come and live with us, we offered, in short, to acknowledge
her as one of the family.”
“And what did she say to that?”
“She simply refused. She
said that she had not made her life, but that she
was ready to take it as it is. She said that she
wasn’t responsible for the world as it’s
made, she’d never owed anyone a shilling since
she left her mother and mine and
she never intended to. We tried everything with
her, really we did, and, of course, the governor did
a great deal more than I did, but it wasn’t
a bit of use. It’s a horrible business
altogether, isn’t it?”
“On the contrary, it is anything
but that,” replied Ernshaw, slowly and deliberately
as though he were considering each word as he uttered
it. “Maxwell, you have just decided to
take Orders. I made up my mind to do that long
ago. We are both of us fairly well off. I
have eight or nine hundred a year of my own, and I
daresay you have more, so we can go and do our work
without troubling about the loaves and fishes.”
“Yes,” replied Vane, “certainly,
but that’s not quite answering my question,
old fellow: I mean about Carol.”
“Quite so,” he replied,
“because I am going to ask you another.
Do you think you know me and like me well enough to
have me for a brother-in-law?”
“Good Heavens, you don’t mean that,
Ernshaw, do you?”
“I do,” he said, “that
is if she likes me well enough. Of course, I
haven’t seen her yet, and she might refuse me;
but from all that you’ve told me about her,
I’m half in love with her already, and well,
we needn’t say anything more about that just
now. Take me up to Town with you after Commem.,
introduce me to her and leave the rest to me and her.
If ever a girl was made for the wife of such a man
as I hope to be some day, that girl, Maxwell, is your
sister.”
“But, Ernshaw, that is impossible.
It may be only your good nature that prompted you
to say this, or it may be that, without intention,
I have somehow led you to look upon her as part of
my destiny; but you forget, or perhaps, I have not
told you that we have lost her utterly for the time
being at least, she disappeared quite suddenly.
My father and I have made every effort to trace her,
but without the slightest success.”
“Then try again,” replied
Ernshaw, “and I will help in the search.
At any rate, when we do find her, as I am sure we
shall some day, if she will have me, I will ask her
to be my wife.”