All looked so easy and bright in the
future that it seemed harsh on the part of Fate to
crush out hope after hope. All appeared so promising
when Hazel had discussed her position with Mr Geringer,
and then during the next few months bit by bit the
morsels of blue sky were blotted out of her horizon,
till all above her seemed cold grey cloud, and her
life a blank.
First then was her mother’s
health to battle for, and to comfort her when they
had to move to furnished lodgings and manage without
a servant.
“Yes, it will be better,”
said Edward Geringer to himself with a smile.
“Let it work.”
He had thought the matter out thoroughly for
the family, save for a little consideration displayed
by the creditors, were absolutely penniless; and he
let them go into lodgings, and waited to be asked for
help.
The first appeal to him was about
Percy, the son; and he responded willingly, advising
sensibly and well that the lad should go into some
City office and fight his way in the world.
Hazel sighed, for she had hoped for
more schooling and then a career at college, in spite
of her talk of her brother’s working. So
Percy went into the office of Suthers, Rubley, and
Spark, the sugar-brokers, and came home grumbling
every night.
It was hard to bear, for it upset
poor weak Mrs Thorne, who sympathised with her son,
and talked of the degradation, and sighed and petted
him, calling him her noble boy, inveighing against
Fate, and making the lad ten times as discontented
with his position as he had been before, and so increased
the load on Hazel’s shoulders just at a time
when she was nearly broken-hearted.
For it was unmistakable: Archibald
Graves, the true, the sterling, the handsome, the
best of men, had been yielding to home-pressure.
Old Graves said it was preposterous. The girl
was right enough, but he was not going to see his
son throw himself away and set up a home with a penniless
girl so as to keep her mother and family as well.
Archibald Graves was indignant at
first, then he thought it over. Hazel was the
nicest and dearest of girls, but certainly Mrs Thorne
only wanted a vowel left out of her name for it to
describe her exactly. He did not like Percy
either, whom he thought “a spoiled young cub.”
Then there were more words with his father; introductions
to friends of his sisters, especially to one Miss
Pettifer, who was reputed rich, and so on, till Archibald
Graves, in following his own likings, set it all down
to his father’s stern orders.
He told himself that he was only doing
his duty in ceasing his visits to the Thornes, and
after nearly breaking her heart, pride came to Hazel
Thorne’s help, and she grew pale and sterner
of face as the weeks passed, and no Archibald, while
Edward Geringer came regularly, called her his dear
child, and went away smiling and praising himself for
his self-restraint.
It is needless to go on describing
Hazel Thorne’s troubles during these months,
when, in addition to the suffering produced by the
falling away of one to whom she had looked for help,
there was the attendance on the querulous, sick, thoughtless
mother, always complaining of her fate and the fact
that a lady should be brought down to such a life.
There was Percy to combat when he talked of throwing
up his situation, “appointment” he called
it the children the little sisters to
teach, and, above all, the battle to fight of finding
money, and lowering her pride to accept help from
relatives who gave grudgingly when unwillingly appealed
to.
Mr Geringer had thoughtfully placed
money in her hands twice.
“The result of a little speculation
in which I was engaged with poor Thorne, my dear child,”
he said; but that failed fast, and as Hazel toiled
on at her task of giving lessons to three or four pupils
she had got together, she looked blankly forward at
the future, and wondered what they all would do.
It was nearly six months since her
father’s death, and she could not conceal the
fact from herself that they were rapidly going down-hill.
Instead of Percy being a help, he was an expense; and
everything depended upon her. Under the circumstances,
the only prospect open to her was to start a school;
but while the grass was growing the steed was starving,
and she used to look with envy at the smart well-dressed
mistress of the national school hard by, with her troop
of girls who came pouring out at noon; and at last
came like an inspiration the idea why should
not she get a post as mistress?
To think was to act, and she boldly
called on the mistress, who sent her away terribly
dejected, with the information that at least a year’s
training in the system, however well educated the would-be
teacher might be, was absolutely necessary.
Hazel, however, obtained a good deal of information
as well, ready to ponder over how she might
either go to Whitelands or to Smith Square, Westminster;
what would be the cost; the probabilities of her obtaining
a school afterwards; the salary; etcetera, etcetera.
She went back in despair, for how
could the money be obtained to pay her expenses and
keep house as well, while the idea of obtaining a school
at the end of a year’s training, with a certain
salary and a comfortable home, seemed so Eden-like
a prospect that the difficulties to be surmounted
appeared to grow.
Like all other difficulties, however,
they began to shrink when boldly attacked. Hazel
wrote to two or three relatives, as a forlorn hope,
and they who had before only doled out a few pounds
unwillingly, jumped at the chance of getting the indigent
applicant off their hands, and after a consultation,
wrote to her saying they were so pleased with her
efforts at self-help, that amongst them they would
subscribe the funds for paying her fees, at the training
institution and for maintaining Mrs Thorne and the
children for a year, or such time as Hazel should
get a school.
“Oh, mamma, mamma, sunshine
at last,” cried the girl, and trembling, weeping,
and laughing hysterically, in turn, so great was her
joy, she read the letter, which came upon Mrs Thorne
as a surprise, her child having kept her quite in
ignorance of the plans to prevent disappointment.
“Then, I think it very disgraceful,
very disgraceful indeed, Hazel,” said the poor
woman indignantly. “They ought to be ashamed
of themselves.”
“Ashamed, dear mother!”
“Now, don’t you turn against
me in my troubles, Hazel,” cried Mrs Thorne.
“What have I done that my own child should begin
to degrade me?”
“Degrade you? Oh, my own dear mother!”
“There there again!
I don’t care how low we are forced by the cruelty
of my relatives, and your poor dear papa’s.
I will never forget that I am a lady.”
“Surely not, dear,” said Hazel soothingly.
“Then why will you persist in
calling me by that low, common, degrading term Mother?”
“Dear mamma, I thought it better
under the circumstances.”
“No circumstances could excuse
it, Hazel,” said Mrs Thorne with dignity.
“Percy never speaks to me like that; and by-the-way,
my dear, Percy says he must have a new suit:
his mourning is getting so shabby, he is quite ashamed
of it, and I’m sure my heart bleeds every time
I see the poor boy go out.”
“Yes, mamma, we will see what
can be done,” said Hazel, suppressing a sigh.
“And as to that national school
business,” continued Mrs Thorne, “it is
disgraceful. Write and tell cousin Jane and her
husband that, however low we may be reduced by poverty,
my daughter will never forget that she is a lady.”
“But, mamma dear,” said
Hazel gently; “it was entirely my idea, and I
wrote for their help.”
“You you, Hazel my
child propose to go to a common training
school, and then accept a situation to teach a pack
of dirty poor people’s children? Oh, what
have I done what have I done to be called
upon to suffer this new this pitiful degradation!
What have I done?”
It was hard work, but by degrees poor
Mrs Thorne was brought round to think that perhaps perhaps she
would go no farther it might be less degradation
to accept an honourable post and do a great duty therein
of helping to make so many girls better women by careful
training, than to live in indigence as a kind of respectable
pauper, subsisting on the assistance of grudging friends.
So the poor, weak, proud woman at
last gave way, and the preliminaries being arranged,
Hazel was about to leave home for the training institution
full of hope, when there was a change in the state
of affairs.
All this had taken place unknown to
Mr Geringer, who was quite startled when he heard
the plans, for they ran counter to his own.
It had been quite in keeping with
his ideas that the Thornes should taste the bitters
of poverty, and know what being impecunious really
meant. The poorer they were the easier would
be his task. Matters had gone on swimmingly.
Their position had had its effect upon the Graves’s,
and his rival, as he called Archibald Graves, had left
the field; six months had passed, and Hazel had grown
to look upon him as a very dear friend, though not
as a lover, and he had come to the conclusion that
the time was now ripe for asking her to be his wife;
in fact, he had had thoughts of speaking at their
last meeting, but had been put off! Now he had
come to find Mrs Thorne alone, and after a certain
amount of preliminary, was about to speak, when the
lady fired off her views and took him by surprise.
“Go to a training
institution become a schoolmistress!”
he cried. “My dear Mrs Thorne, it is impossible.”
“Exactly my words,” said
the lady. “`Hazel, my dear child,’ I said,
`such a degradation is impossible.’”
“Quite impossible,” said
Geringer; and then he drew nearer and talked for some
time in a low voice to Mrs Thorne, who shed tears and
sobbed greatly, and said that she had always looked
upon him as their best and dearest friend.
“I have waited, you see,”
he continued, “for of course if I had felt that
dear Hazel really cared for this young Graves I should
have said nothing, and I fully know my deficiencies,
my age, and such drawbacks; but I am tolerably wealthy,
and I can give her all she has lost, restore her nearest
and dearest to their proper place in society almost
to the position they formerly held in the world’s
esteem.”
Mrs Thorne thought they were words
of gold, and at Geringer’s request she not only
readily promised to prepare Hazel, but that all should
be as he wished.
L’homme propose, as the
French proverb has it and things do not always turn
out as he wishes. Mr Geringer, after the preparation
Hazel received from Mrs Thorne, proposed and was refused.
Hazel said it was impossible, and such was her obstinacy,
as Mrs Thorne called it, she refused to become a rich
man’s wife, and insisted upon going to the Whitelands
training institution, condemning her unfortunate mother
to a life of poverty and degradation, her brother
to toil, and blasting her young sisters’ prospects,
when she might have married, had her carriage, and
all would have gone as merry as a marriage bell.
That was Mrs Thorne’s view of
the case, and she kept up her protests with tears
and repining, winning Percy to her side till he was
always ready to reproach his sister. Hazel bore
all, worked with all the energy in her nature for
the year of training, was fortunate in getting a school
after a few months’ waiting, and was, as we found
her, duly installed in the little schoolhouse, her
brother being boarded with some humble friends in
town.