It was, some will say, a childish,
old-fashioned way of keeping cash, but all the same
it was the plan adopted by Hazel, who every week dropped
the amounts she had received from the school pence,
after changing the coppers into silver, through the
large slit of an old money-box that had been given
her when a child. It was a plain, oak-wood box,
with ordinary lock and key, and the slit at the top
was large enough to admit of each week’s shillings
and sixpences being tied up in note-paper, in the
ladylike way adopted by the fair sex that
is to say, a neat packet is made and tied up with
cotton. After the tying up Hazel used to put
the amount it contained upon the packet, enter the
said amount in a memorandum-book, drop the packet through
the slit, and lock up the drawer in which the box
reposed.
During the early portion of her stay
at Plumton, as previously shown, Mr Chute went on
changing the pence for her from copper to silver, but
after a time Hazel felt a certain amount of diffidence
in charging the schoolmaster with the task, and made
an arrangement with the grocer and draper of the place,
who readily made the exchange.
Then there was the monthly payment
to the blanket fund, which was also placed in the
same receptacle, after being duly noted; and there
were times when Hazel thought that it would be a good
thing when she could get rid of an amount that was
rather a burden to her, and she even went so far as
to think that she would ask Mr William Forth Burge
to take charge of the amount, but for certain reasons
she declined.
It was no uncommon thing for Hazel
to run very short of money for housekeeping purposes,
and several times over it would have been a great
convenience to have made use of a portion of the school
pence and replaced it from her salary; but she forbore,
preferring that the sums she held in charge should
remain untouched as they had come into her hands.
After expecting for what seemed a
very great length of time, she at last received a
beautifully written but ill-spelt letter from one of
the churchwardens, requesting her to send him in a
statement of the amounts received for the children’s
pence, and to be prepared to hand over the money at
a certain appointed time.
The letter came like a relief to her
as she sat at dinner; and upon Mrs Thorne asking,
in a somewhat ill-used tone, who had been writing that
she was not to know of, her daughter smilingly handed
her the letter.
“It was such a thorough business
letter, dear, that I thought you would not care to
read it.”
But Mrs Thorne took it, read it through,
and passed it back without a word.
“I think you seem a good deal
better, dear,” said Hazel, smiling.
“Indeed, I am not, child,”
replied Mrs Thorne sharply. “I never felt
worse. My health is terrible: Plumton does
not agree with me, and I must have a change.”
“A change, dear?” said Hazel, sighing.
“Yes. It is dreadful this
constant confinement in a little poking place.
I feel sometimes as if I should be stifled.
Good gracious, Hazel! what could you be thinking about
to come and live in a town like this? Let’s
go, my dear, and find some occupation more congenial
to your spirit. I cannot bear to go on seeing
how you are wasted here.”
“My dear mother!” exclaimed Hazel wonderingly.
“I repeat it, Hazel I
repeat it, my dear!” exclaimed Mrs Thorne excitedly.
“You are not fit for this place, and the wretched
people down here do not appreciate you. Let
us go away at once.”
“But, my dear mother, it is
impossible. I should, even if I thought it best,
be obliged to give some months’ notice; and besides,
it would be ungrateful to Mr and Miss Burge, and to
the vicar, who is most kind and considerate.”
“Oh yes; I know all that,”
whimpered Mrs Thorne. “But all the same,
we must go.”
“Must go, mother dear?”
“Yes, child must go. It is
a cruelty to you to keep you here.”
“But I have been so well, mother;
and I seem to be winning the confidence of the people,
and the children begin to like me.”
“Oh yes yes yes;
of course they are bound to like you, Hazel, seeing
what a slave you make yourself to them. But all
the same, my dear, I protest against your stopping
here any longer.”
“My dear mother,” said
Hazel, rising and going to her side to bend down and
kiss her, “pray pray don’t be
so unreasonable.”
“Unreasonable? unreasonable?
Am I to be called unreasonable for advising you for
your benefit? For shame, Hazel for
shame!”
“But my dear mother, suppose
I accede to your wishes and decide to leave:
where are we to go? I should have to seek for
another engagement.”
“And you would get it, Hazel.
Thousands of school managers would be only too glad
to obtain your services.”
Hazel shook her head and smiled.
“No, mother dear; you are too
partial. Engagements are not so plentiful as
that. Think it over, and you will look at the
matter differently. We have not the means at
our command to think of moving now.”
“But we must leave, Hazel, and
at once,” cried Mrs Thorne excitedly. “I
cannot and I will not stay here.”
“But it would be unreasonable
and foolish, dear, to think of doing so under our
present circumstances. For the children’s
sake for Percy’s sake, pray be more
considerate. We must not think of it at present.
After a time, perhaps, I may have the offer of a better
post and the change may be such a one as you will
like. Come, dear, try and be content a little
longer, and all will be right in the end.”
“Hazel,” cried Mrs Thorne
angrily, “I insist upon your giving up this
school at once!”
“My dear mother!”
“Now, no excuses, Hazel I say
I insist upon your giving up this school at once,
and I will be obeyed. Do you forget that I am
your mother? Is my own child to rise up in rebellion
against me? How dare you? How dare you,
I say?”
“But my dear mother, if we decide
to leave, where are we to go? Where is the money
to pay for our removal? You know as well as I
do that, in spite of my care, we are some pounds in
the tradespeople’s debt.”
“Now she throws that in my face,
when I have worked so hard to make both ends meet,
and cut and contrived over the housekeeping, thinking
and striving and straining, and now this is my reward!”
“I do not blame you, dear,”
said Hazel sadly; “I only think it was a pity
that you should have ordered goods for which we had
not the money to pay.”
“And was I a lady to
go on living in the mean, sordid, penurious way you
proposed, Hazel? Shame upon you! Where
is your respect for your wretched, unhappy parent?”
It was in Hazel’s heart to say,
half angrily, “Oh, mother, dear mother, pray
do not go on so!” but she simply replied, “I
know, dear, that it is very hard upon you, but we
are obliged to live within our means.”
“Yes: thanks to you, Hazel,”
retorted her mother. “I might be living
at ease, as a lady should, if my child were considerate,
and had not given her heart to selfishness and a downright
direct love of opposition to her parent’s wishes.”
“Dear mother,” cried Hazel
piteously, “indeed I do try hard to study you
in everything.”
“It ought to want no trying,
Hazel. It ought to be the natural outcome of
your heart if you were a good and affectionate child.
Study me, indeed! See what you have brought
me to! Did I ever expect to go about in these
wretched, shabby, black things, do you suppose I I,
who had as many as two dozen dresses upon the hooks
in my wardrobe at one time? Oh, Hazel, if you
would conquer the stubbornness of that heart!”
“My dear mother, I must go and
put away the dinner-things; but I do not like to leave
you like this.”
“Oh, pray go, madam; and follow
your own fancies to the top of your bent. I
am only your poor, weak mother, and what I say or do
matters very little. Never mind me, I shall
soon be dead and cold in my grave.”
“Oh, my dear mother, pray, pray do not talk
like this!”
“And all I ask is, that there
may be a simple headstone placed there, with my name
and age; and, if it could possibly be managed, and
not too great an expense and waste of money for so
unimportant a person, I should like the words to be
cut deeply in the marble, or, no, I suppose
it would be only stone, common stone just
these simple words: `She never forgot that she
was a lady.’”
Here Mrs Thorne sighed deeply, and
began to strive to extricate herself from her child’s
enlacing arms.
“No, no, no, Hazel; don’t
hold me it is of no use. I can tell,
even by the way you touch me, that you have no affection
left for your poor suffering mother.”
“How can you say that dear?” said Hazel
firmly.
“Nor yet in your words, even.
Oh, Hazel, I never thought I should live to be spoken
to like this by my own child!”
“My dear mother, I am ready
to make any sacrifice for your sake.”
“Then marry Mr Geringer,” said the lady
quickly.
“It is impossible.”
“Move from here at once.
Take me away to some other place. Let me be
where I can meet with some decent neighbours, and not
be Chuted to death as I am here.”
Mrs Thorne was so well satisfied with
the sound of the new word which she had coined that
she repeated it twice with different emphases.
“My dear mother, we have no
money; we are in debt and it might be months before
I could obtain a fresh engagement. Mother, that
too, is impossible.”
“There there there!”
cried Mrs Thorne, with aggravating iteration.
“What did I say? Everything I propose is
impossible, and yet in the same breath the child of
my bosom tells me that she is ready to do anything
to make me happy, and to show how dutiful she is.”
“Mother,” said Hazel gravely,
“how can you be so cruel? Your words cut
me to the heart.”
“I am glad of it, Hazel I
am very glad of it; for it was time that your hard,
cruel heart should be touched, and that you should
know something of the sufferings borne by your poor,
bereaved mother. A little real sorrow, my child,
would make you very, very different, and teach you,
and change you. Ah, there is nothing like sorrow
for chastening a hard and thoughtless heart!”
“Mother dear,” said Hazel,
trying to kiss her. “I must go into the
school.”
“No, no! don’t kiss me,
Hazel,” said the poor, weak woman with a great
show of dignity; “I could not bear it now.
When you can come to me in all proper humility, as
you will to-night, and say, `Mamma, we will leave
here to-morrow,’ I shall be ready to receive
you into my embrace once more.”
“My dear mother, you drive me
to speak firmly,” said Hazel quietly. “I
shall not be able to come to you to-night and to say
that we will leave here. It is impossible.”
“Then you must have formed some
attachment that you are keeping from me. Hazel,
if you degrade yourself by marrying that Chute I will
never speak to you again.”
“Hush, mother! the children will hear.”
“Let them hear my protests,”
cried Mrs Thorne excitedly. “I will proclaim
it on the housetops, as Mr Lambent very properly observed
last Sunday in his sermon. I will let every
one know that you intend to degrade yourself by that
objectionable alliance, and against it I now enter
my most formal protest.”
Mrs Thorne’s voice was growing
loud, and she was shedding tears. Her countenance
was flushed, and she looked altogether unlovely as
well as weak.
Hazel hesitated for a moment, her
face working, and the desire to weep bitterly uppermost,
but she mastered it, and laying her hand upon her
mother’s shoulder, bent forward once again to
kiss her.
It was only to be repulsed; and as,
with a weary sigh, she turned to the door, Mrs Thorne
said to her angrily
“It is time I resumed my position,
Hazel the position I gave up to you when
forced by weakness and my many ills. Now I shall
take to it once again, and I tell you that I will
be obeyed. We shall leave this place to-morrow
morning, and I am going to begin to pack up at once.”