But if in the morning he were strong,
Kitty was more beautiful than ever, and they walked
out in the sunlight. They walked out on the green
sward, under the evergreen oaks where the young rooks
are swinging; out on the mundane swards into the pleasure
ground; a rosery and a rockery; the pleasure ground
divided from the park by iron railings, the park encircled
by the rich elms, the elms shutting out the view of
the lofty downs.
The meadows are yellow with buttercups,
and the birds fly out of the gold. And the golden
note is prolonged through the pleasure grounds by
the pale yellow of the laburnums, by the great yellow
of the berberis, by the cadmium yellow of the gorse,
by the golden wallflowers growing amid rhododendrons
and laurels.
And the transparent greenery of the
limes shivers, and the young rooks swinging on the
branches caw feebly.
And about the rockery there are purple
bunches of lilac, and the striped awning of the tennis
seat touches with red the paleness of the English
spring.
Pansies, pale yellow pansies!
The sun glinting on the foliage of
the elms spreads a napery of vivid green, and the
trunks come out black upon the cloth of gold, and the
larks fly out of the gold, and the sky is a single
sapphire, and two white clouds are floating.
It is May time.
They walked toward the tennis seat
with its red striped awning. They listened to
the feeble cawing of young rooks swinging on the branches.
They watched the larks nestle in, and fly out of the
gold. It was May time, and the air was bright
with buds and summer bees. She was dressed in
white, and the shadow of the straw hat fell across
her eyes when she raised her face. He was dressed
in black, and the clerical frock coat buttoned by
one button at the throat fell straight.
They sat under the red striped awning
of the tennis seat. The large grasping hands
holding the polished cane contrasted with the reedy
translucent hands laid upon the white folds. The
low sweet breath of the May time breathed within them,
and their hearts were light; hers was conscious only
of the May time, but his was awake with unconscious
love, and he yielded to her, to the perfume of the
garden, to the absorbing sweetness of the moment.
He was no longer John Norton. His being was part
of the May time; it had gone forth and had mingled
with the colour of the fields and sky; with the life
of the flowers, with all vague scents and sounds;
with the joy of the birds that flew out of and nestled
with amorous wings in the gold. Enraptured and
in complete forgetfulness of his vows, he looked at
her, he felt his being quickening, and the dark dawn
of a late nubility radiated into manhood.
“How beautiful the day is,”
he said, speaking slowly. “Is it not all
light and colour, and you in your white dress with
the sunlight on your hair seem more blossom-like than
any flower. I wonder what flower I should compare
you to.... Shall I say a rose? No, not a
rose, nor a lily, nor a violet; you remind me rather
of a tall delicate pale carnation....”
“Why, John, I never heard you
speak like that before; I thought you never paid compliments.”
The transparent green of the limes
shivers, the young rooks caw feebly, and the birds
nestle with amorous wings in the blossoming gold.
Kitty has taken off her straw hat, the sunlight caresses
the delicate plénitudes of the bent neck,
the delicate plénitudes bound with white
cambric, cambric swelling gently over the bosom into
the narrow circle of the waist, cambric fluted to
the little wrist, reedy translucid hands; cambric
falling outwards and flowing like a great white flower
over the green sward, over the mauve stocking, and
the little shoe set firmly. The ear is as a rose
leaf, a fluff of light hair trembles on the curving
nape, and the head is crowned with thick brown gold.
“O to bathe my face in those perfumed waves!
O to kiss with a deep kiss the hollow of that cool
neck!...” The thought came he know not whence
nor how, as lightning falls from a clear sky, as desert
horsemen come with a glitter of spears out of the
cloud; there is a shock, a passing anguish, and they
are gone.
He left her. So frightened was
he at this sudden and singular obsession of his spiritual
nature by a lower and grosser nature, whose existence
in himself was till now unsuspected, and of whose life
and wants in others he had felt, and still felt, so
much scorn, that in the tumult of his loathing he
could not gain the calm of mind necessary for an examination
of conscience. He could not look into his mind
with any present hope of obtaining a truthful reply
to the very eminent and vital question, how far his
will had participated in that burning but wholly inexcusable
desire by which he had been so shockingly assailed.
That inner life, so strangely personal
and pure, and of which he was so proud, seemed to
him now to be befouled, and all its mystery and inner
grace, and the perfect possession which was his sanctuary,
lost to him for ever. For he could never quite
forget the defiling thought; it would always remain
with him, and the consciousness of the stain would
preclude all possibility of that refining happiness,
that attribute of cleanliness, which he now knew had
long been his. In his anger and self-loathing
his rage turned against Kitty. It was always the
same story the charm and ideality of man’s
life always soiled by woman’s influence; so
it was in the beginning, so it shall be....
He stopped before the injustice of
the accusation; he remembered her candour and her
gracious innocence, and he was sorry; and he remembered
her youth and her beauty, and he let his thoughts dwell
upon her. Turning over his papers he came across
the old monk’s song to David:
“Surge meo domno
dulces fac, fistula versus:
David amat versus, surge fac
fistula versus,
David amat vates vatorum
est gloria David....”
The verses seemed meaningless and
tame, but they awoke vague impulses in him, and, his
mind filled by a dim dream of King David and Bathsheba,
he opened his Bible and turned over the pages, reading
a phrase here and there until he had passed from story
and psalm to the Song of songs, and was finally stopped
by “I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem,
if ye find my beloved, that ye tell him that I am
sick of love.”
He laid the book down and leaned back
in his chair, and holding his temple with one hand
(this was his favourite attitude) he looked in the
fire fixedly. He was ravaged by emotion.
The magical fervour of the words he had just read
had revealed to him the depth of his passion.
But he would tear the temptation out
of his heart. The conduct of his life had been
long ago determined upon. He had known the truth
as if by instinct from the first; no life was possible
except an ascetic life, at least for him. And
in this hour of weakness he summoned to his aid all
his ancient ideals: the solemnity and twilight
of the arches, the massive Gregorian chant which seems
to be at once their voice and their soul, the cloud
of incense melting upon the mitres and sunsets,
and the boys’ treble hovering over an ocean
of harmony. But although the picture of his future
life rose at his invocation it did not move him as
heretofore, nor did the scenes he evoked of conjugal
grossness and platitude shock him to the extent he
had expected. The moral rebellion he succeeded
in exciting was tepid, heartless, and ineffective,
and he was not moved by hate or fear until he remembered
that God in His infinite goodness had placed him for
ever out of the temptation which he so earnestly sought
to escape from. Kitty was a Protestant. In
a pang of despair, windows and organ collapsed like
cardboard; incense and arches vanished, and then rose
again with the light of a more gracious vision upon
them. For if the dignity and desire of mere self-salvation
had departed, all the lighter colours and livelier
joys of the conversion of others filled the sky of
faith with morning tones and harmonies. And then?...
Salvation before all things, he answered in his enthusiasm; something
of the missionary spirit of old time was upon him,
and forgetful of his aisles, his arches, his Latin
authors, he went down stairs and asked Kitty to play
a game of billiards.
“We play billiards here on Sunday,
but you would think it wrong to do so.”
“But to-day is not Sunday.”
“No, I was only speaking in
a general way. Yet I often wonder how you can
feel satisfied with the protection your Church affords
you against the miseries and trials of the world.
A Protestant, you know, may believe pretty nearly
as little or as much as he likes, whereas in our church
everything is defined; we know what we must believe
to be saved. There is a sense of security in
the Catholic Church which the Protestant has not.”
“Do you think so? That
is because you do not know our Church,” replied
Kitty, who was a little astonished at this sudden outburst.
“I feel quite happy and safe. I know that
our Lord Jesus Christ died on the Cross to save us,
and we have the Bible to guide us.”
“Yes, but the Bible without
the interpretation of the Church is ... may lead to
error. For instance...”
John stopped abruptly. Seized
with a sudden scruple of conscience he asked himself
if he, in his own house, had a right to strive to
undermine the faith of the daughter of his own friend.
“Go on,” cried Kitty,
laughing, “I know the Bible better than you,
and if I break down I will ask father.”
And as if to emphasise her intention, she hit her
ball which was close under the cushion as hard as
she could.
John hailed the rent in the cloth
as a deliverance, for in the discussion as to how
it could be repaired, the religious question was forgotten.
But if he were her lover, if she were
going to be his wife, he would have the right to offer
her every facility and encouragement to enter the
Catholic Church the true faith. Darkness
passes, and the birds are carolling the sun, flowers
and trees are pranked with aerial jewellery, the fragrance
of the warm earth flows in your veins, your eyes are
fain of the light above and your heart of the light
within. He would not jar his happiness by the
presence of Mrs Norton, even Kitty’s presence
was too actual a joy to be home. She drew him
out of himself too completely, interrupted the exquisite
sense of personal enchantment which seemed to permeate
and flow through him with the sweetness of health returning
to a convalescent on a spring day. He closed
his eyes, and his thoughts came and went like soft
light and shade in a garden close; his happiness was
a part of himself, as fragrance is inherent in the
summer time. The evil of the last days had fallen
from him, and the reaction was equivalently violent.
Nor was he conscious of the formal resignation he
was now making of his dream, nor did he think of the
distasteful load of marital duties with which he was
going to burden himself; all was lost in the vision
of beautiful companionship, a sort of heavenly journeying,
a bright earthly way with flowers and starlight he
a little in advance pointing, she following, with
her eyes lifted to the celestial gates shining in
the distance. Sometimes his arms would be thrown
about her. Sometimes he would press a kiss upon
her face. She was his, his, and he was her saviour.
The evening died, the room darkened, and John’s
dream continued in the twilight, and the ringing of
the dinner bell and the disturbance of dressing did
not destroy his thoughts. Like fumes of wine
they hung about him during the evening, and from time
to time he looked at Kitty.
But although he had so far surrendered
himself, he did not escape without another revulsion
of feeling. A sudden realisation of what his
life would be under the new conditions did not fail
to frighten him, and he looked back with passionate
regret on his abandoned dreams. But his nature
was changed, abstention he knew was beyond his strength,
and after many struggles, each of which was feebler
than the last, he determined to propose to Kitty on
the first suitable occasion.
Then came the fear of refusal.
Often he was paralysed with pain, sometimes he would
morbidly allow his thoughts to dwell on the moment
when he would hear her say, it was impossible, that
she did not and could not love him. The young
grey light of the eyes would be fixed upon him; she
would speak her sorrow, and her thin hands would hang
by her side in the simple attitude that was so peculiar
to her. And he mused willingly on the long meek
life of grief that would then await him. He would
belong to God; his friar’s frock would hide all;
it would be the habitation, and the Gothic walls he
would raise, the sepulchre of his love....
“But no, no, she shall be mine,”
he cried out, moved in his very entrails. Why
should she refuse him? What reason had he to believe
that she would not have him? He thought of how
she had answered his questions on this and that occasion,
how she had looked at him; he recalled every gesture
and every movement with wonderful precision, and then
he lapsed into a passionate consideration of the general
attitude of mind she evinced towards him. He
arrived at no conclusion, but these meditations were
full of penetrating delight. Sometimes he was
afflicted with an intense shyness, and he avoided
her; and when Mrs Norton, divining his trouble, sent
them to walk in the garden, his heart warmed to his
mother, and he regretted his past harshness.
And this idyll was lived about the
beautiful Italian house, with its urns and pilasters;
through the beautiful English park, with its elms
now with the splendour of summer upon them; in the
pleasure grounds with their rosary, and the fountain
where the rose leaves float, and the wood-pigeons
come at eventide to drink; in the greenhouse with its
live glare of geraniums, where the great yellow cat,
so soft and beautiful, springs on Kitty’s shoulder,
rounds its back, and purring, insists on caresses;
in the large clean stables where the horses munch the
corn lazily, and look round with round inquiring eyes,
and the rooks croak and flutter, and strut about Kitty’s
feet. It was Kitty; yes, it was Kitty everywhere;
even the blackbird darting through the laurels seemed
to cry Kitty.
To propose! Time, place, and
the words he should use had been carefully considered.
After each deliberation, a new decision had been taken:
but when he came to the point, John found himself unable
to speak any one of the different versions he had
prepared. Still he was very happy. The days
were full of sunshine and Kitty, and he mistook her
light-heartedness for affection. He had begun
to look upon her as his certain wife, although no
words had been spoken that would suggest such a possibility.
Outside of his imagination nothing was changed; he
stood in exactly the same relation to her as he had
done when he returned from Stanton College, determined
to build a Gothic monastery upon the ruins of Thornby
Place, and yet somehow he found it difficult to realise
that this was so.
One morning he said, as they went
into the garden, “You must sometimes feel a
little lonely here ... when I am away ... all alone
here with mother.”
“Oh dear no! we have lots to
do. I look after the pets in the morning.
I feed the cats and the rooks, and I see that the canaries
have fresh water and seed. And then the bees
take up a lot of our time. We have twenty-two
hives. Mrs Norton says she ought to make five
pounds a year on each. Sometimes we lose a swarm
or two, and then Mrs Norton is so cross. We were
out for hours with the gardener the other day, but
we could do no good; we could not get them out of
that elm tree. You see that long branch leaning
right over the wall; well it was on that branch that
they settled, and no ladder was tall enough to reach
them; and when Bill climbed the tree and shook them
out they flew right away.”
“Shall I, shall I propose to
her now?” thought John. But Kitty continued
talking, and it was difficult to interrupt her.
The gravel grated under their feet; the rooks were
flying about the elms. At the end of the garden
there was a circle of fig trees. A silent place,
and John vowed he would say the word there. But
as they approached his courage died within him, and
he was obliged to defer his vows until they reached
the green-house.
“So your time is fully occupied here.”
“And in the afternoon we go
out for drives; we pay visits. You never pay
visits; you never go and call on your neighbours.”
“Oh, yes I do; I went the other day to see your
father.”
“Ah yes, but that is only because he talks to
you about Latin authors.”
“No, I assure you it isn’t.
Once I have finished my book I shall never look at
them again.”
“Well, what will you do?”
“Next winter I intend to go
in for hunting. I have told a dealer to look
out for a couple of nice horses for me.”
Kitty looked up, her grey eyes wide
open. If John had told her that he had given
the order for a couple of crocodiles she could not
have been more surprised.
“But hunting is over now; it
won’t begin again till next November. You
will have to play lawn tennis this summer.”
“I have sent to London for a
racquet and shoes, and a suit of flannels.”
“Goodness me.... Well,
that is a surprise! But you won’t want the
flannels; you might play in the Carmelite’s habit
which came down the other day. How you do change
your mind about things!”
“Do you never change your mind, Kitty?”
“Well, I don’t know, but
not so suddenly as you. Then you are not going
to become a monk?”
“I don’t know, it depends on circumstances.”
“What circumstances?” said Kitty, innocently.
The words “whether you will
or will not have me” rose to John’s
lips, but all power to speak them seemed to desert
him; he had grown suddenly as weak as melting snow,
and in an instant the occasion had passed. He
hated himself for his weakness. The weary burden
of his love lay still upon him, and the torture of
utterance still menaced him from afar. The conversation
had fallen. They were approaching the greenhouse,
and the cats ran to meet their patron. Sammy
sprang on Kitty’s shoulder.
“Oh, isn’t he a beauty? stroke him, do.”
John passed his hand along the beautiful
yellow fur. Sammy rubbed his head against his
mistress’ face, her raised eyes were as full
of light as the pale sky, and the rich brown head
and the thin hands made a picture in the exquisite
clarity of the English morning, in the
homeliness of the English garden, with tall hollyhocks,
espalier apple trees, and one labourer digging amid
the cabbages. Joy crystal as the morning itself
illumined John’s mind for a moment, and then
faded, and he was left lonely with the remembrance
that his fate had still to be decided, that it still
hung in the scale.
One evening as they were walking in
the park, shadowy in the twilight of an approaching
storm, Kitty said:
“I never would have believed,
John, that you could care to go out for a walk with
me.”
“And why, Kitty?”
Kitty laughed her short
sudden laugh was strange and sweet. John’s
heart was beating. “Well,” she said,
without the faintest hesitation or shyness, “we
always thought you hated girls. I know I used
to tease you, when you came home for the first time;
when you used to think of nothing but the Latin authors.”
“What do you mean?”
Kitty laughed again.
“You promise not to tell?”
“I promise.”
This was their first confidence.
“You told your mother when I
came, when you were sitting by the fire reading, that
the flutter of my skirts disturbed you.”
“No, Kitty, I’m sure you
never disturbed me, or at least not for a long time.
I wish my mother would not repeat conversations, it
is most unfair.”
“Mind you, you promised not
to repeat what I have told you. If you do, you
will get me into an awful scrape.”
“I promise.”
The conversation came to a pause.
Presently Kitty said, “But you seem to have
got over your dislike to girls. I saw you talking
a long while with Miss Orme the other day; and at
the Meet you seemed to admire her. She was the
prettiest girl we had here.”
“No, indeed she wasn’t!”
“Who was, then?”
“You were.”
Kitty looked up; and there was so
much astonishment in her face that John in a sudden
access of fear said, “We had better make haste,
the storm is coming on; we shall get wet through.”
They ran towards the house. John
reproached himself bitterly, but he made no further
attempt to screw his courage up to the point of proposing.
His disappointment was followed by doubts. Was
his powerlessness a sign from God that he was abandoning
his true vocation for a false one? and a little shaken,
he attempted to interest himself in the re-building
of his house; but the project had grown impossible
to him, and he felt he could not embrace it again,
with any of the old enthusiasm at least, until he
had been refused by Kitty. There were moments
when he almost yearned to hear her say that she could
never love him. But in his love and religious
suffering the thought of bringing a soul home to the
true fold remained a fixed light; he often looked to
it with happy eyes, and then if he were alone he fell
on his knees and prayed. Prayer like an opiate
calmed his querulous spirit, and having told his beads the
great beads which hung on his prie-dieu he
would go down stairs with peace in his heart, and
finding Kitty, he would ask her to walk with him in
the garden, or they would stroll out on the tennis
lawn, racquet in hand.
One afternoon it was decided that
they should go for a long walk. John suggested
that they should climb to the top of Toddington Mount,
and view the immense plain which stretches away in
dim blue vapour and a thousand fields.
You see John and Kitty as they cross
the wide park towards the vista in the circling elms, she
swinging her parasol, he carrying stiffly his grave
canonical cane. He still wears the long black
coat buttoned at the throat, but the air of hieratic
dignity is now replaced by, or rather it is glossed
with, the ordinary passion of life. Both are like
children, infinitely amused by the colour of the grass
and sky, by the hurry of the startled rabbit, by the
prospect of the long walk; and they taste already
the wild charm of the downs, seeing and hearing in
imagination its many sights and sounds, the wild heather,
the yellow savage gorse, the solitary winding flock,
the tinkling of the bell-wether, the cliff-like sides,
the crowns of trees, the mighty distance spread out
like a sea below them with its faint and constantly
dissolving horizon of the Epsom Hills.
“I never can cross this plain,
Kitty, without thinking of the Dover cliffs as seen
in mid Channel; this is a mere inland imitation of
them.”
“I have never seen the Dover
cliffs; I have never been out of England, but the
Brighton cliffs give me an idea of what you mean.”
“On your side the
Shoreham side the downs rise in a gently
sloping ascent from the sea.”
“Yes, we often walk up there.
You can see Brighton and Southwick and Worthing.
Oh! it is beautiful! I often go for a walk there
with my friends, the Austen girls you saw
them here at the Meet.”
“Yes, Mr Austen has a very nice
property; it extends right into the town of Shoreham,
does it not?”
“Yes, and right up to Toddington
Mount, where we are going. But aren’t you
a little tired, John? These roads are very steep.”
“Out of breath, Kitty; let’s
stop for a minute or two.” The country lay
below them. They had walked three miles, and Thornby
Place and its elms were now vague in the blue evening.
“We must see one of these days if we cannot
do the whole distance.”
“What? right across the downs from Shoreham
to Henfield?”
“Well, it is not more than eight
miles; you don’t think you could manage it?”
“I don’t know, it is more
than eight miles, and walking on the downs is not
like walking on the highroad. Father thinks nothing
of it.”
“We must really try it.”
“What would you do if I were
to get so tired that I could not go back or forward?”
“I would carry you.”
They continued their climb. Speaking of the Devil’s
Dyke, Kitty said
“What! you mean to say you never heard the legend?
You, a Sussex man!”
“I have lived very little in
Sussex, and I used to hate the place; I am only just
beginning to like it.”
“And you don’t like the
Jesuits any more, because they go in for matchmaking.”
“They are too sly for me, I
confess; I don’t approve of priests meddling
in family affairs. But tell me the legend.”
“Oh, how steep these roads are.
At last, at last. Now let’s try and find
a place where we can sit down. The grass is full
of that horrid prickly gorse.”
“Here’s a nice soft place;
there is no gorse here. Now tell me the legend.”
“Well, I never!” said
Kitty, sitting herself on the spot that had been chosen
for her, “you do astonish me. You never
heard of the legend of St Cuthman.”
“No, do tell it to me.”
“Well, I scarcely know how to
tell it in ordinary words, for I learnt it in poetry.”
“In poetry! In whose poetry?”
“Evy Austen put it into poetry,
the eldest of the girls, and they made me recite it
at the harvest supper.”
“Oh, that’s awfully jolly I
never should have thought she was so clever.
Evy is the dark-haired one.”
“Yes, Evy is awfully clever;
but she doesn’t talk much about it.”
“Do recite it.”
“I don’t know that I can
remember it all. You won’t laugh if I break
down.”
“I promise.”
THE LEGEND OF ST CUTHMAN.
“St Cuthman stood on
a point which crowns
The entire range of the grand
South Downs;
Beneath his feet, like a giant
field,
Was stretched the expanse
of the Sussex Weald.
‘Suppose,’ said
the Saint,’’twas the will of Heaven
To cause this range of hills
to be riven,
And what were the use of prayers
and whinings,
Were the sea to flood the
village of Poynings:
’Twould be fine, no
doubt, these Downs to level,
But to do such a thing I defy
the Devil!’
St Cuthman, tho’ saint,
was a human creature,
And his eye, a bland and benevolent
feature,
Remarked the approach of the
close of day,
And he thought of his supper,
and turned away.
Walking fast,
he
Had scarcely passed the
First steps of his way, when
he saw something nasty;
’Twas tall
and big,
And he saw from
its rig
’Twas the Devil in full
diabolical fig.
There were wanting
no proofs,
For the horns
and the hoofs
And the tail were a fully
convincing sight;
But the heart
of the Saint
Ne’er once
turned faint,
And his halo shone with redoubled
light.
’Hallo,
I fear
You’re trespassing
here!’
Said St Cuthman, ’To
me it is perfectly clear,
If you talk of the devil,
he’s sure to appear!’
’With my
spade and my pick
I am come,’
said old Nick,
’To prove you’ve
no power o’er a demon like me.
I’ll show
you my power
Ere the first
morning hour
Thro’ the Downs, over
Poynings, shall roll in the sea.’
‘I’ll
give you long odds,’
Cried the Saint,
’by the gods!
I’ll stake what you
please, only say what your wish is.’
Said the devil,
’By Jove!
You’re a
sporting old cove!
My pick to your
soul,
I’ll make
such a hole,
That where Poynings now stands,
shall be swimming the fishes.’
‘Done!’
cried the Saint, ’but I must away
I
have a penitent to confess;
In an hour I’ll
come to see fair play
In
truth I cannot return in less.
My bet will be won ere the
first bright ray
Heralds the ascension of the
day.
If I lose! there
will be the devil to pay!’
He descended the hill with
a firm quick stride,
Till he reached a cell which
stood on the side;
He knocked at the door, and
it opened wide,
He murmured a blessing and
walked inside.
Before him he saw a tear-stained
face
Of an elderly maiden of elderly
grace;
Who, when she beheld him,
turned deadly pale,
And drew o’er her features
a nun’s black veil.
‘Holy father!’
she said, ’I have one sin more,
Which I should have confessed
sixty years before!
I have broken my vows ’tis
a terrible crime!
I have loved you, oh
father, for all that time!
My passion I cannot subdue,
tho’ I try!
Shrive me, oh father! and
let me die!’
‘Alas, my daughter,’
replied the Saint,
’One’s desire
is ever to do what one mayn’t,
There was once a time when
I loved you, too,
I have conquered my passion,
and why shouldn’t you?
For penance I
say,
You must kneel
and pray
For hours which will number
seven;
Fifty times say
the rosary,
(Fifty, ’twill
be a poser, eh?)
But by it you’ll enter
heaven;
As each hour doth
pass,
Turn the hour
glass,
Till the time of midnight’s
near;
On the stroke
of midnight
This taper light,
Your conscience will then
be clear.’
He left the cell, and he walked
until
He joined Old Nick on the
top of the hill.
It was five o’clock,
and the setting sun
Showed the work of the Devil
already begun.
St Cuthman was rather fatigued
by his walk,
And caring but little for
brimstone talk,
He watched the pick crash
through layers of chalk.
And huge blocks went over
and splitting asunder
Broke o’er the Weald
like the crashing of thunder.
St Cuthman wished the first
hour would pass,
When St Ursula, praying, reversed
the glass.
‘Ye legions of hell!’
the Old Gentleman cried,
‘I have such a terrible
stitch in the side!’
‘Don’t work so
hard,’ said the Saint, ’only see,
The sides of your dyke a heap
smoother might be.’
‘Just so,’ said
the Devil, ’I’ve had a sharp fit,
So, resting, I’ll trim
up my crevice a bit.’
St Cuthman was looking prodigiously
sly,
He knew that the hours were
slipping by.
’Another
attack!
I’ve cramp
at my back!
I’ve needles
and pins
From my hair to
my shins!
I tremble and
quail
From my horns
to my tail!
I will not be vanquished,
I’ll work, I say,
This dyke shall be finished
ere break of day!’
’If you win your bet,
‘twill be fairly earned,’
Said the Saint, and again
was the hour-glass turned.
And then with a most unearthly
din
The farther end of the dyke
fell in;
But in spite of an awful rheumatic
pain
The Devil began his work again.
‘I’ll not be vanquished!’
exclaimed the old bloke.
’By breathing torrents
of flame and smoke,
Your dyke,’ said the
Saint, ’is hindered each minute,
What can one expect when the
Devil is in it?’
Then an accident happened,
which caused Nick at last
To rage, fume, and swear;
when the fourth hour had passed,
On his hoof there came rolling
a huge mass of quartz.
Then quite out
of sorts
The bad tempered
old cove
Sent the huge mass of stone
whizzing over to Hove.
He worked on again, till a
howl and a cry
Told the Saint one more hour the
fifth had gone by.
‘What’s the row?’
asked the Saint, ’A cramp in the wrist,
I think for a while I had
better desist.’
Having rested a bit he worked
at his chasm,
Till, the hour having passed,
he was seized with a spasm.
He raged and he
cursed,
’I bore
this at first,
The rheumatics were awful,
but this is the worst.’
With awful rage
heated,
The demon defeated,
In his passion used words
that can’t be repeated.
Feeling shaken
and queer,
In spite of his
fear,
At the dyke he worked on until
midnight drew near.
But when the glass turned
for the last time, he found
That the head of his pick
was stuck fast in the ground.
‘Cease now!’ cried
St Cuthman, ’vain is your toil!
Come forth from the dyke!
Leave your pick in the soil!
You agreed to work ’tween
sunset and morn,
And lo! the glimmer of day
is born!
In vain was your
fag,
And your senseless
brag.’
Dizzy and dazed with sulphureous
vapour,
Old Nick was deceived by St
Ursula’s taper.
‘The dawn!’ yelled
the Devil, ’in vain was my boast,
That I’d have your soul,
for I’ve lost it, I’ve lost!’
‘Away!’ cried
St Cuthman, ’Foul fiend! away!
See yonder approaches the
dawn of day!
Return to the flames where
you were before,
And molest these peaceful
South Downs no more!’
The old gentleman scowled
but dared not stay,
And the prints of his hoofs
remain to this day,
Where he spread his dark pinions
and soared away.
At St Ursula’s
cell
Was tolling the
bell,
And St Cuthman in sorrow,
stood there by her side.
’Twas over
at last,
Her sorrows were
past,
In the moment of triumph St
Ursula died.
Tho’ this
was the ground,
There never were
found
The tools of the Devil, his
spade and his pick;
But if you want
proof
Of the Legend,
the hoof-
Marks are still
in the hillock last trod by Old Nick.”
“Oh! that is jolly. Well,
I never thought the girl was clever enough to write
that. And there are some excellent rhymes in it,
‘passed he’ rhyming with ‘nasty,’
and ‘rosary’ with ‘poser, eh;’
and how well you recite it.”
“Oh, I recited it better at
the harvest supper; and you have no idea how the farmers
enjoyed it. They know the place so well, and it
interested them on that account. They understood
it all.”
John sat as if enchanted, by
Kitty’s almost childish grace, her enthusiasm
for her friend’s poem, and her genuine enjoyment
of it; by the abrupt hills, mysterious now in sunset
and legend; by the vast plains so blue and so boundless:
out of the thought of the littleness of life, of which
they were a symbol, there came the thought of the
greatness of love.
“Won’t you cross the poor
gipsy’s palm with a bit of silver, my pretty
gentleman, and she will tell you your fortune and that
of your pretty lady?”
Kitty uttered a startled cry, and
turning they found themselves facing a strong, black-eyed
girl. She repeated her question.
“What do you think, Kitty, would
you like to have your fortune told?”
Kitty laughed. “It would be rather fun,”
she said.
She did not know what was coming,
and she listened to the usual story, full by the way
of references to John of a handsome young
man who would woo her, win her, and give her happiness,
children, and wealth.
John threw the girl a shilling.
She withdrew. They watched her passing through
the furze. The silence about them was immense.
Then John spoke:
“What the gipsy said is quite
true; I did not dare to tell you so before.”
“What do you mean, John?”
“I mean that I am in love with you, will you
love me?”
“You in love with me, John;
it is quite absurd I thought you hated
girls.”
“Never mind that, Kitty, say
you will have me; make the gipsy’s words come
true.”
“Gipsies’ words always come true.”
“Then you will marry me?”
“I never thought about marriage.
When do you want me to marry you? I am only seventeen?”
“Oh! when you like, later on,
only say you will be mine, that you will be mistress
of Thornby Place one day, that is all I want.”
“Then you don’t want to pull the house
down any more.”
“No, no; a thousand times no!
Say you will be my wife one of these days.”
“Very well then, one of these
days....” “And I may tell my mother
of your promise to-night?... It will make her
so happy.”
“Of course you may tell her,
John, but I don’t think she will believe it.”
“Why should she not believe it?”
“I don’t know,”
said Kitty, laughing, “but how funny, was it
not, that the gipsy girl should guess right?”
“Yes, it was indeed. I
wanted to tell you before, but I hadn’t the
courage; and I might never have found the courage if
it had not been for that gipsy.”
In his abundant happiness John did
not notice that Kitty was scarcely sensible of the
importance of the promise she had given. And in
silence he gazed on the landscape, letting it sink
into and fix itself for ever in his mind. Below
them lay the great green plain, wonderfully level,
and so distinct were its hedges that it looked like
a chessboard. Thornby Place was hidden in vapour,
and further away all was lost in darkness that was
almost night.
“I am sorry we cannot see the
house your house,” said John as they
descended the chalk road.
“It seems so funny to hear you say that, John.”
“Why? It will be your house some day.”
“But supposing your Church will not let you
marry me, what then....”
“There is no danger of that;
a dispensation can always be obtained. But who
knows.... You have never considered the question....
You know nothing of our Church; if you did, you might
become a convert. I wish you would consider the
question. It is so simple; we surrender our own
wretched understanding, and are content to accept the
Church as wiser than we. Once man throws off
restraint there is no happiness, there is only misery.
One step leads to another; if he would be logical he
must go on, and before long, for the descent is very
rapid indeed, he finds himself in an abyss of darkness
and doubt, a terrible abyss indeed, where nothing
exists, and life has lost all meaning. The Reformation
was the thin end of the wedge, it was the first denial
of authority, and you see what it has led to modern
scepticism and modern pessimism.”
“I don’t know what it
means, but I heard Mrs Norton say you were a pessimist.”
“I was; but I saw in time where
it was leading me, and I crushed it out. I used
to be a Republican too, but I saw what liberty meant,
and what were its results, and I gave it up.”
“So you gave up all your ideas for Catholicism....”
John hesitated, he seemed a little
startled, but he answered, “I would give up
anything for my Church...”
“What! Me?”
“That is not required.”
“And did it cost you much to give up your ideas?”
John raised his eyes it
was a look that Balzac would have understood and would
have known how to interpret in some admirable pages
of human suffering. “None will ever know
how I have suffered,” he said sadly. “But
now I am happy, oh! so happy, and my happiness would
be complete if.... Oh! if God would grant you
grace to believe....”
“But I do believe. I believe
in our Lord Christ who died to save us. Is not
that enough?”