It was said, but with what truth I
cannot say, that the Roche property had been owned
by the O’Dwyers many years ago, several generations
past, sometime in the eighteenth century. Only
a faint legend of this ownership remained; only once
had young Mr. Roche heard of it, and it was from his
mother he had heard it; among the country people it
was forgotten. His mother had told him that his
great-great-grandfather, who had made large sums of
money abroad, had increased his property by purchase
from the O’Dwyers, who then owned, as well as
farmed, the hillside on which the Big House stood.
The O’Dwyers themselves had forgotten that they
were once much greater people than they now were,
but the master never spoke to them without remembering
it, for though they only thought of themselves as
small farmers, dependents on the squire, every one
of them, boys and girls alike, retained an air of
high birth, which at the first glance distinguished
them from the other tenants of the estate. Though
they were not aware of it, some sense of their remote
origin must have survived in them, and I think that
in a still more obscure way some sense of it survived
in the country side, for the villagers did not think
worse of the O’Dwyers because they kept themselves
aloof from the pleasures of the village and its squabbles.
The O’Dwyers kept themselves apart from their
fellows without any show of pride, without wounding
anyone’s feelings.
The head of the family was a man of
forty, and he was the trusted servant, almost the
friend, of the young master, he was his bailiff and
his steward, and he lived in a pretty cottage by the
edge of the lake. O’Dwyer’s aunts,
they were old women, of sixty-eight and seventy, lived
in the Big House, the elder had been cook, and the
younger housemaid, and both were now past their work,
and they lived full of gratitude to the young master,
to whom they thought they owed a great deal. He
believed the debt to be all on his side, and when he
was away he often thought of them, and when he returned
home he went to greet them as he might go to the members
of his own family. The family of the O’Dwyer’s
was long lived, and Betty and Mary had a sister far
older than themselves, Margaret Kirwin, “Granny
Kirwin,” as she was called, and she lived in
the cottage by the lake with her nephew, Alec O’Dwyer.
She was over eighty, it was said that she was nearly
ninety, but her age was not known exactly. Mary
O’Dwyer said that Margaret was nearly twenty
years older than she, but neither Betty nor Mary remembered
the exact date of their sister’s birth.
They did not know much about her, for though she was
their sister, she was almost a stranger to them.
She had married when she was sixteen, and had gone
away to another part of the country, and they had
hardly heard of her for thirty years. It was
said that she had been a very pretty girl, and that
many men had been in love with her, and it was known
for certain that she had gone away with the son of
the game keeper of the grandfather of the present Mr.
Roche, so you can understand what a very long while
ago it was, and how little of the story of her life
had come to the knowledge of those living now.
It was certainly sixty years since
she had gone away with this young man; she had lived
with him in Meath for some years, nobody knew exactly
how many years, maybe some nine or ten years, and then
he had died suddenly, and his death, it appears, had
taken away from her some part of her reason.
It was known for certain that she left Meath after
his death, and had remained away many years. She
had returned to Meath about twenty years ago, though
not to the place she had lived in before. Some
said she had experienced misfortunes so great that
they had unsettled her mind. She herself had
forgotten her story, and one day news had come to
Galway news, but it was sad news, that she
was living in some very poor cottage on the edge of
Navan town, where her strange behaviour and her strange
life had made a scandal of her. The priest had
to inquire out her relations, and it took him some
time to do this, for the old woman’s answers
were incoherent, but he at length discovered she came
from Galway, and he had written to the O’Dwyers.
And immediately on receiving the priest’s letter,
Alec sent his wife to Navan, and she had come back
with the old woman.
“And it was time indeed that
I went to fetch her,” she said. “The
boys in the town used to make game of her, and follow
her, and throw things at her, and they nearly lost
the poor thing the little reason that was left to
her. The rain was coming in through the thatch,
there was hardly a dry place in the cabin, and she
had nothing to eat but a few scraps that the neighbours
gave her. Latterly she had forgotten how to make
a fire, and she ate the potatoes the neighbours gave
her raw, and on her back there were only a few dirty
rags. She had no care for anything except for
her wedding-gown. She kept that in a box covered
over with paper so that no damp should get to it, and
she was always folding it and seeing that the moth
did not touch it, and she was talking of it when I
came in at the door. She thought that I had come
to steal it from her. The neighbours told me that
that was the way she always was, thinking that someone
had come to steal her wedding-gown.”
This was all the news of Margaret
Kirwin that Alec O’Dwyer’s wife brought
back with her. The old woman was given a room
in the cottage, and though with food and warmth and
kind treatment she became a little less bewildered,
a little less like a wild, hunted creature, she never
got back her memory sufficiently to tell them all that
had happened to her after her husband’s death.
Nor did she seem as if she wanted to try to remember,
she was garrulous only of her early days when the parish
bells rang for her wedding, and the furze was in bloom.
This was before the Big House on the hill had been
built. The hill was then a fine pasture for sheep,
and Margaret would often describe the tinkling of
the sheep-bells in the valley, and the yellow furze,
and the bells that were ringing for her wedding.
She always spoke of the bells, though no one could
understand where the bells came from. It was not
customary to ring the parish bell for weddings, and
there was no other bell, so that it was impossible
to say how Margaret could have got the idea into her
head that bells were ringing for her when she crossed
the hill on her way to the church, dressed in the
beautiful gown, which the grandmother of the present
Mr. Roche had dressed her in, for she had always been
the favourite, she said, with the old mistress, a much
greater favourite than even her two sisters had ever
been. Betty and Mary were then little children
and hardly remembered the wedding, and could say nothing
about the bells.
Margaret Kirwin walked with a short
stick, her head lifted hardly higher than the handle
and when the family were talking round the kitchen
fire she would come among them for a while and say
something to them, and then go away, and they felt
they had seen someone from another world. She
hobbled now and then as far as the garden gate, and
she frightened the peasantry, so strange did she seem
among the flowers so old and forlorn, almost
cut off from this world, with only one memory to link
her to it. It was the spectral look in her eyes
that frightened them, for Margaret was not ugly.
In spite of all her wrinkles the form of the face
remained, and it was easy, especially when her little
grand-niece was by, to see that sixty-five years ago
she must have had a long and pleasant face, such as
one sees in a fox, and red hair like Molly.
Molly was sixteen, and her grey dress
reached only to her ankles. Everyone was fond
of the poor old woman; but it was only Molly who had
no fear of her at all, and one would often see them
standing together beside the pretty paling that separated
the steward’s garden from the high road.
Chestnut-trees grew about the house, and china roses
over the walls, and in the course of the summer there
would be lilies in the garden, and in the autumn hollyhocks
and sunflowers. There were a few fruit-trees
a little further on, and, lower down, a stream.
A little bridge led over the stream into the meadow,
and Molly and her grand-aunt used to go as far as
the bridge, and everyone wondered what the child and
the old woman had to say to each other. Molly
was never able to give any clear account of what the
old woman said to her during the time they spent by
the stream. She had tried once to give Molly an
account of one long winter when the lake was frozen
from side to side. Then there was something running
in her mind about the transport of pillars in front
of the Big House how they had been drawn
across the lake by oxen, and how one of the pillars
was now lying at the bottom of the lake. That
was how Molly took up the story from her, but she
understood little of it. Molly’s solicitude
for the old woman was a subject of admiration, and
Molly did not like to take the credit for a kindness
and pity which she did not altogether feel. She
had never seen anyone dead, and her secret fear was
that the old woman might die before she went away
to service. Her parents had promised to allow
her to go away when she was eighteen, and she lived
in the hope that her aunt would live two years longer,
and that she would be saved the terror of seeing a
dead body. And it was in this intention that she
served her aunt, that she carefully minced the old
woman’s food and insisted on her eating often,
and that she darted from her place to fetch the old
woman her stick when she rose to go. When Margaret
Kirwin was not in the kitchen Molly was always laughing
and talking, and her father and mother often thought
it was her voice that brought the old woman out of
her room. So the day Molly was grieving because
she could not go to the dance the old woman remained
in her room, and not seeing her at tea-time they began
to be afraid, and Molly was asked to go fetch her
aunt.
“Something may have happened
to her, mother. I daren’t go.”
And when old Margaret came into the
kitchen towards evening she surprised everyone by
her question:
“Why is Molly crying?”
No one else had heard Molly sob, if
she had sobbed, but everyone knew the reason of her
grief; indeed, she had been reproved for it many times
that day.
“I will not hear any more about
it,” said Mrs. O’Dwyer; “she has
been very tiresome all day. Is it my fault if
I cannot give her a gown to go to the dance?”
And then, forgetting that old Margaret could not understand
her, she told her that the servants were having a dance
at the Big House, and had asked Molly to come to it.
“But what can I do? She has got no gown
to go in. Even if I had the money there would
not be time to send for one now, nor to make one.
And there are a number of English servants stopping
at the house; there are people from all parts of the
country, they have brought their servants with them,
and I am not going to see my girl worse dressed than
the others, so she cannot go. She has heard all
this, she knows it.... I’ve never seen her
so tiresome before.” Mrs. O’Dwyer
continued to chide her daughter; but her mother’s
reasons for not allowing her to go to the ball, though
unanswerable, did not seem to console Molly, and she
sat looking very miserable. “She has been
sitting like that all day,” said Mrs. O’Dwyer,
“and I wish that it were to-morrow, for she will
not be better until it is all over.”
“But, mother, I am saying nothing;
I will go to bed. I don’t know why you
are blaming me. I am saying nothing. I can’t
help feeling miserable.”
“No, she don’t look a
bit cheerful,” the old woman said, “and
I don’t like her to be disappointed.”
This was the first time that old Margaret had seemed
to understand since she came to live with them what
was passing about her, and they all looked at her,
Mrs. O’Dwyer and Alec and Molly. They stood
waiting for her to speak again, wondering if the old
woman’s speech was an accident, or if she had
recovered her mind. “It is a hard thing
for a child at her age not to be able to go to the
dance at the Big House, now that she has been asked.
No wonder Molly is unhappy. I remember the time
that I should have been unhappy too, and she is very
like me.”
“But, Granny, what can I do?
She can’t go in the clothes she is wearing,
and she has only got one other frock, the one she goes
to Mass in. I can’t allow my daughter ”
But seeing the old woman was about
to speak Alec stopped his wife.
“Let us hear what she has to say,” he
whispered.
“There is my wedding-gown:
that is surely beautiful enough for anyone to wear.
It has not been worn since the day I wore it when the
bells were ringing, and I went over the hill and was
married; and I have taken such care of it that it
is the same as it was that day. Molly will look
very nice in it; she will look as I looked that day.”
No one spoke; father, mother, and
daughter stood looking at the old woman. Her
offer to lend her wedding-dress had astonished them
as much as her recovery of her senses. Everything
she once had, and there were tales that she had once
been rich, had melted away from her; nothing but this
gown remained. How she had watched over it!
Since she had come to live with the O’Dwyers
she had hardly allowed them to see it. When she
took it out of its box to air it and to strew it with
camphor she closed her room door. Only once had
they seen it, and then only for a few moments.
She had brought it out to show it, as a child brings
its toy, but the moment they stretched their hands
to touch it she had taken it away, and they had heard
her locking the box it was in. But now she was
going to lend it to Molly. They did not believe
she meant what she was saying. They expected
her to turn away and to go to her room, forgetful
of what she had said. Even if she were to let
Molly put the dress on, she would not let her go out
of the house with it. She would change her mind
at the last minute.
“When does this dancing begin?”
she asked, and when they told her she said there would
be just time for her to dress Molly, and she asked
the girl and her mother to come into her room.
Mrs. O’Dwyer feared the girl would be put to
a bitter disappointment, but if Molly once had the
gown on she would not oblige her to take it off.
“In my gown you will be just
like what I was when the bells were ringing.”
She took the gown out of its box herself,
and the petticoat and the stockings and the shoes;
there was everything there.
“The old mistress gave me all
these. Molly has got the hair I used to have;
she will look exactly like myself. Are they not
beautiful shoes?” she said.
“Look at the buckles. They
will fit her very well; her feet are the same size
as mine were.”
And Molly’s feet went into the
shoes just as if they had been made for her, and the
gown fitted as well as the shoes, and Molly’s
hair was arranged as nearly as possible according
to the old woman’s fancy, as she used to wear
her hair when it was thick and red like Molly’s.
The girl thought that Granny would
regret her gift. She expected the old woman would
follow her into the kitchen and ask her to take the
things off, and that she would not be able to go to
the ball after all. She did not feel quite safe
until she was a long way from the house, about half-way
up the drive. Her mother and father had said that
the dance would not be over until maybe six o’clock
in the morning, and they offered her the key of the
house; but Granny had said that she would sit up for
her.
“I will doze a bit upon a chair.
If I am tired I will lie down upon my bed. I
shall hear Molly; I shall not sleep much. She
will not be able to enter the house without my hearing
her.”
It was extraordinary to hear her speak
like this, and, a little frightened by her sudden
sanity, they waited up with her until midnight.
Then they tried to persuade her to go to bed, to allow
them to lock up the house; but she sat looking into
the fire, seeming to see the girl dancing at the ball
quite clearly. She seemed so contented that they
left her, and for an hour she sat dreaming, seeing
Molly young and beautifully dressed in the wedding-gown
of more than sixty years ago.
Dream after dream went by, the fire
had burned low, the sods were falling into white ashes,
and the moonlight began to stream into the room.
It was the chilliness that had come into the air that
awoke her, and she threw several sods of turf on to
the fire. An hour passed, and old Margaret awoke
for the last time.
“The bells are ringing, the
bells are ringing,” she said, and she went to
the kitchen door; she opened it, and stood in the garden
under the rays of the moon. The night of her
marriage was just such a night as this one, and she
had stood in the garden amid the summer flowers, just
as she did now.
“The day is beginning,”
she said, mistaking the moonlight for the dawn, and,
listening, it seemed to her that she heard once more
the sound of bells coming across the hill. “Yes,
the bells are ringing,” she said; “I can
hear them quite clearly, and I must hurry and get dressed I
must not keep him waiting.”
And returning to the house, she went
to her box, where her gown had lain so many years;
and though no gown was there it seemed to her that
there was one, and one more beautiful than the gown
she had cherished. It was the same gown, only
grown more beautiful. It had grown into softer
silk, into a more delicate colour; it had become more
beautiful, and she held the dream-gown in her hands
and she sat with it in the moonlight, thinking how
fair he would find her in it. Once her hands
went to her hair, and then she dropped them again.
“I must begin to dress myself;
I must not keep him waiting.”
The moonlight lay still upon her knees,
but little by little the moon moved up the sky, leaving
her in the shadow.
It was at this moment, as the shadows
grew denser about old Margaret, that the child who
was dancing at the ball came to think of her who had
given her her gown, and who was waiting for her.
It was in the middle of a reel she was dancing, and
she was dancing it with Mr. Roche, that she felt that
something had happened to her aunt.
“Mr. Roche,” she said,
“you must let me go away; I cannot dance any
more to-night. I am sure that something has happened
to my aunt, the old woman, Margaret Kirwin, who lives
with us in the Lodge. It was she who lent me
this gown. This was her wedding-gown, and for
sixty-five years it has never been out of her possession.
She has hardly allowed anyone to see it; but she said
that I was like her, and she heard me crying because
I had no gown to go to the ball, and so she lent me
her wedding-gown.”
“You look very nice, Molly,
in the wedding-gown, and this is only a fancy.”
Seeing the girl was frightened and wanted to go, he
said: “But why do you think that anything
has happened to your aunt?”
“She is very old.”
“But she is not much older than she was when
you left her.”
“Let me go, Mr. Roche; I think
I must go. I feel sure that something has happened
to her. I never had such a feeling before, and
I could not have that feeling if there was no reason
for it.”
“Well, if you must go.”
She glanced to where the moon was
shining and ran down the drive, leaving Mr. Roche
looking after her, wondering if after all she might
have had a warning of the old woman’s death.
The night was one of those beautiful nights in May,
when the moon soars high in the sky, and all the woods
and fields are clothed in the green of spring.
But the stillness of the night frightened Molly, and
when she stopped to pick up her dress she heard the
ducks chattering in the reeds. The world seemed
divided into darkness and light. The hawthorn-trees
threw black shadows that reached into the hollows,
and Molly did not dare to go by the path that led
through a little wood, lest she should meet Death
there. For now it seemed to her that she was running
a race with Death, and that she must get to the cottage
before him. She did not care to take the short
cut, but she ran till her breath failed her. She
ran on again, but when she went through the wicket
she knew that Death had been before her. She
knocked twice; receiving no answer she tried the latch,
and was surprised to find the door unlocked. There
was a little fire among the ashes, and after blowing
the sod for some time she managed to light the candle,
and holding it high she looked about the kitchen.
“Auntie, are you asleep? Have the others
gone to bed?”
She approached a few steps, and then
a strange curiosity came over her, and though she
had always feared death she now looked curiously upon
death, and she thought that she saw the likeness which
her aunt had often noticed.
“Yes,” she said, “she
is like me. I shall be like that some day if I
live long enough.”
And then she knocked at the door of
the room where her parents were sleeping.