For thirty years Edward Dempsey had
worked low down in the list of clerks in the firm
of Quin and Wee. He did his work so well that
he seemed born to do it, and it was felt that any
change in which Dempsey was concerned would be unlucky.
Managers had looked at Dempsey doubtingly and had
left him in his habits. New partners had come
into the business, but Dempsey showed no sign of interest.
He was interested only in his desk. There it
was by the dim window, there were his pens, there
was his penwiper, there was the ruler, there was the
blotting-pad. Dempsey was always the first to
arrive and the last to leave. Once in thirty
years of service he had accepted a holiday. It
had been a topic of conversation all the morning, and
the clerks tittered when he came into the bank in
the afternoon saying he had been looking into the
shop windows all the morning, and had come down to
the bank to see how they were getting on.
An obscure, clandestine, taciturn
little man, occupying in life only the space necessary
to bend over a desk, and whose conical head leaned
to one side as if in token of his humility.
It seemed that Dempsey had no other
ambition than to be allowed to stagnate at a desk
to the end of his life, and this modest ambition would
have been realised had it not been for a slight accident the
single accident that had found its way into Dempsey’s
well-ordered and closely-guarded life. One summer’s
day, the heat of the areas arose and filled the open
window, and Dempsey’s somnolescent senses were
moved by a soft and suave perfume. At first he
was puzzled to say whence it came; then he perceived
that it had come from the bundle of cheques which
he held in his hand; and then that the odoriferous
paper was a pale pink cheque in the middle of the
bundle. He had hardly seen a flower for thirty
years, and could not determine whether the odour was
that of mignonette, or honeysuckle, or violet.
But at that moment the cheques were called for; he
handed them to his superior, and with cool hand and
clear brain continued to make entries in the ledger
until the bank closed.
But that night, just an he was falling
asleep, a remembrance of the insinuating perfume returned
to him. He wondered whose cheque it was, and
regretted not having looked at the signature, and many
times during the succeeding weeks he paused as he
was making entries in the ledger to think if the haunting
perfume were rose, lavender, or mignonette. It
was not the scent of rose, he was sure of that.
And a vague swaying of hope began. Dreams that
had died or had never been born floated up like things
from the depths of the sea, and many old things that
he had dreamed about or had never dreamed at all drifted
about. Out of the depths of life a hope that
he had never known, or that the severe rule of his
daily life had checked long ago, began its struggle
for life; and when the same sweet odour came again he
knew now it was the scent of heliotrope his
heart was lifted and he was overcome in a sweet possessive
trouble. He sought for the cheque amid the bundle
of cheques and, finding it, he pressed the paper to
his face. The cheque was written in a thin, feminine
handwriting, and was signed “Henrietta Brown,”
and the name and handwriting were pregnant with occult
significances in Dempsey’s disturbed mind.
His hand paused amid the entries, and he grew suddenly
aware of some dim, shadowy form, gracile and sweet-smelling
as the spring-moist shadow of wandering cloud, emanation
of earth, or woman herself? Dempsey pondered,
and his absent-mindedness was noticed, and occasioned
comment among the clerks.
For the first time in his life he
was glad when the office hours were over. He
wanted to be alone, he wanted to think, he felt he
must abandon himself to the new influence that he
had so suddenly and unexpectedly entered his life.
Henrietta Brown! the name persisted in his mind like
a half-forgotten, half-remembered tune; and in his
efforts to realise her beauty he stopped before the
photographic displays in the shop windows; but none
of the famous or the infamous celebrities there helped
him in the least. He could only realise Henrietta
Brown by turning his thoughts from without and seeking
the intimate sense of her perfumed cheques. The
end of every month brought a cheque from Henrietta
Brown, and for a few moments the clerk was transported
and lived beyond himself.
An idea had fixed itself in his mind.
He knew not if Henrietta Brown was young or old, pretty
or ugly, married or single; the perfume and the name
were sufficient, and could no longer be separated from
the idea, now forcing its way through the fissures
in the failing brain of this poor little bachelor
clerk that idea of light and love and grace
so inherent in man, but which rigorous circumstance
had compelled Dempsey to banish from his life.
Dempsey had had a mother to support
for many years, and had found it impossible to economise.
But since her death he had laid by about one hundred
and fifty pounds. He thought of this money with
awe, and awed by his good fortune he wondered how
much more he might save before he was forced to leave
his employment; and to have touched a penny of his
savings would have seemed to him a sin near to sacrilege.
Yet he did not hesitate for a single moment to send
Henrietta Brown, whose address he had been able to
obtain through the bank books, a diamond brooch which
had cost twenty pounds. He omitted to say whence
it had come, and for days he lived in a warm wonderment,
satisfied in the thought that she was wearing something
that he had seen and touched.
His ideal was now by him and always,
and its dominion was so complete that he neglected
his duties at the bank, and was censured by the amazed
manager. The change of his condition was so obvious
that it became the subject for gossip, and jokes were
now beginning to pass into serious conjecturing.
Dempsey took no notice, and his plans matured amid
jokes and theories. The desire to write and reveal
himself to his beloved had become imperative; and
after some very slight hesitation for he
was moved more by instinct than by reason he
wrote a letter urging the fatality of the circumstances
that separated them, and explaining rather than excusing
this revelation of his identity. His letter was
full of deference, but at the same time it left no
doubt as to the nature of his attachments and hopes.
The answer to this letter was a polite note begging
him not to persist in this correspondence, and warning
him that if he did it would become necessary to write
to the manager of the bank. But the return of
his brooch did not dissuade Dempsey from the pursuit
of his ideal; and as time went by it became more and
more impossible for him to refrain from writing love
letters, and sending occasional presents of jewellery.
When the letters and the jewellery were returned to
him he put them away carelessly, and he bought the
first sparkle of diamonds that caught his fancy, and
forwarded ring, bracelet, and ear-ring, with whatever
word of rapturous love that came up in his mind.
One day he was called into the manager’s
room, severely reprimanded, and eventually pardoned
in consideration of his long and faithful service.
But the reprimands of his employers were of no use
and he continued to write to Henrietta Brown, growing
more and more careless of his secret. He dropped
brooches about the office, and his letters. At
last the story was whispered from desk to desk.
Dempsey’s dismissal was the only course open
to the firm; and it was with much regret that the
partners told their old servant that his services were
no longer required.
To their surprise Dempsey seemed quite
unaffected by his dismissal; he even seemed relieved,
and left the bank smiling, thinking of Henrietta,
bestowing no thought on his want of means. He
did not even think of providing himself with money
by the sale of some of the jewellery he had about
him, nor of his going to his lodging and packing up
his clothes, he did not think how he should get to
Edinburgh it was there that she lived.
He thought of her even to the exclusion of the simplest
means of reaching her, and was content to walk about
the streets in happy mood, waiting for glimpses of
some evanescent phantom at the wood’s edge wearing
a star on her forehead, or catching sight in the wood’s
depths of a glistening shoulder and feet flying towards
the reeds. Full of happy aspiration he wandered
seeking the country through the many straggling villages
that hang like children round the skirts of Dublin,
and was passing through one of these at nightfall,
and, feeling tired, he turned into the bar of an inn,
and asked for bread and cheese.
“Come a long way, governor?”
said one of two rough fellows.
“I am going a long way,”
replied Dempsey; “I am going north very
far north.”
“And what may yer be going north
for, if I may make bold to ask?”
“I am going to the lady I love,
and I am taking her beautiful presents of jewellery.”
The two rough fellows exchanged glances;
and it is easy to imagine how Dempsey was induced
to let them have his diamonds, so that inquiries might
be made of a friend round the corner regarding their
value. After waiting a little while, Dempsey
paid for his bread and cheese, and went in search
of the thieves. But the face of Henrietta Brown
obliterated all remembrance of thieves and diamonds,
and he wandered for a few days, sustained by his dream
and the crusts that his appearance drew from the pitiful.
At last he even neglected to ask for a crust, and,
foodless, followed the beckoning vision, from sunrise
to sundown.
It was a soft, quiet summer’s
night when Dempsey lay down to sleep for the last
time. He was very tired, he had been wandering
all day, and threw himself on the grass by the roadside.
He lay there looking up at the stars, thinking of
Henrietta, knowing that everything was slipping away,
and he passing into a diviner sense. Henrietta
seemed to be coming nearer to him and revealing herself
more clearly; and when the word of death was in his
throat, and his eyes opened for the last time, it
seemed to him that one of the stars came down from
the sky and laid its bright face upon his shoulder.