I
They engaged themselves to be married
when they were so young they couldn’t tell anybody
about it for fear of being laughed at; and if I mentioned
their years to you, you would laugh at me. They
thought they were full-grown, but they weren’t
even that. When they were finally married they
couldn’t either of them have worn the clothes
they got engaged in. The day they got engaged
they wore suits made of white woollen blankets, white
knitted toques, and white knitted sashes.
It was because they were dressed exactly alike that
they first got excited about each other. And
Cynthia said: “You look just like a snowman.”
And G. G. which was his strange name said:
“You look just like a snowbird.”
G. G. was in Saranac for his health.
Cynthia had come up for the holidays to skate and
to skee and to coast, and to get herself engaged before
she was full-grown to a boy who was so delicate that
climate was more important for him than education.
They met first at the rink. And it developed
that if you crossed hands with G. G. and skated with
him you skated almost as well as he did. He could
teach a girl to waltz in five minutes; and he had
a radiant laugh that almost moved you to tears when
you went to bed at night and got thinking about it.
Cynthia had never seen a boy with such a beautiful
round head and such beautiful white teeth and such
bright red cheeks. She always said that she loved
him long before he loved her. As a matter of fact,
it happened to them both right away. As one baby,
unabashed and determined, embraces a strange baby and
is embraced so, from their first meeting
in the great cold stillness of the North Woods, their
young hearts snuggled together.
G. G. was different from other boys.
To begin with, he had been born at sea. Then
he had lived abroad and learned the greatest quantity
of foreign languages and songs. Then he had tried
a New England boarding-school and had been hurt playing
games he was too frail to play. And doctors had
stethoscoped him and shaken their heads over him.
And after that there was much naming of names which,
instead of frightening him, were magic to his ear Arizona,
California, Saranac but, because G. G.’s
father was a professional man and perfectly square
and honest, there wasn’t enough money to send
G. G. far from New York and keep him there and visit
him every now and then. So Saranac was the place
chosen for him to get well in; and it seemed a little
hard, because there was almost as much love of sunshine
and warmth and flowers and music in G. G. as there
was patience and courage.
The day they went skeeing together which
was the day after they had skated together he
told Cynthia all about himself, very simply and naturally,
as a gentleman farmer should say: “This
is the dairy; this is the blacksmith shop; this is
the chicken run.” And the next day, very
early, when they stood knee-deep in snow, armed with
shot-guns and waiting for some dogs that thought they
were hounds to drive rabbits for them to shoot at,
he told her that nothing mattered so long as you were
happy and knew that you were happy, because when these
two stars came into conjunction you were bound to
get well.
A rabbit passed. And G. G. laid
his mitten upon his lips and shook his head; and he
whispered:
“I wouldn’t shoot one for anything in
the world.”
And she said: “Neither would I.”
Then she said: “If you don’t shoot
why did you come?”
“Oh, Miss Snowbird,” he
said, “don’t I look why I came? Do
I have to say it?”
He looked and she looked. And
their feet were getting colder every moment and their
hearts warmer. Then G. G. laughed aloud bright,
sudden music in the forest. Snow, balanced to
the fineness of a hair, fell from the bowed limbs
of trees. Then there was such stillness as may
be in Paradise when souls go up to the throne to be
forgiven. Then, far off, one dog that thought
he was a hound began to yap and thought he was belling;
but still G. G. looked into the snowbird’s eyes
and she into his, deeper and deeper, until neither
had any secret of soul from the other. So, upon
an altar cloth, two wax candles burn side by side,
with clear, pure light.
Cynthia had been well brought up,
but she came of rich, impatient stock, and never until
the present moment had she thought very seriously about
God. Now, however, when she saw the tenderness
there was in G. G.’s eyes and the smile of serene
joyousness that was upon his lips, she remembered
the saying that God has made man and boys in
His image and understood what it meant.
She said: “I know why you think you’ve
come.”
“Think?” he said. “Think!”
And then the middle ends of his eyebrows
rose all tender and quizzical; and with
one mitten he clutched at his breast just
over his heart. And he said:
“If only I could get it out I would give it
to you!”
Cynthia, too, began to look melting
tender and wondrous quizzical; and she bent her right
arm forward and plucked at its sleeve as if she were
looking for something. Then, in a voice of dismay:
“Only three days ago it was
still there,” she said; “and now it’s
gone I’ve lost it.”
“Oh!” said G. G.
“You don’t suspect me of having purloined ”
His voice broke.
“We’re only kids,” said Cynthia.
“Yes,” said he; “but you’re
the dearest kid!”
“Since you’ve taken my
heart,” said she, “you’ll not want
to give it back, will you? I think that would
break it.”
“I oughtn’t to have taken it!” said
G. G.
And then on his face she saw the first
shadow that ever he had let her see of doubt and of
misgiving.
“Listen!” he said.
“My darling! I think that I shall get well....
I think that, once I am well, I shall be able to work
very hard. I have nothing. I love you so
that I think even angels don’t want to do right
more than I do. Is that anything to offer?
Not very much.”
“Nobody in all the world,”
said she, “will ever have the chance to offer
me anything else just because I’m
a kid doesn’t mean that I don’t know the
look of forever when I see it.”
“Is it really forever?” he said.
“For you too?”
“For me surely!”
“Ah,” said he, “what shall I think
of to promise you?”
His face was a flash of ecstasy.
“You don’t even have to
promise that you will get well,” she said.
“I know you will try your hardest. No matter
what happens we’re final and
I shall stick to you always, and nothing shall take
you from me, and nobody.... When I am of age
I shall tell my papa about us and then we shall be
married to each other! And meanwhile you shall
write to me every day and I shall write to you three
times every day!” Her breath came like white
smoke between her parted lips and she stood valiant
and sturdy in the snow a strong, resolute
girl, built like a boy clean-cut, crystal-pure,
and steel-true. A shot sounded and there came
to them presently the pungent, acid smell of burnt
powder.
“And we shall never hurt things
or kill them,” said G. G. “And every
day when I’ve been good I shall kiss your feet
and your hands.”
“And when I’ve been good,”
she said, “you’ll smile at me the way you’re
smiling now and it won’t be necessary
to die and go to Heaven to see what the gentlemen
angels look like.”
“But,” cried G. G., “whoever
heard of going to Heaven? It comes to people.
It’s here.”
“And for us,” she said, “it’s
come to stay.”
All the young people came to the station
to see Cynthia off and G. G. had to content himself
with looking things at her. And then he went back
to his room and undressed and went to bed. Because
for a week he had done all sorts of things that he
shouldn’t have done, just to be with Cynthia all
the last day he had had fever and it had been very
hard for him to look like a joyous boy angel he
knew by experience that he was in for a “time.”
It is better that we leave him behind closed doors
with his doctors and his temperature. We may
knock every morning and ask how he is, and we shall
be told that he is no better. He was even delirious
at times. And it is only worth while going into
this setback of G. G’s because there are miracles
connected with it his daily letter to Cynthia.
Each day she had his letter joyous,
loving, clearly writ, and full of flights into silver-lined
clouds and the plannings of Spanish castles.
Each day G. G. wrote his letter and each day he descended
a little farther into the Valley of the Shadow, until
at last he came to Death Gate and then
rested, a voyager undecided whether to go on or to
go back. Who may know what it cost him to write
his letter, sitting there at the roadside!
His mother was with him. It was
she who took the letter from his hands when he sank
back into his pillows; and they thought for a little
that he had gone from that place for good
and all. It was she who put it into the envelope
and who carried it with her own hands to the post-office.
Because G. G. had said: “To get there, it
must go by the night’s mail, Mumsey.”
G. G.’s mother didn’t
read the letter; but you may be sure she noted down
the name and address in her heart of hearts, and that
for the girl who seemed to mean so much to G. G. she
developed upon the spot a heavenly tenderness, mixed
with a heavenly jealousy.
II
One day there came to G. G., in convalescence it
was after his mother had gone back to New York a
great, thick package containing photographs and a
letter. I think the letter contained rouge because
it made G. G.’s cheeks so red.
Cynthia had collected all the pictures
she could find of herself in her father’s house
and sent them to G. G. There were pictures of her in
the longest baby clothes and in the shortest.
There were pictures posed for occasions, pictures
in fancy clothes, and a quart of kodaks. He had
her there on his knees riding, driving,
diving, skating, walking, sitting on steps, playing
with dogs, laughing, looking sad, talking, dimpling,
smiling. There were pictures that looked right
at G. G., no matter at what angle he held them.
There were pictures so delicious of her that he laughed
aloud for delight.
All the stages of her life passed
before his eyes over and over all
day long; and, instead of growing more and more tired,
he grew more and more refreshed. He made up his
spotless mind to be worthy of her and to make, for
her to bear, a name of which nobody should be able
to say anything unkind.
If G. G. had had very little education
he had made great friends with some of the friendliest
and most valuable books that had ever been written.
And he made up his mind, lying at full length the
livelong day in the bright, cold air his
mittened hands plunged into deep pockets full of photographs that,
for her sake and to hasten that time when they might
always be together, he would learn to write books,
taking infinite pains. And he determined that
these books should be as sweet and clean and honorable
as he could make them. You see, G. G. had been
under the weather so much and had suffered so much
all alone by himself, with nobody to talk to, that
his head was already full of stories about make-believe
places and people that were just dying to get themselves
written. So many things that are dead to most
people had always been alive to him leaves,
flowers, fairies. He had always been a busy maker
of verses, which was because melody, rhythm, and harmony
had always been delicious to his ear. And he
had had, as a little boy, a soprano voice that was
as true as truth and almost as agile as a canary bird’s.
He decided, then, very deliberately lying
upon his back and healing that traitor lung of his to
be a writer. He didn’t so decide entirely
because that was what he had always wanted to be, but
for many reasons. First place, he could say things
to her through prose and verse that could not be expressed
in sculpture, music, painting, groceries, or dry-goods.
Second place, where she was, there his heart was sure
to be; and where the heart is, there the best work
is done. And, third place, he knew that the chances
were against his ever living in dusty cities or in
the places of business thereof.
“I am so young,” he wrote
to her, “that I can begin at the beginning and
learn to be anything in time to be it!
And so every morning now you shall think of G. G.
out with his butterfly net, running after winged words.
That’s nonsense. I’ve a little pad
and a big pencil, and a hot potato in my pocket for
to warm the numb fingers at. And father’s
got an old typewriter in his office that’s to
be put in order for me; and nights I shall drum upon
it and print off what was written down in the morning,
and study to see why it’s all wrong. I think
I’ll never write anything but tales about people
who love each other. ’Cause a fellow wants
to stick to what he knows about....”
Though G. G. was not to see Cynthia
again for a whole year he didn’t find any trouble
in loving her a little more every day. To his
mind’s eye she was almost as vivid as if she
had been standing right there in front of him.
And as for her voice, that dwelt ever in his ear, like
those lovely airs which, once heard, are only put aside
with death. You may have heard your grandmother
lilting to herself, over her mending, some song of
men and maidens and violets that she had listened to
in her girlhood and could never forget.
And then, of course, everything that
G. G. did was a reminder of Cynthia. With the
help of one of Doctor Trudeau’s assistants, who
came every day to see how he was getting on, he succeeded
in understanding very well what was the matter with
him and under just what conditions a consumptive lung
heals and becomes whole. To live according to
the letter and spirit of the doctor’s advice
became almost a religion with him.
For six hours of every day he sat
on the porch of the house where he had rooms, writing
on his little pad and making friends with the keen,
clean, healing air. Every night the windows of
his bedroom stood wide open, so that in the morning
the water in his pitcher was a solid block. And
he ate just the things he was told to and
willed himself to like milk and sugar, and snow and
cold, and short days!
In his writing he began to see progress.
He was like a musical person beginning to learn an
instrument; for, just as surely as there are scales
to be run upon the piano before your virtuoso can weave
music, binding the gallery gods with delicious meshes
of sound, so in prose-writing there must be scales
run, fingerings worked out, and harmonies mastered.
For in a page of lo bello stile you will find
trills and arpeggios, turns, grace notes, a main theme,
a sub theme, thorough-bass, counterpoint, and form.
Music is an easier art than prose,
however. It comes to men as a more direct and
concrete gift of those gods who delight in sound and
the co-ordination of parts. The harmonies are
more quickly grasped by the well-tuned ear. We
can imagine the boy Mozart discoursing lovely music
at the age of five; but we cannot imagine any one of
such tender years compiling even a fifth-rate paragraph
of prose.
Those men who have mastered lo
bello stile in music can tell us pretty clearly
how the thing is done. There be rules. But
your prose masters either cannot formulate what they
have learned or will not.
G. G. was very patient; and there
were times when the putting together of words was
fascinating, like the putting together of those picture
puzzles which were such a fad the other day. And
such reading as he did was all in one book the
dictionary. For hours, guided by his nice ear
for sound, he applied himself to learning the derivatives
and exact meanings of new words or he looked
up old words and found that they were new.
As for his actual compositions, he
had only the ambition to make them as workmanlike
as he could. He made little landscapes; he drew
little interiors. He tried to get people up and
down stairs in the fewest words that would make the
picture. And when he thought that he had scored
a little success he would count the number of words
he had used and determine to achieve the same effect
with the use of only half that number.
Well, G. G.’s lung healed again;
and this time he was very careful not to overdo.
He had gained nine pounds, he wrote to Cynthia “saved
them” was the way he put it; and he was determined
that this new tissue, worth more than its weight in
gold, should go to bank and earn interest for him and
compound interest.
“Shall I get well?” he
asked that great dreamer who dreamed that there was
hope for people who had never hoped before and
who has lived to see his dream come true; and the
great dreamer smiled and said:
“G. G., if growing boys
are good boys and do what they are told, and have
any luck at all they always get well!”
Then G. G. blushed.
“And when I am well can I live
where I please and and get married and
all that sort of thing?”
“You can live where you please,
marry and have children; and if you aren’t a
good husband and a good father I dare say you’ll
live to be hanged at ninety. But if I were you,
G. G., I’d stick by the Adirondacks until you’re
old enough to know better.”
And G. G. went back to his rooms in
great glee and typewrote a story that he had finished
as well as he could, and sent it to a magazine.
And six days later it came back to him, with a little
note from the editor, who said:
“There’s nothing wrong
with your story except youth. If you say so we’ll
print it. We like it. But, personally, and
believing that I have your best interests at heart,
I advise you to wait, to throw this story into your
scrap basket, and to study and to labor until your
mind and your talent are mature. For the rest,
I think you are going to do some fine things.
This present story isn’t that it’s
not fine. At the same time, it is so very good
in some ways that we are willing to leave its publication
or its destruction to your discretion.”
G. G. threw his story into the scrap
basket and went to bed with a brand-new notion of
editors.
“Why,” said he to the
cold darkness and his voice was full of
awe and astonishment “they’re alive!”
III
Cynthia couldn’t get at G. G.
and she made up her mind that she must get at something
that belonged to him or die. She had
his letter, of course, and his kodaks; and these spoke
the most eloquent language to her no matter
what they said or how they looked but she
wanted somehow or other to worm herself deeper into
G. G.’s life. To find somebody, for instance,
who knew all about him and would enjoy talking about
him by the hour. Now there are never but two
people who enjoy sitting by the hour and saying nice
things about any man and these, of course,
are the woman who bore him and the woman who loves
him. Fathers like their sons well enough sometimes and
will sometimes talk about them and praise them; but
not always. So it seemed to Cynthia that the one
and only thing worth doing, under the circumstances,
was to make friends with G. G.’s mother.
To that end, Cynthia donned a warm coat of pony-skin
and drove in a taxicab to G. G.’s mother’s
address, which she had long since looked up in the
telephone book.
“If she isn’t alone,”
said Cynthia, “I shan’t know what to say
or what to do.”
And she hesitated, with her thumb
hovering about the front-door bell as a
humming-bird hovers at a flower.
Then she said: “What does
it matter? Nobody’s going to eat me.”
And she rang the bell.
G. G.’s mother was at home.
She was alone. She was sitting in G. G.’s
father’s library, where she always did sit when
she was alone. It was where she kept most of
her pictures of G. G.’s father and of G. G.,
though she had others in her bedroom; and in her dressing-room
she had a dapple-gray horse of wood that G. G. had
galloped about on when he was little. She had
a sweet face, full of courage and affection. And
everything in her house was fresh and pretty, though
there wasn’t anything that could have cost very
much. G. G.’s father was a lawyer.
He was more interested in leaving a stainless name
behind him than a pot of money. And, somehow,
fruit doesn’t tumble off your neighbor’s
tree and fall into your own lap unless
you climb the tree when nobody is looking and give
the tree a sound shaking. I might have said of
G. G., in the very beginning, that he was born of
poor and honest parents. It would have
saved all this explanation.
G. G.’s mother didn’t
make things hard for Cynthia. One glance was
enough to tell her that dropping into the little library
out of the blue sky was not a pretty girl but a blessed
angel not a rich man’s daughter but
a treasure. It wasn’t enough to give one
hand to such a maiden. G. G.’s mother gave
her two. But she didn’t kiss her. She
felt things too deeply to kiss easily.
“I’ve come to talk about
G. G.,” said Cynthia. “I couldn’t
help it. I think he’s the dearest
boy!”
She finished quite breathless and
if there had been any Jacqueminot roses present they
might have hung their lovely heads in shame and left
the room.
“G. G. has shown me pictures
of you,” said his mother. “And once,
when we thought we were going to lose him, he used
his last strength to write to you. I mailed the
letter. That is a long time ago. Nearly two
years.
“And I didn’t know that
he’d been ill in all that time,” said Cynthia;
“he never told me.”
“He would have cut off his hand
sooner than make you anxious. That was why he
would write his daily letter to you. That
one must have been almost as hard to write as cutting
off a hand.”
“He writes to me every day,”
said Cynthia, “and I write to him; but I haven’t
seen him for a year and I don’t feel as if I
could stand it much longer. When he gets well
we’re going to be married. And if he doesn’t
get well pretty soon we’re going to be married
anyway.”
“Oh, my dear!” exclaimed
G. G.’s mother. “You know that wouldn’t
be right!”
“I don’t know,”
said Cynthia; “and if anybody thinks I’m
going to be tricked out of the man I love by a lot
of silly little germs they are very much mistaken!”
“But, my dear,” said G.
G.’s mother, “G. G. can’t support
a wife not for a long time anyway.
We have nothing to give him. And, of course, he
can’t work now and perhaps can’t
for years.”
“I, too,” said Cynthia with
proper pride “have parents. Mine
are rolling in money. Whenever I ask them for
anything they always give it to me without question.”
“You have never asked them,”
said G. G.’s mother, “for a sick, penniless
boy.”
“But I shall,” said Cynthia,
“the moment G. G.’s well and
maybe sooner.”
There was a little silence.
Then G. G.’s mother leaned forward
and took both of Cynthia’s hands in hers.
“I don’t wonder at him,”
she said “I don’t. I was
ever so jealous of you, but I’m not any more.
I think you’re the dearest girl!”
“Oh!” cried Cynthia.
“I am so glad! But will G. G.’s father
like me too?”
“He has never yet failed,”
said G. G.’s mother, “to like with his
whole heart anything that was stainless and beautiful.”
“Is he like G. G.?”
“He has the same beautiful round
head, but he has a rugged look that G. G. will never
have. He has a lion look. He might have been
a terrible tyrant if he hadn’t happened, instead,
to be a saint.”
And she showed Cynthia, side by side,
pictures of the father and the boy.
“They have such valiant eyes!” said Cynthia.
“There is nothing base in my young men,”
said G. G.’s mother.
Then the two women got right down
to business and began an interminable conversation
of praise. And sometimes G. G.’s mother’s
eyes cried a little while the rest of her face smiled
and she prattled like a brook. And the meeting
ended with a great hug, in which G. G.’s mother’s
tiny feet almost parted company with the floor.
And it was arranged that they two should fly up to
Saranac and be with
G. G. for a day.
IV
It wasn’t from shame that G.
G. signed another name than his own to the stories
that he was making at the rate of one every two months.
He judged calmly and dispassionately that they were
“going to be pretty good some day,” and
that it would never be necessary for him to live in
a city. He signed his stories with an assumed
name because he was full of dramatic instinct.
He wanted to be able just the minute he
was well to say to Cynthia:
“Let us be married!” Then
she was to say: “Of course, G. G.; but what
are we going to live on?” And G. G. was going
to say: “Ever hear of so-and-so?”
CYNTHIA: Goodness gracious!
Sakes alive! Yes; I should think I had! And,
except for you, darlingest G. G., I think he’s
the very greatest man in all the world!
G. G.: Goosey-Gander, know that
he and I are one and the same person and
that we’ve saved seventeen hundred dollars to
get married on!
(Tableau not to be seen by the audience.)
So far as keeping Cynthia and his
father and mother in ignorance of the fledgling wings
he was beginning to flap, G. G. succeeded admirably;
but it might have been better to have told them all
in the beginning.
Now G. G.’s seventeen hundred
dollars was a huge myth. He was writing short
stories at the rate of six a year and he had picked
out to do business with one of the most dignified
magazines in the world. Dignified people do not
squander money. The magazine in question paid
G. G. from sixty to seventy dollars apiece for his
stories and was much too dignified to inform him that
plenty of other magazines very frivolous
and not in the least dignified would have
been ashamed to pay so little for anything but the
poems, which all magazines use to fill up blank spaces.
So, even in his own ambitious and courageous mind,
a “married living” seemed a very long
way off.
He refused to be discouraged, however.
His health was too good for that. The doctor
pointed to him with pride as a patient who followed
instructions to the letter and was not going to die
of the disease which had brought him to Saranac.
And they wrote to G. G’s father who
was finding life very expensive that, if
he could keep G. G. at Saranac, or almost anywhere
out of New York, for another year or two, they guaranteed as
much as human doctors can that G. G. would
then be as sound as a bell and fit to live anywhere.
This pronouncement was altogether
too much of a good thing for Fate. As G. G’s
father walked up-town from his office, Fate raised
a dust in his face which, in addition to the usual
ingredients of city dust, contained at least one thoroughly
compatible pair of pneumonia germs. These went
for their honey-moon on a pleasant, warm journey up
G. G’s father’s left nostril and to house-keeping
in his lungs. In a few hours they raised a family
of several hundred thousand bouncing baby germs; and
these grew up in a few minutes and began to set up
establishments of their own right and left.
G. G.’s father admitted that
he had a “heavy cold on the chest.”
It was such a heavy cold that he became delirious,
and doctors came and sent for nurses; and there was
laid in the home of G. G.’s father the corner-stone
of a large edifice of financial disaster.
He had never had a partner. His
practice came to a dead halt. The doctors whom
G. G.’s mother called in were, of course, the
best she had ever heard of. They would have been
leaders of society if their persons had been as fashionable
as their prices. The corner drug store made its
modest little profit of three or four hundred per cent
on the drugs which were telephoned for daily.
The day nurse rolled up twenty-five dollars a week
and the night nurse thirty-five. The servant’s
wages continued as usual. The price of beef,
eggs, vegetables, etc., rose. The interest
on the mortgage fell due. And it is a wonder,
considering how much he worried, that G. G.’s
father ever lived to face his obligations.
Cynthia, meanwhile, having heard that
G. G. was surely going to get well, was so happy that
she couldn’t contain the news. And she proceeded
to divulge it to her father.
“Papa,” she said, “I
think I ought to tell you that years ago, at Saranac that
Christmas when I went up with the Andersons I
met the man that I am going to marry. He was
a boy then; but now we’re both grown up and
we feel just the same about each other.”
And she told her father G. G.’s
name and that he had been very delicate, but that
he was surely going to get well. Cynthia’s
father, who had always given her everything she asked
for until now, was not at all enthusiastic.
“I can’t prevent your
marrying any one you determine to marry, Cynthia,”
he said. “Can this young man support a wife?”
“How could he!” she exclaimed “living
at Saranac and not being able to work, and not having
any money to begin with! But surely, if the way
we live is any criterion, you could spare us
some money couldn’t you?”
“You wish me to say that I will
support a delicate son-in-law whom I have never seen?
Consult your intelligence, Cynthia.”
“I have my allowance,” she said, her lips
curling.
“Yes,” said her father, “while you
live at home and do as you’re told.”
“Now, papa, don’t tell
me that you’re going to behave like a lugubrious
parent in a novel! Don’t tell me that you
are going to cut me off with a shilling!”
“I shan’t do that,”
he said gravely; “it will be without a shilling.”
But he tempered this savage statement with a faint
smile.
“Papa, dear, is this quite definite?
Are you talking in your right mind and do you really
mean what you say?”
“Suppose you talk the matter
over with your mother she’s always
indulged you in every way. See what she says.”
It developed that neither of Cynthia’s
parents was enthusiastic at the prospect of her marrying
a nameless young man she had told them his
name, but that was all she got for her pains who
hadn’t a penny and who had had consumption,
and might or might not be sound again. Personally
they did not believe that consumption can be cured.
It can be arrested for a time, they admitted, but
it always comes back. Cynthia’s mother
even made a physiological attack on Cynthia’s
understanding, with the result that Cynthia turned
indignantly pink and left the room, saying:
“If the doctor thinks it’s
perfectly right and proper for us to marry I don’t
see the least point in listening to the opinions of
excited and prejudiced amateurs.”
The ultimatum that she had from her
parents was distinct, final, and painful.
“Marry him if you like.
We will neither forgive you nor support you.”
They were perfectly calm with her cool,
affectionate, sensible, and worldly, as it is right
and proper for parents to be. She told them they
were wrong-headed, old-fashioned, and unintelligent;
but as long as they hadn’t made scenes and talked
loud she found that she couldn’t help loving
them almost as much as she always had; but she loved
G. G. very much more. And having definitely decided
to defy her family, to marry G. G. and live happily
ever afterward, she consulted her check-book and discovered
that her available munition of war was something less
than five hundred dollars most of it owed
to her dress-maker.
“Well, well!” she said;
“she’s always had plenty of money from
me; she can afford to wait.”
And Cynthia wrote to her dress-maker,
who was also her friend!
MY DEAR CELESTE: I have decided
that you will have to afford to wait for your
money. I have an enterprise in view which calls
for all the available capital I have. Please
write me a nice note and say that you don’t
mind a bit. Otherwise we shall stop being friends
and I shall always get my clothes from somebody else.
Let me know when the new models come....
V
On her way down-town Cynthia stopped
to see G. G.’s mother and found the whole household
in the throes occasioned by its head’s pneumonia.
“Why haven’t you let me
know?” exclaimed Cynthia. “There must
be so many little things that I could have done to
help you.”
Though the sick man couldn’t
have heard them if they had shouted, the two women
talked in whispers, with their heads very close together.
“He’s better,” said
G. G.’s mother, “but yesterday they wanted
me to send for G. G. ‘No,’ I said.
’You may have given him up, but I haven’t.
If I send for my boy it would look as if I had surrendered,’
And almost at once, if you’ll believe it, he
seemed to shake off something that was trying to strangle
him and took a turn for the better; and now they say
that, barring some long names, he will get well....
It does look, my dear, as if death had seen that there
was no use facing a thoroughly determined woman.”
At this point, because she was very
much overwrought, G. G.’s mother had a mild
little attack of hysteria; and Cynthia beat her on
the back and shook her and kissed her until she was
over it. Then G. G.’s mother told Cynthia
about her financial troubles.
“It isn’t us that matters,”
she said, “but that G. G. ought to have one
more year in a first-rate climate; and it isn’t
going to be possible to give it to him. They
say that he’s well, my dear, absolutely well;
but that now he should have a chance to build up and
become strong and heavy, so that he can do a man’s
work in the world. As it is, we shall have to
take him home to live; and you know what New York dust
and climate can do to people who have been very, very
ill and are still delicate and high-strung.”
“There’s only one thing
to do for the present,” said Cynthia “anybody
with the least notion of business knows that we
must keep him at Saranac just as long as our credit
holds out, mustn’t we? until the
woman where he boards begins to act ugly and threatens
to turn him out in the snow.”
“Oh, but that would be dreadful!”
said G. G.’s mother. Cynthia smiled in
a superior way.
“I don’t believe,”
she said, “that you understand the first thing
about business. Even my father, who is a prude
about bills, says that all the business of the country
is done on credit.... Now you’re not going
to be silly, are you? and make G. G. come
to New York before he has to?”
“It will have to be pretty soon,
I’m afraid,” said G. G.’s mother.
“Sooner than run such risks
with any boy of mine,” said Cynthia, with a
high color, “I’d beg, I’d borrow,
I’d forge, I’d lie I’d
steal!”
“Don’t I know you would!”
exclaimed G. G.’s mother. “My darling
girl, you’ve got the noblest character it’s
just shining in your eyes!”
“There’s another thing,”
said Cynthia: “I have to go down-town now
on business, but you must telephone me around five
o’clock and tell me how G. G.’s father
is. And you must spend all your time between now
and then trying to think up something really useful
that I can do to help you. And” here
Cynthia became very mysterious “I
forbid you to worry about money until I tell you to!”
Cynthia had a cousin in Wall Street;
his name was Jarrocks Bell. He was twenty years
older than Cynthia and he had been fond of her ever
since she was born. He was a great, big, good-looking
man, gruff without and tender within. Clever
people, who hadn’t made successful brokers,
wondered how in the face of what they called his “obvious
stupidity” Jarrocks Bell had managed to grow
rich in Wall Street. The answer was obvious enough
to any one who knew him intimately. To begin with,
his stupidity was superficial. In the second
place, he had studied bonds and stocks until he knew
a great deal about them. Then, though a drinking
man, he had a head like iron and was never moved by
exhilaration to mention his own or anybody else’s
affairs. Furthermore, he was unscrupulously honest.
He was so honest and blunt that people thought him
brutal at times. Last and not least among the
elements of his success was the fact that he himself
never speculated.
When the big men found out that there
was in Wall Street a broker who didn’t speculate
himself, who didn’t drink to excess, who was
absolutely honest, and who never opened his mouth
when it was better shut, they began to patronize that
man’s firm. In short, the moment Jarrocks
Bell’s qualities were discovered, Jarrocks Bell
was made. So that now, in speculative years,
his profits were enormous.
Cynthia had always been fond of her
big, blunt cousin, as he of her; and in her present
trouble her thoughts flew to him as straight as a homing
aeroplane to the landing-stage.
Even a respectable broker’s
office is a noisome, embarrassing place, and among
the clients are men whose eyes have become popped from
staring at paper-tapes and pretty girls; but Cynthia
had no more fear of men than a farmer’s daughter
has of cows, and she flashed through Jarrocks’s
outer office preceded by a very small boy with
her color unchanged and only her head a little higher
than usual.
Jarrocks must have wondered to the
point of vulgar curiosity what the deuce had brought
Cynthia to see him in the busiest hour of a very busy
day; but he said “Hello, Cynthia!” as naturally
as if they two had been visiting in the same house
and he had come face to face with her for the third
or fourth time that morning.
“I suppose,” said Cynthia,
“that you are dreadfully busy; but, Jarrocks
dear, my affairs are so much more important to me than
yours can possibly be to you do you mind?”
“May I smoke?”
“Of course.”
“Then I don’t mind. What’s
your affair, Cynthia money or the heart?”
“Both, Jarrocks.”
And she told him pretty much what the reader has already
learned. As for Jarrocks’s listening, he
was a perfect study of himself. He laughed gruffly
when he ought to have cried; and when Cynthia tried
to be a little humorous he looked very solemn and not
unlike the big bronze Buddha of the Japanese.
Inside, however, his big heart was full of compassion
and tenderness for his favorite girl in all the world.
Nobody will ever know just how fond Jarrocks was of
Cynthia. It was one of those matters on which owing,
perhaps, to his being her senior by twenty years he
had always thought it best to keep his mouth shut.
“What’s your plan?”
he asked. “Where do I come in? I’ll
give you anything I’ve got.” Cynthia
waived the offer; it was a little unwelcome.
“I’ve got about five hundred
dollars,” she said, “and I want to speculate
with it and make a lot of money, so that I can be independent
of papa and mamma.”
“Lots of people,” said
Jarrocks, “come to Wall Street with five hundred
dollars, more or less, and they wish to be independent
of papa and mamma. They end up by going to live
in the Mills Hotel.”
“I know,” said Cynthia;
“but this is really important. If G. G.
could work it would be different.”
“Tell me one thing,” said
Jarrocks: “If you weren’t in love
with G. G. what would you think of him as a candidate
for your very best friend’s hand?”
Cynthia counted ten before answering.
“Jarrocks, dear,” she
said and he turned away from the meltingness
of her lovely face “he’s so
pure, he’s so straight, he’s so gentle
and so brave, that I don’t really think I can
tell you what I think of him.”
There was silence for a moment, then
Jarrocks said gruffly:
“That’s a clean-enough
bill of health. Guess you can bring him into the
family, Cynthia.”
Then he drummed with his thick, stubby
fingers on the arm of his chair.
“The idea,” he said at
last, “is to turn five hundred dollars into a
fortune. You know I don’t speculate.”
“But you make it easy for other people?”
He nodded.
“If you’d come a year
ago,” he said, “I’d have sent you
away. Just at the present moment your proposition
isn’t the darn-fool thing it sounds.”
“I knew you’d agree with
me,” said Cynthia complacently. “I
knew you’d put me into something that was going
’way up.”
Jarrocks snorted.
“Prices are at about the highest
level they’ve ever struck and money was never
more expensive. I think we’re going to see
such a tumble in values as was never seen before.
It almost tempts me to come out of my shell and take
a flyer if I lose your five hundred for
you, you won’t squeal, Cynthia?”
“Of course not.”
“Then I’ll tell you what
I think. There’s nothing certain in this
business, but if ever there was a chance to turn five
hundred dollars into big money it’s now.
You’ve entered Wall Street, Cynthia, at what
looks to me like the psychological moment.”
“That’s a good omen,”
said Cynthia. “I believe we shall succeed.
And I leave everything to you.”
Then she wrote him a check for all
the money she had in the world. He held it between
his thumb and forefinger while the ink dried.
“By the way, Cynthia,”
he said, “do you want the account to stand in
your own name?”
She thought a moment, then laughed
and told him to put it in the name of G. G.’s
mother. “But you must report to me how things
go,” she said.
Jarrocks called a clerk and gave him
an order to sell something or other. In three
minutes the clerk reported that “it” just
some letter of the alphabet had been sold
at such and such a price.
For another five minutes Jarrocks
denied himself to all visitors. Then he called
for another report on the stock which he had just caused
to be sold. It was selling “off a half.”
“Well, Cynthia,” said
Jarrocks, “you’re fifty dollars richer
than when you came. Now I’ve got to tell
you to go. I’ll look out for your interests
as if they were my own.”
And Jarrocks, looking rather stupid
and bored, conducted Cynthia through his outer offices
and put her into an elevator “going down.”
Her face vanished and his heart continued to mumble
and grumble, just the way a tooth does when it is
getting ready to ache.
Cynthia had entered Wall Street at
an auspicious moment. Stocks were at that high
level from which they presently tumbled to the panic
quotations of nineteen-seven. And Jarrocks, whom
the unsuccessful thought so very stupid, had made
a very shrewd guess as to what was going to happen.
Two weeks later he wrote Cynthia that
if she could use two or three thousand dollars she
could have them, without troubling her balance very
perceptibly.
“I thought you had a chance,”
he wrote. “I’m beginning to think
it’s a sure thing! Keep a stiff upper lip
and first thing you know you’ll have the laugh
on mamma and papa. Give ’em my best regards.”
VI
If it is wicked to gamble Cynthia
was wicked. If it is wicked to lie Cynthia was
wicked. If the money that comes out of Wall Street
belonged originally to widows and orphans, why, that
is the kind of money which she amassed for her own
selfish purposes. Worst of all, on learning from
Jarrocks that the Rainbow’s Foot where
the pot of gold is was almost in sight,
this bad, wicked girl’s sensations were those
of unmixed triumph and delight!
The panic of nineteen-seven is history
now. Plenty of people who lost their money during
those exciting months can explain to you how any fool,
with the least luck, could have made buckets of it
instead.
As a snowball rolling down a hill
of damp snow swells to gigantic proportions, so Cynthia’s
five hundred dollars descended the long slopes of
nineteen-seven, doubling itself at almost every turn.
And when, at last, values had so shrunk that it looked
to Jarrocks as if they could not shrink any more,
he told her that her account which stood
in the name of G. G.’s mother was
worth nearly four hundred thousand dollars. “And
I think,” he said, “that, if you now buy
stocks outright and hold them as investments, your
money will double again.”
So they put their heads together and
Cynthia bought some Union Pacific at par and some
Steel Common in the careless twenties, and other standard
securities that were begging, almost with tears in
their eyes, to be bought and cared for by somebody.
She had the certificates of what she bought made out
in the name of G. G.’s mother. And she went
up-town and found G. G.’s mother alone, and
said:
“Oh, my dear! If anybody
ever finds out you will catch it!”
G. G.’s mother knew there was
a joke of some kind preparing at her expense, but
she couldn’t help looking a little puzzled and
anxious.
“It’s bad enough to do
what you have done,” continued Cynthia; “but
on top of it to be going to lie up and down that
does seem a little too awful!”
“What are you going to tell
me?” cried G. G.’s mother. “I
know you’ve got some good news up your sleeve!”
“Gambler!” cried Cynthia “cold-blooded,
reckless Wall Street speculator!” And the laughter
that was pent up in her face burst its bonds, accompanied
by hugs and kisses.
“Now listen!” said Cynthia,
as soon as she could. “On such and such
a day, you took five hundred dollars to a Wall Street
broker named Jarrocks Bell you thought
that conditions were right for turning into a Bear.
You went short of the market. You kept it up for
weeks and months. Do you know what you did?
You pyramided on the way down!”
“Mercy!” exclaimed G.
G.’s mother, her eyes shining with wonder and
excitement.
“First thing you knew,”
continued Cynthia, “you were worth four hundred
thousand dollars!”
G. G.’s mother gave a little
scream, as if she had seen a mouse.
“And you invested it,”
went on Cynthia, relenting, “so that now you
stand to double your capital; and your annual income
is between thirty and forty thousand dollars!”
After this Cynthia really did some
explaining, until G. G.’s mother really understood
what had really happened. It must be recorded
that, at first, she was completely flabbergasted.
“And you’ve gone and put
it in my name!” she said. “But why?”
“Don’t you see,”
said Cynthia, “that if I came offering money
to G. G. and G. G.’s father they wouldn’t
even sniff at it? But if you’ve got it why,
they’ve just got to share with you. Isn’t
that so?”
“Y-e-e-s,” admitted G.
G.’s mother; “but, my dear, I can’t
take it. Even if I could, they would want to
know where I’d gotten it and I’d have
nothing to say.”
“Not if you’re the one
woman in a million that I think you are,” said
Cynthia. “Tell me, isn’t your husband
at his wit’s end to think how to meet the bills
for his illness and all and all? And wouldn’t
you raise your finger to bring all his miserable worries
to an end? Just look at the matter from a business
point of view! You must tell your husband and
G. G. that what has really happened to me happened
to you; that you were desperate; that you took the
five hundred dollars to speculate with, and that this
is the result.”
“But that wouldn’t be true,” said
G. G.’s mother.
“For mercy’s sake,”
said Cynthia, “what has the truth got to do with
it! This isn’t a matter of religion or
martyrdom; it’s a matter of business! How
to put an end to my husband’s troubles and to
enable my son to marry the girl he loves? that’s
your problem; and the solution is lie!
Whom can the money come from if not from you?
Not from me certainly. You must lie! You’d
better begin in the dark, where your husband can’t
see your face because I’m afraid
you don’t know how very well. But after
a time it will get easy; and when you’ve told
him the story two or three times with details you’ll
end by believing it yourself.... And, of course,”
she added, “you must make over half of the securities
to G. G., so that he will have enough money to support
a wife.”
For two hours Cynthia wrestled with
G. G.’s mother’s conscience; but, when
at last the struggling creature was thrown, the two
women literally took it by the hair and dragged it
around the room and beat it until it was deaf, dumb,
and blind.
And when G. G.’s father came
home G. G.’s mother met him in the hall that
was darkish, and hid her face against his and
lied to him! And as she lied the years began
to fall from the shoulders of G. G.’s father to
the number of ten.
VII
Cynthia was also met in a front hall but
by her father.
“I’ve been looking for
you, Cynthia,” he said gravely. “I
want to talk to you and get your advice no;
the library is full of smoke come in here.”
He led her into the drawing-room,
which neither of them could remember ever having sat
in before.
“I’ve been talking with
a young gentleman,” said her father without
further preliminaries, “who made himself immensely
interesting to me. To begin with, I never saw
a handsomer, more engaging specimen of young manhood;
and, in the second place, he is the author of some
stories that I have enjoyed in the past year more
than any one’s except O. Henry’s.
He doesn’t write over his own name but
that’s neither here nor there.
“He came to me for advice.
Why he selected me, a total stranger, will appear
presently. His family isn’t well off; and,
though he expects to succeed in literature and
there’s no doubt of it in my mind he
feels that he ought to give it up and go into something
in which the financial prospects are brighter.
I suggested a rich wife, but that seemed to hurt his
feelings. He said it would be bad enough to marry
a girl that had more than he had; but to marry a rich
girl, when he had only the few hundreds a year that
he can make writing stories, was an intolerable thought.
And that’s all the more creditable to him because,
from what I can gather, he is desperately in love and
the girl is potentially rich.”
“But,” said Cynthia, “what have
I to do with all this?”
Her father laughed. “This
young fellow didn’t come to me of his own accord.
I sent for him. And I must tell you that, contrary
to my expectations, I was charmed with him. If
I had had a son I should wish him to be just like
this youngster.”
Cynthia was very much puzzled.
“He writes stories?” she said.
“Bully stories! But he takes so much pains
that his output is small.”
“Well,” said she, “what did you
tell him?”
“I told him to wait.”
“That’s conservative advice.”
“As a small boy,” said
her father, “he was very delicate; but now he’s
as sound as a bell and he looks as strong as an elk.”
Cynthia rose to her feet, trembling slightly.
“What was the matter with him when
he was delicate?”
“Consumption.”
She became as it were taller and vivid
with beauty.
“Where is he?”
“In the library.”
Cynthia put her hands on her father’s shoulders.
“It’s all right,”
she said; “his family has come into quite a lot
of money. He doesn’t know it yet.
They’re going to give him enough to marry on.
You still think he ought to marry don’t
you?”
They kissed.
Cynthia flew out of the room, across the hall, and
into the library.
They kissed!