Hazel, as she was borne along, her
lovely hair streaming in the wind and lashing her
across the face and eyes now and again, breath coming
painfully, eyes smarting, fingers aching in the vise-like
hold she was compelled to keep upon the saddle, began
to wonder just how long she could hold out. It
seemed to her it was a matter of minutes only when
she must let go and be whirled into space while the
tempestuous steed sped on and left her.
Nothing like this motion had ever
come into her experience before. She had been
run away with once, but that was like a cradle to this
tornado of motion. She had been frightened before,
but never like this. The blood pounded in her
head and eyes until it seemed it would burst forth,
and now and again the surging of it through her ears
gave the sensation of drowning, yet on and on she
went. It was horrible to have no bridle, and
nothing to say about where she should go, no chance
to control her horse. It was like being on an
express train with the engineer dead in his cab and
no way to get to the brakes. They must stop some
time and what then? Death seemed inevitable,
and yet as the mad rush continued she almost wished
it might come and end the horror of this ride.
It seemed hours before she began to
realize that the horse was no longer going at quite
such a breakneck speed, or else she was growing accustomed
to the motion and getting her breath, she could not
quite be sure which. But little by little she
perceived that the mad flying had settled into a long
lope. The pony evidently had no intention of
stopping and it was plain that he had some distinct
place in mind to which he was going as straight and
determinedly as any human being ever laid out a course
and forged ahead in it. There was that about his
whole beastly contour that showed it was perfectly
useless to try to deter him from it or to turn him
aside.
When her breath came less painfully,
Hazel made a fitful little attempt to drop a quiet
word of reason into his ear.
“Nice pony, nice, good pony !”
she soothed, but the wind caught her voice and flung
it aside as it had flung her cap a few moments before,
and the pony only laid his ears back and fled stolidly
on.
She gathered her forces again.
“Nice pony! Whoa, sir!”
she cried, a little louder than the last time and
trying to make her voice sound firm and commanding.
But the pony had no intention of “whoa-ing,”
and though she repeated the command many times, her
voice growing each time more firm and normal, he only
showed the whites of his eyes at her and continued
doggedly on his way.
She saw it was useless; and the tears,
usually with her under fine control, came streaming
down her white cheeks.
“Pony, good horse, dear
pony, won’t you stop!” she cried and her
words ended with a sob. But still the pony kept
on.
The desert fled about her yet seemed
to grow no shorter ahead, and the dark line of cloud
mystery, with the towering mountains beyond, were no
nearer than when she first started. It seemed
much like riding on a rocking-horse, one never got
anywhere, only no rocking-horse flew at such a speed.
Yet she realized now that the pace
was much modified from what it had been at first,
and the pony’s motion was not hard. If she
had not been so stiff and sore in every joint and
muscle with the terrible tension she had kept up the
riding would not have been at all bad. But she
was conscious of most terrible weariness, a longing
to drop down on the sand of the desert and rest, not
caring whether she ever went on again or not.
She had never felt such terrible weariness in her life.
She could hold on now with one hand,
and relax the muscles of the other a little.
She tried with one hand presently to do something with
that sweeping pennant of hair that lashed her in the
face so unexpectedly now and then, but could only
succeed in twisting it about her neck and tucking
the ends into the neck of her riding habit; and from
this frail binding it soon slipped free again.
She was conscious of the heat of the
sun on her bare head, the smarting of her eyes.
The pain in her chest was subsiding, and she could
breathe freely again, but her heart felt tired, so
tired, and she wanted to lie down and cry. Would
she never get anywhere and be helped?
How soon would her father and brother
miss her and come after her? When she dared she
looked timidly behind, and then again more lingeringly,
but there was nothing to be seen but the same awful
stretch of distance with mountains of bright colour
in the boundaries everywhere; not a living thing but
herself and the pony to be seen. It was awful.
Somewhere between herself and the mountains behind
was the place she had started from, but the bright
sun shone steadily, hotly down and shimmered back
again from the bright earth, and nothing broke the
awful repose of the lonely space. It was as if
she had suddenly been caught up and flung out into
a world where was no other living being.
Why did they not come after her?
Surely, surely, pretty soon she would see them coming.
They would spur their horses on when they found she
had been run away with. Her father and brother
would not leave her long in this horrible plight.
Then it occurred to her that her father
and brother had been for some time out of sight ahead
before she began her race. They would not know
she was gone, at once; but of course Mr. Hamar would
do something. He would not leave her helpless.
The habit of years of trusting him assured her of
that. For the instant she had forgotten the cause
of her flight. Then suddenly she remembered it
with sickening thought. He who had been to her
a brave fine hero, suffering daily through the carelessness
of a wife who did not understand him, had stepped
down from his pedestal and become the lowest of the
low. He had dared to kiss her! He had said
he would marry her-he,-a married
man! Her whole soul revolted against him again,
and now she was glad she had run away-glad
the horse had taken her so far-glad she
had shown him how terrible the whole thing looked
to her. She was even glad that her father and
brother were far away too, for the present, until
she should adjust herself to life once more. How
could she have faced them after what happened?
How could she ever live in the same world with that
man again,-that fallen hero? How could
she ever have thought so much of him? She had
almost worshipped him, and had been so pleased when
he had seemed to enjoy her company, and complimented
her by telling her she had whiled away a weary hour
for him! And he? He had been meaning-this-all
the time! He had looked at her with that thought
in his mind! Oh-awful degradation!
There was something so revolting in
the memory of his voice and face as he had told her
that she closed her eyes and shuddered as she recalled
it, and once more the tears went coursing down her
cheeks and she sobbed aloud, piteously, her head bowing
lower and lower over the pony’s neck, her bright
hair falling down about her shoulders and beating against
the animal’s breast and knees as he ran, her
stiffened fingers clutching his mane to keep her balance,
her whole weary little form drooping over his neck
in a growing exhaustion, her entire being swept by
alternate waves of anger, revulsion and fear.
Perhaps all this had its effect on
the beast; perhaps somewhere in his make-up there
lay a spot, call it instinct or what you please, that
vibrated in response to the distress of the human creature
he carried. Perhaps the fact that she was in
trouble drew his sympathy, wicked little willful imp
though he usually was. Certain it is that he began
to slacken his pace decidedly, until at last he was
walking, and finally stopped short and turned his
head about with a troubled neigh as if to ask her
what was the matter.
The sudden cessation of the motion
almost threw her from her seat; and with new fear
gripping her heart she clutched the pony’s mane
the tighter and looked about her trembling. She
was conscious more than anything else of the vast
spaces about her in every direction, of the loneliness
of the spot, and her own desolate condition. She
had wanted the horse to stop and let her get down
to solid ground, and now that he had done so and she
might dismount a great horror filled her and she dared
not. But with the lessening of the need for keeping
up the tense strain of nerve and muscle, she suddenly
began to feel that she could not sit up any longer,
that she must lie down, let go this awful strain,
stop this uncontrollable trembling which was quivering
all over her body.
The pony, too, seemed wondering, impatient
that she did not dismount at once. He turned
his nose towards her again with a questioning snuff
and snort, and showed the wicked whites of his eyes
in wild perplexity. Then a panic seized her.
What if he should start to run again? She would
surely be thrown this time, for her strength was almost
gone. She must get down and in some way gain
possession of the bridle. With the bridle she
might perhaps hope to guide his movements, and make
further wild riding impossible.
Slowly, painfully, guardedly, she
took her foot from the stirrup and slipped to the
ground. Her cramped feet refused to hold her weight
for the moment and she tottered and went into a little
heap on the ground. The pony, feeling his duty
for the present done, sidled away from her and began
cropping the grass hungrily.
The girl sank down wearily at full
length upon the ground and for a moment it seemed
to her she could never rise again. She was too
weary to lift her hand or to move the foot that was
twisted under her into a more comfortable position,
too weary to even think. Then suddenly the sound
of the animal moving steadily away from her roused
her to the necessity of securing him. If he should
get away in this wide desolation she would be helpless
indeed.
She gathered her flagging energy and
got painfully upon her feet. The horse was nearly
a rod away, and moving slowly, steadily, as he ate,
with now and then a restless lifting of his head to
look off into the distance and take a few determined
steps before he stopped for another bite. That
horse had something on his mind and was going straight
towards it. She felt that he cared little what
became of her. She must look out for herself.
This was something she had never had to do before;
but the instinct came with the need.
Slowly, tremblingly, feeling her weakness,
she stole towards him, a bunch of grass in her hand
she had plucked as she came, holding it obviously
as she had fed a lump of sugar or an apple to her finely
groomed mare in New York. But the grass she held
was like all the grass about him, and the pony had
not been raised a pet. He tossed his nose energetically
and scornfully as she drew near and hastened on a pace
or two.
Cautiously she came on again talking
to him gently, pleadingly, complimentarily: “Nice
good horsey! Pretty pony so he was!” But
he only edged away again.
And so they went on for some little
way until Hazel almost despaired of catching him at
all, and was becoming more and more aware of the vastness
of the universe about her, and the smallness of her
own being.
At last, however, her fingers touched
the bridle, she felt the pony’s quick jerk,
strained every muscle to hold on, and found she had
conquered. He was in her hands. For how long
was a question, for he was strong enough to walk away
and drag her by the bridle perhaps, and she knew little
about tricks of management. Moreover her muscles
were so flabby and sore with the long ride that she
was ill-fitted to cope with the wise and wicked little
beast. She dreaded to get upon his back again,
and doubted if she could if she tried, but it seemed
the only way to get anywhere, or to keep company with
the pony, for she could not hope to detain him by
mere physical force if he decided otherwise.
She stood beside him for a moment,
looking about her over the wide distance. Everything
looked alike, and different from anything she had
ever seen before. She must certainly get on that
pony’s back, for her fear of the desert became
constantly greater. It was almost as if it would
snatch her away in a moment more if she stayed there
longer, and carry her into vaster realms of space
where her soul would be lost in infinitude. She
had never been possessed by any such feeling before
and it frightened her unreasoningly.
Turning to the pony, she measured
the space from the ground to the queer saddle and
wondered how people mounted such things without a groom.
When she had mounted that morning it had been Milton
Hamar’s strong arm that swung her into the saddle,
and his hand that held her foot for the instant of
her spring. The memory of it now sent a shudder
of dislike over her whole body. If she had known,
he never should have touched her! The blood mounted
uncomfortably into her tired face, and made her conscious
of the heat of the day, and of a burning thirst.
She must go on and get to some water somewhere.
She could not stand this much longer.
Carefully securing the bridle over
her arm she reached up and took hold of the saddle,
doubtfully at first, and then desperately; tried to
reach the stirrup with one foot, failed and tried
again; and then wildly struggling, jumping, kicking,
she vainly sought to climb back to the saddle.
But the pony was not accustomed to such a demonstration
at mounting and he strongly objected. Tossing
his head he reared and dashed off, almost throwing
the girl to the ground and frightening her terribly.
Nevertheless the desperation of her
situation gave her strength for a fresh trial, and
she struggled up again, and almost gained her seat,
when the pony began a series of circles which threw
her down and made her dizzy with trying to keep up
with him.
Thus they played the desperate game
for half an hour more. Twice the girl lost the
bridle and had to get it again by stealthy wiles, and
once she was almost on the point of giving up, so
utterly exhausted was she.
But the pony was thirsty too, and
he must have decided that the quickest way to water
would be to let her mount; for finally with lifted
head he stood stock still and let her struggle up
his side; and at last, well-nigh falling from sheer
weariness, she sat astonished that she had accomplished
it. She was on his back, and she would never dare
to get down again, she thought, until she got somewhere
to safety. But now the animal, his courage renewed
by the bite he had taken, started snorting off at
a rapid pace once more, very nearly upsetting his rider
at the start, and almost losing her the bridle once
more. She sat trembling, and gripping bridle
and saddle for some time, having enough to do to keep
her seat without trying to direct her bearer, and then
she saw before her a sudden descent, steep but not
very long, and at its bottom a great puddle of dirty
water. The pony paused only an instant on the
brink and then began the descent. The girl cried
out with fear, but managed to keep her seat, and the
impatient animal was soon ankle deep in the water
drinking long and blissfully.
Hazel sat looking in dismay about
her. The water-hole seemed to be entirely surrounded
by steep banks like that they had descended, and there
was no way out except to return. Could the horse
climb up with her on his back? And could she
keep her seat? She grew cold with fear at the
thought, for all her riding experience had been on
the level, and she had become more and more conscious
of her flagging strength.
Besides, the growing thirst was becoming
awful. Oh, for just one drop of that water that
the pony was enjoying! Black and dirty as it was
she felt she could drink it. But it was out of
her reach and she dared not get down. Suddenly
a thought came to her. She would wet her handkerchief
and moisten her lips with that. If she stooped
over quite carefully she might be able to let it down
far enough to touch the water.
She pulled the small bit of linen
from the tiny pocket of her habit and the pony, as
if to help her, waded into the water farther until
her skirt almost touched it. Now she found that
by putting her arm about the pony’s neck she
could dip most of her handkerchief in the water, and
dirty as it was it was most refreshing to bathe her
face and hands and wrists and moisten her lips.
But the pony when he had his fill
had no mind to tarry, and with a splash, a plunge
and a wallow that gave the girl an unexpected shower
bath, he picked his way out of the hole and up the
rocky side of the descent, while she clung frightened
to the saddle and wondered if she could possibly hang
on until they were up on the mesa again. The dainty
handkerchief dropped in the flight floated pitifully
on the muddy water, another bit of comfort left behind.
But when they were up and away again,
what with the fright, and the fact that they had come
out of the hole on the opposite side from that which
they had entered it, the girl had lost all sense of
direction, and everywhere stretched away one vast
emptiness edged with mountains that stood out clear,
cold and unfriendly.
The whole atmosphere of the earth
seemed to have changed while they were down at the
drinking hole, for now the shadows were long and had
almost a menacing attitude as they crept along or
leaped sideways after the travellers. Hazel noticed
with a startled glance at the sky that the sun was
low and would soon be down. And that of course
where the sun hung like a great burning opal must
be the west, but that told her nothing, for the sun
had been high in the heavens when they had started,
and she had taken no note of direction. East,
west, north or south were all one to her in her happy
care-free life that she had hitherto led. She
tried to puzzle it out and remember which way they
had turned from the railroad but grew more bewildered,
and the brilliant display in the west flamed alarmingly
as she realized that night was coming on and she was
lost on a great desert with only a wild tired little
pony for company, hungry and thirsty and weary beyond
anything she had ever dreamed before.
They had been going down into a broad
valley for some little time, which made the night
seem even nearer. Hazel would have turned her
horse back and tried to retrace her steps, but that
he would not, for try as she might, and turn him as
she would he circled about and soon was in the same
course again, so that now the tired hands could only
hold the reins stiffly and submit to be carried where
the pony willed. It was quite evident he had
a destination in view, and knew the way thereto.
Hazel had read of the instinct of animals. She
began to hope that he would presently bring her to
a human habitation where she would find help to get
to her father once more.
But suddenly even the glory of the
dying sun was lost as the horse entered the dimness
of the canyon opening, whose high walls of red stone,
rising solemnly on either hand, were serrated here
and there with long transverse lines of grasses and
tree-ferns growing in the crevices, and higher up
appeared the black openings of caves mysterious and
fearsome in the twilight gloom. The way ahead
loomed darkly. Somewhere from out the memories
of her childhood came a phrase from the church-service
to which she had never given conscious attention, but
which flashed vividly to mind now: “Though
I walk through the valley of the shadow-the
Valley of the Shadow!” Surely this must be it.
She wished she could remember the rest of it.
What could it have meant? She shivered visibly,
and looked about her with wild eyes.
The cottonwoods and oaks grew thickly
at the base of the cliffs, almost concealing them
sometimes, and above the walls rose dark and towering.
The way was rough and slippery, filled with great boulders
and rocks, around which the pony picked his way without
regard to the branches of trees that swept her face
and caught in her long hair as they went by.
Vainly she strove to guide him back,
but he turned only to whirl again, determinedly.
Somewhere in the deep gloom ahead he had a destination
and no mere girl was to deter him from reaching it
as soon as possible. It was plain to his horse-mind
that his rider did not know what she wanted, and he
did, so there were no two ways about it. He intended
to go back to his old master as straight and as fast
as he could get there. This canyon was the shortest
cut and through this canyon he meant to walk whether
she liked it or not.
Further and further into the gloom
they penetrated, and the girl, frenzied with fear,
cried out with the wild hope that some one might be
near and come to her rescue. But the gloomy aisle
of the canyon caught up her voice and echoed it far
and high, until it came back to her in a volume of
sepulchral sound that filled her with a nameless dread
and made her fear to open her lips again. It
was as if she had by her cry awakened the evil spirit
who inhabited the canyon and set it searching for
the intruder. “Help! Help!” How
the words rolled and returned upon her trembling senses
until she quaked and quivered with their echoes!
On went the pony into the deepening
shadows, and each moment the darkness shut down more
impenetrably, until the girl could only close her
eyes, lower her head as much as possible to escape
the branches-and pray.
Then suddenly, from above where the
distant sky gave a line of light and a single star
had appeared to pierce the dusk like a great jewel
on a lady’s gown, there arose a sound; blood-curdling
and hideous, high, hollow, far-echoing, chilling her
soul with horror and causing her heart to stand still
with fear. She had heard it once before, a night
or two ago, when their train had stopped in a wide
desert for water or repairs or something and the porter
of the car had told her it was coyotes. It had
been distant then, and weird and interesting to think
of being so near real live wild animals. She
had peered from the safety of her berth behind the
silken curtains and fancied she saw shadowy forms steal
over the plain under the moonlight. But it was
a very different thing to hear the sound now, out
alone among their haunts, with no weapon and none to
protect her. The awfulness of her situation almost
took away her senses.
Still she held to the saddle, weak
and trembling, expecting every minute to be her last;
and the horrid howling of the coyotes continued.
Down below the trail somewhere she
could hear the soft trickling of water with maddening
distinctness now and then. Oh, if she could but
quench this terrible thirst! The pony was somewhat
refreshed with his grass and his drink of water, but
the girl, whose life up to this day had never known
a want unsatisfied, was faint with hunger and burning
with thirst, and this unaccustomed demand upon her
strength was fast bringing it to its limit.
The darkness in the canyon grew deeper,
and more stars clustered out overhead; but far, so
very far away! The coyotes seemed just a shadow
removed all about and above. Her senses were swimming.
She could not be sure just where they were. The
horse slipped and stumbled on in the darkness, and
she forgot to try to turn him from his purpose.
By and by she grew conscious that
the way was leading upward again. They were scrambling
over rough places, large rocks in the way, trees growing
close to the trail, and the pony seemed not to be able
to avoid them, or perhaps he didn’t care.
The howling of the coyotes was growing clearer every
minute but somehow her fear of them was deadened, as
her fear of all else. She was lying low upon
the pony, clinging to his neck, too faint to cry out,
too weak to stop the tears that slowly wet his mane.
Then suddenly she was caught in the embrace of a low
hanging branch, her hair tangled about its roughness.
The pony struggled to gain his uncertain footing,
the branch held her fast and the pony scrambled on,
leaving his helpless rider behind him in a little huddled
heap upon the rocky trail, swept from the saddle by
the tough old branch.
The pony stopped a moment upon a bit
of shelving rock he had with difficulty gained, and
looked back with a troubled snort, but the huddled
heap in the darkness below him gave forth no sign of
life, and after another snort and a half neigh of
warning the pony turned and scrambled on, up and up
till he gained the mesa above.
The late moon rose and hunted its
way through the canyon till it found the gold of her
hair spread about on the rocky way, and touched her
sweet unconscious face with the light of cold beauty;
the coyotes howled on in solemn chorus, and still
the little figure lay quiet and unconscious of her
situation.