“Red.”
“Yes?”
“Are you through with that rabble? Can
you ’tend to a friend?”
Redfield Pepper Burns wheeled around
in his revolving chair and glanced sharply at Arthur
Chester. What he saw made him follow the moment’s
inspection with a direct question.
“Sit down. What have you been doing?”
Chester sat down. His face was
white. He held up one shaking hand. “Red,
what’s the matter with me?”
Burns continued to study the man before
him. He made no move to examine into his condition,
just looked steadily into the other’s face with
a gaze before which his patient presently shifted
uneasily.
“Well, of all the ways to treat
a fellow!” He tried to laugh. “Is
that the way you do with the rest of the bunch that
come to you every day? Or are you trying to hypnotize
me?”
“Look me in the eye, Ches. What have you
been doing?”
“Working like a fiend in that
infernal office. If there’s any hotter
place ”
“There’ll be a hotter
one for you right on this earth, if you keep on the
way you’re going.”
He rose suddenly, and approaching
Chester closely, looked intently into the uplifted
eyes. He sat down again. “Own up!”
he commanded bluntly.
“Red,” begged Chester,
“quit this sort of thing. Go at me in the
usual way. I I think I’m a bit
nervous tonight. I can’t stand your gun-fire.”
“All right. When did you begin?”
“Five weeks ago when you were
away. I didn’t mean to get into it, Red,
on my word I didn’t, after all you’ve warned
me. But it was so beastly hot and
there was a lot of extra work at the office. My
head got to going it night and day. I say” he
leaned suddenly forward, has head on his hands “I
can tell you better if you give me some kind of a
bracer I feel so deadly.”
Burns got up and prepared something
in a glass something not particularly palatable, but
when it had taken action, which it promptly did, Chester’s
white face had acquired a tinge of colour and he could
go on.
“I stopped in Gardner’s
office one day when my head was worse than usual.
Had to meet a man in ten minutes important
deal on for the house had to be at my best.
Told Gardner so. He fixed me.”
“He did blame him fixed
you for a dope-fiend. I’ve told you a hundred
times you had precisely the kind of temperament that
must avoid that sort of thing like the gallows.”
Burns hit the desk with his fist as he spoke, with
a thump of impatience.
“It seems to set me up for a
while I can do anything. Then afterward ”
“You’re getting the afterward
all right. How much do you take?”
Chester mentioned the amount of the
drug, stating reluctantly that for the last two days
he had been obliged slightly to increase it in order
to get the full effect.
“Of course you have that’s
the insidiousness of the devil’s stuff.
How soon does it get into action?”
“Oh, right away almost instantly.”
“What! Is your imagination
strong enough to See here, Ches” Burns
leaned forward “you’re taking the stuff
by mouth, of course?”
Chester’s eyes went down.
“Why I tried it that way but
it was so slow.”
Burns ejaculated something under his
breath; the quick colour, always ready to flare under
his clear skin, leaped out.
“Gardner gave you a hypo, I suppose?”
“Yes.”
“So you went and bought a syringe
and taught yourself the trick. Suppose you give
me a look at it.”
Like a shamed schoolboy Chester unwillingly
drew forth the small case from his pocket. Burns
received it. He opened it and took out the tiny
instrument. “It looks like a very good one,”
he observed with a sort of deadly quietness, and with
one motion of his big fingers snapped the glass barrel
in two.
At this Chester took fire. “That’s
going a little too far!” he burst out in wrath.
“Is it? Thought it was
you who had gone too far. It’s up to me
to bring you back while I can. Getting
this little fiend out of the way is the first step.
Keep cool, Ches and I’ll try to do
the same, though it makes my blood boil to think how
little you’ve cared for my lectures to you on
this very thing.”
“I have cared. But I had no idea.”
“Well, you have one now.
It’s taken you five weeks to acquire enough of
a habit to give you some trouble to drop it. You’re
that sort and that’s the way it works, anyhow.
I wonder you came to me to-night. Found yourself
out of the stuff and didn’t like to try to get
it here where folks know you?”
“If you want to put everything
in the most disagreeable way you can yes,”
admitted Chester testily.
“That’s precisely what
I want to do. Put it in such a disagreeable way
that your backbone’ll stiffen up a bit and give
us something to start with. If I make you mad
all the better so long as you don’t
go back to fools like Gardner, who never hesitate
to give a fellow like you a sample of what that drug’ll
do for ’em:”
“What are you going to do?
I shan’t sleep to-night, and I’ve got to
be in the office to-morrow morning.”
“When’s your vacation due?”
“Not till week after next.”
“Arrange to take it now.”
“I can’t. Stillinger’s off
on his, Monday morning.”
“Could you have yours now if he waited?”
“Yes, but I wouldn’t ask him.”
“I would.” Burns took down the receiver
of his desk telephone.
“Red, stop I don’t want ”
Burns paid no attention to him.
In five minutes he had the city connection and his
man. He stated the case: Chester was in urgent
need of taking his vacation without delay, but was
not willing to ask the favour of his office associate.
He, Burns, his friend’s physician, did not scruple
to ask it if it would not interfere too seriously with
Mr. Stillinger’s plans. No diplomat could
re quest a favour more courteously than R. P. Burns,
M.D. The reply was the one to be expected of
Stillinger, bachelor and amiable fellow, who was fond
of Chester and hoped it was nothing serious.
Tell him to go ahead with his vacation, Stillinger
said, and not to worry over office affairs.
“Now!” Burns wheeled round
from the telephone. “Will you put yourself
in my hands?”
“Do you honestly think I’m
such an abandoned case already,” began
Chester unhappily, “that you have to ”
“Listen to me, Ches. I
don’t think you’re an abandoned case that’s
nonsense after five weeks. But I do
think you’re well started on a road that it’s
ruin to travel. You began it way back last winter
by taking that headache stuff in double the dose I
gave you, without consulting me, every time you felt
a trifle below par. That’s why I took it
away from you. You felt the loss of it, and you
were an easy mark for Gardner’s dope. You’ve
grown so dependent on that already that you’re
going to have a fight to get along without it.
You can’t fight and do office work, so I’m
going to make the most of my chance during this fortnight’s
vacation if you’ll give me leave.
If you won’t I think I’ll knock
you down and get you where I want you that way.”
He smiled a smile with
so much spirit and affection in it that Chester’s
eyes filled, to his own astonishment, for up to this
point he had been both hurt and angry. After
a moment he said, with his eyes on the floor, but
in a different tone from any he had yet used:
“Go ahead, Red. I’ll try to prove
I have some stuff in me yet.”
“Of course you have.”
Burns’s hand was on his friend’s shoulder.
“That’s what I’m counting on.
Prove it by following directions to the letter.
And begin by coming with me for a trip into the country.
I have to see a case before I go to bed, and the air
will do your head good.”
It was the first of many similar trips.
Arthur Chester may fairly have been said to spend
the succeeding fortnight in the company of the Green
Imp and its driver. From morning till night, and
often in the night itself when he found it impossible
to sleep, he was living in the open air by means of
this device. Of walking, also, he did an increasing
amount as his strength grew under the regimen Burns
insisted upon. But for the first week, in spite
of all the help his physician could give him, he found
himself indeed involved in a fierce struggle a
struggle with shaken and unmanageable nerves; with
a desperate craving for the soothing, uplifting effect
of the drug to which he was forced to admit he had
become perilously accustomed; with a black depression
of spirit which was worse than anything else he had
to combat.
It was at the worst of one of these
periods of darkness that, alone with his patient upon
a hilltop where the two had climbed, leaving the Green
Imp at a point where the road had become impossible,
Burns said suddenly:
“Ches, I believe, with all my
care to give you the treatment I thought you needed,
I’ve failed to point out the most potent remedy
of all.”
Chester shook his head. “You’ve
done everything, Red. All the trouble’s
with me. I’m so pitiably weak so
much weaker than I ever dreamed I could be. I
can’t seem to care whether I get out of this
or not. All I want is to lie down and go to sleep and
never wake up.”
The last words came under his breath,
but Burns heard them. He showed no sign of being
startled, though this mood was a gloomier one than
he had yet seen his patient succumb to. Instead,
he went on talking in a tone of confidence:
“I ought to have known enough
to apply this remedy, because it’s one I’ve
tried myself. If you could know, since the night
you heard me make a certain vow, what a time I’ve
had with myself to keep it, you’d understand
that I know what it means to try to break up a habit.
Mine’s the habit of years. With my temper
and some of my associations, intemperate profanity’s
been the easiest thing in the world to fall into.
When things went wrong, out would come the oaths like
water out of a spring though that’s
a false comparison: like the filth out of a sewer,
I’d better say.”
“We all swear more or less,”
acknowledged Chester, his head in his hands.
“Not as I did and
you know it. I’ve been responsible for many
a boy’s taking it up, though I didn’t
realize it. Because I was athletic and in for
sports with them, they thought I was the whole thing.
They laughed when I got mad and ripped out a lot of
language: they copied it. But I never heard
myself as others hear me till that night I let go at
the mother who’d ignorantly murdered her boy
by disobeying orders. On the way home that night
I woke up came to myself I don’t
know how. The stars were unusually bright, and
I looked up at them and thought of that child’s
soul going back to its Maker.... and then thought of
my curses following it and coming to His ear.”
A silence fell. When Burns broke
it, it was in a voice deep with feeling.
“The next words I sent up to
that ear were in a different shape. I think it
was the first real prayer I’d ever said since
the little parrot prayers my mother taught me.
That was the first: it hasn’t been the
last. I don’t suppose I say much that would
sound like the preacher’s language, but Ches,
what I do believe is that I get what I ask
for. That’s help to fight my
temptations. And profanity isn’t the only
one nor the toughest one to down.”
Chester looked up. For a moment
he forgot himself and his wretchedness. “It’s
hard to believe it’s you, Red talking
like this.”
“I know it must be hard, but
it ought to be the more convincing on that account.
I belong to a profession of materialists, and all at
once it’s grown to seem to me the strangest
thing in life that a man who studies the anatomy of
this body of ours should be a materialist. To
watch its workings and then doubt the God who made
it is sheet wilful blindness. But, Ches I’ve
got my eyes open at last. The God who made me
is up there, and He knows and cares how I go on with
the job. As for answering my appeals for help
when I get hard pressed the biggest sign
I have of that is a human one. Since Bobby Burns
came to sleep in that little bed next mine, it’s
been a whole lot easier to get on.”
A deep sigh was Chester’s reply
to this. He had a small boy and girl of his own.
For their sakes and Winifred’s he knew he must
fight this fight out and win. But as for getting
tangible help from the Creator of a body handicapped
by nerves like his! He began to say this, but
Burns broke in upon him with the answer he would least
have expected at a moment like this a great, ringing
laugh, the sound of which brought the slow blood to
Chester’s white face.
“If you consider wrecked nerves
like mine a laughing matter ” he broke
out.
But Burns, his laugh over, was sober
again and his voice was earnest. “Arthur
Chester, don’t make Him responsible for your
‘wrecked nerves.’ They weren’t
wrecked when you were furnished with them. You’ve
done the wrecking yourself by breaking pretty nearly
every law that governs the workings of the human machine.
You’re paying the penalty. But you’re
going to get the upper hand. From now on, in spite
of your office life, you’re going to get good
red blood in your veins and your brains.
The worst is over now the second week will
be easier. But what I’m trying to tell
you is that you’ll get that upper hand a lot
quicker if” his cheek grew hot with
this strange, unaccustomed effort at putting things
he had never spoken of before into words “if
you’ll just reach up and take hold of that ‘Upper
Hand’ that, according to my new belief and experience,
is ready to reach down to you. It’s stronger
than yours: you’ll feel the upward pull.”
He broke off and got to his feet.
The two had been sitting on a fallen log, looking
off over the hills toward a distant river winding its
blue length through fields of living green.
“I wasn’t exactly cut
out for a preacher, Ches,” he added after a
minute. “I hope my talk doesn’t sound
to you like ‘cant.’ I’m a pretty
poor specimen of a chap to be setting up my own example
for anybody to follow.”
“I don’t think you’ve
been setting up your own example,” Chester replied.
He pulled himself up limply from the log, yet out of
his face had gone the black look which had been there
when he came up the hill. “And what you’ve
said doesn’t sound like ‘cant’ to
me, Red. It sounds more like ‘can.’”
Red Pepper Burns held out his hand.
His big; warm fingers closed hard over the thin; cold
ones which met them. Then the two men, without
more words, went away down the hill. From this
hour Arthur Chester afterward dated the beginning
of the end of the fight.