Alan Merrick strode from his father’s
door that day stung with a burning sense of wrong
and injustice. More than ever before in his
life he realized to himself the abject hollowness of
that conventional code which masquerades in our midst
as a system of morals. If he had continued to
“live single” as we hypocritically phrase
it, and so helped by one unit to spread the festering
social canker of prostitution, on which as basis,
like some mediaeval castle on its foul dungeon vaults,
the entire superstructure of our outwardly decent
modern society is reared, his father no doubt would
have shrugged his shoulders and blinked his cold eyes,
and commended the wise young man for abstaining from
marriage till his means could permit him to keep a
wife of his own class in the way she was accustomed
to. The wretched victims of that vile system
might die unseen and unpitied in some hideous back
slum, without touching one chord of remorse or regret
in Dr. Merrick’s nature. He was steeled
against their suffering. Or again, if Alan had
sold his virility for gold to some rich heiress of
his set, like Ethel Waterton had bartered
his freedom to be her wedded paramour in a loveless
marriage, his father would not only have gladly acquiesced,
but would have congratulated his son on his luck and
his prudence. Yet, because Alan had chosen rather
to form a blameless union of pure affection with a
woman who was in every way his moral and mental superior,
but in despite of the conventional ban of society,
Dr. Merrick had cast him off as an open reprobate.
And why? Simply because that union was unsanctioned
by the exponents of a law they despised, and unblessed
by the priests of a creed they rejected. Alan
saw at once it is not the intrinsic moral value of
an act such people think about, but the light in which
it is regarded by a selfish society.
Unchastity, it has been well said,
is union without love; and Alan would have none of
it.
He went back to Herminia more than
ever convinced of that spotless woman’s moral
superiority to every one else he had ever met with.
She sat, a lonely soul, enthroned amid the halo of
her own perfect purity. To Alan, she seemed
like one of those early Italian Madonnas, lost in
a glory of light that surrounds and half hides them.
He reverenced her far too much to tell her all that
had happened. How could he wound those sweet
ears with his father’s coarse epithets?
They took the club train that afternoon
to Paris. There they slept the night in a fusty
hotel near the Gare du Nord, and went
on in the morning by the daylight express to Switzerland.
At Lucerne and Milan they broke the journey once
more. Herminia had never yet gone further afield
from England than Paris; and this first glimpse of
a wider world was intensely interesting to her.
Who can help being pleased, indeed, with that wonderful
St. Gothard the crystal green Reuss shattering
itself in white spray into emerald pools by the side
of the railway; Wasen church perched high upon its
solitary hilltop; the Biaschina ravine, the cleft rocks
of Faido, the serpentine twists and turns of the ramping
line as it mounts or descends its spiral zigzags?
Dewy Alpine pasture, tossed masses of land-slip,
white narcissus on the banks, snowy peaks in the background all
alike were fresh visions of delight to Herminia; and
she drank it all in with the pure childish joy of a
poetic nature. It was the Switzerland of her
dreams, reinforced and complemented by unsuspected
detail.
One trouble alone disturbed her peace
of mind upon that delightful journey. Alan entered
their names at all the hotels where they stopped as
“Mr. and Mrs. Alan Merrick of London.”
That deception, as Herminia held it, cost her many
qualms of conscience; but Alan, with masculine common-sense,
was firm upon the point that no other description
was practically possible; and Herminia yielded with
a sign to his greater worldly wisdom. She had
yet to learn the lesson which sooner or later comes
home to all the small minority who care a pin about
righteousness, that in a world like our own, it is
impossible for the righteous always to act consistently
up to their most sacred convictions.
At Milan, they stopped long enough
to snatch a glimpse of the cathedral, and to take
a hasty walk through the pictured glories of the Brera.
A vague suspicion began to cross Herminia’s mind,
as she gazed at the girlish Madonna of the Sposalizio,
that perhaps she wasn’t quite as well adapted
to love Italy as Switzerland. Nature she understood;
was art yet a closed book to her? If so, she would
be sorry; for Alan, in whom the artistic sense was
largely developed, loved his Italy dearly; and it
would be a real cause of regret to her if she fell
short in any way of Alan’s expectations.
Moreover, at table d’hote that evening, a slight
episode occurred which roused to the full once more
poor Herminia’s tender conscience. Talk
had somehow turned on Shelley’s Italian wanderings;
and a benevolent-looking clergyman opposite, with that
vacantly well-meaning smile, peculiar to a certain
type of country rector, was apologizing in what he
took to be a broad and generous spirit of divine,
toleration for the great moral teacher’s supposed
lapses from the normal rule of tight living.
Much, the benevolent-looking gentleman opined, with
beaming spectacles, must be forgiven to men of genius.
Their temptations no doubt are far keener than with
most of us. An eager imagination a
vivid sense of beauty quick readiness to
be moved by the sight of physical or moral loveliness these
were palliations, the old clergyman held, of much
that seemed wrong and contradictory to our eyes in
the lives of so many great men and women.
At sound of such immoral and unworthy
teaching, Herminia’s ardent soul rose up in
revolt within her. “Oh, no,” she
cried eagerly, leaning across the table as she spoke.
“I can’t allow that plea. It’s
degrading to Shelley, and to all true appreciation
of the duties of genius. Not less but more than
most of us is the genius bound to act up with all
his might to the highest moral law, to be the prophet
and interpreter of the highest moral excellence.
To whom much is given, of him much shall be required.
Just because the man or woman of genius stands raised
on a pedestal so far above the mass have we the right
to expect that he or she should point us the way,
should go before us as pioneer, should be more careful
of the truth, more disdainful of the wrong, down to
the smallest particular, than the ordinary person.
There are poor souls born into this world so petty
and narrow and wanting in originality that one can
only expect them to tread the beaten track, be it ever
so cruel and wicked and mistaken. But from a
Shelley or a George Eliot, we expect greater things,
and we have a right to expect them. That’s
why I can never quite forgive George Eliot who
knew the truth, and found freedom for herself, and
practised it in her life for upholding
in her books the conventional lies, the conventional
prejudices; and that’s why I can never admire
Shelley enough, who, in an age of slavery, refused
to abjure or to deny his freedom, but acted unto death
to the full height of his principles.”
The benevolent-looking clergyman gazed
aghast at Herminia. Then he turned slowly to
Alan. “Your wife,” he said in a mild
and terrified voice, “is a very advanced
lady.”
Herminia longed to blurt out the whole
simple truth. “I am not his wife.
I am not, and could never be wife or slave to any
man. This is a very dear friend, and he and
I are travelling as friends together.”
But a warning glance from Alan made her hold her peace
with difficulty and acquiesce as best she might in
the virtual deception. Still, the incident went
to her heart, and made her more anxious than ever
to declare her convictions and her practical obedience
to them openly before the world. She remembered,
oh, so well one of her father’s sermons that
had vividly impressed her in the dear old days at
Dunwich Cathedral. It was preached upon the
text, “Come ye out and be ye separate.”
From Milan they went on direct to
Florence. Alan had decided to take rooms for
the summer at Perugia, and there to see Herminia safely
through her maternal troubles. He loved Perugia,
he said; it was cool and high-perched; and then, too,
it was such a capital place for sketching. Besides,
he was anxious to complete his studies of the early
Umbrian painters. But they must have just one
week at Florence together before they went up among
the hills. Florence was the place for a beginner
to find out what Italian art was aiming at.
You got it there in its full logical development every
phase, step by step, in organic unity; while elsewhere
you saw but stages and jumps and results, interrupted
here and there by disturbing lacunae. So at
Florence they stopped for a week en route, and Herminia
first learnt what Florentine art proposed to itself.
Ah, that week in Florence! What
a dream of delight! ’Twas pure gold to
Herminia. How could it well be otherwise?
It seemed to her afterwards like the last flicker
of joy in a doomed life, before its light went out
and left her forever in utter darkness. To be
sure, a week is a terribly cramped and hurried time
in which to view Florence, the beloved city, whose
ineffable glories need at least one whole winter adequately
to grasp them. But failing a winter, a week
with the gods made Herminia happy. She carried
away but a confused phantasmagoria, it is true, of
the soaring tower of the Palazzo Vecchio, pointing
straight with its slender shaft to heaven; of the
swelling dome and huge ribs of the cathedral, seen
vast from the terrace in front of San Miniato;
of the endless Madonnas and the deathless saints niched
in golden tabernacles at the Uffizi and the Pitti;
of the tender grace of Fra Angelico at San
Marco; of the infinite wealth and astounding variety
of Donatello’s marble in the spacious courts
of the cool Bargello. But her window at
the hotel looked straight as it could look down the
humming Calzaioli to the pierced and encrusted front
of Giotto’s campanile, with the cupola of San
Lorenzo in the middle distance, and the façade of
Fiesole standing out deep-blue against the dull red
glare of evening in the background. If that were
not enough to sate and enchant Herminia, she would
indeed have been difficult. And with Alan by
her side, every joy was doubled.
She had never before known what it
was to have her lover continuously with her.
And his aid in those long corridors, where bambinos
smiled down at her with childish lips, helped her
wondrously to understand in so short a time what they
sought to convey to her. Alan was steeped in
Italy; he knew and entered into the spirit of Tuscan
art; and now for the first time Herminia found herself
face to face with a thoroughly new subject in which
Alan could be her teacher from the very beginning,
as most men are teachers to the women who depend upon
them. This sense of support and restfulness
and clinging was fresh and delightful to her.
It is a woman’s ancestral part to look up to
the man; she is happiest in doing it, and must long
remain so; and Herminia was not sorry to find herself
in this so much a woman. She thought it delicious
to roam through the long halls of some great gallery
with Alan, and let him point out to her the pictures
he loved best, explain their peculiar merits, and
show the subtle relation in which they stood to the
pictures that went before them and the pictures that
came after them, as well as to the other work of the
same master or his contemporaries. It was even
no small joy to her to find that he knew so much more
about art and its message than she did; that she could
look up to his judgment, confide in his opinion, see
the truth of his criticism, profit much by his instruction.
So well did she use those seven short days, indeed,
that she came to Florence with Fra Angelico,
Filippo Lippi, Botticelli, mere names; and she
went away from it feeling that she had made them real
friends and possessions for a life-time.
So the hours whirled fast in those
enchanted halls, and Herminia’s soul was enriched
by new tastes and new interests. O towers of
fretted stone! O jasper and porphyry! Her
very state of health made her more susceptible than
usual to fresh impressions, and drew Alan at the same
time every day into closer union with her. For
was not the young life now quickening within her half
his and half hers, and did it not seem to make the
father by reflex nearer and dearer to her? Surely
the child that was nurtured, unborn, on those marble
colonnades and those placid Saint Catherines must draw
in with each pulse of its antenatal nutriment some
tincture of beauty, of freedom, of culture!
So Herminia thought to herself as she lay awake at
night and looked out of the window from the curtains
of her bed at the boundless dome and the tall campanile
gleaming white in the moonlight. So we have each
of us thought especially the mothers in
Israel among us about the unborn babe that
hastens along to its birth with such a radiant halo
of the possible future ever gilding and glorifying
its unseen forehead.