All happy times must end, and the
happier the sooner. At one short week’s
close they hurried on to Perugia.
And how full Alan had been of Perugia
beforehand! He loved every stone of the town,
every shadow of the hillsides, he told Herminia at
Florence; and Herminia started on her way accordingly
well prepared to fall quite as madly in love with
the Umbrian capital as Alan himself had done.
The railway journey, indeed, seemed
extremely pretty. What a march of sweet pictures!
They mounted with creaking wheels the slow ascent
up the picturesque glen where the Arno runs deep, to
the white towers of Arezzo; then Cortona throned in
state on its lonely hill-top, and girt by its gigantic
Etruscan walls; next the low bank, the lucid green
water, the olive-clad slopes of reedy Thrasymene;
last of all, the sere hills and city-capped heights
of their goal, Perugia.
For its name’s sake alone, Herminia
was prepared to admire the antique Umbrian capital.
And Alan loved it so much, and was so determined
she ought to love it too, that she was ready to be
pleased with everything in it. Until she arrived
there and then, oh, poor heart, what a
grievous disappointment! It was late April weather
when they reached the station at the foot of that high
hill where Augusta Perusia sits lording it on her
throne over the wedded valleys of the Tiber and the
Clitumnus. Tramontana was blowing.
No rain had fallen for weeks; the slopes of the lower
Apennines, ever dry and dusty, shone still drier and
dustier than Alan had yet beheld them. Herminia
glanced up at the long white road, thick in deep gray
powder, that led by endless zigzags along the
dreary slope to the long white town on the shadeless
hill-top. At first sight alone, Perugia was
a startling disillusion to Herminia. She didn’t
yet know how bitterly she was doomed hereafter to hate
every dreary dirty street in it. But she knew
at the first blush that the Perugia she had imagined
and pictured to herself didn’t really exist
and had never existed.
She had figured in her own mind a
beautiful breezy town, high set on a peaked hill,
in fresh and mossy country. She had envisaged
the mountains to her soul as clad with shady woods,
and strewn with huge boulders under whose umbrageous
shelter bloomed waving masses of the pretty pale blue
Apennine anémones she saw sold in big bunches
at the street corners in Florence. She had imagined,
in short, that Umbria was a wilder Italian Wales,
as fresh, as green, as sweet-scented, as fountain-fed.
And she knew pretty well whence she had derived that
strange and utterly false conception. She had
fancied Perugia as one of those mountain villages described
by Macaulay, the sort of hilltop stronghold
“That, hid by beech and pine,
Like an eagle’s nest hangs on the
crest
Of purple Apennine.”
Instead of that, what manner of land
did she see actually before her? Dry and shadeless
hill-sides, tilled with obtrusive tilth to their topmost
summit; ploughed fields and hoary olive-groves silvering
to the wind, in interminable terraces; long suburbs,
unlovely in their gaunt, bare squalor, stretching like
huge arms of some colossal cuttlefish over the spurs
and shoulders of that desecrated mountain. No
woods, no moss, no coolness, no greenery; all nature
toned down to one monotonous grayness. And this
dreary desert was indeed the place where her baby
must be born, the baby predestined to regenerate humanity!
Oh, why did they ever leave that enchanted Florence!
Meanwhile Alan had got together the
luggage, and engaged a ramshackle Perugian cab; for
the public vehicles of Perugia are perhaps, as a class,
the most precarious and incoherent known to science.
However, the luggage was bundled on to the top by
Our Lady’s grace, without dissolution of continuity;
the lean-limbed horses were induced by explosive volleys
of sound Tuscan oaths to make a feeble and spasmodic
effort; and bit by bit the sad little cavalcade began
slowly to ascend the interminable hill that rises
by long loops to the platform of the Prefettura.
That drive was the gloomiest Herminia
had ever yet taken. Was it the natural fastidiousness
of her condition, she wondered, or was it really the
dirt and foul smells of the place that made her sicken
at first sight of the wind-swept purlieus? Perhaps
a little of both; for in dusty weather Perugia is
the most endless town to get out of in Italy; and
its capacity for the production of unpleasant odors
is unequalled no doubt from the Alps to Calabria.
As they reached the bare white platform at the entry
to the upper town, where Pope Paul’s grim fortress
once frowned to overawe the audacious souls of the
liberty-loving Umbrians, she turned mute eyes to Alan
for sympathy. And then for the first time the
terrible truth broke over her that Alan wasn’t
in the least disappointed or disgusted; he knew it
all before; he was accustomed to it and liked it!
As for Alan, he misinterpreted her glance, indeed,
and answered with that sort of proprietary pride we
all of us assume towards a place we love, and are
showing off to a newcomer: “Yes, I thought
you’d like this view, dearest; isn’t it
wonderful, wonderful? That’s Assisi over
yonder, that strange white town that clings by its
eyelashes to the sloping hill-side: and those
are the snowclad heights of the Gran Sasso beyond;
and that’s Montefalco to the extreme right,
where the sunset gleam just catches the hill-top.”
His words struck dumb horror into
Herminia’s soul. Poor child, how she shrank
at it! It was clear, then, instead of being shocked
and disgusted, Alan positively admired this human
Sahara. With an effort she gulped down her tears
and her sighs, and pretended to look with interest
in the directions he pointed. She could
see nothing in it all but dry hill-sides, crowned
with still drier towns; unimagined stretches of sultry
suburb; devouring wastes of rubbish and foul immemorial
kitchen-middens. And the very fact that for
Alan’s sake she couldn’t bear to say so seeing
how pleased and proud he was of Perugia, as if it
had been built from his own design made
the bitterness of her disappointment more difficult
to endure. She would have given anything at that
moment for an ounce of human sympathy.
She had to learn in time to do without it.
They spent that night at the comfortable
hotel, perhaps the best in Italy. Next morning,
they were to go hunting for apartments in the town,
where Alan knew of a suite that would exactly suit
them. After dinner, in the twilight, filled with
his artistic joy at being back in Perugia, his beloved
Perugia, he took Herminia out for a stroll, with a
light wrap round her head, on the terrace of the Prefettura.
The air blew fresh and cool now with a certain mountain
sharpness; for, as Alan assured her with pride, they
stood seventeen hundred feet above the level of the
Mediterranean. The moon had risen; the sunset
glow had not yet died off the slopes of the Assisi
hill-sides. It streamed through the perforated
belfry of San Domenico; it steeped in rose-color the
slender and turreted shaft of San Pietro, “Perugia’s
Pennon,” the Arrowhead of Umbria. It gilded
the gaunt houses that jut out upon the spine of the
Borgo hill into the valley of the Tiber.
Beyond, rose shadowy Apennines, on whose aerial flanks
towns and villages shone out clear in the mellow moonlight.
Far away on their peaks faint specks of twinkling
fire marked indistinguishable sites of high hill-top
castles.
Alan turned to her proudly.
“Well, what do you think of that?” he
asked with truly personal interest.
Herminia could only gasp out in a
half reluctant way, “It’s a beautiful
view, Alan. Beautiful; beautiful; beautiful!”
But she felt conscious to herself
it owed its beauty in the main to the fact that the
twilight obscured so much of it. To-morrow morning,
the bare hills would stand out once more in all their
pristine bareness; the white roads would shine forth
as white and dusty as ever; the obtrusive rubbish
heaps would press themselves at every turn upon eye
and nostril. She hated the place, to say the
truth; it was a terror to her to think she had to stop
so long in it.
Most famous towns, in fact, need to
be twice seen: the first time briefly to face
the inevitable disappointment to our expectations;
the second time, at leisure, to reconstruct and appraise
the surviving reality. Imagination so easily
beggars performance. Rome, Cairo, the Nile, are
obvious examples; the grand exceptions are Venice
and Florence, in a lesser degree, Bruges,
Munich, Pisa. As for Umbria, ’tis a poor
thing; our own Devon snaps her fingers at it.
Moreover, to say the truth, Herminia
was too fresh to Italy to appreciate the smaller or
second-rate towns at their real value. Even northerners
love Florence and Venice at first sight; those take
their hearts by storm; but Perugia, Siena, Orvieto,
are an acquired taste, like olives and caviare, and
it takes time to acquire it. Alan had not made
due allowance for this psychological truth of the
northern natures. A Celt in essence, thoroughly
Italianate himself, and with a deep love for the picturesque,
which often makes men insensible to dirt and discomfort,
he expected to Italianize Herminia too rapidly.
Herminia, on the other hand, belonged more strictly
to the intellectual and somewhat inartistic English
type. The picturesque alone did not suffice for
her. Cleanliness and fresh air were far dearer
to her soul than the quaintest street corners, the
oddest old archways; she pined in Perugia for a green
English hillside.
The time, too, was unfortunate, after
no rain for weeks; for rainlessness, besides doubling
the native stock of dust, brings out to the full the
ancestral Etruscan odors of Perugia. So, when
next morning Herminia found herself installed in a
dingy flat, in a morose palazzo, in the main street
of the city, she was glad that Alan insisted on going
out alone to make needful purchases of groceries and
provisions, because it gave her a chance of flinging
herself on her bed in a perfect agony of distress and
disappointment, and having a good cry, all alone,
at the aspect of the home where she was to pass so
many eventful weeks of her existence.
Dusty, gusty Perugia! O baby,
to be born for the freeing of woman, was it here,
was it here you must draw your first breath, in an
air polluted by the vices of centuries!