Not that Herminia had not at times
hard struggles and sore temptations. One of
the hardest and sorest came when Dolly was about six
years old. And this was the manner of it.
One day the child who was to reform
the world was returning from some errand on which
her mother had sent her, when her attention was attracted
by a very fine carriage, stopping at a door not far
from their lodgings. Now Dolly had always a particular
weakness for everything “grand;” and so
grand a turn-out as this one was rare in their neighborhood.
She paused and stared hard at it. “Whose
is it, Mrs. Biggs?” she asked awe-struck of
the friendly charwoman, who happened to pass at the
moment, the charwoman who frequently came
in to do a day’s cleaning at her mother’s
lodging-house. Mrs. Biggs knew it well; “It’s
Sir Anthony Merrick’s,” she answered in
that peculiarly hushed voice with which the English
poor always utter the names of the titled classes.
And so in fact it was; for the famous gout doctor
had lately been knighted for his eminent services in
saving a royal duke from the worst effects of his own
self-indulgence. Dolly put one fat finger to
her lip, and elevated her eyebrows, and looked grave
at once. Sir Anthony Merrick! What a very
grand gentleman he must be indeed, and how nice it
must seem to be able to drive in so distinguished
a vehicle with a liveried footman.
As she paused and looked, lost in
enjoyment of that beatific vision, Sir Anthony himself
emerged from the porch. Dolly took a good stare
at him. He was handsome, austere, close-shaven,
implacable. His profile was clear-cut, like Trajan’s
on an aureus. Dolly thought that was just how
so grand a gentleman ought to look; and, so thinking,
she glanced up at him, and with a flash of her white
teeth, smiled her childish approval. The austere
old gentleman, unwontedly softened by that cherub
face, for indeed she was as winsome as
a baby angel of Raphael’s, stooped
down and patted the bright curly head that turned
up to him so trustfully. “What’s
your name, little woman?” he asked, with a sudden
wave of gentleness.
And Dolly, all agog at having arrested
so grand an old gentleman’s attention, spoke
up in her clear treble, “Dolores Barton.”
Sir Anthony started. Was this
a trap to entangle him? He was born suspicious,
and he feared that woman. But he looked into
Dolly’s blue eyes of wonder, and all doubt fled
from him. Was it blood? was it instinct? was
it unconscious nature? At any rate, the child
seemed to melt the grandfather’s heart as if
by magic. Long years after, when the due time
came, Dolly remembered that melting. To the profound
amazement of the footman, who stood with the carriage-door
ready open in his hand, the old man bent down and
kissed the child’s red lips. “God
bless you, my dear!” he murmured, with unwonted
tenderness to his son’s daughter. Then
he took out his purse, and drew from it a whole gold
sovereign. “That’s for you, my child,”
he said, fondling the pretty golden curls. “Take
it home, and tell your mammy an old man in the street
gave it to you.”
But the coachman observed to the footman,
as they drove on together to the next noble patient’s,
“You may take your oath on it, Mr. Wells, that
little ’un there was Mr. Alan’s love-child!”
Dolly had never held so much money
in her hand before; she ran home, clutching it tight,
and burst in upon Herminia with the startling news
that Sir Anthony Merrick, a very grand gentleman in
a very fine carriage, had given a gold piece to her.
Gold pieces were rare in the calm
little attic, but Herminia caught her child up with
a cry of terror; and that very same evening, she changed
the tainted sovereign with Dolly for another one, and
sent Sir Anthony’s back in an envelope without
a word to Harley Street. The child who was born
to free half the human race from aeons of slavery
must be kept from all contagion of man’s gold
and man’s bribery. Yet Dolly never forgot
the grand gentleman’s name, though she hadn’t
the least idea why he gave that yellow coin to her.
Out of this small episode, however,
grew Herminia’s great temptation.
For Sir Anthony, being a man tenacious
of his purpose, went home that day full of relenting
thoughts about that girl Dolores. Her golden
hair had sunk deep into his heart. She was Alan’s
own child, after all; she had Alan’s blue eyes;
and in a world where your daughters go off and marry
men you don’t like, while your sons turn out
badly, and don’t marry at all to vex you, it’s
something to have some fresh young life of your blood
to break in upon your chilly old age and cheer you.
So the great doctor called a few days later at Herminia’s
lodgings, and having first ascertained that Herminia
herself was out, had five minutes’ conversation
alone with her landlady.
There were times, no doubt, when Mrs.
Barton was ill? The landlady with the caution
of her class, admitted that might be so. And
times no doubt when Mrs. Barton was for the moment
in arrears with her rent? The landlady, good
loyal soul, demurred to that suggestion; she knit
her brows and hesitated. Sir Anthony hastened
to set her mind at rest. His intentions were
most friendly. He wished to keep a watch, a
quiet, well-meaning, unsuspected watch, over
Mrs. Barton’s necessities. He desired,
in point of fact, if need were, to relieve them.
Mrs. Barton was distantly connected with relations
of his own; and his notion was that without seeming
to help her in obtrusive ways, he would like to make
sure Mrs. Barton got into no serious difficulties.
Would the landlady be so good a half sovereign
glided into that subservient palm as to
let Sir Anthony know if she ever had reason to suspect
a very serious strain was being put on Mrs. Barton’s
resources?
The landlady, dropping the modern
apology for a courtesy, promised with effusion under
pressure of hard cash, to accede to Sir Anthony’s
benevolent wishes. The more so as she’d
do anything to serve dear Mrs. Barton, who was always
in everything a perfect lady, most independent, in
fact; one of the kind as wouldn’t be beholden
to anybody for a farthing.
Some months passed away before the
landlady had cause to report to Sir Anthony.
But during the worst depths of the next London winter,
when gray fog gathered thick in the purlieus of Marylebone,
and shivering gusts groaned at the street corners,
poor little Dolly caught whooping-cough badly.
On top of the whooping-cough came an attack of bronchitis;
and on top of the bronchitis a serious throat trouble.
Herminia sat up night after night, nursing her child,
and neglecting the work on which both depended for
subsistence. Week by week things grew worse and
worse; and Sir Anthony, kept duly informed by the
landlady, waited and watched, and bided his time in
silence. At last the case became desperate.
Herminia had no money left to pay her bill or buy food;
and one string to her bow after another broke down
in journalism. Her place as the weekly lady’s-letter
writer to an illustrated paper passed on to a substitute;
blank poverty stared her in the face, inevitable.
When it came to pawning the type-writer, as the landlady
reported, Sir Anthony smiled a grim smile to himself.
The moment for action had now arrived. He would
put on pressure to get away poor Alan’s illegitimate
child from that dreadful woman.
Next day he called. Dolly was
dangerously ill, so ill that Herminia couldn’t
find it in her heart to dismiss the great doctor from
her door without letting him see her. And Sir
Anthony saw her. The child recognized him at
once and rallied, and smiled at him. She stretched
her little arms. She must surely get well if
a gentleman who drove in so fine a carriage, and scattered
sovereigns like ha’pennies, came in to prescribe
for her. Sir Anthony was flattered at her friendly
reception. Those thin small arms touched the
grandfather’s heart. “She will recover,”
he said; “but she needs good treatment, delicacies,
refinements.” Then he slipped out of the
room, and spoke seriously to Herminia. “Let
her come to me,” he urged. “I’ll
adopt her, and give her her father’s name.
It will be better for herself; better for her future.
She shall be treated as my granddaughter, well-taught,
well-kept; and you may see her every six months for
a fortnight’s visit. If you consent, I
will allow you a hundred a year for yourself.
Let bygones be bygones. For the child’s
sake, say yes! She needs so much that you
can never give her!”
Poor Herminia was sore tried.
As for the hundred a year, she couldn’t dream
of accepting it; but like a flash it went through
her brain how many advantages Dolly could enjoy in
that wealthy household that the hard-working journalist
could not possibly afford her. She thought of
the unpaid bills, the empty cupboard, the wolf at
the door, the blank outlook for the future. For
a second, she half hesitated. “Come, come!”
Sir Anthony said; “for the child’s own
sake; you won’t be so selfish as to stand in
her way, will you?”
Those words roused Herminia to a true
sense of her duty. “Sir Anthony Merrick,”
she said holding her breath, “that child is my
child, and my dear dead Alan’s. I owe it
to Alan, I owe it to her, to
bring her up in the way that Alan would approve of.
I brought her into the world; and my duty is to do
what I can to discharge the responsibilities I then
undertook to her. I must train her up to be
a useful citizen. Not for thousands would I
resign the delight and honor of teaching my child to
those who would teach her what Alan and I believed
to be pernicious; who would teach her to despise her
mother’s life, and to reject the holy memory
of her father. As I said to you before, that
day at Perugia, so I say to you now, ‘Thy money
perish with thee.’ You need never again
come here to bribe me.”
“Is that final?” Sir Anthony
asked. And Herminia answered with a bow, “Yes,
final; quite final.”
Sir Anthony bent his head and left.
Herminia stood face to face with abject poverty.
Spurred by want, by indignation, by terror, by a
sense of the absolute necessity for action, she carried
her writing materials then and there into Dolly’s
sick-room, and sitting by her child’s cot, she
began to write, she hardly knew what, as the words
themselves came to her. In a fever of excitement
she wrote and wrote and wrote. She wrote as one
writes in the silence of midnight. It was late
before she finished. When her manuscript was
complete, she slipped out and posted it to a weekly
paper. It appeared that same Saturday, and was
the beginning of Herminia’s most valuable connection.
But even after she had posted it the
distracted mother could not pause or rest. Dolly
tossed and turned in her sleep, and Herminia sat watching
her. She pined for sympathy. Vague ancestral
yearnings, gathering head within her, made her long
to pray, if only there had been anybody
or anything to pray to. She clasped her bloodless
hands in an agony of solitude. Oh, for a friend
to comfort! At last her overwrought feelings
found vent in verse. She seized a pencil from
her desk, and sitting by Dolly’s side, wrote
down her heart-felt prayer, as it came to her that
moment,
A crowned Caprice is god of the world:
On his stony breast are his white wings
furled.
No ear to hearken, no eye to see,
No heart to feel for a man hath he.
But his pitiless hands are swift to smite,
And his mute lips utter one word of might
In the clash of gentler souls and rougher
‘Wrong must thou do, or wrong must
suffer.’
Then grant, O dumb, blind god, at least
that we
Rather the sufferers than the doers be.