He was called Loulou. His
body was green, his head blue, the tips of his wings
were pink and his breast was golden.
But he had the tiresome tricks of
biting his perch, pulling his feathers out, scattering
refuse and spilling the water of his bath. Madame
Aubain grew tired of him and gave him to Felicite
for good.
She undertook his education, and soon
he was able to repeat: “Pretty boy!
Your servant, sir! I salute you, Marie!”
His perch was placed near the door and several persons
were astonished that he did not answer to the name
of “Jacquot,” for every parrot is called
Jacquot. They called him a goose and a log, and
these taunts were like so many dagger thrusts to Felicite.
Strange stubbornness of the bird which would not talk
when people watched him!
Nevertheless, he sought society; for
on Sunday, when the ladies Rochefeuille, Monsieur
de Houppeville and the new habitues, Onfroy, the chemist,
Monsieur Varin and Captain Mathieu, dropped in for
their game of cards, he struck the window-panes with
his wings and made such a racket that it was impossible
to talk.
Bourais’ face must have appeared
very funny to Loulou. As soon as he saw
him he would begin to roar. His voice re-echoed
in the yard, and the neighbours would come to the
windows and begin to laugh, too; and in order that
the parrot might not see him, Monsieur Bourais edged
along the wall, pushed his hat over his eyes to hide
his profile, and entered by the garden door, and the
looks he gave the bird lacked affection. Loulou,
having thrust his head into the butcher-boy’s
basket, received a slap, and from that time he always
tried to nip his enemy. Fabu threatened to ring
his neck, although he was not cruelly inclined, notwithstanding
his big whiskers and tattooings. On the contrary,
he rather liked the bird, and, out of devilry, tried
to teach him oaths. Felicite, whom his manner
alarmed, put Loulou in the kitchen, took off
his chain and let him walk all over the house.
When he went downstairs, he rested
his beak on the steps, lifted his right foot and then
his left one; but his mistress feared that such feats
would give him vertigo. He became ill and was
unable to eat. There was a small growth under
his tongue like those chickens are sometimes afflicted
with. Felicite pulled it off with her nails and
cured him. One day, Paul was imprudent enough
to blow the smoke of his cigar in his face; another
time, Madame Lormeau was teasing him with the tip of
her umbrella and he swallowed the tip. Finally
he got lost.
She had put him on the grass to cool
him and went away only for a second; when she returned,
she found no parrot! She hunted among the bushes,
on the bank of the river, and on the roofs, without
paying any attention to Madame Aubain who screamed
at her: “Take care! you must be insane!”
Then she searched every garden in Pont-l’Eveque
and stopped the passers-by to inquire of them:
“Haven’t you perhaps seen my parrot?”
To those who had never seen the parrot, she described
him minutely. Suddenly she thought she saw something
green fluttering behind the mills at the foot of the
hill. But when she was at the top of the hill
she could not see it. A hod-carrier told her
that he had just seen the bird in Saint-Melaine, in
Mother Simon’s store. She rushed to the
place. The people did not know what she was talking
about. At last she came home, exhausted, with
her slippers worn to shreds, and despair in her heart.
She sat down on the bench near Madame and was telling
of her search when presently a light weight dropped
on her shoulder Loulou! What the
deuce had he been doing? Perhaps he had just
taken a little walk around the town!
She did not easily forget her scare;
in fact, she never got over it. In consequence
of a cold, she caught a sore throat; and some time
later she had an earache. Three years later she
was stone deaf, and spoke in a very loud voice even
in church. Although her sins might have been
proclaimed throughout the diocese without any shame
to herself, or ill effects to the community, the cure
thought it advisable to receive her confession in
the vestry-room.
Imaginary buzzings also added to her
bewilderment. Her mistress often said to her:
“My goodness, how stupid you are!” and
she would answer: “Yes, Madame,”
and look for something.
The narrow circle of her ideas grew
more restricted than it already was; the bellowing
of the oxen, the chime of the bells no longer reached
her intelligence. All things moved silently,
like ghosts. Only one noise penetrated her ears;
the parrot’s voice.
As if to divert her mind, he reproduced
for her the tick-tack of the spit in the kitchen,
the shrill cry of the fish-vendors, the saw of the
carpenter who had a shop opposite, and when the door-bell
rang, he would imitate Madame Aubain: “Felicite!
go to the front door.”
They held conversations together,
Loulou repeating the three phrases of his repertory
over and over, Felicite replying by words that had
no greater meaning, but in which she poured out her
feelings. In her isolation, the parrot was almost
a son, a love. He climbed upon her fingers, pecked
at her lips, clung to her shawl, and when she rocked
her head to and fro like a nurse, the big wings of
her cap and the wings of the bird flapped in unison.
When clouds gathered on the horizon and the thunder
rumbled, Loulou would scream, perhaps because
he remembered the storms in his native forests.
The dripping of the rain would excite him to frenzy;
he flapped around, struck the ceiling with his wings,
upset everything, and would finally fly into the garden
to play. Then he would come back into the room,
light on one of the andirons, and hop around in order
to get dry.
One morning during the terrible winter
of 1837, when she had put him in front of the fire-place
on account of the cold, she found him dead in his
cage, hanging to the wire bars with his head down.
He had probably died of congestion. But she believed
that he had been poisoned, and although she had no
proofs whatever, her suspicion rested on Fabu.
She wept so sorely that her mistress
said: “Why don’t you have him stuffed?”
She asked the advice of the chemist,
who had always been kind to the bird.
He wrote to Havre for her. A
certain man named Fellacher consented to do the work.
But, as the diligence driver often lost parcels entrusted
to him, Felicite resolved to take her pet to Honfleur
herself.
Leafless apple-trees lined the edges
of the road. The ditches were covered with ice.
The dogs on the neighbouring farms barked; and Felicite,
with her hands beneath her cape, her little black
sabots and her basket, trotted along nimbly in
the middle of the sidewalk. She crossed the forest,
passed by the Haut-Chene, and reached Saint-Gatien.
Behind her, in a cloud of dust and
impelled by the steep incline, a mail-coach drawn
by galloping horses advanced like a whirlwind.
When he saw a woman in the middle of the road, who
did not get out of the way, the driver stood up in
his seat and shouted to her and so did the postilion,
while the four horses, which he could not hold back,
accelerated their pace; the two leaders were almost
upon her; with a jerk of the reins he threw them to
one side, but, furious at the incident, he lifted
his big whip and lashed her from her head to her feet
with such violence that she fell to the ground unconscious.
Her first thought, when she recovered
her senses, was to open the basket. Loulou
was unharmed. She felt a sting on her right cheek;
when she took her hand away it was red, for the blood
was flowing.
She sat down on a pile of stones,
and sopped her cheek with her handkerchief; then she
ate a crust of bread she had put in her basket, and
consoled herself by looking at the bird.
Arriving at the top of Ecquemanville,
she saw the lights of Honfleur shining in the distance
like so many stars; further on, the ocean spread out
in a confused mass. Then a weakness came over
her; the misery of her childhood, the disappointment
of her first love, the departure of her nephew, the
death of Virginia; all these things came back to her
at once, and, rising like a swelling tide in her throat,
almost choked her.
Then she wished to speak to the captain
of the vessel, and without stating what she was sending,
she gave him some instructions.
Fellacher kept the parrot a long time.
He always promised that it would be ready for the
following week; after six months he announced the
shipment of a case, and that was the end of it.
Really, it seemed as if Loulou would never
come back to his home. “They have stolen
him,” thought Felicite.
Finally he arrived, sitting bold upright
on a branch which could be screwed into a mahogany
pedestal, with his foot in the air, his head on one
side, and in his beak a nut which the naturalist, from
love of the sumptuous, had gilded. She put him
in her room.
This place, to which only a chosen
few were admitted, looked like a chapel and a second-hand
shop, so filled was it with devotional and heterogeneous
things. The door could not be opened easily on
account of the presence of a large wardrobe.
Opposite the window that looked out into the garden,
a bull’s-eye opened on the yard; a table was
placed by the cot and held a wash-basin, two combs,
and a piece of blue soap in a broken saucer.
On the walls were rosaries, medals, a number of Holy
Virgins, and a holy-water basin made out of a cocoanut;
on the bureau, which was covered with a napkin like
an altar, stood the box of shells that Victor had
given her; also a watering-can and a balloon, writing-books,
the engraved geography and a pair of shoes; on the
nail which held the mirror, hung Virginia’s little
plush hat! Felicite carried this sort of respect
so far that she even kept one of Monsieur’s
old coats. All the things which Madame Aubain
discarded, Felicite begged for her own room.
Thus, she had artificial flowers on the edge of the
bureau, and the picture of the Comte d’Artois
in the recess of the window. By means of a board,
Loulou was set on a portion of the chimney which
advanced into the room. Every morning when she
awoke, she saw him in the dim light of dawn and recalled
bygone days and the smallest details of insignificant
actions, without any sense of bitterness or grief.
As she was unable to communicate with
people, she lived in a sort of somnambulistic torpor.
The processions of Corpus-Christi Day seemed to wake
her up. She visited the neighbours to beg for
candlesticks and mats so as to adorn the temporary
altars in the street.
In church, she always gazed at the
Holy Ghost, and noticed that there was something about
it that resembled a parrot. The likenesses appeared
even more striking on a coloured picture by Espinal,
representing the baptism of our Saviour. With
his scarlet wings and emerald body, it was really
the image of Loulou. Having bought the picture,
she hung it near the one of the Comte d’Artois
so that she could take them in at one glance.
They associated in her mind, the parrot
becoming sanctified through the neighbourhood of the
Holy Ghost, and the latter becoming more lifelike
in her eyes, and more comprehensible. In all probability
the Father had never chosen as messenger a dove, as
the latter has no voice, but rather one of Loulou’s
ancestors. And Felicite said her prayers in front
of the coloured picture, though from time to time
she turned slightly towards the bird.
She desired very much to enter in
the ranks of the “Daughters of the Virgin.”
But Madame Aubain dissuaded her from it.
A most important event occurred: Paul’s
marriage.
After being first a notary’s
clerk, then in business, then in the customs, and
a tax collector, and having even applied for a position
in the administration of woods and forests, he had
at last, when he was thirty-six years old, by a divine
inspiration, found his vocation: registrature!
and he displayed such a high ability that an inspector
had offered him his daughter and his influence.
Paul, who had become quite settled,
brought his bride to visit his mother.
But she looked down upon the customs
of Pont-l’Eveque, put on airs, and hurt Felicite’s
feelings. Madame Aubain felt relieved when she
left.
The following week they learned of
Monsieur Bourais’ death in an inn. There
were rumours of suicide, which were confirmed; doubts
concerning his integrity arose. Madame Aubain
looked over her accounts and soon discovered his numerous
embezzlements; sales of wood which had been concealed
from her, false receipts, etc. Furthermore,
he had an illegitimate child, and entertained a friendship
for “a person in Dozule.”
These base actions affected her very
much. In March, 1853, she developed a pain in
her chest; her tongue looked as if it were coated with
smoke, and the leeches they applied did not relieve
her oppression; and on the ninth evening she died,
being just seventy-two years old.
People thought that she was younger,
because her hair, which she wore in bands framing
her pale face, was brown. Few friends regretted
her loss, for her manner was so haughty that she did
not attract them. Felicite mourned for her as
servants seldom mourn for their masters. The fact
that Madame should die before herself perplexed her
mind and seemed contrary to the order of things, and
absolutely monstrous and inadmissible. Ten days
later (the time to journey from Besancon), the heirs
arrived. Her daughter-in-law ransacked the drawers,
kept some of the furniture, and sold the rest; then
they went back to their own home.
Madame’s armchair, foot-warmer,
work-table, the eight chairs, everything was gone!
The places occupied by the pictures formed yellow squares
on the walls. They had taken the two little beds,
and the wardrobe had been emptied of Virginia’s
belongings! Felicite went upstairs, overcome with
grief.
The following day a sign was posted
on the door; the chemist screamed in her ear that
the house was for sale.
For a moment she tottered, and had to sit down.
What hurt her most was to give up
her room, so nice for poor Loulou!
She looked at him in despair and implored the Holy
Ghost, and it was this way that she contracted the
idolatrous habit of saying her prayers kneeling in
front of the bird. Sometimes the sun fell through
the window on his glass eye, and lighted a spark in
it which sent Felicite into ecstasy.
Her mistress had left her an income
of three hundred and eighty francs. The garden
supplied her with vegetables. As for clothes,
she had enough to last her till the end of her days,
and she economised on the light by going to bed at
dusk.
She rarely went out, in order to avoid
passing in front of the second-hand dealer’s
shop where there was some of the old furniture.
Since her fainting spell, she dragged her leg, and
as her strength was failing rapidly, old Mother Simon,
who had lost her money in the grocery business, came
very morning to chop the wood and pump the water.
Her eyesight grew dim. She did
not open the shutters after that. Many years
passed. But the house did not sell or rent.
Fearing that she would be put out, Felicite did not
ask for repairs. The laths of the roof were rotting
away, and during one whole winter her bolster was wet.
After Easter she spit blood.
Then Mother Simon went for a doctor.
Felicite wished to know what her complaint was.
But, being too deaf to hear, she caught only one word:
“Pneumonia.” She was familiar with
it and gently answered: “Ah! like
Madame,” thinking it quite natural that she should
follow her mistress.
The time for the altars in the street drew near.
The first one was always erected at
the foot of the hill, the second in front of the post-office,
and the third in the middle of the street. This
position occasioned some rivalry among the women and
they finally decided upon Madame Aubain’s yard.
Felicite’s fever grew worse.
She was sorry that she could not do anything for the
altar. If she could, at least, have contributed
something towards it! Then she thought of the
parrot. Her neighbours objected that it would
not be proper. But the cure gave his consent
and she was so grateful for it that she begged him
to accept after her death, her only treasure, Loulou.
From Tuesday until Saturday, the day before the event,
she coughed more frequently. In the evening her
face was contracted, her lips stuck to her gums and
she began to vomit; and on the following day, she
felt so low that she called for a priest.
Three neighbours surrounded her when
the dominie administered the Extreme Unction.
Afterwards she said that she wished to speak to Fabu.
He arrived in his Sunday clothes,
very ill at ease among the funereal surroundings.
“Forgive me,” she said,
making an effort to extend her arm, “I believed
it was you who killed him!”
What did such accusations mean?
Suspect a man like him of murder! And Fabu became
excited and was about to make trouble.
“Don’t you see she is not in her right
mind?”
From time to time Felicite spoke to
shadows. The women left her and Mother Simon
sat down to breakfast.
A little later, she took Loulou
and holding him up to Felicite:
“Say good-bye to him, now!” she commanded.
Although he was not a corpse, he was
eaten up by worms; one of his wings was broken and
the wadding was coming out of his body. But Felicite
was blind now, and she took him and laid him against
her cheek. Then Mother Simon removed him in order
to set him on the altar.