There were seven of us in a four-in-hand,
four women and three men, one of whom was on the box
seat beside the coachman. We were following, at
a foot pace, broad highway which serpentines along
the coast.
Setting out from Etretat at break
of day, in order to visit the ruins of Tancarville,
we were still asleep, chilled by the fresh air of the
morning. The women, especially, who were but little
accustomed to these early excursions, let their eyelids
fall and rise every moment, nodding their heads or
yawning, quite insensible to the glory of the dawn.
It was autumn. On both sides
of the road the bare fields stretched out, yellowed
by the corn and wheat stubble which covered the soil
like a bristling growth of beard. The spongy
earth seemed to smoke. Larks were singing high
up in the air, while other birds piped in the bushes.
At length the sun rose in front of
us, a bright red on the plane of the horizon; and
as it ascended, growing clearer from minute to minute,
the country seemed to awake, to smile, to shake and
stretch itself, like a young girl who is leaving her
bed in her white airy chemise. The Count d’Etraille,
who was seated on the box, cried:
“Look! look! a hare!”
and he pointed toward the left, indicating a piece
of hedge. The leveret threaded its way along,
almost concealed by the field, only its large ears
visible. Then it swerved across a deep rut, stopped,
again pursued its easy course, changed its direction,
stopped anew, disturbed, spying out every danger, and
undecided as to the route it should take. Suddenly
it began to run, with great bounds from its hind legs,
disappearing finally in a large patch of beet-root.
All the men had woke up to watch the course of the
beast.
René Lemanoir then exclaimed
“We are not at all gallant this
morning,” and looking at his neighbor, the little
Baroness of Serennes, who was struggling with drowsiness,
he said to her in a subdued voice: “You
are thinking of your husband, Baroness. Reassure
yourself; he will not return before Saturday, so you
have still four days.”
She responded to him with a sleepy smile.
“How rude you are.”
Then, shaking off her torpor, she added: “Now,
let somebody say something that will make us all laugh.
You, Monsieur Chenal who have the reputation of possessing
a larger fortune than the Duke of Richelieu, tell
us a love story in which you have been mixed up, anything
you like.”
Leon Chenal, an old painter, who had
once keen very handsome, very strong, who was very
proud of his physique and very amiable, took his long
white beard in his hand and smiled; then, after a few
moments’ reflection, he became suddenly grave.
“Ladies, it will not be an amusing
tale; for I am going to relate to you the most lamentable
love affair of my life, and I sincerely hope that
none of my friends has ever passed through a similar
experience.”
I.-
“At that time I was twenty-five
years old, and was making daubs along the coast of
Normandy. I call ‘making daubs’ that
wandering about, with a bag on one’s back, from
mountain to mountain, under the pretext of studying
and of sketching nature. I know nothing more enjoyable
than that happy-go-lucky wandering life, in which
you are perfectly free; without shackles of any kind,
without care, without preoccupation, without thought
even of to-morrow. You go in any direction you
please, without any guide save your fancy, without
any counselor save your eyes. You pull up, because
a running brook seduces you, or because you are attracted,
in front of an inn, by the smell of potatoes frying.
Sometimes it is the perfume of clematis which
decides you in your choice, or the naïve glance of
the servant at an inn. Do not despise me for
my affection for these rustics. These girls have
soul as well as feeling, not to mention firm cheeks
and fresh lips; while their hearty and willing kisses
have the flavor of wild fruit. Love always has
its price, come whence it may. A heart that beats
when you make your appearance, an eye that weeps when
you go away, these are things so rare, so sweet, so
precious, that they must never be despised.
“I have had rendezvous in ditches
in which cattle repose, and in barns among the straw,
still steaming from the heat of the day. I have
recollections of canvas spread on rude and creaky benches,
and of hearty, fresh, free kisses, more delicate,
free from affectation, and sincere than the subtle
attractions of charming and distinguished women.
“But what you love most amid
all these varied adventures are the country, the woods,
the risings of the sun, the twilight, the light of
the moon. For the painter these are honeymoon
trips with Nature. You are alone with her in
that long and tranquil rendezvous. You go to bed
in the fields amid marguerites and wild poppies,
and, with eyes wide open, you watch the going down
of the sun, and descry in the distance the little
village, with its pointed clock-tower, which sounds
the hour of midnight.
“You sit down by the side of
a spring which gushes out from the foot of an oak,
amid a covering of fragile herbs, growing and redolent
of life. You go down on your knees, bend forward,
and drink the cold and pellucid water, wetting your
mustache and nose; you drink it with a physical pleasure,
as though you were kissing the spring, lip to lip.
Sometimes, when you encounter a deep hole, along the
course of these tiny brooks, you plunge into it, quite
naked, and on your skin, from head to foot, like an
icy and delicious caress, you feel the lovely and
gentle quivering of the current.
“You are gay on the hills, melancholy
on the verge of pools, exalted when the sun is crowned
in an ocean of blood-red shadows, and when it casts
on the rivers its red reflection. And at night,
under the moon, as it passes across the vault of heaven,
you think of things, singular things, which would
never have occurred to your mind under the brilliant
light of day.
“So, in wandering through the
same country we are in this year, I came to the little
village of Benouville, on the Falaise, between
Yport and Etretat. I came from Fécamp, following
the coast, a high coast, perpendicular as a wall,
with projecting and rugged rocks falling sheer down
into the sea. I had walked since the morning on
the close clipped grass, as smooth and as yielding
as a carpet. Singing lustily, I walked with long
strides, looking sometimes at the slow and lazy flight
of a gull, with its short, white wings, sailing in
the blue heavens, sometimes at the green sea, or at
the brown sails of a fishing bark. In short,
I had passed a happy day, a day of listlessness and
of liberty.
“I was shown a little farmhouse,
where travelers were put up, a kind of inn, kept by
a peasant, which stood in the center of a Norman court,
surrounded by a double row of beeches.
“Quitting the Falaise.
I gained the hamlet, which was hemmed in by great
trees, and I presented myself at the house of Mother
Lecacheur.
“She was an old, wrinkled, and
austere rustic, who always seemed to yield to the
pressure of new customs with a kind of contempt.
“It was the month of May:
the spreading apple-trees covered the court with a
whirling shower of blossoms which rained unceasingly
both upon people and upon the grass.
“I said:
“‘Well, Madame Lecacheur, have you a room
for me?’
“Astonished to find that I knew her name, she
answered:
“’That depends; everything
is let; but, all the same, there will be no harm in
looking.’
“In five minutes we were in
perfect accord, and I deposited my bag upon the bare
floor of a rustic room, furnished with a bed, two chairs,
a table, and a washstand. The room opened into
the large and smoky kitchen, where the lodgers took
their meals with the people of the farm and with the
farmer himself, who was a widower.
“I washed my hands, after which
I went out. The old woman was fricasseeing a
chicken for dinner in a large fireplace, in which hung
the stew-pot, black with smoke.
“‘You have travelers,
then, at the present time?’ said I to her.
“She answered in an offended tone of voice:
“’I have a lady, an English
lady, who has attained to years of maturity.
She is occupying my other room.’
“By means of an extra five sous
a day, I obtained the privilege of dining out in the
court when the weather was fine.
“My cover was then placed in
front of the door, and I commenced to gnaw with hunger
the lean members of the Normandy chicken, to drink
the clear cider, and to munch the hunk of white bread,
which, though four days old, was excellent.
“Suddenly, the wooden barrier
which opened on to the highway was opened, and a strange
person directed her steps toward the house. She
was very slender, very tall, enveloped in a Scotch
shawl with red borders. You would have believed
that she had no arms, if you had not seen a long hand
appear just above the hips, holding a white tourist
umbrella. The face of a mummy, surrounded with
sausage rolls of plaited gray hair, which bounded
at every step she took, made me think, I know not
why, of a sour herring adorned with curling papers.
Lowering her eyes, she passed quickly in front of
me, and entered the house.
“This singular apparition made
me curious. She undoubtedly was my neighbor,
the aged English lady of whom our hostess had spoken.
“I did not see her again that
day. The next day, when I had begun to paint
at the end of that beautiful valley, which you know
extends as far as Etretat, lifting my eyes suddenly,
I perceived something singularly attired standing
on the crest of the declivity; it looked like a pole
decked out with flags. It was she. On seeing
me, she suddenly disappeared. I re-entered the
house at midday for lunch, and took my seat at the
common table, so as to make the acquaintance of this
old and original creature. But she did not respond
to my polite advances, was insensible even to my little
attentions. I poured water out for her with great
alacrity, I passed her the dishes with great eagerness.
A slight, almost imperceptible movement of the head,
and an English word, murmured so low that I did not
understand it, were her only acknowledgments.
“I ceased occupying myself with
her, although she had disturbed my thoughts.
At the end of three days, I knew as much about her
as did Madame Lecacheur herself.
“She was called Miss Harriet.
Seeking out a secluded village in which to pass the
summer, she had been attracted to Benouville, some
six months before, and did not seem disposed to quit
it. She never spoke at table, ate rapidly, reading
all the while a small book, treating of some Protestant
propaganda. She gave a copy of it to everybody.
The cure himself had received no less than four copies,
at the hands of an urchin to whom she had paid two
sous’ commission. She said sometimes
to our hostess, abruptly, without preparing herin
the least for the declaration:
“’I love the Saviour more
than all; I worship him in all creation; I adore him
in all nature; I carry him always in my heart.’
“And she would immediately present
the old woman with one of her brochures which were
destined to convert the universe.
“In the village she was not
liked. In fact, the schoolmaster had declared
that she was an atheist, and that a sort of reproach
attached to her. The cure, who had been consulted
by Madame Lecacheur, responded:
“’She is a heretic, but
God does not wish the death of the sinner, and I believe
her to be a person of pure morals.’
“These words, ‘atheist,’
‘heretic,’ words which no one can precisely
define, threw doubts into some minds. It was asserted,
however, that this English-woman was rich, and that
she had passed her life in traveling through every
country in the world, because her family had thrown
her off. Why had her family thrown her off?
Because of her natural impiety?
“She was, in fact, one of those
people of exalted principles, one of those opinionated
puritans of whom England produces so many, one of
those good and insupportable old women who haunt the
tables d’hote of every hotel in Europe, who
spoil Italy, poison Switzerland, render the charming
cities of the Mediterranean uninhabitable, carry everywhere
their fantastic manías, their petrified vestal
manners, their indescribable toilettes, and a
certain odor of india-rubber, which makes one believe
that at night they slip themselves into a case of
that material. When I meet one of these people
in a hotel, I act like birds which see a manikin in
a field.
“This woman, however, appeared
so singular that she did not displease me.
“Madame Lecacheur, hostile by
instinct to everything that was not rustic, felt in
her narrow soul a kind of hatred for the ecstatic
extravagances of the old girl. She had found
a phrase by which to describe her, I know not how,
but a phrase assuredly contemptuous, which had sprung
to her lips, invented probably by some confused and
mysterious travail of soul. She said: ‘That
woman is a demoniac.’ This phrase, as uttered
by that austere and sentimental creature, seemed to
me irresistibly comic. I, myself, never called
her now anything else but ‘the demoniac.’
feeling a singular pleasure in pronouncing this word
on seeing her.
“I would ask Mother Lecacheur:
’Well, what is our demoniac about to-day?’
To which my rustic friend would respond, with an air
of having been scandalized:
“’What do you think, sir?
She has picked up a toad which has had its leg battered,
and carried it to her room, and has put it in her
washstand, and dressed it up like a man. If that
is not profanation, I should like to know what is!’
“On another occasion, when walking
along the Falaise, she had bought a large fish
which had just been caught, simply to throw it back
into the sea again. The sailor, from whom she
had bought it, though paid handsomely, was greatly
provoked at this act more exasperated, indeed,
than if she had put her hand into his pocket and taken
his money. For a whole month he could not speak
of the circumstance without getting into a fury and
denouncing it as an outrage. Oh yes! She
was indeed a demoniac, this Miss Harriet, and Mother
Lecacheur must have had an inspiration of genius in
thus christening her.
“The stable-boy, who was called
Sapeur, because he had served in Africa in his youth,
entertained other aversions. He said, with a roguish
air: ‘She is an old hag who has lived her
days.’ If the poor woman had but known!
“Little kind-hearted Celeste
did not wait upon her willingly, but I was never able
to understand why. Probably her only reason was
that she was a stranger, of another race, of a different
tongue, and of another religion. She was in good
truth a demoniac!
“She passed her time wandering
about the country, adoring and searching for God in
nature. I found her one evening on her knees in
a cluster of bushes. Having discovered something
red through the leaves, I brushed aside the branches,
and Miss Harriet at once rose to her feet, confused
at having been found thus, looking at me with eyes
as terrible as those of a wild cat surprised in open
day.
“Sometimes, when I was working
among the rocks, I would suddenly descry her on the
banks of the Falaise standing like a semaphore
signal. She gazed passionately at the vast sea,
glittering in the sunlight, and the boundless sky
empurpled with fire. Sometimes I would distinguish
her at the bottom of a valley, walking quickly, with
her elastic English step; and I would go toward her,
attracted by I know not what, simply to see her illuminated
visage, her dried-up features, which seemed to glow
with an ineffable, inward, and profound happiness.
“Often I would encounter her
in the corner of a field sitting on the grass, under
the shadow of an apple-tree, with her little Bible
lying open on her knee, while she looked meditatively
into the distance.
“I could no longer tear myself
away from that quiet country neighborhood, bound to
it as I was by a thousand links of love for its soft
and sweeping landscapes. At this farm I was out
of the world, far removed from everything, but in
close proximity to the soil, the good, healthy, beautiful
green soil. And, must I avow it, there was something
besides curiosity which retained me at the residence
of Mother Lecacheur. I wished to become acquainted
a little with this strange Miss Harriet, and to learn
what passes in the solitary souls of those wandering
old, English dames.”
II.-
“We became acquainted in a rather
singular manner. I had just finished a study
which appeared to me to display genius and power; as
it must have, since it was sold for ten thousand francs,
fifteen years later. It was as simple, however,
as that two and two make four, and had nothing to
do with academic rules. The whole of the right
side of my canvas represented a rock, an enormous
rock, covered with sea-wrack, brown, yellow, and red,
across which the sun poured like a stream of oil.
The light, without which one could see the stars concealed
in the background, fell upon the stone, and gilded
it as if with fire. That was all. A first
stupid attempt at dealing with light, with burning
rays, with the sublime.
“On the left was the sea, not
the blue sea, the slate-colored sea, but a sea of
jade, as greenish, milky, and thick as the overcast
sky.
“I was so pleased with my work
that I danced from sheer delight as I carried it back
to the inn. I wished that the whole world could
have seen it at one and the same moment. I can
remember that I showed it to a cow, which was browsing
by the wayside, exclaiming, at the same time:
‘Look at that, my old beauty; you will not often
see its like again.’
“When I had reached the front
of the house, I immediately called out to Mother Lecacheur,
shouting with all my might:
“‘Ohé! Ohé! my mistress,
come here and look at this.’
“The rustic advanced and looked
at my work with stupid eyes, which distinguished nothing,
and did not even recognize whether the picture was
the representation of an ox or a house.
“Miss Harriet came into the
house, and passed in rear of me just at the moment
when, holding out my canvas at arm’s length,
I was exhibiting it to the female innkeeper.
The ‘demoniac’ could not help but see it,
for I took care to exhibit the thing in such a way
that it could not escape her notice. She stopped
abruptly and stood motionless, stupefied. It
was her rock which was depicted, the one which she
usually climbed to dream away her time undisturbed.
“She uttered a British ‘Oh,’
which was at once so accentuated and so flattering,
that I turned round to her, smiling, and said:
“This is my last work, Mademoiselle.’
“She murmured ecstatically, comically, and tenderly:
“‘Oh! Monsieur, you must understand
what it is to have a palpitation.’
“I colored up, of course, and
was more excited by that compliment than if it had
come from a queen. I was seduced, conquered, vanquished.
I could have embraced her upon my honor.
“I took my seat at the table
beside her, as I had always done. For the first
time, she spoke, drawling out in a loud voice:
“‘Oh! I love nature so much.’
“I offered her some bread, some
water, some wine. She now accepted these with
the vacant smile of a mummy. I then began to converse
with her about the scenery.
“After the meal, we rose from
the table together and walked leisurely across the
court; then, attracted by the fiery glow which the
setting sun cast over the surface of the sea, I opened
the outside gate which faced in the direction of the
Falaise, and we walked on side by side, as satisfied
as any two persons could be who have just learned to
understand and penetrate each other’s motives
and feelings.
“It was a misty, relaxing evening,
one of those enjoyable evenings which impart happiness
to mind and body alike. All is joy, all is charm.
The luscious and balmy air, loaded with the perfumes
of herbs, with the perfumes of grass-wrack, with the
odor of the wild flowers, caresses the soul with a
penetrating sweetness. We were going to the brink
of the abyss which overlooked the vast sea and rolled
past us at the distance of less than a hundred meters.
“We drank with open mouth and
expanded chest, that fresh breeze from the ocean which
glides slowly over the skin, salted as it is by long
contact with the waves.
“Wrapped up in her square shawl,
inspired by the balmy air and with teeth firmly set,
the English-woman gazed fixedly at the great sun-ball,
as it descended toward the sea. Soon its rim touched
the waters, just in rear of a ship which had appeared
on the horizon, until, by degrees, it was swallowed
up by the ocean. We watched it plunge, diminish,
and finally disappear.
“Miss Harriet contemplated with
passionate regard the last glimmer of the flaming
orb of day.
“She muttered: ‘Oh!
I love I love ’ I saw a
tear start in her eye. She continued: ’I
wish I were a little bird, so that I could mount up
into the firmament.’
“She remained standing as I
had often before seen her, perched on the river bank,
her face as red as her flaming shawl. I should
have liked to have sketched her in my album.
It would have been an ecstatic caricature. I
turned my face away from her so as to be able to laugh.
“I then spoke to her of painting,
as I would have done to a fellow-artist, using the
technical terms common among the devotees of the profession.
She listened attentively to me, eagerly seeking to
divine the sense of the obscure words, so as to penetrate
my thoughts. From time to time, she would exclaim:
’Oh! I understand, I understand. This
is very interesting.’ We returned home.
“The next day, on seeing me,
she approached me eagerly, holding out her hand; and
we became firm friends immediately.
“She was a brave creature, with
an elastic sort of a soul, which became enthusiastic
at a bound. She lacked equilibrium, like all women
who are spinsters at the age of fifty. She seemed
to be pickled in vinegary innocence, though her heart
still retained something of youth and of girlish effervescence.
She loved both nature and animals with a fervent ardor,
a love like old wine, mellow through age, with a sensual
love that she had never bestowed on men.
“One thing is certain:
a mare roaming in a meadow with a foal at its side,
a bird’s nest full of young ones, squeaking,
with their open mouths and enormous heads, made her
quiver with the most violent emotion.
“Poor solitary beings!
Sad wanderers from table d’hote to table d’hote,
poor beings, ridiculous and lamentable, I love you
ever since I became acquainted with Miss Harriet!
“I soon discovered that she
had something she would like to tell me, but dared
not, and I was amused at her timidity. When I
started out in the morning with my box on my back,
she would accompany me as far as the end of the village,
silent, but evidently struggling inwardly to find
words with which to begin a conversation. Then
she would leave me abruptly, and, with jaunty step,
walk away quickly.
“One day, however, she plucked up courage:
“’I would like to see
how you paint pictures? Will you show me?
I have been very curious.’
“And she colored up as though
she had given utterance to words extremely audacious.
“I conducted her to the bottom
of the Petit-Val, where I had commenced a large picture.
“She remained standing near
me, following all my gestures with concentrated attention.
Then, suddenly, fearing, perhaps, that she was disturbing
me, she said to me: ‘Thank you,’ and
walked away.
“But in a short time she became
more familiar, and accompanied me every day, her countenance
exhibiting visible pleasure. She carried her
folding stool under her arm; would not consent to my
carrying it, and she sat always by my side. She
would remain there for hours immovable and mute, following
with her eye the point of my brush in its every movement.
When I would obtain, by a large splatch of color spread
on with a knife, a striking and unexpected effect,
she would, in spite of herself, give vent to a half-suppressed
‘Oh!’ of astonishment, of joy, of admiration.
She had the most tender respect for my canvases, an
almost religious respect for that human reproduction
of a part of nature’s work divine. My studies
appeared to her to be pictures of sanctity, and sometimes
she spoke to me of God, with the idea of converting
me.
“Oh! He was a queer good-natured
being, this God of hers. He was a sort of village
philosopher without any great resources, and without
great power; for she always figured him to herself
as a being quivering over injustices committed under
his eyes, and helpless to prevent them.
“She was, however, on excellent
terms with him, affecting even to be the confidant
of his secrets and of his whims. She said:
“‘God wills, or God does
not will,’ just like a sergeant announcing to
a recruit: ‘The colonel has commanded.’
“At the bottom of her heart
she deplored my ignorance of the intentions of the
Eternal, which she strove, nay, felt herself compelled,
to impart to me.
“Almost every day, I found in
my pockets, in my hat when I lifted it from the ground,
in my box of colors, in my polished shoes, standing
in the mornings in front of my door, those little
pious brochures, which she, no doubt, received directly
from Paradise.
“I treated her as one would
an old friend, with unaffected cordiality. But
I soon perceived that she had changed somewhat in her
manner; but, for a while, I paid little attention
to it.
“When I walked about, whether
to the bottom of the valley, or through some country
lanes, I would see her suddenly appear, as though she
were returning from a rapid walk. She would then
sit down abruptly, out of breath, as though she had
been running or overcome by some profound emotion.
Her face would be red, that English red which is denied
to the people of all other countries; then, without
any reason, she would grow pale, become the color
of the ground, and seem ready to faint away.
Gradually, however, I would see her regain her ordinary
color, whereupon she would begin to speak.
“Then, without warning, she
would break off in the middle of a sentence, spring
up from her seat, and march off so rapidly and so
strangely, that it would, sometimes, put me to my wits’
end to try and discover whether I had done or said
anything to displease or offend her.
“I finally came to the conclusion
that this arose from her early habits and training,
somewhat modified, no doubt, in honor of me, since
the first days of our acquaintanceship.
“When she returned to the farm,
after walking for hours on the wind-beaten coast,
her long curled hair would be shaken out and hanging
loose, as though it had broken away from its bearings.
It was seldom that this gave her any concern; though
sometimes she looked as though she had been dining
sans cérémonie; her locks having become disheveled
by the breezes.
“She would then go up to her
room in order to adjust what I called her glass lamps.
When I would say to her, in familiar gallantry, which,
however, always offended her:
“‘You are as beautiful
as a planet to-day, Miss Harriet,’ a little
blood would immediately mount into her cheeks, the
blood of a young maiden, the blood of sweet fifteen.
“Then she would become abruptly
savage and cease coming to watch me paint. But
I always thought:
“‘This is only a fit of temper she is
passing through.’
“But it did not always pass
away. When I spoke to her sometimes, she would
answer me, either with an air of affected indifference,
or in sullen anger; and she became by turns rude,
impatient, and nervous. For a time I never saw
her except at meals, and we spoke but little.
I concluded, at length, that I must have offended
her in something: and, accordingly, I said to
her one evening:
“’Miss Harriet, why is
it that you do not act toward me as formerly?
What have I done to displease you? You are causing
me much pain!’
“She responded, in an angry
tone, in a manner altogether sui generis:
“‘I am always with you
the same as formerly. It is not true, not true,’
and she ran upstairs and shut herself up in her room.
“At times she would look upon
me with strange eyes. Since that time I have
often said to myself that those condemned to death
must look thus when informed that their last day has
come. In her eye there lurked a species of folly,
a folly at once mysterious and violent even
more, a fever, an exasperated desire, impatient, at
once incapable of being realized and unrealizable!
“Nay, it seemed to me that there
was also going on within her a combat, in which her
heart struggled against an unknown force that she wished
to overcome perhaps, even, something else.
But what could I know? What could I know?”
III.-
“This was indeed a singular revelation.
“For some time I had commenced
to work, as soon as daylight appeared, on a picture,
the subject of which was as follows:
“A deep ravine, steep banks
dominated by two declivities, lined with brambles
and long rows of trees, hidden, drowned in milky vapor,
clad in that misty robe which sometimes floats over
valleys at break of day. At the extreme end of
that thick and transparent fog, you see coming, or
rather already come, a human couple, a stripling and
a maiden embraced, interlaced, she, with head leaning
on him, he; inclined toward hers and lip to lip.
“A ray of the sun, glistening
through the branches, has traversed the fog of dawn
and illuminated it with a rosy reflection, just behind
the rustic lovers, whose vague shadows are reflected
on it in clear silver. It was well done, yes,
indeed, well done.
“I was working on the declivity
which led to the Val d’Etretat. This particular
morning, I had, by chance, the sort of floating vapor
which was necessary for my purpose. Suddenly,
an object appeared in front of me, a kind of phantom;
it was Miss Harriet. On seeing me, she took to
flight. But I called after her saying: ’Come
here, come here, Mademoiselle, I have a nice little
picture for you.’
“She came forward, though with
seeming reluctance. I handed her my sketch.
She said nothing, but stood for a long time motionless,
looking at it. Suddenly she burst into tears.
She wept spasmodically, like men who have been struggling
hard against shedding tears, but who can do so no
longer, and abandon themselves to grief, though unwillingly.
I got up, trembling, moved myself by the sight of
a sorrow I did not comprehend, and I took her by the
hand with a gesture of brusque affection, a true French
impulse which impels one quicker than one thinks.
“She let her hands rest in mine
for a few seconds, and I felt them quiver, as if her
whole nervous system was twisting and turning.
Then she withdrew her hands abruptly, or, rather,
tore them out of mine.
“I recognized that shiver as
soon as I had felt it: I was deceived in nothing.
Ah! the love shudder of a woman, whether she is fifteen
or fifty years of age, whether she is one of the people
or one of the monde, goes so straight to my heart
that I never had any difficulty in understanding it!
“Her whole frail being trembled,
vibrated, yielded. I knew it. She walked
away before I had time to say a word, leaving me as
surprised as if I had witnessed a miracle, and as
troubled as if I had committed a crime.
“I did not go in to breakfast.
I took a walk on the banks of the Falaise, feeling
that I could just as soon weep as laugh, looking on
the adventure as both comic and deplorable, and my
position as ridiculous, fain to believe that I had
lost my head.
“I asked myself what I ought
to do. I debated whether I ought not to take
my leave of the place and almost immediately my resolution
was formed.
“Somewhat sad and perplexed,
I wandered about until dinner time, and entered the
farmhouse just when the soup had been served up.
“I sat down at the table, as
usual. Miss Harriet was there, munching away
solemnly, without speaking to anyone, without even
lifting her eyes. She wore, however, her usual
expression, both of countenance and manner.
“I waited, patiently, till the
meal had been finished. Then, turning toward
the landlady, I said: ’Madame Lecacheur,
it will not be long now before I shall have to take
my leave of you.’
“The good woman, at once surprised
and troubled, replied in a quivering voice: ’My
dear sir, what is it I have just heard you say?
Are you going to leave us, after I have become so
much accustomed to you?’
“I looked at Miss Harriet from
the corner of my eye. Her countenance did not
change in the least; but the under-servant came toward
me with eyes wide open. She was a fat girl, of
about eighteen years of age, rosy, fresh, strong as
a horse, yet possessing a rare attribute in one in
her position she was very neat and clean.
I had kissed her at odd times, in out of the way corners,
in the manner of a mountain guide, nothing more.
“The dinner being over, I went
to smoke my pipe under the apple-trees, walking up
and down at my ease, from one end of the court to the
other. All the reflections which I had made during
the day, the strange discovery of the morning, that
grotesque and passionate attachment for me, the recollections
which that revelation had suddenly called up, recollections
at once charming and perplexing, perhaps, also, that
look which the servant had cast on me at the announcement
of my departure all these things, mixed
up and combined, put me now in an excited bodily state,
with the tickling sensation of kisses on my lips,
and in my veins something which urged me on to commit
some folly.
“Night having come on, casting
its dark shadows under the trees, I descried Celeste,
who had gone to shut the hen-coops, at the other end
of the inclosure. I darted toward her, running
so noiselessly that she heard nothing, and as she
got up from closing the small traps by which the chickens
went in and out, I clasped her in my arms and rained
on her coarse, fat face a shower of kisses. She
made a struggle, laughing all the same, as she was
accustomed to do in such circumstances. What
made me suddenly loose my grip of her? Why did
I at once experience a shock? What was it that
I heard behind me?
“It was Miss Harriet who had
come upon us, who had seen us, and who stood in front
of us, as motionless as a specter. Then she disappeared
in the darkness.
“I was ashamed, embarrassed,
more annoyed at having been surprised by her than
if she had caught me committing some criminal act.
“I slept badly that night; I
was worried and haunted by sad thoughts. I seemed
to hear loud weeping; but in this I was no doubt deceived.
Moreover, I thought several times that I heard some
one walking up and down in the house, and that some
one opened my door from the outside.
“Toward morning, I was overcome
by fatigue, and sleep seized on me. I got up
late and did not go downstairs until breakfast time,
being still in a bewildered state, not knowing what
kind of face to put on.
“No one had seen Miss Harriet.
We waited for her at table, but she did not appear.
At length, Mother Lecacheur went to her room.
The English-woman had gone out. She must have
set out at break of day, as she was wont to do, in
order to see the sun rise.
“Nobody seemed astonished at
this and we began to eat in silence.
“The weather was hot, very hot,
one of those still sultry days when not a leaf stirs.
The table had been placed out of doors, under an apple-tree;
and from time to time Sapeur had gone to the cellar
to draw a jug of cider, everybody was so thirsty.
Celeste brought the dishes from the kitchen, a ragout
of mutton with potatoes, a cold rabbit, and a salad.
Afterward she placed before us a dish of strawberries,
the first of the season.
“As I wanted to wash and freshen
these, I begged the servant to go and bring a pitcher
of cold water.”
“In about five minutes she returned,
declaring that the well was dry. She had lowered
the pitcher to the full extent of the cord, and had
touched the bottom, but on drawing the pitcher up again,
it was empty. Mother Lecacheur, anxious to examine
the thing for herself, went and looked down the hole.
She returned announcing that one could see clearly
something in the well, something altogether unusual.
But this, no doubt, was pottles of straw, which, out
of spite, had been cast down it by a neighbor.
“I wished also to look down
the well, hoping to clear up the mystery, and perched
myself close to its brink. I perceived, indistinctly,
a white object. What could it be? I then
conceived the idea of lowering a lantern at the end
of a cord. When I did so, the yellow flame danced
on the layers of stone and gradually became clearer.
All four of us were leaning over the opening, Sapeur
and Celeste having now joined us. The lantern
rested on a black and white, indistinct mass, singular,
incomprehensible. Sapeur exclaimed:
“’It is a horse.
I see the hoofs. It must have escaped from the
meadow, during the night, and fallen in headlong.’
“But, suddenly, a cold shiver
attacked my spine, I first recognized a foot, then
a clothed limb; the body was entire, but the other
limb had disappeared under the water.
“I groaned and trembled so violently
that the light of the lamp danced hither and thither
over the object, discovering a slipper.
“‘It is a woman! who who can
it be? It is Miss Harriet.’
“Sapeur alone did not manifest
horror. He had witnessed many such scenes in
Africa.
“Mother Lecacheur and Celeste
began to scream and to shriek, and ran away.
“But it was necessary to recover
the corpse of the dead. I attached the boy securely
by the loins to the end of the pulley-rope; then I
lowered him slowly, and watched him disappear in the
darkness. In the one hand he had a lantern, and
held on to the rope with the other. Soon I recognized
his voice, which seemed to come from the center of
the earth, crying:
“‘Stop.’
“I then saw him fish something
out of the water. It was the other limb.
He bound the two feet together, and shouted anew:
“‘Haul up.’
“I commenced to wind him up,
but I felt my arms strain, my muscles twitch, and
was in terror lest I should let the boy fall to the
bottom. When his head appeared over the brink,
I asked:
“‘What is it?’ as
though I only expected that he would tell me what he
had discovered at the bottom.
“We both got on to the stone
slab at the edge of the well, and, face to face, hoisted
the body.
“Mother Lecacheur and Celeste
watched us from a distance, concealed behind the wall
of the house. When they saw, issuing from the
well, the black slippers and white stockings of the
drowned person, they disappeared.
“Sapeur seized the ankles of
the poor chaste woman, and we drew it up, inclined,
as it was, in the most immodest posture. The head
was in a shocking state, bruised and black; and the
long, gray hair, hanging down, was tangled and disordered.
“‘In the name of all that
is holy, how lean she is!’ exclaimed Sapeur,
in a contemptuous tone.
“We carried her into the room,
and as the women did not put in an appearance, I,
with the assistance of the lad, dressed the corpse
for burial.
“I washed her disfigured face.
By the touch of my hand an eye was slightly opened;
it seemed to scan me with that pale stare, with that
cold, that terrible look which corpses have, a look
which seems to come from the beyond. I plaited
up, as well as I could, her disheveled hair, and I
adjusted on her forehead a novel and singularly formed
lock. Then I took off her dripping wet garments,
baring, not without a feeling of shame, as though
I had been guilty of some profanation, her shoulders
and her chest, and her long arms, slim as the twigs
of branches.
“I next went to fetch some flowers,
corn poppies, blue beetles, marguerites, and
fresh and perfumed herbs, with which to strew her
funeral couch.
“Being the only person near
her, it was necessary for me to perform the usual
ceremonies. In a letter found in her pocket, written
at the last moment, she asked that her body be buried
in the village in which she had passed the last days
of her life. A frightful thought then oppressed
my heart. Was it not on my account that she wished
to be laid at rest in this place?
“Toward the evening, all the
female gossips of the locality came to view the remains
of the defunct; but I would not allow a single person
to enter; I wanted to be alone; and I watched by the
corpse the whole night.
“By the flickering light of
the candles, I looked at the body of this miserable
woman, wholly unknown, who had died so lamentably and
so far away from home. Had she left no friends,
no relatives behind her? What had her infancy
been? What had been her life? Whence had
she come thither, all alone, a wanderer, like a dog
driven from home? What secrets of suffering and
of despair were sealed up in that disagreeable body,
in that spent and withered body, that impenetrable
hiding place of a mystery which had driven her far
away from affection and from love?
“How many unhappy beings there
are! I felt that upon that human creature weighed
the eternal injustice of implacable nature! Life
was over with her, without her ever having experienced,
perhaps, that which sustains the most miserable of
us all to wit, the hope of being once loved!
Otherwise, why should she thus have concealed herself,
have fled from the face of others? Why did she
love everything so tenderly and so passionately, everything
living that was not a man?
“I recognized, also, that she
believed in a God, and that she hoped for compensation
from him for the miseries she had endured. She
had now begun to decompose, and to become, in turn,
a plant. She who had blossomed in the sun was
now to be eaten up by the cattle, carried away in
herbs, and in the flesh of beasts, again to become
human flesh. But that which is called the soul
had been extinguished at the bottom of the dark well.
She suffered no longer. She had changed her life
for that of others yet to be born.
“Hours passed away in this silent
and sinister communion with the dead. A pale
light at length announced the dawn of a new day, and
a bright ray glistened on the bed, shedding a dash
of fire on the bedclothes and on her hands. This
was the hour she had so much loved, when the waking
birds began to sing in the trees.
“I opened the window to its
fullest extent, I drew back the curtains, so that
the whole heavens might look in upon us. Then
bending toward the glassy corpse, I took in my hands
the mutilated head, and slowly, without terror or
disgust, imprinted a long, long kiss upon those lips
which had never before received the salute of love.”
Leon Chenal remained silent.
The women wept. We heard on the box seat Count
d’Etraille blow his nose, from time to time.
The coachman alone had gone to sleep. The horses,
which felt no longer the sting of the whip, had slackened
their pace and dragged softly along. And the
four-in-hand, hardly moving at all, became suddenly
torpid, as if laden with sorrow.