Her father had been the only son of
Parson Quayle, and chaplain to the bishop at Bishopscourt.
It was there he had met her mother, who was lady’s
maid to the bishop’s wife. The maid was
a bright young Frenchwoman, daughter of a French actress,
famous in her day, and of an officer under the Empire,
who had never been told of her existence. Shortly
after their marriage the chaplain was offered a big
mission station in Africa, and, being a devotee, he
clutched at it without fear of the fevers of the coast.
But his young French wife was about to become a mother,
and she shrank from the perils of his life abroad,
so he took her to his father’s house at Peel,
and bade her farewell for five years.
He lived four, and during that time
they exchanged some letters. His final instructions
were sent from Southampton: “If it’s
a boy, call him John (after the Evangelist); and if
it’s a girl, call her Glory.” At the
end of the first year she wrote: “I have
shortened our darling, and you never saw anything
so lovely! Oh, the sweetness of her little bare
arms, and her neck, and her little round shoulders!
You know she’s redI’ve really
got a red onea curly red one! Such
big beaming eyes, too! And then her mouth, and
her chin, and her tiny red toes! I don’t
know how you can live without seeing her!” Near
the end of the fourth year he sent his last answer:
“Dear WifeThis separation is bitter;
but God has willed it, and we must not forget that
the probabilities are that we may pass our lives apart.”
The next letter was from the English consul on the
Gaboon River, announcing the death of the devoted missionary.
Parson Quayle’s household consisted
only of himself and two maiden daughters, but that
was too much for the lively young Frenchwoman.
While her husband lived, she suffocated under the
old-maid regime; and when he was gone she made
no more fight with destiny, but took some simple ailment,
and died suddenly.
A bare hillside frowned down on the
place where Glory was born; but the sun rose over
it, and a beautiful river hugged its sides. A
quarter of a mile down the river there was a harbour,
and beyond the harbour a bay, with the ruins of an
old castle standing out on an islet rock, and then
the broad sweep of the Irish Sea-the last in those
latitudes to “parley with the setting sun.”
The vicarage was called Glenfaba, and it was half
a mile outside the fishing town of Peel.
Glory was a little red-headed witch
from the first, with an air of general uncanniness
in everything she did and said. Until after she
was six there was no believing a word she uttered.
Her conversation was bravely indifferent to considerations
of truth or falsehood, fear or favour, reward or punishment.
The parson used to say, “I’m really afraid
the child has no moral conscienceshe doesn’t
seem to know right from wrong.” This troubled
his religion, but it tickled his humour, and it did
not disturb his love. “She’s a perfect
paganGod bless her innocent heart!”
She had more than a child’s
genius for make-believe. In her hunger for child
company, before the days when she found it for herself,
she made believe that various versions of herself
lived all over the place, and she would call them
out to play. There was Glory in the river, under
the pool where the perches swam, and Glory down the
well, and Glory up in the hills, and they answered
when she spoke to them. All her dolls were kings
and queens, and she had a gift for making up in strange
and grand disguises. It was almost as if her
actress grandmother had bestowed on her from her birth
the right to life and luxury and love.
She was a born mimic, and could hit
off to a hair an eccentricity or an affectation.
The frown of Aunt Anna, who was severe, the smile of
Aunt Rachel, who was sentimental, and the yawn of
Cornelius Kewley, the clerk who was always sleepy,
lived again in the roguish, rippling face. She
remembered some of her mother’s French songs,
and seeing a street-singer one day, she established
herself in the market-place in that character, with
grown people on their knees around her, ready to fall
on her and kiss her and call her Phonodoree, the fairy.
But she did not forget to go round for the ha’pennies
either.
At ten she was a tomboy, and marched
through the town at the head of an army of boys, playing
on a comb between her teeth and flying the vicar’s
handkerchief at the end of his walking-stick.
In these days she climbed trees and robbed orchards
(generally her own) and imitated boys’ voices,
and thought it tyranny that she might not wear trousers.
But she wore a sailor’s blue stocking-cap, and
it brightened existence when, for economy’s
sake and for the sake of general tidiness, she was
allowed to wear a white woollen jersey. Then
somebody who had a dinghy that he did not want asked
her if she would like to have a boat. Would she
like to have paradise, or pastry cakes, or anything
that was heavenly! After that she wore a sailor’s
jacket and a sou’wester when she was on the sea,
and tumbled about the water like a duck.
At twelve she fell in lovewith
love. It was a vague passion interwoven with
dreams of grandeur. The parson being too poor
to send her to the girls’ college at Douglas,
and his daughters being too proud to send her to the
dame’s school at Peel, she was taught at home
by Aunt Rachel, who read the poetry of Thomas Moore,
knew the birthdays of all the royal family, and was
otherwise meekly romantic. From this source she
gathered much curious sentiment relating to some visionary
world where young girls were held aloft in the sunshine
of luxury and love and happiness. One day she
was lying on her back on the heather of the Peel hill,
with her head on her arms, thinking of a story that
Aunt Rachel had told her. It was of a mermaid
who had only to slip up out of the sea and say to any
man, “Come,” and he camehe
left everything and followed her. Suddenly the
cold nose of a pointer rubbed against her forehead,
a strong voice cried, “Down, sir!” and
a young man of two and twenty, in leggings and a shooting-jacket,
strode between her and the cliffs. She knew him
by sight. He was John Storm, the son of Lord
Storm, who had lately come to live in the mansion
house at Knockaloe, a mile up the hill from Glenfaba.
For three weeks thereafter she talked
of nobody else, and even began to comb her hair.
She watched him in church, and told Aunt Rachel she
was sure he could see quite well in the dark, for
his big eyes seemed to have the light inside of them.
After that she became ashamed, and if anybody happened
to mention his name in her hearing she flushed up to
the forehead and fled out of the room. He never
once looked at her, and after a while he went away
to Canada. She set the clock on the back landing
to Canadian time, so that she might always know what
he was doing abroad, and then straightway forgot all
about him. Her moods followed each other rapidly,
and were all of them overpowering and all sincere,
but it was not until a year afterward that she fell
in love, in the church vestry, with the pretty boy
who stood opposite to her in the catechism class.
He was an English boy of her own age,
and he was only staying in the island for his holidays.
The second time she saw him it was in the grounds
at Glenfaba, while his mother was returning a call
indoors. She gave him a little tap on the arm
and he had to run after herdown a bank
and up a tree, where she laughed and said. “Isn’t
it nice?” and he could see nothing but her big
white teeth.
His name was Francis Horatio Nelson
Drake, and he was full of great accounts of the goings-on
in the outer world, where his school was, and where
lived the only “men” worth talking about.
Of course he spoke of all this familiarly and with
a convincing reality which wrapped Glory in the plumage
of dreams. He was a wonderful being, altogether,
and in due time (about three days) she proposed to
him. True, he did not jump at her offer with
quite proper alacrity, but when she mentioned that
it didn’t matter to her in the least whether
he wanted her or not, and that plenty would be glad
of the chance, he saw things differently, and they
agreed to elope. There was no particular reason
for this drastic measure, but as Glory had a boat,
it seemed the right thing to do.
She dressed herself in all her Confirmation
finery, and stole out to meet him under the bridge
where her boat lay moored. He kept her half an
hour waiting, having sisters and other disadvantages,
but “once aboard her lugger,” he was safe.
She was breathless, and he was anxious, and neither
thought it necessary to waste any time in kissing.
They slipped down the harbour and
out into the bay, and then ran up the sail and stood
off for Scotland. Being more easy in mind when
this was done, they had time to talk of the future.
Francis Horatio was for workhe was going
to make a name for himself. Glory did not see
it quite in that light. A name, yes, and lots
of triumphal processions, but she was for travelthere
were such lots of things people could see if they
didn’t waste so much time working.
“What a girl you are!”
he said derisively; whereupon she bit her lip, for
she didn’t quite like it. But they were
nearly half an hour out before he spoiled himself
utterly. He had brought his dog, a she-terrier,
and he began to call her by her kennel name and to
say what a fine little thing she was, and what a deal
of money they would make by her pups. That was
too much for Glory. She couldn’t think of
eloping with a person who used such low expressions.
“What a girl you are!”
he said again; but she did not mind it in the least.
With a sweep of her bare arm she had put the tiller
hard aport, intending to tack back to Peel, but the
wind had freshened and the sea was rising, and by
the swift leap of the boat the boom was snapped, and
the helpless sail came napping down upon the mast.
Then they tumbled into the trough, and Glory had not
strength to pull them out of it, and the boy was of
no more use than a tripper. She was in her white
muslin dress, and he was nursing his dog, and the
night was closing down on them, and they were wobbling
about under a pole and a tattered rag. But all
at once a great black yacht came heaving up in the
darkness, and a grown-up voice cried, “Trust
yourself to me, dear.”
It was John Storm. He had already
awakened the young girl in her, and thereafter he
awakened the young woman as well. She clung to
him like a child that night, and during the four years
following she seemed always to be doing the same.
He was her big brother, her master, her lord, her
sovereign. She placed him on a dizzy height above
her, amid a halo of goodness and grandeur. If
he smiled on her she flushed, and if he frowned she
fretted and was afraid. Thinking to please him,
she tried to dress herself up in all the colours of
the rainbow, but he reproved her and bade her return
to her jersey. She struggled to comb out her red
curls until he told her that the highest ladies in
the land would give both ears for them, and then she
fondled them in her fingers and admired them in a
glass.
He was a serious person, but she could
make him laugh until he screamed. Excepting Byron
and “Sir Charles Grandison,” out of the
vicar’s library, the only literature she knew
was the Bible, the Catechism, and the Church Service,
and she used these in common talk with appalling freedom
and audacity. The favourite butt of her mimicry
was the parish clerk saying responses when he was
sleepy.
The parson: “O Lord, open
thou our lips” (no response). “Where
are you, Neilus?”
The clerk (awakening suddenly in the
desk below): “Here I am, your reverenceand
our mouth shall show forth thy praise.”
When John Storm did laugh he laughed
beyond all control, and then Glory was entirely happy.
But he went away again, his father having sent him
to Australia, and all the light of her world went
out.
It was of no use bothering with the
clock on the back landing, because things were different
by this time. She was sixteen, and the only tree
she climbed now was the tree of the knowledge of good
and evil, and that tore her terribly. John Storm
was the son of a lord, and he would be Lord Something
himself some day. Glory Quayle was an orphan,
and her grandfather was a poor country clergyman.
Their poverty was sweet, but there was gall in it,
nevertheless. The little forced economies in dress,
the frocks that had to be turned, the bonnets that
were beauties when they were bought, but had to be
worn until the changes of fashion made them frights,
and then the mysterious parcels of left-off clothing
from goodness knows wherehow the independence
of the girl’s spirit rebelled against such humiliations!
The blood of her mother was beginning
to boil over, and the old-maid regime, which
had crushed the life out of the Frenchwoman, was suffocating
the Manx girl with its formalism. She was always
forgetting the meal times regulated by the sun, and
she could sleep at any time and keep awake until any
hour. It tired her to sit demurely like a young
lady, and she had a trick of lying down on the floor.
She often laughed in order not to cry, but she would
not even smile at a great lady’s silly story,
and she did not care a jot about the birthdays of the
royal family. The old aunts loved her body and
soul, but they often said, “Whatever is going
to happen to the girl when the grandfather is gone?”
And the grandfathergood
manwould have laid down his life to save
her a pain in her toe, but he had not a notion of
the stuff she was made of. His hobby was the
study of the runic crosses with which the Isle of Man
abounds, and when she helped him with his rubbings
and his casts he was as merry as an old sand-boy.
Though they occupied the same house, and her bedroom
that faced the harbour was next to his little musty
study that looked over the scullery slates, he lived
always in the tenth century and she lived somewhere
in the twentieth.
The imprisoned linnet was beating
at the bars of its cage. Before she was aware
of it she wanted to escape from the sleepy old scene,
and had begun to be consumed with longing for the
great world outside. On summer evenings she would
go up Peel Hill and lie on the heather, where she had
first seen John Storm, and watch the ships weighing
anchor in the bay beyond the old dead castle walls,
and wish she were going out with themout
to the sea and the great cities north and south.
But existence closed in ever-narrowing circles round
her, and she could see no way out. Two years
passed, and at eighteen she was fretting that half
her life had wasted away. She watched the sun
until it sank into the sea, and then she turned back
to Glenfaba and the darkened region of the sky.
It was all the fault of their poverty,
and their poverty was the fault of the Church.
She began to hate the Church; It had made her an orphan;
and when she thought of religion as a profession it
seemed a selfish thing anyway. If a man was really
bent on so lofty an aim (as her own father had been)
he could not think of himself; he had to give up life
and love and the world, and then these always took
advantage of him. But people had to live in the
world for all that, and what was the good of burying
yourself before you were dead?
Somehow her undefined wishes took
shape in visions of John Storm, and one day she heard
he was home again. She went out on the hill that
evening and, being seen only by the gulls, she laughed
and cried and ran. It was just like poetry, for
there he was himself lying on the edge of the cliff
near the very spot where she had been used to lie.
On seeing him she went more slowly, and began to poke
about in the heather as if she had seen nothing.
He came up to her with both hands outstretched, and
then suddenly she remembered that she was wearing
her old jersey, and she flushed up to the eyes and
nearly choked with shame. She got better by-and-bye
and talked away like a mill-wheel, and then fearing
he might think it was from something quite different,
she began to pull the heather and to tell him why
she had been blushing. He did not laugh at all.
With a strange smile he said something in his deep
voice that made her blood run cold.
“But I’m to be a poor
man myself in future, Glory. I’ve quarrelled
with my father. I’m going into the Church.”
It was a frightful blow to her, and
the sun went down like a shot. But it burst open
the bars of her cage for all that. After John
Storm had found a curacy in London and taken Orders,
he told them at Glenfaba that among his honorary offices
was to be that of chaplain to a great West End hospital.
This suggested to Glory the channel of escape.
She would go out as a hospital nurse. It was
easier said than done, for hospital nursing was fashionable,
and she was three years too young. With great
labour she secured her appointment as probationer,
and with greater labour still overcame the fear and
affection of her grandfather. But the old parson
was finally appeased when he heard that Glory’s
hospital was the same that John Storm was to be chaplain
of, and that they might go up to London together.