THE OUTER WORLD - CHAPTER III.
“Dear Grandfather Of Me, And
Everybody At Glenfaba: Here I am at last, dears,
at the end of my Pilgrim’s Progress, and the
evening and the morning’ are the first day.
It is now eleven o’clock at night, and I am
about to put myself to bed in my own little room at
the hospital of Martha’s Vineyard, Hyde Park,
London, England.
“The captain was quite right;
the morning was as fresh as his flattery, and before
we got far beyond the Head most of the passengers were
spread out below like the three legs of Man.
Being an old sea-doggie myself, I didn’t give
it the chance to make me sick, but went downstairs
and lay quiet in my berth and deliberated great things.
I didn’t go up again until we got into the Mersey,
and then the passengers were on deck, looking like
sour buttermilk spilt out of the churn.
“What a glorious sight!
The ships, the docks, the towers, the town! I
couldn’t breathe for excitement until we got
up to the landing-stage. Mr. Storm put me into
a cab, and for the sake of experience I insisted on
paying my own way. Of course he tried to trick
me, but a woman’s a woman for a’ that.
As we drove up to Lime Street station there befella
porter. He carried my big trunk on his head (like
a mushroom), and when I bought my ticket he took me
to the train while Mr. Storm went for a newspaper.
Being such a stranger, he was very kind, so I flung
the responsibility on Providence and gave him sixpence.
“There were two old ladies in
the carriage beside ourselves, and the train we travelled
by was an express. It was perfectly delightful,
and for all the world like plunging into a stiff sou’wester
off the rocks at Contrary. But the first part
of the journey was terrible. That tunnel nearly
made me shriek. It was a misty day too at Liverpool,
and all the way to Edge Hill they let off signals
with a noise like battering-rams. My nerves were
on the rack; so taking advantage of the darkness of
the carriage, I began to sing. That calmed me,
but it nearly drove the old ladies out of their wits.
They screamed if I didn’t; and just as
I was summoning the Almighty to attend to me a little
in the middle of that inferno, out we came as innocent
as a baby. There was another of these places
just before getting into London. I suppose they
are purgatories through which you have to pass to
get to these wonderful cities. Only if I had
been consulted in the making of the Litany (’from
sudden death, good Lord, deliver us’) I should
have made an exception for people in tunnels.
“You never knew what an absolute
ninny Glory is! I was burning with such impatience
to see London that when we came near it I couldn’t
see anything for water under the brain. Approaching
a great and mighty city for the first time must be
like going into the presence of majesty. Only
Heaven save me from such palpitation the day I
become songstress to the Queen!
“Mercy! what a roar and booma
deep murmur as of ten hundred million million moths
humming away on a still evening in autumn! On
a nearer view it is more like a Tower-of-Babel concern,
with its click and clatter. The explosion of
voices, the confused clamour, the dreadful disordercars,
wagons, omnibusesit makes you feel religious
and rather cold down the back. What a needle
in a haystack a poor girl must be here if there is
nobody above to keep track of her!
“Tell Aunt Rachel they are wearing
another kind of bonnet in Londonmore pokey
in frontand say if I see the Queen I’ll
be sure to tell her all about it.
“We didn’t get to the
hospital until nine, so I’ve not seen much of
it yet. The housekeeper gave me tea and told
me I might go over the house, as I wouldn’t
be wanted to begin duty before morning. So for
an hour I went from ward to ward like a female Wandering
Jew. Such silence! I’m afraid this
hospital nursing is going to be a lockjaw business.
And now I’m going to bedwell, not
homesick, you know, but just ’longing a lil
bit for all.’ To-morrow morning I’ll
waken up to new sounds and sights, and when I draw
my blind I’ll see the streets where the cars
are forever running and rattling. Then I’ll
think of Glenfaba and the birds singing and rejoicing.
“Dispense my love throughout
the island. Say that I love everybody just the
same now I’m a London lady as when I was a mere
provincial girl, and that when I’m a wonderful
woman, and have brought the eyes of England upon me,
I’ll come back and make amends. I can hear
what grandfather is saying: ‘Gough bless
me, what a girl, though!’ Glory.
“P. S.I’ve
not said much about Mr. Storm. He left me at the
door of the hospital and went on to the house of his
vicar, for that is where he is to lodge, you know.
On the way up I expended much beautiful poetry upon
him on the subject of love. The old girlies having
dozed off, I chanced to ask him if he liked to talk
of it, but he said no, it was a profanation.
Love was too sacred, it was a kind of religion.
Sometimes it came unawares, sometimes it smouldered
like fire under ashes, sometimes it was a good angel,
sometimes a devil, making you do things and say things,
and laying your life waste like winter. But I
told him it was just charming, and as for religion,
there was nothing under heaven like the devotion of
a handsome and clever man to a handsome and clever
woman, when he gave up all the world for her, and
his body and his soul and everything that was his.
I think he saw there was something in that, for though
he said nothing, there came a wonderful light into
his splendid eyes, and I thought if he wasn’t
going to be a clergymanbut no matter.
So long, dear!”