A week later Glory made her first
visit to the theatre. Her companions were Drake,
who was charmed with her naïveté; Lord Robert,
who was amused by it; and Polly Love, who was annoyed
and ashamed, and uttered little peevish exclamations.
As they entered the box which they
were to occupy, the attendant drew back the curtain,
and at sight of the auditorium she cried, “Oh!”
and then checked herself and coloured deeply.
With her eyes down she sat where directed in one of
the three seats in front, Polly being on her right
and Drake on her left, and Lord Robert at the back
of the lace curtain. For some minutes she did
not smile or stir, and when she spoke it was always
in whispers. A great awe seemed to have fallen
upon her, and she was behaving as she behaved in church.
Drake began to explain the features
of the theatre. Down there were the stalls, and
behind the stalls was the pit. The body?
Well, yesthe body, so to speak. And
the three galleries were the dress circle, the family
circle, and the gallery proper. The organ loft?
No, there was no organ, but that empty place below
was the well for the orchestra.
“And what is this little vestry?” she
said.
“Oh, this is a private box where
we can sit by ourselves and talk!” said Drake.
At every other explanation she had
made little whispered cries of astonishment and delight;
but when she heard that conversation was not forbidden
she was entirely happy. She thought a theatre
was even more beautiful than a church, and supposed
an actor must have a wonderful living.
The house was filling rapidly, and
as the people entered she watched them intently.
“What a beautiful congregation!”
she whispered“audience, I mean!”
“Do you think so?” said Polly; but Glory
did not hear her.
It was delightful to see so many lovely
faces and listen to the low hum of their conversation.
She felt happy among them already and quite kind to
everybody, because they had all come together to enjoy
themselves. Presently she bowed to some one in
the stall with a face all smiles, and then said to
Polly:
“How nice of her! A lady
moved, to me from the body. How friendly they
are in theatres!”
“But it was to Mr. Drake,”
said Polly; and then Glory could have buried her face
in her confusion.
“Never mind, Glory,” said
Drake; “that’s a lady who will like you
the better for the little mistake.Rosa,”
he added, with a look toward Lord Robert, who smoothed
his mustache and bent his head.
Polly glanced up quickly at the mention
of the name; and Drake explained that Rosa was a friend
of his owna lady journalist, Miss Rosa
Macquarrie, a good and clever woman. Then, turning
back to Glory, he said:
“She has been standing up for
your friend Mr. Storm this week. You know there
have been attacks upon him in the newspapers?”
“Has she?” said Glory,
recovering herself and looking down again. “Which
pewstall, I mean ”
But the people were clapping their
hands and turning their faces to the opposite side
of the theatre. Some great personage was entering
the royal box.
“My chief, the Home Secretary,”
said Drake; and, when the applause had subsided and
the party were seated, the great man recognised his
secretary and bowed to him; whereupon it seemed to
Glory that every face in the theatre turned about
and looked at her.
She did not flinch, but bore herself
bravely. There was a certain thrill and a slight
twitching of the head, such as a charger makes at the
first volley in battlenothing more, not
even the quiver of an eyelid. This was the atmosphere
in which Drake lived, and she felt a vague gratitude
to him for allowing her to move in it.
“Isn’t it beautiful!”
she whispered, turning toward Polly; but Polly’s
face was hidden behind the curtain.
The orchestra was coming in, and Glory
leaned forward and counted the fiddles, while Drake
talked with Lord Robert across her shoulder.
“I found him reading Rosa’s
article this morning, and it seems he was present
himself and heard the sermon,” said Drake.
“And what’s his opinion?” asked
Lord Robert.
“Much the same as your own.
Affectationthe man is suffering from the
desire to be originalmore egotism than
love of truth, and so forth.”
“Right, too, dear boy.
All this vapouring is as much as to say: ’Look
at me! I am the Hon. and Rev. Mr. Thingamy, nephew
of the Prime Minister; and yet ’”
“I don’t at all agree
with the chief,” said Drake, “and I told
him so. The man has enthusiasm, and that’s
the very salt of the earth at present. We are
all such pessimists in these days! Thank God for
anybody who will warm us up with a little faith, say
I!”
Glory’s bosom heaved, and she
was just about to speak, when, there was a sudden
clap as of thunder, and she leaped up in her seat.
But it was only the beginning of the overture, and
she sat down laughing. There was a tender passage
in the music; and after it was over she was very quiet
for a while, and then whispered to Polly that she
hoped little Johnnie wasn’t worse to-night,
and it seemed wicked to enjoy one’s self when
any one was so poorly.
“Who is that?” said Drake.
“My little boy whose leg was amputated,”
said Glory.
“This Glory is so funny!” said Polly.
“Fancy talking of that here!”
“Hush!” said Lord Robert;
“the curtain is going up.” And at
the next moment Glory was laughing because they were
all in the dark.
The play was Much Ado about Nothing,
and Glory whispered to Drake that she had never seen
it before, but she had read Macbeth, and knew all
about Shakespeare and the drama. The first scene
took her breath away, being so large and so splendid.
It represented the outside of a gentleman’s
house, and she thought what a length of time it must
have taken to build it, considering it was to last
only a single night. But hush! The people
were going indoors. No; they preferred to talk
in the street. Oh, we were in Italy? Yes,
indeed, that was different.
Leonato delivered his first speeches
forcibly, and was rewarded with applause. Glory
clapped her hands also, and said he was a very good
actor for such a very old gentleman.
Then Beatrice made her entrance, and
was greeted with cheers, whereupon Glory looked perplexed.
“It’s Terry,” whispered
Polly; and Drake said, “Ellen Terry”; but
Glory still looked puzzled.
“They are calling her ‘Beatrice,’”
she said. Then, mastering the situation, she
looked wise and said: “Of coursethe
actressI quite understand; but why do
they applaud hershe has done nothing yet?”
Drake explained that the lady playing
Beatrice was a great favourite, and that the applause
of the audience had been of the nature of a welcome
to a welcome guest, as much as to say they had liked
her before, and were glad to see her again. Glory
thought that was beautiful, and, looking at the gleaming
eyes that shone out of the darkness, she said:
“How lovely to be an actress!”
Then she turned back to the stage,
where all was bright and brilliant, and said, “What
a lovely frock, too!”
“Only a stage costume, my dear,” said
Polly.
“And what beautiful diamonds!”
“Paste,” said Lord Robert.
“Hush!” said Drake; and
then Benedick entered, and the audience received him
with great cheering. “Irving,” whispered
Drake; and Glory looked more perplexed than before
and said:
“But you told me it was Mr.
Irving’s theatre, and I thought it would have
been his place to welcome ”
The vision of Benedick clapping his
hands at his own entrance set Lord Robert laughing
in his cold way: but Drake said, “Be quiet,
Robert!”
Glory, like a child, had ears for
no conversation except her own, and she was immersed
in the play in a moment. The merry war of Beatrice
and Benedick had begun, and as she watched it her
face grew grave.
“Now, that’s very foolish
of her,” she said; “and if, as you say,
she’s a great actress, she shouldn’t do
such things. To talk like that to a man is to
let everybody see that she likes him better than anybody
else, though she’s trying her best to hide it.
The silly girlhe’ll find her out!”
But the curtain had gone down on the
first act, the lights had suddenly gone up, and her
companions were laughing at her. Then she laughed
also.
“Of course, it’s only
a play,” she said largely, “and I know
all about plays and about acting, and I can act myself,
too.”
“I’m sure you can,”
said Polly, lifting her lip. But Glory took no
notice.
Throughout the second act she put
on the same airs of knowledge, watching the masked
ball intently, but never once uttering a laugh and
hardly ever smiling. The light, the colour, the
dresses, the gay young faces enchanted her; but she
struggled to console herself. It was only her
body that was up there, leaning over the front of
the box with lips twitching and eyes gleaming; her
soul was down on the stage, clad in a lovely gown,
and carrying a mask and laughing and joking with Benedick;
but she held herself in, and when the curtain fell
she began to talk of the acting.
She was still of the opinion that
Leonato was excellent for such an elderly gentleman,
and when Polly praised Claudio she agreed that he was
good too.
“But Benedick is my boy for
all,” she said. In some way she had identified
herself with Beatrice, and hardly ever spoke of her.
During the third act this air of wisdom
and learning broke down badly. In the middle
of the ballad, “Sigh no more, ladies, sigh no
more,” she remembered Johnnie, and whispered
to Drake how ill he had been when they left the hospital.
And when it was over, and Benedick protested that the
song had been vilely sung, she sat back in her seat
and said she didn’t know how Mr. Irving could
say such a thing, for she was sure the boy had sung
it beautifully.
“But that’s the author,”
whispered Drake; and then she said wisely:
“Oh, yes, I knowShakespeare, of
course.”
Then came the liming of the two love-birds,
and she declared that everybody was in love in plays
of that sort, and that was why she liked them; but
as for those people playing the trick, they were very
simple if they thought Beatrice didn’t know
she loved Benedick. Claudio fell woefully in
her esteem in other respects also, and when he agreed
to spy on Hero she said he ought to be ashamed of
himself anyhow.
“How ridiculous you are!”
said Polly. “It’s the author, isn’t
it?”
“Then the author ought to be
ashamed of himself, also, for it is unjust and cruel
and unnecessary,” said Glory.
The curtain had come down again by
this time, and the men were deep in an argument about
morality in art, Lord Robert protesting that art had
no morality, and Drake maintaining that what Glory
said was right, and there was no getting to the back
of it.
But the fourth act witnessed Glory’s
final vanquishment. When she found the scene
was the inside of a church and they were to be present
at a wedding, she could not keep still on her seat
for delight; but when the marriage was stopped and
Claudio uttered his denunciation of Hero, she said
it was just like him, and it would serve him right
if nobody believed him.
“Hush!” said somebody near them.
“But they are believing him,” said Glory
quite audibly.
“Hush! Hush!” came from many parts
of the theatre.
“Well, that’s shamefulher
father, too ” began Glory.
“Hush, Glory!” whispered
Drake; but she had risen to her feet, and when Hero
fainted and fell she uttered a cry.
“What a girl!” whispered Polly. “Sit
downeverybody’s looking!”
“It’s only a play, you
know,” whispered Drake; and Glory sat down and
said:
“Well, yes; of course, it’s only a play.
Did you suppose ”
But she was lost in a moment.
Beatrice and Benedick were alone in the church now;
and when Beatrice said, “Kill Claudio,”
Glory leaped up again and clapped her hands.
But Benedick would not kill Claudio, and it was the
last straw of all. That wasn’t what she
called being a great actor, and it was shameful to
“sit and listen to such plays. Lots of disgraceful
scenes happened in life, but people didn’t come
to the theatre to see such things, and she would go.
“How ridiculous you are!”
said Polly; but Glory was out in the corridor, and
Drake was going after her.
She came back at the beginning of
the fifth act with red eyes and confused smiles, looking
very much ashamed. From that moment onward she
cried a good deal, but gave no other sign until the
green curtain came down at the end, when she said:
“It’s a wonderful thing!
To make people forget it’s not true is the most
wonderful thing in the world!”
Lord Robert, standing behind the curtain
at the back of Polly’s chair, had been laughing
at Glory with his long owlish drawl, and making cynical
interjections by way of punctuating her enthusiasm;
and now he said, “Would you like to have a nearer
view of your wonderful world, Glory?”
Glory looked perplexed, and Drake
muttered, “Hold your tongue, Robert!”
Then, turning to Glory, he said shortly: “He
only asked if you would like to go behind the scenes;
but I don’t think ”
Glory uttered a cry of delight.
“Like it? Better than anything in the world!”
“Then I must take you to a rehearsal
somewhere,” said Lord Robert; “and you’ll
both come to tea at the chambers afterward.”
Drake made some show of dissent; but
Polly, with her most voluptuous look upward, said
it would be perfectly charming, and Glory was in raptures.
The girls, by their own choice, went
home without escort by the Hammersmith omnibus.
They sat on opposite sides and hardly talked at all.
Polly was humming idly. “Sigh no more, ladies.”
Glory was in a trance. A great,
bright, beautiful world had that night swum into her
view, and all her heart was yearning for it with vague
and blind aspirations. It might be a world of
dreams, but it seemed more real than reality, and
when the omnibus passed the corner of Piccadilly Circus
she forgot to look at the women who were crowding the
pavement.
The omnibus drew up for them at the
door of the hospital, and they took long breaths as
they went up the steps.
In the corridor to the surgical ward
they came upon John Storm. His head was down
and his step was long and measured, and he seemed to
be trying to pass them in his grave silence; but Glory
stopped and spoke, while Polly went on to her cubicle.
“You here so late?” she said.
He looked steadily into her face and
answered, “I was sent forsome one
was dying.”
“Was it little Johnnie?”
“Yes.”
There was not a tear now, not a quiver of an eyelid.
“I don’t think I care
for this life,” she said fretfully. “Death
is always about you everywhere, and a girl can never
go out to enjoy herself but ”
“It is true woman’s work,”
said John hotly, “the truest, noblest work a
woman can have in all the world!”
“Perhaps,” said Glory,
swinging on her heel. “All the same ”
“Good-night!” said John, and he turned
on his heel also.
She looked after him and laughed.
Then with a little hard lump at her heart she took
herself off to bed.
Polly Love, in the next cubicle, was
humming as she undressed:
Sigh no more, ladies, sigh no more,
Men were deceivers ever.
That night Glory dreamed that she
was back at Peel. She was sitting up on the Peel
hill, watching the big ships as they weighed anchor
in the bay beyond the old dead castle walls, and wishing
she were going out with them to the sea and the great
cities so far away.