“Martha’s.

“Lost, stolen, or strayeda man, a clergyman, answers to the name of John Storm.  Or rather he does not answer, having allowed himself to be written to twice without making so much as a yap or a yowl by way of reply.  Last seen six days ago, when he was suffering from the sulks, after being in a de’il of a temper, with a helpless and innocent maiden who ‘doesn’t know nothin’,’ that can have given him offence.  Any one giving information of his welfare and whereabouts to the said H. and I. M. will be generously and appropriately rewarded.

“But, soberly, my dear John Storm, what has become of you?  Where are you, and whatever have you been doing since the day of the dreadful inquisition?  Frightful rumours are flying through the air like knives, and they cut and wound a poor girl woefully.  Therefore be good enough to reply by return of postand in person.

“Meantime please accept it as a proof of my eternal regard that after two knock-down blows received in silence I am once more coming up smiling.  Know, then, that Mr. Drake has justified all expectations, having compelled Lord Robert to provide for Polly, who is now safely ensconced in her own country castle somewhere in St. John’s Wood, furnished to hand with servants and vassals complete.  Thus you will be charmed to observe in me the growth of the prophetic instinct, for you will remember my positive prediction that if a girl were in trouble, and the necessity arose, Mr. Drake would be the first to help her.  Of course, he had a great deal to say that was as sweet as syrup on the loyalty of my own friendship also, and he expended much beautiful rhetoric on yourself as well.  It seems that you are one of those who follow the impulse of the heart entirely, while the rest of us divide our allegiance with the head; and if you display sometimes the severity of a tyrant of our sex, that is only to be set down as another proof of your regard and of the elevation of the pedestal whereon you desire us to be placed.  Thus he reconciles me to the harmony of the universe, and makes all things easy and agreeable.

“This being the case, I have now to inform you that Polly’s baby has come, having hastened his arrival (it is a man, bless it!) owing either to the tears or the terrors of the crocodile.  And being on night duty now, and therefore at liberty from 6.30 to 8.30, I intend to pay him my first call of ceremony this evening, when anybody else would be welcome to accompany me who might be willing to come to his shrine of innocence and love in the spirit of the wise men of the East.  But, lest anybody should inquire for me at the hospital at the first of the hours aforesaid, this is to give warning that the White Owl has expressly forbidden all intercourse between the members of her staff and the discharged and dishonoured mother.  Set it down to my spirit of contradiction that I intend to disregard the mandate, though I am only too well aware that the poor discharged and dishonoured one has no other idea of friendship than that of a loyalty in which she shares but is not sharing.  Of course, woman is born to such selfishness as the sparks fly upward; but if I should ever meet with a man who isn’t I will just give myself up to himbody and soul and belongingsunless he has a wife or other encumbrance already and is booked for this world, and in that event I will enter into my own recognisances and be bound over to him for the next.  Glory.”

At six-thirty that evening Glory stood waiting in the portico of the hospital, but John Storm did not come.  At seven she was ringing at the bell of a little house in St. John’s Wood that stood behind a high wall and had an iron grating in the garden door.  The bell was answered by a good-natured, slack-looking servant, who was friendly, and even familiar in a moment.

“Are you the young lady from the hospital?  The missis told me about you.  I’m Liza, and come upstairsYes, doing nicely, thank you, both of ’em isand mind your head, miss.”

Polly was in a little bandbox of a bedroom, looking more pink and white than ever against the linen of her frilled pillow slips.  By the bedside a woman of uncertain age in deep mourning, with little twinkling eyes and fat cheeks, was rocking the baby on her knee and babbling over it in words of maudlin endearment.

“Bless it, ’ow it do notice!  Boo-loo-loo!”

Glory leaned over the little one and pronounced it the prettiest baby she had ever seen.

“Syme ’ere miss.  There ain’t sech another in all London!  It’s jest the sort of baby you can love.  Pore little thing, it’s quite took to me already, as if it wanted to enkirridge you, my dear.”

“This is Mrs. Jupe,” said Polly, “and she’s going to take baby to nurse.”

“Boo-loo-loo-boo!  And a nice new cradle’s awaiting of it afront of the fire in my little back parlour.  Boo-loo!”

“But surely you’re never going to part with your baby!” said Glory.

“Why, what do you suppose, dear?  Do you think I’m going to be tied to a child all my days, and never be able to go anywhere or do anything or amuse myself at all?”

“Jest that.  It’ll be to our mootual benefit, as I said when I answered your advertisement.”

Glory asked the woman if she was married and had any children of her own.

“Me, miss?  I’ve been married eleven years, and I’ve allwiz prayed the dear Lord to gimme childring.  Got any?  On’y one little girl; but I want to adopt another from the birth, so as to have something to love when my own’s growed up.”

Glory supposed that Polly could see her baby at any time, but the woman answered doubtfully: 

“Can she see baby?  Well, I would rather not, certingly.  If I tyke it I want to feel it is syme as my very own and do my dooty by it, pore thing!  And if the mother were coming and going I should allwiz feel as she ’ad the first claim.”

Polly showed no interest in the conversation until Mrs. Jupe asked for the name of her “friend,” in lieu of eighty pounds that were to be paid down on delivery of the child.

“Come, myke up your mind, my dear, and let me tyke it away at onct.  Give me ’is nyme, that’s good enough for me.”

After some hesitation Glory gave Lord Robert’s name and address, and the woman prepared the child for its departure.

“Don’t tyke on so, my dear.  ’Tain’t sech a great crime, and many a laidy of serciety ’as done worse.”

At the street door Glory asked Mrs. Jupe for her own address, and the woman gave her a card, saying if she ever wanted to leave the hospital it would be easy to help such a fine-looking young woman as she was to make a bit of living for herself.

Polly recovered speedily from the trouble of the child’s departure, and presently assumed an easy and almost patronizing tone toward Glory, pretending to be amused and even a little indignant when asked how soon she expected to be fit for business again, and able to do without Lord Robert’s assistance.

“To tell you the truth,” she said, “I was as much to blame as he was.  I wanted to escape from the drudgery of the hospital, and I knew he would take me when the time came.”

Glory left early, vowing in her heart she would come no more.  When she changed her omnibus at Piccadilly the Circus was very full of women.

“Letter for you, nurse,” said the porter as she entered the hospital.  It was from John Storm.

“Dear Glory:  I have at length decided to enter the Brotherhood at Bishopsgate Street, and I am to go into the monastery this evening.  It is not as a visitor that I am going this time, but as a postulant or novice and in the hope of becoming worthy in due course to take the vows of lifelong consecration.  Therefore I am writing to you probably for the last time, and parting from you perhaps forever.

“Since we came up to London together I have suffered many shocks and disappointments, and I seem to have been torn in ribbons.  My cherished dreams have proved to be delusions; the palaces I had built up for myself have turned out to be pasteboard, gilt, and rubbish; I have been robbed of all my jewels, or they have shown themselves to be shingle stones.  In this condition of shame and disillusionment I am now resolved to escape at the same time from the world and from myself, for I am tired of both alike, and already I feel as if a great weight had been lifted off me.

“But I wish to speak of you.  You must have thought me cantankerous, and so I have been sometimes, but always by conviction and on principle.  I could not countenance the fashionable morality that is corrupting the manhood of the laity, or endure the toleration that is making the clergy thoroughly wicked; I could not without a pang see you cater to the world’s appetites or be drawn into its gaieties and frivolities; and it was agony to me to fear that a girl of your pure if passionate nature might perhaps fall a victim to a gamester in life’s folliesan actor indulging a pastimea mere cheat.

“And what you tell me of your friend’s altered circumstances does not relieve me of such anxieties.  The man who has deceived a girl once is likely to deceive her again.  Short of marriage itself, such connections should be cut off entirely, whatever the price.  When they are maintained in relations of liberty the victim is sure to be further victimized, and her last state is always worse than the first.

“However, I do not wish to blame anybody, least of all you, who have done everything for the best, and especially now when I am parting from you forever.  You have never realized how much you have been to me, and I doubt if I knew it myself until to-day.  You know how I was brought upwith a solitary old manGod be with him!who tried to be good to me for the sake of his ambitions, and to love me for the sake of his revenge.  I never knew my mother, I never had a sister, and I can never have a wife.  You were all three to me and yourself besides.  There were no women in our household, and you stood for woman in my life.  I have never told you this before, but now I tell it as a dying man whispers his secret with his parting breath.

“I have written my letters of farewellone to my father, asking his forgiveness if I have done him any wrong; one to my uncle, with my love and thanks; and one to your good old grandfather, giving up my solemn and sacred trust of you.  My conduct will of course be condemned as weak and foolish from many points of view, but by my departure some difficulties will be removed, and for the rest I have come to see that everything is done by the spirit and nothing by the flesh, and that by prayer and fasting I can help and protect you more than by counsel and advice.  Thus everything is for the best.

“The rule under which the Brothers live in community forbids them to write and receive letters without special permission, or even to think too constantly of the world outside; and now that I am on the eve of that new life, memories of the old one keep crowding on me as on a drowning man.  But they are all of one periodthe days when we were at Peel in your sweet little island, before the vain and cruel world came in between us, when you were a simple, merry girl, and I was little more than a happy boy, and we went plunging and laughing through your bright blue sea together.

“But earth’s joys grow very dim and its glories are fading.  That also is for the best.  I have my Koh-i-noormy desire to depart and surrender my life to God.  John Storm.”

“Anything wrong, nurse?  Feeling ill, ain’t ye?  Only dizzy a bit?  Unpleasant news from home, perhaps?”

“No, something else.  Let me sit in your room, porter.”

She read the letter again and again, until the words seemed blurred and the lines irregular as a spider’s web.  Then she thought:  “We can not part forever like this.  I must see him again whatever happens.  Perhaps he has not yet gone.”

It was now half-past eight and time to go on duty, but she went upstairs to Sister Allworthy and asked for an hour’s further leave.  The request was promptly refused.  She went downstairs to the matron and asked for half an hour, only that she might see a friend away on a long journey, and that was refused too.  Then she tightened her quivering lips, returned to the porter’s room, fixed her bonnet on before the scratched pier-glass, and boldly walked out of the hospital.

It was now quite dark and the fashionable dinner hour of Belgravia, and as she hurried through the streets many crested and coroneted carriages drew up at the great mansions and discharged their occupants in evening dress.  The canon’s house was brilliantly lighted, and when the door was opened in answer to her knock she could see the canon himself at the head of his own detachment of diners coming downstairs with a lady in white silk chatting affably on his arm.

“Is Mr. Storm at home?”

The footman, in powdered wig and white cotton gloves, answered haltingly.  “If it iseranything about the hospital, miss, Mr.erGolightly will attend.”

“No, it is Mr. Storm himself I wish to see.”

“Gorn!” said the footman, and he shut the door in her face.

She had an impulse to hammer on the door with her hand, and command the flunky to go down on his knees and beg her pardon.  But what was the good?  She had no time to think of herself now.

As a last resource she would go to Bishopsgate.  How dense the traffic seemed to be at Victoria!  She had never felt so helpless before.

It was better in the city, and as she walked eastward, in the direction indicated by a policeman, every step brought her into quieter streets.  She was now in that part of London which is the world’s busiest market-place by day, but is shut up and deserted at night.  Her light footsteps echoed against the shutters of the shops.  The moon had risen, and she could see far down the empty street.

She found the place at last.  It was one of London’s weather-beaten old churches, shouldered by shops on either hand, and almost pushed back by the tide of traffic.  There was an iron gate at the side, leading by an arched passage to a little courtyard, which was bounded by two high blank walls, by the back wall of the church, and by the front of a large house with a small doorway and many small windows.  In the middle of the courtyard there was a tree with a wooden seat round its trunk.

And being there, she felt afraid and almost wished she had not come.  The church was dimly lighted, and she thought perhaps the cleaners were within.  But presently there was a sound of singing, in men’s voices only, and without any kind of musical accompaniment.  Just then the clock in the steeple struck nine, and chimes began to play: 

  Days and moments quickly flying.

The singing came to an end, and there was some low, inarticulate droning, and then a general “Amen.”  The hammer of the bell continued to beat out its hymn, and Glory stood under the shadow of the tree to collect her thoughts.

Then the sacristy door opened and a line of men came out.  They were in long black cassocks, and they crossed the courtyard from the church to the house with the measured and hasty step of monks, and with their hands clasped at their breasts.  Almost at the end of the line, walking with an old man whose tread was heavy, there was a younger one who was bareheaded, and who did not wear the cassock.  The moon threw a light on his face, which looked pale and worn.  It was John Storm.

Glory gave a faint cry, a gasp, and he turned round as if startled.

“Only the creaking of the sycamore,” said the Superior.  And then the mysterious shadows took them; they passed into the house, the door was closed, and she was alone with the chimes: 

  Days and moments quickly flying,
  Blend the living with the dead.

Glory’s strength had deserted her, and she went away as she came.  When she got back to Victoria, she felt for the first time as if her own little life had been swallowed up in the turmoil of London, and she had gone down to the cold depths of an icy sea.

It was a quarter to ten when she returned to the ward, and the matron, with her dog on her lap, was waiting to receive her.

“Didn’t I tell you that you could not go out to-night?”

“Yes, ma’am,” said Glory.

“Then how did you dare to go?”

Glory looked at her unwaveringly, with glittering eyes that seemed to smile, whereupon the matron picked up her dog, gathered up her train, and swept out of the ward, saying: 

“Nurse, you can leave me at the end of your term; and you need never cross the doors of this institution again.”

Then Glory, who had all night wanted to cry, burst into laughter.  The ward Sister reproved her, but she laughed in the woman’s fat face, and would have given worlds to slap it.

There was not a nurse in the hospital who showed more bright and cheerful spirits when the patients were being prepared for the night.  But next morning, in the gray dawn, when she had dragged herself to bed, and was able at length to be alone, she beat the pillows with both hands and sobbed in her loneliness and shame.