At eleven o’clock that night
Glory was putting on her hat and cloak to return home
when the call-boy came to the dressing-room door to
say that the stage manager was waiting to see her.
With a little catch, in her breath, and then with
a tightening of the heart-strings, she followed him
to the stage manager’s office. It was a
stuffy place over the porter’s lodge, approached
by a flight of circular iron stairs and lumbered with
many kinds of theatrical property.
“Come in, my dear,” said
the stage manager, and pushing away some models of
scenery he made room for her on a sofa which stood
by a fast-dying fire. Then shutting the door,
he bobbed his head at her and winked with both eyes,
and said in a familiar whisper:
“It’s all right, my dear.
I’ve settled that little matter for you.”
“Do you mean ”
began Glory, and then she waited with parted lips.
“It’s as good as done,
my dear. Sit down.” Glory had risen
in her excitement. “Sit down and I’ll
tell you everything.”
He had spoken to his management.
“Gentlemen,” he had said, “unless
I’m mistaken I’ve found a prize.”
They had laughed. He was always finding prizes.
But he knew what he was talking about, and they had
given him carte blanche.
“You think there is really some
likelihood, then ” began Glory,
with the catch in her breath again, for her throat
was thick and her breast was heaving.
“Sit down, now do sit down, my dear, and listen.”
He was suave, he was flattering, he
was intimate, he was, coaxing. She was to leave
everything to him. Of course, there was much to
be done yet. She had a wonderful voice; it was
finer than music. She had style as well; it was
astonishing how she had come by it. Only a dresser,
toonot even in the chorus. But stars
were never turned out by Nature. She had many
things to learn, and would have to be coached up carefully
before she could be brought out. He had done
it for others, though, and he could do it for her;
and if
Glory’s eyes were shining and
her heart was beating like a drum.
“Then you think that eventuallyif
I work hardafter years perhaps ”
“You can’t do it on your
own, my dear, so leave yourself in my hands entirely,
and don’t whisper a word about it yet.”
“Ah!” It was like a dream
coming true; she could scarcely believe in it.
The stage manager became still more suave and flattering
and familiar. If she “caught on,”
there was no knowing what he might not get for herten
pounds a weekfifteen, twenty, twenty-five,
even fifty perhaps.
Glory’s palpitation was
becoming painful, and at the bottom of her heart there
was a certain fear of this sudden tide of fortune,
as if Providence had somehow made a mistake and would
as suddenly find it out. To appease her conscience
she began to think of home and how happy she might
make everybody there if God was really going to be
so good to her. They should want for nothing;
they should never know a poor day again.
Meantime the stage manager was painting
another picture. A girl didn’t go a-begging
if he once took her up. There was S .
She was only an “auricomous” damsel, serving
in a tobacconist’s shop in the Haymarket when
he first found her, and now where was she?
“Of course, I’ve no interest
of my own to serve, my dearnone whatever.
And there’ll be lots of people to tempt you away
from me when your name is made.”
Glory uttered some vehement protest,
and then was lost in her dreams again.
“Well, well, we’ll see,”
said the stage manager. He was looking at her
with glittering eyes.
“Do you know, my dear, you are
a very fine-looking young woman?”
Glory’s head was down, her face
was flushed, and she was turning her mother’s
pearl ring around her finger. He thought she was
overwhelmed by his praises, and coming closer, he
said:
“Dare say you’ve got a
good stage figure too, eh? Pooh! Only business,
you know! But you mustn’t be shy with me,
my dear. And besides, if I am to do all this
for you, you must do something for me sometimes.”
She hardly heard him. Her eyes
were still glistening with the far-off look of one
who gazes on a beautiful vision.
“You are so good,” she
said. “I don’t know what to say, or
how to thank you.”
“This way,” he whispered,
and leaning over to her he lifted her face and kissed
her.
Then her poor dream of glory and grandeur
and happiness was dispelled in a moment, and she awoke
with a sense of outrage and shame. The man’s
praises were flattery; his predictions were a pretence;
he had not really meant it at all, and she had been
so simple as to believe everything.
“Oh!” she said, with the
feeble, childish cry of one who has received a pistol
wound in battle. And then she rose and turned
to go. But the stage manager, who was laughing
noisily out of his hot red face, stepped between her
and the door.
“My dear child, you can’t meana
trifle like that !”
“Open the door, please,” she said in her
husky voice.
“But surely you don’t
intendIn this profession we think nothing,
you know ”
“Open the door, sir!”
“Reallyupon my word ”
When she came to herself again she
was out in the dark back street, and the snow was
hard and dirty under foot, and the wind was high and
cold, and she was running along and crying like a
disappointed child.
The bitterest part of it all was the
crushing certainty that she had no talents and no
chances of success, and that the man had only painted
up his fancy picture as a means of deceiving her.
Oh, the misery of being a woman! Oh. the cruelty
of this great, glorious, devilish London, where a
girl, if she was poor and alone, could live only by
her looks!
With God knows what lingering remnant
of expectation, but feeling broken and beaten after
her brave fight for life, and with the weak woman
uppermost at last, she had turned toward the hospital.
It was nearly half-past eleven when she got there,
and Big Ben was chiming the half hour as she ascended
the steps. Bracing herself up, she looked in at
the porter’s door with a face that was doing
its best to smile.
“Any letters to-night, porter?”
“Not to-night, miss.”
“No? Wellnone to get, none
to answer, you know. Happy New Year to you!”
But there was a sob in her laughter,
and the man said: “I’d be sorry to
miss your face, nurse, but if you’ll leave your
address I’ll send your letters on and save you
the journey so late at night.”
“Oh, no-no, there’ll be
no more letters now, porter, andI’ll
not come again. Here!”
“No, no, miss.”
“Yes, yes, you must.”
She forced a shilling into the porter’s
hand in spite of his protests, and then fled from
the look in his face which seemed to her to say that
he would like to return her sixpence.
John Storm was lost to her. It
was foolishness to go on expecting to hear from him.
Had he not told her that the rule under which the brothers
lived in community forbade them to write and receive
letters except by special permission? But she
had expected that something would happensome
accident, some miracle, she hardly knew what.
That dream was over now; she was alone; it was no
use deceiving herself any longer.
She went home by the back streets,
for people were peering into her face, and she thought
perhaps she had been crying. Late as it was, being
New Year’s Eve, there were groups about every
corner, and in some of the flagged courts and alleys
little girls were dancing to the music of the Italian
organ man or turning catherine-wheels. As she
was going down Long Acre a creachy voice saluted her.
“Evening, miss! Going home early, ain’t
ye?”
It was a miserable-looking woman in
clothes that might have been stolen from a scarecrow.
“Market full to-night, my dear?
Look as if the dodgers had been at ye. Live?
I live off of the lane. But lor’ bless ye,
I’ve lived in a-many places! Seen the day
I lived in Soho Square. I was on the ’alls
then. Got a bit quisby on my top notes, you know,
and took the scarlet feversoldier, I mean,
my dear. But what’s the use of frettin’?
“I likes to be jolly, and I
allwiz is. Doing now? Selling flowers outside
the theatrespolice is nasty if you’ve
got nothink. Ain’t I going home? Soon
as I get a drain of white satin. Wish you luck,
my dear!”
As she came up to the shop in the
Turnstile she could hear that it was noisy with the
voices of men and girls, so she turned back through
Lincoln’s-Inn Fields and passed down to Fleet
Street. It was approaching twelve o’clock
by this time, and streams of people were flowing in
the direction of St. Paul’s Cathedral.
Glory turned eastward also and allowed herself to
be carried along with the current which babbled and
talked like a river in the night.
Immediately in front of her there
was a line of girls walking arm-in-arm across the
width of the pavement. They were factory girls
in big hats with ostrich feathers, and as they skipped
along with their free step they sang snatches of Salvation
hymns and music-hall songs. All at once they
gave a shrill peal of laughter, and one of them cried,
“Tell me what it is and I’ll give it a
nyme.” At the next moment a strange figure
was forging past their line, going westward with long
strides. It was a man in the habit of a monk,
with long black cassock and broad-brimmed hat.
Glory caught a glimpse of his face as he passed her.
It was a hungry, eager face, with big, melancholy
eyes, and it seemed to her that she must have seen
it before somewhere. The wind was very cold, and
the great cross on the dome of the cathedral stood
out like a beacon against flying clouds.
St. Paul’s churchyard was thronged
with noisy, happy people, and down to the last minute
before the hour they shouted and joked and laughed.
Then there was a hush, the great crowds seemed to
hold their breath as if they had been a single living
creature, and every face was turned upward to the
clock. The clock struck, the bells of the cathedral
began to ring, the people cheered and saluted each
other and shook hands on every side, and then the
dense mass broke up.
Glory could have cried for joy of
it allit was so simple, so human, so childlike.
But she listened to the laughter and salutations of
the people about her and felt more lonely than the
Bedouin in the desert; she remembered the bubbling
hopes that had carried her through the day, and her
heart fell low; she thought of the letter which she
had posted home on her way to the theatre, and two
great tears came rolling from her eyes.
The face of the monk tormented her,
and suddenly she bethought herself whose face it must
have been. It must have been the face of Polly
Love’s brother. He belonged to the Bishopsgate
Fathers, and had once been a patient in the hospital,
and perhaps he was going there now on some errand
or urgent messageto the doctors or to
“It was foolish not to leave
my address when the porter asked me,” she thought.
She would go back and do so. There could be no
harm in that; and if anything had really happened,
if John
“Happy New Year to you, my dear!”
Somebody in the drifting crowd was
standing before her and blocking the way. It
was Agatha Jones in a mock seal-skin coat and big black
hat surmounted by black feathers, and with Charlie
Wilkes (with his diminutive cap pushed back from his
oily fringe and pimpled forehead) leaning heavily
on her arm.
“Well, I never! Who’d
have thought of meeting you in St. Paul’s churchyawd!”
Glory tried to laugh and to return
the salutation over the noises of the people and the
clangour of the bells. And then Aggie put her
face close, as women do who are accustomed to talking
in the streets, and said: “Thought we’d
seen the lahst of you, my dear, when you went off that
night sudden. Selling programmes somewhere else
now?”
“Something of that sort,” said Glory.
“I’m not. I’ve
been left the old red church this fortnight and more.
Charlie’s got me on the clubs. But my word!”
turning to Charlie, “it’s her as oughter
be there, my dear!”
“She cheeks me out,” said
Charlie, “as you’ll knock the stuffing
out of Betty Bellman ’erself if you once myke
a stawt.”
And Aggie said: “I might
get you to do a turn almost any Sunday, if you like,
my dear. There’s always somebody as down’t
come, and they’re glad of an extra turn to tyke
the number if she’s only clever enough to get
a few ’ands. Going ’ome, dear?”
“Yes,” said Glory.
“Where d’ye live?” said Aggie, and
Glory told her.
“I’ll call for you Sunday
night at eight, and if you down’t tyke your
chawnce when you get it, you’re a foolisher woman
than I thought you were, that’s stright!
By-bye!”