At eight o’clock that night
John Storm was walking through the streets of Soho.
The bell of a jam factory had just been rung, and a
stream of young girls in big hats with gorgeous flowers
and sweeping feathers were pouring out of an archway
and going arm-in-arm down the pavement. Men standing
in groups at street ends shouted to them as they passed,
and they shouted back in shrill voices and laughed
with wild joy. In an alley round one corner an
organ man was playing “Ta-ra-ra-boom-de-ay,”
and some of the girls began to dance and sing around
him. Coming to the main artery of traffic, they
were almost run down by a splendid equipage which
was cutting across two thoroughfares into a square,
and they screamed with mock terror as the fat coachman
in tippet and cockade bellowed to them to get out
of the way.
The square was a centre of gaiety.
Theatres and music halls lined two of its sides, and
the gas on their façades and the beacons on their roofs
were beginning to burn brightly in the fading daylight.
With skips and leaps the girls passed over to the
doors of these palaces, and peered with greedy eyes
through lines of policemen and doorkeepers in livery
at gentlemen, in shields of shirt-front and ladies
in light cloaks and long white gloves stepping out
of gorgeous carriages into gorgeous halls.
John Storm was looking on at this
masquerade when suddenly he became aware that the
flare of coarse lights on the front of the building
before him formed the letters of a word. The
word was “GLORIA.” Seeing it again
as he had seen it in the morning, but now identified
and explained, he grew hot and cold by turns, and
his brain, which refused to think, felt like a sail
that is flapping idly on the edge of the wind.
There was a garden in the middle of
the square, and he walked round and round it.
He gazed vacantly at a statue in the middle of the
garden, and then walked round the rails again.
The darkness was gathering fast, the gas was beginning
to blaze, and he was like a creature in the coil of
a horrible fascination. That word, that name
over the music hall, fizzing and crackling in its
hundred lights, seemed to hold him as by an eye of
fire. And remembering what had happened since
he left the monasterythe sandwich men,
the boards on the omnibuses, the hoardings on the wallsit
seemed like a fiery finger which had led him to that
spot. Only one thing was clearthat
a supernatural power had brought him there, and that
it was intended he should come. Fearfully, shamefully,
miserably, rebuking himself for his doubts, yet conquered
and compelled by them, he crossed the street and entered
the music hall.
He was in the pit and it was crowded;
not a seat vacant anywhere, and many persons standing
packed in the crush-room at the back. His first
sensation was of being stared at. First the man
at the pay-box and then the check-taker had looked
at him, and now he was being looked at by the people
about him. They were both men and girls.
Some of the men wore light frock-coats and talked
in the slang of the race-course, some of the girls
wore noticeable hats and showy flowers in their bosoms
and were laughing in loud voices. They made a
way for him of themselves, and he passed through to
a wooden barrier that ran round the last of the pit
seats.
The music hall was large, and to John
Storm’s eyes, straight from the poverty of his
cell, it seemed garish in the red and gold of its Eastern
decorations. Men in the pit seats were smoking
pipes and cigarettes, and waiters with trays were
hurrying up and down the aisles serving ale and porter,
which they set down on ledges like the book-rests in
church. In the stalls in front, which were not
so full, gentlemen in evening dress were smoking cigars,
and there was an arc of the tier above, in which people
in fashionable costumes were talking audibly.
Higher yet, and unseen from that position, there was
a larger audience still, whose voices rumbled like
a distant sea. A cloud of smoke filled the atmosphere,
and from time to time there was the sound of popping
corks and breaking glasses and rolling bottles.
The curtain was down, but the orchestra
was beginning to play. Two men in livery came
from the sides of the curtain and fixed up large figures
in picture frames that were attached to the wings
of the proscenium. Then the curtain rose and
the entertainment was resumed. It was in sections,
and after each performance the curtain was dropped
and the waiters went round with their trays again.
John Storm had seen it all before
in the days when, under his father’s guidance,
he had seen everythingthe juggler, the
acrobat, the step-dancer, the comic singer, the tableaus,
and the living picture. He felt tired and ashamed,
yet, he could not bring himself to go away. As
the evening advanced he thought: “How foolish!
What madness it was to think of such a thing!”
He was easier after that, and began to listen to the
talk of the people about him. It was free, but
not offensive. In the frequent intervals some
of the men played with the girls, pushing and nudging
and joking with them, and the girls laughed and answered
back. Occasionally one of them would turn her
head aside and look into John’s face with a
saucy smile. “God forbid that I should grudge
them their pleasure!” he thought. “It’s
all they have, poor creatures!”
But the audience grew noisier as the
evening went on. They called to the singers,
made inarticulate squeals, and then laughed at their
own humour. A lady sang a comic song. It
described her attempt to climb to the top of an omnibus
on a windy day. John turned to look at the faces
behind him, and every face was red and hot, and grinning
and grimacing. He was still half buried in the
monastery he had left that morning, and he thought:
“Such are the nightly pleasures of our people.
To-night, to-morrow night, the night after! O
my country, my country!”
He was awakened from these thoughts
by an outburst of applause. The curtain was down
and nothing was going on except the putting up of a
new figure in the frames. The figure was 8.
Some one behind him said, “That’s her
number!” “The new artiste?” said
another voice. “Gloria,” said the
first.
John Storm’s head began to swim.
He looked backhe was in a solid block
of people. “After all, what reasons have
I?” he thought, and he determined to stand his
ground.
More applause. Another leader
of the orchestra had appeared. Baton in hand,
he was bowing from his place before the footlights.
It was Koenig, the organist, and John Storm shuddered
in the darkest corner of his soul.
The stalls had filled up unawares
to him, and a party was now coming into a private
box which had hitherto been empty. The late-comers
were Drake and Lord Robert Ure, and a lady with short
hair brushed back from her forehead.
John Storm felt the place going round
him, yet he steadied and braced himself. “But
this is the natural atmosphere of such people,”
he thought. He tried to find satisfaction in
the thought that Glory was not with them. Perhaps
they had exaggerated their intimacy with her.
The band began to play. It was
music for the entrance of a new performer. The
audience became quiet; there was a keen, eager, expectant
air; and then the curtain went up. John Storm
felt dizzy. If he could have escaped he would
have turned and fled. He gripped with both hands
the rail in front of him.
Then a woman came gliding on to the
stage. She was a tall girl in a dark dress and
long black gloves, with red hair, and a head like a
rose. It was Glory! A cloud came over John
Storm’s eyes, and for a few moments he saw no
more.
There was some applause from the pit
and the regions overhead. The people in the stalls
were waving their handkerchiefs, and the lady in the
box was kissing her hand. Glory was smiling,
quite at her ease, apparently not at all nervous,
only a little shy and with her hands interlaced in
front of her. Then there was silence again and
she began to sing.
It is the moment when prayers go up
from the heart not used to pray. Strange contradiction!
John Storm found himself praying that Glory might
do well, that she might succeed and eclipse everything!
But he had turned his eyes away, and the sound of
her voice was even more afflicting than the sight
of her face. It was nearly a year since he had
heard it last, and now he was hearing it under these
conditions, in a place like this! He must have
been making noises by his breathing. “Hush!
hush!” said the people about him, and somebody
tapped him on the shoulder.
After a moment he regained control
of himself, and he lifted his head and listened.
Glory’s voice, which had been quavering at first,
gathered strength. She was singing Mylecharaine,
and the wild, plaintive harmony of the old Manx ballad
was floating in the air like the sound of the sea.
After her first lines a murmur of approval went round,
the people sat up and leaned forward, and then there
was silence againdead silenceand
then loud applause.
But it was only with the second verse
that the humour of her song began, and John Storm
waited for it with a trembling heart. He had heard
her sing it a hundred times in the old days, and she
was singing it now as she had sung it before.
There were the same tricks of voice, the same tricks
of gesture, the same expressions, the same grimaces.
Everything was the same, and yet everything was changed.
He knew it. He was sure it must be so. So
artless and innocent then, now so subtle and significant!
Where was the difference? The difference was in
the place, in the people. John Storm could have
found it in his heart to turn on the audience and
insult them. Foul-minded creatures, laughing,
screaming, squealing, punctuating their own base interpretations
and making evil of what was harmless! How he
hated the grinning faces round about him!
When the song was finished Glory swept
a gay courtesy, lifted her skirts, and tripped off
the stage. Then there were shouting, whistling,
stamping, and deafening applause. The whole house
was unanimous for an encore, and she came back smiling
and bowing with a certain look of elation and pride.
John Storm was becoming terrified by his own anger.
“Be quiet there!” said some one behind
him. “Who’s the josser?” said
somebody else, and then he heard Glory’s voice
again.
It was another Manx ditty. A
crew of young fishermen are going ashore on Saturday
night after their week on the sea after the herring.
They go up to the inn; their sweethearts meet them
there; they drink and sing. At length they are
so overcome by liquor and love that they have to be
put to bed in their big sea boots. Then the girls
kiss them and leave them. The singer imitated
the kissing, and the delighted audience repeated the
sound. Sounds of kissing came from all parts of
the hall, mingled with loud acclamations of laughter.
The singer smiled and kissed back. Somehow she
conveyed the sense of a confidential feeling as if
she were doing it for each separate person in the
audience, and each person had an impulse to respond.
It was irresistible, it was maddening, it swept over
the whole house.
John Storm felt sick in his very soul.
Glory knew well what she was doing. She knew
what these people wanted. His Glory! Glory
of the old, innocent happy days! O God!
O God! If he could only get out! But that
was impossible. Behind him the dense mass was
denser than ever, and he was tightly wedged in by
a wall of faceshot, eager, with open mouths,
teeth showing, and glittering and dancing eyes.
He tried not to listen to what the people about were
saying, yet he could not help but hear.
“Tasty, ain’t she?”
“Cerulean, eh?” “Bit ’ot, certinly!”
“Well, if I was a Johnny, and had got the oof,
she’d have a brougham and a sealskin to-morrow.”
“To-night, you mean,” and then there were
significant squeaks and trills of laughter.
They called her back again, and yet
again, and she returned with unaffected cheerfulness
and a certain look of triumph. At one moment she
was doing the gaiety of youth, and at the next the
crabbedness of age; now the undeveloped femininity
of the young girl, then the volubility of the old
woman. But John Storm was trying to hear none
of it. With his head in his breast and his eyes
down he was struggling to think of the monastery,
and to imagine that he was still buried in his cell.
It was only this morning that he left it, yet it seemed
to be a hundred years ago. Last night the Brotherhood,
the singing of Evensong, Compline, the pure air, silence,
solitude, and the atmosphere of prayer; and to-night
the crowds, the clouds of smoke, the odour of drink,
the meaning laughter, and Glory as the centre of it
all!
For a moment everything was blotted
out, and then there was loud hand-clapping and cries
of “Bravo!” He lifted his head. Glory
had finished and was bowing herself off. The
lady in the private box flung her a bouquet of damask
roses. She picked it up and kissed it, and bowed
to the box, and then the acclamations of applause
were renewed.
The crush behind relaxed a little,
and he began to elbow his way out. People were
rising or stirring everywhere, and the house was emptying
fast. As the audience surged down the corridors
to the doors they talked and laughed and made inarticulate
sounds. “A tricky bit o’ muslin, eh?”
“Yus, she’s thick.” “She’s
my dart, anyhow.” Then the whistling of
a tune. It was the chorus of Mylecharaine.
John Storm felt the cool air of the street on his
hot face at last. The policemen were keeping a
way for the people coming from the stalls, the doorkeepers
were whistling or shouting for cabs, and their cries
were being caught up by the match boys, who were running
in and out like dogs among the carriage wheels and
the horses’ feet. “En-sim!”
“Four-wheel-er!”
In a narrow court at the back, dimly
lit and not much frequented, there was a small open
door under a lamp suspended from a high blank wall.
This was the stage-door of the music hall, and a group
of young men, looking like hairdressers’ assistants,
blocked the pavement at either side of it. “Wonder
what she’s like off?” “Like a laidy,
you bet.” “Yus, but none o’
yer bloomin’ hamatoors.” “Gawd,
here’s the josser again!”
John Storm pushed his way through
to where a commissionaire sat behind a glass partition
in a little room walled with pigeon holes.
“Can I see Miss Quayle?” he asked.
The porter looked blank.
“Gloria, then,” said John Storm, with
an effort.
The porter looked at him suspiciously.
Had he an appointment? No; but could he send
in his name? The porter looked doubtful.
Would she come out soon? The porter did not know.
Would she come this way? The porter could not
tell. Could he have her address?
“If ye want to write to the
laidy, write here,” said the porter, with a
motion of his hands to the pigeon-holes.
John Storm felt humiliated and ashamed.
The hairdressers’ assistants were grinning at
him. He went out, feeling that Glory was farther
than ever from him now, and if he met her they might
not speak. But he could not drag himself away.
In the darkness under a lamp at the other side of the
street he stood and waited. Shoddy broughams drove
up, with drivers in shabby livery, bringing “turns”
in wonderful hats and overcoats, over impossible wigs,
whiskers, and nosesniggers, acrobats, clowns,
and comic singers, who stepped out, shook the straw
of their carriage carpets off their legs, and passed
in at the stage entrance.
At length the commissionaire appeared
at the door and whistled, and a hansom cab rattled
up to the end of the court. Then a lady muffled
in a cape, with the hood drawn over her head, and
carrying a bouquet of roses, came out leaning on the
arm of a gentleman. She stood a moment by his
side and spoke to him and laughed. John heard
her laughter. At the next moment she had stepped
into the hansom, the door had fallen to, the driver
had turned, the gentleman had raised his hat, the light
had fallen on the lady’s face, and she was leaning
forward and smiling. John saw her smiles.
At the next moment the hansom had
passed into the illuminated thoroughfares and the
group of people had dispersed. John Storm was
alone under the lamp in the little dark street, and
somewhere in the dark alleys behind him the organ
man was still grinding out “Ta-ra-ra-boom-de-ay.”
“Weel, what luck on your first
night out?” said Mrs. Callender at breakfast
in the morning. “Found any of the poor lost
things yet?”
“One,” said John, with
a rueful face. “Lost enough, though she
doesn’t know it yet, God help her!”
“They never do at first, laddie.
Write to her friends, if she has any.”
“Her friends?”
“Nothing like home influences, ye ken.”
“I willI must! It’s all
I can do now.”