While the Deemster was stepping up
to the dais, and the people in the court were rising
to receive him, a poor bedraggled wayfarer was toiling
through the country towards the town. It was a
woman. She must have walked far, her step was
so slow and so heavy. From time to time she rested,
not sitting, but standing by the gates of the fields
as she came to them, and holding by the topmost bar.
When she emerged from the dark lanes
into the lamplit streets her pace quickened for a
moment; then it slackened, and then it quickened again.
She walked close to the houses, as if trying to escape
observation. Where there was a short cut through
an ill-lighted thoroughfare, she took it. Any
one following her would have seen that she was familiar
with every corner of the town.
It would be hard to imagine a woman
of more miserable appearance. Not that her clothes
were so mean, though they were poor and worn, but that
an air of humiliation sat upon her, such as a dog has
when it is lost and the children are chasing it.
Her dress was that of an old woman the
long Manx cloak of blue homespun, fastened by a great
hook close under the chin, and having a hood which
is drawn over the head. But in spite of this
old-fashioned garment, and the uncertainty of her step,
she gave the impression of a young woman. Where
the white frill of the old countrywoman’s cap
should have shown itself under the flange of the hood,
there was a veil, which seemed to be suspended from
a hat.
The oddity and incongruity of her
attire attracted attention. Women came out of
their houses and crossed to the doors of neighbours
to look after her. Even the boys playing at the
corners looked up as she went by.
She was not greatly observed for all
that. An unusual interest agitated the town.
A wave of commotion flowed down the streets. The
traffic went in one direction. That direction
was the Court-house.
The Court-house square was thronged
on three of its sides by people who were gathered
both on the pavement and on the green inside the railings.
Its fourth side was the dark lane at the back going
by the door to the prisoners’ yard and the Deemster’s
entrance. The windows were lit up and partly
open. Some of the people had edged to the walls
as if to listen, and a few had clambered to the sills
as if to see. Around the wide doorway there was
a close crowd that seemed to cling to it like a burr.
The woman had reached the first angle
of the square when the upper half of the Court-house
door broke into light over the heads of the crowd.
A man had come out. He surged through the crowd
and “came down to the gate with a tail of people
trailing after him and asking questions.
“Wonderful!” he was saying.
“The Dempster’s spaking. Aw, a Daniel
come to judgment, sir. Pity for Tom, though the
man’ll get time. I’m sorry for an
ould friend but the Lord’s will be
done! Let not the ties of affection be a snare
to our feet it’ll be five years if
it’s a day, and (D.V.) he’ll never live
to see the end of it.”
It was Caesar. He crossed the
street to the “Mitre.” The woman trembled
and turned towards the lane at the back. She walked
quicker than ever now. But, stumbling over the
irregular cobbles of the paved way, she stopped suddenly
at the sound of a voice. By this time she was
at the door to the prisoners’ yard, and it was
standing open. The door of the corridor leading
by the Deemster’s chamber to the Court-house
was also ajar, as if it had been opened to relieve
the heat of the crowded room within.
“Be just and fear not,”
said the voice. “Remember, whatever unconscious
misrepresentations have been made this day, whatever
deliberate false-swearing (and God and the consciences
of the guilty ones know well there have been both),
truth is mighty, and in the end it will prevail.”
The poor bedraggled wayfarer stood
in the darkness and trembled. Her hands clutched
at the breast of the cloak, her head dropped into her
breast, and a half-smothered moan escaped from her.
She knew the voice; it had once been very sweet and
dear to her; she had heard it at her ear in tones
of love. It was the voice of the Deemster.
He was speaking from the judge’s seat; the people
were hanging on his lips.
And he was standing in the shadow
of the dark lane under the prisoners’ wall.
The woman was Kate. It was true
that she had been to London; it was false that she
had lived a life of shame there. In six months
she had descended to the depths of poverty and privations.
One day she had encountered Ross. He was fresh
from the Isle of Man, and he told her of the child’s
illness. The same night she turned her face towards
home. It was three weeks since she had returned
to the island, and she was then low in health, in
heart, and in pocket. The snow was falling.
It was a bitter night. Growing dizzy with the
drifting whiteness and numb with the piercing cold,
she had crept up to a lonely house and asked shelter
until the storm should cease.
The house was the home of three old
people, two old brothers and an old sister, who had
always lived together. In this household Kate
had spent three weeks of sickness, and the Manx cloak
on her back was a parting gift which the old woman
had hung over her thinly-clad shoulders.
Back in the roads Kate had time to
tell herself how foolish was her journey. She
was like a sailor who has alarming news of home in
some foreign port and hears nothing afterwards until
he comes to harbour. A month had passed.
So many things might have happened. The child
might be better; it might be dead and buried.
Nevertheless she pushed on.
When she left London she had been
full of bitterness towards Philip. It was his
fault that she had ever been parted from her baby.
She would go back. If she brought shame upon
him, let him bear it. On coming near to home
this feeling of vengeance died. Nothing was left
but a great longing to be with her little one and
a sense of her own degradation. Every face she
recognised seemed to remind her of the change that
had been wrought in herself since she had looked on
it last. She dare not ask; she dare not speak;
she dare not reveal herself.
While she stood in the shadow of the
prisoners’ yard listening to Philip’s
voice, and held by it as by a spell, there was a low
hiss and then a sort of white silence, as when a rocket
breaks in the air. The Deemster had finished;
the people in the court were breathing audibly and
moving in their seats.
A minute later she was standing by
her old home, hers no longer, and haunted in her mind
by many bitter memories. It was dark and cheerless.
A candle had been burning in the parlour, but it was
now spluttering in the fat at the socket. As
she looked into the room, it blinked and went out.
During the last mile of her journey
she had made up her mind what she would do. She
would creep up to the house and listen for the sound
of a child’s voice. If she heard it, and
the voice was that of a child that was well, she would
be content, she would go away. And if she did
not hear it, if the child was gone, if there was no
longer any child there, if it was in heaven, she would
go away just the same only God knew how,
God knew where.
The road was quiet. With trembling
fingers she raised the latch of the gate, and stepped
two paces into the garden. There was no sound
from within. She took two steps more and listened
intently. Nothing was audible. Her heart
fell yet lower. She told herself that when a child
lived in a house the very air breathed of its presence,
and its little voice was everywhere. Then she
remembered that it was late, that it was night, that
even if the child were well it would now be bathed
and in bed. “How foolish!” she thought,
and she took a few steps more.
She had meant to reach the hall window
and look in, butt before she could do so, something
came scudding along the path in her direction.
It was the dog, and he was barking furiously.
All at once he stopped and began to caper about her.
Then he broke into barking again, this time with a
note of recognition and delight, shot into the house
and came back, still barking, and making a circle
of joyful salutation in the darkness round her.
Quaking with fear of instant discovery,
she crept under the old tree and waited. Nobody
came from the house. “There’s no one
at home,” she told herself, and at that thought
the certainty that the child was gone fell on her
as an oppression of distress.
Nevertheless she stepped up to the
porch and listened again. There was no sound
within except the ticking of the clock. Making
a call on her courage, she pushed the door open with
the tips of her fingers. It made a rustle as
the bottom brushed over the rushes. At that she
uttered a faint cry and crept back trembling.
But all was silence again in an instant. The
fire gave out a strong red glow which spread over the
walls and the ceiling. Her mind took in the impression
that the place was almost empty, but she had no time
for such observations. With slow and stiff motions
she slid into the house.
Then she heard a sleepy whimper and
it thrilled her. In an instant she had seen the
thing she looked for the cradle, with its
hood towards the door and its foot to the fire.
At the next moment she was on her knees beside it,
doubled over it and crying softly to the baby, looking
so different, smelling of milk and of sleep, “My
darling! my darling!”
That was the moment when Pete was
coming up the path. The dog was frisking and
barking about him. “She’s dead,”
he was saying. “The man lied. She’s
dead.” With that word on his lips he heaved
heavily into the house. As he did so he became
aware that some one was there already. Before
his eye had carried the news to his brain, his ear
had told him. He heard a voice which he knew
well, though it seemed to be a memory of no waking
moment, but to come out of the darkness and the hours
of sleep. It was a soft and mellow voice, saying,
“My beautiful darling! My beautiful, rosy
darling I My darling! My darling!”
He saw a woman kneeling by the cradle,
with both arms buried in it as though they encircled
the sleeping child. Her hood was thrown back,
and her head was bare. The firelight fell on
her face, and he knew it. He passed his hand
across his eyes as if trying to wipe out the apparition,
but it remained. He tried to speak, but his tongue
was stiff. He stood motionless and stared.
He could not remove his eyes.
Kate heard the door thrown open, and
she lifted her head in terror. Pete was before
her, with a violent expression on his face. The
expression changed, and he looked at her as if she
had been a spirit. Then, in a voice of awe, he
said, “Who art thou?”
“Don’t you know me?” she answered
timidly.
It seemed as if he did not hear.
“Then it’s true,” he muttered to
himself; “the man did not lie.”
She felt her knees trembling under
her. “I haven’t come to stay,”
she faltered. “They told me the child was
ill, and I couldn’t help coming.”
Still he did not speak to her.
As he looked, his face grew awful. The dew of
fear broke out on her forehead.
“Don’t you know me, Pete?” she said
in a helpless way.
Still he stood looking down at her, fixedly, almost
threateningly.
“I am Katherine,” she said, with a downcast
look.
“Katherine is dead,” he answered vacantly.
“Oh! oh!”
“She is in her grave,” he said again.
“Oh, that she were in her grave
indeed!” said Kate, and she covered her face
with her hands.
“She is dead and buried, and gone from this
house for ever,” said Pete.
He did not intend to cast her off;
he was only muttering vague words in the first spasm
of his pain; but she mistook them for commands to her
to go.
There was a moment’s silence,
and then she uncovered her face and said, “I
understand yes, I will go away. I oughtn’t
to have come back at all I know that.
But I will go now. I won’t trouble you any
more. I will never come again.”
She kissed the child passionately.
It rubbed its little face with the back of its hand,
but it did not awake. She pulled the hood on to
her head, and drew the veil over her face. Then
she lifted herself feebly to her feet, stood a moment
looking about her, made a faint pathetic cry and slid
out at the door.
When she was gone, Pete, without uttering
a word or a sound, stumbled into a chair before the
fire, put one hand on the cradle, and fell to rocking
it. After some time he looked over his shoulder,
like a man who was coming out of unconsciousness,
and said, “Eh?”
The soul has room for only one great
emotion at once, and he had begun to say to himself,
“She’s alive! She’s here!”
The air of the house seemed to be soft with her presence.
Hush!
He got on to his feet. “Kate!”
he called softly, very softly, as if she were near
and had only just crossed the threshold.
“Kate!” he called again more loudly.
Then he went out at the porch and
floundered along the path, crying again and again,
in a voice of boundless emotion, “Kate!
Kate! Kate!”
But Kate did not hear him. He
was tugging at the gate to open it, when something
seemed to give way inside his head, and a hoarse groan
came from his throat.
“She’s better dead,”
he thought, and then reeled back to the house like
a drunken man.
The fire looked black, as if it had
gone out. He sat down in the darkness, and put
his hand into his teeth to keep himself from crying
out.