MAN AND GOD - CHAPTER XX.
It had been a night of pain to Philip.
All the world seemed to be conspiring to hold him
back from what he had to do. “Thou shalt
not” was the legend that appeared to be written
everywhere. Four persons had learnt his secret,
and all four seemed to call upon him to hide it.
First, the Clerk of the Rolls, who had heard the divorce
proceedings within closed doors; next Pete, who might
have clamoured the scandal on all hands, and plucked
him down from his place, but had chosen to be silent
and to slip away unseen; then Caesar, whose awful self-deception
was an assurance of his secrecy; and, finally.
Auntie Nan, whose provision for Kate’s material
welfare had been intended to prevent the necessity
for revelation. All these had seemed to say to
him, whether from affection or from fear, “Hold
your peace. Say nothing. The past is the
past; it is dead; it does not exist. Go on with
your career. It is only beginning. What
right have you to break it up? The island looks
to you, waits for you. Step forward and be strong.”
Thank God, it was too late to be moved
by that temptation. Too late to be bought by
that bribe. Already he had taken the irrevocable
course, he had made the irrevocable step. He
could not now go back.
But the awful penalty of the island’s
undeceiving! The pain of that moment when everybody
would learn that he had deceived the whole world!
He was a sham a whited sepulchre. Every
step he had gone up in his quick ascent had been over
the body of some one who had loved him too well.
First Kate, who had been the victim of the Deemstership,
and now Pete, who was paying the price that made him
Governor.
He could see the darkened looks of
the proud; he could hear the execration of the disappointed;
he could feel the tears of the true-hearted at the
downfall of a life that had looked so fair. In
the frenzy of that last hour of trial, it seemed as
if he was contending, not with man and the world,
but with the devil, who was using both to make this
bitter irony of his position who was bribing
him with worldly glory that he might damn his soul
forever.
And therein lay a temptation that
sat closer at his side the temptation to
turn his face and fly away. It was midnight.
The moon was shining on the boundless plain of the
sea. He was in the slack water of the soul, when
the ebb is spent, before the tide has begun to flow.
Oh, to leave everything behind the shame
and the glory together!
It was the moment when the girls on
Peel Quay were pulling the rope for the men on the
boats who were ready to vote for Christian.
The pains of sleep were yet greater.
He thought he was in Castletown, skulking under the
walls of the castle. With a look up towards Parliament
House and down to the harbour, he fumbled his private
key into the lock of the side entrance to the council
chamber. The old caretaker heard him creep-down
the long corridor, and she came clattering out with
a candle, shaded behind her hand. “Something
I’ve forgotten,” he said. “Pardon,
your Honour,” and then a deep courtesy.
He opened noiselessly the little door
leading from the council chamber to the keep, but
in the dark shadow of the steps the turnkey challenged
him. “Who’s there? Stop!” “Hush!” “The
Deemster! Beg your Honour’s pardon.” “Show
me the female wards.” “This
way your Honour.” “Her cell.”
“Here, your Honour.” “The
key; your lantern. Now go back to the guard-room.”
He was with Kate. “My love, my love!” “My
darling!” “Come, let us fly
away from the island. I cannot face it. I
thought I could, but I cannot. I’ve got
the child too. Come!” And then Kate “I
would go anywhere with you, Philip, anywhere, anywhere.
I only want your love. But is this worthy of
a man like you? Leave me. We have fallen
too low to drop into a pit like that. Away with
you! Go!” And he slunk out of the cell,
before the wrathful love that would save him from himself.
He, the Deemster, the Governor, had slunk out like
a dog.
It was only a dream. When he
awoke, the birds were singing and the day was blue
over the sea. The temptation was past; it was
under his feet. He could hesitate no longer;
his cup was brimming over; he would drink it to the
dregs.
Jem-y-Lord came with his mouth full
of news. The town was decorated with bunting.
There was to be a general holiday. A grand stand
had been erected on the green in front of the Court-house.
The people were not going to be deterred by the Deemster’s
refusals. He who shrank from honours was the
more worthy of being honoured. They intended to
present their new Governor with an address.
“Let them let them,” said Philip.
Jem looked up inquiringly. His master’s
face had a strange expression.
“Shall I drive you to-day, your Excellency?”
“Yes, my lad. It may be for the last time,
Jemmy.”
What was amiss with the Governor?
Had the excitement proved too much for him?