The forces that really move most men
are the small, concrete, individual experiences of
life. The death of a child is of more account
to its parents than the fall of a republic. Napoleon
did not forget Josephine in his Italian campaigns,
and Grant, inflexible commander of a half-million
men, never failed, even in the Wilderness, to remember
the plain little woman whose fireside fortunes were
so closely interwoven with his epoch-making wars.
As Ben Fordyce lost interest in the
question of labor and capital and the political struggles
of the state (because they were of less account than
his own combat with the powers of darkness), so Bertha
had little thought of the abstract, the sociologic,
in her uneasiness the strife was individual,
the problems personal and at last, weary
of question, of doubt, she yielded once more to the
protecting power which lay in Haney’s gold and
permitted herself to enjoy its use, its command of
men. There was something like intoxication in
this sense of supremacy, this freedom from ceaseless
calculation, and to rise above the doubt in which
she had been plunged was like suddenly acquiring wings.
She accepted any chance to penetrate
the city’s life, determined to secure all that
she could of its light and luxury, and in return intrusted
Lucius with plans for luncheons and dinners, which
he carried out with lavish hand.
Mart seconded all her resolutions
with hearty voice. “There’s nothing
too good for the Haneys!” he repeatedly chuckled.
In the midst of other gayeties she
had the McArdles over to mid-day dinner one Saturday,
and afterwards took them all, a noisy gang, to the
theatre Patrick Haney as much of a boy as
his grandsons, McArdle alone being unhappy as well
as uneasy.
She went about the shops, buying with
reckless hand treasures for the house in the Springs,
and this gave her husband more satisfaction than any
other extravagance, for each article seemed a gage
of the permanency of his home. In support of
her mood he urged her to even larger expenditures.
“Buy, buy like a queen,” he often commanded,
as she mused upon some choice. “Take the
best!”
There was instruction as well as a
guilty delight in all this conjuring with a magic
check-book, and Bertha grew in grace and dignity in
her rôle as hostess. Her circle of acquaintances
widened, but the Mosses, her first friends in the
city, were not displaced in her affections. To
them she continued to play the generous fairy in as
many pleasant ways as they would permit. The
theatre continued to be her delight, as well as her
school of life, and a box-party followed nearly every
dinner. She was like a child in the catholicity
of her appetite, for she devoured Shakespearian bread,
Ibsen roasts, and comic opera cream-puffs with almost
equal gusto and mentally thrived upon the
mixture. To the outsider she seemed one of the
most fortunate women in the world.
And yet every day made her less tolerant
of the crippled old man at her side. She did
not pout or sulk or answer him shortly, but she often
forgot him failed to answer him not
out of petulance or disgust, but because her mind
was busy with other people. Gradually, without
realizing it, she got into the habit of leaving him
to amuse himself, as he best could, for she knew he
did not specially care for the pursuits which gave
her the keenest joy. In consequence of this unintentional
neglect he very naturally fell more and more into the
hands of the bar-room spongers who loitered about
the hotel corridors. He dreaded loneliness, and
it was to keep his companions about him that he became
a spendthrift in liquors. Sternly and deliberately
temperate during his long career as a gambler, he
fell at last into drinking to excess, and on one unhappy
afternoon returned to Bertha quite plainly drunk.
She was both startled and disgusted
by this sign of weakness, and he was not so blinded
by the mist of his potations but that he perceived
the shrinking reluctance of her touch as she aided
Lucius in lifting him into the bed. His inert,
lumpish form was at the moment hideously repulsive
to her, and physical contact with him a dreaded thing.
What was left if he lost that self-control which had
made him admirable? She had always been able
to qualify his other shortcomings by saying, “Well,
anyhow, he don’t drink.” She could
boast of this no longer.
It was a most miserable night for
her. At dinner she was forced to lie about him
(for the first time), and she did it so badly that
Joe Moss divined her trouble and came generously to
her aid with a long and amusing story about Whistler.
The play to which she took her guests
did not help her to laughter, for it set forth with
diabolic skill the life of a woman who loathed her
husband, dreaded maternity, and hated herself a
baffling, marvellously intricate and searching play meat
for well people, not for those mentally ill at ease
or morally unstable. Of a truth, Bertha saw but
half of it and comprehended less, for she could not
forget the leaden hands and flushed face of the man
she called husband and whom she had left
in his bed to sleep away his hours of intoxication.
She pitied him now but in a new fashion.
Her compassion was mixed with contempt, and that showed
more clearly than any other feeling could the depth
to which Marshall Haney had sunk.
When she came home at midnight she
listened at his door, but did not enter, for Lucius skilled
in all such matters reported the Captain
to be “all right.”
She went to her own room in a more
darkly tragic mood than she had ever known before.
Her punishment, her time for trouble, had begun.
“I reckon I’m due to pay for my fun,”
she said to herself, “but not in the way I’ve
been figuring on.” Haney seemed at the moment
a complete physical ruin, and the change which his
helplessness wrought in her was most radical.
His deeply penitent mood next morning
hurt and repelled her almost as much as his maudlin
jocularity of the night before. She would have
preferred a brazen levity to this humble confession.
“’Twas me boast,” he sadly asserted,
“that no man ever caught me with me eyes full
of sand and me tongue twisted and now look
at me! ’Tis what comes of having nothing
to do but trade lies with a lot of flat-bottomed loafers
in a gaudy bar-room. But don’t worry, darlin’,
right here old Mart pulls up. You’ll not
see anny more of this. Forget it, dear-heart won’t
you now?”
She promised, of course, but the chasm
between them was widened, and a fear of his again
yielding to temptation cut short her stay in the city,
for Lucius warningly explained: “The Captain
is settling into a corner of the bar-room with a gang
of sponging blackguards around him, and every day
makes it less easy for him to break away. I’d
advise going home,” he ended, quietly.
“The Springs is a safer place for him now.”
The hyenas were beginning to prowl
around the disabled lion, and this the faithful servant
knew even better than the wife.
“All right, home we go,”
she replied, and the thought of “home”
was both sweet and perilous.
Haney met her decision with pathetic,
instant joy. “I’m ready, I was only
waitin’,” he said. “After all,
your own shack is better than a pearl palace in anny
town, and it’s gettin’ hot besides.”
Bertha parted from the Mosses with
keen sorrow. Joe had come to be like an elder
brother to her a brother and a teacher,
and, next to Ben Fordyce, was more often in her thought
than any other human being. She had lost part
of her awe of him, but her affection had deepened as
she came to understand the essential manliness and
simplicity of his character. He redeemed the
artist-world from the shame men like Humiston had
put upon it.
As she entered for the last time the
studio in which she had spent so many happy hours
and from whose atmosphere of work and high endeavor
she had derived so much mental and moral development
she was sad, and this sadness lent a beauty to her
face that it had never before attained. She looked
older, too; and contrasting her with the girl who had
first looked in at his door, Moss could scarcely believe
that less than half a year had affected this change
in her. He was too keen an observer not to know
that part of this was due to a refining taste in hats
and gowns, but beneath all these superficial traits
she had grown swiftly in the expression of security
and power.
He greeted her as usual with a frank
nod and (his hands being free from clay) advanced
to shake hands. “Don’t tell me you’ve
come to say good-bye.”
“That’s what,” she
curtly said. “It’s up to me to take
the Captain home. He’s getting into bad
habits lying around this hotel.”
His face clouded. “I’ve
been afraid of that,” he answered, gently.
“Yes, you’d better go home. It’s
harder for a man to have a good, easy time than it
is for a woman. But sit down, Julia will be in
soon; you mustn’t go without seeing her.”
After some further talk on trains
and other common-places she became abruptly personal.
“I’ve been having a whole lot of fun buying
things and planting dollars, but I’m beginning
to see an end to that kind of business. After
you’ve got your house filled up with furniture
and jimcracks, what you going to do then?”
“Burn ’em.”
“And begin all over again?
You can’t buy out the town. It’s a
real circus for a while, but I can see there’s
a limit to it. Once you find out you can just
go down here to one of these jewelry-stores and order
anything you want you don’t want anything.
Here I am with a lot of money that ain’t mine,
having a gay whirl spending it, but I can see my finish
right now. To go on in this line would take all
the fun out of life. What am I to do?”
Moss took a seat and looked at her
thoughtfully. “I don’t know.
I used to think if I had money I’d start out
and ‘do good to people,’ but I’m
not at all sure that charity isn’t all a damned
impertinence. A couple of years ago I would have
said go in for ‘Neighborhood Settlements,’
free libraries, ‘Noonday Rests,’ ‘Open-air
Funds,’ and all the rest of it, but now I ask,
‘Why?’ We’ve had our wave of altruism,
and I’m inclined to think a wave of selfishness
would do us all good but you’re too
young to be bothered with these problems. Go home
and be happy while you can. Enjoy your gold while
it glitters. Work is my only fun real,
enduring fun and I’m not a bit sure
that will last. Whatever you do, be yourself.
Don’t try to be what you think I or some one
else would like to have you. I like you because
you are so straight-forwardly yourself; I shall be
heart-broken if you take on the disease of the age
and begin to prate of your duty.”
She listened to him with only partial
comprehension of his meaning, but she answered:
“I was brought up to think duty was the whole
works.”
“Yes, and your teacher meant
duty to God, duty to others. Well, there’s
duty to one’s self. The war of money and
duty is the biggest mix of our day. It’s
simpler to be poor; then all you’ve got to worry
about is bread and shoes and shingles.”
“That’s just it.
Sometimes I wish I was back in the Golden Eagle, where
I ” she ended in mid-sentence.
He laughed. “You sound
like a middle-aged financier who mourns (tattooed
with dollar-marks) for the days when he used to husk
corn at seventy cents a day.” She saw the
humor of this, but was aware that without a knowledge
of Ben Fordyce Joe could not understand her problem,
therefore she abandoned her search for light and leading.
“Well, anyhow, right here I quit what you fellows
call civilization. I hate to lose you and Julia
and the rest of the folks, but it’s me to the
high hills. You’ll never know how much
you’ve helped me.”
“I hope you’ll never know
how thoroughly we’ve done you. An
evil-minded person would say we’d worked you
for dinners and drives most shameful. However,
if you have enjoyed our company as thoroughly as we’ve
delighted in your champagne and birds, we’ll
cry quits. All my theories of art and life I
advance gratis. I ought to do something
handsome for you you’ve listened so
divinely.”
Underneath his banter Moss was sincerely
moved. It was hard to say good-bye to this curious,
earnest, seeking mind, this unspoiled child in whose
face the world was being reflected as in a magical
mirror. He loved her with frank affection a
pure passion that was more intimate than fraternal
love and more exalted, in a sense, than the selfish,
devouring passion of the suitor. It would have
been difficult for him to say what his relationship
to her at the moment was. It was more than friendship,
more than brotherly care, and yet it was definably
less than that of the lover.
Julia came in and was quite as outspoken
in her regret, and both refused to say good-bye at
the moment. “We’ll see you at the
station,” they said, and Bertha went away, feeling
the pain of parting less keen by reason of this promise.
Afterwards, as the hour for departure
came near, she hoped they would not come. It
was less difficult to say “I’ll see you
again” than to utter the curt “good-bye”
which means so much in Anglo-Saxon life.
They came, however, together with
several others of her friends, but in the bustle and
confusion of the depot not much of sentiment could
be uttered, and, though she felt that she was going
for a long stay, she was prodigal of promises to return
soon.
Patrick Haney was there, but refused
to go with them. “Sure I’m at the
jumpin’-off place now, and to immigrate furder
would be to put meself in the hands of the murtherin’
redskins.” His talk was the touch of comedy
which the situation needed. “Av ye
don’t mind I’ll stay wid Fan,” he
said, a little more seriously, to Haney, who replied:
“All right, ’tis as Fan
says,” and so they entered the train for the
upward climb.
Haney himself had only joy of the
return. He sat at one of the windows of the library
car and studied the prairie swells with a faint, musing
smile, till the darkness fell, and was up early next
morning, eager and curious, to see how the increasing
altitude would affect him. Only towards the end
of the second day after eating his dinner did he begin
to feel oppressed.
“I smell the altitude,”
he confessed “me breath is shortenin’
a bit, but ’tis good to see the peaks again.”
In this long ride the girl-wife dwelt
dangerously on the bright face of Ben Fordyce.
It was the thought of seeing him again that came at
last to steal away her regret at parting from her
Eastern friends. The splendor of the Eastern
world faded at last, and she, too, soared gladly towards
the mountains. Every doubt was swallowed up in
a pleasure which was at once pure and beyond her control.
Ben would be at the station, she was
certain, for Lucius had wired to him the time of their
arrival, and he had instantly replied. “I’ll
be there, and very glad to see you” these
words, few and simple, were addressed to Marshall
Haney, but they thrilled her almost as if Ben had
spoken them to her. Was he as glad to have her
return as she was to meet him again?
“A fine lad,” remarked
Haney, as he pocketed the envelope. “I wonder
does he marry soon? He’d better decide now.
I reckon Alice is not long for this climate poor
girl!”
His remark, so simple in itself, pierced
to the centre of Bertha’s momentary self-deception.
“I have no right to think of him. He belongs
to Alice Heath!” But the feeling that she herself
belonged to Marshall Haney was gone. That she
owed him service was true, but since the night of
his drunkenness she had definitely and finally abandoned
all thought of being his wife, soul to soul, in the
rite that sanctifies law. True, he had kept his
word, he had not offended again, but the mischief was
done. To return to the plane on which they had
stood when she gave her promise was impossible.
The day and the hour were such as
make the plain lover content with his world.
The earth, a mighty robe of closely woven velvet, mottled
softly in variant greens, swept away to the west,
under a soaring convexity of saffron sky, towards
a cloudy altar whereon small wisps of vapor were burning
down to golden embers, while beneath lay the dark-blue
Rampart range. It was a world for horsemen, for
free rovers, and for swift and tireless desert-kine.
The course of winds, it lay, a play-ground for tempests
that formed along the great divide and swept down over
the antlike homes of men, acknowledging no barrier,
exultant of their strength of wing and the weight
of their horizon-touching armament.
Bertha loved this land, but only because
it was an approach to the hills. She would have
shuddered at its desolate, limitless sweep, treeless,
shelterless, had not the dim forms of the distant peaks
she loved so well rose just beyond. She lost
her doubt as they approached, welcoming them as the
gates of home. She forgot all save the swelling
tide of longing in her heart.
As the train drew slowly in she caught
sight of Ben’s intent face among the throng,
and was moved to the point of beating upon the window.
He seemed care-worn and older in this glimpse, but
at sight of her his sunny smile came back radiantly
to his lips and glinted like sunshine from his eyes.
In tremulous voice she called: “There
he is!”
Self-revelation lay in this ecstatic
cry and in the glad haste which kept her on her feet;
but Haney, unsuspicious, content, found no cause for
jealousy in her innocent and unrestrained delight at
getting home.
Progress down the aisle seemed intolerably
slow, for the passengers ahead of her, stubbornly
sluggish, barred her way, but at last she stood looking
into her lover’s face, her eager hand pressed
between his palms.
“Welcome home!” he called,
and drew her to him as if moved almost beyond his
control with desire to clasp her to his bosom.
In that instant they forgot all their doubts and scruples overpowered
by the sense of each other’s nearness.
She was the first to recover her self-command,
and, pushing him away with a quick, decisive gesture,
turned to aid Mart, whom Lucius was bringing slowly
down the step.
Her heart was still laboring painfully
as she faced Congdon, but she contrived to return
his greeting as he remarked with quizzical glance,
“I hope you’ll not find our little town
dull, Mrs. Haney.”
Dull! She wanted to scream out
her joy. She felt like racing to the big black
team to throw her arms about their necks. Dull!
There was no other spot in all the world so exalting
as this small town and its over-peering peaks.
“Where is Mrs. Congdon?” she succeeded
in asking at last.
“She has visitors and couldn’t
come,” he answered. “But where’s
that ’mobile we’ve heard so much about?”
“Coming by fast freight.”
“Freight! From all I’ve
heard of your doings in Chicago I expected it to come
as excess baggage.”
It was cool, delicious green dusk not
dark with a small sickle of moon in the
west, and as they drove up the broad avenue towards
home the town, the universe, was strangely sweet and
satisfying. It seemed as though she had been
gone an age so much had come to her so
thick was the crowd of new experiences standing between
her going and her return so swiftly had
her mind expanded in these months of vivid city life.
“I’ll never go away again,” she said
to Ben. “This country suits me.”
“I’m glad to hear you
say that,” he answered, softly. In the most
natural way he had put Congdon with Haney in the rear
seat and had taken the place beside Bertha, and this
nearness filled her with pleasure and an unwonted
confusion. How big he was! and how splendid his
clear, youthful profile seemed as it gleamed silver-white
in the light of the big street-lamps. Never had
his magnetic young body acted upon her so powerfully,
so dangerously. His firm arm touching her own
was at once a delight and a dread. She was all
woman at last, awake, palpitant with love’s
full-flooding tide bewildered, dizzy with
rapture. Speech was difficult and her thought
had neither sequence nor design.
Fordyce was under restraint also,
and the burden of the talk fell upon Congdon, who
proceeded in his amusingly hit-or-miss way to detail
the important or humorous happenings, of the town,
and so they rolled along up the wide avenue to the
big stone steps before the looming, lamp-lit palace
which they called home.
Ben sprang out first, glad of another
opportunity to take Bertha’s hand, a clasp that
put the throbbing pain back in her bosom filling
her with a kind of fear of him as well as of herself and
without waiting for the Captain she ran up the walk
towards the wide doorway where Miss Franklin stood
in smiling welcome.
Her greeting over, the young wife
danced about the hall, crying: “Oh, isn’t
it big and fine! And aren’t you glad it’s
our own!” She appeared overborne by a returning
sense of security and ownership, and ran from room
to room with all the ecstasy and abandon of a child but
she stopped suddenly in the middle of her own chamber
as if a remorseless hand were clutching at her heart.
“But it is not mine! I must
give it all up!”
Thrusting this intruding thought away,
she hurried back to the library, where the men were
seated at ease, sipping some iced liquor in gross
content.
Haney was beaming. “It
makes me over new to sniff this air again,” he
was saying. “’Tis a bad plan to let go
your hold on mountain air. Me lungs have contracted
a trifle, but they’ll expand again. I’ll
be riding a horse in a month.”
Ben was sympathetic, but had eyes
only for Bertha, whose improvement (in mind as in
bearing) astonished and delighted him. Her trip,
coming just at the period when her observation was
keenest and her memory most tenacious, had subtly,
swiftly ripened her. Wrought upon by a thousand
pictures, moved by strange words and faces, unconsciously
changing to the color of each new conception, deriving
sweetness and charm from every chance-heard strain
of music and poetry, she had opened like a rose.
The middle-aged are prone to go about
the world carrying their habits, their prejudices,
and their ailments with them to return as they went
forth; but youth like Bertha’s adventures out
into the world eager to be built upon, ready to be
transformed from child to adult, as it would seem,
in a day.
“She has achieved new distinction!”
Ben exulted as he watched her moving about the room,
so supple, so powerful, and so graceful, but, though
he was careful not to utter one word of praise, he
could not keep the glow of admiration from his eyes.
An hour later as he said good-night
and went away with Congdon, his heart burned with
secret, rebellious fire. “Was it not hateful
that this glorious girl should be doomed to live out
the sweetest, most alluring of her years with a gross
and crippled old man?” To leave her under the
same roof with Mart Haney seemed like exposing her
to profanation and despair.
They were hardly out of the gate before
Congdon broke forth in open praise of her. “When
Mart dies, what a witching morsel for some man!”
Fordyce did not answer on the instant,
and when he did his voice was constrained. “You
don’t think he’s in immediate danger of
it do you?”
“Quite the contrary. He
looks to be on the upgrade; but it’s a safe bet
she outlives him, and then think of her with a hundred
thousand dollars a year to spend! Talk about
honey-pots! and flies!” After a moment’s
silence he added, musingly: “Funny how one’s
ideas change. A year ago I thought she was deeply
indebted to him; now I feel that with all his money
he can’t possibly repay her for what she’s
giving up on his account. And yet his chink has
made her what she is. Money is a weird power
when applied to a woman. Tiled bath-rooms, silk
stockings and bonnets work wonders with the sex.
She’s improved mightily on this trip.”
After leaving Congdon, Ben went to
his apartment and telephoned Alice to say that the
Haneys had arrived and that he had left them under
their own roof in good repair.
“How is the Captain’s
health?” she asked, with the morbid interest
of the invalid gossip.
“He feels the altitude a little,
but that is probably only temporary. They both
seem very glad to get home.”
“He’s made a mistake.
He can’t live here I am perfectly
sure of it. How is she?”
“Very well and beautifully
dressed, which is the main thing,” he added,
with a slight return of his humor. “They
asked after you very particularly.”
Unable to sleep, he went out to walk
the night, blind envy in his brain and a hot hunger
in his heart, moved as he had never been moved before
at thought of Haney’s nearness to that glowing
girl. Their union was monstrous, incredible.
He no longer attempted to deceive
himself. He loved this young wife whose expanding
personality had enthralled him from their first meeting.
It was not alone that she was possessed of bodily charm she
called to him through the mysterious ways which lead
the one man to the predestined woman. The affection
he had borne towards Alice Heath was but the violet
ray of friendship compared to the lambent, leaping,
red flame of his passion for Bertha Haney. She
represented to him the mysterious potency and romance
of the West typifying its amazing resiliency,
its limitless capability of adaptation. In a way
that seemed roundabout and strange, but which was,
after all, very simple and very direct, she had lifted
her family as well as herself out of poverty back
into the comfort which was their right. Odd, masculine,
unexpected of phrase, she had never been awkward or
cheap. Congdon was right, she was capable of
high things. She made mistakes, of course, but
they were not those which a shallow personality would
make they sprang rather from the overflow
of a vigorous and abounding imagination.
“All she needs is contact with
people of the right sort. She is capable of the
highest culture,” he concluded.
That she was more vital to him than
any other woman in the world he now knew, but he acknowledged
nothing base in this confession. He was not seeking
ways to possess her of his love on the contrary,
he was resolved to conduct himself so nobly that she
would again trust and respect him. “My
love is honorable,” he said. “I will
go forward as in the beginning why should
I not? enjoying her companionship as any
honest man may do.”
The question of his relation to Alice
was not so easily settled. She had come to irritate
him now. Her changeable, swift-witted, moody,
hysterical invalidism had begun to wear upon him intolerably.
Everything she did was wrong. It was brutal even
to admit this, but he could no longer conceal it either
from himself or from her. It was deeply, sadly
painful to recall the promise, the complete confidence
and happiness with which they had both started towards
the West. How sure of her recovery they had been,
how gay and confident of purpose! Now she not
only refused to listen to his demand for an early marriage,
but hampered and annoyed him in a hundred ways.
As he walked the silent night he was forced to acknowledge
that she had been right in delaying their union.
And yet how dependent upon him she was. Her life
was so tragically inwound with his that to think of
shaking away her hand seemed the act of a sordid egoist.
“And even were I free, nothing is solved.”
The situation took on the insoluble
and the tragic. In the fashion of well-bred,
soundly nurtured American youth he had thought of such
complications only as subjects for novelists.
“There must be concealment, but not duplicity,
in my attitude,” he decided. He longed
for the constant light of Bertha’s face, the
frequent touch of her hand. Her laughter was
so endlessly charming, her step so firm, so light,
so graceful. The grace of her bosom the
sweeping line of her side
He stopped there. In that direction
lay danger. “She trusts me, and I will
repay her trust. She has chosen me to be her adviser,
putting her wealth in my hands! Well, why
not? We will see whether an honorable man cannot
carry forward even so difficult a relationship as this.
I will visit her every day, I will enjoy her hospitality
as freely as Congdon, and I will fulfil my promise
to Alice if she asks it of me.”
But deep under the sombre resolution
lay an unuttered belief in his future, in his happiness for
this is the prerogative of youth. The dim mountains,
the sinking crescent moon, and the silence of the plain
all seemed somehow to prophesy both happiness and
peace.